My dreams feel realer than the day
Where thoughts don't fog and words don't stray
I wake to shadows I can't name
The world around me isn't the same
I try to count the quiet air
But find there's only noise in there
My heartbeat thuds inside my head
Like thunder pulsing where I tread
The silence hums a heavy song
I press play just to get along
Not music I would ever choose
Just sound to drown what I might lose
Reality feels like constant abuse
But death is the only way I can refuse
And somehow that's become my muse
I planned for more, I dreamt it pure
But knowing I must still endure
Makes everything inside a little unsure
Breathing feel like a sickness, and the cure....
Might be the end, I can't be sure
I reach for peace, but find a wall
A voice that says "you've felt it all"
Now the clock moves slow, the lights feel dim
And I'm fading slowly, limb by limb
I try to cry but tears won't show
Like even sadness doesn't know
The mirror blurs, I lose my face
I'm here, but not in time or place
My hands don't hold, my eyes don't see
It's like I'm drifting out of me
Drowning in a puddle, convinced it's the sea
It takes too much just to wanna be free
Wish I were life's little escapee
Unwritten, wild and gravity free
But chains don't clink, they hum in skin
A quiet ache that lives within
Each breath a fight, each thought a flame
Each day a mask, each night the same
Still I write, cause writing stays
When memory fades in tangled haze
My words remember what I lose
And the many truths I never got to choose
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