I'm in love with my best friend

Currently and actively crashing out over falling in love with my best friend :( I am unhinged and off my meds but also thriving???? Live laugh love and yearn, my god yearn.

[yearning-and-sad]

BRO WHAT

Drove to chicago today to see them

Crazy shit is happening

Wish me luck guys I might tell them by the end of this weekend

[yearning-and-sad]

Wrote them a letter,,,, should I send it

It’s been almost 6 weeks since we last saw each other in the flesh. I miss you every day, and I find myself counting the minutes and seconds until we reunite. I long so greatly for the day you return home forever, when seeing you will be a matter of minutes, not hours, and our hugs will be rushed not for any reason other than the promise of more soon to come. Without you, I sometimes feel lonely. I deeply care for and love the people here I surround myself with. I have many dear friends who I enjoy greatly, but I still feel like something here is missing. I imagine you in places you are not, and I so desperately want you to come home each time I see you you heal something in me. I so greatly admire you, and each moment spent with you find its home in a special place in my heart. I miss you so much and if I truly believed in soulmates, you are mine.

[yearning-and-sad]

I mailed you a care package

When you opened it you found

A handmade necklace

A poem, you cried

You held your hands on your face and pretended they were mine

I love you

[yearning-and-sad]

I love you

In a way I’m not supposed to

Im so sorry

[yearning-and-sad]

I thought I could make my feelings go away by ignoring them

I was wrong

[yearning-and-sad]

The way doing anything about my feelings could ruin our friendship makes me want to hold them inside forever

But I also want to tell you so bad

Like what if I said fuck it and told you everything

[yearning-and-sad]

We just got off the phone.

It’s eating me up inside.

I say I love you over and and over

You say you love me too, it’s not the same.

I call you cute

You call me cute, it’s not the same.

What can I do to make it the same.

[yearning-and-sad]

I hope it’s not just all in my head.

[surreallyokay]

standing in the kitchen

wrapped in a hoodie that smells like you

I hug myself and try to pretend

that you might feel it too

[creatures-of-lore]

To Want- Part II

Give me the courtesy of one kiss On my check or to touch my lips Hold my hips to the side of yours And hold my ribs up from the floor Where i have been laying Needing for you

I Imagine the warmth of a hand Holding a hand And Imagine the comfort of arms around my chest Squeezing me Holding me Making me warm again

Your touch would revive me And the absence makes cold

[frothingatthemaw]

CAN ANY OF YOU HEAR ME!!!!!

[yearning-and-sad]

Cannibalism as a metaphor for love is my weakness I fear

[yearning-and-sad]

Poem I wrote about them in regards to how much they helped me after my time in the mental hospital and mailed it to them. Literally love them so much and so glad they don’t use tumblr. They don’t know how deep those feelings go bruh

[yearning-and-sad]

You ground me

Your beauty astounds me

The way that silk green dress hugs your hips

And draws my eyes to your lips

We talk about gender

And how ours is the same

There’s something profound

In the sound of your name

Fuck I’m going insane

[yearning-and-sad]

You’re about to call me.

I’ll say “I love you”

You’ll say “I love you too”

I just wish you knew how much

[yearning-and-sad]

Bro actually what should I do I’m actively crying about this bs while listening to Ricky Montgomery. T4T unrequited yearning should actually be illegal and I will be suing myself for emotional damages.

[yearning-and-sad]

I used to love chicago

Now I think it’s just you.

[yearning-and-sad]

"It's not all about what you thought that you wanted... It's about the way I can make you feel" - Ezra Furman