i'm writing this with a heavy heart. i have been a fan since debut, though i remember supporting some of the members when they were in i-land (i voted for sunoo too) these past few days have been a mess—the full demand of attention to my uni, recently (literally the start of february) my health has been declining, and the recent news about heeseung. although i started this page (wichupid + wonirio) for fun, to write the daydreams i've formed while i'm traveling, and as a way to express and project myself into the fantasies of having a good partner, i can't help but feel withdrawn, i don't think i can continue making stories about jungwon and ni-ki out of respect for not only both of them but to the other members as well and knowing they're probably having it much worse than us fans.
being an engene is a precious moment for me that i will never ever forget. i've joined a well-known community in an app called amino, met various people and became friends with almost all of them. i remember the struggle of trying to keep sunoo as my bias, but as they had comeback after comeback, it became really hard and in the end i became an ot7. enhypen became a part of my growth as a person, i learned new things and i genuinely felt happiness listening to them and watching their content. i will never forget the late night talks i have with my friends, constantly talking about which duo was better—was it sunsun or sunki? the countless video and graphic edits i've made of them, they were literally the reason why i started to love and decided to still pursue graphic editing. i am in and out of the fandom. i remember the giddiness and pure joy that i felt when i fell in love with the group for the 2nd time during fate era.
enhypen will always be in my heart, but right now, just thinking about them makes my heart ache, i don't think i can listen or watch their videos the same way as before. it still feels like a fever dream because it just feels like literally the day before everything went downhill, i watched the newest en o'clock episode. i would never wish this upon other groups, have a member kicked out on a random tuesday.
i've never made a formal good bye letter before, but i also don't want to leave you guys hanging either. to those who have been my mutuals, thank you for the unwavering interactions that we've shared. although it got cut short, i will always treasure the comments and reblogs you guys made. my tumblr account will not be deleted, it will stay as it is.
if anyone still wants to be in contact with me, let me know, i have instagram, twitter, tiktok, discord, anything.
i just hope everything goes well (heeseung pls come home) and that i will be back in no time, tumblr is my second home.
my favourite people ! @jjwoned @irkkii @mqytcha @hoonstqr @cigsaftersuh @wonmyhrt @yeuvio @yooniso @wonkitti @j4eyxn
