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Xavier Knight. 23. That's all you need to know.

[x-knight]

    “no burger?” he commented, looking over at xavier after the waiter left.  he grinned, taking a sip of his water.  eyes travelled to connect with xavier’s and he nodded.  “me, well–– i’m an only child, living with my mom here in LA.  i’m still in high school.  senior, crazy i know.  i love photography.  and videogames i’m big on it.  and my favorite color is red.”

“it seems like a good night to try something different,” he chuckled, keeping his eyes on the other. “i uh, you’re still in high school...?” he swallowed at that, leaning back a little at that. “i’m nearly twenty-four. are you... eighteen?”

[x-knight]

    quinn chuckled.  of course he knew something like this would happen.  “well you’re lucky that i needed a break from that paper,” he chuckled.  he leaned in to kiss the other male softly on the lips.  “well, it seems that you got a kiss.  and i’m going to receive a free lunch,” he chuckled.  “i need some food.”

xavier hummed quietly as their lips met, frowning as they parted. “that’s it?” he teased, leaning back and offering him a smile. “you’re getting a free lunch, huh? who says that i’m paying?” his smile widened, winking to show that he was only joking. “order whatever you want, babe. i’ll take care of you.”

[x-knight]

Andrew grinned at the other’s words, glad the stranger didn’t completely hate him. For some weird reason, Andrew really cared that this stranger had no negative feelings towards. This feeling would only increase when Xavier explained he was Andrew’s date. “It was, but I’ll be more careful.” He cleared his throat, not sure how else to respond to that. Andrew furrowed his eyebrows, looking to the space to Xavier’s left. “… Yeah, kind of…” And then it clicked. “Xa-” He was about to say his name, before Xavier officially introduced himself. Oh, wow. Andrew was expecting good looking, but he actually got smoking hot. Okay, maybe his forehead was too big, and he had a bulging bruise growing, but that latter was mostly Andrew’s fault. Still, his date was attractive. The blond finally shook his head. “Hi. No, no. I wouldn’t do that.” Andrew smiled wide. “Let’s sit down. I’m Andrew, by the way. It’s nice to meet you.” 

xavier nodded after a moment, moving to slide into one of the booths. “it’s nice to meet you too,” he said, offering him a soft smile before shrugging his jacket off. he carefully draped it across the back of the booth, shifting so that he was facing the other. “well, we’re certainly off to a good start,” he teased, picking up his menu and leaning back. he glanced at it before setting it back down, clearing his throat. “i uh,” he said after a moment, taking a deep breath. “i don’t... i don’t do this very often. in fact, i don’t do this at all. this is my first blind date, so if i seem nervous - my apologies.”

[x-knight]

sorrrrry i wasn't on today, it's been insane.

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[x-knight]

      “so why did you ask me to come all the way over here for?” quinn sat across from xavier.  “you said it was urgent and i was writing that stupid paper for class.”  the blond gazed onto his boyfriend.  “is this your way of kidnapping, because if it is, please take me away so that i don’t have to write another paragraph for that paper.”  @x-knight

xavier smirked at the sight of the other, leaning forward a little. “do you really think that i would take you away from your paper if it wasn’t important?” he asked, head tilting to the side. “ i can sure you that this is very, very important.” he nodded, trying to keep a straight face as he looked into the others eyes. “i haven’t had a kiss yet today.”

[x-knight]

    “it seems like i have no choice,” connor chuckled.  he bit his lower lip, glancing down at the menu again and deciding for himself what he wanted.  he was craving a spicy chicken sandwich, so he thought, why not.  when the waiter came to their table, connor ordered what he wanted.  “and can i have a cherry coke, please,” he asked.

“that’s right,” xavier smirked, keeping his eyes on the other. he wasn’t sure what it was, but something about connor seemed to draw him in. he cleared throat after a moment, looking away as he realized he had been staring. “i’ll take the same, actually,” he said, handing his menu over and leaning back further into the booth. “so, connor,” he said softly. “tell me about yourself.”

[x-knight]

    and he did know.  connor felt the lips press onto his and he welcomed it.  he leaned into xavier, smiling after they both had pulled their lips away.  eyes met with his boyfriend.  “i’m glad i ended up almost breaking your nose that day,” he whispered.  “imagine if that never happened.  if i ended up coming in a few seconds later.  we wouldn’t have been here,” he whispered.  “you make me happy too.  and i love you, i hope you know that.”

xavier couldn’t help but smile, licking his lips as he kept his eyes on the other. “did... you just say that you love me?” he asked, hands moving to his boyfriends waist. “you - you just said that you love me.”

