mina. she/her. currently writing exclusively for hazel callahan from bottoms (2023). usually snail-like updates because i've unfortunately got a day job and this is all just for funsies. minors and women haters and bigots do not interact.
masterlist: (please take note that i do write hazel as a lesbian, thus all fics are automatically wlw)
'cause my love is mine, all mine.
bruises. (spiderwoman au)
now that we don't talk, i. ii, iii.
finished requests
requests are currently open! request rules under the cut. FREE PALESTINE.
i will not write explicit smut - nothing against it, i do love erotica myself, but i just think i'm pretty shit at it lol. heavy petting is not completely off the table, though
i will not write anything that has to do with suicide, sexual assault, or self-harm. any requests sent in with one of these will result in me blocking the sender
not as much of a rule as it is a suggestion, if you enjoyed one of my fics then please do leave a like or reply! <3
but this one is gonna be considered a rule: if one of my fics isn't your cup of tea, then keep your thoughts to yourself and move along <3
if i see that you've sent in the exact same request to another writer, i'll probably prioritize another request over it. i don't think it's bad to want to see different interpretations from people, but i do think variation is important
i'll add more to this eventually but basically just don't be an asshole lol
quick recap: we raised over $800 to help families fleeing gaza.
although the border remains blocked by israeli tanks during the invasion of rafah, fundraisers remain open in the hopes that they will be able to escape soon.
with the money that we raised together, i was able to donate $210 each to four different families, in the hopes that it will help them reach their goal and escape the ongoing genocide.
i've included links to their profiles below, as well as a bit about them. screenshots of the donations have been posted to my ko-fi.
Zena Abu Alouf
zena has been posting tiktoks of the ongoing attacks in rafah. she was displaced from the north of gaza, and is one of the key voices reporting on the genocide from the ground.
Dr. Baraa Abu Shawish
baraa and her husband are both doctors who have been administering aid since the attacks began. her daughter mila is only six months old. she has not been able to receive any of her vaccines due to the crisis in gaza.
Rawan Daoud
rawan is 20 years old. she is an excellent student who dreamed of pursuing higher education, but her university was destroyed by israeli bombs, and her family was displaced.Â
Ghada Al-Jaafrawi
ghada is a mother of two young children, 7 year old juri and 4 year old muhammad. her home was destroyed, and she has been sharing her story on tiktok. she is trying to raise money in the hopes that her family will be able to cross the border into egypt.
there are so many more families still trying to raise funds, and the situation in rafah continues to escalate.
if you want to get involved, operation olive branch has an extensive list of resources, active fundraisers, and other aid projects. any additional money that comes in through my ko-fi will also be matched and donated.
lifeâs gotten real busy again but i just wanted to let you guys know that i have seen the midwest princess-inspired requests and i love them!! and iâm definitely outlining a handful to write when iâve got the time and energy <3
AHHHH HATEFUCKING WITH HAZEL BASED OFF âMy Kink is Karmaâ and this isnât Chappell but also Dom!Hazel with âPAINâ by King Princess I would MELTTTT please and thank you!!!!
hi!! i so appreciate the enthusiasm in this message however i do not write smut đ iâve never been satisfied with any of my attempts at it lmao. putting this in the tags in case one of the other lovely hazel writers wanna pick it up though! thanks for sending this in regardless đ
You can donate to the Palestine Children's Relief Fund for as little as $1.00.
There is a fee you can choose to apply to cover processing.
Which if you choose to do leaves you with a total of ~$1.35 (USD) depending on the type of card you have.
PCRF has a score of 97% on Charity Navigator.
Adults and children alike are currently dying in Palestine due to starvation. (World Health Organization Link)
The Gaza Strip is one of two places in the entire world that is categorized as Phase 5 (the highest phase) on the Integrated Food Security Phase Classification scale.
So even if you think it isn't enough, remember that donating even as little as $1.35 helps! It's $1.35 they wouldn't have had otherwise. So donate if you can. đľđ¸
Since the minimum is so low, this is a great place to put the last of a prepaid card, don't just give it back to the card company by tossing it with money still on it! Even a dollar can do good!
youâd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling.
authorâs note/s: 2k+ words. trigger warning for some internalized homophobia. butterflies with girls hit different, hit better, but why was embracing it so difficult?
You liked Hazel Callahan.
Her friends knew it, your friends knew it, everybody who saw the way you two acted around each other knew it. You assumed even Hazel knew, since sheâs stopped being shy about her own very likely similar feelings a while back.
But coming off from a break up with your longtime boyfriend and moving on to a girl right after just felt so strangely cliche, if that was even the right word for it. No, it definitely wasnât, but you couldnât be bothered to wrack your brain for a more appropriate one with the current situation at hand.
