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No obvious fractures. X rays have been sent to a radiologist who is trained to find more covert injuries. They say to call back in the evening Friday if they don’t get back to me by then. Tbh I think with the more deceptive hairline fractures are usually repetitive stress injuries and not blunt force breaks, so I think I am most likely the clear. I probably just have a very bad bruise and I’ll wiggle it occasionally to test ROM, keep it limber, and get blood flow to encourage healing. I’m in the camp of thought that this is better than RICE bc it was what was given to me for my sprained ankle a few years back. RICE is good in the acute phase but tbh if it’s not super painful, just letting it become inflamed + dealing with it then do gentle exercises >>>>>>

Tbh next time I might check to see if the main hospital has cancelations I can take same day bc they probably have in-house radiologists. It happened when I sprained my ankle, though I can’t remember if I needed an x ray for that.

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Kawanabe Kyosai, White Heron in the Rain, colour woodblock print, Japan, 1880

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Kim Petras

Lmao I went on my first run in a long time bc I really need those brain chemicals and I might have broken my toe :)))))))))))))) in a total murphy’s law situation where three ppl and a dog all converged at the exact same time on a thin trail. I was trying to stop to the side preemptively and hit my foot on a rock. If it’s broken I’m actually done for, I really need my yoga strength training which involves a lot of foot balancing and planting my foot down. And running would have been really nice to add. I need this shit so bad right now my life is tree drivel and I’m constantly stressed and I’ve been crying every day bc I truly think it’s over for me

The toe looks very in between. It has a bruise and some swelling but nothing crazy. I can hobble which is technically considered putting weight on it. I can move it up and down a little bit but it doesn’t bend forward nearly as much as my other toe. I think my bet is still a bruise, but idk. I’m going to urgent care bc my insurance should cover it and an xray (I’m on Medicaid lol, it’s nice) bc I can get arthritis if my toe is like out of position and broken. Better safe than sorry. But I have to go to therapy first lol. Fml

Kim Petras Detour bolded on rym omg

achillesinhighheels

The biggest stress in my life right now is figuring out where to live. Any apartment is a major toss up every time bc I have noise sensitivities - been described by my friend as “medically an HSP” (highly sensitive person) - and sometimes I land by undergrads who kinda dgaf. I’m severely depressed and can’t take another place where I can’t relax. Undergrad apt was fine. My younger sister’s apartment worked really well, the townhouse I lived in this winter worked really well, I know some places can work, but it can also be a nightmare. I need to get lucky and be by like serious adult 9-5 professionals in their late 20s at least I s2g, or the quiet serious types of students - which this is what happened in undergrad, and actually my roommate was the loud nuisance to everyone around lol

What sucks is I live in a small urban area where most every apartment complex is some shitty wood structure, not a lot of concrete structures to try which generally have more soundproofing. The market here is bad bc it’s a college town and everything is shit plus expensive. Everything is apartments and houses are hard to come by. I found someone’s ad last week for a four person house far away from undergrad areas but it is already taken unless I get lucky and it opens back up. I’ll just keep trying for a house situation with similar ppl

Every single HSP/autism Reddit thread I find is just like “yeah it’s hard and you’re kind of fucked” outside of the like, choose concrete buildings or find old buildings back when they didn’t cheat as much on sound insulation

I wish I could go back in time and tell myself life was about to be awful if I didn’t start making a lot of money asap to compensate my sensory issues and like be really choosy about where I lived. I fucked up my life so bad lol I don’t think I have any hope or am going to make it, I can’t maintain sanity bc I’m overly sensitive and exactly the type of human who gets naturally selected out

noneedtofearorhope

imagine the havoc you could reek if you got hold of a sand hannah-tizer, a device which could turn any grain of sand it touches into a full sized person named hannah. there are hundreds, thousands, TENS of thousands if not MILLIONS! of grains of sand. imagine if suddenly all the grains of san on earth became a person named hannah. do you know how many social security cards you'd need to print? you'd probably triple the number of living people named hannah. the chaos would have havoked!

Literally the moment I posted here about the sublease working out the guy who lives on the same floor as me named Simon started blasting music in his room, and he does it for hours. He also like never leaves the house. Literally every other roommate is in and out to some degree but Simon is always here, either blasting music or blasting his class he takes and I have to really turn up my box fan then either use my sound canceling headphones or earplugs to get recharge time. I don’t need him to never do it, but most every time I come back he is at it. He is home more than anyone here. Never get to have some focus time, and he’s the only roommate that does his loud stuff for so long! One other roommate also plays loud music but he actually does other things and stops. Simon is like omnipresent and driving me up a wall. Im not against him doing it, but it’s hours. I want some “me” time too. He does it at night. I’m gonna get a feel for the house politics and see if I landed somewhere they all negotiate with each other or if everyone just does their own thing and no one cares that Simon just blasts his shit and I’m SoL for finding a compromise. At least they have midnight quiet hours so I can still sleep and be healthy.

I also spoke too soon about it the sublease. It kinda sucks but I’m at least able to get some sleep so I can’t fully complain

I desperately need an autism/Highly Sensitive Person survival guide to simply being alive, I’m not gonna make it lol