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luffy was known for his appetite. the man could devour countless helpings of food in seconds!! whenever you guys docked at new islands, he was always dragging you along to go try some of the new stalls and restaurants the locals recommended to him.
you weren't surprised when his appetite followed him into the bedroom.
luffy could easily spend hours between your thighs. it was hard to rip him away once he was latched onto you. his tongue pressing into you, lapping away as if you were the only thing left to eat (given his habits, you probably were, assuming he raided sanji's pantry already).
you tried confronting him about why he liked it so much. his answer?
a dumb look and a pout, with the words 'you just taste too good.'
luffy had no rhythm or pattern whatsoever. there was no order to how he ate you out, it was constantly changing. one day he'd be overly eager, nose bumping your clit as his lips ravish your cunt, sending you into overstimulation as he rips orgasm after orgasm from you.
the other times he'd be a bit slower, relishing in how good you taste on his tongue. slow licks and sucks on your clit, a leisurely pace.
luffy never made eye contact. not out of embarrassment, but because he was just too focused on your pussy. he couldn't take his eyes off his meal!
luffy was greedy. he would beg for it (even once in front of people, to which sanji had a heart attack at the fact that you were sleeping with the captain). you had to clamp a hand over his mouth anytime he whined at the table, begging for 'you to give him his dessert, that he's still hungry'.
you even let him eat you out when you were asleep! it helped maintain the food in the pantry, as well as kept luffy from roaming around the ship. whenever he got hungry, he'd just spread your pretty thighs and start sucking on your cunt.
there have been multiple times where luffy has fallen asleep between your legs. like full on dozed, face first into your pussy. it was cute, knowing he could spend hours down there.
he never ate you out for his own sexual satisfaction. he wasn't even aware that he was getting off on it. it was amusing, to say the least. after he made you cum so many times on his tongue, you'd offer to suck him off, something to thank him. luffy would just say it was no big deal.
he would proceed to then beg to eat you out again 15 minutes later.
i literally want more headcannons of Bf Jake that last drabbles was delectable 😍
[NSFW VER.] BF!JAKE HEADCANNONS
STARRING. . .JAKE SIM X FEM!READER
NOTE: Ask and you shall receive, my dear! I fear I could tap about BF!Jake 24/7. I need this man BIBICALLY.
WARNING(S): SMUT, suggestive content, fingering, oral, PIV, slight anal, and overall a very feral Jake Sim!
💌 — REQUESTS OPEN FOR ENHYPEN !
Following up this drabble, on the occasion that it isn’t a pure ending, it likely starts with you smacking his hand away, just for him to find an even more scandalous spot. You don’t want him groping your tits? That’s fine, he’ll shove his hand between your legs instead! Regardless of how early either of you have to wake up the next day, if he wants your pussy, he’s gonna have it.
BF!Jake is NASTY — which is where anal comes into play. Even if you don’t want him to fuck your ass, he’ll beg to just finger it, especially when he’s between your thighs…which, I should mention, he also loves being messy with.
He’s the type to spit on it, let his saliva drip from his mouth while he’s eating you out, until bubbles are forming around his mouth and it’s almost uncomfortably wet. And, trust, he won’t tell you that he’s about to shove his fingers inside of you. Instead, he’ll suckle on your clit and slip two into your sopping hole, grinning against you when your hips lift off of the bed.
BF!Jake loves manhandling you, too. Y’all remember that clip of him adjusting Jay’s legs during the filming of the Bad Desire MV? Yeah.
If he’s eating you out, he’s pinning your hips down with his arm, prying your legs open with his hands. If he’s hitting it from the back, he’s got a tight grip on your hips, pulling you back against him and thrusting forward into you. Bonus points if he gets to hold your hands behind your back and use your arms for leverage.
It’s also ridiculous common for Jake to fold you in half. Mating press HATES to see bro c(um)oming.
Because, for Jake, there’s nothing like having you spread open for him, at his mercy, where he can pound into you as deep as he can possibly go, and watch your pretty face as he does it. He gets off on it, on how messy and exposing the position is, on how much control it gives him over you.
Not to mention, I feel in the force that he’s a boob man — to be fair, Jake is simply feral, and I will stand by that, but the sight of your tits bouncing while he’s fucking into you? Or the way they fit in his hands? Or how you react when he pinches at your nipples?
BF!Jake also loves catching you off guard, hence him taking it upon himself to shove his fingers in you if he can’t palm at your boobs. Which is probably why he loves fucking you right before bed, when you’re both tired and pliant. He loves the way you just melt for him, let him feel you up and fuck you how he wants, loves the way it feels to sloppily thrust into you, how you squeeze around him and let out shaky breaths.
All that goes to say, Jake still knows how to be gentle. So, some nights, he just rubs your clit and kisses you until you orgasm. Other nights he simply cups your cunt and peppers kisses all over your face.
And, while he’s not particularly fond of cockwarming—because who the fuck is he to be in such a predicament and not fucking into you?—he does occasionally ask to just put it in, just to feel you. Which may or may not be how he finds out he’s got a thing for somnophillia.
In which you give your loving boyfriend head for the first time!
sim jaeyun x fem! reader
warnings: blowjob, handjob, praise, he’s super encouraging, and vocal
word count: 1.5k
Extension from this fic!
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“Im still nervous around your mom” You say, taking off your shoes at his front door
“Baby, she loves you okay?” He walks to the kitchen to grab sodas from the fridge
He notices the worried look on your face “Im telling you she never is that nice before leaving for a work meeting. Like ever. So the fact that she was to you just proves it” He says, opening the sprite, and handing it to you
You feel a little better at that, he presses a light kiss to your head before walking upstairs, you following after him
Ever since Jake asked you to be his girlfriend things have been amazing, you’ve been over his house a few times since, it truly was huge, as soon as you get in his room you sit on the bed, the usual spot on the right.
He comes beside you, wrapping an arm around your shoulder before scrolling through Netflix to find the movie Jay recommended him “This better live up to his expectations.” He mutters, getting comfortable in the pillows, you scoot closer to him, resting your hand and head on his chest.
He watches you laugh at a part in the movie, your leg was now laying across his thigh, dangerously close to his growing hard on that started from the moment you touched his chest.
He really cant help it, especially when you smell so good, and you’re in his space like this, its intoxicating in the best way
He takes a small drag of your hair, the shampoo scent infiltrating his senses, he shuts his eyes tight when you press further against him. Why did you have to wear a fucking tank top today
You feel his heart beating against your head, the movie isn’t even at a thrilling part..
You sit up, hand braced on the pillow next to you “Jake are you okay?” You look down at him, he looks like he’s holding his breath
“Yup perfect fine—lets just watch the movie- fuck” The slight shift in your leg being so close to his erection has his eyebrows furrowing
You move the covers off his lower body, eyes slightly widening at the prominent print in his grey sweatpants, before looking at his face, guilt washing over his features
“Baby im sorry, I didn’t mean to really.. you just smell so, so good and—“ he bites his lip in frustration moving to put the covers back over him but you stop his hand
Surprise flashes across his face, watching the way you look at his clothed cock, your gaze making it slightly twitch.
“I..Can I help?” You ask, looking at his face curiously
“You really don’t have to, I don’t want to force you or anything-“
“I want to.”
He watches you for a brief moment, giving you a chance to change your mind, but when you don’t, he cant help that relief that settles in his body, and the excitement
“Have you ever..you know, done this before?” He asks, knowing the answer
you shake your head, sitting up
“You want me to talk you through it, baby?” He places a hand on your knee, thumb swiping over it mindlessly
“Um..yeah” You say, embarrassed that you need to be taught this sort of thing
He moves to take off his sweatpants and boxers off in one go, you watch his throbbing cock spring out, yes you’ve seen it before, felt it inside you, but you’ll never get over how big it is.
“Do you wanna try touching it first?” He asks, watching the way your eyes zero in on his length
You start with your thumb, brushing over the tip lightly, smearing the pre cum that already leaked out, your eyes flick to his face when he lets out a small groan
“Try wrapping your hand around the tip” He almost chokes on air at the way you squeeze his tip in your hand, you immeditly retract your hand “Sorry- im sorry”
“No—fuck, don’t apologize, thats just not what I was expecting” he says through a chuckle “If you do that I might come sooner than I want” He watches the way you move your hand back to his dick
“Try lighter pressure, moving your hand up and down, slowly” You wrap your hand around the base, sliding up to the tip and back down, you look at his face, the way his mouth hangs open slightly, letting out heavy breaths
When you come back up again you swipe your thumb over the slit which makes him buck his hips into your hand “y/n-“ He says through a light groan, you cant help but smile, and lick your lips at the sight
You move your hand a little faster, repeating the movement with your thumb on his tip, “Oh my gosh- fuck.. wait-“ He grabs your wrist with his hand stopping you
“I cant come, not yet” He says, locking eyes with you
“Do you want to try..tasting it?” He watches your face, you nod before situating yourself between his legs so you have better access
“Okay, its pretty much like what you did with your hand, but with your mouth..like a loli pop?” He says, contemplating his word choice “Just try kissing it, we can start there” He says encouragingly
You lean down further, licking your lips before pressing a kiss to the head of his cock, he bites his lip to stifle a moan when you repeat the motion, eyes nearly rolling when you move your tongue around the tip
“Holy fuck—“ He cant help but wrap his fingers into your hair, in attempt to keep himself grounded
You wrap your lips around the mushroom tip, sucking it in your mouth, watching him as he throws his head back “Yeah— God, your mouth is so warm” His eyebrows furrow when you repeat the movement again
You remove mouth from him, looking up at him for approval
“I wanna try the whole thing Jake” You say eagerly
He cant help the light laugh that escapes his lips, or the way his cock jumps at the words, as if it has a mind of its own
“Okay baby, when you do just be careful to not use your teeth, try hollowing your cheeks” He nods encouragingly before you lean back down again
You stick out your tounge to cover your bottom lip before taking him in your mouth again, angling yourself right so your teeth are covered by your top lip, before pushing past his tip, “Oh my fuck—“ His eyes roll at the feeling of your mouth
“Just like that baby, you’re taking me so well” He does his best to not push your head himself, instead letting you control your pace
You use your hand to wrap around what your mouth can fit, before moving your head up and down, slowly
“You’re doing good..just maybe a little faster?” He says, voice slightly shaken
You mumble something around his length earning a hiss from him
Looking up for a split second to see the way hes looking at you, the way his body slightly trembles is giving you confidence, how you’re in complete control of his pleasure makes your heart beat, and your pussy throb.
You curl your toes to help yourself not gag, moving your head at a faster pace, bobbing up and down, trying to adjust your throat for his cock
His hand on the back of your head is helping, his body taking over as he pushes you down slightly making his cock hit deeper, “Yeah..yeah fuck, baby please” He says through..whimpers
You feel your eyes start to water from the intrusion in your throat, but still push through, determined to help him.
His cheeks are flushed pink and his eyes are half lidded, hes trying to keep the open as he watches you, he cant control the way his hips buck into your mouth, thrusting into the warmness of it, You take him deeper, humming around him, earning a broken sound from him, his other hand goes to grip the sheets beside him
“Shit—baby, y/n..Im gonna” He watches as you pick up your pace, the words from his mouth no longer able to come out with how good your making him feel, with how tight your mouth is around him.
“Yes—right there—“ His hand grips the back of your hair, “Im coming-“ He manages to say through a deep moan, you dont move yourself, instead letting him come down your throat, swallowing the warmth, before pulling your mouth off him, and sitting up
He cant even see straight because that was literally the best head he’s ever gotten, like ever.
“Baby” He breathes out, watching the way you sit between his legs
“Did I do okay?” You ask licking your lips
He almost laughs at that “Okay?”
“I think that might be the best thing to ever happen to me. It was fucking amazing” He says, watching the way your eyes light up at the compliment
You move to lay next to him but he stops you “Jake-“
“No you’re not done.” You watch him sit up, pressing a soft kiss to your lips before sliding down the bed, and spreading your legs
“You think im gonna neglect this pretty pussy?” He says, voice low, asserting. He takes the waistband of your shorts, pulling them and your underwear down, practically drooling at the sight before him
“My turn now” Is all he says before attaching his lips to you, and absolutely devouring.
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I just had to write this because hes so hot i cant. someone help because oh my gosh
Jake sim, one of the most popular boys in school makes it his goal to have you fall for him, a simple bet with his friends. Little does he know, he’ll be the one falling to his knees for you
sim jaeyun x fem!reader
content warnings: smut, angst, inexperienced reader x experienced jake, pussy drunk jake, pussy eating, fingering, dry humping, multiple makeout scenes, mutual masterbation, unprotected sex, cream pie, mentions of bullying & alcohol, jake is a massive giver, and a simp (begging), hyung line mentioned, porn with a plot..let me know if I missed anything!
word count: 16.8k
bonus scene here!
Going to a school where everyone around you got what they wanted was torture. Especially for someone like you. You don't come from a wealthy family like the other students do. Some people would call your home life unfortunate if they knew. Which is exactly why almost no one knows.
You only got accepted into this school because of a scholarship program, after endless studying, and trying to stay focused at your old school, that was your out.
It was hard though, with the bullying, the mean comments, trying to remain sane while everyone in your life pushed and pointed like you were some object for observation and critiquing.
But at your new school, people actually leave you alone. You've been attending here for a few months now. As a natural observer it only took 1 to understand the dynamic of the people here.
From the designer hand bags, to the freshly blown out hair, the girls here were not only gorgeous but also had the money to maintain things like that, it was obvious why they didn't bother you. Because you weren't a threat.
Just like any other school there's always those cliques, the groups of people who hang around the same circle. Yours happens to be you and two other girls, your first friends you made here, Lyla and Gigi.
You have a hard time telling if they pity you, they know your situation. How your mother constantly tries to live off the wealth of other men, they know you don’t live in a good area—
“Oh my gosh he totally looked at me, didn't he look at me?” Lyla says, eyes darting between you and Gigi.
“He quite literally looks at anything with boobs Ly..” Gigi says, taking a bite of the school cafeterias fries.
“Come on, at least feed into my delusions a little bit” She says, stealing one of your fries.
You turn your head slightly, three tables back sits the most known group of boys in the whole school. Football players. Typical.
“You’re talking about Heeseung right?” you say turning back to your friends. “Obviously! I mean with Gigi being Jay’s sister obviously he knows who I am right?” She says, eyes wide
“Yeah- im sure he does, don't they hang out a ton after school and stuff too?” You ask, playing with the salad on your plate with a fork.
“Yup! At Gigi’s too, most of the time, and especially after practice, when they're hot and sweaty-”
“Okay gross. my brother is on that team” Gigi says, gagging
You've been to her house a few times, whether it was for one of your group projects, or to help her out with some school work, Slept over often too, I mean her house was huge.
Her parents even offered to have you sleep in one of the 6 guest bedrooms. But Lyla said it doesn't count as a sleepover if we’re not all together.
“Incoming, 12 o’clock.” Lyla says looking past your shoulder at the group of boys.
“How much you wanna bet she’s gonna yell at him” Gigi says, making you turn around, you watch as a familiar blonde haired girl you've seen around campus storms into the cafeteria, heels clicking on the ground as she approaches them.
“Jake where the fuck were you!” She yells, glaring at the dark haired boy, number 15 on the football team. You only know that because Lyla made you go through the list of them to figure out which one Heeseung was.
You watch him, the way his eyes never leave his phone when he speaks. “God- What do you not fucking understand about where done?” He says finally looking up at her, the other guys around him look like they're watching a movie while they observe the interaction.
“But you didn't even-” she starts “Clara I don't want to hear your bullshit okay? Just leave me alone.” He says, tone irritated.
“Fine- you know you're just like all the other guys. Only talking to girls just to get your dick wet.”You watch the way her grip tightens on her designer bag.
“You didn't seem to mind.” He says, making the guys around him let out the laughs they've been holding.
“Fuck you- you’re so going to regret this!” She says, and you watch as he rolls his eyes and focuses back on his phone
“She looks like she's about to throw a tantrum” Gigi says, making your attention go back to your friends
“I mean Jake knew what he was getting into when they started..messing around" Lyla says.
You just nod, half listening before turning your head again to look at the group, they’re back to laughing, probably at the interaction that just happened.
“-and then we can order pizza or something, it’s the perfect night for it too! You in y/n?” Lyla says, and you look at them confused “Huh?”
“Girl, The Victoria's Secret fashion show duh, it's live tonight.” She says "Gigi's house obviously since you know, movie theater room”
“I love the way you volunteered my own place, But yeah, my house tonight” She says shrugging
“Um- I dont know guys..I kind of have to study-”
“Y/n it's friday night. Come on, you have all weekend to study, please!” She says looking at you with those infamous puppy dog eyes
“Fine, fine ill be there, what time?” You ask, picking up your phone.
“Like 7 ish?” Lyla says, looking at Gigi who just nods, “Yeah, Jay won't be home either, pretty sure him and his friends are going to some party.”
“Your parents are letting him?” Lyla asks, brow raising.
“They're not even home, they literally left for their anniversary trip not even 3 hours ago.” Gigi says checking her phone. “So it will just be us then? she nods.
The rest of the day is a blur, between trying to set up tutoring appointments with your counselor, because apparently it looks good to help other students, and trying to finish your own work so you can actually go to Gigi’s.
You mentally prepare yourself to ask your mom if you can go tonight, hoping she's in a good mood. Knocking lightly on her bedroom door “Mom?” you ask quietly and the door swings open, you take in her attire, the club dress, the really tall heels, her hair and make up done.
“You’re going on another date?” You ask brow raising
“Yeah, remember that guy from the bar I told you about, Chris?" She says smiling, you nod even though you don't remember her saying a thing about him.
“Right- um well I was just wondering if I can go to Gigi’s tonight? I finished my homework and stuff and its also friday so-”
“Sure” She says, and you pause. It must be because she's going on a date, because you would have gotten a whole lot more shit.
“Can you sleep over too.” It's not a question.
“Uh- I can ask” You say shrugging
“Well just try too okay? Im about to leave” She says, putting in her earrings and giving you a very rare kiss on your forehead before walking out the door, leaving you confused as ever.
Its like the universe was on your side when you opened your phone to see the group chat messages
Lyla: Gigi we should just have a sleepover
Lyla: It's already gonna be late when the live is done too
Lyla: Plus we haven't had one in so long
Gigi: yeah I was literally going to ask if you guys wanted to stay the night anyway lol
Lyla: YAY! Good because my bags already packed
Gigi: Y/n can u come too?
You: Yup! I'll be there
You set your phone down so you can focus on packing an overnight bag, you don't need to overdress either, so you settle on wearing some shorts, a hoodie, and fluffy socks with slippers, this is a sleepover after all
When you get to Gigi's house- no, mansion, because this can't even compare to your house. Lyla comes running out
"You're late!” She says, grabbing your bags from you “It's like 10 minutes-”
“And the show starts in 20!” she says frantically, grabbing your arm and dragging you into the house
You dont think you’ll ever get over how nice it is, from the high ceilings to the expensive paintings on the wall, and the pool in the backyard, probably way too big for a family of four.
You catch the faint smell of popcorn from the kitchen, as Lyla places your bags by the stairs, “Where's Gigi?” you ask
“Shes setting up in the movie room, im trying to finish the popcorn” Lyla says going to the kitchen
You walk down the hall you've grown familiar with, observing the pictures on the wall of Gigi's family
“Y/n- how do you disconnect a Playstation from the TV? Jay didn't even bother to.” She says, clicking random buttons on the remote. You laugh walking over to help her
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“Okay all I have to say is when I get married and stuff, im making my husband buy me that specific set.” Lyla says over the runway music, making you and Gigi laugh because she practically yells over how loud it is.
You open your mouth to speak but stop when all three of your eyes go to the door as it opens, Heeseung walks in pausing as his eyes go to the large TV screen “Holy shit- are you guys watching porn?” He says, looking at the model on the stage, the space instantly feels smaller as Sunghoon pushes past him to get in the room “We’re not watching porn!” Gigi says, pausing the TV
Lyla is just staring at Heeseung, Jay walks in next “Gigi what the hell are you watching-”
“Did we interrupt your group gooning session?” Heeseung says. You watch Gigi's face flush red, now clearly visible since Jay turned on the lights.
“Jay- You said you were going to that stupid ass party tonight!” She says walking over to him “Yeah well it got cancelled.” He says, rolling his eyes. “Bruh I've been wanting to play the ps5 all day” Sunghoon says before looking at the TV again
“Do we not literally have a room for you to do just that?” Gigi says, eyeing down Sunghoon, before looking back at her brother.
“Dude someone left a whole bag of popcorn in the microwave-” Jake walks in pausing when he sees everyone in here, his eyes land on you for a split second before looking at the TV “What are they watch-”
“Its not fucking porn! You all are so stupid!” Gigi says before her eyes snap back to Jay “I literally said I was having Y/n and Lyla over in our messages!”
“Yeah well I forgot” He rolls his eyes again, you cant help but observe the other four boys, you watch Heeseungs eyes, following them to Lyla.. that has to be considered eye fucking.
You can't help but look at Jake though, he's wearing glasses. Are they prescription? He’s looking at something on his phone. He just showed Sunghoon something on his phone that made him smile. Sunghoon looks at you for a second before nudging Jake's shoulder, Jake is looking at you- is he looking behind you? You turn your head slightly, before looking back at him, why is he smirking-
“Fine! You keep the movie room well just go in the living room. Just don't snitch” Jay pleads, not even embarrassed that he's begging in front of his friends, Gigi just beams proudly, knowing she's won when they walk out.
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“She’s a virgin?!” Jake practically yells, making Heeseung, and Sunghoon's eyes snap to him.
“You’re so fucking lucky the movie room is noise cancellation.” Jay says pinching his eyebrows
“And- I don't even know if it's true, I just over heard Gi talking on the phone with her and Lyla a few weeks back” Heeseung and Sunghoons attention on the movie long forgotten
“Are you talking about y/n?” Heeseung asks curiously
“There's no way, I mean yeah she's like quiet and shit but she has some experience right?” Sunghoon adds
“I don't know man, but her and Gi became friends at the beginning of the school year, she's been over a few times. She's pretty chill.” Jay says
“So she doesn't have a boyfriend?” Jake asks, brow raising
“I thought you liked them experienced Jake? You fuck with little virgins now or what?” Heeseung says smirking
“I mean she’s cute, nothing wrong with teaching her a thing or two” Jake says with a knowing look on his face
“She doesn't really talk to guys though–like at all. Gi always complains that she’s too busy studying. But she's hella smart, tutoring and shit-”
“Wait, she tutors?” Jake's ears perk up at that
“Yeah she came over to help Gigi with chem the other day.” Jay says casually, like he didn't just give him the golden ticket to your personal space
“Are you serious?” Sunghoon says looking at him
Heeseung glances between the two, picking up what they're hinting at. “It's kinda risky, I mean girls like that- they aren't like, easy you know? Plus you're literally one of the smartest on the team.”
“You think she's actually gonna be interested though?” Jay asks
“I bet she'll see through that shit the first tutoring lesson honestly” Sunghoon says, making Heeseung laugh
“You think I only pull the easy ones?” Jake watching the both of them
“Thats all you’ve done this whole time-” Heeseung starts
“Alright bet.” Jake says, making the three of them pause
“Bet?”
“Yeah, I'll get her to fall for me.” Jake says confidently
“Yeah right” Heeseung adds
“Shit- I mean what about Clara though?” Sunghoon asks
“What about her? Im not fucking her anymore”
“You realise the shit she's gonna give y/n if you actually go through with that?” Jay says
“You’re basically setting her up for failure, Claras fucking crazy.” Heeseung says
“I still dont know why you decided to fuck her in the first place” he adds
“Probably because of her personality.” Jay says through a laugh
“Nah fuck her, she wont mess with y/n like that, shes not that desperate.” Jake says, but deep down he doesn't know if it's 100% true. Is he really setting you up for failure with this?
He's pulled from his thoughts when you come walking out of the movie room, coincidentally.
He only saw you sitting down, but now he's taking you in fully. Hoodie, shorts, fluffy…cat socks.
You pause when you see them all staring at you before awkwardly smiling and going to the kitchen to grab more popcorn.
Lyla and Gigi sent you out because they got it last time, but that's when there wasn't a group of guys you hardly knew in the living room.
Jay nudges Jake's shoulder before glancing to the kitchen, hesitating a beat before standing up and walking over.
You're looking through the five different popcorn options, who even needs that much popcorn anyway.
He watches as you choose the ‘extra butter’ one before speaking “Good choice” He says, walking further into the kitchen
“Oh- um thanks, it's the best one” You say, opening the microwave to put the popcorn in, he looks down at your legs, then back at your face when you turn around
“Y/n right?” He says, watching your face
“Yeah, I know who you are already though.” fingers toying with the end of your hoodie
“Oh? You've been to a game?” He says, taking a step closer
“No- I mean, I don't really watch football like that or anything- or sports” You say, looking back at how much time is on the popcorn, 50 seconds.
50 more seconds of this extremely weird interaction between you and one of the most popular guys in school.
He notices, he doesn't like that. “Y’know we have the same 3rd block.”
“Oh- AP Anatomy & Physiology?" You ask, but you know exactly what he's talking about, how could you not. He’s the 9th one to arrive in class everyday, everyone swarms his desk like a bunch of baby ducks just to talk to him.
“Yeah, I sit in the third row-” He's pauses when the beep of the microwave interrupts him, you silently thank the universe before pulling the popcorn out and mumbling something like “enjoy your movie” before practically running back to the movie room, leaving Jake confused, but also intrigued, most girls fall to their knees the second he gets within a 5 feet radius, so why did you just run away..
He walks back to the living room, sitting down, “Told you, easy ones only” Heeseung says through a laugh
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You're the first person to walk into AP Anatomy & Physiolgy on Monday, as always. You take your usual assigned, unassigned seat in the back row by the window, unpacking your bag, getting settled.
Your teacher walks in shortly after, she’s gotten used to you being here first. “Y/n” she says over the silence “Yes?”
“Are you okay with talking about how you're offering tutoring?” setting her own stuff down
"I'll have you do it at the end of class.” she adds. “Oh- yeah, I printed flyers for it too.” You say, and she smiles.
The students slowly file in, your eyes flick up to the door when the 9th person comes in. Jake.
The second he walks in his eyes are on you, you don't know why you feel hot all the sudden, like someone turned up the heater when he looks at you
Barely having any time to take in his outfit, you tap your pen on your paper, hoodie and jeans maybe?
You stop when you see the familiar frame take a seat next to you- Why is Jake sitting next to you, does he not always sit in the third row- You don't look at him, instead looking down at his shoe in your peripheral vision, because it would be weird to look at him. Even if you do feel his eyes on you.
The class flies by, you write down whatever your teacher puts on the board, trying not to be distracted by the noticeable presence beside you, if he had an aura around him, it would be clashing into yours because this whole time you've been weirdly affected by his close proximity.
“..And y/n has something to say as well.” Your teacher says, pulling you from your thoughts,you watch as everyone's heads turns to you before you stand up and walk to the front, clearing your throat
“Hi- im offering tutoring for anyone who needs extra help, any subject, um- here are the flyers if you're interested.” you say quickly before placing them on the teachers desk and walking back to your seat.
There's nothing you hate more than public speaking like that, you try to subtly calm your breathing. Jakes eyes are focused on you the whole time.