âIâm just saying, itâs fine. People know youâre into both teams â all teams now,â Isabel says. âMaybe just the one team? Anyway, thereâs no right waiting time for you to start dating a girl after dating a guy. Mine was like, less than two weeks honestly.â
You snort, glancing at your friend lounging on your bed. If anyone understood what it felt like, it would be Isabel. âWell, unlike you, I only just realized that itâs not just guys for me. You said you always knew.â
Isabel considers your words, her head tilting to the side in thought. âTrue, but my point still stands. Plus people are gonna be a lot less judgy now that itâs college and not high school, everyone is discovering things about themselves and getting into new things. I really donât think you have anything to worry about.â
If only assumptions could be confirmed right away. It was sweet of her to be so encouraging, and you did appreciate it, but your issue wasnât really with everyone else. It was with yourself and feeling more⌠comfortable with all these new feelings. People often said youâd feel freer once you came out but they never talked about the process of fully coming to terms with it after, like it was an everyday type of thing. It still felt like a new pair of shoes that needed breaking in.
âLook, itâs no rush. But⌠donât push Hazel out throughout all of this, okay? She likes you, and I know that youââ
âI know, I know.â You sigh. âSheâs pretty hard to ignore, as weâre both well aware.â
Isabel smiles at you knowingly. âShe just really likes being around you.â
It was funny how different things could feel inside while everything else around you stayed the same. Your earliest class was still at 8:30 and your latest at 3:00 in the afternoon, your roommate still ate an apple with her cereal every breakfast, your grandma still texted every night. And Hazel still waited by the bench outside your last classâ building, that giddy smile lighting up her face once she spotted you.
Your stomach flipped. You werenât sure if it was nerves or excitement.
âHey,â she says, jogging up to you with a grin. âI got us some scones from Popeyes. I think they made them a little bigger than usual today for some reason, so if youâre hungry, youâre in luck.â
âOh, thanks, Haze. Thatâs really nice of you.âÂ
Hazel shrugs, shifting the Popeyes bag to her left hand. âWell, anything for you, you know.â
God, how was she making it harder and easier at the same time?
âWould you mind if we ate it in the dorms? Yours or mine, Iâm fine with whatever. I just really wanna relax after such a long day.â
âYeah, yeah, of course! Um, could I uhâŚâ She fiddles with the hem of her shirt for a second, and you think she might ask if she could carry your books or your bag for you in that silent conversation she appeared to be having with herself. Cute.Â
What came out next wasnât either suggestion but it made your stomach flip again, in greater intensity now, and you were positive your heart actually skipped a beat too. If that was even biologically possible.
âCould I hold your hand on the way there? If thatâs okay with you?â
Oh you could kiss herâ you really could, and you would eventually. But time and place and all that.
You reach for her free hand in reply, smiling shyly as you lace your fingers together. The way Hazelâs eyes soften at the edges and her face literally brightens almost makes you forget about coming across anybody who might give the two of you curious glances. Hazelâs propensity for rambling about the happenings of her own day definitely helped, too.
Hard emphasis on almost, though. You knew you probably wouldnât be bumping into your ex so soon since he did study elsewhere, but the fact that his brother went to your university totally slipped your mind.
You freeze when you hear that familiar voice call your name, the momentary panic overriding the guilt you felt at swiftly taking your hand away from Hazelâs when you turned in its direction. Breaking up with someone didnât necessarily mean you were breaking up with all the other people that connected the two of you, and considering how you were being treated like always, his brother didnât seem to be bitter or angry on his behalf. And thank god, cause you did not wanna deal with that with Hazel or anyone else around.
The conversationâs over quickly and soon youâre back on your way to the dormitories, but you keep your hand swaying alongside hers this time. It felt weird to just go back to holding her hand and you were also trying really hard not to overthink the dampened expression on Hazelâs face.
She only really speaks again once the two of you are in the comforts of her dorm room. âIâm just gonna be blunt here and say it⌠you know that I like you, right? Like in that kind of way?â
You did know, but the question takes you by surprise that all you can do is nod at her slowly.
âAnd I⌠Iâm not trying to rush anything, I know you just broke up with your boyfriend about a month agoâ and Iâm totally not assuming your feelings are the same as mine, god I⌠sorryââ
âHazel,â you say, walking towards her with an understanding look on your face. âI know what youâre trying to say. Thank you. And you donât have to worry about anything in the feelings department, I promise.â
You take both of her hands in your own, holding on to them tightly. She gives them a squeeze in response. âOne step at a time though, yeah?â
Hazel smiles at you, and maybe it was because of how intently she was staring at you, but there mightâve been a shine of tears in her eyes. âYeah. Iâll be there every step of the way.â
The rest of the afternoon to early evening goes by just fine, but thereâs this weird feeling in the air that you just canât shake.
