LIFE OF A SHOW GIRL

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[xoshowgrl]

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[xoshowgrl]

OFF THE RECORD, michael jackson.

— thinking about how shy and reserved michael is in public but the filthiest whenever he’s left alone with you entirely too long.

wc: do you really wanna know how filthy he can get or not?

content—18+ minors do not interact, explicit sexual themes. fluff, pet names, a consenting king, sensual kissing, whimpering, dry humpingg, semi-public sex, orgasm denial. hope i did him some justiceee mwuah!

something should’ve warned you there was a mischievous little thing buried somewhere deep inside the shy gentleman you knew as michael.

maybe it was the way his brothers teased him relentlessly whenever interviews painted michael as some impossibly “innocent” boy turned global superstar, remotely untouched by anything suggestive.

jermaine was always the one to laugh the hardest about it.

‘man if only y’all knew!’

and michael? he’d immediately duck his head afterward, shoulders shaking with embarrassed laughter insisting that the siblings stop. even as that little grin betrayed him completely.

was michael inexperienced? very much so, respectfully and faithfully by choice. but innocent? if we’re keeping it off the record? not nearly as much as people wanted to believe. because while the public saw his bashfulness, his brothers saw everything else firsthand growing up on the road with him.

they saw the way teenage michael greeted beautiful women backstage and at appearances. taking fan numbers and storing them in his pants during performances. shaking the hands of influential women all polite with soft spoken manners and lowered lashes everyone found so adorable. meanwhile michael would look them over appreciatively the second they walked away.

poking a tongue inside of his cheek the moment he felt the corner of his mouth twitch. shyness doing its best to disguise that charming little grin whenever he caught someone flustered by him.

and ever single time one of his brothers caught him doing it, the teasing started immediately.

‘mike swear he slick’

‘boy ain’t ever been that shy’

‘she got that boy nose widee open’

and michael would always deny it furiously afterwards. cheeks growing hot as he hid his face. but the evidence kept pilling up over the years.

because the same shy boy who struggled holding eye contact far too long was also the very same boy who’d gotten caught flipping through a playboy magazine somewhere in the old home videos of the jackson family archives.

“michael they filmin’ you..” joseph’s voice spilled past the camcorder.

the glossy pages flashing across the screen before he scrambled to hide it. horrified. shy glances overshadowing those curious eyes, curious hands, and curious mind. still trying to act innocent after the damning evidence was presented as they took a trip down memory lane.

you should’ve known then that there was something simmering quietly beneath thise cardigans, shy laughs, and gentlemanly habits.

or maybe it was the late night phone calls.

the spontaneous kind that michael was known for making whenever loneliness crept in too heavily. fame surrounding him constantly yet somehow it still left him isolated in ways most people would never understand. so, sometimes in the middle of the night, he’d simply call someone. anyone. whether it’d be family, a friend, or a fan. just to hear another human voice untouched by expectations, cameras, or screaming crowds.

and one random night, you answered. but neither of you knew just how dangerous that would become.

because somewhere between soft laughter through telephone static and whispered conversations stretching towards sunrise, michael stopped sounding like the biggest star in the world and started sounding like a man starving to be known.

maybe that’s why you never noticed the dangerous little shift happening beneath all that sweetness.

not until tonight.

the bass inside studio 54 practically rattled through your ribs as colored lights spun wildly across the crowded dance floor. disco balls splattering shimmering reflections against sweaty bodies moving shoulder to shoulder beneath mirrored ceilings and cigarette haze as ‘Get On The Floor’ blasted loud enough to swallow every coherent thought in your head.

and somehow michael still found you in the middle of all that chaos. grin spreading the moment your eyes met across the dance floor. all bright, boyish, and playful.

you barely had time to laugh before he was suddenly in front of you. moving effortlessly with the music while that infectious laugh from the song spilled from him in real time.

“c’mon!” he teased, reaching out for your hands before twirling you beneath him.

and god could michael dance. not just perform, but dance. feel every beat and rhythm the way only he seems to. moving effortlessly beneath the flashing lights, spins and footwork smooth enough to make your head turn trying to keep up with him.

big hands settling on against your waist, guiding himself around you before slipping away again. never too long, just enough to leave a lingering warmth behind. while shoulders bounce lightly to the beat as lights painted shifting colors across his face.

until a sudden finger poked against your waist, earning a squeal before he smoothly caught your hips again to steady you against him.

“oh you ticklish?” he teased.

the crowd surging tighter around you both, bodies pressed so close across the dance floor that you found yourself drifting behind michael one too many times. swallowed by the growing chaos. but each time it happened, michael’s hand found you almost instantly.

warm fingers curling around your wrist. your waist. your hand. keeping you close.

by the third time a man stumbled into you michael pulled you safely against him before you disappeared into the crowd entirely.

“you okay?” his brows pinched with concern.

“i’m fine mikey, promise..” you nodded, placing a reassuring hand against his chest.

but his hand stayed firm against your waist, protective. possessive in a way that felt strangely natural on him. moving you away swiftly when another crowd surged pushed up against your back. eyes darting around the club before he leaned toward bill near the edge of the dance floor.

“can we find somewhere quieter?”

within minutes, you were being carefully guided through the club, bill ushering you both to a quiet section he managed to carve out. tucked away behind heavy velvet curtains. keeping curious eyes and wandering strangers away while the muffled pulse of disco vibrated through the walls around you.

privacy, or atleast the closest thing michael jackson could get too it. now there was only this little pocket of quiet bill had secured for the both of you. for you.

colored flecks slipped through the seams, scattering fractured reds, blues, and golds across michael’s face every few seconds while shards of mirrored light shimmered throughout his fro like stars.

and suddenly you could really look at him.

the sharp line of his jaw, the graceful slope of his nose, that soft glow of disco resting against his brown skin as he sank comfortably into the sculpted conversation pit. a breathless laugh slipped from him as he caught his breath from the dance floor.

so handsome. and for once? he didn’t look away when you caught him staring.

he held it.

wide fawn eyes returning returning the favor as they dragging slowly over you beneath the dim lights, pearly teeth catching against his bottom lip in a slow bite. taking his time as though he hadn’t gotten a proper look at you all night.

heat crawled into your cheeks beneath his attention. not because he’d never looked at you before, but because he’d never looked this long. michael wasn’t even touching you but being looked at this carefully felt so much more overwhelming.

“your cute when you get all shy..” he murmured, head tilting slightly as his eyes flickered down to your lips. before slowly finding yours again. like he couldn’t quite figure out where he wanted to look.

and somehow hearing him say it made the heat that crept down your spine worse.

“you look so pretty,” he admitted quietly, the compliment barely above a whisper. like he’d meant to keep it to himself. “real pretty.”

the words settling between you, as his fingers absentmindedly traced along your calf. thumb brushing back and forth in lazy strokes all while his gaze lingered on his gorgeous girl.