As soon as the bell rings you’re practically already out the door, Jake watches you stand up abruptly and rush out before he goes to the teachers desk to grab one of the flyers.
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“I don't know- she didn't even spare me a glance, like at all.” Jake says, setting his bag down on the bench in the locker room
“I told you, she doesn't talk to guys like that” Jay mutters, tying his shoe
“Pretty boy lost his charm huh?” Heeseung chuckles, shutting the door behind him
“Not completely” Jake says, pulling out your tutoring flyer from his bag
“You sneaky motherfucker-” Sunghoon eyes him, grabbing the paper from his hands
“Holy shit- you're actually going through with that?” Heeseung looks over Sunghoon's shoulder
“Just to prove a point?” Sunghoon asks
Jake doesn’t have time to reply before the Coach comes in, yelling at them to ‘get the fuck out the locker room’
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As soon as you get home, you pause when you see a suitcase by the door. “Oh y/n- took you long enough, you remember Chris right?” She say’s coming out of her room with a duffel bag
“The guy you went on a date with?” You ask, seting your backpack down
“Yeah, the rich one” She says with a smirk
“Anyways, he’s taking me to Boston for a trip!” She says excitingly
“Boston- what? Didnt you just meet him though?” You ask, brow raising in confusion
“I think he might be the one” She says smiling, the same smile she’s put on every time she says that.
“Um- well how long?” you ask, trying to register this whole thing
“Hmm- like 2 and half weeks-”
“2 and a half?! Mom- what the hell?”
“Calm down, I hate when you get like this y/n.” She says, putting her duffel bag on her shoulder
“Theres money for food, and whatever you need on the counter. It's not like I'm leaving you here to starve.”
“But-”
“Shit- I gotta go, ill call you when we land okay?” She says, giving you an awkward side hug before rushing out, leaving you confused as ever. This is what always happens though so you don't know why you're confused. She’s probably just doing it for the money anyway. Marry a rich man, use him to provide for us. It's pathetic.
The time was 9:46 when you receive the message. A number you don't know, you click on it
Unknown: Hey, Is this y/n?
You: Who is this?
Unknown: I got this number from your tutoring flyers
sitting up, this is the first person to actually text you about that
You: Oh yeah, what subject do you need help with?
Unknown: AP Anatomy & Physiology
You: Okay perfect, I have an A in that class so I can definitely help
You get your notebook out and a pencil
You: How soon do you want to start? And what's your first and last name
Unknown: Can we start tomorrow? I have practice everyday except Tuesdays
Practice? No way. You feel your heart beat pick up, This cant be–
Unknown: First names Jake, last names Sim.
The Jake Sim is texting you, about.. Tutoring. Is he not one of the top students though? You take a deep breath before typing back a reply
You: Okay, Tomorrow works. Does after school in the library work for you?
Jake Sim: Yeah im good with that
Jake Sim: I’ll see you tomorrow y/n
You shut your phone off, trying to ignore the way your palms are sweating a little too much right now, who even uses peoples names like that in messages?
Jake smiles down at his phone before swiping out of the chat.
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You're early. You're also early everywhere you go. You already set up your computer, and notebook with his name at the top, even after you erased it 3 times.
He walks in, you notice immediately, looking up from your paper, his hair is framing his face, no glasses today. White shirt with jeans. He smiles before sitting down across from you, you smile back, trying to seem less awkward.
You try to remind yourself, this is a mere tutoring lesson, so you'll act like it.
“So I just need to know what you're struggling on before we actually get into the teaching stuff.” you say looking at him, his eye contact is intense, it's hard to hold it.
He pulls out his own notebook
“Mainly muscle contractions,heart anatomy, and” He pauses before looking up at you “-Hormones.” You hesitate a beat before writing that down under his name. He notices.
“Okay, I can work with this- is there anything specific you don't understand? Is it a focusing thing?” You ask, genuinely concerned “I actually pulled up your average and you seem to be doing fine-”
“It's my memory” He says quickly “I have a hard time understanding, when the teacher talks it doesn't really comprehend well.”
“Oh- that's completely normal, are you more hands on?” You ask
He smirks “And visual.”
You look like you're actually deep in thought “Okay so, we would need to do more interactive studying, makes sense.” You say writing more stuff down
He watches you, the way your brows furrow in thought.
“Are you going to the game next Friday?” He says, your eyes flick up to him, confused at the sudden question
“I don't really go to football games or anything- Thats more Lyla and Gigi” You say, eyes traveling down for a split second when his tongue wets his bottom lip
“You should come” He says casually, like time has no affect on him
“We really should stay on task“
“If I pass the test next week will you come?”
Your caught off guard by the question, his heavy gaze on you making it worse
“Um- I’ll think about it” You say before writing more stuff down, he smiles slightly
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The next week goes by quickly, thankfully. Your mom has only called once, claiming she forgot to say she landed, even if it was a day later.
Home is lonely, its quiet but its good for studying. Your thoughts drift to Gigis family sometimes, even though her and her brother argue half the time, at least she has someone.
You’re pulled from your thoughts when you hear your name being called, not by the familiar voice of your friends but by..Jake?
Lyla and Gigi both look behind you, eye brows raised as he comes closer, standing infront of your table in the cafeteria
You watch the way people look at him, the heads turning to you, the attention—it’s too much
“Y/n” He says looking down at you
“I might be a little late for tutoring today, coach wants to talk to us about the game.” He says, making Lyla and Gigi’s eyes flick between you two
“Um- Okay, But you couldn’t have messaged me that?” you say, trying to ignore the gazes on you from people you’ve never spoken to in your life.
“I mean you were already here so-“
“Yeah just text me next time okay?” You say, avoiding eye contact
He looks over at his friends, watching their snickers. Oh hell no.
You think he’s going to walk away by now but he sits down, right next to you. That makes Lyla's jaw practically drop
“Why? You don’t like talking to me?” He says, watching you intently
“I never said that- you just cause a lot of..attention.” You say, looking around before looking at him
“You don’t like attention?”
“Not from this many people.” You say standing up, grabbing your bag
“Where are you going-“
“I have to go.” You mumble before putting your bag over your shoulder and walking out the cafeteria, not looking back because you know if you do, everyones eyes will be on you.
As soon as the doors shut behind you, you let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding.
“Really?” Gigi asks, watching Jakes confused face
“You realize you’re like a magnet for attention right?” Lyla says
“And there’s nothing she hates more then that.”
“I was just asking her about tutoring.” Jake says, standing up to walk back to his friends
“Nice job man, you really do still got it huh?” Heeseung says through a smirk, making the others stifle their laughs
“Should’ve put money on it” Sunghoon adds, earning a glare from Jake
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Jake came in late like he said, 15 minutes to be exact. He looked out of breath, like he ran here.
The tutoring session was fine, you kept that professional exterior even if you were trying not to feel embarrassed about earlier, thankfully he didn't bring it up.
“Aren't hormones just when you're horny?” He asks, pencil raised above his paper, looking at you
You pause “Did you really just ask me that-” You didn't mean to say it out loud but you did, it makes him let out a chuckle, he bites his lip, something he does often, a little too often. To the point where you can't help your eyes follow when he does it.
“Okay um, let me think of how to word this” you say, looking down at your paper before back up at him “It’s not just what makes you- ‘horny’ but I guess that could be a way to describe it, a more..scientifical word is Steroid Hormones..”
He watches you talk, even if what your saying is hardly registering to him, because not only are you talking to him about sex hormones or whatever it is, but you're not wearing the same knit sweater you had on earlier, you must have taken it off, because he cant pull his eyes away from the way your tits look in that tank top-
“Jake?” Your voice cuts through his thoughts, his eyes find yours again.
“How are you supposed to pass this test when you can’t even focus?” You ask, completely unaware of how he was just looking at you
“Shit- sorry, what were you saying” He says a little bit more nervously than he intended, why is he so damn nervous, why do you even make him nervous?
“Hm, you need something to do with your hands.” You say casually, taking him by surprise
His mind races with what you mean, please, please ask him to finger you.
He pauses when you pull out a rubix cube, a fucking rubix cube and hand it to him- what the fuck is he supposed to do with this shit?
“You said you were more hands on, one of the other students I tutor is also like that. Whenever she uses that, it's like she’s more focused, you should try it.” You say smiling, encouraging.
He doesn't know why he feels relieved when he hears the word ‘she’, but he does.
He takes the object from your hand, fidgeting with it for a few seconds before you continue
The rest of the lesson is smooth, who knew a rubix cube would actually work. You try to stay focused yourself though.
The constant bounce of your leg to settle whatever your feeling when you watch the way his fingers work the object in his hand, it should be illegal to have that many veins in the first place.
Later that night, in one of your moments where you give yourself a break from studying.
Heating up the leftover pasta you made the other night, you get a text. Your body reacts before your mind does, heartbeat picking up
Jake Sim: I tried the practice test thing you showed me earlier
Jake Sim: Got a 100%
You smile, when he sends a picture of his laptop, the score on it saying just that
You: Good job
He frowns at his phone, that's all? No titty pic as a reward?
Jake Sim: Guess I'll be seeing you at Friday's game then :)
You: Well see if your studying shows then
Jake Sim: I'll make sure it does
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“Y/N!” you hear Jake yell after you, you stop to turn around, seeing him walking up to you, leaving Heeseung and Jay’s side as he comes into step beside you.
You’re still not used to the pointed looks you get from the people around you, but you're training yourself to pretend they aren't there.
Heeseung and Jay watch as Jake rushes to you like a damn puppy, looking at each other.
He hands you a paper, you take it looking down at the big 100% on the top “You actually did it!” You say smiling, before looking up at him beside you
He puts a hand on his chest, with a fake gasp “And to think you doubted me” He stops at the cafeteria door, pulling you aside before you walk in, facing you away from the people who keep looking at you. The nosy motherfuckers who can’t help but take attention to you ever since he’s became—friends? With you.
“So you'll come to the game then right?” He asks, doing that thing where he bites his lip
“Thats what we agreed on, plus Lyla and Gigi are going too” You say, watching the way his eyes light up
The last few people file in the cafeteria, leaving you and him alone.
“Y’know what the theme is right?” He asks, and this time you're genuinely caught off guard- theme? He notices your confusion right away
“Every game has a theme, pretty sure this one’s western, like cowboys and shit” He says watching your face, the way your eyebrows knit in uncertainty
“Lyla and Gigi didn't tell you?”, you shake your head softly
“Im surprised- they always go like all out for the themes” He says through a quiet laugh
Great. That only means they are going to make you go all out too.
You both pause when the final bell rings, walking in to the cafeteria like its the most normal thing, your steps falter when you feel the eyes on you, you look at your friends before glancing at Jakes group- why are they all staring at you-
“I’ll see you later y/n” He smiles before walking to his table, you sit down in front of Lyla and Gigi who are both looking at you knowingly
“What?” you say through an awkward laugh
“You know damn well what” Lyla says through a smirk
“Tutoring my ass” Gigi adds back
“Girl I do not look at my tutor like that” Lyla says, holding back a laugh
“Like what-?”
“Like I want to eat him the fuck up- because thats how The Jake sim was just looking at your ass-” You almost choke on your water, making her and Gigi laugh
You look down at the table to hide your blush “Well, you guys also didnt tell me there was a theme at the game.” You say, crossing your arms
“Okay when was the last time you checked the group chat y/n” Gigi asks, you pull out your phone
“This morning..” You say scrolling through the message thread
Lyla: Okay so what are we wearing tn
Gigi: Themes cowboy right?
Gigi: You know how much my mom and dad LOVE that costume shit
Gigi: I have so much stuff for it at my house
Lyla: Wow gigi inviting us over
Gigi: I can take u guys home after school
Lyla: YES
Lyla: We have to look GOOD, especially you y/n
Lyla: For you know
Gigi: Jake
Lyla: Okay shes probs not even on her phone
You swipe out, just to see if your mom said anything, you click on the messages to see a sunset picture and city buildings, typical.
“So, can you come?” Lyla asks
“Yeah sure- but we don’t have to go all out right?”
They look at each other before looking at you, the smile on their faces tells you everything you need to know
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“This feels like a lot..” You say looking at your outfit in her bedroom mirror
“No y/n- you look like, hot.” Lyla says, choosing one of the 7 cowboy hats Gigi brought out
“This is the final touch” She says before putting it on your head
This is quite literally the opposite of you, completely. It’s something you would never wear if it weren't for them, you wonder what your old self before you transferred schools would think. From the white fitted shirt, to the jean skirt, down to the—cowboy boots..
You adjust the red bandana on your neck so its not choking you uncomfortably
Gigi watches your worried face “I promise the others will be doing 10x more than us.” She reassures you, you look at them in the mirror, Lyla's shorts that hug her curves, Gigi’s shirt that compliments her body perfectly.
This feels very..them. You can't help but feel like an outsider trying to fit in.
“Jake will love it” Lyla says, hiding her smirk
“What- Jake?” The thought of Jake seeing you in this makes you nervous..but also exited? What would he think, would he expect you to wear this?
You're pulled from your thoughts when the man himself sends you a message
Jake Sim: Hey y/n were gonna grab food after the game
Jake Sim: Wanna come?
Jake Sim: Lyla and Gigi can come to
Jake Sim: I already told Jay not to bitch abt it lol
Your fingers hover over the screen
"Quadruple text is crazy” Lyla says through a smile
Gigi peaks over your shoulder “I do not want to hang out with my brother for fun.” She says, rolling her eyes
“Come on Gi! The others will be there too and! Heeseung’s fine ass” Lyla says, looking in the mirror to adjust her push up bra
Gigi just puts on her boots with a shrug
“Y/n say yes please!” Lyla says, practically jumping up and down
“Fine- fine”
You: Yeah sure.
“Um- Thats all?” Lyla asks
“What do you mean?”
“I don't know, maybe say something like ‘I'm so excited!’ or ‘good luck!- you know what just give me the phone.” Lyla says snatching it from your hand and sending a message
You: Good luck Jakey! I'll be cheering you on! ;)
“What the hell- is there a way to delete this, how do I-”
“Really Ly? He’s gonna know thats not y/n, she like never uses emojis” Gigi says cringing
“Maybe if he wins he'll give you good dick?” Lyla says shrugging
Your face goes red, this topic, talking about him-
“Yeah so that definitely wasn't her” Jake says putting on his cleats
“Jakey? Really?” Sunghoon mimicks
“I wouldn’t doubt if Lyla took her phone honestly.” Jay mutters
“Lyla's coming right?” Heeseung asks, putting on his jersey
His friends look at him “Why?”
“I mean shes hot as fuck dude, plus she totally looks at me all the time” He adds, fixing his hair in the locker mirror
“Yeah she's coming” Jake says, looking back down at the messages
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When you, Gigi, and Lyla get to the game a little earlier, they were not joking about people going all out. Compared to everyone else, your outfit was tame to say the least.
You three find a spot in the bleachers, your eyes scanning the field for one specific person.
You watch him, he’s drinking water on the side right now- his helmet is in his other hand, how can someone look so good drinking water.
You watch as Heeseung nudges Jake's shoulder beside him, and then Jake's eyes are on you
“Holy fuck” He says to Heeseung
You cant see what they’re saying
“I mean she looks like a cowboys wet dream” Heeseung says, smirking
Jake gives him a pointed look, before turning back to you, the distance is good enough for him to see the way your skirt clings to your legs, and how good that shirt looks on you, Fuck.
He waves at you, you look behind to see if it was someone else but there's no one behind you yet, you turn back to see him smiling at you before offering a small wave back
Lyla and Gigi are both watching from beside you, eyes flicking between you and Jake
You watch as Heeseung yells at him, and as he puts his helmet on before running over to him, a smile that wont go away ever since he saw you plastered on his face
“You sure you're not just doing this for the love of the game” Heeseung says, putting in his mouth guard
It wasn't a question. It was a statement. A statement that might be right. Because this doesn't feel like some childish bet anymore.
The first half of them game goes well, you dont really understand much. But from the way Lyla, Gigi, and the rest of the students are cheering, thats definitely a good sign. “Im going to get water, do you guys want any?” you say, stepping off the bleachers
“Yeah- soda?” Lyla says, before looking back at the field where a very sweaty heeseung is spraying water in his mouth
You nod before walking to the concessions, the line isn't too bad, so you just pull out your phone to scroll, when two girls come behind you, you wouldn't care normally but its what they're talking about that makes your hand pause over your screen
“I mean he hasn't even looked at me this whole time, which is crazy because not even a month ago he had me sucking his dick!” One of the girls says, you look down to see pink cowboy boots
“His very big dick” Her friend says
“Ridiculously big. Fuck I miss it im not gonna lie.”
“Isn’t he fucking with a new girl now though?” You hear her friend say, you watch as the person in front of you takes way too long to order
“Yeah some nerd ass bitch, teachers pet apparently”
“I don't know Clara, she's like hella smart”
You shut your eyes for a second, Clara, you recognize that name. That's the same girl who yelled at Jake in the cafeteria that one time
“I don't care how smart she is, that's literally my man”
“Girl- he literally dropped your ass in front of the whole cafeteria..”
Your attention is brought back when it's your turn to order, you pay for the drinks before going back, doing your best to avoid turning around.
“Y/n?” Lyla says, when you hand her the sprite
“You look like you've seen a ghost, are you good?” Gigi asks, concern laced in her tone
“Yeah im good” You say offering a tight smile, the bandana on your neck suddenly feeling too tight.
It feels like someone has their hand around your heart, squeezing it, because why did hearing those things make you feel this way– Why is Jake even talking to you? Why did he even invite you in the first place?
You watch as the starting players go back on the field, but your mind can't focus when all these questions are flooding in. What does someone like him even want with you.
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You look down at your phone
Jake Sim: Hey me and the guys will be out in 5 mins
You read the message, before putting your phone in the pocket of your skirt, people are still hanging around, the players usually shower after a game apparently.
Exactly 5 minutes later Jake comes out, jeans, and a black zip up hoodie with a white shirt underneath, his bag is on his shoulder, his hair is still wet from the shower, and you cant help the heat that goes to your face when he waves to you.
You look past him to see the rest of his friends coming out behind him, you see Heeseung whisper something in Jake's ear that makes him roll his eyes.
“Good job- you were great out there” You say, fixing the cowboy hat on your head
“I had good motivation” He says, eyes on your face before they drift to your clothes, finally seeing you up close like this.
“Alright can we go now? Im hungry as fuck.” Jay says, interrupting the moment
You turn to Lyla, who's talking to Heeseung, then to Gigi who shrugs
“Y/n, I can drive us” Jake says, bringing your attention back to him
“Oh its fine I dont-”
“That's a great Idea!” Lyla says a little too loud, making everyone's eyes go to her
“Theres not enough room in Gigi's car for all of us anyway, so it works out” She adds, calculating smile plastered on her face, she ignores the pointed look you give her
“Alright yeah whatever can we just go now before I die of starvation” Jay says, making Gigi roll her eyes “fat ass.” She mutters before walking to her car
“You did not just call me a fat ass Gi- Weren’t you the one who ate all the fucking leftovers-” You and Jake watch them walk to the car, before you and him walk to his.
You curse Lyla for leaving you with him like this- when he smells so good and his hair is wet, and his hands-
“You look really pretty,” He says, putting his bag in the trunk before opening the passenger door for you. “Thank you-” You reply back quietly, trying to ignore the way your heart hammers in your chest.
But how many other girls has he said that too- that girl Clara?
He gets in the Drivers seat, and starts the car, watching the way you look out the window. Immediately noticing the way you shift
“So, for the first football game you went to, how was it?” he says pulling out of the parking lot
You turn slightly to look at him, the way his face concentrates on the rode, but also managing to talk to you “It was fun” You smile before looking back out the window
“Did you get anything from the concessions? I heard they added slushies and stuff.” He says, tapping his finger on the steering wheel, trying to seem unbothered by the way your energy shifted the second you stepped foot in his car
The mention of drinks has your mind going back to the conversation you heard earlier, what if those girls had knew you where the one they were talking about–
“Yeah just some, um..water and stuff” You say, trying to avoid the way his eyes are pinned on your head
4 minutes of silence pass, except for the low music playing from the speakers, and the car's engine.
“Is everything good?” He asks, eyes flicking between you and the road ahead
“What– yeah of course, why wouldn't it be.” You say quickly, fingers toying with the hem of your jean skirt.
He doesn't buy it.
Your brows furrow in confusion when he pulls over, looking at him as he puts the car and park “What are you doing-”
“Tell me what's wrong” he says, hand still on the steering wheel, but eyes on you
“Nothing's wrong?” You feel that familiar heaviness on your chest
“Y/n. you can't even look at me, did I do something?” He asks, knuckles white from how hard he's gripping the steering wheel
“You can tell me whatever it is-”
“Why do you talk to me?” You ask, finally looking at him
“I..I just don't understand– all the sudden it goes from you not even looking at me, and then you're asking to be tutored by me, and then you invite me to your game, and then im in your car-” you continue, your heart beat rising with how much words you're saying in one breath. He doesn't interrupt you.
“And I really didn't think you needed to be tutored, honestly, you're one of the top students in our class- no, in our grade. But I did anyway, it honestly just feels like you pity me. Because why would someone like you want to be friends with someone like me– It just doesn't make any sense.” You stop, breathing in heavy breathes, too aware of how close he is right now, how he's looking at you.
“I don't pity you y/n. I like spending time with you.” He says, watching your face
“Fuck- I mean, I took the flyer and the tutoring because I wanted to spend that time with you- whenever I tried to talk to you any other way you just– blew me off?” He says, contemplating his words
He looks down at his hands before back up at you, noticing the way your features slightly soften
He lifts his hand to take the hat off your head, so he can fully see your face
“Why would someone like me want to be friends with you?” He repeats your question, you didn't realise how close you two got, faces nearly an inch away from each other
“I don't want to be friends y/n. I want more than that–I fucking crave more than that” His gaze drops to your lips, a silent question
“Jake-” You whisper out before he presses his lips to yours,you instantly melt at the contact, your hand finds the collar of his shirt, attempting to tug him closer over the center console, his hand holds the back of your head, threading his finger in your hair, he moves his lips against yours, slowly, testing, you follow his lead, letting go instead of taking control. He feels the way you let him, unable to hold the small groan that travels its way to your mouth through the kiss.
You pull back, breathing hard, opening your eyes to look at him, his lips have a slight shine from your saliva, he licks them before looking into your eyes.
You don't know what you're doing, you've never even done anything like this before, but the way he’s looking at you, like you absolutely wrecked him gives you a new found confidence.
You sit up, before moving to get over the center console, he just watches you as you settle on his lap, his hands immediately resting on your waist “y/n-”
“just kiss me” You say, and he doesnt hesitate before pressing his lips against yours, this time its lessed controlled, he doesnt hold himself back.
You wrap your arms around his shoulders, his hands are touching everywhere, sliding up and down your back, before cupping your ass in his hands making you gasp into his mouth, he swallows that down, tongue running over your bottom lip.
You feel the heat pooling between your legs, shifting slightly, which makes him let out a broken sound before looking down, the way your skirt is riding up, how you’re sitting right on his hardening cock, he looks back at your face, kissing the corner of your mouth before he pulls you on him more, the friction making you let out a quiet sound– he needs to fucking hear it again, and you need to feel it again.
It starts off slow, testing, in the way you roll your hips on him, you watch him throw his head back “Fuck, baby-” You grind down a little harder, in response to the name, he rolls his hips with you, the seam of his jeans catching your clit just right through your underwear, enough to make you let out small sounds that has his eyes rolling
He leans in to kiss you again, hands splayed on your ass to pull you impossibly closer, the kiss is desperate, frantic, tongues moving together in a rhythm like you were made for each other, there's no leader, no follower, this is just- the two of you.
“J-jake–” you let out, biting your lip when he grinds up, hitting the perfect spot, hes pulling you against him, controlling the way your hips move, fingers digging into the soft flesh through your skirt, He slides his hand underneath the denim fabric, to really feel you, groaning into your mouth at how warm and soft you are in his hands.
“You’re going to kill me-” You both freeze when a loud ringtone comes from his phone.
“Shit- I forgot about the plans” he says, looking at his phone
Jay: Dude where the hell are you
Jay: Im srsly abt to order with out you
Sunghoon: we got u and y/n waters
Jay: -Missed call-
“We should probably-”
“Yeah”
The warmth of your body is removed like a flash when you sit back down in the passenger seat, fixing your skirt, he tries to ignore the way his dick is throbbing in his jeans right now. Instead he watches you, the flush on your cheeks, the small smile that's barely noticeable
“What?” You say through a chuckle, noticing his stare
“Im just really lucky” He says, before putting the car into drive and getting back on the road, even when you two get out of the car, walking into the restaurant, you’re still thinking about what he said.
Because no one has ever told you they were lucky to have you.
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The next week of school is fun, and easy. You still decide to tutor Jake, because he said it really helped him.
Even if it did lead to small kisses, you definitely weren't complaining. People still look at you two when you walk together in the hallway, he even invited you to sit with him in the caferitria with his friendgroup, they are actually really nice to you.
The best part is seeing Gigi and Jay argue, it's like having your own show to watch while you eat
You don't miss the way Heeseung and Lyla look at each other, or when coincidentally the both of them are late for lunch.
Under the table, Jake's hand is splayed across your thigh, everytime he laughs he squeezes it slightly, which makes you try and close them, but he notices. He notices everything when it comes to you.
“..And not to mention Gigi’s parents bought the good ice cream” Lyla says, practically about to burst from excitement
“Okay so it's like a pool party then?” Sunghoon says, raising his eyebrow
“Well, just like with us though.” Gigi says
“Im not trying to have half the school trash the house, especially when mom and dad get back tomorrow.” She adds, you watch Jay nod
“Im in” Heeseung says, turning to watch Lyla “Perfect! What about you and Jake?” She says turning to you both
“Yeah im down” he smiles before looking at you
“Um- Ill have to check, but ill text you when I get home” You say, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear
“Okay, perfect!” She squeals
“Just come over any time after school then” Jay says
You nod before glancing down at your phone, re reading the message from your mom
Mom: Me and Chris decided to stay a little longer, you have enough money for food still right?
Jake watches you “Are you okay?” he says, quietly so no one else can hear
“Oh yeah- im fine” You say, putting your phone down and smiling
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“I can't do this.” You say as soon as you close Gigi’s bedroom door behind you
They both look at you as you pull out the bathing suit from your tote bag, you watch Gigi cover her mouth to stifle a laugh
“You can’t be serious” Lyla says, standing up to take the middle school one piece swimsuit from your hands
“This thing is hideous” She holds it up in the air
“Im not one to judge but you absolutely cannot wear that y/n” Gigi says, standing up to look at it closer
You bury your face in your hands, sitting down on her bed
“I brought like 5 different bathing suits, plus Gigi has a shit ton, and you are most definitely borrowing one.” Lyla says, emptying her bag on the bed, you glance at the small strings, and shapes before looking up at her
“What? I wanted to bring my slutty ones, I thought Heeseung would like them” She says smiling proudly
“And im sure jake will” She adds, wiggling her eyebrows
“You’re so ridiculous Ly” Gigi mutters before tying her hair in a bun
You pick up a red triangle bikini top, and Lyla nods
“Good choice, these are the bottoms” She says, holding them up
“These are bottoms? Like swimming bottoms?” you say, taking them from her hand
“Yup! Just try it on at least” She smiles sweetly, waiting for your approval, you nod
“Come downstairs when you’re done okay?” Gigi says, opening her bedroom door.