âWhy are you doing the one thing I told you not to do?â
Your gaze shoots up from your laptop and then around the library, checking if anyone mightâve been looking. Isabel could cause a scene if she wanted to but thankfully, she was only whisper-shouting. Though if the conversation was going where you thought it was, it might not be whispers for too long.
After that day in her dorm room, you have been avoiding Hazel a bit. You did it little by little to avoid suspicion but you knew she was more perceptive and observant than she let on. It was just that damn encounter with your exâs brother that made you realize further how much things would change, and as much as you liked Hazelâ and you really, really did, there was an embarrassing part of you that wished things didnât have to change.
It was so much easier with boys, that was true. But it felt so much better with girls.
âLook, Bel, the two of us agreed that we werenât going to just jump into a relationship.â You tell her, although you know it wouldnât sway her. âIt just⌠it needs time.â
âAnd Hazelâs giving you that. Willingly. But sheâs trying to be there for you and youâre just pushing her away.â
âIsabel,â you start, but sheâs determined to have the final word.
âTake it from someone who knows: itâs a lot easier to accept that you like girls than it is to accept that you like them a lot more than you like guys.â She lets a moment pass, and then, âIf you still even like guys at all.â
Now that definitely struck a chord. Sheâs right and you know it, and she knows you know it.
âIâll talk to Hazel,â you say quietly. âI will. Today. I promise.â
The walk to Hazelâs dorm room has always made your insides tingle but this time, you knew you wouldnât be soothed by the easy smile on her face that would greet you once she opened the door. At least it was likely that you wouldnât with how youâve been treating her.
You knock twice. âHaze? Itâs me.â
You hear some shuffling behind the door and a breath taken exhaled before it opens, revealing the woman of the hour. Of every hour to you lately, in spite of everything.
âHey.â She offers you a tired, half-hearted smile. You hate that she wasnât beaming at the sight of you like usual. âGot your text. You sure youâre not too busy with something at the moment?â
You shake your head. âNo. I really do wanna talk to you, Hazel.â
Hazel stares at you for a moment before opening the door wider and stepping to the side so that you can go in. When the door closes with a click behind you, you know thereâs no running away this time.
You take a deep breath, wringing your hands together as you say, âIâm not gonna make any excuses. The way Iâve been shutting you out has been shitty and it has everything to do with me and all these new⌠feelings that I canât seem to deal with. Or I guess, that I havenât wanted to deal with.â You mutter the last part and steal a glance at her. Hazel is looking at you thoughtfully as she sits on the edge of her bed, her eyes silently urging you to continue.
âThis is all pretty new to me. Iâm not like you or Isabelâ youâre both so secure in your sexualities, just knowing them from the get-go. And Iâm not saying Iâm ashamed of mine because I really am sure that I like girls. That I like you. I justâŚâ
âYou donât want things to change?â
Hazel is looking at you so sympathetically that you want to cry. You almost do when she tugs you closer and on to the bed, right beside her spot on it.
You take another deep breath. âI can deal with change. I just wish it didnât feel so⌠difficult.â
âI meant what I said that day. That Iâd be there every step of the way.â She pulls you even closer and you let her, just wanting to get lost in the feeling of her and the intimacy of the moment. âBut you have to let me be there for you. I want this to work out.â
âI want that, too. I want everything with you.â
And maybe that was a little too much to say so soon, but it doesnât matter anymore when Hazel moves to kiss you on the forehead, then on your cheek, and finally on your lips. Itâs so gentle and loving that you almost do cry this time; trust Hazel Callahan to always know how to make you feel better.
You cup the side of her jaw and kiss her back, letting the moment last for another second before pulling away. âI am really sorry too. I was getting to that part.â
Hazel chuckles softly. âIâll forgive every tiny heartbreak this past week as long as youâll be my girlfriend after this.â
âJust like that?â You lean back a little, studying her face for any sign that she might be joking. She looked very amused and pleased with herself, but dead serious all the same.Â
âI want everything with you, too.â Hazel leans forward again to press a lingering kiss on your cheek. âSo⌠yes?â
You close the gap and smile into the kiss you give her, knowing sheâd understand that as the resounding yes she was hoping for.
iâll have to rewatch mare of easttown cause i only ever watched it once when it came out (and at 70% focus only lol) but would anyone be interested if i started writing for jess riley
i donât have any specifics but iâd love to see you do a jealous hazel :>
authorâs note/s: 873 words. this embarrassingly took me a while to finish but in my defense, iâve been in a real slump for writing. but this definitely got the momentum back a bit! enjoy hazel not exactly enjoying when someone thinks youâre pretty the same way she thinks youâre pretty.
