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if you also started watching MHA solely for Aizawa reblog this post. I want to test a theory.
Getting back to Camilla Macaulay: what does happen to a female character when she suddenly has to become an unattainable object of desire? (continued from this post: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/estherdedlock/684356845933035520?source=share.)
I’d say Donna Tartt may not have changed Camilla too much. I doubt that Bret Easton Ellis’s criticism about Richard’s romantic disinterest had a major effect on who Tartt wanted Camilla to be. First, because Tartt doesn’t seem to be a writer who’s especially interested in romance—her writing is full of longing for all sorts of things, but explicit sexual desire rarely if ever drives the action, so Tartt probably felt no need to make Camilla more romantically appealing.
Second, I think there’s quite a bit of Donna in Camilla. Like Camilla, she was an outsider among her college’s all-male, inner circle of Classics students. Todd O’Neal, thought to be the inspiration for Henry Winter, remembers her this way:
Donna was not part of our Greek tutorials. Claude had a very, let’s say, classical aesthetic or hierarchy, which prizes maleness and male beauty.
Another classmate, Matt Jacobsen (on whom she based Bunny) recalls:
She was a Miss Buttinsky in our group. We all had girlfriends, and the girlfriends were like “Well, that’s his world and I’m not going to be part of that.” Normal in most relationships. But she made it clear she wanted in.
That’s brutal. And also, how very Bunny-ish! In fact, it reminds me of what Bunny said about Camilla’s inclusion in Julian’s class:
…he complained that Camilla was out of her league, and a hindrance to serious scholarship.
It makes sense that Tartt would create Camilla in part to be her surrogate—but unlike herself, Camilla is an essential element in this exclusive group, and one who gets to exact the ultimate revenge on the only member of it who thought she didn’t belong. It’s the sort of vicious adolescent fantasy you’d expect from a writer who started crafting the story when she herself was a teenager.
Of course, because this is fiction, Tartt takes aspects of herself and uses them to conjure up the dreamlike figure of a young woman who embodies the most picturesque qualities of both masculine and feminine allure. Not to justify Richard’s attraction to her, but because as the only girl, that’s the role Camilla has to play. If (to quote Richard) Henry is the “dark king” of the group, then Camilla—beautiful, enigmatic, and ghostly—is the white queen. She’s the gauzy, feminine counterbalance to Henry’s saturnine masculinity.
I’ve come to believe that Camilla isn’t a cliché, she’s an original invention of Donna Tartt’s. Certainly inspired by parts of other characters that came before, but none of them having all of the same attributes in themselves. If Camilla feels like a trope, it’s probably because The Secret History has been influencing other writers for 30 years.
So I suspect that Camilla’s character didn’t change too much when Tartt chose to make Richard infatuated with her, especially when Richard’s sentiments are so superficial. They feel like an afterthought, probably because they were. The term “male gaze” comes up a lot when readers talk about Camilla. We can feel frustrated that we aren’t getting a good picture of her because Richard’s male gaze is in the way, obscuring her with his fixation on her appearance. But look past that and you see how Richard’s real feelings about Camilla evolve over time and reveal more of who she is.
At first he sees her almost as an innocent; while Henry, Francis, and Charles are plotting Bunny’s murder, Richard runs into Camilla and thinks, “…just by looking at her I could tell she didn’t have the faintest idea of what what going on at Henry’s.”
That’s nonsense and we know it. Just a few pages before, we found out that Camilla and Henry have a telephone code, so that he’ll recognize her ring and pick up. I think at this point, the two of them have already been in collusion about what to do with Bunny—it’s the rest of the group that gets brought into the plan later.
After Bunny’s murder, this supposed innocent reveals a cool presence of mind that surpasses Henry’s—at times, only she knows what to do when the rest of them are flailing:
Julian glanced down at his book. “Perhaps, before we begin,” he said, “one of you should go call Edmund on the telephone and ask him to join us if he’s at all able…”
Henry stood up. But then Camilla said, quite unexpectedly, “I don’t think he’s at home.”
“Then where is he? Out of town?”
“I’m not sure.”
Julian lowered his reading glasses and looked at her over the tops of them. “What do you mean?”
“We haven’t seen him for a couple of days.”
Little wonder she can be so frosty, when she’s able to appraise the most gruesome acts that she herself has committed with the calm reserve of someone contemplating a painting:
“I’ll tell you something I do remember,” she said abruptly…”That dead man. Lying on the ground. His stomach was torn open and steam was coming out of it.”
“His stomach?”
