Evan

Yap blog 18+

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Hello I’m Evan he/him im 18 (minors dni)

I made this blog so it wouldn’t be connected to my others and I could just yap on it about whatever I want

Looking for mutals if anyone wants to listen to me now and then

Im queer and British (gender-queer and gay)

If you recognise me from my other blog no you don’t

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I really don’t want to go into college tomorrow but they are literally doing new textile techniques so I have to go

I think my teacher can tell that there’s something wrong but I don’t want to talk about it

I don’t know how to explain that im fine really fine but I also might cry any minute

And that i get my project bc I chose my project but at the same time im so confused

And I have all the time in the world to do my work but I have no time to do my work and act normally

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Im on my period and im going through the craziest mood swings

2 hours ago I was happy and laughing and considering texting man 2

Now im depressed/angry listening to lizzy mcalpine considering following man 1 on instagram

Also man 1 + 2 are friends 1 introduced me to 2

I feel like the description around my feelings to text or follow them tells you which one i should do. But im not doing either of them.

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Mentions of weight gain and eating disorders

Lately ive realised I’ve gained quite a lot of weight because I eat unhealthy food and I dont exercise

So ive been trying to do at least something every week

So today I try to go on the stationary bike we have and I have up after 5 minutes

Fuck my fucking life

And I would eat healthier but ive had Eds my whole life and I don’t know how to eat healthy without just eating nothing

Im aware that losing weight shouldn’t be my motivation to exercising but i fucking hate exercising and I see no other reason to do it i literally dont do anything that requires me to exercise regularly

I wish I could go back to a couple years ago and stop eating all that fucking food

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Someone’s trying to talk to me

Ive never been more scared

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Like they asked my friend if they could text me

WHAT ABOUT

Also they asked earlier what class im in

I fear for my safety

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Okayyy turns out he just wanted to ask if I had any information on someone in my class because one of his mates fancy’s them

Why scare me like that

Also the description was just “they have a red bag” and I couldn’t remember if one of the two girls i don’t know that well have a red bag but they are both in relationships sooo poor guy

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Someone’s trying to talk to me

Ive never been more scared

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Like they asked my friend if they could text me

WHAT ABOUT

Also they asked earlier what class im in

I fear for my safety

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Someone’s trying to talk to me

Ive never been more scared

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Im so done with this one person in my class they’ve been pissing me off sooo much

NO ONE CARE ABOUT YOUR CO WORKER

Or listening to a million kpop songs to see if we recognise them

And just except help from the teacher without being rude as fuck SHES TRYING TO HELP YOU. Especially when you immediately ask someone else in the class how to do that same thing

And I am surprised when you get something correct because your always talking bullshit

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Pushing it down and praying is a spiritual experience