Yashiro is having some complicated feelings this chapter.
Thank you to everyone who sent congratulations and said nice things! ^^ I'm extremely short on time these days so I can't respond (having a baby is hard, it turns out!) but they always bring a smile to my face <3
As I just mentioned, I don't have much time unfortunately so I can't write much about my thoughts on this chapter, but for me the most interesting part was Yashiro's conversation with Amou. I also love how Kamiya just wants to help but also can't bring himself to stop being an asshole about it lol
Sensei's name isn't in the list of contributors for the next issue so I think it's safe to say this chapter closes volume 10 which means we'll now be on hiatus for a while. I think chapters will likely start up again around spring of next year? Hopefully? But in the meantime we can look forward to the official release of volume 10 as well as the drama cd ^^.
Flee now if you don't want to know what happens!!! Everyone else, below the cut. (Get it? CUT!!! HAHA... MURDER IS OKAY!)
BRING FORTH THE PAIN!!!
As was noted in other sneaks, we pick up with Yashiro being very upset with Doumeki. Holding his head, kicking over the bowl of water he used to nurse Doumeki back to health. He doesn't look up from this position, he just says, "You've got to be kidding me." (alternative translations were "You're really stupid." (Talking about Doumeki... or himself?? HAHA!)
We are back in bookmark mode! Lots of long shots. Doumeki arrives confidently at Tsunakawa's. Just as an aside, I love Tsunakawa's house. The garden, the traditional Japanese style. Love it!
Tsunakawa asks Doumeki if he's going to get on his knees and beg like he did 4 years ago. Doumeki says, "I won't."
So Tsunakawa's guys help him.
Tsunakawa is pissed because Doumeki should be hanging his head in shame.
Tsunakawa says maybe you're glad this happened.
A cute pic of Kamiya because we don't see those much. Cue the Doumeki beating montage...
Tsunakawa says "I'm surprised you came back here." Doumeki says he's grateful to them for taking him in back then. Tsunakawa says, "You only came here because Yashiro didn't want you."
Tsunakawa says Yakuza are people who can't live a decent life. But he looked into Doumeki's life. Doumeki was a cop, who has a cute little sister and a mother, and went to jail for assault after protecting his little sister. Even so, a person with a family could still live a normal life.
Tsunakawa: "What does the Yakuza mean to you?"
Doumeki: "It's... a place to live."
Tsunakawa: "What does Yashiro mean to you?"
Doumeki: "He's the reason I live."
Tsunakawa: "Can't you at least hesitate a little?"
Tsunakawa looks so heartbroken here. Doumeki really did the only thing he could to break his heart.
Doumeki says, that Yashiro is precious to him. That pisses off Tsunakawa more. Is he mad that he wasn't the one. (Seriously... but in a Yakuza way.)
Doumeki receives his orders. "Kill Kai. Because you're a felon, there's no telling how long you'll be eating prison food, so get your affairs in order." Really brokenhearted.
Then he's told by Miraji that when he is released from prison, he'll be excommunicated. This is the only time Doumeki seems at a loss for words.
Because how does he stay by Yashiro if he can't be in the Yakuza?
Kamiya is told to make sure Doumeki kills Kai.
Kamiya takes Doumeki to a hotel room. Doumeki puts ice on his face and Kamiya tells him he'll use this gun and it's loaded.
He thanks Kamiya for all his help. Kamiya tells him that he can thank him but can't apologize to Tsunakawa?
Doumeki said he won't apologize, and he thinks that Tsunakawa wouldn't be satisfied with just an apology anyway.
Kamiya is mad because Doumeki betrayed the family, fell in love with a man, and put him in the middle of his crap. Doumeki says he doesn't see the gender of the person you love being an issue. You tell him, Doumeki!!!
At this moment, Kamiya opens up to Doumeki about his own little sister, whom he couldn't protect because he was just a kid too. Doumeki says that it's unusual for Kamiya to open up like that.
Kamiya says that when he was young (before he even had pubic hair), he stabbed his abusive parents in the stomach. (Under-aged violence is handled differently in Japan, as is murder.) He says he was just a dumb kid, because if he was going to stab someone anyway, he should have done it before his sister died. (I'm only guessing here, so reserve judgment until we have a translation, but OMG, did they abuse her until she died? Or is he saying he would have killed her before they did to save her from the abuse? Or perhaps that if he'd stabbed the parents while she was alive, she would have gotten better too.) It also looks like they lived in squalor.
Kamiya laughs and says, 'Yeah, it's not at all like me to share."
This chapter had so many levels of sadness, defeat, rejection, confession. Brazen boldness from our big baby bird. I really hope to see Yashiro meet with Tsunakawa again, this time for property rights!!!
Kamiya has reached Kuga status. I am so glad we got to know this about him. Now I hope that doesn't mean he's going to die now. Because he opened up.
Are Hirata, Aoi, Yashiro, and Doumeki the only people in the world who didn't deal with their trauma? It's worth noting that Yashiro managed to get yet another Yakuza fired from his job because he was in love with him. It's a record when you do it to the one you actually like.
