Hi hello :3 were the Lightswitch system, or Lux, or Luxsys (collectively).
We don't have a host, don't assume who you're talking to is one!
Were a Traumagenic, non-disordered plural system of 7+ years and we are strictly pro endo.
Collectively They/He pronouns
No DNI, but we block freely.
Rq-neutral, we respect everyones identity tho
Fully Alterhuman (psychological)
Autistic/ND
Trying to start doing plural comic stuff currently. No promises! We are quite busy.
We're an artist and might sometimes post our art too, if youre interested to see more of it look to Lux (NoBodIsHere) on Youtube (occasional gore warning!)
Into Hyuns Dojo/Stickfigure animation BIG TIME. We're a mod in the server and in general engaged in the community. Reach out to us there if you want to talk!
Check out our Carrd portfolio for recent Artworks and projects! Mind that since it's for a wider audience we aren't explicitly open about our plurality there.
A website for me to share about myself and have my work in one place!
Headmate list:
People you might see writing on this blog:
Pold (p) - he/him, gay (levi) cis guy, an animal spirit originally (accidentally) created as a dæmon. Presents as an African Hawkeagle most of the time, does have an alternate form of a white cheetah with very faded spotting. Used to be a subsystem but fused years ago. He's our main protector and oldest headmate (by when they arrived to the system not in-sys age).
Sfyxon (s) - they/them nonbinary aroace, a dragon "high-priest"(for lack of a better word) subservient to a dragon-god of the sun. The only headmate who actively worships a god. (Most of us are agnostic) They won't make it their own personality though! Primary traumaholder and caretaker.
Finn (f) - he/him demiboy/transmasc bi guy, a changeling usually presenting as something similar to a dnd cobold. His right arm is missing in headspace which does impact the way he's able to use the body's arm, though he wouldn't consider himself physically disabled.
Kjannrýa (k) - she/her/it aro polysexual (genderfuck-ey vibes, would consider herself a woman or lady but not girl), a Kelpie and monocon subsystem of two (the personalities don't have distinct names and are mostly tied to appearance/her true form vs her horse-like form, prefer to be treated as a singular being) usually presents as a white horse with scattered red scales and a shiny, elegant fish-tail. Formerly a persecutor, nowerdays she helps us keep our self-esteem up.
An (a) - any pronouns, demiromantic lesbian fem-leaning genderflux, a changeling and Finn's sister. Uses her shapeshifting abilities liberally, but we've never seen her true form. Usually presents as a anthropomorphic lanky black dog with purple eyes and intricate white patterns in their fur, sometimes with 5 eyes and/or long fangs. Secondary traumaholder. In a qpr with benefits with kjann.
Bea (b) - she/her fae/faer, bi genderfae/girl! I'm the one writing this out, hi! I'm also a changeling and hail from the same universe as Finn (who is my bf) and An, but I'm not related to them. I usually present as a chocolate Tortie cat with a green and a pink eye, insect wings sprouting from my lower back, antennae and small decorative mandables. Bug-kitty essentially :3
Kallypso X (x) - he/she, no defined sexuality (might be aplatonic tho, not sureee) bigender. Doesn't front nearly as consistently as the rest of us and isn't too big on talking to people so don't expect to see him around here. She is a basilisk-based creature with one half crow, one half aquatic snake (yes, he has two heads. Yes, she talks with both of them. Insists he is a singular being, strongly dislikes being called they/them for that reason!)
Headmates you probably/definitely won't see posting here:
(t) - he/him, little. We won't share personal details like name or age. He likes dinosaurs and is a dinosaur, thats all you need to know.
(j) - ðe/ðim, little. Won't share personal stuff. Ancient like... demigod or something, giant, horned, gargoyle-morph ball python. Real sweet pea.
Narrator (r) - it/its, overarking conciousness for our system, helps us keep things in check. Not really sentient itself, thats why it can't interact. Presents as a security camera mounted in our fronting room.
Noėl (n) - he/? (? Just in typing/optional), a spirit presenting as a black cat. Chills around as a projection in the outerworld, doesn't function as a fronting system member.
Winifred (w) - she/! (! Just in typing/optional), a spirit presenting as a white stag (yes, a stag, not a doe!). Functions similarly to Noėl. While not coming to the system at the same time, they function as a pair.
Sorry for the repeating colors, they mostly serve visual clarity for me. But yeah! In the picture at the top of this post you can see all of us, youll just have to figure out who is who based on the given info, sorry lmao
None of us are introjects from pre-existing sources but essentially all of us hold some exo-memories of the worlds we come from (whether we believe we were actually there in a previous life or not is individual to the headmate, some of us are more psychological than spiritual about it.) Feel free to ask questions about our backstories, there is tons of stuff we already know about ourselves and probably even more we havent discovered yet! lol
Our system size is stable at 12 headmates, we shouldn't split/form new headmates anymore. Fingers crossed at least.