“been thinkin’ that all night.” he confessed an moment later, brown eyes dropping briefly with a shy laugh. “ i don’t think i tell you enough.”

but the thing was, michael told you plenty. he always had. even during those countless late night calls where he’d sneak compliments in during conversations when he thought you weren’t paying attention.

but this felt different. because for the first time, michael wasn’t hiding how much he enjoyed looking at you. wasn’t disguising it being nervous glances or bashful smiles. he was letting himself stare, letting himself admire you openly. and somehow that honesty made him more vulnerable than compliment ever could.

then he leaned closer, slow enough for you to stop him if you wanted. close enough for his expensive cologne to wrap around you warm and dizzying. carrying traces of the night still lingering on his skin.

his mouth drifting towards the corner of your lips, a soft kiss. just before crossing to the other side, pressing another. equally patient.

and when michael finally pulled back, there was hardly any space between you at all. every breath shared as his mouth hovered just beneath yours. every word grazing as he spoke, “can i sweet girl?”

the question careful. patient. like your answer matter more than anything else. like he genuinely needed your permission. as if he needed to know you were okay with whatever he was about to do.

then his thumb lifted, moving with gentle hesitation that’d been woven into every tender thing he did. while the pad of it traced slowly along your bottom lip. from one corner to the other. his gaze following the movement as if he’d been distracted by it himself.

“please..?” he added softly.

the nod came before you could stop it, like your body decided it was sure before your mind. and michael released a breath he didn’t realize he’d been holding. capturing your lips like a gentleman trying so hard not to stop being one. letting himself learn the feeling of your plush lips as his dragged across yours softly.

and when he finally pulled back, it wasn’t much. barely enough to separate. barely enough to breathe.

one hand tangling in your hair. tilting your head back just enough to deepen the angle. breathing ragged into your open mouth like he couldn't get enough. while another slipped higher, slender fingers leaving a scorching trail as they curl gently behind your knee.

a quiet request. an invitation.

guiding you closer, letting you feel that hard line of him settle against your pussy.

and my god could you feel it.

“there you go pretty girl..”

his breath warm and wet against your lips, soothing and soft even as your hips drop down in his lap, chasing that heavy pressure that sent a buzz through your clit. fingers tightening gently in your hair as he pulled you flush against his chest, meeting your hips with a slow rock.

his hands dipping to your hips, fingers digging possessively at the flesh of your ass as he held you gently in place. your tongue slipping out to taste his bottom lip, sucking it softly into your mouth with a wet pop.

“y-you make it so hard” michael whimpered into your mouth.

“so hard t’remember i’m supposed to be a gentleman with you” words slurring together as his head fell back against the velvet cushion. exposing that long, graceful throat as his hips jerked up involuntarily, rolling once, twice. “so hard not to ruin you…”

the words sounding almost devastating coming from someone so soft spoken. like wanting you this badly genuinely terrified him, which somehow only made you want him more.

and he was hard. so hard.

and so dangerously close to right where you needed him to be but instead leaning down to place a gentle kiss along your shoulder where the straps of your top had slipped.

“but you just feel so good,” finding your frilled thong peaking beneath your skirt. plush folds practically eating the fabric, “i bet she’s so pretty when she’s all wet and sticky for me”

lips brushing over the sweet hollow of your collarbone before, guiding your pretty face back down to his as he kisses you again, disgustingly slow this time. his tongue sliding against yours, deep and lazy as his fingertips squeezing higher, hiking your skirt up inch by reckless inch until the soft swell of your bare ass finally met air. like he was savoring every second. like he'd waited so long for this, that he needed to remember what it tasted like.

before you knew it five of your manicured fingers scratching along the soft curls at his nape while the others dug into his knee, holding your body and strained thighs steady as you helped him drag that clit against his throbbing dick. the thick pads of his fingers curling around the stringy band of your panties.

yanking. pulling.

practically dropping your pussy onto him just to meet halfway with hard, desperate thrusts against you. meeting the rhythm you'd started without even realizing it. mouth opening wider for you, tongue slipping out to chase yours, tasting like expensive champagne and something richer. sweeter.

“oh my fucking g— mich..michael” a shuddering whine against his mouth. “just like thattt,”

the weight of him undeniable beneath you, pressing flush into all the right places through the thin layer of his briefs that you both insistently drag of your soaked clit across. “please don’t stop baby..”

and why would he?

his hips rolling with you now, chasing every needy grind you gave him while his fingers splayed out possessively as they cradle the back of your skull, dragging kisses along the sensitive curve beneath your ear. panting hot along the column of your throat.

“never,” he promised, breath hot against your neck before he bit down—soft, but enough to mark. “i’d never stop for the world, angel”

making it almost impossible not to melt back against him

and somehow that promise came out sounding more sinful than sweet because those long slender fingers of his find the soaked crotch of your thong, pushing the fabric aside so he could finally see that glimmering clit. grinding that thick length of his dick against it with a delicious slow rhythm.

a rhythm that had your heavy head nuzzling into his neck, catching every shaky whimper that spilled from your throat, body growing hot with every slow roll. a rhythm that had his leaking tip soaking through his cotton briefs until they were nearly translucent with how much the two of you wanted eachother.

"god, you're so wet for me" he groaned against your throat, teeth catching the soft skin there before soothing it with a wet kiss.

snaking a hand down to grab your ass, like he needed you closer. the disco ball above casting shimmering lights across his face, highlighting his sharp features and soft lips. “please look at me baby,”

“i need it..”eyes blown wide and unfocused as you rocked against him.

and when your eyes finally met his again they were heavy with something neither of you had seen before. reeling back just enough so the both of you could watch each other work.

slender fingers digging into your fleshy hips as he drug your clit with a pressure that had your thighs trembling. a pressure that had his fat tip clinging to slickly thin fabric. a crumbling pressure that had you falling apart.

"michael—" your voice cracked, breaking on his name like it was a prayer.

until suddenly— thunk, thunk, thunk.

three knocks sound against the wall. not urgent. not concerned. just a loud enough sound to remind you both that rest of the world existed beyond your little corner of 54. the kind of knock that carried unmistakable feeling of a man who’d already given you both far more privacy than he intended.

“now michael,” bill sighed, “i can keep folks from peekin’ in here, but i can only make yall sound so innocent behind these curtains.”

your face burned, and judging by the breathless laugh michael tried hiding against your shoulder. he was too.

“especially with how noisy y’all being behind this here curtain.”

michael bit back another laugh, his cheeks flushed as he pressed a gentle kiss to your shoulder, trying to compose himself.

"s-sorry bill," he called out, his voice embarrassingly shaken.

pulling you closer as an his arms wrapping around to tuck you in a protective embrace. peppering soothing kisses across your face, each one accompanied by a soft chuckle as you tried burying yourself in his skin.

“your alright pretty girl. promise.”

and maybe, just maybe, he’d realized why he let that innocent image keep him at bay behind those filthy desires all this time.

