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[joephilip36]

Cocaine ✅

[joephilip36]

Alpraz

[xiaomao444]

I think emotional dependence is one of the loneliest things

you can spend an entire day surrounded by people and still feel like your whole world depends on one person replying to you

one message can change your entire mood, one cold reply can ruin your day, and when they disappear, even for a little while, it feels like something inside you disappears with them

you start looking for signs everywhere

did I do something wrong? are they tired of me? do they still care? what if they find someone better?

and suddenly, your happiness doesn't feel like it's yours anymore

it belongs to someone else

you wait for their attention to feel wanted, you wait for their affection to feel lovable, you wait for them to make you feel safe, even though deep down you know that no person should have to carry your entire world

the worst part is knowing that you're becoming dependent on someone who might not even realize how much power they have over you

you want to be independent

you want to be okay alone

but some part of you is always waiting for them to come back and make everything feel right again

and maybe that's the saddest part

realizing that you don't just miss the person

you miss who you are when they choose you

[xiaomao444]

I keep wondering when the simplest things in life became so difficult

taking a shower, getting out of bed. Eating something, answering messages, cleaning my room, opening a window, doing anything at all

none of these things should feel impossible, but sometimes even the smallest tasks feel like they require a kind of energy I just don't have

People always talk about motivation as if it's something you can simply find if you try hard enough, but what if I don't even have enough energy to look for it?

I want to do things, I want to feel excited about something, I want to wake up and actually want to be awake, but most days, everything feels distant and heavy, and I just keep postponing my life until I somehow feel better

and then another day passes

and I still haven't done anything

I don't even know if I'm tired or if I've just forgotten what it feels like to genuinely want to live my own life

maybe tomorrow I'll have more energy

I keep telling myself that

maybe tomorrow

[xiaomao444]

I'm tired of the way life works, it feels like every time I start believing things might finally become peaceful, something falls apart again, I'm exhausted from carrying hope with trembling hands, only to watch it slip away

I don't want a love that feels like a battlefield, I don't want endless misunderstandings, games, or constant fear of losing someone. I just want something quiet, someone who feels like home instead of another storm

Maybe I'm asking for too much, but all I've ever wanted was a love that lets me breathe, a place where silence isn't awkward, where staying is a choice made every single day, and where I don't have to wonder if I'm enough

I'm not angry anymore. Just tired, tired of searching for peace in places that only taught me how to survive, I still believe that somewhere, there's a love that doesn't hurt to hold onto, I just hope I'm not too exhausted by the time it finally finds me

[remiza]

I should draw Tanya in this.......

[xiaomao444]

Good days will come

[moecel]

[fukin]

つぐない

[xiaomao444]

fui demitida. . .

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[xiaomao444]

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[xiaomao444]

vim aqui no hospital com a minha mãe e tá tocan só pedrada, Charlie Brown Jr, Legião Urbana e os caralho to na mó paz aqui na sala de espera ♪⁠～⁠(⁠´⁠ε⁠｀⁠ ⁠)

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