[x-knight]

amir turned to xavier as he pulled away from his wife’s grip, everything was happening so fast. he turned to look at him with a soft expression, “xavier” he called him as he ran, everyone turned their attention towards amir giving him a disgusted look. amir didnt have time to explain himself, he quickly ran towards xavier’s direction. he felt rain drops onto his cheek then he groaned as he lost the male, once he was at the street corner he saw a tall brunette he smiled spotting him then he ran across some cars heading to where he was. “xavier!” he said grabbing onto his arm, “hey, hey, its okay” amir said bringing him into his arms, “why would you think i want nothing to do with you, no you know what lets go talk somewhere quiet” he said taking his jacket off then he placed it around xavier’s head. “come on before it starts raining harder”

xavier gasped as he was pulled into the others arms, not expecting to have been followed. “amir,” he whispered, voice broken. he wasn’t sure what he was feeling, tears still streaming down his face. he swallowed hard, eyes meeting the others as they parted.  why would you think i want nothing to do with you, no you know what lets go talk somewhere quiet. “because i don’t deserve you,” xavier mumbled, shivering slightly as amir covered him with his jacket.  however he made no move to leave, wanting - no, needing to stay with the other. he nodded in agreement, teeth chattering as they began to walk. “i can’t go back there,” he whispered, voice shaky.

[x-knight]

Andrew could say he was excited for the date, but only because he enjoyed meeting new people. He was a social butterfly, after all. The fact that this was a date, definitely helped. He was often set up on them by friends, but everything was short lived. As he hurried to the restaurant, clad in dark jeans, a v-neck shirt, and a leather jacket, Andrew completely failed to noticed as the male was reaching for the door. “Oh shit!” He let out in surprise. “My bad,” He said a more-awkward-than-comical laugh escaped his mouth. Though, to an average observer it might appear as if Andrew was laughing at the other’s situation. “Sorry, I was just in a hurry to…” Andrew looked around to his potential, whom he had had never met, but all he saw were tables seated by couples or small groups. No one sitting alone. “…meet with someone…but they’re not here yet.” He figured, not smart enough to put one and one together. Now he felt rather dumb for being in a hurry when he thought his date wasn’t even there, yet. Not knowing he was looking at him. 

xavier rubbed his jaw, groaning quietly as he felt it start to swell. he had always been somewhat clumsy, in fact - he usually manged to embarrass himself some way or another. “it’s - it’s alright,” he mumbled, not wanting to let his temper get the better of him. “it was an accident, and i overreacted. sorry.” he looked up at the others words, realizing that the boy that stood before him was his ‘date’. “oh,” he said, teeth digging into his lower lip. “meeting someone, as in... a blind date perhaps?” he offered him a soft smile, though it was slightly uneven due to his puffy jaw. “because i’m afraid that’s me.” he chuckled quietly, extending a hand to the other. “i’m uh, i’m xavier. not exactly prince charming, so i don’t blame if you if you want to bail.”

[thedailypayne]

[x-knight]

     “good to know,” he responded.  “i honestly thought it be dead by now.  everyone has become very selfish.  at least when it comes to our generation, but good to know that you aren’t among them,” he smiled.  he looked over at the menu.  “i feel like it should be me that should pay.  i still feel bad about hurting you back there,” connor said as he glanced up at xavier.

“i was kidding,” xavier assured him, shaking his head. “please, let me do this. i was the one who was trying to leave, and i can see now that i would have come to regret it.” he swallowed as the words left his lips, his cheeks slightly pink at the admission. “in fact, it’s not up for debate. i’m going to pay, and you’re going to deal with it.” he nodded.

[x-knight]

“im not going to force you to come out” he said looking at the male, then he let out a small sigh. “you’re different something I’ve never had in a long time, you were there for me, we hanged out we could do anything and there wouldn’t be a problem because we loved each other’s company. now when i look at you i don’t know who you are, you’ve been distant” he said loud enough for him to get through him. “I’m not here to blame you or give you a lecture on how you’re definitely making a wrong decision. I’m here to be your best man” he said tapping his chest. “now lets keep this little act going and you have fun out there” amir grabbed  his arm pulling him out the room, he wasn’t sure what to say to him. amir just didn’t want to keep having the same fight, he was tired and would rather act like his friend if thats what made life easier to the other male. amir saw his wife come up to them both, “everything okay?” she said looking at amir up and down. “honey its time for our first dance” she said grabbing xavier’s arm, and with that amir broke. the whole ‘first dance’ and ‘honey’ nicknames something he could never give the other. 