[xoshowgrl]

NIGHTS LIKE THIS, connie springer.

content: dominican!connie, college au, smut with no lick of plot honestly, explicit language, lewd descriptions, teasing, dirty talk, nipple play, tip warming? inspired by this ask & visual.

connie loved nights like this. and you did too.

no work due, no parties clouding your mind, and most importantly no friends to hide your yearning looks and touches from.

the two of you were hidden in your own little cocoon, lo’s misleading your friends into thinking y’all were in two separate places. not quite ready to spill the tea.

all cozy in connie’s off campus apartment his warm body laid atop of yours, resting easily between your plush thighs. the slow deep breathes he took tickled your skin as his head rested just above you navel. connie touched you absentmindedly, fingers massaging into your hip, rubbing his thumb over your knuckles and hooking them with his. your brown skin smooth against that butter yellow nightie set you wore. fingers twirling and splitting his buzzed cut curls, while the two of you melt into the plush bed.

rain pelted on the nearby window as the john wick movies the two of you swore you’d binge casually played on the screen. strong hands pulling you closer as if the two of you couldn’t be any closer.

the fatal crashes of cars and gunshots blurred into background noise as connie took a deep whiff of your skin, that vanilla bourbon perfume oil clouding his senses. placing one lingering peck along your stomach as his strong hands grip at your thighs. hands roughly massaging into your flesh before draping them over his arms and hooking them higher, nearly folding your body in half as that familiar pressure sat along your pelvis.

you knew exactly where this was headed, lips curled into a smile, a teasing hum in your voice once you finally spoke. “conn—”

connie’s voice vibrates against your skin, “hmm?” leaning down to place a gentle kiss on your shoulder, where the straps of your tank had slipped.

a giggle slips past as his lips continue to wander. “thought we were having movie night..” breathing out a low, wanting sigh.

“we are princesa..” a low hum bounced off his chest, murmuring softly against your skin. lifting his head just enough for his low golden brown eyes to meet yours. “i know exactly what i wanna watch.”

open faced grill on display beside his pretty white teeth, as he bit down into his bottom lip. the two of you watching how hard he grew from just resting against you. leading to the familiar buzz in your clit and a heat that creeps up your spine, nipples perking up beneath the smooth fabric of your cami tank.

that buzz growing stronger once the two of you locked eyes, his shirtless body towering over yours with his sharp v-line on display just above his sweats.

then his lips meets yours for a soft kiss, the slightest press of his lips against yours. then another, against your jaw. lingering against your warm skin. trailing down to your neck, sucking softly at that sweet spot behind you ear while his fingers grazed at the hem of your tank. hooking a finger around the frill and tugging it down, the cool air grazing your skin in waves.

holding your heavy breast in his hand while his thumb circles your peaked nipple. “so fuckin’ pretty”

connie’s pink lips wrapping around your hardened brow nipple, sucking slow and deep as it tightened in his mouth. thighs clamping around his waist as a soft whine fell from your lips. groaning against your skin, sending shocks of pleasure from your breast straight down to your slicked clit.

nipping gently at the sensitive bud before sucking hard, soothing that pleasurable sting that made you chest cave while his other hand stayed busy, working at your breast. squeezing and flicking at the squishy bud, switching between the two like a man starved. finally gathering both of your heavy titties in his big hands, before he stops to give them both a soft kiss. doing it again and again until he’s messily suckling your aching nipples. soothing them wet with spit when he finally released them with one last pop.

connie reeled back, spreading your thighs wide. revealing your pulsing clit peeking through your damp thong, slit flooded with slick from every suck and tug of you nipples.

his wet lips spread into a grin, “there she go.. this my favorite part.”

lips sealing around yours once more, tilting his head to fit perfectly with yours. noses brushing against eachothers as the two of you try to swallow each other whole. tracing his tongue along your lips before letting him slip in with ease. sliding against your tongue smoothly before sucking it into his own mouth.

your fingers tangling into his messy curls, sending shocks of pleasure down his spine. grinding down against you slowly. groaning at the feeling of your plush lips against his dick.

then connie breaks the kiss, his eyes still low and red from the woods he faced earlier tonight. looking down at where your hips connected. his own briefs growing damp from gliding over your covered pussy. eyes flickering back to your pretty face, lips all red and swollen with your lip combo smeared all over his face. pinned beneath his muscular body as your nails clutched at his curls. he rolled his hips just right, tip kissing your pulsing clit.

lips hovering above yours as he rubs against you so agonizingly slow, fingers curled so tight around his base as his dick jumps above your clit.

“s-shit con—” swallowing the soft gasp that escaped you.

watching how your plush pussy practically ate your thong. disappearing between those brown two toned lips.

his mind spirales, snipping at that shrivel of restraint left in him. but tonight he wanted to take his time with you, make you feel every piece of him that he wanted to give.

dipping into that sticky mess and hooking his fingers around the slicked fabric of your thong, those pink gummy walls peeking through as he dragging them to the side. elastic snapping as it stretched out against your plush ass.

the quiet pops of the fabric were the last thing you heard before the ringing in your ear began.

thighs spread so far they burned.

his fat mushroomed tip slowly sunk into your pussy. nails grazing at his scalp, with a pout as your pussy stretched around his fat tip.

and my god was your pussy so fucking hot and gushy.

“wet ass pussy..”

slick dribbling down his dick as he began to fill that emptiness inside you. never sinking deeper more a few inches into that clamping hole of yours, moaning in unison at the pressure of him slowly filling you up. “feels s’good papí .”

but connie doesn’t respond, he just hungrily claims your lips. swallowing every moan as he messily sucks at your tongue, before releasing your lips with a pop. the wet schlick of your pussy growing louder with every shallow roll of his hips, your grip on his curls stinging deliciously against you his scalp. earning a deep moan.

“mhm, keep opening that pussy f’me, doing such a good job mamí.”

golden irises locked on that pretty pussy trying to suck him in with every shallow stroke he gives. each one pulling out more of that gushy slick.

“you such a good girl..”

fingers gripping at the fat of your hips as he holds you steady. finally sinking deep, rolling his hip until that fat tip kissed your cervix then slowly pulling out to watch those pink gushy walls grip at his dick so tight.

and the two of you were so fucking loud, moaning and whining against each others mouth, your thighs trembling in his big hands as he kept you spread wide.

it was all to much.. the way his cool chain grazed against your hot skin, the deep moans pooling from his throat, and the disgusting sounds of your creamy pussy making a mess between your thighs.

moans trembling from your lips in long pathetic cries “mmmphshitt, i love you so fuckin’ much papí..”

and how could you not with what he was doing to you. how couldn’t he tell with how tight you were gripping onto his dick with every sloppy thrust. heavy dick dragging slow and deep along your creamy walls, clinging to every vein, curve and pulse of his dick. pussy relaying every message your dick hazed mind couldn’t. “i know you do..”

“look what i’m doing to you.”

