I trusted a man from a cruise ship.
I trusted a man from a cruise ship. I trusted him with all my heart. I trusted him to take good care of it. He made it clear he was serious. That the last thing he wanted to do was hurt me. Hurt himself. He had a month left until his contract ends. He said he didn't want to get attached cause it will be so hard for both of us. Later did I know he didn't want to because he had a girl waiting for him back home. I knew beforehand that he had a girl, but he never mentioned her and yet I chose to trust him rather than trust what others were saying. I don't know if it was love but with those days that I spent with him, I felt like I was myself. I didn't have to pretend to be someone else. I didn't have to wear make up and or wear fancy clothing. I ate whatever my heart felt to and ate it like I just didn't care. I thought he was the one. I've had countless moments when I think a guy I meet would be the oh-so-famous "The One". And I've been so crazy and stupid enough to even believe that this thing exists. I don't know why but I really can't distinguish a man who's serious and a man who isn't. Maybe because I haven't met someone who's serious enough to help me distinguish if their intentions are true or not. I've been feeling bitter with all the past heartaches. But despite all the heartaches and the tears I've cried, I still believe in fairytales and happy endings. I still believe in love. I still believe that everyone has a particular someone who they will be destined to meet and sweep them off of their feet. And I know that, someday, someone will be able to do the same thing to me. That someone would give me the love I deserve to receive. That someone would take good care of my heart the way it deserves to be treated. I know I will still stumble and fall again with the wrong ones. But these experiences would become lessons learned and these will become funny stories to talk about to in the future. And one thing's for sure... I may never be able to trust a man from a cruise ship again.
