Whatever, We are all gonna die one day

TW: ED/Depression/S***H***

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well at least i’m 2 months clean from self harm

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not eating gives me anger issues and makes me mean as fuck... sorry mom just trying to be skiiiiinnnnnyy

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🙌🏻😫💖

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it’s funny how when your numb all you want is to feel. but when you can feel all you want is for the pain to go away

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I feel like i’m loosing everyone i ever cared about, funny thing is it’s my fault and it’s killing me :( 

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Hit my goal weight.. than gained 5 fucking pounds

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I just feel so alone...

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it’s 4am i just want to sleep, my anxiety is so fucking bad. i can’t stop thinking about things that i know won’t even happen. why is my brain like this, i just want it to go away. i know it’s not logical but the thoughts don’t go away. how do i make it stop.

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recently quit the sport i’ve been doing for 10 years. i’m not even sad about it...

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the shower stung today for the first time in a long time. if you undertsand i am so so so sorry

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i just want someone to ask me to hangout for once, invite me over. i just want to feel like someone genuinely cares. i feel so alone right now

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i feel numb.

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i constantly feel like everyone hates me. logically i know that not everyone does but there is this part of my brain that feels like everyone is out for me and planning to drop me

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october has been the most mentality challenging months i’ve ever experienced. it’s crazy to think that i was doing better during lockdown in march-may than now. i’m working to get better tho witch is good.

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what are some good coping skills for anxiety.

i need help.

it’s been getting so bad :(

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my anxiety keeps me from beaing chill and down for anything. i try to hard to be down for whatever or spontaneous plans but if there’s no plan i constantly feel like things won’t work out or everyone’s gonna do the plan without me. i hate feeling like this, i know it makes no sense. does anyone have any tips to stop feeling like this because it feels out of controle and i feel like i’m going crazy :(