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Just recently weighed in at 116.8 lbs. Did tame some laxatives because I refuse to be 5lbs heavier than the weight I’ve been maintaining (110),,
Seeing as I’ve been able to maintain that # and just need to hop my ass back into the gym, I think I’ll reach for 95/100 before the summer starts.
I’ve recently deleted Instagram and have mostly been sticking to tumble, Pinterest and Reddit for socials. I’m really hoping to find better apps that’ll help me connect with people. (I downloaded hinge however)
I still miss my ex even though I made multiple saying I wanted to leave him. To be fair- I’m not sure what I want exactly anymore.
Lady of Discord, Mirror of Truth, Trickster Muse and Divine Agent of Upheaval
She doesn’t knock. She doesn’t wait for an invitation. She walks into the feast with a golden apple and a grin that says, "Let’s see what shakes loose."
Eris is not here to play nice—and that’s the point. She’s the goddess who stirs the cauldron, the force that reveals hidden fractures by prying them wide open. To some, she’s a villain. To others, a liberator. Either way, she cannot be ignored.
Where Hekate offers torches in the dark, Eris offers a mirror. What you see in it may not be pretty—but it will be true. If you’re ready to court chaos with purpose and a dash of irreverent wisdom, Eris might just be your guide.
Origins & Mythic Roots
Eris hails from the tangled roots of Greek mythology, where she appears in Homer’s Iliad and Hesiod’s Theogony with wildly different vibes.
In Homer, Eris is the goddess of strife on the battlefield. She's a warlike presence who grows stronger as conflict escalates. In Hesiod, though, we meet two Erises: one malicious, sowing pain and war; the other productive, a force that stirs healthy competition and drive. Already, we see her duality—Eris isn’t just about senseless disorder. She’s about the creative and destructive potential of friction.
Her most infamous myth, of course, is the Judgment of Paris. When Eris was excluded from a divine banquet (because who invites the goddess of discord to a party?), she retaliated with a golden apple inscribed “To the Fairest.” That apple sparked a spat between Hera, Athena, and Aphrodite—leading to Paris’s fateful choice and, ultimately, the Trojan War.
The message? Ignore Eris at your peril.
Evolution Over Time
Unlike many Olympian deities, Eris didn’t develop a major cult or widespread worship. She was more of a mythic presence—feared, acknowledged, but rarely invited to the altar. The ancients respected her role in myth but didn’t necessarily want her meddling in their cities.
However, that doesn’t mean she faded away. In later literature and philosophy, Eris became a symbol of necessary disruption. Philosophers like Heraclitus hinted at similar ideas: conflict as the engine of change, strife as the mother of all things.
Then came the 20th century, and with it, a most unexpected revival...
Symbolism & Associations
Eris doesn’t have an official bestiary or defined sacred tools, but her symbolism is potent and sharp:
The Golden Apple: Her calling card. An object of beauty that incites truth-revealing conflict.
Snakes: Sometimes associated with her in modern interpretations, as symbols of upheaval and transformation.
The Mirror: Not a traditional symbol, but apt—Eris reflects hidden desires, motives, and fractures.
Colors: Gold (for the apple), red (for raw energy), and black (for the unknown).
Words and Language: Eris rules the sharp word, the provocative truth, the uncomfortable question.
Eris is not a goddess of tools and trappings. She is an event, a catalyst, an inciting incident incarnate.
Modern Pagan & Occult Views
Enter Discordianism, the tongue-in-cheek (but spiritually resonant) modern religion founded in the 1950s via the Principia Discordia. Here, Eris reigns as a cosmic force of chaos, humor, and paradox.
Discordians view Eris not as malicious, but as liberating—an antidote to authoritarianism, rigidity, and dogma. She embodies the Sacred Chao, the balance of order and disorder, reality and absurdity. In this paradigm, chaos isn’t destruction—it’s creative potential.
Modern witches and magical practitioners outside Discordianism have also begun embracing Eris as a goddess of shadow work, disruption magic, and truth-revealing. She’s invoked in:
Baneful or justice spells to expose hypocrisy or tear down harmful systems.
Shadow work where personal illusions are challenged.
Chaos magic, where Eris serves as a trickster muse.
Eris doesn’t demand worship—she demands awareness. She asks you to stop pretending things are fine when they aren’t. She tears down your inner echo chamber and invites you to look at the rubble.
Pop Culture Presence
Eris makes a few memorable appearances in modern media:
In Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas (2003), she’s portrayed as a seductive, chaotic goddess of mischief and manipulation. It’s flashy, if not particularly nuanced.
In Neil Gaiman’s American Gods (though not named directly), figures akin to Eris show up as personifications of cultural upheaval and trickster energies.
In memes and online culture, she’s often used as a symbol of chaos energy, especially among queer and countercultural circles.
The Discordian “fnord,” the golden apple, and the phrase “Hail Eris!” have all become part of internet esoterica and magical humor—half joke, half invocation.
Reflection/Conclusion
Eris is not for the faint of heart. She is not orderly, safe, or soothing. But she is necessary.
In a world that often demands conformity, silence, and surface-level peace, Eris brings the gift of disruption. Not for destruction’s sake, but to clear the way for what’s real. She is the divine “no” that makes room for a deeper “yes.”
Her magic is the sharp word at the right time, the inconvenient truth, the joke that exposes the emperor’s lack of clothes. She is trickster, teacher, and the whisper behind the curtain that says, “Look closer.”
You don’t summon Eris lightly—but if she shows up uninvited (as she often does), it might be time to pay attention. What needs shaking loose? What truth are you avoiding? What systems—internal or external—need to fall?
She doesn’t want your comfort. She wants your clarity.
Personal Experience
Working with Eris—one of the deities I actively honor at my altar—she brings a unique, playful trickster energy into my life. She isn’t the kind of chaotic force that seeks destruction for the sake of it. Instead, her chaos has purpose. It’s intentional, often aimed at revealing truth, shaking loose old patterns, or pushing you toward necessary growth.
When I find myself leaning into mischief or wanting to stir things up, she doesn’t discourage it—in fact, she encourages it with a smirk, like, “Yes, go on then.” Her energy is lighthearted, even mischievous, but never malicious (can be when she's protective). She feels more like a cosmic instigator with a deep understanding of cause and effect.
Eris has taught me how to navigate chaos with grace, like learning to dance through a storm rather than brace against it. She shows me that not all upheaval is bad—sometimes it's the exact thing we need to wake up or realign with our path. Through her, I've learned how to handle the “tower moments” in life without letting them destroy me. Instead of stressing out or falling apart, I’ve learned to flow with the disruption, find the lesson in it, and come out stronger on the other side.
Working with her is an invitation to embrace the unexpected—not with fear, but with curiosity and even a little bit of fun.
Further Reading
Principia Discordia, by Malaclypse the Younger & Omar Khayyam Ravenhurst
Robert Anton Wilson’s Cosmic Trigger series
Heraclitus fragments (for philosophical context on creative strife)
Peter Carroll, Liber Null & Psychonaut (for Chaos Magic theory)
Adrienne Maree Brown, Emergent Strategy (not about Eris directly, but aligned in ethos)
Modern essays on feminist trickster archetypes and shadow goddesses
Hail Eris. May your apples be golden and your chaos meaningful.