“i love you too princesa,” fingers cupping your jaw to get a good look at your face. all fucked out and pretty, tears clinging to your wet lashes. squeezing at your jaw whenever your starts pussy spurting out quick splashes while that thick dick keeps digging you out.

“fuck.. can’t you tell..?”

[xoshowgrl]

ughh i miss connieeeeee. 😩

[prettyangeliczz]

🐆💋 — drunk dbf!michael, who ends up calling you in the middle of the night, too inebriated to care that he shouldn’t call you. you pick up, of course, voice groggy, wondering what’s going on. he feels bad for a second but it disappears once you ask if he’s okay. yeah, like he’s okay. he’ll lie and say yes, mumbling on about how he’s exhausted from being in the studio all day, but it was all a lie. well, sorta, he did go into the studio today but only to finish recording a song that will never get released. a song he made about you, his embarrassment taking over once realization hit him that he was singing sexually about his best friend’s daughter. yes, you’re an adult and you’ve probably done some things, but michael should know better. he’s not that much of a perv.

you try to ignore the feeling between your legs, michael’s using his natural voice, it’s so deep and sensational. he’s rambling, rambling on about life. all the while, you’re trying to keep your fingers from going under your night clothes and ease the ache in your pussy. you bite your bottom lip and come back to earth once michael asks you about your boyfriend. you don’t know how to answer, because how do you tell a man much older than you that he’s the reason why you’ve been staying away from your own boyfriend? that he’s on your mind at night and through the day, not your boyfriend.

of course, you don’t, you clear your throat and tell him that’s he okay. michael hums, the jealousy coming back like a little fire. he rubs his lips, wondering how long it will take for your boyfriend to end things between you. michael then begins to wonder what he can do again to finally be that wedge in your relationship. he can tell by your tone that you’re hiding something, because usually the minute michael brings up your boyfriend you can’t contain your excitement; no matter how exhausted you are.

michael will ask you if you’re sure, and you hum, scared to answer because maybe you’ll make a mistake in telling him the truth. which, you can’t afford to ruin the friendship you have with michael. michael tells you okay, and that you can tell him whatever you have going on in your pretty little mind. he’ll slip in a pet name, something he hasn’t done in a while before calling it night.

you lie there in your bed, fingers finding their way to your aching hole, sliding in and out as you try to think about your boyfriend. too bad you end up thinking of all the positions michael can put you in before you call it a night.

[babyibeenbad]

When I think it a new Michael Jackson story but it’s his nephew

[xoshowgrl]

We don’t f with tyriq no mo? ☹️

WAIT! i do i dooo!! i’ve just been hyper fixated on michael since watching the movie. 😩

[xoshowgrl]

omg i have the cutest and fluffiest idea for mj right now & i hope the good lord doesn’t give my idea to someone else just like our sweet boy said. 😭

[moonshadowsx]

how it feels going under the michael jackson tag on tumblr after the biopic

[xoshowgrl]

Why copy startingsomethin 's Michael graphic for her fic? She made that herself

good afternoon anon! so i’ve just started writing for the michael fandom on tumblr after watching the movie and personally never read any of this creator’s works. the inspiration for ‘behind the curtain’ is also included in the work but i’ll also include it here and here for reference. which is an interview from quincy on tiktok about michael struggled to tap into sensuality and the lyrics to the lady in my life with this same picture. which can be reverse searched on google.

i’ve personally had pages steal my works bar for bar on this app and i would NEVER portray anyone’s creativity as my own. you can also if there are concerns my dm’s are open for a private discussion between me and the creator your referring to about credits. enjoy your day!

[xoshowgrl]

BEHIND THE CURTAINS, michael jackson

the michael movie really dug up the suppressed admiration i’ve always had for michael as a artist & person. this story is inspired by this tiktok explaining the creative process behind ‘the lady in my life’ & the extended version is chefs kiss. we’ll start this off fluffy before we get smutty. hope you enjoyy, mwuah!

content: emotional angst, fame-induced isolation, media scrutiny, fluff, yearning, sensual kissing.

the success of Off The Wall changed everything around michael almost overnight.

suddenly there were cameras where there used to be silence. executives where there used to be family. everyone wanted a piece of him now. everyone wanted wanted to say they knew him before the world did. the fame brought spotlight, endless bragging rights, and an impossible kind of isolation.

you watched it happen slowly.

at first it’d had been exciting. everyone recognized him staring, reaching, and flashing cameras. studio sessions running till sunrise. limousines. award shows. cheeky grins as he watched songs climb the charts.

long slender fingers digging into your shoulders as he shook you with that infectious laugh, “can you believe it?!”

as if he couldn’t believe it himself. but fame has teeth.

the media began slowly picking every piece of michael with a cruel sort of fascination. his childlike wonder and soft voice. every magazine stand seemed to carry another cheaply inked headline dissecting his life and most importantly his newfound appearance. the slimming of his nose. thinned out eyebrows. loose curls that once belonged to a tightly coiled fro, hanging towards those big eyes. trying to decide who michael jackson was soon to become before he even had the chance to figure it out himself. as if he were something to be consumed instead of understood.

you saw it happen in real time.

the way michael glanced in the mirrors a little too long, hesitating before photographs, hiding more of himself behind lowered lashes, dark frames, and glittering jackets. compliments rolled off him like water because somewhere along this journey he stopped believing any of them.

and diana…

diana still had her claws in michael, a inconsistent source of affection and validation that kept him dangling between devotion and confusion. praising michael as if he hung all the stars himself then disappearing just long enough for him to question if he imagined the whole thing. sometimes you wanted to hate her for it but most times you just hated what it did to him. because every time she disappeared michael came back emptier.

tonight was one of those nights.

the havenhurst living room sat dim outside of the television glow, some old rerun playing neither of you were actually watching. the jackson family home had long since gone quiet upstairs. michael sunk deep into the couch cushions beside you, fingers mindlessly fidgeting with his curls.

“you know what quincy told me today?” he asked suddenly, pushing it all out in one quick go.

you glanced over, “what?”

“that i ‘oughta stop reading those magazines.”

a small laugh left you, “that probably good advice mikey.”

“mhm..” he murmurs, eyes still fixed on the television. “one of ‘em talked about how i’m so expressive.. that i’ve got these deformed alien-like eyes.”

“micha—”

“no it’s okay..” he smiled, thise cheeks refusing to reach his eyes. “m-maybe they’re right.”

“they aren’t.” you slammed down a magazine, words final.

he shrugged lightly, laughing it off. “diana says people notice these things because i’m different now.”

there it was again. always diana.

like every road inside of him somehow lead back to her.

“you think she ever really cared?” michael asked softly, voice barely raising above a whisper. “or maybe i just made it all bigger in my head than it was..”

you looked over at him carefully, the plush couch consuming your legs as you faced him. michael kept his eyes fixated ahead, shaking his head as if his thoughts had already turned cruel long before he spoke them out loud.

