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they or any pronouns - questioning sys blog

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blog intro!

hi, this is a pretty empty blog im going to just use to try express how my brain works with this sort of stuff through simple little doodles. im in my 20s, any pronouns are fine

i dont care about any kind of discourse dont bring that stuff here

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i think i'm finally figuring out 🐦‍⬛ a little bit better! matching up patterns of behaviour to how i know she feels.

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i really love any sort of fictional situation in which multiple characters share a body, or otherwise has multiple characters who are sort of the same person but different. i really wonder where this intense interest in this genre of trope could've come from.

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my bedroom isn't in a very good state and so i need to start thinking about redecorating while fixing it up.

this argument plays in my head often.

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I just wanna say that the whole blending experience you've mentioned is extremely relatable.. thats all. Its nice to see people experience similar stuff as we do. I hope yall have a lovely day/night!

ah hope you have a lovely day or night as well anon! i'm glad there are other people out there who get it.

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did i post this me yet

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saw somebody make a strange post and i don't really have anywhere to complain about it other than here. hi, i'm autistic, and my autism disables me. i want my disability to be taken seriously and acknowledged as something that has an impact on my capacity to function to the expectations of abled and neurotypical people, but saying that autistic people's lives are "defined by misery" is fucking weird!

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i've become very fond of adachi rei recently.

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drew everyone in my usual style and cat turned out looking a bit like falin he's so cutes.

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i'm really glad but it's still really difficult to deal with the person who hurt you improving. i'm proud of you and i'm happy you're trying and thank you for being kind to me. but also where was all this when i was a kid. y'know.

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10 and 16, for the ask game!

in general, wy and cat are pretty distinct from eachother and us. it's a little harder to pick wy out when he's actually fronting because that's always a bit of a blendy experience, but usually he's fine.

i know sitting down and just trying to talk is probably worth a shot to improve communication, it's just kind of all i can think to do since i'm not sure if there are really other things that'd work.

cat is very simple he just talks to me. thanks man.

she might communicate more than i think honestly? it's a little hard to tell since she is so similar to me, and she's usually very foggy and blurry in general.

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hi, we saw your post looking for some asks <:) i hope things get better!

do you have a favorite pastry? (or among the system, are there differences?)

thank you! definitely feeling a bit better now, it's very appreciated.

i'm not the biggest pastry fan because i don't like the flaky texture a lot of popular ones have. i should try more sometime though...

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p-did ask game! :3

if a p-did system reblogs this, they'll for sure get an ask! (from yours truly 💚)

systems who are questioning what disorder they have are more than welcome to participate :3

1) is the host able to switch out of front at all? or only partially? or not at all?

2) does the host have any other role?

3) has there ever been a host change, ever?

4) other than the host, do you have other frequent (co-)fronters? or headmates who frequently go into co-con with the host?

5) why do headmates typically co-front/co-con?

6) how long do non-host headmates co-front/co-con on average?

7) does your system go through stages of inactivity? (no headmate interaction at all, just the host)

8) what is the most common role in your system?

9) how distinct are you all from eachother?

10) do you have some headmates who are more or less distinct from the others?

11) do you have any funny stories of your headmates passively influencing your decisions?

12) do you have a headspace/innerworld?

13) is the host able to access the headspace/innerworld?

14) do you use simply plural, pluralkit, or anything else?

15) how emotionally close is everyone in the system? do you feel like family, or are you like strangers to eachother?

16) how easy or hard is internal communication for your system?

17) do you ever want to come out as a system to anyone in your life? (who don't already know)

18) how do you feel about being the host? is there anything you want people (in system and out) to know about it?

19) how do you feel about being non-host headmates in the system? is there anything you want people to know about it?

20) a fun one! if you have a system name, how did you all decide on it?

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What is your favorite type of bread

ooo garlic bread is always pretty good.

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having a rough one you guys should send asks or little doodle requests pspsps come here give me distractions.

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Idk if it helps, but as another person who’s scared to write things down I personally think y’all are brave (in a good way) for journaling in the first place.

It’s scary to leave a record of yourself. I can’t even force myself to journal by promising to delete/burn/throw it out afterwards because I’m too scared. I can’t imagine how scary it would be if I had a history of what sounds like someone reading my journal without my consent (if I’m misinterpreting, my bad).

I hope y’all are able to be understanding with yourselves, if not kind, in this difficult time.

thank you, this is a very kind message and it does help a lot. <3

you're not misinterpreting at all haha, i don't remember keeping a physical journal for more than maybe a page or two but my parent used to go through my room and my phone very frequently so the sort of invasion of privacy is similar.

i'm sorry you struggle with this sort of thing too, and i hope you can be understanding with yourself as well for your own struggles with leaving a record. we're both going to be alright, we won't be scared forever.

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it'd be cool to try design more unique sonas for my parts hmm...