“It was a cold night. I’ll never forget the smell of it either. Like when my uncle used to cut up deer. Ask Francis. He remembers, too.”
I was too horrified to say anything. She reached for the teapot and poured a bit more into her cup. “Do you know,” she said, “why I think we’re having such bad luck this time around?”
“What?”
“Because it’s terrible luck to leave a body unburied…I’m afraid that none of us are going to have a good night’s sleep until Bunny’s in the ground.”
(I think “she reached for the teapot” is my favorite part of this passage.)
Later, Camilla shows us that she knows how to create a necessary diversion, using her beauty and femininity to evoke a fog of sympathy that erases suspicion:
I heard a strange, choked noise from Camilla. I looked over at her in amazement. She was crying.
For a moment, no one seemed to know what to do. Davenport gave Henry and me a disgusted look and turned half away as if to say: this is all your fault.
Sciola, blinking in slow, somber consternation, twice reached to put his hand upon her arm, and on the third try his slow fingertips finally made contact with her elbow. “Dear,” he said to her, “dear, you want us to drop you off home on our way?”
This scene is immediately followed by Richard’s description of the New England fog, and we remember how often Camilla is associated with the color white:
White sky. Trees fading at the skyline, the mountains gone…I never got used to the way the horizon there could just erase itself and leave you marooned, adrift, in an incomprehensible dreamscape that was like a sketch for the world you knew…an amnesia-land, a kind of skewed Heaven where the old landmarks were…disarranged, and made terrible by the emptiness around them.
Then finally, at Bunny’s funeral, Richard reveals a wholly different opinion of Camilla from that of the unwitting innocent:
Her surprise seemed perfectly natural. The problem was that she was such an expert actress, it was impossible to know if it was genuine…It was impossible to outfox her at this game.
That declaration is followed a few pages later by one of the only full-blown flashbacks we get of Bunny’s murder…and Camilla takes center stage:
I fished around in my pocket, gave her my handkerchief. She shook it out and held it to her finger (flutter of white, blown hair, darkening sky) and as I watched time stopped and I was transfixed by a bright knife of memory: the sky was the same thundery gray as it had been then, new leaves, her hair had blown across her mouth just so…
(flutter of white)
(…at the ravine. She’d climbed down with Henry and was back at the top before him, the rest of us waiting at the edge, cold wind, jitters, springing to hoist her up; dead? is he…? She took a handkerchief from her pocket and wiped her muddy hands, not looking at any of us, really, her hair blowing back light against the sky and her face a blank for just about any emotion one might care to project….)
While the rest of them are at the top of the ravine (”breathless, watching”), only Camilla is at Henry’s side, the white queen and the dark king:
Camilla’s wristwatch had a second hand. We saw them silently conferring.
It’s no wonder Camilla and Henry become a couple—their attraction is as indispensable to the novel as Richard’s puppy love for Camilla is superfluous. Of course it’s the catalyst for Charles’s breakdown, which leads to the final, tragic events. But how could they ever not be together? Francis scornfully (and rather chauvinistically) accuses Camilla of leading Henry on, but she’s no flirt. She and Henry are two essential elements coming together. Darkness and light, in this case, both equally chilling…or perhaps Camilla is even more alarming. Henry at least seems to have some sort of code that he lives by, but I’m not sure that Camilla does. It’s easy to say that Henry is a sociopath, but the term might be more fitting for Camilla. Although then one begins to wonder: How much of her icy rationality is the result of family trauma? Did Camilla have to become this person to survive her brother? Oh, but is her brother actually abusive at all, or is that just Camilla playing “the game?” Playing us?
Questions, questions. Even after all this pondering, I cannot solve Camilla. She proves something I said a while ago: I don’t know how many times you’d have to read The Secret History before you could really say you’d read it. To be honest, I don’t think that number exists.
you know in The Secret History when Donna Tartt said "a morbid longing for the picturesque"? i think she meant the sublime. the SUBLIME not the picturesque. i think she got it wrong and nobody is roasting her for that and i'm here to rectify that.
to clarify i mean picturesque in the 18th century art criticism sense not the generic sense, and considering how pretentious donna tartt is i think she did too. the secret history is not a novel about the picturesque - the safe and pleasurable experience of beauty. its a novel about sublime terror in the face of beauty so overwhelming and dangerous that it threatens to obliterate you. its about the intense pleasure of that pain and fear and awe. its about about the morbid longing for the sublime at all costs!!!!!!
