xnthxxnd

sw 270; cw 215; ugw 150; call me rot; he/they; 18+; recover

[xnthxxnd]

my reasons for getting skinny:

i'll be one of those attractive boys everyone looks at

flat. chest.

i'll take up the amount of space i'm meant to

my!! knees!! wont!! hurt!!

pronounced. jawline.

my tendons and veins will be more visible and i'll finally have those "gamer boy hands"

passing. just all around.

i'll fit any clothes?? like,, any?? and look good?? / i can wear whatever i want

milestone goals / rewards:

*note: my goals are small increments so its actually attainable and i will be motivated to lose more each time. this doesnt work for everyone but it does for me.

starting: 270lbs

g1: 250lbs / new tattoo

g2: 225lbs / new gaming chair

g3: 200lbs / wardrobe update

g4: 175lbs / minecraft tattoo

uge: 150lbs / new pc build

rules / restrictions:

at least 1500ml water a day

1500cal

daily excercise

excercise routine:

*note: will update as i change it

bicep curls(5lb) - 12, 10, 8, 6 x3 / 20sec rest (-360cal)

shoulder press(5lb) - 12, 10, 8, 6 x3 / 20sec rest (-120cal)

10 sit ups x 3

squats(body weight) - 12, 10, 8, 6 / 20sec rest (-14cal)

work cardio

[xnthxxnd]

chat im ngl i feel so fucking numb again. only numbness and sadness. im so tired of these cycles. idk how much longer i can do this

[xnthxxnd]

also, turns out this was just bipolar disorder. so. yk.

[xnthxxnd]

so hi :3 im in a wonderful mood bc i'm sitting under 215lbs :3 such good progress

[xnthxxnd]

i think everyone likes me better when i'm drunk. just saying. i should be drunk all the time ngl

[xnthxxnd]

chat im ngl i feel so fucking numb again. only numbness and sadness. im so tired of these cycles. idk how much longer i can do this

[xnthxxnd]

we are once again not doing well chat

[xnthxxnd]

im so suicidal today out of nowhere and the day's just started

[xnthxxnd]

god i fucking, jesus christ, fucking hate bipolar so fuckin much. i have to sleep!!!! it is 2a!!!!! we work tomorrow at 9!!!!!!! we have to be awake in 5 hours!!!!!!!! fucking shut down brain!!!!!!!!!!!!

[blo0dy-b0nes]

screaming and crying and throwing up i need to look like this

[sodigo03]

you know what really bothers me? its the lack of male thinspo, its practically nonexistent and repetative, and almost every single one is really pale, and i know that you can be skinny and tan, i need tan malespo

[assmallasadoll]

harm reduction post!

pls read 💗

the things that are highlighted are what the sections are about 🫶

ik that you’re probably tired most of the day- so take your vitamins and meds! it can and will help so much with brain fog and fatigue.

caffeine is kind of like a staple but when you are thinking about drinking coffee, try to have matcha instead. it doesn’t make you all jittery and stuff, instead it just wakes you up! (trust, if you get good quality matcha it doesn’t taste like grass)

when you feel dizzy or you feel like you’re about to faint, grab a protein bar or some fruit and sit down! rest is the best thing you can do for your body in this situation

if you’re starting school, and you’re nervous about brain fog, have breakfast- even if it’s little. that way you are fueled for upcoming schoolwork.

hair loss can be permanent in some cases, so please take care of it and have a lot of iron in your diet. the mielle rosemary and mint hair oil helps tons with hair growth.

please be safe, love yall !!

[stars4ren1-deactivated20241102]

the way my jaw dropped from the accuracy, literally just said this to myself earlier😦

[knockmetothefloor]

[xnthxxnd]

i am definitely spiraling right now, except there's nothing to fix it. i can't go to sleep because i have to get homework done

[canteatsblog]

Real ‘cause with

[xnthxxnd]

wanna slit my wrists rn, can't even lie

[xnthxxnd]

I'm hanging on by a thread and feel like i don't have anywhere to turn to. fucking maybe this week it'll finally end