(Transcript under the cut) I am like 90% sure theres people in our life who don't know we're plural and definitely are suspicious about how quickly we recover from.. anything. Emotional amnesia is great y'all, highly recommend. except of course when I front again it doesnt matter cuz everythings still just as bad as it was before
-a
[a] Everything is bad and horrible and- we shouldn't exist...
[b the next morning] ...
I am completely emotionally unaffected by this.
... a few days later
[a] wow I love being part of a system I have plenty of time to recover-
[starts breaking down randomly] FUUUUUU-
(Transcript under the cut) Im at odds with Kallypso pretty often but when it comes to thoughting violent crimes Im all there for it. Sfyxon.. isnt. btw person in the first "panel" is meant to be our mother she hates the claws that we have but theyre so funnnnn
-k
[Mother] you should really cut your nails.
[k+x] ...
[k] we could totally gauge someones eye out with this.
[x] omg we could!!
[theres also an arrow pointing at our hand which reads: our long-ass 8mm long thumbnail]
[s] I am going to cut them if you keep talking like this.
[k] seriously? the ONE TIME we agree on something-
(transcript under cut). Impostor syndrome sucks. An cried themself to sleep over it yesterday (wasnt the only reason but a big one). At least these comics can help us process, I guess.
So yeah, we're keeping our comics made primarily for ourselves, to put our experiences to paper. if anyone can relate, thats awesome! but we're not chasing it.
-b
We're sorta facing a dilemma.
If we make simple, humanoid designs for ourselves, we can reach a wider audience that can relate.
On the other hand, we want this to stay personal. We dont want to hide who or what we are.
We've been dealing with impostor syndrome lately.
It feels like any success we've been having, be it on tumblr, yt, or at school, is a sham.
That we don't deserve to be seen or heard or good at something.
But we still chase it, despite hating it. Like if the numbers get big enough, we'll start believing them.
so you know what? screw it. We won't care about the numbers. not on here. This is a personal blog. If people relate, good on them.but we wont try to be "appealing" or "relateable" to the public.
We're people. Not characters in a comic.
I don't usually share my voice to outsiders. Im not trusted in front because of the thoughts I create. The one time I said something irl I told the person the rest loves most that it would be nice stuffing his (implied dead) body into ours to be together forever. Theyre lucky he knows about us and doesnt hold it against the rest of them. If he holds it against me, I dont really care. When we say "intrusive thoughts" we don't mean eating strange food combinations or giving yourself bangs impulsively. We mean real harmful thoughs usually directed at ourselves or our close ones. I feel like some of the headmate-specific ones I worded strangely, especially when they usually come in multiples or arent adressed directly. I struggle with communication even within the system, the others are hard to read for me, even though I am very targeted with what I say. Despite everything I am still grateful to exist in a system that lets me voice my opinion and treats me as an integral part to our functioning despite what I do to them. Do not direct asks or messages on this blog at me, I will not respond to you. I dont like people. -x
Kallisto decided to share some thoughts. Thanks for reading, no transcript since he isnt handwriting. He doesnt like linework/pens. Lasso tool only lmao -p
Skill differences. Also thank you guys for 50 notes on our last post wtf? thats like, actual numbers?? as long as we have ideas for comics or experience something silly we'll keep posting these once a day!
(transcript under cut)
-f+k
[f] In most skills we are about equal.
[k] This does make sense! We share a body, so we share our muscle memory.
[k] where it gets funny is where we don't overlap.
[f] I (Finn) am pretty maths-smart. I handled most of our physics exams.
[f] Bea is great with Genetics & Biology. What we'll study at uni is her passion project.
[f] Pold is very good at handling panic attacks. He can calm us down reliably.
[f] Kjann is good at bitching and moaning. [k] Hey!
[f] So yeah basically the brain skills can vary a lot for us.
[k] You little f*cker I can do so much more than bitch and moan
-*please note this comic was created consentually, Im doing a bit.
Weight is a reoccuring topic for us even though we're like, rationally aware that we are a healthy weight it just doesn't match our inner appearance for most of us. We might have some dysmorphia but it balances out.
Wow its so great supporting your favourite creators through patreon I'm sure giving the sex-repulsed aroace a couple free minutes and the unaccomplished task of joining a nsfw discord server is a great idea
Uhhh An enjoyed themself at least so thats good
(Transcript under cut!)
-s+a
Transcript:
[s looking at our phone] time to finally join the NSFW puzzleheads server!
[arrow pointing at s] innocent AroAce who hasn't seen real NSFW in their life
[Phone with a visible image of two characters cuddling, SFW]
[s] Aww, they're cuddling!
[s scrolls one post higher]
HOLY HELL-- [s flinches back in shock as phone (covered by a censor bar) drops to the ground]
[a, swinging their legs joyously while smiling at the phone] I got to look at it later as a treat, After a big exam we had. ([s] that I wrote.)
[s covering their eyes, clearly scarred for life/lh] what did I even expect?? No peanits in the peanits server?!?