It's Yashiro's game now. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I have entertained the end of this story with Yashiro and Doumeki ending up in jail together. They'll go to the same jail as Ryuuzaki on the day Ryuuzaki is released. LOL!
That's it! Chapter 66 will be out on May 29. It's gonna be a cruel Summer!
Thank you for waiting for chapter 64 ^^
You can read it at the links below.
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The box lurks 👀
A couple of thoughts below the cut.
I haven't had too much time to look at the fandom's reaction to this chapter yet, but I personally found it really sad.
I'm happy that Doumeki tried to open up to Yashiro, but the reality of him forcing himself on Y is still glaringly apparent and I'm really curious to see how Sensei resolves that conflict.
I was very interested to see D use the term "greedy" (欲が出た which can also be translated as "desirous") because it reminded me again of his name's connection with the yokai Dodomeki. (I talked about his name and it's connection to this yokai among other things in this post a long time ago.) That was another little hint to me that maybe D's story has some parallels with the Dodomeki's themes around greed and taking things that don't belong to you, not money as in the yokai's tale, but "taking" Yashiro.
It also seems like Sensei is setting D up to do something really, really stupid. lol I don't have any great ideas about what that could be, but the foreshadowing is there.
And the damn box! The box and the contact case therein that haunts the narrative! How, I wonder, will that box play a role as we approach the final arc?
Speaking of final arcs - I thought this might have been the last chapter for volume 10, but it looks like Sensei is scheduled to appear in the next issue out on March 31st, so that's exciting ^^ I think probably ch 65 will be the end of volume 10 and if past is prologue Sensei will then take a break before volume 11 starts. That's all just speculation though, who knows!
One last thing- I will be giving birth on April 7th so please be patient with me (as most of you have been, thank you! <3) when ch 65 comes out. I'm having a c section so recovery will likely take a long time, not to mention, assuming no one dies like last time, I'll have a little human attached to me at all times (allow me my dark humor, it's how I survive), so while I'll try my best to get the chapter out before the surgery I won't make any promises.
Saezuru Tori ha Habatakana. In the quiet space between heartbeats,
they find each other. One carries shadows behind a darkened eye, the other leans in, gentle as dusk. Arms become shelter.
Silence becomes a promise. A small bird rests on his shoulder, like hope that learned how to perch,a fragile witness to a love that does not shout only stays. They hold each other as if the world is far away,
as if pain has finally grown tired,
as if warmth can be built from breathing together.
Below the cut for those of you who can't wait... Please don't break the internet....
As usual, nothing about the cover equals what is in the chapter. We are close... SO CLOSE! But not yet...
As we saw, Doumeki tries to stand at Yashiro's request and is so dizzy Yashiro gets concerned and helps him to his bed.
Doumeki grabs Yashiro's hand and asks him not to leave, and then faints.
Yashiro being the good nurse he is, stays and nurses Doumeki while he sleeps.
Doumeki wakes up, feeling better, and finds Yashiro asleep by the bed.
This sight is a surprise to Doumeki and like always, a tender moment is interrupted.
Tsunakawa calls and tells Doumeki to come see him, and Yashiro wakes up.
Seeing Doumeki's distress, he asks if Tsunakawa called, then apologizes for falling asleep because Doumeki wouldn't let go of his hand and he felt compelled to take care of him. (Sure....)
Doumeki asks why Yashiro came there before (when Kamiya and mama were there). Yashiro pretends he can't remember why, and asks Doumeki if letting mama leave was good idea. Doumeki asks Yashiro if he ever said they were dating.
Doumeki explains that she was a childhood friend and that's all. He says that he was a "tattoo practice table" HAHAHAH!
Yashiro tries to avoid confrontation by saying that he doesn't care who Doumeki sees and he can have sex with anyone.
Doumeki raises his voice and tells Yashiro that even now he's still chasing him and asks if Yashiro is behaving this way because he's "running away." He asks him if it's better if Yashiro hears it from Doumeki's own mouth that he still thinks of him.
Doumeki tells him "Do you really think I'll fall in love with someone other than you?"
Pretty sure we all feel this scene. Doumeki tells Yashiro everything and we see a series of flashbacks of when he came to work for Tsunakawa and when he eventually ran into Yashiro again. He tells him he was jealous and stupid. He wanted to avoid Yashiro until he could stand shoulder to shoulder with him as equals. But he couldn't help it once he'd seen him.
Doumeki touches Yashiro's face and asks if he can see. He asks if it's his fault that this happened 4 years ago.
This exchange needs a real translator to word it right, but it appears that Yashiro tells him that it's not his fault and that Doumeki always blaming himself is too much for Yashiro. (I might be off the mark. He says he's being too self-conscious about it, but I get the feeling that this is the part that Yashiro always "hated" about Doumeki. The part of him that makes him want to "destroy" him.) Doumeki says "To me you are a kind, strong and beautiful person."