I feel like she knew and chose picturesque on purpose. Mainly bc at the beginning Richard is attempting to find beauty, just beauty. He just happens to fail in realizing everything that makes the book sublime (like the fog, the ambiance in general, the mysterious people, the house...). And in the end his longing for beauty is corrupted by the sublime. Didn't Burke said something about how the sublime is the biggest emotion a human can feel? (Maybe it was Kant, I don't remember). But the point is that Richard's brain was mesmerized by the sublime, without realizing what it was, thinking it was just pure beauty.
Idk if that made sense, but it's what I thought when I was reading it. It may have something to do with all the apolinean and dyonisian forces from the birth of tragedy, given that they actually make reference to them in the class.
MORE Erasermic recs!! (Again)
Note: So sorry guys, I have to repost this because SOMEONE ::coughTUMBLRcough:: didn’t post it to any tags, and I wanted to make sure Anon got to see it. To make it up to you, I added another rec to the top! Enjoy!!
As you know, I am WEAK for young erasermic, so no worries, I got you, Anon! In no particular order:
Amortentia by MikeWritesThings
Rating: M
Words: 5.2k
Description: Hizashi might enjoy being kissed by Shouta if he wasn’t sure there was something wrong. (“Is that your wand in your pants or are you just happy to see me?”)
Thoughts: The Hogwarts AU every fandom deserves. This fic has it all: Quidditch! Potions! Unintentional love confessions! Mutual pining! Tensei! I loved it, and you’ll love it too.
Cherry Blossoms by rhoen
Rating: T
Words: 1.8k
Description: Hizashi has prepared a picnic for them to enjoy together during the cherry blossom festival, although he’s gone to such length to make is special Shouta can’t help hoping Hizashi feels something for him too.
Thoughts: I freaking love Rhoen. They have a real gift for putting the reader right in the moment, like you’re really feeling and experiencing what the characters are, and it slays me every time. This fic is one of my favorites - it’s short, but so sweet you can almost taste it.
Slow Burn by arachnipop
Rating: G
Words: 9.8k
Description: The story of how Shouta fell in love with someone like Hizashi.
Thoughts: I reread this one all the time! It really is a slow burn, starting with an Aizawa (who is absolutely adorable) that really cannot stand his new classmate, Hizashi Yamada. And of course things go from there. The characters really are so cute in this, it always puts a big smile on my face!
hey, can we be friends? by lamuexte
Rating: T
Words: 5.4k
Description: Hizashi got used to Aizawa following him around, walking just a few steps behind him for a good minute before the blond suggested he walked by his side. Aizawa’s face looked more relaxed in class, and while he did fall asleep a lot, he didn’t mind whenever Hizashi woke him up. Aizawa figured this was what friends were like.
Thoughts: Literally the cutest Aizawa. So small. So cute. Wants friends. Well, one friend. I can’t handle it. Mic is great in this too, I love him. EDIT: I just found out this fic was based on a comic and it’s ADORABLE!! I’ve reblogged it above!
Courting by kakashifan9
Rating: T
Words: 13.2k
Description: Hizashi absentmindedly stared at his math textbook. None of the formulas or exercise explanations were making any sense to him. But then again, Hizashi wasn’t really focused on his homework. Instead, he was thinking about his best friend, Shouta. Or more recently, he discovered, his newfound growing crush on his childhood best friend.
Thoughts: This is part of a series, but I first read it as a stand-alone. (Though please do read the series, it’s great!) It’s the story of how Mic tries to woo Aizawa, with support from his friends, and I loved it. Mic tries SO HARD, to such mixed results (or are they??) that you can’t help but laugh.
Prince Charming and the Ugly Duckling by KuriKuri
Rating: T
Words: 7.2k
Description: Shōta gets hot over break
Thoughts: I’m sure you’ve seen this one already, but I just couldn’t bring myself to make a young erasermic rec list and leave off KuriKuri. They’ve written SO many great ones and I love literally all of them, but this is my absolute favorite and I reread it embarrassingly often. Even if you’ve read it, read it again.
That’s all I have for you for now, Anon! Remember to leave some love for our beloved authors!!!
hi! this is the person who asked if they could write a fic based on your little comic ^-^. I finished it and thought I should let you know! I hope you enjoy it <3 (it doesn't let me include links in questions apparently! it's called 'hey, can we be friends?' and my account name is lamuexte)
OH MY GOSHHHH IT”S SO GOOD THANK YOU!!!! omg it’s so good ;0; Im so honored <333 thank you!!!
I DID A DOODLE FOR THE FIC BECAUSE IT”S SO CUTE READ IT HERE!!
I deeply apologize.
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