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[xluvmymelaniex]

Hi, its been a while since my last post. I finished chemotherapy and currently i have a remission!!

I enjoy my life the way it is, hope you do too

[xluvmymelaniex]

There are days like today when I feel completely alone. Not in a way of being misunderstood, but in a way of being isolated from society.

I was a very social person before I was diagnosed. I miss long walks, being around people, going to clubs, on gigs and all of that...

Im just teenager and all i would like to think about is partying, getting drunk with friends and later regretting things on a second day.

The most devastating for me is that I have no one. I feel so alone. I have never been in a relationship. I never loved and I never was loved by someone. I am scared i will never experience love, that's my biggest fear.

[xluvmymelaniex]

It's been a while since I last posted here.

On may 31th I was diagnosed with cancer.

[1-800kanye]

u know whats wild. everyone on here like 20 and when i first joined everyone was like 14 15. u ask anybody n they been here for years. nobody new on here. staff locked the doors n were all Stuck Inside

[lupinelolita]

Tag your current age and how old you were when you joined Tumblr

[xluvmymelaniex]

19, 15 then

[daugterofliterature]

Herbert James Draper, The Lament for Icarus (1898), detail.

[thoughtkick]

“She was the kind of person who took care of things by herself. She’d never ask anybody for advice or help. It wasn’t a matter of pride, I think. She just did what seemed natural to her.”

— Haruki Murakami

[cheruib]

oh i will continue to love this life despite despite despite i will find ways to nourish my soul to give my eyes beautiful things to see and my brain beautiful thoughts to wander through and when it gets dark and tough i will feel the sorrow as much as i can i will hold the pain so close to me until we both are so familiar that we continue to live hand in hand like old friends

[wvterways]

i will no longer be embarrassed i will no longer be a victim of insecurity i will no longer plague my mind with worries i exist i am allowed to exist i am allowed to take up space i will not let others dictate my experience i will live i will live i will live

[cheruib]

oh i will continue to love this life despite despite despite i will find ways to nourish my soul to give my eyes beautiful things to see and my brain beautiful thoughts to wander through and when it gets dark and tough i will feel the sorrow as much as i can i will hold the pain so close to me until we both are so familiar that we continue to live hand in hand like old friends

[anthropoetics]

i want to learn ceramics, to play the electric guitar, bass, painting, i want to go camping, get into film photography, learn about tea, coffee and wine, all trees and flowers from my country, try out all fruits ever, know how to cook heavenly, have a cosy house and invite people i love and have a wall they can decorate and a handmade outfit from scratch that i’ll keep forever, have a communitary vegetable garden, own a bookshop that’s also a flowershop that’s also a café

[stuckinapril]

anyone who doesn’t romanticize life is LAME i don’t wanna hear your “realist” takes bitch i want the sun to drench me in honey and the stars to light my path and the breeze to dance in my hair and the sky to weep tears of joy and the ocean to lament to me in waves and the hearts of so many people i haven’t met to speak to me across the fabric of time and space. we’re all fucking connected you cannot change my mind. every single one of us

[satanasaeternus]

Agostino Arrivabene

[annasinthewalls]

spring is coming. Spring IS COMING. You will stand on soft grass again, and feel the sun kiss your cheeks and shoulders. you will eat of the same berries as the animals returned from their hibernation. you will hear the air alive with your collective breathing.

[sex-death-rebirth]

Le cycle des passions by Jean Delville, 1890

[sex-death-rebirth]

At Pompeii by Gustave Boulanger, 19th c.

[unbotheredmuse]

[xluvmymelaniex]

i lost 10kg