The more I think about gender, the less I understand it.
It started when someone asked me to define a woman. This seemingly simple question wasn’t something I had ever really thought about, because in my head, a woman was… well… what was a woman? When I was put on the spot, I realized I didn’t have an answer to give. I think a lot of people in my position would have turned to the right-wing side of things, and said that "GeNdeR iS WhAt’s iN YoUr pANtS!" But I personally took a different route. I’m starting to think that gender is just some universally agreed-upon, made up bullshit. What is it, why do need it? What purpose does it serve? Is it purely aesthetic, or is it something more? I’ve thought about it, and thought, and though, and… damn it, I still don’t know!! But at the same time, I can still understand it so well! I don’t struggle to understand what someone says when they tell me they identify as one or another, I don’t flinch when someone says they don’t want gender affirming surgery, and neither does it confuse me when they say their pronouns don’t match with their gender. I, and everyone else, seem to know *excactly* what gender is, yet still have no clue how to grasp this concept or define it. Mabye it doesn’t need to be defined? But it needs to be *something*. Anything.
It makes me wonder if this would be a simpler world if we could just abolish the whole thing! Forget about it. All you need is your sex for medical, biological and sexual reasons. That’s all. Easy, right?
But this makes me a hypocrite. A big one, in fact, because I don’t want to be a boy! I’m a Cis woman, always have been, always will be. And the thought of being a boy isn’t pleasant to me. I wouldn’t like for someone to call me he/him, sir, mister. So it must be *something*. What is it? I don’t know!
does anyone know? I sure don’t.
also side not I am not trying to deny the existence of gender, nor am I trying to ignore the existence of queer genders or people who struggle with gender, your struggles are real, because whew this stuff is really hard! I also know you don’t owe me an explanation, and it is not your job to make me understand. But if someone – anyone – would be willing to help me, I would be greatly appreciative. Thank you!
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