SMOKE AND MIRRORS
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SMOKE AND MIRRORS
chapter 20
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if haechan debuts as a solo with his new single, would y’all stream it until he gets no.1? if haechan participates in an idol competition, would y’all cheer him on? let’s go a little smaller, if a fancam of haechan was posted and it determined every members popularity/rank in the group, would y’all watch it repeatedly so he gets more views?
the expected answer would be yes, we love him, why wouldn’t we? But in reality y’all wouldn’t & y’all DIDN’T. this is for the people who literally SLEEP on haechan’s existence in nct. his we go up cam is still the lowest viewed out of the members and that pretty much gives a message to the company sm that haechan isn’t really popular.
im sad that someone who is literally so TALENTED, has a voice that goes #G5, can dance and learn any choreography in a short period of time, the mood maker of the group, is considered the underdog. he was the only one in dream to go through a scandal that mentally exhausted and embarrassed him. he still survived it. he has a tan skin color but he says he loves and represents his skin for what it is. he had actual FANS calling him fat and hyuck had to go on a diet since the age of 15. he legit supports the LGBT community and even suggested kfans to listen to troye sivan. he went through all this and y’all say he hasn’t had it hard in the industry?
people sleep on hyuck all the time without even knowing it, just like how some of you did when jeno and him did aegyo, when he was on stage and the “fans” shouted “Jisung!” repeatedly when he was still talking, when members choose x over haechan, when he got hate for being unprofessional when he accidentally got hit by winwin on stage. it all affects him, but he’ll never show how aware he is to all this. he’s sensitive but he tries hard not to show it. of course he won’t, every idol has to keep up an image.
it’s saddening that haechan is one of the least popular members in nct. I wouldn’t imagine how hard it is for him, the actual 18 year old kid who had to go through all this. i hope he doesn’t think low of himself after seeing the views on his wgu cam. teenage years are sensitive years, you start thinking maybe you’re not good enough or how you could become better.
stop sleeping on one of the most talented members of NCT, Lee Donghyuck, also known as Haechan. Thank you.
Wow. They really giving speech at the UN. Wow.
“What is your name? What excites you and makes your heart beat? I want to hear your voice. Speak yourself.”
- Kim Namjoon
[TRANS] 180918 From. JUNGWOO
Translated by: shbups
What we’re NOT gonna do is get mad and hate on Jungwoo. I honestly don’t understand some of y’all and it’s pathetic that I even have to say this. Instead of hyping this comeback a majority of my dash is COMPLAINING. It’s not like Jungwoo is going to come in , steal everyone’s lines and screen time , and change the name to NCT Jungwoo. THEY ARE STILL A GROUP JUST WITH THE ADDITION OF JUNGWOO SO QUIT BEING PRESSED AND SUPPORT THEM AND THIS COMEBACK.
SM: NCT127 is a fixed unit. No changes will be made.
Jungwoo: ᵘʷᵘ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ᴵ ᵖˡˢ ᵇᵉ ᶦⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ¹²⁷ ᵘⁿᶦᵗˀ
SM: Well what are we supposed to fuckin do now? Tell him no?
Protect both E'Dawn and Pentagon
As for E'Dawn I'm a bit worried, he was suddenly kicked out of his group and he's a rookie in the industry. Also I can't believe Pentagon has 9 members now??? They're on a long list of the groups I stan and ofc I'm gonna keep supporting them even if they end up like this, but it's not the same I'm crying fuck you cube
Stay unbothered queen
Hyuna literally made the company into what it is today and they have nerves to do this, kick her out for falling in love?
Current mood
HyunA & Edawn being kicked out of CUBE because of some delulu fans who actually thought they could date oppa is so freaking twisted. HyunA and 4minute literally built CUBE and CUBE claims a “lack of trust”?!!! They have single handedly lost their best solo artist, lost a member of their successful boy group, and killed their successful subunit Triple H.
I am disgusted
interesting
fuck cube ent.
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This is what I wake up to? What the fuck Cube? Kicking people out for falling in love, huh?
SMOKE AND MIRRORS
chapter 19
"If you two don't want to watch the movie then get out of here and don't distract the rest of us." Haechan glared at Jeno and you.
"What are you talking about, we are paying attention?"
"Your insta story says otherwise." He said, looking back to the TV.
"If you saw my insta story, you obviously aren't that interested in watching the movie so shut up."
"Unlike you, Y/n, I actually think about well being of others around me and-"
"Can both of you just shut up please, there are ten people here who actually are trying to watch the movie?" Sky snapped, turning to the sofa where you, Jeno and Haechan were seated.
"Why are you yelling at me? He started it!"
"What are you, 5?" Haechan laughed and stuck his tongue out at you.