You look at yourself in the bathroom mirror, The bathing suit fits well, it's just..small. Like if you make one wrong move you'll definitely flash someone. You turn around to see how it looks from the back, not completely terrible- just a bit cheeky?
You think Jake might like it, not to mention the fact that you chose the red one because he mentioned he liked that color.
You pause when you hear the sound of male voices, they must be here. You take one last look at yourself before opening the door and almost getting knocked to your ass when you collide with something hard
“Shit- y/n?” You look up, Jake–Your eyes take in his form, the swim trunks, the white tank top perfectly stretched across his chest. His hair, messy, yet perfectly styled, before looking at his face. He’s smiling down at you
You're suddenly aware that you're practically half naked in front of him, You weren't even planning on going in the water, except for your feet–you need to grab your shorts and put them on “I was just uh, I just need my shorts–”
His hand trails down your shoulder, grabbing your hand before placing it on his chest, over his heart, you feel the fast beats of it, almost in sync with how quick yours is "You're making me nervous” he whispers, he takes a step forward so he's in the bathroom with you, shutting the door behind him softly
He leans down, pressing a soft kiss to your lips, testing to see your reaction before he pulls back to look down at you, you put your hands on his shoulders before leaning to kiss him again, he reacts immediately, hands on you the second you touch him, his hand starts at your waist before moving down to cup your ass in his hand, you gasp at the feeling, he kneads the flesh in his hands, squeezing it while kissing you deeper “You look so fucking good baby” He says through heavy breaths, looking at your face
He moves until your pressed against the counter, before lifting you up on it, your legs spread slightly to make room for him, while keeping your lips on his.
The kiss is messy, desperate, his hands are on your hips, and you let out a muffled sound when he presses his hips against you, you feel it, the hardness of him against your thigh, you pull back to see the desperate look on his face, the way his cheeks are slightly red, his lips looking even more plump from your kisses
He takes his right hand from your waist, splaying it on your thigh, before he looks into your eyes, you nod.
You watch his hand inch higher, grazing your inner thigh, his finger tip brushes your core, making you shiver at the contact, he watches you intently before pressing his fingers against you, making you let out a shaken breath
Leaning in to brush his lips across your jaw, before slipping his fingers underneath the waistband of the bathing suit bottoms, finally feeling your warmth “Fuck, you’re so wet–” He says, looking down before kissing your neck, softly, reassuringly
He starts with small circles around your clit, testing to see what makes you feel good, your legs spread wider when he does small figure eights on your clit, hands braced on his shoulders as he presses open mouthed kisses to your neck, trailing up to your ear
His middle finger brushes your entrance, lightly, while his other hand comes up to move the hair out of your face
“Have you ever been fingered y/n?” He asks, voice low, watching the way your chest falls and rises, you shake your head “Do you want to be?” He says, biting his lip “Y-yes, I want you to, Jake” He presses his hard cock against your thigh, groaning at the permission
He connects his lips to yours, you let him in instantly, tongues dancing together before he slowly guides his finger in your entrance, “breathe baby, you're so tight” he whispers against your lips, you close your eyes when his finger goes deeper, making you let out a quiet moan, his single digit stays there, embraced by your warmth before he curls it slightly making you whimper in his mouth “Jake– “ you let out through a wispy breathe
He moves his thumb to circle around your clit, in lazy motions “can you take another, baby? It’ll feel even better” kissing your cheek softly, you nod and he pulls out his finger, before inserting two digits, making you let out a desperate sound at the stretch.
He kisses you, in attempt to quiet you down, before moving his fingers in and out of you, curling inside, rubbing your clit with practiced ease
Seeing you like this, overhwemled by the pleasure he’s bringing you could make him come right now.
“You’re so perfect baby- this pretty pussy’s taking my fingers so well” He whispers, the filthy things making you clench around his fingers, he adds more pressure to your sensitive bud, “j-jake im gonna-“
“You gonna come for me baby?” slightly picking up the pace his fingers are moving, fucking them in and out of you.
Your moans are only getting louder, he move his other hand to cover your mouth, muffling them so the others don't hear down stairs, he feels your hole fluttering around your fingers, so he moves them even faster, making it his life fucking goal to have you come from this
His eyes dont know what to focus on, switching from the way your tits slightly bounce, to the way his fingers disappear inside you, or to the way you’re looking at him, the dazed half lidded look, he presses against your clit just right, making you clench hard on his fingers as you ride your orgasm out, moaning into his hand, your juices coating his fingers and dripping out, he brings his hand back down from your mouth, watching the way your breathing slows, before pulling out his fingers, the loss of contact making you whimper with how sensitive you are
He brings his fingers up to his lips, locking eyes with you before putting them in his mouth, sucking your arousal off, the sight makes you let out a breathy sound, you can feel your pussy throbbing at the sight from exitement
You’re blushing from the filthy act, he brings his lips to yours capturing you in a kiss, you can slightly taste your arousal on his tounge “You’re so beautiful–” you both freeze when a knock on the bathroom door slices the moment in half
“Jake are you in there man? We’re trying to choose pizza toppings– the girls said they dont care whats on the pizza, they just went outside claming they didnt want to ‘waste tanning time’ I dont know-” jay rambles on
“Yeah im in here, ill be down in a sec” Jake says, forehead resting on yours before he pulls back
“Alright- and if you find y/n tell her to come down too” Jay adds
You and Jake listen to the sound of retreating footsteps
“We should probably go down there” he says, pulling back and helping you get off the counter
“Yeah i just need to get some shorts-” You watch as he pulls your bottoms back up, adjusting them before leaning down to press one more kiss to your lips
“I’ll see you in a few minutes” He says with that familiar smirk on his lips, before walking out and shutting the door behind him, he leans against it for a second, still trying to process what just happened, before adjusting his extremely hard cock in his bottoms, and making his way downstairs.
You look in the mirror, pressing your fingers against your lips, the feeling of him kissing you lingering. Your body is still burning from the aftermath of your orgasm. You fix your hair in the mirror, going back to Gigi’s room to put on your shorts
And finally making your way down the stairs, you pause halfway when you hear Heeseung's voice
“Who y/n?” You hear him say
“Who else dumbass?” Sunghoon replies
They're talking about you. instead of going downstairs you stay there, just to see what they're saying
“Have you told her?” Jay asks
“No–I can’t fucking tell her that”
“Yeah you’re cooked” heeseung says flatly
Cooked?
“I really like her, And not in some casual hook up way okay? I don’t know whats going on, and im confused because ive never felt this way before about someone–” Jake says, breathing hard
“Shit-” You hear his friends say
“I dont give a fuck about some dumb bet, it was stupid of me–”
Your heart drops. Bet? What does he mean by that?
“God- Why couldn't you just go after her like a normal person” jay says frustratingly
“You realise she’s gonna fucking hate you if you dont tell her” he adds
You walk further down the stairs, watching the way all four of them look at you
“W-what bet” You let out, hating yourself for stuttering
Jake's face drops in realization that you heard that, you don't even look at his friends, the ones who made you think they actually liked you. You just watch him. It was all just some play–
“What bet Jake?” you say again, trying to calm your heartbeat, as he walks over to you, reaching for your hand
You swat his hand away “dont fucking touch me” and he flinches at that, hardly visibly. But he does.
“Y/n-” He starts, you watch as the back porch door slides open, Gigi and Lyla walking in, with confused looks at the way everyone’s frozen in place, before their gazes fall on you
“Im going home. I- I can't do this” You say, suddenly too aware of how everyone is looking at you, unable to even look in Jake's eyes, you turn around for the front door, Jake calls your name again but you don't hear it.
Not over the sound of your heart, not over the ringing in your ears.
You can't speak when it feels like someone has a wire around your throat and you can't breathe.
You shut the front door behind you, sitting on the stairs immediately, trying to calm yourself, trying not to cry. You can't cry. Not here.
You don't look behind you when you hear the door open and shut, please don't be Jake.
“Y/n do you want me to drive you home?” you let out a relieved sigh when you hear Gigi’s voice, before standing up and nodding.
Gigi knows you, she knows you don't want to talk right now, so instead of pushing you, she turns up the music, looking at you every now and then as you stare out the window.
“You all can eat shit” Lyla says looking at the four boys in the kitchen
“Espeicially you Heeseung, for not fucking saying anything.” She says before looking at Jake
“Ly-” Heeseung starts watching Lyla walk over to Jake
“How could you do that to her? You’re fucking terrible.” She says before storming upstairs, leaving the four of them
“I need to do something- I need to call her” Jake says pulling out his phone, Jay stop his hand
“She needs space Jake.” He says, watching him as he lowers his phone
“Fuck.” Is all he says, because Fuck himself for being so stupid, fuck him for hurting you, fuck him for not telling you sooner, if anything he doesn't deserve your forgiveness.
But the least he can do is try.
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You cried as soon as you got home. You held it until Gigi drove off, she offered to stay but you never have people actually come inside.
Part of you regretted it, because you wish you had someone to hold you, even as you crumbled to the floor as soon as you shut the front door.
But you have no one. Not even you’re own mother, whose out with her new boyfriend, living her best life and leaving you in the past, like always.
Later that night you try and rememebr anything—how could you not see through it, of course it was some bet. He didnt mean anything he said to you, and you were stupid to think the most popular guy in the school wanted to ‘spend time with you’
Even as you shower, the memory of his hands on you not even 24 hours ago is still jarred in your mind, the reassuring touches, the praise.. But it was all just fake.
You couldnt sleep. For good reason. Every time you tried to close your eyes, your mind kept going back, trying to over analyze the situation, trying to think of an excuse.
It was 12:49 when you got the message
Jake sim: Y/n, im so sorry
Jake sim: Don’t shut me out
Jake sim: Please
Jake sim: Baby
Your press your hand to your chest, like it would stop the painful feeling in your heart.
You never answered him. After tossing and turning for what felt like hours, you finally fell asleep, you didn’t bother checking the time you did, because you knew you would just pity yourself.
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On Monday, you’re not the first one in class. Jake was. He sat in his seat next to yours, eyes flicking from your desk to the door, waiting for you to come in.
As soon as you walk in, he sits up straight, watching you walk, not towards the seat next to him but to some random one in the second row, where the guy who never shows up would sit.
He watches you take your stuff out of your bag, he looks down at the way your leg bounces, he hates himself because he knows he’s the reason you’re so fucking anxious right now.
The teacher talks like its any other day. Of course she would, she’s not going to stop the school day because he fucked up. When the bell rings you’re the first one out, he goes to call your name but stops when you rush out of the door.
“I almost beat Jay’s ass, like actually.” Gigi says before taking a bite of the cafeteria sandwhich
“Mom and dad nearly crashed out when they came home and saw I already was pulling his hair” She adds
“Can he stop fucking staring already” Lyla says, looking at you then at the table 3 rows behind where Jake was looking right at you
“Im going over there” Jake says to his friends
“Uh no dude- you’re fucking not” Sunghoon says, tugging him back down by his shoulder
Jake shrugs him off before getting up to walk over to you, ignoring the exaggerated sighs from his table
“Oh shit” Gigi mutters
“He’s like actively walking over here y/n” Lyla adds
You turn your head slightly to see him walking towards you, before standing up
“Im going to the bathroom.” You say, grabbing your bag and moving towards the door
Jakes steps falter when he watches you get up, he wants to yell at you, tell you to stop walking away from him so bad. But he knows that would make it worse. He doesn’t look at Lyla and Gigi before turning around and going back to his table.
His friends are silent when he sits down, the usual snickers, or comments don’t come.
You set your bag down by the sink, bracing your hands on it, looking in the mirror, “don’t cry, don’t cry” you whisper to yourself
“I mean I don’t get whats so fucking special about her, shes just like normal-“ You pause when you see two girls walk in, blonde, Clara.
“Well look who it is” She says walking further in, her friend beside her
“Jakes little slut” She coos, looking you up and down judgementally
“Im not-“ You start but she cuts you off
“I want you to stop talking to him.” she says, crossing her arms over her chest
“Clara-“ her friend starts
“No, this bitch needs to fuck off my man”
“You can have him.” You say, voice low
They look at each other confused
“I said you can have him.” you say, louder
“Just leave me alone.” you mutter, putting your bag over your shoulder
“The fuck-“ she starts when you walk past her before pulling you by your bag strap
She pulls your bag off your shoulder, making it fall to the ground with a thud, you don’t turn around.
You wait for the hit. Because you’re used to this, You close your eyes, tight. Trying to block off everything, when you hear Lyla
“What the fuck are you doing Clara?!” She yells, Gigi following in beside you
“Just teaching this bitch a lesson to not mess with my man-“
“Your man?” Gigi says with a scoff
“You need a fucking reality check because he does not want your ass” She adds, picking your bag up from the floor
Lyla comes infront of you “Y/n are you okay?” you nod, not because you’re okay, but because you have to be.
You block out the sound of them arguing, taking your bag from Gigi before walking out. Of course this would happen to you, and of course you’re running away.
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You dont talk about what happened the next day, they dont bring it up either.
They were laughing at something on Lylas phone when you got a text
Jake Sim: Are we still on for tutoring?
Jake Sim: In the library right?
You look back for a split second, over your shoulder to see him looking at you, his phone in his hand, you turn back around almost immediately, typing out a response, deleting it and typing it again
You: -Sent contact-
You: If you need tutoring so bad, he does Tuesdays too. Stop texting me.
You shut off your phone, putting it in your pocket, he watches.
Its like everything around him is silent. He cant fucking focus, coach even gave him shit for not doing good at practice yesterday. He tries to act normal, but the affect you have on him isn’t something that can go away.
“Earth to Jake” Heeseung snaps in his face to get his attention
“Motherfucker thinks he’s Jeff buckley” Sunghoon says through a snort
“Brought it on himself” Jay shrugs
“I need to get drunk” Jake says, running his hands through his hair, something hes been doing often lately
“And laid” Heeseung adds
“I can’t think about fucking another girl right now” He says, checking his phone again in hopes you sent a message
“I mean I heard Jungwon’s throwing a party after the game on Friday” Jay says, looking at the group
“Who’s going?” Jake asks
“Shit—if its Jungwon then probably half the school” Heeseung says, rubbing his jaw
“You know what, why not. The alcohol better not be shit” Jake says, making them laugh
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“Please y/n! We can come pick you up and everything, I know you’re not going to be doing anything either” Lyla says through the speakers of your phone
“Yeah, Fuck him, you deserve to go out, for once?” Gigi adds
“We know you’re not all that party type but just this once! Plus Jungwons house is nice as hell”
“I don’t know guys—What if he’s there?” you say worried, unlocking the front door to your house and shutting it behind you
“If he was going, Jay would have said something. I know they have a game tonight so I doubt they’re gonna wanna go to a party.” Gigi says, opening a bag of chips
“Okay but what am I supposed to wear?”
“Do you wanna get laid?” Lyla asks
“What—no”
“Im just kidding, wear that one black skirt I let you borrow and those low rise jeans”
“I never even wore it though-“
“Exactly why its perfect! Well come get you at 10, love you bye!” Layla says quickly before hanging up
You listen for Gigi, but all you hear is the faint sound of her arguing, presumably with Jay, before you hang up and set your phone on the counter.
You dont go to parties, ever. But here you are stepping out of your comfort zone, maybe its good that you’re. Maybe you need a change.
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“Oh hell no.” Gigi says once you all walk into the house, it's almost as big as hers, but you're not paying close attention to it because right now. instead you're watching Jake take down a shot in the kitchen.
It smells like cheap alcohol and sweat. The place is packed, you take your eyes off him and look around, you recognize faces you've seen around campus, and some you haven't
You watch as Gigi storms over to the kitchen to Jay “What the fuck are you doing here?” She asks Jay who looks at her like she has 2 heads “What am I doing here? Jungwon is my friend” He says back, you and Lyla walk over to the kitchen, following her.
You don't look at him. You can't look at him, but you can feel his eyes on you.
“I’ll tell mom and dad you ass-” Gigi starts
“Oh but that means they'll know you were here too” He says, faking a pout
“Shit” She replies, looking at you and Lyla
“Fine, truce.” She says, grabbing 3 red cups
You watch Jay hold out his hand, but she swats it away rolling her eyes before pouring whatever is in the bottles on the counter into the cups
“Drinks?” She says, handing you and Lyla the cups
“Please and Thank you, I need to find a hot guy to make out with” Lyla says taking the cup
“Im right here babe” Heeseung smirks, stepping closer to her
“Literally anyone but you” She says, walking away from the kitchen, you watch as he follows her
You hesitate a beat before taking the cup from her hand, Jake doesnt miss the way your eyes flick over to him for a split second
“Y/n can we-” He starts before a familiar obnoxious voice flows in the kitchen, Clara.
You watch as she walks in the kitchen, wearing practically nothing before she comes to his side, wrapping her arm around his.
“I think you have your hands full Jake.” You say before walking over to the living room with Gigi
“Get the fuck off me Clara” He says, moving his arm
Sunghoon and Jay both look at him with annoyed expressions on their faces
“Why Jakey? She said I can have you” Clara says, words slurred from the amount of alcohol she's consumed
“What?” He pushes her back, not to hurt, but enough for her to get off of him
He walks over to Gigi, glancing at Lyla and Heeseung who are practically eating each others faces on the other couch “Wheres y/n” He says, tone serious in a way that has Gigi sitting up
“Why-”
“Tell me where she is Gi, im not fucking around.” he says, watching Gigi point to the back porch
You turn around when you hear the door behind you open, leaning against the railing
“What are you-”
“Y/n- Fuck, please let me talk okay?” He says closing the door, the music and talking inside becoming a sound in the distance
“Jake, I can't right now” You say, looking down at your shoes as he walks over
“Please” His voice comes out slightly whiner than intended
“Baby, please look at me” He pleads, his composure gone. He’s done acting like he's okay with you avoiding him
You shake your head
He lets out a defeated sigh, you think he's going to walk away, give up.
You watch him lower himself to the ground getting on his knees just so you will look at him instead of the ground
“Y/n please listen to me” He looks up at you, his eyebrows furrowed together, his pupils are blown. He can’t believe hes actually fucking doing this.
When you don't say anything, the words spill out faster than he can catch up
“Im so sorry baby– Im an asshole and I hate myself for what I did, I should have just told you from the beginning about the bet-” he cringes at the word “-It was selfish of me and I understand why you don't even want to look at me, let alone talk to me.-“
“-But I like you, so fucking much, Ive never felt like this before, but you changed that for me. You’re smart, you’re fucking gorgeous, you’re too kind for your own good, and I want you so bad, I want you so fucking bad my chest hurts at the thought of not having you. Everything I said in the car that night was true. I like spending time with you and I don't want to be friends, because what I feel for you isn't friendship–” He stops, trying to catch his breath, looking up at you, searching your face for any reaction, any response
Your hand is shaking when it comes up to his face, slightly brushing his hair out of the way “I..” You close your eyes before opening them again, “I really like you too Jake. But you hurt me, I let you in and it feels like it was all just some trick.” You say, trying to hold the tears threatening to fall from your eyes
“No baby–It wasn't a trick, please, everything I said to you I meant it–” He leans forward resting his head on your stomach before looking back up at you
“Every touch, I meant it.” His hand comes up to hold your waist, before he stands up, looking down at you, placing his finger under your chin, before running his thumb along your bottom lip “Every word” His other hand pulls you closer to him “Every kiss.” He whispers, leaning down, lips grazing over yours “I meant it all.”
You're breathing against his mouth, hearts beating the same rapid pace “And I want it all–so bad, I want all of you y/n, I don't want you to hide from me, I don't want you to run” He says, cupping your face in his hands, closing his eyes and resting his forehead against yours
“Please-”
“I want it too Jake” You whisper
His eyes fly open, searching yours, before leaning down and pressing his lips to yours, taking you slightly by shock with how desperate it is, his left hand slides from your face down to your waist, holding you close, like you would slip away if he let go.
He pulls back, just to see the look on your face, a single string of saliva keeping you two connected before he kisses your neck, whispering small “im sorrys” as he trails his lips along your jaw, making you let out breathy sounds that have him weak.
He captures your lips in a kiss again, tongue exploring your mouth in the way he’s been dreaming about ever since you started avoiding him.
He feels his cock hardening, he remembers the way he fucked his fist at the thought of having you like this again.
“Fuck–” He breathes out, before biting your lip lightly, making you let out a small whimper. “I.. I need you baby, please” He says, bringing his hand down to softly caress your ass in your jeans, you bring your hand up to pull him closer by the collar of his shirt to kiss him again before he pulls back “Not here.” He whispers, voice low, looking into your eyes with such intensity it has your knees weak.
With the way you're looking at him right now, he wants to do it now.
But he’s not having sex with you at some dumbass house party. He can't help the smirk on his face when you whine as he pulls away, grabbing your hand and leading you back inside, you don't look at anyone except him, as he guides you through the crowd, his hand clasping tight in yours, until you reach his car.
“What street do you live on?” He asks, looking at you, before pulling out onto the road, you hesitate, he notices “Y/n, no hiding” He says, putting his hand on your thigh. “167 EN drive” you reply back quietly, part of you hoping he wouldn't hear. But you remind yourself of the words he said earlier, he wants all of you, he said he craves it. So that’s what he'll get.
You watch his face as he pulls in your drive way, looking at your house. You don't see the look of hesitance, or disappointment you were expecting.
Your anxiety boils down when he steps out of the car, and comes to your side to open your door for you. “You’re not disappointed or anything?” You ask, voice slightly shaky
“Dissapointed?” He asks, genuinely confused
“I mean, my mom just doesn't make a lot– I know its not a good area to live in either-”
“Y/n, do you think I'd judge you for something as small as where you live?” He asks, shutting the passenger side door
“I just thought-”
“No. I’d be a fool to think like that. Nothing you do could make me judge you, the idea of doing that in the first place disgusts me.” He says, hand rising to brush his thumb on the side of your face, waiting for you to invite him in. He wants you to, he wants the reassurance that you trust him.
You walk to the front door, grabbing the key hidden under the mat before unlocking it, and stepping inside. You cringe at the slightly peeled paint on the walls, but also thankful that having the house to yourself means it's actually clean for once. He shuts the door behind him, watching the way you look around, the insecurity showing in your body language. He turns you around to face him, pulling you close before tilting your face up.
You look between his eyes and his lips before leaning up slightly, your lips grazing over his, before he speaks “tell me how bad you want this, tell me you want it as much as I do” He whispers, even though no one can hear him but you.
“I want it Jake– I want it so bad, I just want you..” you breathe out, and he closes the small space instantly, the feeling of your heart beating, the thrill of his lips on yours will never get old.
He lets you guide him to your room, before shutting the door behind him, he pulls back looking down at you. The needy look on your face as you try to catch your breath.
The room is dimly lit, the moon is bright from the clear sky, illuminating you, allowing him to see every emotion that flashes across your face.
He steps closer to you, hand coming to your waist, his thumb making small circles near the hem. You nod, and he slowly lifts your shirt above your head, eyes dropping to your chest, he can't help himself when his hand comes up to cup your tit in his hand, kneading the soft flesh through your bra. “Youre so beautiful” He says, guiding you until you land on your bed, He follows, on top of you in a second, pressing a gentle kiss to your lips, it’s careful, timeless.
You kiss him back, lips desperately grasping onto each other as his hand trails down your stomach to the waistband of your jeans, your breath hitches, he pauses looking down at you “can I take these off?” He asks, “y-yes” you manage to let out, not sure how you can even get out words when he has you like this.
He unbottons your jeans, sitting up to slide them down your legs, throwing them on the floor before looking at you, taking you in, trying to savor this in his memory.
He watches the way your legs close, stopping them with his hand "Don't hide from me.” He says, pushing them open, looking down at the way your underwear sticks to your pussy, biting his lip at the sight, you let out a soft whine at being exposed like this, because no one has ever seen you this way, this vulnerable.
He presses a kiss to your neck, “Have you thought about this before?” He asks, tongue flicking on a new found sensitive spot under your ear, you nod. He lets his hand trail down your body before cupping your clothed cunt in his hand, you let out a quiet moan at the contact.
“Did you touch yourself thinking about it?” He kisses the spot under your ear, pulling the honesty out of you.
Your mind goes back to that night he kissed you in the car, how you made yourself come on your fingers at the memory of his hands on you later that night– “yes.” You say, the honesty makes him smile against your neck
“Can you show me?” He whispers, sitting up again, watching the way you willingly trail your hand down your body, slipping your fingers inside the waistband of your panties to brush your soaking clit, closing your eyes.
You open them again when the bed shifts, watching Jake as he takes off his shirt tossing it on the floor beside your pants, before removing his own, you press harder on your clit when your eyes meet the bulge in his boxers, there's no way that's fitting in you. He watches your reaction, "I'll make sure you're ready for it baby” He says, palming himself. You slide your underwear off your legs, the fabric was making it hard to really touch yourself anyway.
Your hand slides back between your legs, circling your clit, the same way he did that time in the bathroom. “Fuck–” He hisses, squeezing his dick at the way your hand comes up to toy with your nipple through your bra.
You watch as he climbs back in between your legs, leaning down to kiss your lips, trailing down past your neck, leaving a trail of wet marks until his face is hardly an inch away from your pussy.
You move your hand to grip the sheets beneath you “Jake..” You watch as he looks up at you from in between your legs. He blows on your clit, watching the way your pussy clenches around nothing. He presses small kisses to your thigh, grazing over your sensitive bud with his plump lips. “You have no idea how bad I've wanted to do this” He says before pressing an open mouthed kiss to your soaking cunt, you let out a moan at the contact, hands flying up to touch his hair as he repeats the motion.
You didn't even know you could be this vocal, but with him, eating you out like a starved man, how could you not.
He flicks his tongue over your clit, practically drooling onto your pussy, before pressing soft kisses “Tastes so fucking good” He mumbles into you, the vibration making your hips buck, his hand come up to hold your stomach down, so you dont squirm as much.
You watch him, his eyes are closed, face expressing true pleasure, your juices coating the bottom half of his face.
He looks up at you, burying his nose in your pussy, letting the bridge of it pressure your throbbing clit before he sucks on it, mouth clasped around your pussy, flicking his tounge, swirling it, you tug his hair harder, but he doesnt care because this is just too fucking good.
“Oh my gosh-” You let out when his finger comes up to collect your juices seeping from your hole before inserting the single digit inside of you, the sound of your pussy squelching, and him groaning into you has your back arches off the bed when he curls his finger, his tongue flicking over your clit, before he adds another, you've never felt this good in your life, you watch him, the way his brows furrow in concentration as he brings the most pleasurable experience upon you.
He fucks his fingers in and out of you, curling them just right, while his lips suck on your clit greedily, he looks up for a split second at the way your head is thrown back, before shoving his fingers deep, dick throbbing at the way you clench around them, taking your clit in is mouth, and sucking it, hard. You grip his hair, pulling him impossibly closer as you reach your orgasm, your whole body shaking “Jake!” You scream out through a moan as your juices coat his face, soaking the bed beneath you. He greedily licks, and slurps everything you let out, not letting anything go to waste, before looking up at you. He pulls his fingers out slowly, watching the way your body trembles.