It's been a bit, thx to everyone who reads this. I "lost" my arm around 2 years ago, it fluctuates how bad it is but I'd say most of the time it's at least partly usable.
-f
[page one] being a disabled headmate in an ablebodied body is... weird.
[page two] Just to get a few things out of the way: I do not consider myself physically disabled. For the most part I can Function similarly to my headmates.
This experience falls into our BID (Body Integrity Disorder) It is not voluntary and I am not trying to "appropriate being disabled". If I could choose, I'd probably have both arms.
[page three] My arm is weird. Its there but its also not. Sometimes I can use it, sometimes I cant.
Our muscle memory is shared, which is why Im able to draw or write at all. I dont think about moving my arm, I think about putting the line on the paper. Still, on bad days I struggle with line control.
[page four] On good days I can mask. Sometimes I even forget about it. At least until I get reminded.
It starts to hurt pretty bad when I overuse my arm. maybe I'm using the muscles wrong or something. I don't think I can actually lose control over it, but it does feel like I cant use it at those moments.
[page five] When my arm doesn't cooperate, I have a some stable positions it can rest in.
Just relaxing the arm gets really uncomfortable really quickly. Very inconspicuous though.
The dinosaur arm is what I do most times. Probably the reason our arm is sore the following day.
resting the hand on the shoulder or chest is comfy, but looks really stupid.
I do wish it wasn't there sometimes, but it is really useful when it works since its our dominant hand. also all my headmates need it.
[page six] I could write a whole essay about how BID affects our system (yes, it does affect all of us to varying degrees) and me in particular, but I think I rambled enough.
Thanks for reading and sorry for the lack of activity!
Transcript under the cut, I know my cursive isn't the most legible thing. Sorry.
I really wanted to just.. put this to paper. at least once. As shitty of a person as I was, I really miss being *that*. Im not even sure what exactly it is I miss. my persona, the unease I created within the others. I'm glad Im a trusted member of the system now, and Im glad I get along with most of us. Me and sfyxon will forever have our differences, we just aren't very compatable fronters, but we have decided to settle our disputes and foster a mutual respect. I still sometimes wish I stayed the bitch I was when I got here. I can't hate Kallypso for her attitudes, but I feel like she's stealing a part of my identity from me.
Side note but we're trying to reduce the number of reblogs on here. unless we have something very important to say, we want this blog to stay clean for our comics.
-k
I'm Kjannrýa. I usually go by Kjann, and k is my shortsel.
Do you know the "Evil Alter" trope? I used to be essentially that when I first came here.
I was a persecutor, put in system terms. I insulted and misgendered my headmates. I was not a good person.
It's been a while since then. I'm celebrated as an exemplory redeemed villain who's left her evil way behind and issomeone good now.
You know what? That's BULLSHIT.
Yes, I care about the people I share a body with. And yes, there are boundaries I regret crossing in the past (mostly the intentional misgendering)
There are times where I wish I could go back to who I used to be though.
And it's frustrating because I can't talk about it without feeling like Im dissapointing everyone. I shouldn't care about their opinions but I do. And I hate myself for it.
I shut the feelings out. they don't matter.
It doesn't feel too long ago since Kallypso X appeared.
I don't mind Kallypso. He fronts occasionally, makes snarky comments, leaves again.
sometimes, she manifests our intrusive thoughts.
She takes great joy from worsening our mental state. He does what I used to do.
I have been replaced. Our subconcious is telling me I'm past the point of no return.
There is no conclusion to this comic. No punchline. Just me airing my frustrations.
Anyways the exam went well. I think. I hope. relying on gut feeling.
This actually happened on friday lmao,, felt inclined to make a comic about it. I dont think we'll bother keeping a super-unified style across our comics besides the general color-schemes, since we all proudly have pretty distinct artstyles.
Sorry that this is unrelated to plurality but we just posted a new longform! It's a birthday gift for our favourite animator :) check it if you want 8 minutes of bg noise and check the full collab if you want 3.5 minutes of tasty attention-grabby stuff
Sorry that my handwritin' sucks btw :/ I tried to make it at least somewhat legible (transcribed text below cut)
This is a good way to start of our comic series I think? maybs? idk. tone might be really jumpy since we're a chronically busy person and findin time and ideas to actually draw out is a bit of a toughie (Kjann has a comic she wants to do, so does Finn. haven't gotten around to it tho.)
-p
(transcribed text for screenreaders or if my handwriting is too messy)
Hi! I'm Pold! Or just p. that works too.
I'm the oldest headmate we got. I've been here since before our core split. before we became us.
Well, that's not entirely true. We've had imaginary friends almost our whole life. But only I lasted from that era. The others dissapeared. we didn't think we were real back then. Some of their aspects still linger in some of us though. they live on in a new form.
I was there when the split happened, but I'd lie if I said I remember it. We just realized they were two people one day. Almost 5 years have passed since then, and I gotta say, I'm happy to share this body with the people I do.
