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Nobody fucking sees me.

Do I even EXIST?

WHY IS IT SO FUCKING HARD TO BE SEEN?!

I’m pouring my heart out and all that shit.

But nobody fucking sees me. No matter what I say or do, nobody fucking cares.

“NoBoDy AsKeD”

“NoBoDy CaReS”

“wTf ArE yOu TaLkInG aBoUt?”

“StFu No OnE aSkEd”

“DoNt CaRe DiDnT aSk.”

Never mind then. I guess I am being seen.

#angst #angsty #edgy #vent #i exist #lol please help me

I wanna reach that point in my life where I just genuinely can’t give two fucks?

#how tf do i tag this #angst #angsty #edgy #I’m in a rut oOps

How do you stay happy all the time anyway?

Please let me sleep. Knock me down dead if you have to. Whatever it takes to get me to shut my eyes for awhile. Let me go to that magical land where I can’t feel pain and nothing bad can happen to me. Scary things happen there. But I still can’t get hurt in there. I would like to stay there forever.

I’m getting tired. Everyday feels normal but at some point in the day I just feel a big wave of sadness. I’m tired of living like this. I’m tired of people never taking my side or defending me when I need it most. I’m tired of remembering all the times my dad got drunk. I’m tired of remembering all the times he yelled at me and told me I needed to be a better daughter. I’m tired of remembering my parents yelling at each other. I’m tired of remembering all the times I got so close to running away. I’m tired of remembering the day my parents got divorced. I’m tired of knowing that my parents will never get back together. Im tired of knowing it’s my fault they even got divorced. I’m tired of knowing that I wasn’t even supposed to be born. I’m tired of knowing that nothing will ever be normal again. I’m tired of knowing I lost it all. I’m just tired.

#angst #angsty #edgy #emotional #anxious #poem?#maybe poem #poetry?