“i dunno… she gets me.” he murmured quietly, almost to himself. “I don’t think anybody ever got me like diana..”

the words struck harder than they should have. not because they were meant wound you. because he believed them. maybe that somehow made it worse. suddenly every year spent quietly loving him felt unbearably heavy sitting in your chest.

you knew the difference between his real laugh and the polite chuckled he gave. knew when he was anxious with every knock of his knees colliding together. knew that he’d spent hours curating a fresh melody, while he asked “this sounds okay? m’still working out the kinks..”

like your opinion mattered more than executives and producers combined.

you knew that he still got excited over peter pan, nostalgic childhood games, and film despite the world trying to age him into something polished and untouchable.

and suddenly the hurt slipped out before pride could even stop it. “i did.”

michael blinked, finally looking at you. brown eyes wide and searching, full of confusion then disbelief.

“i did michael..”

the confession settling between the both of you almost instantly, fragile and irreversible. you swallowed hard, fighting to steady your breathing despite the way your chest burned with buried truth.

“i loved you.” you voice smaller than you intended, hurt slipping through despite your best efforts. “always loved you.”

his face softened then, quiet surprise spreading slowly across his face like dawn breaking over water.

“before there was a diana that existed…” you continued, eyes burning as they darted away from his. “I did..”

michael stared at you as if the confession physically rooted him in place. lips parted slightly as he watched you rise from the couch collecting your things, and letting yourself out.

because somewhere between the fame, headlines, diana ross, and the desperate climb to toward greatness. michael never once stopped to consider that someone had chosen him exactly as he was.

westlake had started to feel suffocating by hour eight.

dimmed lights, half empty coffee cups, empty soda cans littering the console, and tape reels spinning endlessly behind glass. again and again the opening chords of ‘The Lady in My Life’ floated through the studio speakers only to stop halfway through another take.

and michael? well he looked frustrated.

everytime the outro came around, he hesitated. like he was standing at the edge of something too vulnerable to say out loud.

“you wanna try it again?” michael asked softly before anyone else could speak.

“mike,” quincy’s voice crackled through the speaker, chair creaking as he leaned up “you singing pretty, man, but we gotta dig deep for that passion.”

every note sounded technically perfect.every run landed exactly where it should. every note sounded perfect. too perfect. but something was missing. michael knew it. quincy knew it. hell even the engineers silently behind the boards knew it.

it lacked ache. longing.

“this one gotta ache a little” quincy continued, “this the one we gotta try for michael. i’m gonna need you to beg, to yearn..” pointing towards the booth glass.

michael nodded once, adjusting the headphones along his messy curls. “i—i can do it Q.”

“I know you can.” quincy chuckled, “but right now you singin’ like you scared of it.”

the struck something tender inside michael, because maybe he was. because michael messed up by letting that confession sit between you for the past week and a half. you didn’t push him. you knew michael well enough to understand that when emotions overwhelmed him, he retreated inward first.

always inward.

“matter fact,” quincy snapped, nodding towards the phone as one of the engineers reached for the line. “we’ll get sweetheart on the phone.”

“what?” michael’s head snapped up instantly.

“that little sweet girl of yours” quincy grinned knowingly, “get her on down here and get a fire lit beneath those feet.”

chuckles filling the space as busy bodies move around the room.

michael stood so quickly the headphone cord tugged taut. “no, no, Q. you don’t go—”

but his protests came too soft. too late. the number had already been dialed. shrinking into himself with every ringing tone.

one hand rubbed nervously against the back of his neck while he stared down at the lyric sheets scattered across the booth floor. after everything that happened, the last thing he wanted was for you to see him like this. yet some buried, deeply selfish part of him still hoped you’d come.

you still came. even with hurt heavy in your chest.

the studio doors opened sometime around midnight, drawing everyone’s attention toward you. you looked exhausted. pretty in that effortless way michael always noticed first. despite everything sitting heavy between you two, you still managed to curl those lips into that teasing smile as soon as you saw quincy.

“only you can have mikey in the studio till midnight on the lord’s day Q.”

your sleepy voice earning the warmest laughs from the room.

“hey,” quincy pointed towards you. “mike says we gotta get them vocals in before the good lord give em to prince.”

the entire studio erupted, earning a soft groan from michael behind the booth glass. ducking his head bashfully behind the microphone, rosy cheeks darkening with embarrassment. “Q..”

“and maybe, just maybe.” quincy spoke louder, leaning back as he grinned towards the booth. “we could use your help getting that match lit for our pretty boy.”

your eyes found michael’s almost instantly after that, curled inward on the stool with headphones hanging around his neck, fingers nervously picking at the wire. avoiding your gaze the second it met his. quincy glancing slowly between the two of you, grinning like he finally understood something everyone else missed.

you stepped into the booth quietly, letting the heavy door shut behind you. the air was thick, warm, and tender in all the worst ways.

“…thank you for coming.” voice feather soft, barely carried above the hum of the equipment. nervous eyes darting all around the room instead of holding yours too long.

“well..” you huffed out a humorless laugh, settling on the arm of the nearest couch. “you show up for the people you care about about.”

“a disagreement doesn’t make everything between the person you care about disappear.” you added quietly, before you could stop yourself. words laced with that sweet honest southern accent, “wondering where you stand every week.”

and the guilt that spread across his face so quickly it almost hurt to look at.

“i didn’t mean—”

“i know.” crossing your arms loosely over yourself, trying to ignore how small the booth suddenly felt.

outside the glass, quincy pressed the talk back button. voice suddenly ringing throughout the booth. “you good in there mike?”

michael froze, eyes flickering toward the glass where half the studio pretended not to be watching the two of you.

“m’fine Q.” swallowing hard, but his voice cracked around the lie. silence lingered another moment before michael looked toward the microphone again. “… can we start again?”

quincy nodded, exchanging a quick look between engineers. “roll it.”

the instrumental started once more.

michael adjusted the headphones over his messy curls, but before the first lyric could begin he hesitated. “c-can you close the curtains please?”

quincy’s teasing expression softened slightly before he nodded towards the booth. the thick curtains slowly slid shut around the studio glass, cutting you two off from everyone else in the room. even now, after years of performing, there were still pieces of himself that he hated exposing in front of people. especially this kind of vulnerability. this kind of wanting.

now it was only you. only him. only the dim amber lighting and the music curling through the booth like heat.

michael stood still for a few notes, eyes lowered toward the floor. breathing carefully. working uo the courage for something bigger than the song itself. then finally, he looked at you.

really looked at you.

no nervous glances away, no shy smile softening the moment. just raw. just michael. and when he sang this time, it wasn’t polished anymore. it was honest.

‘stay with me’

‘i want you to stay with me’

the music swelled gently around him, the melodies soft, dreamy, and slow enough to breathe inside. his voice quieter now, richer. every lyric threaded with something achingly personal. allowing himself to feel every forbidden desire he’d spent years swallowing down.