Yashiro is annoyed now and doesn't want to listen to this anymore.
Yashiro asks why he is telling him this now, after hiding it for so long. Why tell him now?
Doumeki doesn't answer.
And now it's time to stand on business. Come on, Yashiro!!!! CHASE HIM!!!
That's 64. (SOBBBBBBBBBING!!!!!!!!!!)
Boy oh boy was that DARK! Yes, confessions. Yashiro got all of it at once! But OMG, I don't know what Doumeki is thinking because the face he leaves with is determined!!!
“Did you seriously think I could be with someone other than you?”
Some of the letters are cut off so I’m guessing. Since it appears he’s saying “anata” I think this is Doumeki speaking. Unless it’s Yashiro being snippy. That would be a terrible face if that was the truth.
I can’t wait to see this entire chapter. Due to its popularity, it was sold out everywhere fast, but I managed to get a copy from a random bookstore in Japan which should be arriving today or tomorrow. Anyway, I’m surviving off the kindness of people who know that the images that make us go crazy is Yashiro taking care of his man!
In case you don't want to be spoiled, but you are going crazy...
I offer you this stunning image of Yashiro as tribute.
Everyone else... below the cut please!
I won't go too heavy because the spoilers of what happened are already there. But I have said it so many times before, that the spoiler-folk always leave out important things that we of the fandom NEED to know.
Like, Yashiro has a hot bartender!
From the official teasers we have already learned that Yashiro is messed up by Doumeki's confusing display of affection.
Misumi comes to see Yashiro to talk about what happened. And to tell him to stay away from Doumeki. Yashiro says that Misumi didn't need to visit in person for that, if that's all he came for.
Misumi discusses how Okuyama is proving to be problematic, and if he joins the Kokusekai (I think that's the one; they all sound the same), then it will cause Misumi to lose face with his executive board. When Misumi talks about how Yashiro handled the Yamakawa issue and how he basically lied to Tsunakawa, Yashiro grins.
Yashiro is proud of himself.
Misumi can't be the one to handle the dirty stuff, so he wants Yashiro to do it. He asks Yashiro again if he still doesn't want his own group. Yashiro confirms that he doesn't, so Misumi gives him a side quest to find the gunman and bring him something to appease the executive board.
Yashiro is watching Misumi leave… and realizes that he is just a pet. This scene looks like a parallel to Chapter 1!! (Right before Doumeki saved the day.) Nanahara calls him to say that Kamiya came to the hospital with Doumeki, who has a high fever. When Yashiro asked if he was there with Kageyama, Nanahara replied that Kage got angry and yelled at Kamiya, saying he's not a Yakuza doctor and there are no beds available. So he sent Doumeki home.
Nanahara says he'll do some investigating about Kai and Yashiro says he'll poke around too.
Kamiya takes Doumeki home and is complaining about how heavy Doumeki is and that he should try to walk and help him out. LOL! He sees Izumi-mama standing at Doumeki's door because she heard about the shooting. Kamiya demands she help him with Doumeki. LOL!
They put Doumeki to bed and Kamiya is surprised when Izumi-mama says she hasn't been to Doumeki's apartment before, and he asks her why because aren't they dating?
This is rare sight to see. They start talking about what happened and how Doumeki screwed up by saving Yashiro instead of Tsunakawa.
Kamiya left Doumeki's door open and Yashiro overhears them talking.
Yashiro comes in and Kamiya says he's surprised to see someone like Yashiro at Doumeki's place and Yashiro says he heard from Nanahara that Doumeki had a fever.
Yashiro says he's sorry for intruding and he was going to go home. Kamiya says "Already? I thought you came to say thank you."
Izumi-mama is about to ask Yashiro to stay, but Doumeki wakes up at the sound of Yashiro's voice and bolts up out of bed so fast to stop Yashiro from leaving. Yashiro turns around and sees Doumeki's incredibly troubled face, and the look on Yashiro's face when Doumeki says, "Wait... please don't go home."
Doumeki sinks to the floor, very feverish but refuses to let go of Yashiro.
Izumi-mama collects Kamiya and tells him they are leaving. I love this page because I think Yashiro got what he needed to know about her. Her look and immediate actions say she's known all along, and she gracefully relinquishes Doumeki to Yashiro's care.
In the car, Izumi-mama tells Kamiya that she and Doumeki have never been a thing, and that she always thought there was someone else. But they chose to not tell the truth about their relationship because it was more convenient that way. She doesn't tell Kamiya that she was Doumeki's tattoo artist, we only see her in action. But she decides she's going to close the cabaret club and do something else... I'm thinking... tattoo artist? I wonder if she does pearlings, because Ryuuzaki will be needing some new ones when he gets out of prison and they might make a cute couple.
She is all of us.
Yoneda Kou is slated for the next issue out January 30th, which is YASHIRO'S BIRTHDAY!!!! I hope he gets a lovely chapter with some lovely confessions of love!
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