xavier groaned as amir pulled him out of the room before he could reply, before he could voice his opinion. little act. is that really how amir saw this? maybe he had read everything all wrong, maybe they really were on completely different pages. he blinked as his bride pulled him onto the dance floor, something snapping inside of him “i can’t do this anymore,” he whispered, pulling out of her grip. “i’m sorry, but this - this isn’t who i am. i can’t keep doing this - i can’t keep lying to myself and everyone that i know.” he took a shaky step back, tears starting to trickle down his cheeks. “this is too much. i - i’m gay, okay?” he paused, eyes moving to amir for a brief moment before he heard the crowd begin to whisper. “i’m gay, and i’m very much in love with my best man - who now wants nothing to do with me. i don’t deserve any of this, and i’m sorry that i lied to you all.” he reached for his brides hand, placing an apologetic kiss to the back of her palm before running. he didn’t know where he was going, he just knew that he needed to get away - far away. 

[x-knight]

     “oh, i’m very sure,” he responded.  he looked down at their hands, and smiled.  eyes met with xavier’s and he nodded.  “oh so jealous,” he laughed.  “they actually didn’t fuck this one up.  they did some good after all,” he laughed.  “what?” he whispered as he got closer to the other.  he leaned closer to the other and gave him a bemused smile.

“you know damn well what,” xavier whispered, leaning in to press a lingering kiss to his boyfriends lips. he hummed quietly as he pulled back, staying close so that their foreheads could touch. “you... you make me so fucking happy, c. do you know that? because if i don’t say it enough, please let me know. i still have a hard time believing it all.”

[x-knight]

     “chivalry isn’t dead after all,” connor smiled.  he sat across the other in the empty booth and he grabbed the menu.  he had been to this diner before.  and he definitely enjoyed the variety of food that could be consumed.  “their burgers are really good,” he chuckled.  “especially the bacon avacado.  that one is probably the best,” he nodded.  he glanced up when the other offered to pay.  “oh, you don’t have to do that.”

“i can assure you that chivalry will never be dead in my book,” he said, flashing the other a toothy smile. he felt his nerves begin to ease, allowing himself to lean back in the booth. “oh? i’ve never been here before, but i think that i’m going to take your word for it.” he set his menu down, placing his hands on the table. “nonsense. it’s the least i can do after you nearly broke my nose.”

[x-knight]

“me pushing you away?” he said laughing sarcastically, “please!” he said standing up to he was almost at xavier’s height. “that doesn’t change the fact that you’re married!” he said yelling at the male, he was frustrated and angry all these emotions hitting him at once. “i want you! but i can’t fucking have that” he said throwing a pillow at xavier, he wasn’t going to hurt the male so the best he could do was throw a pillow. “why did you do it?” he took a couple steps closer to the male, “you knew how i felt about you! i spilled every little detail for my love to you and you left what we had for a woman that you don’t even love” his voice was fading, “don’t you dare tell me I’m pushing you away, when all I’ve done was kept you close all this time while you were the one who left!”

xavier took a shaky breath as he tried to calm himself. “god dammit,” he whispered, hands moving up to cover his face. “we... we talked about this, amir. you know that i can’t - that we can’t...” he exhaled, his eyes starting to water. but he didn’t care. his heart and mind were at war, and he was slowly losing control. “wh-why do you even want me? clearly i’m a shit person for putting you through all of this. why even fucking bother? what’s the point?” he looked down into amirs eyes, feeling completely broken - helpless. “you are everything that i’ve always wanted and more. you’re fucking perfect. when i look at you... i - as cliche as it sounds, i swear to god my heart skips a beat. but i can’t keep doing this, i can’t. every time we go through the motions, because it gets harder and harder to fucking crawl out. we can’t keep blaming each other.”

[thedailypayne]

[x-knight]

   “oh we’re doing this.  i want them all to now what a success it was having them to get both of us to do the blind date,” he chuckled.  “and so they can see how very much in love we are,” he grinned.  he took xavier’s hand and squeezed it.  “clearly.  i am quite done with all the blind dates.  my last one ended up being great.”

“as long as you’re sure,” xavier said, keeping his voice soft. he took a deep breath, glancing down at their hands before lacing their fingers together. “i for one, would absolutely love to show you off to all of our friends. mm, yes. they’ll be quite jealous of just how good we are together.” he looked back up, flashing the other a smile before pulling him closer. “come here.”