Dealing with it...

Hey, I'm a 21 year old girl and i will use this blog for my thoughts. Things that wander through my brain. More for the therapeutic aspect but maybe there is someone out there who feels the same way.

[xchiyuu]

You have to break some ties to forge others.

You can't be tied to everything.

~Mama (Death Stranding)

[xchiyuu]

Are monsters made or are they born?

How the hell you dreaming when the world's a nightmare?

Did you here a single word we say?

'Cause we're screaming out loud but it seems our cries are just another lullaby.

~Against the Current (Lullaby)

[xchiyuu]

It's a place where monsters walk around.

How did silence get so loud?

Now it's all in my head.

Can somebody stop time, keep my hands from shaking?

I've tried but somehow I'm breaking.

~Against the Current (again&again)

[xchiyuu]

Did you ever feel like you were the disposable friend?

Like you are the only one putting in all the hard work?

And you tell yourself that you don't want anything in return because you like to give and make people happy.

But sometimes I'm at my worst and I'm asking myself why they don't give similar things in return.

Am I just not worth their time and effort?

~ My fucked up brain

[xchiyuu]

"But you know that I would never do/think something like this!"

No, I don't know.

Honestly, I am too broken for this shit and sometimes nothing makes sense to me.

So for me to believe you when I am at my lowest, you need to prove it to me by actions.

Because words are all over my head and I don't know which are the real ones and which are the intruders.

~My fucked up brain

[xchiyuu]

I don't bother anyone

Never make demands

Chokin' on the circumstance

Self-sabotage is a sweet romance

~Twenty øne Pilots (Choker)

[xchiyuu]

I'm wondering, why do all the monsters come out at night?

Why do we sleep where we want to hide?

Why do I run back to you, like I don't mind if you fuck up my life?

~All Time Low (Monsters)

[stay-close]

“I just feel so damn alone.”

— Unknown

[stay-close]

“Losing someone changes you a lot.”

— Unknown

[xchiyuu]

The moment when you think that you are over something,

And it hits you right in the face again.

Square one.

~My fucked up brain

[xchiyuu]

Bad thoughts or memories are like a virus.

You don't see them coming and when you know they are there,

they have multiplied and it's far too late.

~My fucked up brain

[stay-close]

“Do you ever miss someone but you never let them know because you have a feeling they are doing just fine without you?”

— Unknown

[xchiyuu]

I can't pick up my pieces anymore and I'm too tired to hide my scars.

~fucked up brain

[xchiyuu]

Do you know the feeling when you need to cry but the only thing that appears are only two teardrops at most?

~My fucked up mind

[siir-poesia]

Truth be told, there are a lot of reasons why I don't express myself with most of the people, there are several reasons why I dont talk too much or why I don't go out a lot, why I don't get attached easily, everything seems so heavy, it's all too loud, my thoughts, the noises, the circumstances, all of that got me crazy, all of that is taking my energy away, and it feels like I'm carrying a huge emotional burden, I just want to feel happy with the ones I love.

I just want to stop worrying, and getting frustrated, I just want to be free, I wanna feel complete.

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[deepthoughtsvibes-deactivated20]

A part of me is slowly dying and is ready to give up while the other part is trying to stay alive and struggling to make it through another day.

(-deepthoughtsvibes)

[dankmemeuniversity]