In spite of the collective fear that the fight club might disband after the game, either by school orders or with all of you growing apart with more and more schoolmates wanting to be friends, it stayed intact. Surprisingly no new recruits, but that was probably why the bond of the club was stronger than ever. You were all there from day one and you all knew everyone still wanted to be there, even if getting punched in the jaw or kicked in the shin still hurt like a bitch.
It meant continuing to have Hazel as an everyday fixture in your life, though, and you werenât going to complain about that. Or about any of the new friendships youâve created, of course â especially Stella-Rebecca, whose realization and acceptance that sheâs actually a lesbian was a very entertaining sight to see.
âI feel no different, but I also feel like I should be doing something to be more out, you know?â She asks you one day as youâre washing your faces in the locker room after practice. âLike, maybe not go around wearing a t-shirt that says âlesbian,â or âi love girlsâ or something, but like⌠should I go shop for a cute flannel later?â
Thereâs a chorus of no, donât do that among the burst of laughter, and you hope the look youâre giving her looks more sympathetic than amused. âLesbians come in all kinds of outfits, Stella-Rebecca. Donât worry about it.â
âOr, you know, in no outfit at all, I wonât mind,â PJ quips with a shit-eating grin. Josie audibly groans and promptly drags her out of the locker room.
âA top that says âi love girlsâ would be pretty cute, though. Iâd wear one,â you tell her. Hazel comes into view at that same moment, smiling at you knowingly through the reflection in the mirror. Your heart flutters as you smile back. It was no secret that you and Hazel have been participating in a will-they-wonât-they dance for a while now. Everyone â or at least everyone in the fight club â knew about it.
Which was why you found Stella-Rebeccaâs next words so surprising.
âMaybe we can go look for one together. I think youâd look real cute in one, too.â She winks at you as she squeezes your shoulder, then says her goodbyes as she sashays away. Huh. You canât help but smile to yourself in amusement, though itâs immediately wiped off when you notice Hazel staring (rather, glaring) after Stella-Rebeccaâs retreating figure.
You turn away from the mirror, saying, âOh, come on, donât be like that.â
âYou know sheâs flirting with you, right?â Hazel grumbles. âWhile Iâm right here. Literally just right here, and then she still goes and does all that. She knows!â
âItâs not⌠she probably didnât even mean it like that. Stella-Rebeccaâs just very touchy and sweetââ
âI think Iâm sweet to my friends too but I donât go after people who are obviously accounted for.â
Okay, this was serious to her. Not that you had any intention of shrugging it off and letting Stella-Rebecca continue to flirt with you, if she would; you just didnât think Hazel would take it so personally. Sheâs known the girl longer than you have and has definitely seen her flirt with other people before to know the difference between her being playful and actually being into it.
Then again, until recently, Stella-Rebecca was only coming on to boys.
You walk towards her, fighting the growing smile on your face as you take her own in your hands. âYour pout is really cute but thereâs no need for it. I could go out with Stella-Rebecca after school every day of this week, even spend the whole weekend with her, and Iâd still be âaccounted for.ââ Your nose wrinkles a bit at the last part. Hazel could either say the most random things or be strangely articulate.
She sighs, head tilting to the right in your hold. âAm I a horrible person for not liking the idea of you spending so much time with each other? I know youâre friends, we all are, but⌠I donât knowâŚâ
âNo,â you breathe out, rubbing your right thumb across her slightly smushed cheek. âItâs a hypothetical situation, anyway. The most sheâll get of me is one day because weâve got a bunch of after school dates lined up, remember? Weâve got all those Lego plants to build.â
âThe new additions to my botanical collection,â Hazel says, her mood noticeably picking back up. You give her face a gentle squeeze before wrapping your arms around her shoulders instead. Her arms wrap around your waist not a second later. âYeah, the succulents came in yesterday. I think youâll really like them.â
You smile at her. âYou know I will.â
The feeling of her relaxing in your arms makes you relax too, although sheâs still got that look on her face. Well, a different one now; like she was battling between saying something or shoving it down.
âWhatââ
âYou and Stella-Rebecca can get matching âi like girlsâ shirts, but only if we get matching âgirlfriendsâ ones.â
Oh. Not in a bad way, but still⌠oh.
Thereâs a part of you thatâs thinking, already? but youâre a little too giddy about her clarifying what she wants â and it being exactly what you want too â to do anything but nod and beam at her. âWhatever you want, Hazel.â
iâve got like three WIPs i need to finish and post but go send me requests based on the prompts iâve reblogged in the past to boost my writing energy