You bite your lip as you watch him sit up again, your arousal coating his lips, he runs his tongue along them, savoring every drop.
He slides his boxers off, his dick hitting his abdomen, thick, heavy, and a bead of pearly white pre-cum at the tip, you watch as he spreads it on his tip, stroking himself in his hand. “You wanna know something?” He asks, watching the way your eyes flick between his face and his cock.
You nod quickly, making him smirk. “Ive dreamt about this moment almost every night. I remember waking up–” He looks down at your bare cunt, continuing “To see that I fucking came in my sleep.” You can't help the small gasp that leaves your mouth at the confession, "That's not all.” He says, pulling you closer, unclasping your bra and tossing it on the ground.
You bite your lip as the crisp air that hits your nipples, his finger comes up to toy with the sensitive bud, looking at your reaction, the little gasps that leave your lips “I fucked my fist so many times–everytime I imagined it was your pussy” He whispers, leaning down, letting his lips graze over your nipple, making you let out a desperate sound
“I thought about how you’d react when I did this–” He says before sucking on your nipple, his hand toying with the other one between his fingers making you moan, uncontrolled, you feel the way his cock rubs against your inner thigh.
He sits up, guiding his cock to your entrance, coating his tip with your juices from your previous orgasm. He slides the tip in slowly, letting your pussy adjust to the size, groaning, “Baby, I need you to relax okay? Can you do that for me?” He asks, finger rubbing circles on your inner thigh “mhm” you breathe out, before closing your eyes, trying to make yourself less tense as he slides more of his length in you
“Fuck- youre so warm” He says, hand moving to your hips to steady himself before bottoming out, a wrecked sound leaving his lips at the way your pussy clenches around him.
He leans down, head resing beside yours before lifting to look at you “Im going to move now, can you take it?” he asks, voice strained, but gentle “Please–” You let out through a whimper, he brings his lips to yours before pulling out halfway and thrusting back into you, making you moan into his mouth at the stretch. His cock reaching places you couldn't even imagine with your fingers, the feeling of being so full is almost euphoric.
“It's like this pussy was made for me baby–you feel so good” He whispers, sliding out of you again, and then back in, hips moving in an agonizing slow rhythm that has you holding onto his biceps and panting desperately in his mouth.
“F-faster?” you manage to let out, making him chuckle lightly “You sure?” he asks, looking down at you and the way you nod frantically. His lips suck at your neck as he picks up his speed thrusting in and out of you, hips rolling, enjoying every sound you let out.
Your nails dig into his arms, your pussy squeezing around him “You close baby?” he asks, the moan you let out is enough for him to understand, “I wanna come in you while you come on my cock, please?” the begging tone in his voice making you let out desperate pleas, his mouth is back on yours, both of you completely lost in the pleasure of each other, moaning against each other's mouths before he thrusts into you, hard, your pussy clenches around him, grinding up and down as you ride your orgasm out, at the same time milking his cock, making him whimper against you, saying your name though it all.
He presses a soft kiss to your forehead, before slowly inching his cock out, his cum spilling out of your pussy, you both wince at the sensitiveness, he pulls back looking down at you
“Where's your towels baby?” He asks, voice soft, you point towards the second drawer of your dresser, he grabs one coming back over to you, kneeling down to clean you up, you admire him, the focused look on his face, he looks up at you smiling “What?” He says through a chuckle
“You’re just really cute when you're focused” He climbs up till he's laid next to you, pulling himself closer to your warm embrace, resting his face on your chest, making you let out a giggle before he looks at you
“I want to be your boyfriend y/n” He says, emotion raw in his tone
“W-what?” You're caught off guard by the question
“Can I be your boyfriend?” He asks, voice low, almost shy
“Please?” he adds
You smile, biting your lip “yes, you can” You whisper, he tilts his head to kiss you again, embracing your warmth, you pull back
“You’re not going to get me flowers or anything?” You ask brow raising
“Oh, you just wait for tomorrow” He smiles against your lips
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Jake left your house that morning, kissing you goodbye, and saying to be ready by six at the latest, you were already dressed at 5.
The second you hear a knock at the door you rush to get it, swinging it open, heart beating fast when you see him, holding a bouquet of flowers in his hand, with a smile on his face
“Jake–They’re so pretty” You smile, taking them from his hand
“You’re prettier” He says, pressing a kiss to your lips before taking your hand and dragging you to his car.
He covers your eyes with his hands when he makes you get out of the car “Y/n you better not peak” he says, tickling your ear with his mouth, guiding you somewhere
“Shit- dont trip” He says, kicking a rock out of the way
You let out a laugh at how stressed he is right now
“Okay, three, two..” He removes his hand from your eyes, adjusting to the light you look around, at the open field, the sunset turning a pink/ orange hue in the distant, before your eyes fall to the setting before you, you cover your mouth with your hand, smiling against it as you look at the picnic before you
The Jake Sim set up a picnic for you at sunset. you can't help but giggle into your palm, turning to look at him
“Its perfect Jake” You say throwing your arms around his neck, pressing a light kiss to his lips
He smiles proudly, taking pride in the fact that he’s able to please you like this
He helps you sit down, before coming next to you, watching the way you glow from the golden light on you.
“You’re telling me Heeseung, Jay, and Sunghoon made these?” You say taking a bite of the small strawberry shortcake, the flavors melting in your mouth
“Yeah, they spent all day trying to figure out how, finding recipes and stuff” He says through a laugh
“Said it was their own way of apologizing” He lifts his finger to wipe frosting from your chin, bringing it up to lick it, smiling at you
“Tell them they're going to have to make me 10 more batches of this, because it might just be the best strawberry shortcake to date.” You say, completely serious
“They were considering opening a bakery” Jake says through a laugh, that has you join him
As the sun sets, you lean on his shoulder, you’re not thinking about the stressful things in your life like you normally do in quiet moments, right now it's you and him.
And you're at peace with that, because you feel like you've finally found your person.
“Thank you y/n” Jake says, turning his head to look at you
“For what?” you ask, voice barely a whisper
“Forgiving me, letting me in, it means a lot to me. And I'm really glad you did.” He says, moving a strand of hair behind your ear
“Thank you” You say so quietly, he almost wouldn't be able to hear it, he tilts his head in question
“For being there for me, and accepting me.” You say softly, he smiles before he cups the side of your face in his hand pulling you closer, and kissing you, gently..lovingly.
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And if I wrote reader giving him head for the first time and he actually goes insane
Jake sim, one of the most popular boys in school makes it his goal to have you fall for him, a simple bet with his friends. Little does he know, he’ll be the one falling to his knees for you
sim jaeyun x fem!reader
content warnings: smut, angst, inexperienced reader x experienced jake, pussy drunk jake, pussy eating, fingering, dry humping, multiple makeout scenes, mutual masterbation, unprotected sex, cream pie, mentions of bullying & alcohol, jake is a massive giver, and a simp (begging), hyung line mentioned, porn with a plot..let me know if I missed anything!
word count: 16.8k
bonus scene here!
Going to a school where everyone around you got what they wanted was torture. Especially for someone like you. You don't come from a wealthy family like the other students do. Some people would call your home life unfortunate if they knew. Which is exactly why almost no one knows.
You only got accepted into this school because of a scholarship program, after endless studying, and trying to stay focused at your old school, that was your out.
It was hard though, with the bullying, the mean comments, trying to remain sane while everyone in your life pushed and pointed like you were some object for observation and critiquing.
But at your new school, people actually leave you alone. You've been attending here for a few months now. As a natural observer it only took 1 to understand the dynamic of the people here.
From the designer hand bags, to the freshly blown out hair, the girls here were not only gorgeous but also had the money to maintain things like that, it was obvious why they didn't bother you. Because you weren't a threat.
Just like any other school there's always those cliques, the groups of people who hang around the same circle. Yours happens to be you and two other girls, your first friends you made here, Lyla and Gigi.
You have a hard time telling if they pity you, they know your situation. How your mother constantly tries to live off the wealth of other men, they know you don’t live in a good area—
“Oh my gosh he totally looked at me, didn't he look at me?” Lyla says, eyes darting between you and Gigi.
“He quite literally looks at anything with boobs Ly..” Gigi says, taking a bite of the school cafeterias fries.
“Come on, at least feed into my delusions a little bit” She says, stealing one of your fries.
You turn your head slightly, three tables back sits the most known group of boys in the whole school. Football players. Typical.
“You’re talking about Heeseung right?” you say turning back to your friends. “Obviously! I mean with Gigi being Jay’s sister obviously he knows who I am right?” She says, eyes wide
“Yeah- im sure he does, don't they hang out a ton after school and stuff too?” You ask, playing with the salad on your plate with a fork.
“Yup! At Gigi’s too, most of the time, and especially after practice, when they're hot and sweaty-”
“Okay gross. my brother is on that team” Gigi says, gagging
You've been to her house a few times, whether it was for one of your group projects, or to help her out with some school work, Slept over often too, I mean her house was huge.
Her parents even offered to have you sleep in one of the 6 guest bedrooms. But Lyla said it doesn't count as a sleepover if we’re not all together.
“Incoming, 12 o’clock.” Lyla says looking past your shoulder at the group of boys.
“How much you wanna bet she’s gonna yell at him” Gigi says, making you turn around, you watch as a familiar blonde haired girl you've seen around campus storms into the cafeteria, heels clicking on the ground as she approaches them.
“Jake where the fuck were you!” She yells, glaring at the dark haired boy, number 15 on the football team. You only know that because Lyla made you go through the list of them to figure out which one Heeseung was.
You watch him, the way his eyes never leave his phone when he speaks. “God- What do you not fucking understand about where done?” He says finally looking up at her, the other guys around him look like they're watching a movie while they observe the interaction.
“But you didn't even-” she starts “Clara I don't want to hear your bullshit okay? Just leave me alone.” He says, tone irritated.
“Fine- you know you're just like all the other guys. Only talking to girls just to get your dick wet.”You watch the way her grip tightens on her designer bag.
“You didn't seem to mind.” He says, making the guys around him let out the laughs they've been holding.
“Fuck you- you’re so going to regret this!” She says, and you watch as he rolls his eyes and focuses back on his phone
“She looks like she's about to throw a tantrum” Gigi says, making your attention go back to your friends
“I mean Jake knew what he was getting into when they started..messing around" Lyla says.
You just nod, half listening before turning your head again to look at the group, they’re back to laughing, probably at the interaction that just happened.
“-and then we can order pizza or something, it’s the perfect night for it too! You in y/n?” Lyla says, and you look at them confused “Huh?”
“Girl, The Victoria's Secret fashion show duh, it's live tonight.” She says "Gigi's house obviously since you know, movie theater room”
“I love the way you volunteered my own place, But yeah, my house tonight” She says shrugging
“Um- I dont know guys..I kind of have to study-”
“Y/n it's friday night. Come on, you have all weekend to study, please!” She says looking at you with those infamous puppy dog eyes
“Fine, fine ill be there, what time?” You ask, picking up your phone.
“Like 7 ish?” Lyla says, looking at Gigi who just nods, “Yeah, Jay won't be home either, pretty sure him and his friends are going to some party.”
“Your parents are letting him?” Lyla asks, brow raising.
“They're not even home, they literally left for their anniversary trip not even 3 hours ago.” Gigi says checking her phone. “So it will just be us then? she nods.
The rest of the day is a blur, between trying to set up tutoring appointments with your counselor, because apparently it looks good to help other students, and trying to finish your own work so you can actually go to Gigi’s.
You mentally prepare yourself to ask your mom if you can go tonight, hoping she's in a good mood. Knocking lightly on her bedroom door “Mom?” you ask quietly and the door swings open, you take in her attire, the club dress, the really tall heels, her hair and make up done.
“You’re going on another date?” You ask brow raising
“Yeah, remember that guy from the bar I told you about, Chris?" She says smiling, you nod even though you don't remember her saying a thing about him.
“Right- um well I was just wondering if I can go to Gigi’s tonight? I finished my homework and stuff and its also friday so-”
“Sure” She says, and you pause. It must be because she's going on a date, because you would have gotten a whole lot more shit.
“Can you sleep over too.” It's not a question.
“Uh- I can ask” You say shrugging
“Well just try too okay? Im about to leave” She says, putting in her earrings and giving you a very rare kiss on your forehead before walking out the door, leaving you confused as ever.
Its like the universe was on your side when you opened your phone to see the group chat messages
Lyla: Gigi we should just have a sleepover
Lyla: It's already gonna be late when the live is done too
Lyla: Plus we haven't had one in so long
Gigi: yeah I was literally going to ask if you guys wanted to stay the night anyway lol
Lyla: YAY! Good because my bags already packed
Gigi: Y/n can u come too?
You: Yup! I'll be there
You set your phone down so you can focus on packing an overnight bag, you don't need to overdress either, so you settle on wearing some shorts, a hoodie, and fluffy socks with slippers, this is a sleepover after all
When you get to Gigi's house- no, mansion, because this can't even compare to your house. Lyla comes running out
"You're late!” She says, grabbing your bags from you “It's like 10 minutes-”
“And the show starts in 20!” she says frantically, grabbing your arm and dragging you into the house
You dont think you’ll ever get over how nice it is, from the high ceilings to the expensive paintings on the wall, and the pool in the backyard, probably way too big for a family of four.
You catch the faint smell of popcorn from the kitchen, as Lyla places your bags by the stairs, “Where's Gigi?” you ask
“Shes setting up in the movie room, im trying to finish the popcorn” Lyla says going to the kitchen
You walk down the hall you've grown familiar with, observing the pictures on the wall of Gigi's family
“Y/n- how do you disconnect a Playstation from the TV? Jay didn't even bother to.” She says, clicking random buttons on the remote. You laugh walking over to help her
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“Okay all I have to say is when I get married and stuff, im making my husband buy me that specific set.” Lyla says over the runway music, making you and Gigi laugh because she practically yells over how loud it is.
You open your mouth to speak but stop when all three of your eyes go to the door as it opens, Heeseung walks in pausing as his eyes go to the large TV screen “Holy shit- are you guys watching porn?” He says, looking at the model on the stage, the space instantly feels smaller as Sunghoon pushes past him to get in the room “We’re not watching porn!” Gigi says, pausing the TV
Lyla is just staring at Heeseung, Jay walks in next “Gigi what the hell are you watching-”
“Did we interrupt your group gooning session?” Heeseung says. You watch Gigi's face flush red, now clearly visible since Jay turned on the lights.
“Jay- You said you were going to that stupid ass party tonight!” She says walking over to him “Yeah well it got cancelled.” He says, rolling his eyes. “Bruh I've been wanting to play the ps5 all day” Sunghoon says before looking at the TV again
“Do we not literally have a room for you to do just that?” Gigi says, eyeing down Sunghoon, before looking back at her brother.
“Dude someone left a whole bag of popcorn in the microwave-” Jake walks in pausing when he sees everyone in here, his eyes land on you for a split second before looking at the TV “What are they watch-”
“Its not fucking porn! You all are so stupid!” Gigi says before her eyes snap back to Jay “I literally said I was having Y/n and Lyla over in our messages!”
“Yeah well I forgot” He rolls his eyes again, you cant help but observe the other four boys, you watch Heeseungs eyes, following them to Lyla.. that has to be considered eye fucking.
You can't help but look at Jake though, he's wearing glasses. Are they prescription? He’s looking at something on his phone. He just showed Sunghoon something on his phone that made him smile. Sunghoon looks at you for a second before nudging Jake's shoulder, Jake is looking at you- is he looking behind you? You turn your head slightly, before looking back at him, why is he smirking-
“Fine! You keep the movie room well just go in the living room. Just don't snitch” Jay pleads, not even embarrassed that he's begging in front of his friends, Gigi just beams proudly, knowing she's won when they walk out.
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“She’s a virgin?!” Jake practically yells, making Heeseung, and Sunghoon's eyes snap to him.
“You’re so fucking lucky the movie room is noise cancellation.” Jay says pinching his eyebrows
“And- I don't even know if it's true, I just over heard Gi talking on the phone with her and Lyla a few weeks back” Heeseung and Sunghoons attention on the movie long forgotten
“Are you talking about y/n?” Heeseung asks curiously
“There's no way, I mean yeah she's like quiet and shit but she has some experience right?” Sunghoon adds
“I don't know man, but her and Gi became friends at the beginning of the school year, she's been over a few times. She's pretty chill.” Jay says
“So she doesn't have a boyfriend?” Jake asks, brow raising
“I thought you liked them experienced Jake? You fuck with little virgins now or what?” Heeseung says smirking
“I mean she’s cute, nothing wrong with teaching her a thing or two” Jake says with a knowing look on his face
“She doesn't really talk to guys though–like at all. Gi always complains that she’s too busy studying. But she's hella smart, tutoring and shit-”
“Wait, she tutors?” Jake's ears perk up at that
“Yeah she came over to help Gigi with chem the other day.” Jay says casually, like he didn't just give him the golden ticket to your personal space
“Are you serious?” Sunghoon says looking at him
Heeseung glances between the two, picking up what they're hinting at. “It's kinda risky, I mean girls like that- they aren't like, easy you know? Plus you're literally one of the smartest on the team.”
“You think she's actually gonna be interested though?” Jay asks
“I bet she'll see through that shit the first tutoring lesson honestly” Sunghoon says, making Heeseung laugh
“You think I only pull the easy ones?” Jake watching the both of them
“Thats all you’ve done this whole time-” Heeseung starts
“Alright bet.” Jake says, making the three of them pause
“Bet?”
“Yeah, I'll get her to fall for me.” Jake says confidently
“Yeah right” Heeseung adds
“Shit- I mean what about Clara though?” Sunghoon asks
“What about her? Im not fucking her anymore”
“You realise the shit she's gonna give y/n if you actually go through with that?” Jay says
“You’re basically setting her up for failure, Claras fucking crazy.” Heeseung says
“I still dont know why you decided to fuck her in the first place” he adds
“Probably because of her personality.” Jay says through a laugh
“Nah fuck her, she wont mess with y/n like that, shes not that desperate.” Jake says, but deep down he doesn't know if it's 100% true. Is he really setting you up for failure with this?
He's pulled from his thoughts when you come walking out of the movie room, coincidentally.
He only saw you sitting down, but now he's taking you in fully. Hoodie, shorts, fluffy…cat socks.
You pause when you see them all staring at you before awkwardly smiling and going to the kitchen to grab more popcorn.
Lyla and Gigi sent you out because they got it last time, but that's when there wasn't a group of guys you hardly knew in the living room.
Jay nudges Jake's shoulder before glancing to the kitchen, hesitating a beat before standing up and walking over.
You're looking through the five different popcorn options, who even needs that much popcorn anyway.
He watches as you choose the ‘extra butter’ one before speaking “Good choice” He says, walking further into the kitchen
“Oh- um thanks, it's the best one” You say, opening the microwave to put the popcorn in, he looks down at your legs, then back at your face when you turn around
“Y/n right?” He says, watching your face
“Yeah, I know who you are already though.” fingers toying with the end of your hoodie
“Oh? You've been to a game?” He says, taking a step closer
“No- I mean, I don't really watch football like that or anything- or sports” You say, looking back at how much time is on the popcorn, 50 seconds.
50 more seconds of this extremely weird interaction between you and one of the most popular guys in school.
He notices, he doesn't like that. “Y’know we have the same 3rd block.”
“Oh- AP Anatomy & Physiology?" You ask, but you know exactly what he's talking about, how could you not. He’s the 9th one to arrive in class everyday, everyone swarms his desk like a bunch of baby ducks just to talk to him.
“Yeah, I sit in the third row-” He's pauses when the beep of the microwave interrupts him, you silently thank the universe before pulling the popcorn out and mumbling something like “enjoy your movie” before practically running back to the movie room, leaving Jake confused, but also intrigued, most girls fall to their knees the second he gets within a 5 feet radius, so why did you just run away..
He walks back to the living room, sitting down, “Told you, easy ones only” Heeseung says through a laugh
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You're the first person to walk into AP Anatomy & Physiolgy on Monday, as always. You take your usual assigned, unassigned seat in the back row by the window, unpacking your bag, getting settled.
Your teacher walks in shortly after, she’s gotten used to you being here first. “Y/n” she says over the silence “Yes?”
“Are you okay with talking about how you're offering tutoring?” setting her own stuff down
"I'll have you do it at the end of class.” she adds. “Oh- yeah, I printed flyers for it too.” You say, and she smiles.
The students slowly file in, your eyes flick up to the door when the 9th person comes in. Jake.
The second he walks in his eyes are on you, you don't know why you feel hot all the sudden, like someone turned up the heater when he looks at you
Barely having any time to take in his outfit, you tap your pen on your paper, hoodie and jeans maybe?
You stop when you see the familiar frame take a seat next to you- Why is Jake sitting next to you, does he not always sit in the third row- You don't look at him, instead looking down at his shoe in your peripheral vision, because it would be weird to look at him. Even if you do feel his eyes on you.
The class flies by, you write down whatever your teacher puts on the board, trying not to be distracted by the noticeable presence beside you, if he had an aura around him, it would be clashing into yours because this whole time you've been weirdly affected by his close proximity.
“..And y/n has something to say as well.” Your teacher says, pulling you from your thoughts,you watch as everyone's heads turns to you before you stand up and walk to the front, clearing your throat
“Hi- im offering tutoring for anyone who needs extra help, any subject, um- here are the flyers if you're interested.” you say quickly before placing them on the teachers desk and walking back to your seat.
There's nothing you hate more than public speaking like that, you try to subtly calm your breathing. Jakes eyes are focused on you the whole time.
As soon as the bell rings you’re practically already out the door, Jake watches you stand up abruptly and rush out before he goes to the teachers desk to grab one of the flyers.
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“I don't know- she didn't even spare me a glance, like at all.” Jake says, setting his bag down on the bench in the locker room
“I told you, she doesn't talk to guys like that” Jay mutters, tying his shoe
“Pretty boy lost his charm huh?” Heeseung chuckles, shutting the door behind him
“Not completely” Jake says, pulling out your tutoring flyer from his bag
“You sneaky motherfucker-” Sunghoon eyes him, grabbing the paper from his hands
“Holy shit- you're actually going through with that?” Heeseung looks over Sunghoon's shoulder
“Just to prove a point?” Sunghoon asks
Jake doesn’t have time to reply before the Coach comes in, yelling at them to ‘get the fuck out the locker room’
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As soon as you get home, you pause when you see a suitcase by the door. “Oh y/n- took you long enough, you remember Chris right?” She say’s coming out of her room with a duffel bag
“The guy you went on a date with?” You ask, seting your backpack down
“Yeah, the rich one” She says with a smirk
“Anyways, he’s taking me to Boston for a trip!” She says excitingly
“Boston- what? Didnt you just meet him though?” You ask, brow raising in confusion
“I think he might be the one” She says smiling, the same smile she’s put on every time she says that.
“Um- well how long?” you ask, trying to register this whole thing
“Hmm- like 2 and half weeks-”
“2 and a half?! Mom- what the hell?”
“Calm down, I hate when you get like this y/n.” She says, putting her duffel bag on her shoulder
“Theres money for food, and whatever you need on the counter. It's not like I'm leaving you here to starve.”
“But-”
“Shit- I gotta go, ill call you when we land okay?” She says, giving you an awkward side hug before rushing out, leaving you confused as ever. This is what always happens though so you don't know why you're confused. She’s probably just doing it for the money anyway. Marry a rich man, use him to provide for us. It's pathetic.
The time was 9:46 when you receive the message. A number you don't know, you click on it
Unknown: Hey, Is this y/n?
You: Who is this?
Unknown: I got this number from your tutoring flyers
sitting up, this is the first person to actually text you about that
You: Oh yeah, what subject do you need help with?
Unknown: AP Anatomy & Physiology
You: Okay perfect, I have an A in that class so I can definitely help
You get your notebook out and a pencil
You: How soon do you want to start? And what's your first and last name
Unknown: Can we start tomorrow? I have practice everyday except Tuesdays
Practice? No way. You feel your heart beat pick up, This cant be–
Unknown: First names Jake, last names Sim.
The Jake Sim is texting you, about.. Tutoring. Is he not one of the top students though? You take a deep breath before typing back a reply
You: Okay, Tomorrow works. Does after school in the library work for you?
Jake Sim: Yeah im good with that
Jake Sim: I’ll see you tomorrow y/n
You shut your phone off, trying to ignore the way your palms are sweating a little too much right now, who even uses peoples names like that in messages?
Jake smiles down at his phone before swiping out of the chat.
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You're early. You're also early everywhere you go. You already set up your computer, and notebook with his name at the top, even after you erased it 3 times.
He walks in, you notice immediately, looking up from your paper, his hair is framing his face, no glasses today. White shirt with jeans. He smiles before sitting down across from you, you smile back, trying to seem less awkward.
You try to remind yourself, this is a mere tutoring lesson, so you'll act like it.
“So I just need to know what you're struggling on before we actually get into the teaching stuff.” you say looking at him, his eye contact is intense, it's hard to hold it.
He pulls out his own notebook
“Mainly muscle contractions,heart anatomy, and” He pauses before looking up at you “-Hormones.” You hesitate a beat before writing that down under his name. He notices.
“Okay, I can work with this- is there anything specific you don't understand? Is it a focusing thing?” You ask, genuinely concerned “I actually pulled up your average and you seem to be doing fine-”
“It's my memory” He says quickly “I have a hard time understanding, when the teacher talks it doesn't really comprehend well.”
“Oh- that's completely normal, are you more hands on?” You ask
He smirks “And visual.”
You look like you're actually deep in thought “Okay so, we would need to do more interactive studying, makes sense.” You say writing more stuff down
He watches you, the way your brows furrow in thought.
“Are you going to the game next Friday?” He says, your eyes flick up to him, confused at the sudden question
“I don't really go to football games or anything- Thats more Lyla and Gigi” You say, eyes traveling down for a split second when his tongue wets his bottom lip
“You should come” He says casually, like time has no affect on him
“We really should stay on task“
“If I pass the test next week will you come?”
Your caught off guard by the question, his heavy gaze on you making it worse
“Um- I’ll think about it” You say before writing more stuff down, he smiles slightly
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The next week goes by quickly, thankfully. Your mom has only called once, claiming she forgot to say she landed, even if it was a day later.
Home is lonely, its quiet but its good for studying. Your thoughts drift to Gigis family sometimes, even though her and her brother argue half the time, at least she has someone.
You’re pulled from your thoughts when you hear your name being called, not by the familiar voice of your friends but by..Jake?
Lyla and Gigi both look behind you, eye brows raised as he comes closer, standing infront of your table in the cafeteria
You watch the way people look at him, the heads turning to you, the attention—it’s too much
“Y/n” He says looking down at you
“I might be a little late for tutoring today, coach wants to talk to us about the game.” He says, making Lyla and Gigi’s eyes flick between you two
“Um- Okay, But you couldn’t have messaged me that?” you say, trying to ignore the gazes on you from people you’ve never spoken to in your life.
“I mean you were already here so-“
“Yeah just text me next time okay?” You say, avoiding eye contact
He looks over at his friends, watching their snickers. Oh hell no.
You think he’s going to walk away by now but he sits down, right next to you. That makes Lyla's jaw practically drop
“Why? You don’t like talking to me?” He says, watching you intently
“I never said that- you just cause a lot of..attention.” You say, looking around before looking at him
“You don’t like attention?”