"You're the one to talk, that was sooo mature!" You yelled, grabbing a pillow you planned to use as a weapon. But before you could actually do anything Sky took it out of your hand and told you two to leave the living room.
You weren't happy about it but you didn't want to even try and argue with Sky so you just obeyed her orders, but still showing that you didn't like it by slamming the door shut on your way out.
You decided to go to the other house to find Rin, but before you stepped outside someone called your name.
"Do you maybe have a minute or two to talk?"
Just what is happening with Taeyong and his desire to talk to you these days?
"Yeah, I guess. What is it?" You asked, still standing in the doorway.
"I'd like to talk somewhere more quiet if that's okay with you. Are you in the mood for a walk?" He seemed surprisingly calm, so one way or another you had to look cool about this too.
"Yeah, sure, just let me grab a jacket and we can go."
You were literally in the forest, with at least 50cm of snow, so you decided that it's the best not to go too far away from the house. You walked in silence for about a minute and then he stopped, leaning against the tree.
Freezing air was in contrast with the burning feeling inside of you. What does he want to talk about? So many things were left unsaid, so what did he pick out for this time?
"Truth or dare?"
"What?"
"That's the only way for us to get the truth out of each other- games. So...truth or dare?"
"Dare." You decided to play along.
He let out a little laugh "I dare you to keep eye contact with me until the end of this conversation."
Wow.
"Your turn. Truth or dare?" You tried your best to look like you didn't have breathing problems at the given moment, which you most definitely did.
"Truth."
Game became about a hundred times harder now that you couldn't look away whenever eye contact became too uncomfortable.
"Did you lie about not remembering what we talked about the night you came to my dorm?"
He cleared hit throat, looking at the ground.
"I can't keep eye contact if you look away, Taeyong." You said, gaining confidence when you noticed that he was hesitating.
He looked up at you, nervousness visible in his eyes.
"Yes, I did. Did you lie last night when I asked you what was the reason you didn't kiss Jeno?"
So he did lie. That time and hundred times before it.
"When did you not lie?" You could feel your cheeks burning again, but not out of nervousness but anger.
"No, it's your turn." He said, somehow managing to keep his cool "Did you lie?"
"When did you not lie, Lee Taeyong?" You repeated, this time a bit louder.
"Did you lie?" He repeated, obviously as determined as you.
Without a word you turned around and started making your way to the house.
"Don't walk off like you did last night." He called after you.
That was it. That was too much.
"You're asking me not to walk off." You laughed in frustration "Remember how we got where we are, Taeyong. Who walked off? Was it me?"
He didn't say anything, and honestly there was nothing for him to say. You were right. He was the one that walked off.
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Help! Masterlist
In which y/n is content living her life as far away from frat boys as possible with the help of her two oddball best friends, but that plan goes out the window when her biology partner turns out to be nothing she expected a frat boy to be… or is he?
NCT Social media AU
Fratboy! Winwin
Introduction | Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four | Part Five | Part Six | Part Seven | Part Eight | Part Nine | Part Ten | Part Eleven | Part Twelve | Part Thirteen | Part Fourteen | Part Fifteen | Part Sixteen | Part Seventeen | Part Eighteen | Part Nineteen | Part Twenty | Part Twenty - One | Part Twenty - Two | Part Twenty - Three | Part Twenty - Four | Part Twenty - Five | Part Twenty - Six | Part Twenty Seven | Part Twenty - Eight | Part Twenty - Nine | Part Thirty | Part Thirty - One | Part Thirty - Two | Part Thirty - Three | Part Thirty - Four | Part Thirty - Five | Part Thirty - Six | Part Thirty Seven | Part Thirty - Eight | Part Thirty - Nine | Epilogue |
Extras
Playlist | Tag Yourself : Help ! Edition | Y/N Aesthetic | Johnny x Mark x Y/N aesthetic |
SMOKE AND MIRRORS
chapter 18
You could feel everyone’s eyes on you and you knew that no one expected things to take this turn. But the way everyone was trying to make you forget what happened really made you angry. You were standing there, one step away from Jeno, still holding his hand in yours. In the moment your eyes met his you froze in the place. Before you could do anything he leaned forwards. “I want you to think about what you’re doing and more importantly why you’re doing it.” He whispered into your ear. He was right. And Lucas was right. Let’s not do anything stupid. Taking a step forward you kissed him on the cheek. “You didn’t specify what kind of kiss it has to be.” You said, still standing there, holding Jeno’s hand. No one really reacted, all of them, or at least most of them knew the situation. They just quietly waited for you and Jeno to sit down again, and you continued with the game.
