Loud brain cure

I have so manny random thoughts that have no reason whatsoever to be shared with the world, but im posting them annyways

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Jesus Christ man I knew I was aroace but DAMN😭

My hint of Omni with a male pref is shining through🙏

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Don’t call yourself a leftist if you’re against poly people, children, non standard or seemingly contradicting gender and sexuality expressions, refuse to acknowledge the harms of religion, call feminine men in straight relationships gay for not conforming to gender stereotypes, hate people on the aroace spectrum or refuse to acknowledge that we exist, don’t care about disabled people, won’t confront your internal racism, etc etc. thank you.

Ps if you fall under any of these, take some time to consider *why* you hold these values, and deconstruct them! Your ideals aren’t etched in stone, it’s ok to change your mind!

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I might lowkey be like a chill nonchalant version of agender. Like, I don’t actively experience any discomfort or dislike at being a girl, but I lowk wouldn’t gaf if people referred to me as he/him or saw me as a boy. Same with they/them or nonbinary. Maybe sometimes I would even want to be a boy, like that seems fun I guess. Or agender. But like like ioncurr. Ioncurr. I’m also pro gender abolition but that’s more political than my gender identity. Like all this is just a social construct, baby, I don’t care lmaoooo.

I got school work to do tho so I don’t really got time to worry about that rn.

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Plans for when I’m like way old:

Dye my hair rainbow

start some club so other old people won’t be lonely and I can make friends

adopt ALLLL the old cats. All of them

Give my grandkids/ my siblings grandkids so much money and sweets I keep in my pocket

Get tattoos

Go outside a lot on like kayaking trips or something

Travel to some hot country and chill

Live til 100 then kill myself cuz what the hell is fun about 103 am I right?

that about wraps it up, yeah

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I forgot to add the point that inspired this post in the first place; do like heroine or fentanyl or something. Like I’ll be dying in a week anyway, I may as well experience pure bliss before I go. My friends think I’ll crazy for this but I disagree.

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I think it’s incredibly hilarious that the team mystery mascot is objectively the least mysterious character of the three. I mean tragedy and comedy alike are fully covered from head to toe in various cloth and their face masks, while with mystery and their cracked mask I could run up to them right now with a q-tip and do a DNA swap because half their face, including their EYE (incredibly recognizable feature), is just like, out in the open. Also like I love how team mystery doesn’t really fit in at all lmao. Two happy lesbians in a loving relationship + evil and intimidating horse observing in the corner. I hope all mystery members find their designated cuck chair

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I think me being aroace has contributed to my long history of good decision making. I pride myself on my ability to make good life choices, and know where my worth and my values and the things and people I care about are, and I hate most people my age because they are all MORONS. GOOOOODDDDD FUUUUCKINGGGGG CHRIIIIIISSSSSTTTT HOW COULD YOU EVEN MAKE SUCH A BAD CHOICE YOU IDIOT. DUMB DUMB STUPID DUMB FAHHHH. Most of these bad choices people make have something to do with love or sex. Somehow, it can almost always be tied back to love or sex. Since I don’t experience or want that attraction, I generally just avoid all those problems. Oh you chose ur bf over ur bff? That’s crazy, I would never do that, you’re dumb. Oh you dated a horrible person who you knew was a horrible person prior to dating them because they’re really hot and you like them? Damn that’s wild, it’s all quiet on the frontal lobe over there, isn’t it? Stupid stupid people making stupid stupid choices. God. I’m so glad that’s not me. I’m so glad I have a brain that works the way it was supposed to. I hate you all.

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aroace thoughts

its so sad how allo people just barely know we exist. I told my mom I just had zero interest in romance or sex, it just seemed unappealing to me, and as I expected, she responded "ohh no love shows up when you least expect it!! Everyone falls in love! No one never falls in love! It doesn’t exist!" Like I wasn’t about to come out as aroace to her, I knew she wouldn’t think it was real anyway, so I just said "haha yeah maybe." But like I knew that wasn’t true. But it’s so sad to think they just don’t know we exist. In their eyes, we’re wrong. There is something wrong with us. But there isn’t, I know that, and I’m proud to be aroace, even if I’ll never tell a soul.

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FUCK. honestly just FUCK. We missed a very important day yesterday.

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what was yesterday, cat?

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I’m not missing it this year.

