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•• Ball State University journalism graphics major •••••insta // twitter: sydelizf••••• trying to live a normal life going through the motions of a hodgkins lymphoma cancer patient #iWearVioletForSydney

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•September 11, 2015 - cycle 6, day 1. my blood counts were at 200 today lowest they've ever been. i asked what normal is and when she said 2,000 I knew this round would be rough. it definitely has put me on my ass! been sick, weak and strained. BUT on the bright side in two weeks it will officially be my LAST chemotherapy treatment.. unless my counts are low.. to be continued.. lol

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Oldie #443 - black butterfly is out everywhere books are sold, it only comes signed through my etsy. (Link on bio) #blackbutterfly #rmdrake @rmdrk

We are experiencing a few delays on orders due to the high volume. Please bear with us gang. Much love.

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Today we honor 9-year-old Katie Vaughan, gymnastics state championships medalist and childhood cancer survivor. Just a few months before her third birthday Katie was diagnosed with Stage IV Burkitt’s Lymphoma. Her prognosis was poor but Katie beat the odds and has passed the 5-year cancer-free milestone. This does not mean the end of the fight for Katie and her family. They have become leading childhood cancer advocates and we are honored to be a part of their team. Also the Vaughans are featured is the Emmy Award-winning “The Truth 365” documentary and short films.

While gymnastics and dance are not exactly the same, they are similar enough for us to make Katie an honorary “Dancer vs. Cancer." 

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Reed–Sternberg cells are different giant cells found with light microscopy in biopsies from individuals with Hodgkin’s lymphoma. They are usually derived from B lymphocytes, classically considered crippled germinal center B cells, meaning they have not undergone hypermutation to express their antibody. Seen against a sea of B cells, they give the tissue a moth-eaten appearance. 

Reed–Sternberg cells are large and are either multinucleated or have a bilobed nucleus with prominent eosinophilic inclusion-like nucleoli (thus resembling an “owl’s eye” appearance). Reed–Sternberg cells are CD30 and CD15 positive, usually negative for CD20 and CD45. The presence of these cells is necessary in the diagnosis of Hodgkin’s lymphoma – the absence of Reed–Sternberg cells has very high negative predictive value. They can also be found in reactive lymphadenopathy (such as infectious mononucleosis, carbamazepine associated lymphadenopathy) and very rarely in other types of non-Hodgkin lymphomas.

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thought of the day💭

a mind that is stretched by a new experience can never go back to its old dimensions

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chronicles of a weight gaining cancer patient 😓😫

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•August 28th, 2015 - cycle 5 day 15 after this treatment i'll have 1 more cycle to go!

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The Truth About Cancer

I doubt you know the truth about cancer. I will let you in on a little secret.

What they say are the worst parts of getting cancer:

Losing your hair

Being in the hospital constantly

Loosing weight

Nausea

Blood drawls

Always being cold

Knowing you could die

Not having energy

What I KNOW are the worst parts of getting cancer:

Being looked at differently

Gaining weight (due to the steroids they put us on)

Stretchmarks

Low self-esteem

Hot flashes

Anxiety

Headaches

Having energy, but not being allowed to go anywhere or do anything.

Missing school

Shots

Having your port accessed 

People treating you differently

Being bald.

Your face is often red

You can’t wear tight shirts or sports bras

Sleeping in a hospital is nearly impossible

So the next time you see someone who has cancer, don’t go all sympathetic on them. How would you feel if you walked in to school one day, and everyone looked at you and acted towards you differently. You’d feel extremely self-conscious. And when you have gained nearly 40 lbs. thanks to stupid medicines your doctors say will make your tumor shrink faster; you have no eyebrows, no eyelashes, and no hair; and when you are not allowed to work out or diet to lose any of this access weight they gave you no option but to gain; you really feel like the ugliest human being on the face of the Earth. Every compliment you get saying “You’re Beautiful” or “You’re so strong.” you know are out of pity. You know that can see the difference in you. You know they are only saying it because you are bald, or because you might die. You know that they don’t really mean it. So I dare you, next time you see someone with cancer, treat them as you would treat anyone. Don’t be nice to them because they are sick. Treat them how you treated them before they were sick. Because one of these days, I will have my hair back. I will lose the weight. But are you still going to treat me as you did when I didn’t have hair? I doubt it. It will go back to how it was, when everyone hated me. When rumors were spread, and people would avoid me in halls. When I sat alone at lunch and when I was the last person to finish running the mile in gym class. Just because I have cancer doesn’t mean I will die, so why should you treat me like I’m going to die because I have cancer?

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Hey! Look what popped up in the book I’m reading! Hodgkin’s lymphoma making a debut! I love bringing awareness to it :)

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what book is this? i need a good book to read! any suggestions??

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siiiiiiike •August 11th, 2015 - cycle 5 day 1 😔 so i had a test come back and my levels were at a certain rate that requires 6 cycles of chemo treatment in the state of Indiana.. i now have 3 total left instead of being completely done like i thought i was.. oh well i got this.. finishing it out strong 💪🏽 very fast & easy day

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This.

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8/7/15 today started out like a normal day.. what i prepare for every other friday: wake up around 7, shower, apply my numbing cream to my port and head to the cancer center for chemotherapy treatment. i get hooked up and my blood return is great, i patiently wait to see my oncologist (dr. doyle) while i eat some easy mac. i had a PET scan last week and i knew i would get the results back today. well it turns out that almost absolutely nothing lit up on the scan! which means i am fighting this cancer like a beast.. i could go home and not be treated with chemo today! my next step is to go through radiation therapy but no one understands how big of a step this is to be done with 4 cycles of chemo! i am thrilled with happiness! maybe my treatment didn't make me physically sick or handicapped but what no one saw was my mental struggle. i dreaded every other friday, not because i got poked with a huge needle in my chest but because of how i would feel in the next couple of days.. bloated, weak, irritated and emotional. it was a mind game, no one saw how much i was hurting on the inside because i was so frustrated with how i felt i couldn't come to terms with the right words to describe the feeling. i was overwhelmed with emotions from extreme anger to extreme depression.. and to now know that the drugs that make me feel this way will no longer take over my body is an incredible feeling. i am so speechless and it's so surreal to know that i am just THAT much closer to beating cancer!

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Cycle 4, day 15 - took an hour and 45 minutes to get a blood return. to say the least it was a longggg day. pet scan next week hopefully everything looks decent enough to head into radiation therapy. •July 24th, 2015