“Not from this many people.” You say standing up, grabbing your bag
“Where are you going-“
“I have to go.” You mumble before putting your bag over your shoulder and walking out the cafeteria, not looking back because you know if you do, everyones eyes will be on you.
As soon as the doors shut behind you, you let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding.
“Really?” Gigi asks, watching Jakes confused face
“You realize you’re like a magnet for attention right?” Lyla says
“And there’s nothing she hates more then that.”
“I was just asking her about tutoring.” Jake says, standing up to walk back to his friends
“Nice job man, you really do still got it huh?” Heeseung says through a smirk, making the others stifle their laughs
“Should’ve put money on it” Sunghoon adds, earning a glare from Jake
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Jake came in late like he said, 15 minutes to be exact. He looked out of breath, like he ran here.
The tutoring session was fine, you kept that professional exterior even if you were trying not to feel embarrassed about earlier, thankfully he didn't bring it up.
“Aren't hormones just when you're horny?” He asks, pencil raised above his paper, looking at you
You pause “Did you really just ask me that-” You didn't mean to say it out loud but you did, it makes him let out a chuckle, he bites his lip, something he does often, a little too often. To the point where you can't help your eyes follow when he does it.
“Okay um, let me think of how to word this” you say, looking down at your paper before back up at him “It’s not just what makes you- ‘horny’ but I guess that could be a way to describe it, a more..scientifical word is Steroid Hormones..”
He watches you talk, even if what your saying is hardly registering to him, because not only are you talking to him about sex hormones or whatever it is, but you're not wearing the same knit sweater you had on earlier, you must have taken it off, because he cant pull his eyes away from the way your tits look in that tank top-
“Jake?” Your voice cuts through his thoughts, his eyes find yours again.
“How are you supposed to pass this test when you can’t even focus?” You ask, completely unaware of how he was just looking at you
“Shit- sorry, what were you saying” He says a little bit more nervously than he intended, why is he so damn nervous, why do you even make him nervous?
“Hm, you need something to do with your hands.” You say casually, taking him by surprise
His mind races with what you mean, please, please ask him to finger you.
He pauses when you pull out a rubix cube, a fucking rubix cube and hand it to him- what the fuck is he supposed to do with this shit?
“You said you were more hands on, one of the other students I tutor is also like that. Whenever she uses that, it's like she’s more focused, you should try it.” You say smiling, encouraging.
He doesn't know why he feels relieved when he hears the word ‘she’, but he does.
He takes the object from your hand, fidgeting with it for a few seconds before you continue
The rest of the lesson is smooth, who knew a rubix cube would actually work. You try to stay focused yourself though.
The constant bounce of your leg to settle whatever your feeling when you watch the way his fingers work the object in his hand, it should be illegal to have that many veins in the first place.
Later that night, in one of your moments where you give yourself a break from studying.
Heating up the leftover pasta you made the other night, you get a text. Your body reacts before your mind does, heartbeat picking up
Jake Sim: I tried the practice test thing you showed me earlier
Jake Sim: Got a 100%
You smile, when he sends a picture of his laptop, the score on it saying just that
You: Good job
He frowns at his phone, that's all? No titty pic as a reward?
Jake Sim: Guess I'll be seeing you at Friday's game then :)
You: Well see if your studying shows then
Jake Sim: I'll make sure it does
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“Y/N!” you hear Jake yell after you, you stop to turn around, seeing him walking up to you, leaving Heeseung and Jay’s side as he comes into step beside you.
You’re still not used to the pointed looks you get from the people around you, but you're training yourself to pretend they aren't there.
Heeseung and Jay watch as Jake rushes to you like a damn puppy, looking at each other.
He hands you a paper, you take it looking down at the big 100% on the top “You actually did it!” You say smiling, before looking up at him beside you
He puts a hand on his chest, with a fake gasp “And to think you doubted me” He stops at the cafeteria door, pulling you aside before you walk in, facing you away from the people who keep looking at you. The nosy motherfuckers who can’t help but take attention to you ever since he’s became—friends? With you.
“So you'll come to the game then right?” He asks, doing that thing where he bites his lip
“Thats what we agreed on, plus Lyla and Gigi are going too” You say, watching the way his eyes light up
The last few people file in the cafeteria, leaving you and him alone.
“Y’know what the theme is right?” He asks, and this time you're genuinely caught off guard- theme? He notices your confusion right away
“Every game has a theme, pretty sure this one’s western, like cowboys and shit” He says watching your face, the way your eyebrows knit in uncertainty
“Lyla and Gigi didn't tell you?”, you shake your head softly
“Im surprised- they always go like all out for the themes” He says through a quiet laugh
Great. That only means they are going to make you go all out too.
You both pause when the final bell rings, walking in to the cafeteria like its the most normal thing, your steps falter when you feel the eyes on you, you look at your friends before glancing at Jakes group- why are they all staring at you-
“I’ll see you later y/n” He smiles before walking to his table, you sit down in front of Lyla and Gigi who are both looking at you knowingly
“What?” you say through an awkward laugh
“You know damn well what” Lyla says through a smirk
“Tutoring my ass” Gigi adds back
“Girl I do not look at my tutor like that” Lyla says, holding back a laugh
“Like what-?”
“Like I want to eat him the fuck up- because thats how The Jake sim was just looking at your ass-” You almost choke on your water, making her and Gigi laugh
You look down at the table to hide your blush “Well, you guys also didnt tell me there was a theme at the game.” You say, crossing your arms
“Okay when was the last time you checked the group chat y/n” Gigi asks, you pull out your phone
“This morning..” You say scrolling through the message thread
Lyla: Okay so what are we wearing tn
Gigi: Themes cowboy right?
Gigi: You know how much my mom and dad LOVE that costume shit
Gigi: I have so much stuff for it at my house
Lyla: Wow gigi inviting us over
Gigi: I can take u guys home after school
Lyla: YES
Lyla: We have to look GOOD, especially you y/n
Lyla: For you know
Gigi: Jake
Lyla: Okay shes probs not even on her phone
You swipe out, just to see if your mom said anything, you click on the messages to see a sunset picture and city buildings, typical.
“So, can you come?” Lyla asks
“Yeah sure- but we don’t have to go all out right?”
They look at each other before looking at you, the smile on their faces tells you everything you need to know
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“This feels like a lot..” You say looking at your outfit in her bedroom mirror
“No y/n- you look like, hot.” Lyla says, choosing one of the 7 cowboy hats Gigi brought out
“This is the final touch” She says before putting it on your head
This is quite literally the opposite of you, completely. It’s something you would never wear if it weren't for them, you wonder what your old self before you transferred schools would think. From the white fitted shirt, to the jean skirt, down to the—cowboy boots..
You adjust the red bandana on your neck so its not choking you uncomfortably
Gigi watches your worried face “I promise the others will be doing 10x more than us.” She reassures you, you look at them in the mirror, Lyla's shorts that hug her curves, Gigi’s shirt that compliments her body perfectly.
This feels very..them. You can't help but feel like an outsider trying to fit in.
“Jake will love it” Lyla says, hiding her smirk
“What- Jake?” The thought of Jake seeing you in this makes you nervous..but also exited? What would he think, would he expect you to wear this?
You're pulled from your thoughts when the man himself sends you a message
Jake Sim: Hey y/n were gonna grab food after the game
Jake Sim: Wanna come?
Jake Sim: Lyla and Gigi can come to
Jake Sim: I already told Jay not to bitch abt it lol
Your fingers hover over the screen
"Quadruple text is crazy” Lyla says through a smile
Gigi peaks over your shoulder “I do not want to hang out with my brother for fun.” She says, rolling her eyes
“Come on Gi! The others will be there too and! Heeseung’s fine ass” Lyla says, looking in the mirror to adjust her push up bra
Gigi just puts on her boots with a shrug
“Y/n say yes please!” Lyla says, practically jumping up and down
“Fine- fine”
You: Yeah sure.
“Um- Thats all?” Lyla asks
“What do you mean?”
“I don't know, maybe say something like ‘I'm so excited!’ or ‘good luck!- you know what just give me the phone.” Lyla says snatching it from your hand and sending a message
You: Good luck Jakey! I'll be cheering you on! ;)
“What the hell- is there a way to delete this, how do I-”
“Really Ly? He’s gonna know thats not y/n, she like never uses emojis” Gigi says cringing
“Maybe if he wins he'll give you good dick?” Lyla says shrugging
Your face goes red, this topic, talking about him-
“Yeah so that definitely wasn't her” Jake says putting on his cleats
“Jakey? Really?” Sunghoon mimicks
“I wouldn’t doubt if Lyla took her phone honestly.” Jay mutters
“Lyla's coming right?” Heeseung asks, putting on his jersey
His friends look at him “Why?”
“I mean shes hot as fuck dude, plus she totally looks at me all the time” He adds, fixing his hair in the locker mirror
“Yeah she's coming” Jake says, looking back down at the messages
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When you, Gigi, and Lyla get to the game a little earlier, they were not joking about people going all out. Compared to everyone else, your outfit was tame to say the least.
You three find a spot in the bleachers, your eyes scanning the field for one specific person.
You watch him, he’s drinking water on the side right now- his helmet is in his other hand, how can someone look so good drinking water.
You watch as Heeseung nudges Jake's shoulder beside him, and then Jake's eyes are on you
“Holy fuck” He says to Heeseung
You cant see what they’re saying
“I mean she looks like a cowboys wet dream” Heeseung says, smirking
Jake gives him a pointed look, before turning back to you, the distance is good enough for him to see the way your skirt clings to your legs, and how good that shirt looks on you, Fuck.
He waves at you, you look behind to see if it was someone else but there's no one behind you yet, you turn back to see him smiling at you before offering a small wave back
Lyla and Gigi are both watching from beside you, eyes flicking between you and Jake
You watch as Heeseung yells at him, and as he puts his helmet on before running over to him, a smile that wont go away ever since he saw you plastered on his face
“You sure you're not just doing this for the love of the game” Heeseung says, putting in his mouth guard
It wasn't a question. It was a statement. A statement that might be right. Because this doesn't feel like some childish bet anymore.
The first half of them game goes well, you dont really understand much. But from the way Lyla, Gigi, and the rest of the students are cheering, thats definitely a good sign. “Im going to get water, do you guys want any?” you say, stepping off the bleachers
“Yeah- soda?” Lyla says, before looking back at the field where a very sweaty heeseung is spraying water in his mouth
You nod before walking to the concessions, the line isn't too bad, so you just pull out your phone to scroll, when two girls come behind you, you wouldn't care normally but its what they're talking about that makes your hand pause over your screen
“I mean he hasn't even looked at me this whole time, which is crazy because not even a month ago he had me sucking his dick!” One of the girls says, you look down to see pink cowboy boots
“His very big dick” Her friend says
“Ridiculously big. Fuck I miss it im not gonna lie.”
“Isn’t he fucking with a new girl now though?” You hear her friend say, you watch as the person in front of you takes way too long to order
“Yeah some nerd ass bitch, teachers pet apparently”
“I don't know Clara, she's like hella smart”
You shut your eyes for a second, Clara, you recognize that name. That's the same girl who yelled at Jake in the cafeteria that one time
“I don't care how smart she is, that's literally my man”
“Girl- he literally dropped your ass in front of the whole cafeteria..”
Your attention is brought back when it's your turn to order, you pay for the drinks before going back, doing your best to avoid turning around.
“Y/n?” Lyla says, when you hand her the sprite
“You look like you've seen a ghost, are you good?” Gigi asks, concern laced in her tone
“Yeah im good” You say offering a tight smile, the bandana on your neck suddenly feeling too tight.
It feels like someone has their hand around your heart, squeezing it, because why did hearing those things make you feel this way– Why is Jake even talking to you? Why did he even invite you in the first place?
You watch as the starting players go back on the field, but your mind can't focus when all these questions are flooding in. What does someone like him even want with you.
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You look down at your phone
Jake Sim: Hey me and the guys will be out in 5 mins
You read the message, before putting your phone in the pocket of your skirt, people are still hanging around, the players usually shower after a game apparently.
Exactly 5 minutes later Jake comes out, jeans, and a black zip up hoodie with a white shirt underneath, his bag is on his shoulder, his hair is still wet from the shower, and you cant help the heat that goes to your face when he waves to you.
You look past him to see the rest of his friends coming out behind him, you see Heeseung whisper something in Jake's ear that makes him roll his eyes.
“Good job- you were great out there” You say, fixing the cowboy hat on your head
“I had good motivation” He says, eyes on your face before they drift to your clothes, finally seeing you up close like this.
“Alright can we go now? Im hungry as fuck.” Jay says, interrupting the moment
You turn to Lyla, who's talking to Heeseung, then to Gigi who shrugs
“Y/n, I can drive us” Jake says, bringing your attention back to him
“Oh its fine I dont-”
“That's a great Idea!” Lyla says a little too loud, making everyone's eyes go to her
“Theres not enough room in Gigi's car for all of us anyway, so it works out” She adds, calculating smile plastered on her face, she ignores the pointed look you give her
“Alright yeah whatever can we just go now before I die of starvation” Jay says, making Gigi roll her eyes “fat ass.” She mutters before walking to her car
“You did not just call me a fat ass Gi- Weren’t you the one who ate all the fucking leftovers-” You and Jake watch them walk to the car, before you and him walk to his.
You curse Lyla for leaving you with him like this- when he smells so good and his hair is wet, and his hands-
“You look really pretty,” He says, putting his bag in the trunk before opening the passenger door for you. “Thank you-” You reply back quietly, trying to ignore the way your heart hammers in your chest.
But how many other girls has he said that too- that girl Clara?
He gets in the Drivers seat, and starts the car, watching the way you look out the window. Immediately noticing the way you shift
“So, for the first football game you went to, how was it?” he says pulling out of the parking lot
You turn slightly to look at him, the way his face concentrates on the rode, but also managing to talk to you “It was fun” You smile before looking back out the window
“Did you get anything from the concessions? I heard they added slushies and stuff.” He says, tapping his finger on the steering wheel, trying to seem unbothered by the way your energy shifted the second you stepped foot in his car
The mention of drinks has your mind going back to the conversation you heard earlier, what if those girls had knew you where the one they were talking about–
“Yeah just some, um..water and stuff” You say, trying to avoid the way his eyes are pinned on your head
4 minutes of silence pass, except for the low music playing from the speakers, and the car's engine.
“Is everything good?” He asks, eyes flicking between you and the road ahead
“What– yeah of course, why wouldn't it be.” You say quickly, fingers toying with the hem of your jean skirt.
He doesn't buy it.
Your brows furrow in confusion when he pulls over, looking at him as he puts the car and park “What are you doing-”
“Tell me what's wrong” he says, hand still on the steering wheel, but eyes on you
“Nothing's wrong?” You feel that familiar heaviness on your chest
“Y/n. you can't even look at me, did I do something?” He asks, knuckles white from how hard he's gripping the steering wheel
“You can tell me whatever it is-”
“Why do you talk to me?” You ask, finally looking at him
“I..I just don't understand– all the sudden it goes from you not even looking at me, and then you're asking to be tutored by me, and then you invite me to your game, and then im in your car-” you continue, your heart beat rising with how much words you're saying in one breath. He doesn't interrupt you.
“And I really didn't think you needed to be tutored, honestly, you're one of the top students in our class- no, in our grade. But I did anyway, it honestly just feels like you pity me. Because why would someone like you want to be friends with someone like me– It just doesn't make any sense.” You stop, breathing in heavy breathes, too aware of how close he is right now, how he's looking at you.
“I don't pity you y/n. I like spending time with you.” He says, watching your face
“Fuck- I mean, I took the flyer and the tutoring because I wanted to spend that time with you- whenever I tried to talk to you any other way you just– blew me off?” He says, contemplating his words
He looks down at his hands before back up at you, noticing the way your features slightly soften
He lifts his hand to take the hat off your head, so he can fully see your face
“Why would someone like me want to be friends with you?” He repeats your question, you didn't realise how close you two got, faces nearly an inch away from each other
“I don't want to be friends y/n. I want more than that–I fucking crave more than that” His gaze drops to your lips, a silent question
“Jake-” You whisper out before he presses his lips to yours,you instantly melt at the contact, your hand finds the collar of his shirt, attempting to tug him closer over the center console, his hand holds the back of your head, threading his finger in your hair, he moves his lips against yours, slowly, testing, you follow his lead, letting go instead of taking control. He feels the way you let him, unable to hold the small groan that travels its way to your mouth through the kiss.
You pull back, breathing hard, opening your eyes to look at him, his lips have a slight shine from your saliva, he licks them before looking into your eyes.
You don't know what you're doing, you've never even done anything like this before, but the way he’s looking at you, like you absolutely wrecked him gives you a new found confidence.
You sit up, before moving to get over the center console, he just watches you as you settle on his lap, his hands immediately resting on your waist “y/n-”
“just kiss me” You say, and he doesnt hesitate before pressing his lips against yours, this time its lessed controlled, he doesnt hold himself back.
You wrap your arms around his shoulders, his hands are touching everywhere, sliding up and down your back, before cupping your ass in his hands making you gasp into his mouth, he swallows that down, tongue running over your bottom lip.
You feel the heat pooling between your legs, shifting slightly, which makes him let out a broken sound before looking down, the way your skirt is riding up, how you’re sitting right on his hardening cock, he looks back at your face, kissing the corner of your mouth before he pulls you on him more, the friction making you let out a quiet sound– he needs to fucking hear it again, and you need to feel it again.
It starts off slow, testing, in the way you roll your hips on him, you watch him throw his head back “Fuck, baby-” You grind down a little harder, in response to the name, he rolls his hips with you, the seam of his jeans catching your clit just right through your underwear, enough to make you let out small sounds that has his eyes rolling
He leans in to kiss you again, hands splayed on your ass to pull you impossibly closer, the kiss is desperate, frantic, tongues moving together in a rhythm like you were made for each other, there's no leader, no follower, this is just- the two of you.
“J-jake–” you let out, biting your lip when he grinds up, hitting the perfect spot, hes pulling you against him, controlling the way your hips move, fingers digging into the soft flesh through your skirt, He slides his hand underneath the denim fabric, to really feel you, groaning into your mouth at how warm and soft you are in his hands.
“You’re going to kill me-” You both freeze when a loud ringtone comes from his phone.
“Shit- I forgot about the plans” he says, looking at his phone
Jay: Dude where the hell are you
Jay: Im srsly abt to order with out you
Sunghoon: we got u and y/n waters
Jay: -Missed call-
“We should probably-”
“Yeah”
The warmth of your body is removed like a flash when you sit back down in the passenger seat, fixing your skirt, he tries to ignore the way his dick is throbbing in his jeans right now. Instead he watches you, the flush on your cheeks, the small smile that's barely noticeable
“What?” You say through a chuckle, noticing his stare
“Im just really lucky” He says, before putting the car into drive and getting back on the road, even when you two get out of the car, walking into the restaurant, you’re still thinking about what he said.
Because no one has ever told you they were lucky to have you.
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The next week of school is fun, and easy. You still decide to tutor Jake, because he said it really helped him.
Even if it did lead to small kisses, you definitely weren't complaining. People still look at you two when you walk together in the hallway, he even invited you to sit with him in the caferitria with his friendgroup, they are actually really nice to you.
The best part is seeing Gigi and Jay argue, it's like having your own show to watch while you eat
You don't miss the way Heeseung and Lyla look at each other, or when coincidentally the both of them are late for lunch.
Under the table, Jake's hand is splayed across your thigh, everytime he laughs he squeezes it slightly, which makes you try and close them, but he notices. He notices everything when it comes to you.
“..And not to mention Gigi’s parents bought the good ice cream” Lyla says, practically about to burst from excitement
“Okay so it's like a pool party then?” Sunghoon says, raising his eyebrow
“Well, just like with us though.” Gigi says
“Im not trying to have half the school trash the house, especially when mom and dad get back tomorrow.” She adds, you watch Jay nod
“Im in” Heeseung says, turning to watch Lyla “Perfect! What about you and Jake?” She says turning to you both
“Yeah im down” he smiles before looking at you
“Um- Ill have to check, but ill text you when I get home” You say, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear
“Okay, perfect!” She squeals
“Just come over any time after school then” Jay says
You nod before glancing down at your phone, re reading the message from your mom
Mom: Me and Chris decided to stay a little longer, you have enough money for food still right?
Jake watches you “Are you okay?” he says, quietly so no one else can hear
“Oh yeah- im fine” You say, putting your phone down and smiling
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“I can't do this.” You say as soon as you close Gigi’s bedroom door behind you
They both look at you as you pull out the bathing suit from your tote bag, you watch Gigi cover her mouth to stifle a laugh
“You can’t be serious” Lyla says, standing up to take the middle school one piece swimsuit from your hands
“This thing is hideous” She holds it up in the air
“Im not one to judge but you absolutely cannot wear that y/n” Gigi says, standing up to look at it closer
You bury your face in your hands, sitting down on her bed
“I brought like 5 different bathing suits, plus Gigi has a shit ton, and you are most definitely borrowing one.” Lyla says, emptying her bag on the bed, you glance at the small strings, and shapes before looking up at her
“What? I wanted to bring my slutty ones, I thought Heeseung would like them” She says smiling proudly
“And im sure jake will” She adds, wiggling her eyebrows
“You’re so ridiculous Ly” Gigi mutters before tying her hair in a bun
You pick up a red triangle bikini top, and Lyla nods
“Good choice, these are the bottoms” She says, holding them up
“These are bottoms? Like swimming bottoms?” you say, taking them from her hand
“Yup! Just try it on at least” She smiles sweetly, waiting for your approval, you nod
“Come downstairs when you’re done okay?” Gigi says, opening her bedroom door.
You look at yourself in the bathroom mirror, The bathing suit fits well, it's just..small. Like if you make one wrong move you'll definitely flash someone. You turn around to see how it looks from the back, not completely terrible- just a bit cheeky?
You think Jake might like it, not to mention the fact that you chose the red one because he mentioned he liked that color.
You pause when you hear the sound of male voices, they must be here. You take one last look at yourself before opening the door and almost getting knocked to your ass when you collide with something hard
“Shit- y/n?” You look up, Jake–Your eyes take in his form, the swim trunks, the white tank top perfectly stretched across his chest. His hair, messy, yet perfectly styled, before looking at his face. He’s smiling down at you
You're suddenly aware that you're practically half naked in front of him, You weren't even planning on going in the water, except for your feet–you need to grab your shorts and put them on “I was just uh, I just need my shorts–”
His hand trails down your shoulder, grabbing your hand before placing it on his chest, over his heart, you feel the fast beats of it, almost in sync with how quick yours is "You're making me nervous” he whispers, he takes a step forward so he's in the bathroom with you, shutting the door behind him softly
He leans down, pressing a soft kiss to your lips, testing to see your reaction before he pulls back to look down at you, you put your hands on his shoulders before leaning to kiss him again, he reacts immediately, hands on you the second you touch him, his hand starts at your waist before moving down to cup your ass in his hand, you gasp at the feeling, he kneads the flesh in his hands, squeezing it while kissing you deeper “You look so fucking good baby” He says through heavy breaths, looking at your face
He moves until your pressed against the counter, before lifting you up on it, your legs spread slightly to make room for him, while keeping your lips on his.
The kiss is messy, desperate, his hands are on your hips, and you let out a muffled sound when he presses his hips against you, you feel it, the hardness of him against your thigh, you pull back to see the desperate look on his face, the way his cheeks are slightly red, his lips looking even more plump from your kisses
He takes his right hand from your waist, splaying it on your thigh, before he looks into your eyes, you nod.
You watch his hand inch higher, grazing your inner thigh, his finger tip brushes your core, making you shiver at the contact, he watches you intently before pressing his fingers against you, making you let out a shaken breath
Leaning in to brush his lips across your jaw, before slipping his fingers underneath the waistband of the bathing suit bottoms, finally feeling your warmth “Fuck, you’re so wet–” He says, looking down before kissing your neck, softly, reassuringly
He starts with small circles around your clit, testing to see what makes you feel good, your legs spread wider when he does small figure eights on your clit, hands braced on his shoulders as he presses open mouthed kisses to your neck, trailing up to your ear
His middle finger brushes your entrance, lightly, while his other hand comes up to move the hair out of your face
“Have you ever been fingered y/n?” He asks, voice low, watching the way your chest falls and rises, you shake your head “Do you want to be?” He says, biting his lip “Y-yes, I want you to, Jake” He presses his hard cock against your thigh, groaning at the permission
He connects his lips to yours, you let him in instantly, tongues dancing together before he slowly guides his finger in your entrance, “breathe baby, you're so tight” he whispers against your lips, you close your eyes when his finger goes deeper, making you let out a quiet moan, his single digit stays there, embraced by your warmth before he curls it slightly making you whimper in his mouth “Jake– “ you let out through a wispy breathe
He moves his thumb to circle around your clit, in lazy motions “can you take another, baby? It’ll feel even better” kissing your cheek softly, you nod and he pulls out his finger, before inserting two digits, making you let out a desperate sound at the stretch.
He kisses you, in attempt to quiet you down, before moving his fingers in and out of you, curling inside, rubbing your clit with practiced ease
Seeing you like this, overhwemled by the pleasure he’s bringing you could make him come right now.
“You’re so perfect baby- this pretty pussy’s taking my fingers so well” He whispers, the filthy things making you clench around his fingers, he adds more pressure to your sensitive bud, “j-jake im gonna-“
“You gonna come for me baby?” slightly picking up the pace his fingers are moving, fucking them in and out of you.
Your moans are only getting louder, he move his other hand to cover your mouth, muffling them so the others don't hear down stairs, he feels your hole fluttering around your fingers, so he moves them even faster, making it his life fucking goal to have you come from this
His eyes dont know what to focus on, switching from the way your tits slightly bounce, to the way his fingers disappear inside you, or to the way you’re looking at him, the dazed half lidded look, he presses against your clit just right, making you clench hard on his fingers as you ride your orgasm out, moaning into his hand, your juices coating his fingers and dripping out, he brings his hand back down from your mouth, watching the way your breathing slows, before pulling out his fingers, the loss of contact making you whimper with how sensitive you are
He brings his fingers up to his lips, locking eyes with you before putting them in his mouth, sucking your arousal off, the sight makes you let out a breathy sound, you can feel your pussy throbbing at the sight from exitement
You’re blushing from the filthy act, he brings his lips to yours capturing you in a kiss, you can slightly taste your arousal on his tounge “You’re so beautiful–” you both freeze when a knock on the bathroom door slices the moment in half
“Jake are you in there man? We’re trying to choose pizza toppings– the girls said they dont care whats on the pizza, they just went outside claming they didnt want to ‘waste tanning time’ I dont know-” jay rambles on
“Yeah im in here, ill be down in a sec” Jake says, forehead resting on yours before he pulls back
“Alright- and if you find y/n tell her to come down too” Jay adds
You and Jake listen to the sound of retreating footsteps
“We should probably go down there” he says, pulling back and helping you get off the counter
“Yeah i just need to get some shorts-” You watch as he pulls your bottoms back up, adjusting them before leaning down to press one more kiss to your lips
“I’ll see you in a few minutes” He says with that familiar smirk on his lips, before walking out and shutting the door behind him, he leans against it for a second, still trying to process what just happened, before adjusting his extremely hard cock in his bottoms, and making his way downstairs.
