What people think sociopathy is:
What sociopathy really is:
- constant overwhelming boredom and understimulation, feeling of void, what often leads to performing harmful or stupid behaviors on others or self
- inability to regulate emotions properly which leads to impulsive mood swings
- putting yourself at constant risk and danger to feel anything
- disgusting intrusive thoughts running through your head 24/7
- inability to manage a healthy relationship
- returning desire to cut off all the people who care about you (often in a harmful way)
- struggles to understand why people care and inability to return the same
- inability to adapt and function in society due to fanatical nonconformism
- actual homicidal thoughts or tendencies
- depending on complexicity of the disorder trauma-based psychotic episodes may occur, these may trigger fatal self-destructive/destructive behaviors
- making impulsive decisions (large part of which turn out to be bad)
- actual manipulative behaviors often being a result of fear of loosing control over your life
- being prone to falling into addictions
- easily triggered aggression (verbal or physical)
- selective to none interest in understanding emotions and pain of other people/animals
- meltdowns that can last for days or weeks
- overly materialistic or trade-like understanding of any relationship, benefit oriented mindset
- feeling of being tired and disgustingly sick of everything and everyone, indifference and ignorance being a result of years of own suffering
- can be but not necessairly an entirely bad person, you don't choose to have a certain mental illness but you do choose to be a piece of shit or not.
ASPD as sociopathy is a spectrum and a complex trauma based disorder that varies depending on the individual but most importantly causes a lot of struggles and a lot of pain to the person experiencing it. It incredibly pisses me off how misunderstood and misinterpreted that disorder is, so here is a yap from someone who is actually diagnosed with it.