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man I just had the craziest dream

It was a continuation of one I had a long time ago. There was this guy who was a human, he now looks like Leon Kennedy, and there was a small alien, like the size of your thumb alien, and this time, the two were DATING. The human guy was also trans masc this time. The alien and the human were in love, and then they went to space, and had gay sex somehow??? I remember in what way it went down but I will not be describing it. I have actually never had a sex dream until today? I’m not disappointed

I also turned into like a clone of myself, and I lost the tips to my fingers and the inside was cardboard. They ditched original me for clone me, man. There was a whole lot of crazy shit that I barely remember.

I like that my dreams have continuations sometimes, or happen many times over and over

this is the first time I’ve ever slept as long as 11:50

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I can’t stay silent about this anymore, it’s been bugging me for some time now. This feels like waving a stick at a hornets nest, but I can live with that. Tumblr quotes are awful. So bad. So, so bad. They are not good at all. "I beg your pardon?" "Then beg." Never write again actually! This is just.. it’s just not good? I can only imagine a 12 year old smirking and ready to use this on their bullies, then getting beat to hell and back. They might just *barely* work in some book-tok-book, accompanied by the most uninteresting person you can imagine going batshit crazy over it. Remember those kids on TikTok during lockdown tweaking over the whole "you’re ugly!" "I’m not your mirror." Thing? That’s this but for loser tumblr people. Major aura loss. Cuck behavior. Christ.

It should be said that this doesn’t apply to ALL tumblr quotes… but there’s enough to provoke this post. Take that as you please

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Lesbians in my German book

mabye this class isn’t so bad after all

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I used to think superheroes were mostly for little kids, but now that i've taken an interest, it's left me feeling like a drooling 5 year old looking at their ipad going: "supowman.. supowman is te bwest hewo... supowman..."

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Jesus christ why is my life going so great right now

Anyone else just really happy as of late? Just really satisfied with the way life is going? coping well with the stress that would have crushed me before? doing good in school? having like a lot of friends? More energy to be social? making more art? looking forward to vacations? participating in after-school activities? feeling a general, constant sense of freedom and happines? like pure, real happines that's just lingering, and not even caused by anything specific? The kind where you walk around the street with a subtle smile all the time? Anyone not even feeling like listening to music, and instead paying attention to the birds chirping and people chatting? finally having enough disposable pocket money to just chill? Getting a weekend job soon? backpack heavier than ever but i still feel light? not being insecure about my looks, my body, or height? in fact i think i look quite pretty? finally bothering to do my skincare routinley every night, and it starting to pay off after just like a week? Clean room maintained? pretty clothes? sunlight every day? sunli- THATS IT, IT'S THE SUNLIGHT! the sun does some weird shit to me, i just become so happy! I mean, look at my posts from winter, i was like, depressed. Now i'm so not-that. this is so great, i'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts. I'm having trouble thinking about a single problem in my life, other than minor ones that idrc about.

i feel like i'm bragging, because i technically am, but i dont mean to! I just had to share this with someone. Not like anyone reads these anyway.

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What the fuck is wrong with my tumblr

I looked up plastic-destroying crow boy and now my entire feed is filled with with ao3? For some reason? I don’t want it. I read it occasionally, but I don’t want my whole feed to be about it! Worst part is it’s all proshiper stuff, which I hate. I always try my best to ignore proshippers because they make me insanely uncomfortable, but that’s hard to do when they get shoved in my face by tumblr. Please fuck off. There should be a way to block tags on tumblr.

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Update, you actually CAN black tags on tumblr! I have blocked so, so, soooo many tags. Sooo many.

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addiction and mosquito bites are the same thing lowkey

cause think about it, scratching a mosquito bite is the same as using your addictive thing. It feels soooooo satasfying like oh my godddd that’s nice, but when you stop it just itches even more, and you have to itch again, and again, and it’s unbearable, unbearable, unbearable, before you know it you have ripped up your skin and everything hurts now.

this is the most obvious connection ever, that every one except for me has made, I’m certain.

this came to me because I realized that for the first time, I managed to not itch my mosquito bite once. And like, as long as you don’t start, it’s really not that bad actually, it eventually gets easier to avoid, and then one day it’s gone, and you don’t itch anymore. Neat!

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Plans for when I’m like way old:

Dye my hair rainbow

start some club so other old people won’t be lonely and I can make friends

adopt ALLLL the old cats. All of them

Give my grandkids/ my siblings grandkids so much money and sweets I keep in my pocket

Get tattoos

Go outside a lot on like kayaking trips or something

Travel to some hot country and chill

Live til 100 then kill myself cuz what the hell is fun about 103 am I right?

that about wraps it up, yeah