You look in the mirror, pressing your fingers against your lips, the feeling of him kissing you lingering. Your body is still burning from the aftermath of your orgasm. You fix your hair in the mirror, going back to Gigi’s room to put on your shorts
And finally making your way down the stairs, you pause halfway when you hear Heeseung's voice
“Who y/n?” You hear him say
“Who else dumbass?” Sunghoon replies
They're talking about you. instead of going downstairs you stay there, just to see what they're saying
“Have you told her?” Jay asks
“No–I can’t fucking tell her that”
“Yeah you’re cooked” heeseung says flatly
Cooked?
“I really like her, And not in some casual hook up way okay? I don’t know whats going on, and im confused because ive never felt this way before about someone–” Jake says, breathing hard
“Shit-” You hear his friends say
“I dont give a fuck about some dumb bet, it was stupid of me–”
Your heart drops. Bet? What does he mean by that?
“God- Why couldn't you just go after her like a normal person” jay says frustratingly
“You realise she’s gonna fucking hate you if you dont tell her” he adds
You walk further down the stairs, watching the way all four of them look at you
“W-what bet” You let out, hating yourself for stuttering
Jake's face drops in realization that you heard that, you don't even look at his friends, the ones who made you think they actually liked you. You just watch him. It was all just some play–
“What bet Jake?” you say again, trying to calm your heartbeat, as he walks over to you, reaching for your hand
You swat his hand away “dont fucking touch me” and he flinches at that, hardly visibly. But he does.
“Y/n-” He starts, you watch as the back porch door slides open, Gigi and Lyla walking in, with confused looks at the way everyone’s frozen in place, before their gazes fall on you
“Im going home. I- I can't do this” You say, suddenly too aware of how everyone is looking at you, unable to even look in Jake's eyes, you turn around for the front door, Jake calls your name again but you don't hear it.
Not over the sound of your heart, not over the ringing in your ears.
You can't speak when it feels like someone has a wire around your throat and you can't breathe.
You shut the front door behind you, sitting on the stairs immediately, trying to calm yourself, trying not to cry. You can't cry. Not here.
You don't look behind you when you hear the door open and shut, please don't be Jake.
“Y/n do you want me to drive you home?” you let out a relieved sigh when you hear Gigi’s voice, before standing up and nodding.
Gigi knows you, she knows you don't want to talk right now, so instead of pushing you, she turns up the music, looking at you every now and then as you stare out the window.
“You all can eat shit” Lyla says looking at the four boys in the kitchen
“Espeicially you Heeseung, for not fucking saying anything.” She says before looking at Jake
“Ly-” Heeseung starts watching Lyla walk over to Jake
“How could you do that to her? You’re fucking terrible.” She says before storming upstairs, leaving the four of them
“I need to do something- I need to call her” Jake says pulling out his phone, Jay stop his hand
“She needs space Jake.” He says, watching him as he lowers his phone
“Fuck.” Is all he says, because Fuck himself for being so stupid, fuck him for hurting you, fuck him for not telling you sooner, if anything he doesn't deserve your forgiveness.
But the least he can do is try.
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You cried as soon as you got home. You held it until Gigi drove off, she offered to stay but you never have people actually come inside.
Part of you regretted it, because you wish you had someone to hold you, even as you crumbled to the floor as soon as you shut the front door.
But you have no one. Not even you’re own mother, whose out with her new boyfriend, living her best life and leaving you in the past, like always.
Later that night you try and rememebr anything—how could you not see through it, of course it was some bet. He didnt mean anything he said to you, and you were stupid to think the most popular guy in the school wanted to ‘spend time with you’
Even as you shower, the memory of his hands on you not even 24 hours ago is still jarred in your mind, the reassuring touches, the praise.. But it was all just fake.
You couldnt sleep. For good reason. Every time you tried to close your eyes, your mind kept going back, trying to over analyze the situation, trying to think of an excuse.
It was 12:49 when you got the message
Jake sim: Y/n, im so sorry
Jake sim: Don’t shut me out
Jake sim: Please
Jake sim: Baby
Your press your hand to your chest, like it would stop the painful feeling in your heart.
You never answered him. After tossing and turning for what felt like hours, you finally fell asleep, you didn’t bother checking the time you did, because you knew you would just pity yourself.
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On Monday, you’re not the first one in class. Jake was. He sat in his seat next to yours, eyes flicking from your desk to the door, waiting for you to come in.
As soon as you walk in, he sits up straight, watching you walk, not towards the seat next to him but to some random one in the second row, where the guy who never shows up would sit.
He watches you take your stuff out of your bag, he looks down at the way your leg bounces, he hates himself because he knows he’s the reason you’re so fucking anxious right now.
The teacher talks like its any other day. Of course she would, she’s not going to stop the school day because he fucked up. When the bell rings you’re the first one out, he goes to call your name but stops when you rush out of the door.
“I almost beat Jay’s ass, like actually.” Gigi says before taking a bite of the cafeteria sandwhich
“Mom and dad nearly crashed out when they came home and saw I already was pulling his hair” She adds
“Can he stop fucking staring already” Lyla says, looking at you then at the table 3 rows behind where Jake was looking right at you
“Im going over there” Jake says to his friends
“Uh no dude- you’re fucking not” Sunghoon says, tugging him back down by his shoulder
Jake shrugs him off before getting up to walk over to you, ignoring the exaggerated sighs from his table
“Oh shit” Gigi mutters
“He’s like actively walking over here y/n” Lyla adds
You turn your head slightly to see him walking towards you, before standing up
“Im going to the bathroom.” You say, grabbing your bag and moving towards the door
Jakes steps falter when he watches you get up, he wants to yell at you, tell you to stop walking away from him so bad. But he knows that would make it worse. He doesn’t look at Lyla and Gigi before turning around and going back to his table.
His friends are silent when he sits down, the usual snickers, or comments don’t come.
You set your bag down by the sink, bracing your hands on it, looking in the mirror, “don’t cry, don’t cry” you whisper to yourself
“I mean I don’t get whats so fucking special about her, shes just like normal-“ You pause when you see two girls walk in, blonde, Clara.
“Well look who it is” She says walking further in, her friend beside her
“Jakes little slut” She coos, looking you up and down judgementally
“Im not-“ You start but she cuts you off
“I want you to stop talking to him.” she says, crossing her arms over her chest
“Clara-“ her friend starts
“No, this bitch needs to fuck off my man”
“You can have him.” You say, voice low
They look at each other confused
“I said you can have him.” you say, louder
“Just leave me alone.” you mutter, putting your bag over your shoulder
“The fuck-“ she starts when you walk past her before pulling you by your bag strap
She pulls your bag off your shoulder, making it fall to the ground with a thud, you don’t turn around.
You wait for the hit. Because you’re used to this, You close your eyes, tight. Trying to block off everything, when you hear Lyla
“What the fuck are you doing Clara?!” She yells, Gigi following in beside you
“Just teaching this bitch a lesson to not mess with my man-“
“Your man?” Gigi says with a scoff
“You need a fucking reality check because he does not want your ass” She adds, picking your bag up from the floor
Lyla comes infront of you “Y/n are you okay?” you nod, not because you’re okay, but because you have to be.
You block out the sound of them arguing, taking your bag from Gigi before walking out. Of course this would happen to you, and of course you’re running away.
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You dont talk about what happened the next day, they dont bring it up either.
They were laughing at something on Lylas phone when you got a text
Jake Sim: Are we still on for tutoring?
Jake Sim: In the library right?
You look back for a split second, over your shoulder to see him looking at you, his phone in his hand, you turn back around almost immediately, typing out a response, deleting it and typing it again
You: -Sent contact-
You: If you need tutoring so bad, he does Tuesdays too. Stop texting me.
You shut off your phone, putting it in your pocket, he watches.
Its like everything around him is silent. He cant fucking focus, coach even gave him shit for not doing good at practice yesterday. He tries to act normal, but the affect you have on him isn’t something that can go away.
“Earth to Jake” Heeseung snaps in his face to get his attention
“Motherfucker thinks he’s Jeff buckley” Sunghoon says through a snort
“Brought it on himself” Jay shrugs
“I need to get drunk” Jake says, running his hands through his hair, something hes been doing often lately
“And laid” Heeseung adds
“I can’t think about fucking another girl right now” He says, checking his phone again in hopes you sent a message
“I mean I heard Jungwon’s throwing a party after the game on Friday” Jay says, looking at the group
“Who’s going?” Jake asks
“Shit—if its Jungwon then probably half the school” Heeseung says, rubbing his jaw
“You know what, why not. The alcohol better not be shit” Jake says, making them laugh
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“Please y/n! We can come pick you up and everything, I know you’re not going to be doing anything either” Lyla says through the speakers of your phone
“Yeah, Fuck him, you deserve to go out, for once?” Gigi adds
“We know you’re not all that party type but just this once! Plus Jungwons house is nice as hell”
“I don’t know guys—What if he’s there?” you say worried, unlocking the front door to your house and shutting it behind you
“If he was going, Jay would have said something. I know they have a game tonight so I doubt they’re gonna wanna go to a party.” Gigi says, opening a bag of chips
“Okay but what am I supposed to wear?”
“Do you wanna get laid?” Lyla asks
“What—no”
“Im just kidding, wear that one black skirt I let you borrow and those low rise jeans”
“I never even wore it though-“
“Exactly why its perfect! Well come get you at 10, love you bye!” Layla says quickly before hanging up
You listen for Gigi, but all you hear is the faint sound of her arguing, presumably with Jay, before you hang up and set your phone on the counter.
You dont go to parties, ever. But here you are stepping out of your comfort zone, maybe its good that you’re. Maybe you need a change.
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“Oh hell no.” Gigi says once you all walk into the house, it's almost as big as hers, but you're not paying close attention to it because right now. instead you're watching Jake take down a shot in the kitchen.
It smells like cheap alcohol and sweat. The place is packed, you take your eyes off him and look around, you recognize faces you've seen around campus, and some you haven't
You watch as Gigi storms over to the kitchen to Jay “What the fuck are you doing here?” She asks Jay who looks at her like she has 2 heads “What am I doing here? Jungwon is my friend” He says back, you and Lyla walk over to the kitchen, following her.
You don't look at him. You can't look at him, but you can feel his eyes on you.
“I’ll tell mom and dad you ass-” Gigi starts
“Oh but that means they'll know you were here too” He says, faking a pout
“Shit” She replies, looking at you and Lyla
“Fine, truce.” She says, grabbing 3 red cups
You watch Jay hold out his hand, but she swats it away rolling her eyes before pouring whatever is in the bottles on the counter into the cups
“Drinks?” She says, handing you and Lyla the cups
“Please and Thank you, I need to find a hot guy to make out with” Lyla says taking the cup
“Im right here babe” Heeseung smirks, stepping closer to her
“Literally anyone but you” She says, walking away from the kitchen, you watch as he follows her
You hesitate a beat before taking the cup from her hand, Jake doesnt miss the way your eyes flick over to him for a split second
“Y/n can we-” He starts before a familiar obnoxious voice flows in the kitchen, Clara.
You watch as she walks in the kitchen, wearing practically nothing before she comes to his side, wrapping her arm around his.
“I think you have your hands full Jake.” You say before walking over to the living room with Gigi
“Get the fuck off me Clara” He says, moving his arm
Sunghoon and Jay both look at him with annoyed expressions on their faces
“Why Jakey? She said I can have you” Clara says, words slurred from the amount of alcohol she's consumed
“What?” He pushes her back, not to hurt, but enough for her to get off of him
He walks over to Gigi, glancing at Lyla and Heeseung who are practically eating each others faces on the other couch “Wheres y/n” He says, tone serious in a way that has Gigi sitting up
“Why-”
“Tell me where she is Gi, im not fucking around.” he says, watching Gigi point to the back porch
You turn around when you hear the door behind you open, leaning against the railing
“What are you-”
“Y/n- Fuck, please let me talk okay?” He says closing the door, the music and talking inside becoming a sound in the distance
“Jake, I can't right now” You say, looking down at your shoes as he walks over
“Please” His voice comes out slightly whiner than intended
“Baby, please look at me” He pleads, his composure gone. He’s done acting like he's okay with you avoiding him
You shake your head
He lets out a defeated sigh, you think he's going to walk away, give up.
You watch him lower himself to the ground getting on his knees just so you will look at him instead of the ground
“Y/n please listen to me” He looks up at you, his eyebrows furrowed together, his pupils are blown. He can’t believe hes actually fucking doing this.
When you don't say anything, the words spill out faster than he can catch up
“Im so sorry baby– Im an asshole and I hate myself for what I did, I should have just told you from the beginning about the bet-” he cringes at the word “-It was selfish of me and I understand why you don't even want to look at me, let alone talk to me.-“
“-But I like you, so fucking much, Ive never felt like this before, but you changed that for me. You’re smart, you’re fucking gorgeous, you’re too kind for your own good, and I want you so bad, I want you so fucking bad my chest hurts at the thought of not having you. Everything I said in the car that night was true. I like spending time with you and I don't want to be friends, because what I feel for you isn't friendship–” He stops, trying to catch his breath, looking up at you, searching your face for any reaction, any response
Your hand is shaking when it comes up to his face, slightly brushing his hair out of the way “I..” You close your eyes before opening them again, “I really like you too Jake. But you hurt me, I let you in and it feels like it was all just some trick.” You say, trying to hold the tears threatening to fall from your eyes
“No baby–It wasn't a trick, please, everything I said to you I meant it–” He leans forward resting his head on your stomach before looking back up at you
“Every touch, I meant it.” His hand comes up to hold your waist, before he stands up, looking down at you, placing his finger under your chin, before running his thumb along your bottom lip “Every word” His other hand pulls you closer to him “Every kiss.” He whispers, leaning down, lips grazing over yours “I meant it all.”
You're breathing against his mouth, hearts beating the same rapid pace “And I want it all–so bad, I want all of you y/n, I don't want you to hide from me, I don't want you to run” He says, cupping your face in his hands, closing his eyes and resting his forehead against yours
“Please-”
“I want it too Jake” You whisper
His eyes fly open, searching yours, before leaning down and pressing his lips to yours, taking you slightly by shock with how desperate it is, his left hand slides from your face down to your waist, holding you close, like you would slip away if he let go.
He pulls back, just to see the look on your face, a single string of saliva keeping you two connected before he kisses your neck, whispering small “im sorrys” as he trails his lips along your jaw, making you let out breathy sounds that have him weak.
He captures your lips in a kiss again, tongue exploring your mouth in the way he’s been dreaming about ever since you started avoiding him.
He feels his cock hardening, he remembers the way he fucked his fist at the thought of having you like this again.
“Fuck–” He breathes out, before biting your lip lightly, making you let out a small whimper. “I.. I need you baby, please” He says, bringing his hand down to softly caress your ass in your jeans, you bring your hand up to pull him closer by the collar of his shirt to kiss him again before he pulls back “Not here.” He whispers, voice low, looking into your eyes with such intensity it has your knees weak.
With the way you're looking at him right now, he wants to do it now.
But he’s not having sex with you at some dumbass house party. He can't help the smirk on his face when you whine as he pulls away, grabbing your hand and leading you back inside, you don't look at anyone except him, as he guides you through the crowd, his hand clasping tight in yours, until you reach his car.
“What street do you live on?” He asks, looking at you, before pulling out onto the road, you hesitate, he notices “Y/n, no hiding” He says, putting his hand on your thigh. “167 EN drive” you reply back quietly, part of you hoping he wouldn't hear. But you remind yourself of the words he said earlier, he wants all of you, he said he craves it. So that’s what he'll get.
You watch his face as he pulls in your drive way, looking at your house. You don't see the look of hesitance, or disappointment you were expecting.
Your anxiety boils down when he steps out of the car, and comes to your side to open your door for you. “You’re not disappointed or anything?” You ask, voice slightly shaky
“Dissapointed?” He asks, genuinely confused
“I mean, my mom just doesn't make a lot– I know its not a good area to live in either-”
“Y/n, do you think I'd judge you for something as small as where you live?” He asks, shutting the passenger side door
“I just thought-”
“No. I’d be a fool to think like that. Nothing you do could make me judge you, the idea of doing that in the first place disgusts me.” He says, hand rising to brush his thumb on the side of your face, waiting for you to invite him in. He wants you to, he wants the reassurance that you trust him.
You walk to the front door, grabbing the key hidden under the mat before unlocking it, and stepping inside. You cringe at the slightly peeled paint on the walls, but also thankful that having the house to yourself means it's actually clean for once. He shuts the door behind him, watching the way you look around, the insecurity showing in your body language. He turns you around to face him, pulling you close before tilting your face up.
You look between his eyes and his lips before leaning up slightly, your lips grazing over his, before he speaks “tell me how bad you want this, tell me you want it as much as I do” He whispers, even though no one can hear him but you.
“I want it Jake– I want it so bad, I just want you..” you breathe out, and he closes the small space instantly, the feeling of your heart beating, the thrill of his lips on yours will never get old.
He lets you guide him to your room, before shutting the door behind him, he pulls back looking down at you. The needy look on your face as you try to catch your breath.
The room is dimly lit, the moon is bright from the clear sky, illuminating you, allowing him to see every emotion that flashes across your face.
He steps closer to you, hand coming to your waist, his thumb making small circles near the hem. You nod, and he slowly lifts your shirt above your head, eyes dropping to your chest, he can't help himself when his hand comes up to cup your tit in his hand, kneading the soft flesh through your bra. “Youre so beautiful” He says, guiding you until you land on your bed, He follows, on top of you in a second, pressing a gentle kiss to your lips, it’s careful, timeless.
You kiss him back, lips desperately grasping onto each other as his hand trails down your stomach to the waistband of your jeans, your breath hitches, he pauses looking down at you “can I take these off?” He asks, “y-yes” you manage to let out, not sure how you can even get out words when he has you like this.
He unbottons your jeans, sitting up to slide them down your legs, throwing them on the floor before looking at you, taking you in, trying to savor this in his memory.
He watches the way your legs close, stopping them with his hand "Don't hide from me.” He says, pushing them open, looking down at the way your underwear sticks to your pussy, biting his lip at the sight, you let out a soft whine at being exposed like this, because no one has ever seen you this way, this vulnerable.
He presses a kiss to your neck, “Have you thought about this before?” He asks, tongue flicking on a new found sensitive spot under your ear, you nod. He lets his hand trail down your body before cupping your clothed cunt in his hand, you let out a quiet moan at the contact.
“Did you touch yourself thinking about it?” He kisses the spot under your ear, pulling the honesty out of you.
Your mind goes back to that night he kissed you in the car, how you made yourself come on your fingers at the memory of his hands on you later that night– “yes.” You say, the honesty makes him smile against your neck
“Can you show me?” He whispers, sitting up again, watching the way you willingly trail your hand down your body, slipping your fingers inside the waistband of your panties to brush your soaking clit, closing your eyes.
You open them again when the bed shifts, watching Jake as he takes off his shirt tossing it on the floor beside your pants, before removing his own, you press harder on your clit when your eyes meet the bulge in his boxers, there's no way that's fitting in you. He watches your reaction, "I'll make sure you're ready for it baby” He says, palming himself. You slide your underwear off your legs, the fabric was making it hard to really touch yourself anyway.
Your hand slides back between your legs, circling your clit, the same way he did that time in the bathroom. “Fuck–” He hisses, squeezing his dick at the way your hand comes up to toy with your nipple through your bra.
You watch as he climbs back in between your legs, leaning down to kiss your lips, trailing down past your neck, leaving a trail of wet marks until his face is hardly an inch away from your pussy.
You move your hand to grip the sheets beneath you “Jake..” You watch as he looks up at you from in between your legs. He blows on your clit, watching the way your pussy clenches around nothing. He presses small kisses to your thigh, grazing over your sensitive bud with his plump lips. “You have no idea how bad I've wanted to do this” He says before pressing an open mouthed kiss to your soaking cunt, you let out a moan at the contact, hands flying up to touch his hair as he repeats the motion.
You didn't even know you could be this vocal, but with him, eating you out like a starved man, how could you not.
He flicks his tongue over your clit, practically drooling onto your pussy, before pressing soft kisses “Tastes so fucking good” He mumbles into you, the vibration making your hips buck, his hand come up to hold your stomach down, so you dont squirm as much.
You watch him, his eyes are closed, face expressing true pleasure, your juices coating the bottom half of his face.
He looks up at you, burying his nose in your pussy, letting the bridge of it pressure your throbbing clit before he sucks on it, mouth clasped around your pussy, flicking his tounge, swirling it, you tug his hair harder, but he doesnt care because this is just too fucking good.
“Oh my gosh-” You let out when his finger comes up to collect your juices seeping from your hole before inserting the single digit inside of you, the sound of your pussy squelching, and him groaning into you has your back arches off the bed when he curls his finger, his tongue flicking over your clit, before he adds another, you've never felt this good in your life, you watch him, the way his brows furrow in concentration as he brings the most pleasurable experience upon you.
He fucks his fingers in and out of you, curling them just right, while his lips suck on your clit greedily, he looks up for a split second at the way your head is thrown back, before shoving his fingers deep, dick throbbing at the way you clench around them, taking your clit in is mouth, and sucking it, hard. You grip his hair, pulling him impossibly closer as you reach your orgasm, your whole body shaking “Jake!” You scream out through a moan as your juices coat his face, soaking the bed beneath you. He greedily licks, and slurps everything you let out, not letting anything go to waste, before looking up at you. He pulls his fingers out slowly, watching the way your body trembles.
You bite your lip as you watch him sit up again, your arousal coating his lips, he runs his tongue along them, savoring every drop.
He slides his boxers off, his dick hitting his abdomen, thick, heavy, and a bead of pearly white pre-cum at the tip, you watch as he spreads it on his tip, stroking himself in his hand. “You wanna know something?” He asks, watching the way your eyes flick between his face and his cock.
You nod quickly, making him smirk. “Ive dreamt about this moment almost every night. I remember waking up–” He looks down at your bare cunt, continuing “To see that I fucking came in my sleep.” You can't help the small gasp that leaves your mouth at the confession, "That's not all.” He says, pulling you closer, unclasping your bra and tossing it on the ground.
You bite your lip as the crisp air that hits your nipples, his finger comes up to toy with the sensitive bud, looking at your reaction, the little gasps that leave your lips “I fucked my fist so many times–everytime I imagined it was your pussy” He whispers, leaning down, letting his lips graze over your nipple, making you let out a desperate sound
“I thought about how you’d react when I did this–” He says before sucking on your nipple, his hand toying with the other one between his fingers making you moan, uncontrolled, you feel the way his cock rubs against your inner thigh.
He sits up, guiding his cock to your entrance, coating his tip with your juices from your previous orgasm. He slides the tip in slowly, letting your pussy adjust to the size, groaning, “Baby, I need you to relax okay? Can you do that for me?” He asks, finger rubbing circles on your inner thigh “mhm” you breathe out, before closing your eyes, trying to make yourself less tense as he slides more of his length in you
“Fuck- youre so warm” He says, hand moving to your hips to steady himself before bottoming out, a wrecked sound leaving his lips at the way your pussy clenches around him.
He leans down, head resing beside yours before lifting to look at you “Im going to move now, can you take it?” he asks, voice strained, but gentle “Please–” You let out through a whimper, he brings his lips to yours before pulling out halfway and thrusting back into you, making you moan into his mouth at the stretch. His cock reaching places you couldn't even imagine with your fingers, the feeling of being so full is almost euphoric.
“It's like this pussy was made for me baby–you feel so good” He whispers, sliding out of you again, and then back in, hips moving in an agonizing slow rhythm that has you holding onto his biceps and panting desperately in his mouth.
“F-faster?” you manage to let out, making him chuckle lightly “You sure?” he asks, looking down at you and the way you nod frantically. His lips suck at your neck as he picks up his speed thrusting in and out of you, hips rolling, enjoying every sound you let out.
Your nails dig into his arms, your pussy squeezing around him “You close baby?” he asks, the moan you let out is enough for him to understand, “I wanna come in you while you come on my cock, please?” the begging tone in his voice making you let out desperate pleas, his mouth is back on yours, both of you completely lost in the pleasure of each other, moaning against each other's mouths before he thrusts into you, hard, your pussy clenches around him, grinding up and down as you ride your orgasm out, at the same time milking his cock, making him whimper against you, saying your name though it all.
He presses a soft kiss to your forehead, before slowly inching his cock out, his cum spilling out of your pussy, you both wince at the sensitiveness, he pulls back looking down at you
“Where's your towels baby?” He asks, voice soft, you point towards the second drawer of your dresser, he grabs one coming back over to you, kneeling down to clean you up, you admire him, the focused look on his face, he looks up at you smiling “What?” He says through a chuckle
“You’re just really cute when you're focused” He climbs up till he's laid next to you, pulling himself closer to your warm embrace, resting his face on your chest, making you let out a giggle before he looks at you
“I want to be your boyfriend y/n” He says, emotion raw in his tone
“W-what?” You're caught off guard by the question
“Can I be your boyfriend?” He asks, voice low, almost shy
“Please?” he adds
You smile, biting your lip “yes, you can” You whisper, he tilts his head to kiss you again, embracing your warmth, you pull back
“You’re not going to get me flowers or anything?” You ask brow raising
“Oh, you just wait for tomorrow” He smiles against your lips
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Jake left your house that morning, kissing you goodbye, and saying to be ready by six at the latest, you were already dressed at 5.
The second you hear a knock at the door you rush to get it, swinging it open, heart beating fast when you see him, holding a bouquet of flowers in his hand, with a smile on his face
“Jake–They’re so pretty” You smile, taking them from his hand
“You’re prettier” He says, pressing a kiss to your lips before taking your hand and dragging you to his car.
He covers your eyes with his hands when he makes you get out of the car “Y/n you better not peak” he says, tickling your ear with his mouth, guiding you somewhere
“Shit- dont trip” He says, kicking a rock out of the way
You let out a laugh at how stressed he is right now
“Okay, three, two..” He removes his hand from your eyes, adjusting to the light you look around, at the open field, the sunset turning a pink/ orange hue in the distant, before your eyes fall to the setting before you, you cover your mouth with your hand, smiling against it as you look at the picnic before you
The Jake Sim set up a picnic for you at sunset. you can't help but giggle into your palm, turning to look at him
“Its perfect Jake” You say throwing your arms around his neck, pressing a light kiss to his lips
He smiles proudly, taking pride in the fact that he’s able to please you like this
He helps you sit down, before coming next to you, watching the way you glow from the golden light on you.
“You’re telling me Heeseung, Jay, and Sunghoon made these?” You say taking a bite of the small strawberry shortcake, the flavors melting in your mouth
“Yeah, they spent all day trying to figure out how, finding recipes and stuff” He says through a laugh
“Said it was their own way of apologizing” He lifts his finger to wipe frosting from your chin, bringing it up to lick it, smiling at you
“Tell them they're going to have to make me 10 more batches of this, because it might just be the best strawberry shortcake to date.” You say, completely serious
“They were considering opening a bakery” Jake says through a laugh, that has you join him
As the sun sets, you lean on his shoulder, you’re not thinking about the stressful things in your life like you normally do in quiet moments, right now it's you and him.
And you're at peace with that, because you feel like you've finally found your person.
