WALLFLOWER

MARK 5:36 💜

[yourdefinitelynott]

00:50am thoughts

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‎Right now, I just want to spend all of my days and nights with my Mom.

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‎Ayokong magisip ng hndi maganda, dahil buo ang loob ako, at naniniwala ako, na gagaling si Mama, na kaya nya to, na kaya namen to, na hndi Niya kame bibitawan :)

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‎Wala lang, gala kase akong tao. Layk, sobrang kaladkaren ko Hahaha! Isang aya lang, go sama. Once a year, dapat nagoout of the town ako. Like hndi lang basta out of the town, yung magplane talaga or boat if ever ganern. But right now, wala, ni concert wala akong ganang pumunta. Ni gig, wala na din. Ni mabilisang kapehan lang with friends, tamad na tamad na ko. I just want to stay sa bahay, with my Mom. Just knowing that I'm there with her, kahit di kame magusap, basta alam ko lang na naiisang place lang kame, makes me at peace.

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‎Kung pwede lang na nasa bahay lang ako, gagawin ko. Kung kaya ko lang igive-up yung work ko ngayon, and hndi kame mahihirapan financially, esp me, sa mga bills ko, I will stay here sa bahay. Aalagaan ko siya, kasabay nya kong magising sa gabi twing iihi siya. Sabay kameng di makakatulog kase masakit ang ulo nya. Sabay kame sa lahat, at nandoon ako sa lahat ng pagdadaanan nya.

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‎My mom is my life. My parents are my purpose. And I am here, because of that purpose. I am not here, just for myself.

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‎My mom is also my Ate Glen's life. And she can't, she actually can't take it...

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‎Ako yung bunso, but I know, I'm the one who needs to be the strongest right now. Nung nakita ko nga si Ate ko na naiyak and pinipigilan nya kase hndi nya kakayanin kapag nagtuloy or di nya alam kelan magsstaph if magtuloy, that's a pinch on me. Na Huuuy! ilabas mo na yan lahat, iiyak mo na yan lahat, kailangan mo na ulit maging matapang. Kase kailangan ka din ng mga Ate moo :) And that's totally fine with me. And I like, being one of the sources of strength. Kse hndi naman lageng malakas, kapag kailangan kong maging mahina sandali, nandyan naman sila para iyakan ko, sabihan ko at damayan ako. I still feel that I'm still the bunso naman :)

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‎Sakit nanaman tuloy ng ulo koo! iyaqqq iyaqqq nanaman, may pasok pa naman bukas. Haysss!

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‎Bye na ngaa, labyaaa!

[yourdefinitelynott]

Pwede bang ako nalang? Akin nalang po. Okay lang po, promise ☺

Naiisip ko palang, hndi ko na po kaya. Ang bigat bigat bigat, sakit, sakit, sakit na po sa puso. Paano pa po kapag nandon na kame sa sitwasyon na yon?

Hindi ko po kaya, ayoko po 😭

Alam ko naman pong kakayanin namen, at kakayanin ni Mama. Alam ko pong lalaban siya, alam ko pong kakayanin nyaaa.

Kung pwede lang talaga, kung pwede lang talaga, hndi ako magdadalawang isip, ako nalang, ako nalang.

Sorry po, ayoko naman magkasakit din, just desperate to take away all the pain of my Mother Earthhh!

[yourdefinitelynott]

Hello, there! :)

Ang sakit sakit sakit ng puso ko 😭🥲

Help me, God, please? Have mercy on us. Heal my Mama!

Nooo, please? Not this kind of heartbreak. Please? Not this one.

[yourdefinitelynott]

P A K Y U ! 💩

[yourdefinitelynott]

Feelin shit, don’t know whyyyy :(

[thehungerjames]

you don't deserve someone who makes you question your worth

[angaklatngkahel]

Sometimes you have to end things before it ends you…Before it drains the life out of you, before it makes you forget who you are. Walking away isn’t always a sign of weakness, sometimes it’s the strongest thing you can do. It’s choosing yourself over something that no longer serves you, something that only brings you pain. Letting go isn’t easy. The mind will replay the good moments, convincing you to stay, while your heart hesitates, hoping for change. But deep down, you know? the longer you hold on, the more you lose yourself. So you make the choice. Not because it’s easy, but because you have to. Because you deserve better. Because some endings aren’t really losses; they’re just the beginning of something new… 🍊

[yourdefinitelynott]

He’s leaving

He's leaving and I think mas okay na yon? My mind keep saying na "It's for the better". Esp I am starting to long for him, be deeply attached to him na baka sa sobrang lalim ako lang din naman yung sobrang mahirapan na bumangon. Gaahd! Can't help it tho. Like I said, I am starting to long for him. Longing to tightly hug his arms, longing for his smell, his perfume. Like everytime I smell it somewhere else, I will pause and will think of him. OMG! What have I done? I'm not supposed to feel this 😭 

But yea, he's leaving. And yea, I think it's for the better.

Though my heart, it's aching, somuchssss! 😭

[sunsetquotes]

Someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready. They can love you in a way you have never been loved and still not join you on the bridge. And whatever their reasons you must leave. Because you never ever have to inspire anyone to meet you on the bridge. You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love, more love that you have never seen, out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready.

Nayyirah Waheed

[yourdefinitelynott]

He holds my hand, and I hold it back!

😭 Mali pero nung mga segundong yon, di ko din alam ano pumasok sa isip ko.

Jusqqqqq! BAKET?!

#prsnl

[thehopefulquotes]

“i think it’s attractive when someone texts you after hanging out just to say they had fun with you”

— Unknown

[remanence-of-love]

[thespilledquotes]

“There’s really no shortcut to forgetting someone. You just have to endure missing them everyday until you don’t anymore.”

— Unknown

[yourdefinitelynott]

Baket kaya? Baket kaya ako nasasaktan ngayon? Baket kaya hndi ako masaya. Baket kasabay ng alon ng dagat yung kirot na nararamdaman ko. Ehhhh! Hndi ko din alam, at hndi ko din mawari.

Masaya naman dapat ako. Nagsasaya naman dapat ako. Pero baket ang lungkot? Baket di ko magawang maging masaya? Baket yung mga tawa ko ngayong araw ay pilit? Baket mas gusto kong lumayo? Baket mas gusto kong mapag-isa?

Ang sakit, at nakaka pakingsyet lang kase hndi ko alam kung ano yung eksaktong rason. Pero ang hinuha ko ay dahil sayo. Malamang dahil sayo. Pero baket?

HAHAHAHAHHAA!

#AnteMongBaliwNa

[onewordenglish]

You can't miss what you didn't have.

[yourdefinitelynott]

Naaah, cause why do I? :(

[dakilanggerlpren]

Every time I look at the stars, I find you there instead

[whispers-of-lost-love]

If the moon could speak, it would tell you how often I call your name into the night, how often I dream of your hands in mine.