After she had walked through the empty halls and back into the library with her head down, she felt different. She felt different because this time it had been at school, not at home. It was painful when she was in the bathroom, thinking what would happen when she went back to the library. But now she was and there was no turning back again. Taking a seat once more, she hung her head as low as it would go, not wanting to look around.
Why had she broken down so easily? Because she believes that she is not strong enough. With all of the things that she had put up with in life, her disorders were the worse. They were slowly killing her minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day….
What was wrong with her? Why couldn’t she be normal?
There was no point in being normal. Every individual was not their own kind of unique, they were formed into a mindless clone that acts, looks, and speaks like all the others. That is just what society does, it forces all of these ridiculously impossible expectations on everyone except for the favorites. The kind, the loved, the pretties, the smarties, everyone except the outcasts. The outcasts, the ones that do not belong, are left behind.
Then she heard her name, and she was snapped back into reality. It was him, the one who had taunted her until she cracked. But there were many more to come, she knew this. Maybe there would be more today, tonight, tomorrow, the next day….
There was no telling when she would break, but she knew she could not control these fractures. She could try, but there would be no point.
Finally, after a few minutes had passed, she lifted her head slightly to glance at the guy from behind her bangs. He had called her by her name, and it caught her off-guard. He told her that the scarf around her neck, the one of many that her Nana had made, was kind of nice. At least it was something, not so much an apology but she would take it.
"Thank you," Allison murmured quietly, fiddling a little with her scarf now.