“Thank you y/n” Jake says, turning his head to look at you
“For what?” you ask, voice barely a whisper
“Forgiving me, letting me in, it means a lot to me. And I'm really glad you did.” He says, moving a strand of hair behind your ear
“Thank you” You say so quietly, he almost wouldn't be able to hear it, he tilts his head in question
“For being there for me, and accepting me.” You say softly, he smiles before he cups the side of your face in his hand pulling you closer, and kissing you, gently..lovingly.
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And if I wrote reader giving him head for the first time and he actually goes insane
hiii!! could you maybe do a morning sex with &Team? doesn't have to be rough or anything necessarily! i love your work!
warnings: morning sex, unprotected sex, nipple play, m and f receiving oral, riding, cumming inside, cum swallowing.
k…oh to have morning sex with k. i would never complain about anything again in my LIFE!! i feel like he’s just out like a light because he always works so hard during the day, so morning sex with him would be pretty lazy. he’d let you ride him slowly, pretty much just grinding your cunt back and forth on him. he’s happy to just let you do whatever you need to do to make yourself feel good. occasionally he’ll lazily thrust his hips up, loosely gripping your waist. “that’s it, baby, make yourself cum for me. doing so good.” you’d fall into his chest, and he’d bring his hand up to play with your hair or rub your back. you felt so safe with him, so domestic and happy. you’d cum with a cry of his name, stuffing your face in his neck. k doesn’t always cum, only when he actually wants to. he really just cares about whether or not you cum, always prioritizing your pleasure first. </3
fuma would get up very early, like still dark out, and get his day going while you’re still fast asleep. he’d do whatever he does for an hour or two—eat, workout, clean—and then he’ll check in on you again to see if you’re awake yet. some days he’ll crawl back into bed and cuddle you until you’re awake. other days, he’ll crawl back into bed, make his way under the covers, between your legs, and attach his mouth to your cunt. it was his favorite way to wake you up, and easily your favorite way to get woken up. sometimes, if you were really pent up, you’d wake up in the middle of your orgasm, your cunt clenching around his tongue and your legs shaking, and you’re so confused because you’re half asleep but cumming so hard :(. other times you’ll wake up and still have a few minutes to regain full consciousness, and actually get to enjoy the way he licks and nibbles on your clit before you’re cumming all over his tongue.
nicholas is ruthless </3. if he’s horny and you’re right there next to him, why the hell would he settle for his hand? if he’s not already spooning you, then he’d get into that position, pressing his cock against your ass and rutting shamelessly until it wakes you up. you’d be annoyed at first that he woke you up all just so he could get off, but your anger subsides quickly as soon as he enters you. that cock inside you makes you shut up REAL quick, and then all you could do is cry and moan softly as he fills you up, his thrusts slow and deep in the early hours. he sounds so pretty breathing heavily behind you, wrapping his arm around your waist to rub your clit. you’re both so sensitive that morning sex hardly ever lasts long. you cum first, wet and warm around his length, and his climax follows, where he dumps his load deep inside you and tucks your underwear back over your pussy, keeping his cum inside you. then rolls onto his back to catch his breath and falls back asleep lol.
ej is normally pretty shy and reserved about initiating sex, but in the morning…something takes over him </3. just feeling your sleeping, pliant body beside him, all warm and pretty, gets him so riled up. he’d run his hands up and down your body, feeling your smooth skin, pushing your pajama shirt up until it’s over your tits. exposed to the cool air, your nipples harden and euijoo just can’t resist anymore :(. he tilts his head down and attaches his mouth to one of your nipples, moaning as he sucks it between his lips. his hand rubs and pinches your neglected nipple, and it wouldn’t be long to get you to wake up. when you do awaken, he has you right where he wants you—needy and begging him to touch you, to eat your pussy, which he does happily, and ends the session fucking you back to sleep.
yuma really likes getting woken up to sexual favors. he loves waking up to you suckling on his tip, or rutting yourself against his thigh, or even positioning his cock against your hole. he can be a deep sleeper, and he cherishes sleeping in, so it’s usually you waking him up, and you never fail to get creative with it. but one day, one day you actually feel bad about waking him up, so you decide to just get the job done yourself. you bring a hand between your legs, rubbing your clit in little circles, and eventually you get so carried away that you don’t realize how loud you’re being. poor yuma ended up getting woken up either way, and he wasn’t pleased that you decided to do it without him. tiredly, he’d mutter something like “don’t bother doing it yourself, you know you need me.” and you’d just whimper because he was right, and he’d shove your hand out of the way, replacing it with his own and fingering you until you’re cumming all over his fingers.
jo surprisingly wakes up horny a lot. the only thing was that he would just be too shy to initiate anything with you. i mean, you’re sleeping so peacefully and prettily beside him. he can’t wake you just to fuck or get some head, so he usually opts to jerk himself off in the shower instead. but you knew this about jo, that more often than not, he woke up with a hard, aching cock. so one morning, you decided to surprise him. he’s asleep, but on the brink of waking up when you decide to pull his cock out of his boxers and take him into your mouth. you wrap your lips around his pink tip, licking up his precum before taking him down the rest of your throat. “oh, fuck,” he’d mumble, dazed as he slowly woke up. he’d be so, so sensitive in the mornings too. you swore it would only take about 2-3 minutes of sucking his dick before he was gasping and shooting cum down your throat.
pairing: ceo!hongjoong x barista!f!reader
genre: smut with plot.
warnings: smut MDNI, nicknames (joong calls reader "cookie", "pretty", "good girl" and "sweet girl"), dirty talk, swearing, oral sex (f!receiving), big dick!hongjoong, fingering (f!receiving), unprotected sex (don't do it!!!), squirting, after-care confessions. (please if there's any that are not mentioned here that you think should be, feel free to let me know!)
w.c: 2,4k
a/n: happy belated bday to the sexy captain! and also happy belated atiny day! i had planned to post this for joong's bday but this took me embarrassingly long to write.... but i hope you like it! please take into consideration that english is not my first language so if there's grammar errors or something feel free to let me know! NOT proofread.
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kim hongjoong is the CEO of 8M1T Entertainment, a successful businessman who frequently visited the cafe located directly in front of his company, A Destiny Cafe. not because he loved stepping out of his office, which was stacked with papers and reports that needed his attention, especially to pay for an overpriced, although very delicious, coffee and a cookie that he never seemed to order. but because you worked there. he had eventually learned your name, given how often he came, having always been greeted by you with a beautiful, half-dimpled smile while asking about his day.
"good evening, hongjoong-nim. how's your day today?" you'd ask him while already ringing in his order once he'd approach the register. he'd greet you back, your name rolling off his tongue in a way that made your spine shiver.
"my day's good so far, tired as always." he'd answer back politely, with a disarmingly handsome smile, while handing you his black card the same way he did every day.
"hopefully it'll be sweeter after your coffee" you'd say every day, with a beautiful smile and a soft voice that made his cock twitch in his pants.
he couldn't deny it; he had liked you since the moment he laid eyes on you. even in your barista uniform, your hair was most times styled carefully in a half-up half-down, your long hair falling down your shoulders. at the same time, some strands carefully framed your face, which always made his hand itch with the want to tuck them behind your ear or to pull your hair tightly so you could see him while he fu-.
"hongjoong-nim? your coffee is ready." you said, waking him up from his trance. he picked up the coffee and the chocolate chip cookie you had given him for free like every day. at first, he tried to return the sweet treat or tried to pay for it, but all requests fell on deaf ears, always trying to excuse yourself, saying that you were busy and'll ring him up in a little bit, and other times just flat-out refusing, saying he looked like he needed a sweet treat.
"r-right. thank you, cookie." he replied, calling you the nickname he had given you because of the one you kept giving him every day. and with a bright blush on your cheeks you kept working, stealing glances at him every once in a while, your lip tight in between your teeth as you'd see him focusing on the papers and his laptop screen, which he had brought with himself today, having too much to catch up on to leave it all in his office.
almost two hours had passed, and hongjoong continued in the cafe, working and laser-focused on his reports. not even noticing how you were the only person in the cafe besides him, the rest of the workers having finished their shifts and left, leaving you behind for closing. you quietly brewed two coffees, walking towards hongjoong's table, expertly balancing both cups and a chocolate chip cookie, leaving them in the small space of the table that wasn't covered by paperwork. "hongjoong-nim. i'm sorry to bother you... but I figured you'd need another coffee." you offered softly with a warm smile.
he lifted his gaze slowly from his laptop screen, brows furrowed as he adjusted from the change in lighting to look at you, quickly smiling after processing your words. "thanks, cookie. her-" he started to reach for his wallet, but you interrupted him, placing a hand on his shoulder. "no need, the register is already closed, so this one's on me." you said with pink cheeks. "mind if I join you?" you asked quietly while feeling the warmth on your cheeks, only sitting down in the chair beside him once he nodded quickly.
"wow...you're too good to me..." he said, brows meeting his hairline. "and please, don't talk so formally to me, i've already given you a nickname. it's only fair you treat me more informally" he requested, with the same smile that always made you clench your thighs a little too hard.
fuck yeah, hongjoong was hot and more importantly, he was rich, which only made him even hotter. you had noticed him from the first day he set foot in the cafe, his hair a darker shade of orange catching your eye while you were ringing up a customer. since that day, you made it your personal mission always to be the one to serve him, ringing his coffee up and sneaking a chocolate chip cookie with his order every time he came to pick it up or you'd leave it at his table, refusing every time he tried to give it back or pay for it. "see it as a gift, for all of your hard work in whatever it is that you do" you said dismissively once, but you said it with such a beautiful smile and a warm voice, that hongjoong couldn't even get upset.
you giggled softly, your now loose hair covering slightly your face. "what should i call you, then?" you asked while tucking a loose strand behind your ear, and hongjoong's gaze landed on your face, appreciating the way your soft cheeks were tinted in a bright pink and how your sweet smile had some hint of teasing in it.
"you can call me however you want, cookie" he answered, smiling back at you, while trying really hard to maintain his composure and not fuck you on the spot, yet.
"how can i? i don't have your number" you asked again, your smile far more teasing now. and that only made Hongjoong's smile widen and his eyes darken slightly.
"you'll have to earn it, cookie" he said quietly, while leaning slightly towards you. "i can think of a way or two you can do so." he offered. the look in his eyes was one you hadn't seen before on him, and fuck did you like the way lust looked in his eyes.
his words only made you unconsciously close your thighs tighter, and a familiar heat pool low in your belly. "what is it?" you asked, feigning innocence, although the look in your eyes gave Hongjoong the answer he wanted.
you wanted him too.
"you'll have to come with me to find out. can you do that, cookie?" he asked as if he was asking a little child, before lightly tapping the space in the booth beside him. you nodded, quickly sitting down beside him. your bare thigh almost grazing the fabric of his black slacks. you felt as if hongjoong's eyes were burning holes in the skin of your thighs, barely covered by the fabric of the skirt you were now wearing, having changed out of your uniform. "you look so pretty, sweetheart" he said, his voice barely above a whisper while his fingers slightly grazed your soft skin. "can i touch you?" you nodded again while looking up into his eyes, your pupils blown and lips slightly parted, you heard him tut. "no, my cookie. i need you to use your words or what? are you thinking about my cock so much you're already drunk on it?" he teased, the tips of his fingers traveling up your thighs, getting close to the hem of your skirt.
"yes, joong. i want you to touch me." you said, voice barely there. and hongjoong was no one to deny you your wish. he quickly leaned in to kiss you, the hand that was on your legs fully wrapping around your inner thigh, his body turned slightly so he could kiss you comfortably while his free hand let go of the pen he was holding, and he wrapped it around the side of your neck, his thumb grazing slightly the skin of your jaw.
and you kissed like there was no tomorrow, until the clothes started getting in your way.
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you don't know how or when you got here, but here you were. in kim hongjoong's luxurious apartment, clothes scattered around the floor, legs spread, and his head in between them.
his tongue kept working wonders in your swollen bundle of nerves. Your fingers were tangled in his dark orange hair, tugging at it every time he licked over your clit.
"mmgh...joong, please..." you begged, your thighs closing around his head, although he was quick to open them back again. "please...i need you..." you managed to say in between moans while he continued lapping, sucking and licking your clit as if it was his last meal in the world.
"you have me right here, cookie" he said, condescendingly, while separating from your cunt just enough to breathe. "what more do you want?" he added, moving his hand from your thigh and bringing it to your slit, slowly tracing it up and down while waiting for your answer.
"f-fuck...i need you inside me, please." you pleaded, trying to move your hips towards him, looking for his touch.
"good girl. you just had to ask nicely, cookie." he praised, making a warm feeling flood your chest before he pushed his middle and ring finger inside you, making you shiver once you felt the cold metal from his rings come in contact with your warmth.
a loud cry left your lips as his tongue flattened against your clit once again, quickly licking and sucking around it, your fingers tugging on his hair slightly harder, which made him hiss and nip very carefully around your clit. "careful, cookie. you don't want to leave me with a bald spot." he joked before quickly diving back into your heat.
"joong...f-fuck! i'm so close" you breathed out after a couple of minutes of him finger fucking and eating you out. your face scrunched in pleasure as you felt that delicious coil in your belly, only for it all to dissipate in a fraction of a second. you opened your eyes slowly to see hongjoong getting up from the floor and quickly removing his slacks and his boxers.
your eyes were fully open by the time your gaze landed on his dick. he wasn't too thick, but he was big, big enough that you know you won't be able to get it out of your head until you have him again.
"i want you to cum around my cock, pretty." he said while slowly pumping his hard on while pressing it slowly into your folds, gathering enough slick to not hurt you, his tip kept rubbing against your clit in a delicious way. "can you do that for me?"
"hongjoong...please..." you cried out at the friction. "please, fuck me" you begged him, pushing up your hips to feel more of him.
"of course, cookie." he replied with a devilish smile, pushing his cock inside in a swift thrust. moaning at the tightness of your cunt and the way your body arched towards him.
his dick felt like heaven, pounding into your heat with a fast and rough rhythm, quickly building back up the pressure in your belly.
"fuck...you feel so- mgh... so good" you moaned, wrapping your arms around his neck to bring him closer, moaning loudly at the new angle, which allowed him to thrust into that spot that made you see stars.
he smiled again, feeling his own release close after a couple of minutes. he kissed you and your body like there was no tomorrow, nipping at your neck, your shoulders, and your collarbones, leaving soft red and purple marks that you'd worry about tomorrow.
"so tight for me. my sweet girl has been thinking about my cock for a while, hm?" he asked almost in a mocking tone, while still pounding into you ruthlessly. "you're so desperate to cum around my dick you're practically squeezing me" he teased before bringing a hand to his lips, sucking a little on his thumb and slipping it between your bodies, rubbing your clit deliciously. "go ahead, cookie. let go for me." he said while his free hand gripped your hip for support, his pace growing sloppy as his own release neared.
your eyes rolled to the back of your skull, your plush lips were parted, and your loud moans were music to hongjoong's ears, your erotic sounds only pushing his release closer. you came around him, hard, your slick gushing out of you and your cunt tightening around so deliciously that it made him moan, his pace faltering slightly. the cry that came out of your mouth was obscene, his name rolling off your tongue.
"fuck...you look so good like this, my cookie" he hissed, taking his hand out of your abused clit and wrapping it around the base of your throat. "so beautiful squirting around my cock" he cooed. "i'm going to fill you so good, my cum will leak out of you for days" he added, with his brows furrowed in concentration before his release came. hot, thick ropes of cum filling you up deliciously while his pace slowly came to a stop, his hips flush against yours.
"joong..." you breathed out, brain nothing but mush, and the only word in your mind being his name. he slipped out of you slowly, making you wince at the now cold fluid leaking down past your heat. he disappeared behind a door, making your brows furrow in confusion. he came back seconds later, a damp rag in his hand. "what are y-" you tried to say, but he quickly shushed you.
"let me clean you up so we can lay down for a bit, come on" hongjoong said in a sweet voice before leaning between your legs, carefully and slowly wiping your abused cunt, making you whimper slightly at the friction.
after he was done, he threw the now-dirty rag to the floor and lied down beside you, cradling you in his arms and covering you with the covers of the bed before whispering sweet nothings in your ear while he caressed your hair.
"wait, go back one?" you asked him, after one of the things he whispered in your hair sounded just like the thing you wanted to hear.
"you took me so well?" he replied, feigning innocence until you softly smacked him in the chest. "i really like you and i think you're beautiful?" he asked again, repeating the thing that made your cheeks flush.
"i really like you too, hongjoong." you replied, looking up to him and placing a soft kiss on his chin.
"does that mean we can have round two?" he teased, although you could see, and feel, he wasn't entirely joking.
"hongjoong!" you smacked his chest again giggling. "...only if it means i can have your number now."
pairing: park seonghwa x reader
word count: 2,3k
genre: smut with a sprinkle of plot 😽
warnings: smut MDNI, intentional lowercase, established relationship!, pet names (pretty boy, baby, sweet girl, needy girl, naughty girl, cockslut, good girl), slightly mean dom!hwa and subby!reader, reader is freakayyyyy, reader and seonghwa have sex recorded (not here btw!), oral (m and f receiving), hair pulling, multiple orgasms (f), dirty talking! (hwa is a fucking freak!), swearing...like a lot, unprotected sex (wrap it up!!!), p in v, desk sex, squirting, moany hwa. pls let me know if there's any more!!!!
a/n: hope you enjoy this one!! thank u for enjoying "earn it, cookie" so much! hope you all had a very merry christmas and happy holidays and y'all have a happy new year!
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the apartment was quiet, the faint hum of the refrigerator and the soft whispers of seonghwa muttering to himself as he studied being the only sounds that filled the apartment.
seonghwa was studying for his last final of the semester, and you were ovulating.
your boyfriend of almost three years knew that you were an absolute menace whenever your monthly cycle hit that week, when your fertility was at its highest and your horny-ness, even higher. even resorting to agreeing to let you use him whenever you needed to fulfill your needs.
and that's exactly what you were going to do.
you had been alone in your shared bedroom, scrolling through your gallery in boredom until you saw a particular picture of your boyfriend that ended up taking you to a particular locked album, which made your hand quickly travel down your pants and your mouth dry, aching for his cock in any way.
you resorted to watching a video you had both recorded previously. a video of you on your knees in between seonghwa's legs, as he gripped your hair in his hands and his own long black hair covered his face, letting you see only the knot of his brows furrowed in pleasure. safe to say your fingers were already toying with your bundle of nerves, all coated with slick and making lazy circles around it.
you continued watching, seeing how he threw his head back, the motion moving his hair out of his face and letting you see his mouth open in pleasure, letting out the filthiest moans as you clenched your thighs both in the video and in that moment around your hand.
oh, you needed him, and you needed him bad.
but you probably shouldn't bother him as he was concentrated on studying for his final.
but, you didn't need to distract him, right?
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seonghwa kept unconsciously muttering to himself, reading the information in his notes while he had his noise-canceling headphones on, completely blocking out any noise that could distract him. completely unaware of the way the door slowly creaked open and completely clueless to the way his girlfriend slipped through the room and got below the desk and in between his legs. he only noticed once he felt a pair of hands come in contact with the waistband of his sweatpants.
"fuck!" he yelped out, startled. quickly moving back the chair to see you crouched below the desk, your eyes a different kind of dark with a glow he knew too well, and your plush lips swollen from how much you'd been biting them.
"baby?" he asked, removing the headphones from his ears. "you scared the ever-loving shit out of me. what are you doing down there?" he asked, feigning cluelessness.
"i need you, and you're busy." you said matter-of-factly. "didn't want to distract you and keep you from studying, so i figured i would fulfill one of our fantasies" you added, you hands snaking up his thighs and landing again on the waistband of his sweatpants. "c'mon, keep studying, pretty boy." you encouraged him, making his dick, that was already hardening at the mere thought of you wanting to suck him off while he studied, twitch in his boxers.
"o-okay" he agreed with a shaky voice, trying to hold his composure. he slightly lifted his hips to allow you to pull down his sweats and underwear, which you did in a quick move, the fabric pooling at his ankles.
he took in a shaky breath, removed his headphones from around his neck, and placed them on the desk. he began reading his notes again, trying to ignore the soft kisses you were giving him on the plush skin of his thighs.
he tried really hard to concentrate, until a deep moan escaped him once he felt your warm mouth wrap around him. he gripped the edge of the desk, fighting the urge to sink his hand in your hair and push you down until you gagged on his cock.
you began lowering your head slowly, your tongue swirling around the underside of his shaft, feeling every vein on it until his head touched the back of your throat. you pulled back just as slowly, ripping a sharp breath from your boyfriend while he tried to continue reading.
your pace was slow, hollowing out your cheeks every time you sank down on him, your hand slowly moving up and down on what didn't fit yet in your mouth.
seonghwa's knuckles had gone white with how hard he was gripping the edge of the desk, hanging on for dear life, until your pace started quickening, a small moan vibrating around his cock that sent a jolt through his spine.
"fuck it." he muttered and tangled his hand in your hair, making you sink further down into him. "go deeper, baby." he moaned out, looking down at you at the same time you looked up at him, making you clench around nothing and whimper at the eye contact, sending the vibration straight to his dick.
you obeyed, of course, sinking down as deep as you could, the tip of your nose almost tickling the skin of his pelvis. "fuck. yeah, just like that." he moaned a little louder this time, his head falling back in pleasure, eyes rolling to the back of his skull while you began moving again, his hand still tight around your hair while helping you set a pace he enjoyed more.
you jaw was sore already, your thighs were as clenched as you could have them and you were pretty sure there was a little puddle of slick where you were kneeling on the floor, the beautiful moans your boyfriend let out from how good you were making him feel, almost making you cum completely untouched. you pulled back with a soft 'pop', your chest heaving, lips slick with spit and precum, and eyes glassy.
"holy shit, you look so sexy like that" seonghwa cried out once he looked down at you again, he pulled his chair back and patted his thighs. "c'mere, sweet girl. i'll make you feel good."
in a mere instant, you were straddling him, his hands quickly found a home in your thighs, slowly moving them up below your (his) giant t-shirt, grunting once he noticed you were completely bare under the fabric.
he kissed every inch of your body that was within his reach, grabbing your hands and leaving soft kisses on the back of each one, making you blush and squirm in his lap. he continued until the fabric of the shirt made it impossible to kiss more skin up your arms. then he moved to your face, he kissed your forehead, temples, cheeks, and the tip of your nose before kissing your lips deeply, swallowing the small whimper that escaped you.
once he pulled away from the kiss, he grabbed your hips and helped you sit on the desk, quickly removing the shirt from your body and taking his own off. he knelt down on the floor, coming face-to-face with your wet sex.
"hwa, please" you whimpered as he began kissing the inside of your thighs. "i need you, baby, please." you asked while your hands tangled in his hair, trying to inch him closer to your pussy.
"since you're asking so nicely" he said, words muffled in your skin as he licked up your slit, making you moan out while you threw your head back in pleasure, recreating the scene from the video you had been watching minutes earlier, only now the roles were reversed.
his tongue worked wonders on you, lapping at your bundle of nerves like it was his last meal. his lips closed around your clit, sucking on it in a way that made you cry out, your hands sinking in his hair, tugging at the —now short— black strands, only motivating him further to eat you out until you came undone on his tongue, and that you did.
"hwa. fuck! 'm close" you announced breathlessly, your hips now rutting against his face. "such a needy girl" he had whispered seconds ago, before burying his tongue in your sweet cunt, his nose rubbing against your abused clit.
your orgasm came crashing down on you like a tidal wave, overwhelming you with pleasure. your mouth fell open on a silent scream as seonghwa licked every single drop of slick that came out of you, until your thighs were shaking and closing around his head.
"naughty girl, you said you weren't going to distract me" he said with a small smirk while lifting off the floor and coming face to face to you, kissing your lips deeply, tongue dancing with yours, making you taste yourself on him. "you're just a dumb little cockslut, aren't you?" he whispered on the skin of your jaw before slightly nipping it, only being able to whimper at his filthy words in your fucked-out state.
his hands grabbed the soft flesh of your thighs and helped you move to the very edge of the desk, you wrapped your legs around his waist and kissed up his neck. "i am, just for you." you whispered in his ear with a soft moan once you felt the tip of his hard dick against your overstimulated clit. "please, fuck me, baby." you begged, your nails already leaving small crescent marks on the skin of his back. his beautifully honey skin already glistening with a slight sheen of sweat.
he wasted no time obeying, lowering one hand to help guide him into your warm cunt, a small moan leaving him once he began pushing inside slowly. "you feel so fucking good" he whined, his eyes closing and his head leaning forward, your foreheads touching. you both moaned at the same time once he was fully inside. he gave you just a second to adjust to him before he began moving, both of your mouths falling open in silent cries of pleasure.
his pace quickly turned ruthless, the papers on the desk sliding around and the same desk thumping against the wall, marked by his movements. your moans quickly filled the room. red, hot lines now adorned seonghwa's back, thanks to your carefully manicured nails.
"ffffuck, baby, please." you didn't even know what you were begging for; the only thing you wanted was him, and you wanted him deep in your pussy.
"look at you taking me so good" he moaned out, pulling back to see where both of you joined in the most carnal way possible. "pussy fuckin' made for me. i'm going to pump you so full of my cum you won't need me for the rest of the day. then you'll let me fuckin' study" he added with furrowed brows. however, there was not even a shade of anger in his voice. "little needy girl, can't even let her boyfriend study for his finals because she's such a cockslut" he grunted. at the same time, his pace began growing sloppy. you were too fucked out to form any coherent words, so you could only throw your head back and moan out his name in agreement to anything he said.
"yes! hwa– mmmmh" you almost screamed once his thumb started circling your clit at the same time he pounded ruthlessly into you.
"my pussy." he growled in your ear, pace relentless. at the same time, his moves turned erratic, his high approaching. "fuckin' made for me, right?" he asked you, grabbing a handful of the hair at the base of your head and yanking slightly, just enough for you to see him while he fucked you stupid. "answer me or i swear i'll fucking leave you like this" he threatened, his grip in your hair tightening.
"yes! yes! only made for you, hwa!" your words stumbled out in a rush, clenching your eyes shut while your face scrunched in pleasure. "please, 'm so close, baby" you begged, your cunt clenching around so deliciously you made him moan.
and your sweet boyfriend was never going to say no to his beautiful girl when she begged like that. he buried his face in the crook of your neck, pounding into you with such strength that you could hear the desk creaking beneath your body. he continued his movements on your clit, until your nails sank in the skin of his back, your mouth fell open in a high-pitched moan, and you came again, this time around his cock, hard. slick gushing out of you in spurts that landed on seonghwa's belly, the carpeted floor, and some droplets on the desk.
"fffuck, that's a good girl" he groaned, your pussy clenching around his cock so hard it triggered his release as well. his movement came to a stop slowly, his hips flush against yours, making you feel him painting your insides with thick, warm ropes of his cum.
he kissed your forehead and eased out of you, both whimpering at the loss. he helped you jump up from the desk to wrap your thighs around his hips, taking you to your bedroom. he cleaned you up and layed down with you, kissing your hair and whispering sweet nothings into your skin until you fell asleep in his arms.
he eased his way out of the bed and walked slowly to his study room, careful not to wake you up. he put his clothes back on and sat down on his chair, letting out a soft laugh once he picked up his notes, noticing the now dried droplets of your arousal in the paper.