“That was intense.” Sky said, closing the door to your room, when everyone decided they’re too tired from travelling and that they should go to sleep. “Tell me about it.” You sat down on your bed, exhaling loudly “You don’t know how close I was to actually doing it.” “I do, I saw your face. I could tell you were angry.” She sat down next to you “Even I got annoyed. What stopped you?” “Jeno.” “Huh?” “He told me to think about what I’m doing and more importantly why I’m doing it…and I did.” “Jeno really is something special.” She said knowingly, and you laughed at sudden seriousness in her voice. “Yeah, I guess he’s nice.” You stood up “I’ll be back in a minute, I need to talk to him and Lucas.” “Don’t be surprised if I’m asleep when you come back, I’m so tired.” “Mhm, good night.” You mumbled as you closed the door behind you. You knocked on Lucas and Jeno’s door, and heard someone moving inside. A second later Lucas opened up and moved to the side, letting you in. “Where’s Jeno?” You asked. “He’ll be back in a few minutes. He’s taking a shower.” Lucas answered, his voice deeper than what you were used to. “That was close.” He added. “Yeah it was.” You cleared your throat “That’s why I came…to thank you.” You couldn’t look up at him. When did he become the mature one, and you became the one who needed to be taken care of? “I’m sorry, I know I’ve been acting like a child for a long time now. I’m sorry you had to-” “Dude, please stop talking. If I’m not there to stop you from doing stupid shit who will be? Plus, how many times did you do the same thing for me?” He said, pulling you into a hug “I already claimed the position of your best friend for life. I’m just doing my job here.” “Thank you.” You mumbled, your eyes teary. “Besides, I noticed how angry you got tonight, and I realised that things that were important and hard for you, I was taking too lightly. I’m really sorry, I thought if I maybe try and make everything less serious than it really is, that’s how you’d see it too, and it’ll be easier for you. That was just insensitive.” Everything was easier with Lucas around. You felt like you could actually share a weight with someone. He thought the same about you, too. You were strong for each other. And that night you were just reminded why he was such a special person in your life. “I think that maybe you should talk to Jeno, too.” “Yeah I will, as soon as he-” And with that the door opened and Jeno walked in. “Oh, you’re here.” He seemed genuinely surprised to see you there. “I’ll go take a shower now.” Lucas said and left the room. “What’s up?” Jeno asked, looking for something through his bag. “I wanted to thank you…for earlier.” You said, sitting down on one of the two beds. “Thank me for what? I just told you to think, you do need a reminder sometimes. But once you start, you’re pretty good at it. Better than most people.” He finally looked at you, with a little smile spread across his face. “I also wanted to say sorry for putting you into such an uncomfortable situation…” “Can you stop apologizing and thanking me, when there’s really no reason for you to do so. Pass me the towel please.” You picked up a towel that was folded on the bed, next to you, and threw it for Jeno to catch. “I have a blow dryer, you should use it, you can’t dry your hair properly using a towel.” “It’s fine, I never dry it completely.” “Yeah, but now it’s snowing and you’ll definitely catch a cold. I’m going to get it.” “You see, there you are, taking care of me again.” He mocked you. Rolling your eyes you walked outside “I’ll be right back.” You stood in the hallway for a few moments, taking your time to think. “Are you okay? Why are you standing there?” Taeyong had just walked out of his room. “Hm?…Oh yeah, I’m just thinking.” “Thinking about what?” He asked, looking straight into your eyes, after months of trying to avoid them. You’d lie if you said this didn’t surprise you. But if he wanted to be so straightforward that was okay with you. “About the dare that I got during the game earlier.” You said, leaning against the wall. “Oh…you know, I kinda saw that coming.” “Really? It didn’t seem like that to me.” He wanted to play cool, but he wasn’t expecting this response. “If you’ll excuse me, Jeno is waiting for me.” You walked past him, to your room, picked up a blow dryer and went back into the hallway. He was still standing there, watching your every move. “Can I come in?” You yelled, so Jeno could hear you. “Wait I’ll be right there, something’s wrong with the door they keep locking up on their own.” Why is Jeno taking so long? There were two people in the hallway, dead silence and tension that could be cut with a knife. “Why didn’t you do it?” Now you didn’t see that coming. “He told me to think about what I’m doing and why I’m doing it.” You answered, facing the door that you hoped would open as soon as possible. “So what was it? What you were doing or why you were doing it?” What was this sudden dedication in getting you to talk to him? What was wrong? The fact that you were about to kiss Jeno or the reason behind it? Did you stop yourself from doing the wrong thing or doing the right thing but for the wrong reason? The answer was clear to you, you didn’t even need to think about it. But you can’t have it that simple, right? “I don’t know.” You lied “Besides, it’s none of your business.” “I wouldn’t agree with that.” You couldn’t see his face, but you could feel sharpness in his voice. Jeno finally opened the door, and the moment was gone.
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