Lovely Misery

✨Tw: I talk about my bullshit✨Willow✨he/they✨bruh if you’re fatphobic fuck off✨hw: 248, cw:228.8, lw:188, gw1: 200, gw2, 180, gw3: 160, gw4: 140, gw5: 120, ugw:95✨ Im not diagnosed with an eating disorder but I have been diagnosed with other shit✨also don’t interact if you’re over 21, I’m 17 and it makes me uncomfortable unless you’re not a creep✨if you’ve read this far, please stretch, get a drink of water, and remind yourself that you are that bitch✨my dm’s are open, but I’m terrified to message first✨

[fingeredkiss]

Anorexia is just me wanting so desperately to be skinny that I let a bunch of fifteen year olds on tumblr tell me I can’t eat bread

[thealexiscowdell]

[ineedathighgap]

ed things i'm scared of

that the weight loss will take much longer than i thought, because my fitbit is over-calculating my calories burned in a day

that i won't ever have the legs i want, because of how they're built

that i'll mess up even before i reach my ugw, and maybe won't ever get there

that my ugw won't be enough, and i'll need to keep losing weight

that i will gain weight once i reach my ugw, because my metabolism will be fucked

that no one will even care that i lost weight, because I'll still be ugly

this shit s u c k s

[skinnygrungedreams]

my exact thoughts

[thoughtportal]

[konoko]

[yourrfeelings]

[sicklygrl]

get in loser we’re thinking about the youth you lost while experiencing mental illness

[oarfjsh]

things i realized in therapy:

i am allowed to be angry with people when they hurt me, even if they are sensitive and cant cope well with being told they did something wrong. their sensitivity does not mean i have to bottle up my feelings & their lack of coping skills does not make me expressing my anger abusive.

shocking, i know. truly shocking.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Suicidal people shouldn’t be told the main reason they shouldn’t kill themselves is because of how it might affect others. Suicidal people deserve love, help and support, not guilt trips. Suicidal people deserve to feel like their life is worth living, for their own sake.

[pronouncedribs]

for someone obsessed with losing weight I’m not very good at it

[holythefirm-deactivated20200829]

If somebody compliments me i feel like i lied to them and i feel bad for them

[peonykx]

my brain: i need food i’m dying please feed me

me: eats

my brain: you fat fucking bitch

[in-love-with-dainty]

Food is like a drug.

You’re craving it.

You feel good while consuming it.

Then it just burns in your stomach.

Are those few minutes of happiness worth hours of regretting?

[sovietnam]

[mikeyjamesk]

me: guys… don’t worry, i’ll handle this

me: *ruins everything*

[disabilityhealth]

My three states

Mentally okay but physically dead

Physically okay but mentally dead

Super double dead

[konoko]