‘i need you by my side’

‘don’t you go nowhere’

doe eyes holding yours with a kind of vulnerability that almost hurt to witness. because michael didn’t sing sensuality loud, he sung it tenderly. like devotion. like trust. like he finally allowed himself to want something out loud.

‘ooh, girl, let me keep you warm.’

somewhere between the soft melodies and whispered promises, every guarded piece of himself started falling away. the shyness, the hesitation. the fear of wanting too much.

‘i love you, i love you. i need you, i want you babe’

‘stay with me. don’t you go nowhere.’

‘and i love you babe’

“oo—ooh, babe..” lowering his head slightly, the sharp inhale crackling through the sound system. warm and intimate against the silence of the booth, as though you were standing close enough for his breath to brush against your skin. steadying the trembling exhale before diving back into the song. “don’t you go nowhere.. your my lady,”

“all through the night…” michael let the note linger longer than anyone expected him to. long enough for the studio air to warp itself around it. his head tilted back as the sound poured from him smooth and aching, the vibrato trembling just enough.

“let me feel you babe.” the repeated promises. the pleading softness in his voice. the aching trembles melting into one another. “all over, all over, all over.”

he was sounding less like the worlds rising star and more like a man desperately trying to hand someone his heart before they walked away with it still inside him. and the longer he sang the closer he drifted towards you between versus without even realizing it. pouring every unspoken thing between you into the microphone, like he was saying everything he failed to say earlier.

‘lay back with me’

‘let me touch you girl’

‘lay back with me’

“all over, all over, all over, all over, all over, all over.” his throat bobbing hard, like each repeated promise pulled another layer off him. like every whispered ad-lib dragged something deeply buried to the surface. “all over babe, whoo”

“your my lady” michael’ voice wrapping around the lyri like it physically belong to you, hold his arms out to his side, palms open, opening himself up completely. knees sinking a little as he fell into the melody, curls falling against his forehead “your my lady babe, hee—”

“rock me, rock me, rock me, babe” his head shook faintly with every word, curls brushing against his carmelized skin. body swaying as each one weighted down by the emotion sitting behind it. like he was losing the composure he barely cling to. settling somewhere painfully deep in your stomach, pulling a thigh across the other as your fingers tightened along the seat.

then the final note faded into silence.

michael just stood there, breathing hard. still staring at you. slowly slipping the headphones from his curls and crossing the booth with careful steps, almost like you’d disappear if he moved too fast. barely any time to catch your breath before his hands found your face gently. like he still couldn’t believe he was allowed to touch you this way.

“i’m sorry.” mouth meeting yours with an unraveling need as he let out the softest sound into your mouth. his curls brushing against your forehead with every tilt of his head. breath warm and uneven against your skin as he kept returning for another kiss before either of you could fully pull away. “m’so sorry..”

like he couldn’t stop.

like now that he finally had you, even breathing apart for a second felt wrong. and you could feel the slight tremble of his hands when your fingers slid against the back of his neck. letting your plush chest rise up against him every time the kiss deepened. pouring that aching devotion into every slow drag of his tender mouth against yours.

the soft smacks of your lips echoing over the running melody seeping through the studio speakers outside the booth, earning a few applause. quincy lunging for the talkback switch and cut the booth audio off with a sharp click. somewhere behind the glass, leaning back in his chair with a cheeky grin.

“…that’s the one”

[xoshowgrl]

mike jack in his off the wall, thriller, & bad eras was something SERIOUSSSSS! 😩

i’m so irritated i was born in the 2000s.. say i won’t start drafting rn!

[ibuprofen300mg-deactivated20190]

[xoshowgrl]

this screamssss teddy if yall didn’t know.

[xoshowgrl]

this screamssss teddy if yall didn’t know.

[ciciundercover]

me when i find other black girls on tumblr:

[azarathzinthoss]

cameron cade x reader

summary : cameron's competitive nature gets the best of him.. and you

word count : 800?

warnings/tags : 19+ MDNI, porn wit ZERO plot lolz, p in v, unprotected sex, ROUGH sex, creampie, daddy kink, he smacks y/n's ass like one time? im prolly missing sum but u get it! oh and y/n uses she/her pronouns

song inspo. : d33p3r - mike will made it, teezo touchdown, & luda

one thing’s certain about cameron cade - he was excruciatingly competitive. he desired to win everything, regardless of how major or minor it is. this urge to be champion translated over into his relationships as well. arguments, petty games, impromptu harmless wrestling matches - he won them. he’d proudly flex his gorgeous muscles while you roll your eyes and scoff.

you’d let him win because you love him. and, frankly, because he’s a sore loser. all his pent-up rage and anger festered and ate him alive. which led to cameron taking it out on you. rough sex, bite marks, you in a heap of sweat and tears apologizing profusely. the mess he often left you in was a double-edged sword. you hated that you bent a knee for cameron, giving into the fear he'd make you feel from one look alone. but you loved when he got in this mode. taunting and ignorantly treating your body like a toy to satisfy himself and teach you a lesson in the process. he knows you’ll submit everytime. which is why tonight was no different. a petty disagreement you two had days prior rolled over into a very contentious debate.

this time, you held your ground, refusing to be the understanding party. frustrated, cameron slammed the door to your shared condo and went for a walk. you attended to some chores, hoping a routine cleaning would help calm you down. cameron not being the condo certainly did help. you were on the couch folding clothes when the front door swung open, cameron stood in the doorway. immediately, you froze in place.

his icy blue eyes bore deep into yours, the lines around his mouth hardening. fuck, he’s mad. you knew this only ended in two ways - cameron going to his ‘man cave’ to simmer down or your body becoming a victim in his path of terror. it was the latter today. that’s how you ended up where you are now. bent over in a dining room chair, no place to go, and no one to hear you scream. “baby, no more.”, you pleaded, dragging out the 'baby' for mercy. your lover could care less. cameron’s hands gripped both arms of the chair, holding it still while he ravaged your body.

your back was arched, face pressing against the cold wood. tears and snot dried on your hot cheeks. he was right behind you, his tall frame surrounding your body. cameron’s pelvis just centimeters away, his dick digging into you in ways you never thought you possible. for the past hour, cameron switched between pounding you relentlessly and eating you out from behind. you were at your breaking point. your pussy throbbing, your knees trembling trying to keep still, you felt like you’ve been in this position for hours. wet, creamy slick pooled onto the edge of the chair. you almost slipped, but cameron caught you just in time, “stay still. i’m finna cum.”

you groaned but still complied. “cam, you’re so fuckin’ deep, it’s too much.”, cameron laughed at your pathetic whines. he wouldn’t verbally admit it, but a small part of cameron enjoyed seeing you like this. at his grace, under his dominant frame taking stroke after stroke until you collapse and cry. “you’re so deep.”, he breathily mocked you. cameron pressed on the small of your back, slowly stroking deep into you. his hips angled down, hitting spots you never dreamt he could. he did this on purpose. those meticulous, but sharp strokes made your body crumble. another orgasm creeping inside you, your legs closing out of habit. tears threatened to fall again. afraid of cameron retaliating, you asked, “please, daddy, can i cum?” cameron roughly tugged on your hair, you gasped in surprise. 

his breath tickled your ear, “tell me ‘thank you’ when you cum on my dick.” a soft ‘yes daddy’ left your lips. cameron calmly picked up the pace, pulling on your shirt and hair to keep you in place while you unravel beneath him. your clit jumped at the steady, but harsh stimulation of his balls hitting it. you couldn’t scream or cry, just broken chants of ‘oh my god, oh my god, oh my god’. you nails dug into the expensive wood, tiny creaks filled the spacious condo. your pussy squelched around cameron’s dick. a harsh slap landed on your ass, “what did i say?”

