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Mine Right Now

here's a little nostalgic story

back in 2017 I felt really happy with the company of someone, even though I know in the end we won't end up as anything. While we were spending time together, I remember telling myself "I wish I can savor this moment and capture this view with my eyes like a camera"

It feels bittersweet, knowing there will be no moments like this anymore but you just so happy you can only savor it.

This beautiful song by Sigrid captures what I feel at that time, and when I hear it again today - with nobody to rely and talk to, this song brings the optimist in me.

To believe in love again,

to be brave to be loved again.

#love #mine right now #sigrid #brave to be loved #Youtube

jeonjcngkook-deactivated2025071

bts “butter” interview with zach sang

infpstuff

A heart that always understands also gets tired.

Unknown

tinta-ng-bolpen

it’s 3 am and i feel happy and sad at the same time: happy that you finally have a hand to hold on to amidst these monstrous waves, an anchor—just like what you said; and sad because that anchor used to be me.

—030818 0244

aspiritualwarrior

“Slow breathing is like an anchor in the midst of an emotional storm: the anchor won’t make the storm go away, but it will hold you steady until it passes.”

— Russ Harris

fujiwara57

“Waves" by Uehara Konen 上原古年 (1877–1940).

hanavbara

daechwita 👑✨ #AGUSTD2

heavenlycreatures

on soulmates

f. scott fitzgerald / friedrich nietzsche / florence and the machine / andrea dworkin / kiersten white / euripides / audre lorde / phillip pullmann / bob hicok

divinestrike

one of my favourite things in the world is casual intimacy. a small hand on your back when you’re in crowded streets. a gentle kick from where they’re sitting across the table. a head on the shoulder, a hand in your hand, a squeeze on the arm as they’re walking past you. and i think maybe love isn’t made up of grand gestures or explosive displays but that it’s made up of the little things. the little things that say i’m here and i care for you and that your life has intertwined so deeply into mine that that there’s no need to think, because casual intimacy comes easy

scottlava

“Uh oh, the boys!”

Quarantine, Parents, & Self-care

It is now the 8th month of quarantine period.

Go home and reunite with your family during this hard situation, they said.

But why do I feel hesitation about this?

Most people are in the same situation as me right now, going back to their parents' house (or any family's house), enjoying the home-cooked food, chilling with their loved ones while staying safe from the outside world.

Yes, I do experience all these things, but why I don't feel comfortable mentally?

One of my favorite lyric from Greenday maybe can explain this:

"They say home is where your heart is, but what a shame, cause everyone's heart doesn't beat the same."

Yeah, maybe my home isn't the one people said to me?

What if my 'home' is different than a family's house or the presence of my parents?

No, I do love my parents. A lot. Making them proud and happy is my one life goal.

But one thing I realize during my 25th year of living and still trying to deny this is, I don't feel comfortable going home to my parents anymore.

I don't like how everytime I went home, they are always argue about something and they tried to involve me in it.

I don't like seeing the house turned out right now. And I still try to ignore it since I don't have the 'power' to decide on things in that house.

I don't like the way my Mom always acts like she can micromanage me, deciding on every little thing that I do. I think when being 25 you can cut the ketchup pack correctly, but according to my Mom, I was wrong! Imagine how crazy that is.

There are times when I got so annoyed and frustrated, I tried to clear up my mind and think about it. Maybe she does meant something good. Maybe she is trying to make me a better person. Maybe I already being comfortable of living alone, not care of anything else and here is Mom who tried to fix everything. But again, I'm 25 I think she really needs to move on being a Mom to a 5 year old because... We're not that young kid anymore.

Anyways, being here does make me feel stressed out more. I lose my self care time to do some reflection, workouts, etc. Right now I might feel frustrated, not knowing what to feel and what to do. But I like to think it's worth it since I'm spending my time with them.