“Sometimes I feel like throwing my hands up in the air”
--Florence + the Machine
“Oh, make me wanna holler/ And throw up both my hands”
--Marvine Gaye
I want the biggest party
I want every dj ever to make a playlist and take their turns behind the wheels of steel
I want sparkly makeup and glow sticks
Whistles and noisemakers
I want everything to be painted the color of Elizabeth Bishop’s fish
I want to have to yell over the music
I want to stop dancing but I don’t want to stop dancing
I want to be able to stand still and feel the floor bounce beneath me
I want a driving bassline to pave a way to safety
I want everything, again, painted rainbow, rainbow, rainbow
I want salsa music and merengue and samba
I want it to be so humid and sweaty and hot that my hair sticks to my face
To your face your face covered in glitter
I want to see your teeth glow in the black light
I want to be sprayed with water and I want to drink tropical drinks
I want breaks in the music where I can catch secrets screamed over music that is no longer there
Then I want the music to come in louder than before, leaving me guessing
I want to holler woo, throw up both my hands
I want happiness to be tactile, kinetic, joining us like scales on the fish
I want men kissing men and men kissing men and men kissing men
I want women kissing women and women kissing women
I want to kiss everyone—I want to be so drunk that I would want to kiss everyone
I want the biggest party and to see everybody dance now
In June
When it’s already hot in Florida
But it’s always hot in Florida
And sunrises the color of Elizabeth Bishop’s dreams
I want the sun to always rise
To always rise to come up and up
I want to know there will be a tomorrow
--DeMisty D. Bellinger, June 12, 2016

