“thank you, daddy, thank you! ”, you cried. your body trembled under him, but he didn’t stop. his hands returned to the arm chairs. the chair scratching against the floor from the brute force of cameron’s thrusts. you screamed, feeling slightly embarrassed, wondering if your neighbors heard you. the chair went from scooting ever so slightly to fully rocking. your body fell slack in the chair, the pleasure becoming unbearable at this point. “fuck, you boutta make me cum, baby.”, cameron groaned through gritted teeth. you begged for him to cum, to end this agonizing war of pleasure and pain.

a final, hard snap of his hips and he released inside you. your pussy achingly pulsated the longer he stayed inside of you. his chest pressed onto your back. both of your bodies respectively holding the other person’s up. you finally gathered your breath, “truce?” he lowly chuckled upon your body, “truce.” 

[cruel-hiraeth]

pussy slapping

[2neaky]

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The pressure is a dull ache that knocks something deep in her tummy.

Her eyes roll shut, shoulders tensing up as her body tries to handle the steady strength of his finger fucking into her. It curls so perfectly in her, pushing against her walls. And yet…

“M-more,” she whimpers.

“More?”

She nods, the crease in her brows deep as her eyes fall closed. She doesn’t even see the way his lips curve upwards as he kisses his teeth.

“Wasn’t you just begging me to go slow?”

His question doesn’t get a real answer, only an irritated whine.

“Huh?” As he works his finger in and out of her, always aiming to hit that one spot, her body gurgles around them, splishing against him. “That wasn’t you?”

There’s an effort to keep her lips pressed together, even as her eyes roll back at the feeling of someone digging her out in the most pleasant way possible. “Mh—Please.” The word drags from her mouth, weighed by an attitude that reeks of entitlement.

He doesn’t mind it. Without a second thought, he gives her just what she asks for, pushing his ring finger in right alongside the middle one. A moan that perfectly encapsulates utmost satisfaction leaves her lungs as her body welcomes him.

She’s sopping, her walls velvety and soft. They mold around his fingers as he presses into the spot right behind her bladder.

“Ouu … shit,” her voice drags, cracked and heavy. Above his head, her feet arch like they’re in Louboutins. Her hips twitch, thighs shuddering perpetually.

She’s a vision that he has to sit up further to see in its entirety. He licks his lips, trying to get a trace of her taste again as her cream seeps around his hand.

“You feel that?”

Bunched up together, her eyebrows don’t separate. She can only manage a weak nod. Her body offers no friction, welcoming him in with weeps of milky arousal all over the intruding fingers.

“Fuck,” he groans to himself, shifting on his knees.

“Why you creaming like that?”

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[xoshowgrl]

CAMERON’S INTERLUDE, cameron cade.

i think we’ve stopped yearning for gentleman and i wanna bring it back with a darker spin for my cammy baby.

content: explicit sexual content mdni, explicit language, yearning, kissing, dirty talk, pet names, p in v, backshots, cream pie.

you loved how cameron had this elusive restraint about him.

it was so fascinating. how he never overstepped, even while operating inside one of his most forbidden desires. how he wanted you while he stood back and watched his best friend treat you like shit. watched his bestfriend, a sorry excuse of a man talk over you in public like your thoughts were just background noise.

watched him leave you waiting outside restaurants because he was “running late” and never once apologized like it mattered. watched him forget the little things that should’ve been instinct. the way you liked your coffee, the way your voice got quiet when you were hurt, the way your shoulders curled in when you were trying not to cry. watched him take your softness for granted like it was infinite.

and somehow, every single time that man left you in pieces, cameron was there. Not always in obvious ways. Not always loudly.

but there.

maybe that’s what pulled you in first.

cause for once in your life it wasn't the size of the dick of the man in your life or the way their hands felt on your waist.

maybe it was the consistency.

or could it have been the way he brought his own flyness to what being a gentleman meant. how he’d offer you a ride whether you needed one or not, like he simply refused to let you leave alone if he could help it. the way he’d open the passenger door and wait until you were fully inside before shutting it. the way his hand would settle at the small of your back, guiding, never pushing, just enough pressure to let you know he was there.

no it was the way he looked at you.

like he was always clocking something no one else noticed. as if he saw every little shift in your face before you even realized it happened. those stares never felt careless. they lingered. heavy. intentional. like he was memorizing you in real time, the way your face lit up whenever show up unannounced with your favorite food because he remembered you mentioning it once. the way your lashes dipped when you got flustered, the way your body betrayed you long before your words ever could. cameron looked at you like a man already in too deep, but disciplined enough not to drown you with him.

cameron wouldn’t make you choose, though.

no. he wanted the decision to be solely yours.

he’d wait, patiently in that maddening way of his until he saw that you felt the same aching pull he’d been carrying himself. until the wanting in you stopped trying to disguise itself as guilt. until your body leaned before your mind could protest.

because cameron was a man who understood timing. He knew some desires needed to be earned, not forced. And so he waited, not with the desperation of a man who needed you, but with the quiet certainty of someone who already knew you were his.

and when you still weren’t sure about fully crossing that physical line, cameron settled for less in the way only a man like him could make “less” feel devastating.

a soft kiss. one side of your mouth first. then the other.

never quite your lips not all the way. Just the delicate corners of them, where your breath caught and your resolve weakened. slow, lingering brushes of his mouth against skin that felt too sensitive for something so restrained. your lips parted on instinct, glossy and trembling, and he’d only pull back enough to look at them like they were testing his self-control right along with you.

his hand inching up slowly, thumb brushing against your bottom lip this time. a gentle touch that felt like a promise more than anything else. voice was soft when he spoke, almost whispering against your mouth, "when you're ready, pretty girl."

respecting your boundaries like a real man should.

which somehow only made him harder to resist.

it was almost mesmerizing, really, how cameron could be the most menacing sports icon in the world, the kind of man entire industries tried to control and failed…

but to you? he was the sweetest gentleman.

the one that’d pull out your chair, and rung you cell at the most random times to hear your voice. the one carrying your bag over one broad shoulder while tearing a reporter apart in the next breath for crowding too close to you, his voice low and sharp enough to make the entire swarm back up without him ever needing to raise it. the one who made sure you got home safe.

