the main reason why im not posting fanfics rn is that i lwk lost interest in tlou and ellie, i still love the fandom and her, i just need a new hyperfixation
the difference between these two is that one of them is drop dead gorgeous and literally the definition of beauty while the other one looks like the equivalent of a burnt popeyes and a rat
i've come to a decision that i won't use any labels (in sexuality) from now on but that might change over time, you guys can interpret me as a lesbian, bisexual, pansexual or straight but please keep in mind that i am still not attracted to men, i just won't use labels anymore
"why do you hate sol?(tkatb)" because he's canonically a rapist...?? "well what did you expect from a yandere? there were warnings!"
ok this is a rant because some of you are genuinely pissing me off
so, im well known on tt for animating and editing and im in different fandoms and i so happen to be in the "tkatb" fandom and im very open about my hatred and mixed feelings about sol since he's obviously a bad character
but tell me why there's so many people who likes him?? look- idc nor do i give a fuck about what you like nor who you like but to the point of defending his actions?? that says alot about you as a person
i don't like sol, i have mixed feelings about him but i used to like him(keyword: used to)
so, why am i bringing this up? i recently made a post on my account, which i will not be stating for safety and privacy reasons, it's a small animation that i made with the trending song "toxic" by melanie martinez and no, i do not support her but this isn't about her rn
from the song alone, i guess some of you already know how it goes but for those who don't know the context of my animation is centered on sol, crowe and mc where sol killed crowe and mc attacked sol with the lyrics that goes "intoxicate me now with your loving now i think im ready now"
i was very proud about it since i worked on it for maybe half a week and it blew up reaching 1-2k likes(as of now)
and i was happy about it but my caption kinda attracted a ton of die hard sol fans, which i won't judge them for considering he also used to be my favourite
my caption was "crowe mentioned! and oh sol too ig..." and used the hashtag "#ihatehim" which i kinda anticipated since i got used to recieving hate ever since i started my account but there's something about THESE types of sol fans that i was certainly not ready for
first, they came in my comments and started commenting about me hating sol and said something like "what did you expect from a yandere"
to get things straight, people can still hate on a character even if there were warnings, the kid at the back isn't a romance novel, it's a thriller/horror novel and has dark themes that includes sa and stalking and it's reasonable for people to hate on sol because the creator(fantasia) has emphasized that despite the game's romantic elements, it is not a traditional love story, and sol is not designed to be a "perfect emo boyfriend"
he's not made to be a traditionally likeable character due to his complex and dark character, i get that some people like him due to his design or wtv but to the point of just ignoring his actions and/or defending it is just insane
and that didn't stopped there, later, they went to my dms and started harassing me and sent me death threats over a fictional character, stupid right?
so i explained as carefully as i can how it's reasonable to hate him since of his character but that bitch was not hearing it and just continued to make up pathetic excuse to justify sol
so i didnt replied back any further because it's obvious to how they talk and how immature they were in both my dms and comment, im guessing they were under 16
but it irks me how that person just blatantly straight up ignored my attempts to explain to them how it's ok to hate sol and not everyone has to like him(given of his character and actions) and how even when they didn't explicitly said it, they justified his actions
i used to like him, and i still do(kind of) i have mixed feelings about him but i do enjoy his character design, not just his actions
i get that you like a character but to the point of you willingly justifying their actions and/or ignoring it to the point where you'll start foaming in the mouth on site of someone who doesn't enjoy the same character as you is a bit too much for a fictional character, especially going to their dm's to harass them and send death threats
even if it's a fictional character, no real lesbian would have to do that; it's completely disgusting and only gives the impression of the people that says "i'm a lesbian, but.."
