Dec 28, 2020
Growing up means being okay with being alone and that's so weird for me.
My circle of people I trust and want in my life is becoming smaller and it makes me incredibly sad. I can't talk to my family beyond the small talk that we have these days and that's just...weird.
Everything is weird. lol
First breakdown for the holiday season was last night so I think I lasted longer than I thought I would. Last night was disgusting and now I'm just under the covers afraid to move hoping sleep will just do it's thing.
It's a Monday so I'm going to see about scheduling an appointment with my doctor. I've been on and off meds because I haven't found the combo that works for me, but I think I need to try again.
I'm too soft for any of this.