"i need to have study sessions more often if it's going to end up like that" he giggled to himself, leaving the notes in his desk and going back to bed with you.
content/warnings: smut so 18+ MINORS DNI!, edging, confessions (while very delirious), friends to ???, a pretty tame drabble tbh, I think that's it? If I miss something, lmk!
author's note: inspired by this tumblr post, I wanted to do something short to get my feet wet and get my San muse ready sooooo have this <3 Prob my last writing piece of this year, I hope you enjoy! Pardon any typos, I'm only human lol
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You weren't quite sure what to call this arrangement you and San had.
It started a few months ago. A night of the usual lounging around and leaning on each other as you talked about whatever came to mind ended with you kissing him and him on top of you in your bed. Now it's become a common occurrence. No name to it, no label assigned, just another night of setting up a thinly veiled hangout that always ended up with his hand down your pants.
The lack of formality was one you usually hated, but this time around it didn't form a ball of anxiety in your stomach. San was a trusted friend who always had your back when needed, made you laugh until your cheeks hurt, and held your hair whenever you've had an unfortunate run-in with the bottom of a liquor bottle. It was that trust that made you comfortable enough to start this with him. He always cared for your pleasure and well-being, and you aligned pretty well as far as kinks go. You weren't ready for anything more, but it seemed he felt the same and so the arrangement has developed over the past few months into an exploratory phase where you wanted to try out some things.
Which leads you to the current moment: San lying in your bed— chest heaving, jaw dropped, eyes rolling back slightly, whining, hair sticking to his forehead, light sheen to his skin, and words slurring as he tries to speak. Then there's you: lying next to him, one hand propping yourself up, the other hand wrapped around San's red-tipped, pre-cum covered cock, a small smirk on your face as you watch San's orgasm build yet again. His whines rising in pitch, the telltale scrunch of his eyebrows, his stomach tensing hard— and just like you did the past seven times you saw these signs, you stop stroking him.
This was a hell of his own making; he brought up the idea of trying edging, but it didn't suck any less when he felt the loss of stimulation. He didn't expect you to enjoy it this much, but there's something addictive about how San whimpers and whines when you edge him. Seeing the sweetheart with the massive shoulders turn into a borderline blubbering mess under you was a power rush that made you feel almost lightheaded. His wrecked voice was just a cherry on top.
"Please, please, please," San pleads, breathless and voice dripping with need, "Please let me cum, please!"
His watery eyes meet yours, and maybe you really are a sadist because you give San a toothy grin that makes him whine pathetically.
"Aww, Sannie. Are you breaking already? I thought you'd be stronger than this." You feign disappointment as your thumb circles his tip.
His cock twitches in your hand as he lets out a huff that simmers into another whine.
"C-Come on, I'm gonna die!"
You let out a loud laugh at that. Hearing those words so earnestly from him was unexpected.
"Yeah? You're gonna die? If I don't let you cum?" You tease, hand starting to slowly stroke him again.
San nods his head repeatedly, water beading in the corners of his eyes as he looks at you with a deep desperation that made your thighs clench.
"I dunnooooo." You drag out your words, your voice telling a story your hand wasn't matching with as it speeds up on San's cock, "I think you can take it for a bit longer."
"No!" San cries, tears finally slipping down his face as his hips jerk into your hand on pure instinct.
A mix of a whine and a soft sob leaves him as he babbles the word 'no' over and over and fucks into your fist. You watch the desperate display in front of you and it fuels your need to see him a complete wreck. As much of a mess he is now— you knew it would only get worse when he finally got to cum.
With that in mind you decide you've teased him enough, but you wouldn't give it to him too easily.
"Gotta say the magic words, baby." A smirk plays on your lips as you start stroking him the way you know will make him crack immediately.
You waited for the begging, the pleading, maybe even a demand— but it never came. Instead, in his delirious state of pleasure, San opens his mouth and completely shocks you with his next words.
"I love you!"
His cries reach a fever pitch and though your hand has gone still in shock, his orgasm hits him hard. The continuous edging, your teasing voice, the warmth and grip of your hand were too much to handle anymore. San spurts rope after rope of cum on your frozen hand, not realizing you've stopped moving as he babbles his confession over and over, desperation laced with ecstasy in his voice as 'I love you' continues to spill from his lips.
You're still processing what's happened as San goes quiet and his breathing starts to regulate.
He loves you? That wasn't something you'd ever considered, and suddenly the situation you found yourself in felt inexplicably heavy. Cum cooling on your hand while your close friend's cock softens in it.
"Fuck, that was...intense." San turns his head to look at you and furrows his brows when he sees your frozen state, "You alright?"
His question only serves to confuse your mind further as you look at him like he's grown three heads.
Alright? He just yelled he loved you while orgasming and he thinks you'd be alright?
But the longer you look at him, the more you realize he isn't being obtuse, he's being serious. The confusion in his own eyes is real. He sincerely doesn't get why you're sitting next to him, stock still. It's then that it clicks for you.
He didn't realize what he said. He was so far gone, words were slipping through that he didn't even know were there. He relayed a secret he can't even remember saying.
You quickly school your expression, feeling equal parts thankful and another emotion you can't quite place.
"Yeah, yeah, I'm good. Let me get a towel." You say as you get out of bed and walk into the bathroom across the hall, making a conscious effort not to speed walk.
You close the door, body moving on autopilot as you clean your hands off.
San loves you. At least that's what he claimed while cumming, but if he couldn't remember it, could it be a real confession? Was it something to take seriously if he was delirious when it slipped out?
Your confusion continues to worsen the more you think about it and you bite back a groan as you turn the faucet off.
This complicated things in a way you weren't prepared for. You look at your reflection, a question you can't answer burning in the back of your brain.
What now?
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Simple enough his favorite reward is def getting to cum. he loves his rewards to be simple, once he’s finally getting to cum he needs you to hold him through it whispering about how much he deserves it! (If he actually does deserve it)
If it’s been a long time since hes cum he’ll make sure he’s been his best then he gathers up the courage to ask; “Can you pleaseeeeeee make me cum miss? It’s been days…”
Very few times you pity his pathetic begs enough to actually let him but most of the time you tell him off for being oh so needy
in fact all you need to do is place your hand on top of his clothed dick and he does all the rest
But he still needs to hear reassurance from your silky voice. “So good for me” “can’t hold it anymore baby?” “You deserved every bit of this” ect ect.
He eats up every “good boy” and “I’m so proud of you” like candy~ he could definitely cum untouched just by hearing your voice.
*minho
He also likes it plain, he has made it very clear that his all time favorite reward is kisses, EVERYWHERE
after you both finish he loves being called a good boy while he flops over so you can kiss all up him back, bonus points if you have plumping gloss on, he loves the tingling feelings it really makes him relaxed especially after all the dirty things you just did to him
Sometimes hes just so fucked out that he just lays there with a smile on his face while he feels your lips pecking on every hickey and scratch you gave him. PAMPER HIMM TOO!!
Whether it be wet sloppy kissed or soft pecks he just loves to have your lips all over his body especially his face. Calling him your pretty doll while smothering his face with kisses after he made such a mess on the bed is just perfect.
*changbin
I feel like he would be on his hands and knees begging just for you to use a vibrater on him. I can just imagine him about to cum all over your hand before pulling your hand away and pleading. “No!! N-no… I wanna cum with the vibrater today.. please?” How could you say no?
He also goes crazy for remote controlled vibraters too, his favorite sensation controlled by you? He LOVES it
But just because it’s a reward doesn’t mean you can’t be a tease. “I’ll bet I can make you cum with this in under 10 seconds binnie~” his flushed cheeks didn’t deplete his confidence.
“HA! I’ll bet I can lasted more that 40 se-. AHH~ F-FUH.. Y/NNIE!” The second the wand touched his tip he was practically screaming in under 10 seconds. And he loves every second of it.
Hyunjin
Lingerie+pegging he wants to feel pretty and what better way to make him feel like a princess then to put him in some cute baby blue stockings and fuck his brains out. unlike the others he’s humble and never asked for a reward he always waits and when it does arrive it’s so worth it
“Aw arent You pretty?” You coo, he giggled in excitement  “I’m v-very pretty!” You peck his cheek before leaning into his ear “so pretty I think you deserve a little something~” he instantly hops up and runs to your shared room
His favorite position is when you hook both of his legs over your shoulders so you can hit his special spot every time.
He also seems like a “fuck me until I can’t speak” kinda guy, which you gladly do. Only 5 minutes in all that can come out of his mouth is “AHH~ AH~ AHHH~ M-MOR..MORE~” while he clutches his pretty lingerie mini skirt in his hands
But he’s always so sad that he gets cum all over his fancy lingerie by the end of it, but you can always make him feel better by stripping it off and fucking him again🤷♀️
Chan’s mouth doesn’t shut once he’s cockdrunk. After you’ve got him bent over and bred nice and deep, he goes from quiet whines to full-on worship. “Yours, it’s yours—fuck—don’t stop, don’t stop, keep it inside me, I need to feel full.” Even when you’ve already finished, he keeps trying to rock his hips, back arching into you, greedy for more. You have to hold him still to stop the constant clenching of his hole, but he just grins through the overstimulation. “You’re gonna fuck me again, right? You’re not gonna leave me like this, right, baby?”
Minho’s the type to talk so much shit before sex—“Hope you can handle me”—only to end up folded in half, whining and grabbing at your wrist the second you thrust too deep. And after? Oh, he’s glued to you. Wraps his legs around your waist, keeps you inside him even when he’s shaking from how sensitive he is, refusing to let go. “Feels too good—don’t pull out, please—please. Just wanna stay like this forever…” You laugh, teasing him, but his nails dig into your back and he’s serious. Get fucked dumb and then stay cockwarm like it’s where he belongs.
Changbin has zero shame when he’s cockdrunk. Zero. He’ll ride you like it’s a fucking sport, thighs trembling, moaning your name like a chant. “F-fuck—fuck—feels so good, baby, keep fucking me like that—!” And once he cums? He starts crying. Not sad crying—happy crying. Overwhelmed. Heart racing. Shaking. Tells you how full he feels, how no one else could ever make him feel this fucked out. Bites his hand to muffle the moans as you give him another round. “Can’t stop thinking about your cock—can’t stop—wanna be like this every night.”
Hyunjin lays there, spread out and ruined, limbs loose, lips glossy with spit and tears. He babbles, pupils blown wide. “More,” he slurs, drooling a little, thighs twitching. “Didn’t cum enough… you didn’t fuck it deep enough…” Even though there’s cum dripping down his legs and pooling under him, he’ll still tug at your wrist with glassy eyes. “You wanna paint me again, right? I’m still not finished.” He’s artsy even in his obsession, begging to be fucked like a blank canvas—marked, bruised, and filled with your colors until he can’t think straight.
Jisung’s on crackhead mode post-fuck. He’s giggling, twitching, humping against your abs even when he’s too sensitive to keep going. “Ahaha—y-you broke me, I think you actually—fuck, yeah, right there—nnnngh, oh shit!” And then he moans at his own voice. He gets high off your cum, literally, acting dazed and drunk and teasing. Slaps his own ass just to watch your face twitch. Tries to jerk himself off again with your cum still leaking out. “Round four? Five? You’re not tapping out, right? Right?!”
Felix is the softest, filthiest thing when he’s cockdrunk. Clings to your hand, kisses your chest, and begs you not to stop even while his tears roll down his cheeks. “Please, please—make me yours again—don’t waste it, just cum in me—please, fill me up—” The second he feels you release inside him, he melts. A blissed-out moan, eyes rolling back, toes curling. He’ll hold his legs up after, make you look at the way your cum’s dripping from his hole and whimper for you to stuff it back in. “Don’t wanna lose a single drop…”
Seungmin pretends to hate being cockdrunk. Tries to hide his stuttering moans, covers his mouth, glares at you with flushed cheeks. “D-don’t look at me like that,” he pants. “Not my fault your cock feels so fucking good…” But the second you degrade him? “Ohh—fuck—yeah, talk to me like that—” Call him a good bitch and he shakes. Slap his thighs and his voice breaks. Even when he’s trembling, too wrecked to move, he’ll beg for one more thrust. “Wanna feel it again, wanna cum with you in me—please, please—”
Jeongin can’t speak when he’s cockdrunk. Can barely form words. Just gasps and cries, voice wrecked, drooling into your chest as you hold him through it. You ruin him once and he’s already dizzy, but then you press deeper and say, “You can take more,” and his eyes roll back. He’s full-on drunk. Body limp. Mind gone. “Yes… yes, please… fill me again… need it so bad…” He cuddles you after, hole leaking all over your thighs, nuzzling into your neck like he doesn’t even realize what he’s doing. Just wants to stay plugged up, marked, and messy.
synopsis: you can't touch him, because he's too innocent, too sweet. but god you wish you could.
warnings: implied fem reader (can't remember if it's outright said), dom reader, sub soobin, masturbation, fingering, lowkey corruption kink, mentioned mommy kink, think that's really it
a/n: the first portion of this fic has been in my drafts since roughly july last year and was in my notes app for a few months - at least - longer than that so don't even ask me how old this really is, but at least it's out!!😭
“Am I bad person?”
Beomgyu scoffs, looking at you with eyebrows raised. He nearly laughs at the ridiculous statement coming from your mouth.
"What?"
And that makes him lose it, unable to even hold it back as he barks out a laugh, looking at you as if you've grown a second head.
It’s a hard thing to fathom coming from you given that you’ve definitely never had any qualms about your morality when it comes to this kind of stuff. “Really? You’re asking me that?”
His best friend sits across the room, oblivious to the conversation, his headphones pulled over his ears, the game he’s playing flashing on the computer screen in front of him.
Soobin.
Sweet sweet Soobin, messy blonde hair left unbrushed, pajamas still on, not bothering to change as this was all he was planning to do all day.
Sweet Soobin who you can’t help but want to play with.
Who you can’t help but imagine how pretty he’d look with tears in his eyes.
"I'm not fucking around Gyu-am I a bad person?"
You groan and flop over on the couch, rolling over to rest your head in Beomgyu’s lap, looking up at him with a comically-in his opinion-concerned expression.
He gives you nothing but an exaggerated eye-roll. "Don't even start."
“But aren’t I?” You look again at the boy across the room, wondering why, why he had to be so stupidly adorable. His lips were twisted into a small pout and why it was so fucking cute.
Why? You wondered, feeling like this was all you were doing nowadays.
Beomgyu resists the urge to roll his eyes at you for the second time in a row, now at the way that you look at his best friend like some kind of lovesick fool, especially considering that all you really wanted was get into his pants. It didn’t really make sense, but hey, who was he to judge?
“Why? Just because you want to rock his shit? Step on him and make him cry? That makes you question your morality? Out of everything that you've done?”
You gasp, slapping his chest. “He’s right there.” You hiss, not exactly denying the words.
He ignores that, shoving you off of him. He knows as well as you do that those headphones are the expensive noise cancelling ones that he'd gotten from you last Christmas. He barely hear himself yelling at his online teammates much less your hushed conversation.
You look at him as if you want to take him out on a nice picnic date and let him lay his head in your lap while playing with his hair pointing at clouds. Which Beomgyu couldn’t really see in any world, you were never really the type.
But who knows? Maybe you were really just that eager for his dick at this point-or the more probable scenario-have him on your dick, that it broke something inside you.
“Why’re you so concerned now? Not like you had any issues with Yeonjun or Taehyun. Hell, you kept up everyone else in the dorms,” His voice goes higher as he attempts to poorly mock his roommates. “‘Y/N, more~’ ‘please, I need it-need y-‘“
“Shut the hell up.” You spit, quickly covering his mouth with your hand while your eyes flicker once more to him, still staring intently at his game.
Really, why were you so concerned now?
Beomgyu was right. You’d had no problem doing the same to them, to Tae and Yeonjun, but they were different-he was different.
Soobin was different than any of them. They were the product of having fun with someone you knew like the back of your hand and vice versa. Simply satisfying-albeit unimportant-a matter of getting your rocks off with people you knew could find your clit and would let you hit it from the back.
Soobin was Soobin though. The sweet boy who looked at you with the most innocent smile.
Who got all blushy and embarrassed when you so much as lightly and non-vulgarly flirted with him.
He’d squeak and duck his head away when you called him bunny - again, non-vulgarly, trying to hide the fact that he was blushing and it turned him on-just a little bit.
In other words, painfully obviously, it was clear.
“He’s a virgin!” You hiss, hand still clamped over his mouth despite his garbled reply. You know just as well as Beomgyu knows how bitchless his friend is. Despite the fact that offers for him were nearly endless he was too shy, too awkward to accept said advances. “-I can’t take that away from him, it needs to be special, it needs-“
Your hand, still over his mouth is touched by something warm and wet and you shriek, pulling away quickly with a look of disgusted horror. “Are you serious right now?”
“Fight me bitch, I will not hesitate.” He growls, looking triumphant with the fact that you’ve now backed up to the edge of the couch.
You roll your eyes at him, looking once again at Soobin.
Fuck, why does he have to be so adorably innocent?
Beomgyu rolls his eyes, wiping at his mouth. "Just trust me, he'd be happy to be used by you. He might be a virgin, but he's nowhere near innocent."
"And what do you mean by that?" You sit against the arm of the couch, wiping Beomgyu's saliva onto the cushions.
He lets out a dry laugh, glancing back at Soobin before reaching for the previously forgotten remote control. "It means he wouldn't be as freaked as you think he would be if he found your sex toy collection."
—-
You suppose Soobin had always been special in some sort of way.
Always there over the span of time that you'd known all of them. Sitting off to the side while you hung out with the others. In his own room while you were fucking around with his other roommates. Playing his game while you were hanging out with Gyu.
He'd caught your eye more than once or twice, or three times over the years.
He was hot. You'd never discount that. Hot in the loser-y, adorable, cute, corruptible kind of way.
But then again, that kind of was your type if you thought about it.
You'd never been particularly close with him like you'd been with the others. He'd never made much effort to hang out with you but he was there when all the others were, if not one-on-one.
And he got really, really embarrassed when you tried to flirt with him like you did the others.
You didn't mind much, you'd just come under the impression that he was kind of scared of women. Which was also kind of cute.
But Beomgyu was right when he'd said that you'd never cared much about morals in the first place.
It didn't matter how close of friends or if they were a virgin or whatever other silly things that made things like that 'trivial'.
Life was too short to pretend you didn't feel things and besides. Sometimes, you really, just...didn't care.
And it wasn't personal, when you wanted someone, you would pursue it and if there was now friend groups you'd single handedly broken up, well they'd clearly made it personal themselves because you always made it very clear that there was no feelings involved.
Besides the raw, hot tension that made your skin tingle like your nerves were livewire.
Soobin was different though, special.
You felt bad for wanting him. For wanting to dirty him up.
He was something pure, something beyond and above you, perhaps and that was something you weren't willing to ruin, no matter what Beomgyu told you.
—-
"Fuck," he panted, "please,"
The room was dark, the light of his laptop being the only thing illuminating his face.
"Please,"
Sounds filled his ears through the crappy pair he'd owned for years, refusing to get wireless ones.
"Please."
"Bet you fucking like that, don't you?" The voice, only a few octaves higher than your own, still sent shivers down his spine.
Close enough.
"You're a such a dirty slut, you know?"
He whined into his sleeve, a sweater paw pressed over his mouth to keep the moans at bay. "I'm sorry, no, no please I'm sorry~" It wasn't doing a very good job muffling his voice though.
"I need it~"
The video seemed to respond to his desperate pleas. "If you need it so fucking bad then you'll be a good boy and wait for mommy's permission. You hear me?"
Or maybe he'd just watched this video so many times he'd memorized all of the male counterpart's lines. "Yes mommy," he panted, "I'll be good, I-I'll wait for your permission!"
He wouldn't. He knew he wouldn't.
He couldn't, as much as he prided himself on being a good boy. This time he knew he wouldn't even make it through the seven minute and thirty-two second video.
Not with you in the next room.
He couldn't tell if you were with Yeonjun or Taehyun. It didn't really matter either way.
Because he would only focus on you.
You weren't loud, having endured enough of Beomgyu's teasing and gripes about your sexual habits. He decided he hated Beomgyu for that.
But he could hear your pants through the paper-thin walls, heavy and followed by your quiet praises. "Sweet boy," you cooed, just as the porn on his laptop continued, "Naughty boy, such a messy little-" He ripped the earbuds out mid-sentence.
He wanted to hear you.
Not some substitute for the real thing.
He could imagine if you walked it on him right now.
Laying spread out on his bed, pants not even all the way off-just messily pulled below his hips, just enough for his dick to breathe properly and for his hand to easily slide up and down with the amount of pre-cum leaking from the tip.
"Fucking please." He moaned, quiet and needy.
You'd see him a mess, his soaked through sleeves catching the drool from his lips, teeth biting into the soft fabric to keep from crying out too loud.
You'd see him shamelessly fucking up into his fist, calling out pleas with no one there to hear him.
"C'mon baby, you can take it, take it all for me." Your voice was accompanied by the wet sounds of what, Soobin wasn't completely sure but his mind quickly conjured a few different theories. "That's it, a little more~"
Fuck him, he wished you were speaking to him.
Cockwarming him, your pussy wrapped around his dick, warm and wet and squeezing around him so good. Fluttering kisses over his face and throat as you teased along the length of him, slowly lifting up just to agonizingly sink back down onto him, clenching tight while he moaned into a kiss.
Or stroking him to another orgasm, making him cum again and again until his body was shaking and tears streaming down his cheeks. Telling him he could take more, do it one more time, for you. Because whatever pain you'd inflict would be worth it, after all it was your hands doing the damage.
"Fuck you look so pretty like this, just makes me wanna fucking wreck you. Turn you into a mindless whore on my dick."
Fuck, so that was what it was.
His mind managed to come up with one more picture through the haze.
You'd have his wrists pinned over his head with one hand, over him, keeping him down with a surprising amount of strength.
God, he could imagine the way you'd look at him. Maybe you'd be kind and gentle, sweet words and a sweet hand, fulfilling every one of his fantasies while calling him your sweet little bunny.
Like you were with whoever you were with on the other side of that wall.
But he doubted it. Or, he hoped not at least.
In his head you'd be meaner, crueler. Look at him with dark, hungry eyes and watch in a sadistic sort of glee when he cried, when he whined, when he begged and pleaded for more.
You'd thrust into him, hard and punishing, slowing down just to make sure that he wasn't crying from serious pain before you'd slam your hips against his, driving the tip of the toy dead into his prostate.
He'd beg you, plead you to slow down, to be nicer to him.
You'd tell him no. Tell him to be a good boy, voice patronizing and low, tell him only good boys get rewards.
God, that’s what he needed right now.
Needed you.
Your words, your touch, your scent, your presence even. You eyes on him, watching as he fell apart.
Not you fucking someone else in a different room.
Liquid heat flowed through his body, scorching and consuming every coherent thought.
"More."
He imagined it was you. Your hands all over him, pressing up against his throat, fondling his balls, purposely, maliciously ignoring where he needed to be touched most while you drove into him over and over and over until he was screaming in ecstasy.
It wasn’t enough, not nearly
"You just love my cock, don't you angel? Love being fucked by me into a mindless whore?"
He silently cracked the lube open, lathering his fingers in it before letting them drift lower.
He'd done this before, but it had been awhile and the stretch was beyond overwhelming with your words ringing through the wall.
“You’re just a little angel, aren’t you, bunny?” And he pressed a finger inside, thrusting shallowly, breath picking up as you got louder.
"No, you're not an angel. You're a fucking whore, taking it like you were made for it, huh?" A second finger, following the first, scissoring himself open with a quiet gasp.
"Yeah? Fuck, is that it?" You laugh and he swears it's right in his ear, ringing through his head. "'m gonna make you scream for me baby,"
He whines in frustration, his fingers not deep enough - you not deep enough inside of him. No, he needs it deeper, harder.
More.
"Get on top of me baby, ride me," you mutter, so far but so close.
He can imagine, as he settles on his knees, that the pillow he straddles is you. That his legs are around your hips. That his fingers, positioning on the bed under him is your dick and your hands are pressing against his hips, holding him in place.
"You're mine, you hear that? Mine. My perfect little slut, taking my cock like a pretty little slut." His body trembles, eyes rolling back as he slowly sinks down onto three fingers.
"Your's." He moans in reply.
And finally, finally, he reaches his prostate, hitting it head on with his fingers.
Stars burst behind his eyelids as they slip shut, back arching into the intrusion. He could cry, he thinks distantly that he maybe is.
But it doesn't matter.
Because your hands are on his hips, controlling his movements, leading him the way you want him to ride your cock.
Up,
"Slut." You whisper.
and down,
"Whore." You lean up, teeth nipping at his neck but not hard enough to leave marks.
over,
"Baby," Breathing over the shell of his ear.
and over,
"Good boy~" Teasingly biting at his earlobe.
harder,
"Bunny," Kissing along his jaw.
faster,
"Mine." Across his cheek.
deeper.
Just barely there, ghosting across his lips-
"-Cum for me baby,"
And he does. With his mouth hung open, drool covered sleeve long forgotten over. With his eyebrows furrowed and body curled into itself, fingers pressed against his prostate.
Ropes of cum covering his chest, and his face. Some reaching his lips and his chin, staining his skin and landing in his open mouth.
"Fuck,"
And on the other side of the wall, "Good boy,"
a/n: i was thinking about making a part two but honestly if it took me a year to find the inspiration to finish this one, i'm not sure a second one will ever come out😭
can you write smth abt being mean and rough w sunghoon and yet instead of complaining, all he does is whimper and take it being all good and pliant ?? (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)
SUNGHOON’S SUCH A GOOD BOY . . . <3
MORE UNDER THE CUT.
“such a good fuckin’ slut,” you hiss, grabbing sunghoon’s throat in your hands. the boy gasps, his hands reaching out to grip your wrists, but stops halfway.
you’re situated on his lap, with your other hand wrapped around his cock. he’s on his third orgasm now, and he looks absolutely spent, but you’re not nearly done with him.
“noon—a!” his voice breaks at the last syllable, legs shaking as his body attempts to push away the insurmountable amount of pleasure.
but sunghoon doesn’t complain or ask for you to stop, he lets you have your fun, brain too muddled from the feeling of your hand on his cock, his own cum acting as lubrication as you continue.
your hand on his throat is tight enough to leave a mark, and yet he doesn’t utter a single word. the friction created from your skin on his spent cock is nearly painful, but he finds himself wanting more, hips canting upwards, a silent indication for you to please, go faster.
you keep him pinned down, still sat on his lap, keeping him from thrashing. it’s nearly impossible to keep him still, his back arching, head thrown back. almost as if he doesn’t know what to do with himself.
“puh, please— ah!” he yelps. “c-can’t, any— ngh! mo—ore, noona!”
his face is blotchy and red, tears and sweat dripping from his face. he’s never looked more ethereal than he does now.
the hand on his throat relieves pressure, and you decide to give him a little mercy. the pace of your wrist slows, and sunghoon whimpers.
you heave an evil chuckle. “should i stop, baby?”
the boy shakes his head. unsatisfied, you leave a quick swat on his inner thigh. he winces, unscathed but shocked.
“words, sunghoon.” you utter through gritted teeth.
“n-no, noona,” he whimpers. “d-don’t stop, please?”
you never know how to say no to that face, anyway.
NOTE. so sorry for the inactivity! been really busy. you can still send in asks tho <3 i’ll get to them when i have the time.