Hi guys, as you know, I went MIA for a couple of months.
A lot of things happened, good and bad. Recently, the internship I got was one of the good things, I might say that I am pleased professionally.
However, I am not in a very good place mentally. I never was, but I tried to handle it and distract myself. But as always, I get worse at the end of the year when I think about my life.
So that's why I was away a lot.
Even when I had one of the happiest experiences in my life, after they pass, I automatically become sad again.
I went to London and saw Tom. I also had my first trip to South Korea. I noticed that things like this make me enjoy life and be active on social media and also more lively in real life. But then I fall again.
I have never confessed, but I also have a very low self esteem. I was fat a lot of years, then I lost weight but now I am struggling again. So this also affected my presence here.
I became very tired as I also tutor when I am not working, so I am coming home late and have no time to do things, I just go to sleep. Wake up tired, continue the routine.
So I want to properly apologize to everyone who cheered me up until this time, to everyone who is still waiting for some requests, to everyone who had followed me and waited for me to post.
I am truly sorry and I hope that when this year will end, I will come back to you better. I just hope you will still be here and wait for me.
I have decided to take a break from work when the internship ends this month and spend my time to heal.
Writing on this blog made me feel better, it became a shelter for my mental health. It made me happy when I saw a lot of you supporting me. So thank you! I want you to know that you are another reason I am still here and keep fighting with my problems. Therefore, you might see me sooner than expected, as I hope to have a little surprise for you around Christmas time. Until then, I wish you all are doing well and stay healthy, both physically and mentally. See you soon ❤❤❤