cameron let you choose him a hundred little ways before you ever said his name.

because he always knew exactly how to take care of his sweet girl.

even after giving you exactly what your body had been begging for in the rough, all-consuming way you needed after all these months.

crowded in behind you until there was nowhere left to go. chest flush to your back, the hard line of his body molded against the length of your spine like he meant to remind you exactly who was there and it became harder and harder to remember you were ever trying to resist him at all.

dragging kisses along the sensitive curve beneath your ear, lingering a second too long. all while the chain at his throat brushed cold against the nape of your neck as he dipped lower, the diamond-studded pendant dragging lightly over warm skin before his mouth replaced it.

and every time he shifted, his weight pressed more firmly into your spine, a deep heavy pressure that had you gushing out more of that slick as he slid himself into you. giving you just a few inches to mold around the heavy curve of him as he stretched you out. head tipped back against his shoulder while he kept kissing at the sensitive column of your throat like he had nowhere else he needed to be.

making it almost impossible not to melt back against him.

a shaky sound slipped from you before you could stop it.

then another, quickly silenced by nip of your own lip. trying to hold it between your teeth like it might keep the small sounds from escaping.

"ah-ah, none of that." cameron chided softly, releasing your lip from your teeth with his thumb. holding onto it for a moment before leaning down to press a soft kiss to the spot. “he always kept you so quiet 'bout everything.”

“but i wanna hear everything my sweet girl gotta say...” finally releasing those breathy, broken little exhales that only seemed to encourage him.

cameron’s nose brushed along the side of your throat as he kissed lower, and the low hum that left him sounded almost satisfied. wet lips dragging slow along your throat, teeth grazing the flutter of your pulse before he sucking a blossoming bruise into place.

“stay still,” he murmured against your neck, voice low enough to vibrate through you.

his breath fanning over your damp skin before his lips pressed there again. tightening the hold like he already knew you wouldn’t, strong hands flattening low against your stomach.

the cool metal cascading down your spine as as cameron let you feel the heavy drag of him sliding out of your pussy. the heat of him vanishing all at once, taking it all with him as he eased back to take you in. sliding his hand slow along your chubby side, dragging those pretty blue eyes over every dip and curve of your silhouette.

“so sexy..”

taking his time, savoring the sight of you spread open before him. admiring the way your soft two toned flesh yielded to his thick dick, taking him inch by inch as he buried himself deep inside you. pulling a shaky whimper from your lips, “fuckkk camm—”

"you feel that, mama? that's all me..." low moan escaping his lips once that soft ass finally meets his pelvis. "all this dick, all this attention, all this love—it's all for you. only you."

"you got all of me, baby..."

and it was all him, every part of this feeling, this possession, this slow melt into something you had denied yourself for way too long. curling those fingers around your throat, tilting your head back as he leaned down to capture your mouth in a messy kiss. lips crashing against yours in a desperate, hungry kiss that claimed every inch of your mouth. thumb pressed firmly against your jaw as his tongue slid in deep. scorching as it consumed yours, releasing your lip with a pop.

“w-wanted you so badd.” reaching back, spreading that ass wide, sinking slowly, letting him savory how every inch stretch you open.

"mmm, I know, baby, I know..." he groaned against your lips, his hand tightening around your throat as his hips rolled forward, sinking even deeper. "you been lookin' at me sideways for months, tryna pretend you wasn't thinkin' 'bout me. like you ain’t wanna know what i felt like to be treated by somebody like me.”

“like you ain’t know i needed you..”

a deep, grounding pressure barely settling into your belly finally steadying the dizzy ache building inside you. a pressure that had your back bowing deep, just before cameron took it away. leaving behind the aching throb that had your juicy hips chase after it

and he let you chase it let you drop that ass back down until it connected with him again, the wet slap pulling another broken sound from your throat.

“now look at you..” his hard thrust meeting you halfway as he pounded you into the cushions. “you ain’t even tryin’ to hide it no more.”

fingers grazing as they slid to the back of your neck, spreading there as he held you exactly where he wanted. the filthy wet, plop. plop. plop of skin on skin echoing off the walls.

your eyes rolls back, mouth parting with a crackling mewl as he fucked you into the cushions. deep and steady, while those trembling hand kept yourself spread. revealing the way you let him in easily leaving his dick slick and glistening. his grip tightened at the back of your neck, pressing your face deeper into the pillows with every wet pfft of your pussy oozing around his dick. the same throbbing tip that kept slipping free with every retreat, barely staying in it like it wanted you to know what the loss of gentleman truly felt like.

his voice was low and appreciative each time he dropped himself back deep inside “ooh fuck.. she’s talking to me mama..”

those perfectly manicured nails digging into the chubby flesh of your own ass as the filthy slap of skin on skin echoed off the walls as his pace turned punishing—each thrust hitting that exact spot that had a consuming heat rush through your body. broken mewls ripping from your throat, fractured and trembling. too fucked out to give him anything clearer.

“fuckin’ me s-s’gooddd.. nghhh— s’deep in my tummy”

"and you taking that shit too." his hips rolled forward, hitting so deep inside you that made your stomach quiver. "that's where I be, dead in your tummy, stretchin' all that gushy shit out just for me."

sliding those big hands up your waist lifting your hips to meet every stroke, making sure every inch went where it was meant to go. "promise you it ain’t going nowhere mama.”

a promise kept as your body gave out in the prettiest way. trembling like every once of strength was slipping from your fingers. muscles refusing to hold yourself up much longer no matter how badly you wanted to. aching from the heavy pressure of his body colliding against yours.

and all you could do was feel it.

take it.

let yourself fall apart beneath him.

frown etching deep in your soft features as you gushed out a creamy mess, dribbling rhythmically against the cushion. milky ring clinging around his dick as his thrust grow sloppy, grinding in slow circles, moaning as he filled you up with that thick healthy nut.

dipping low to press hot kisses along your spine. the chilled pendent catching on your sweaty back as it swinging between you. tracing his tongue along your shoulder blades, tasting the salt of your sweat mixed with the sweet scent of your arousal. still buried deep inside you, letting your walls flutter around him. using those same hands that the industry deemed as violent to push your coiled strands out of your face. giving him the best view of his good girl.

voice was low and soothing, "you good, pretty girl?"

giving him a weak nod, coils all wild and stuck to your forehead. eyes barely open as you trying to steady your breathing, mumbling out a breathy sigh. “so good..”

“so proud of you.” *he whispers softly, pressing gentle kisses along your neck and jaw. slowly pulling out, watching his dick slip free, connected by the sticky string clinging to his lower stomach. “you did so good for me.”

his thumb ran over your jaw, tilting your face toward his as he leaned down to press a soft kiss against your bruised lips.

the two of you tucked away in your little cocoon of love while the world deemed him as a dangerous, conniving, disloyal man uncapable of softening for anything. but cameron was only cruel where he thought cruelty was earned.

and he decided you were the only place where tenderness belong.