okay to get things marked down with you— yes im a lesbian, but that doesn't automatically make me attracted to him or that i want to be with a male, in my headcanons of jeff
you said "how do you even have the stomach to write something suggestive about a male while considering yourself a lesbian"
when in my headcanons of jeff i only stated that "he likes being tied up, but will refuse to admit it" (referencing to a art that i saw a few weeks back) and avoided using "he like being tied up by you/me/[character]" so people in the crp community can use their imagination as much as they want without any limitations because ik people ship jtk with alot of different characters and not just themselves
i wrote that specific part for people who aren't lesbians so they can enjoy it without the words "he likes it when you tie him up"
but honestly, anyone, the gays, les, bi and pan can read my stuff and enjoy it as much as they want to
and just a small reminder before you go around the internet again— people can write anything they want about any character without it clashing with their sexuality, it doesn't automatically make them want to be in a relationship with that specific character unless they stated it
it's all for shits and giggles and doesn't really impact my sexuality because i just wanted to make something fun for my audience and also for me
writing can go both ways, one ways or no ways
so please don't go around telling people what and what not to write based on their sexuality and open your understanding better because not only is it harming, it also takes away the fun that the author intended for their viewers
another jtk headcanon because i genuinely cannot stop talking about him on my facebook account— TW: opinion(ohhhh so scaryyyy🙀) but srs tho tw: suggestive themes, cringe sorry and uhh that's all i think
•stinks of sweat, sharp metal, rust, smoke and chemicals and won't come off even if he bathe in holy water
•mud and dirt would stick on the ends of his pants, the ends of his jackets and his shoes aren't spared, it would literally be falling off and he will tell you something about "reuse reduce" or smth
•has a bad posture and will insist people around him(and failing miserably) that it's not THAT bad spoiler: it is
•has an old tumblr account with his old photo before the incident that he couldn't access anymore neither could he report it so he forces ben to hack into it and delete all the photos and even deactivate it but ben will just temporary put his old photos and post into private and then put it back again just so he can piss off jeff
•hates labels, doesn't want to be called metal head, scene or emo but doesn't really mind it much but he will dislike you tho
•demisexual and bisexual but leans more to being into girls then guys(sorry guys, i just can't picture him being with a guy since i spent so long reading female y/n x jtk on watpad when i was younger and it sorta stuck to me)
•def owns those "who ate all the pussy" type of shirts
•his style is very inconsistent, he could be all glammed up to just throwing a plain hoodie and some sweats
•despite what some would believe, he can sleep but only with his eyes open since his dumbass burnt off his own eyelids off, he doesn't regret how he looks like now, he thinks he looks better this way but he does regret burning off his eyelids so now his eyes are always dry and he can't sleep with his eyes close(not can he blink)
•both jeff and liu are the same age but different birth month— liu being older for a few months than jeff, he's still bitter about it till this day
•would get in fights with liu when they were kids and would say "mom found you in the dumpster you fucking dumpster baby" and liu would come back at him with "at least mom and dad planned to take me in, bet you weren't even planned at all"
•a sore loser and winner, if he wins, he will make sure everyone hears about it, same sense of he loses
•verbally and physically impulsive, would stare at a pregnant lady and would go "me if i ate 30 cheeseburger"
•would be those insufferable people who gatekeep the shit out of their interests sorry
•he'd either work in a boring office job or be a self employed barista in his own café if he grew up without any trauma and the incident didn't happen
•his jokes are either going to be sex jokes or straight up insults, but mostly his humour is mediocre and dry
•would argue about the stupidest things online and would probably join the "flat earthers" propaganda just for shits and giggle
•he's been banned for so many times but he manages to bypass the ban thanks to ben
•boney ass hands
•not exactly a texter, mostly of the time he wouldn't bother with fixing his grammar or spelling, half because he thinks it's cool or edgy and the other half is just him being a lazy fuck
(lowk just closed my eyes and pressed random letters on jeff's part)
•since he's verbally and physically impulsive, he doesn't really think about his actions but would later think about it dead in the night and would regret it "why did i even say that?" "why did i do that" type of shit
•if he's ever in a established relationship with someone and he accidentally hurts them verbally or physically, he would regret it but since his egotistical ass is too prideful to say sorry so he would buy them their favourite snack/drink or would either spend more time with them to show that he's sorry, i 100% believe that he's more of an acts of service and quality time kind of guy
type of guy who would burst inside his s/o room after an argument/after he accidentally hurt them, holding a plastic bag with their favourite snacks before tossing it at them "here you go, idiot" and would stay by your side for the rest of the day and would allow to cuddle— it's his way of saying sorry
•his biggest guilty pleasure is getting tied up but would pretend he hates it
•he is 31 as of now, the incident happened when he and liu were both 17, both born on 1995, jeff is born on september 22(i based this on jeff mason), 1995
•lowkey a dumbass sometimes, either he's truly stupid or he just doesn't think before speaking, there's no in between
•HATES math and chem or anything that involves doing math, he finds it extremely boring and flunked most of his classes that involves math back in highschool but would refuse to let anyone tell him he suck at math when he's asked a math problem
"hey- jeff, what's 3 divided by 894?"
" 548? 60? 267? shit i don't fucking know- use a calculator or something"
•owns an old laptop, doesn't bother with making it aesthetically pleasing and would stick random stickers on it, and yes, it has open browsers most being porn sites that he doesn't really bother to close
•sometimes slur his words, especially his s and r's(keyword: sometimes)
ok bye thats all, i had so fun making this, might work on bigger projects for jeff like fanfics or smth but im still getting used to re-entering a fandom i had so many horrendous memories of
let me know if you guys liked this and ill make more once i get my shit together
also uh not really proofread since my sleep schedule and i wrote this half asleep