I am not quite sure why am I posting this... I guess I saw a few of my last posts and realised how far from truth they are.
Or, rather, how the things have changed in the past two years.
Which pushed me to give you a short update.
Let’s put it in bullet points:
I am still living in the northern side of Poland, still working for the same company that recruited me two years ago.
In one of my last posts I wrote that my flatmates are super cool. Well, they were, at the beginning. Then the situation switched 180 degrees. I was honestly suffering in that apartment. The dirt, the parties, even stealing... that was my day to day reality.
I was very close to just quitting it all and moving back to my hometown. Not sure how I found the strength to stay.
I guess this could be due to me meeting someone very, very special.
I see how my insecurities affect this relationship. I try really hard to fight those stupid thoughts, but I am afraid at some point, I will ruin it for good. Unless his patience it limitless.
This could be because I am struggling with some things at work that affect my personal life. I wish they didn’t, but they do.
Still, the relationship itself is the most mature I have been in. I feel like we are real partners, not just a boy and a girl, dating.
I started to hate the city I live in, I felt trapped. Slowly, with the help of my new friends, I started opening up to the possibilities this city gives me. I cannot say I love this place, but my feeling towards it gradually improve.
Work... overall, it is good. Of course there are plenty of things I don’t like about it, but there are also plenty of things that make me extremely excited and happy.
Oh, I almost forgot - I am not living in the same apartment anymore. I changed the flat and that was the best decision I ever made.
I’m a proper adult. I bought an electric steamer recently and I have a savings account.
I go to the gym 2-3 times a week. Usually just two. Sometimes once a week. No pressure - I am just doing it for fun. If I feel like I would rather stay home, eat crisps and watch Netflix with my boyfriend, or I would rather drink a bottle of wine and play cards with a friend - I do what I please at a time. I have never had such balance in my life.
Food wise, I just eat what I crave. The fact is, I crave mostly vegetables and rice (or rice noodles) with some fancy sauces. And chocolate. Again, the balance I have never felt before. If I want a burger, I have a burger. If I want a bowl of vegetables, I have a bowl of vegetables.
I need to avoid (or rather, limit) certain foods, due to the mild IBS I was diagnosed with. I am slowly discovering foods that trigger some reactions, but it is still work in progress.
I grew my fringe! And I don’t look like I am fifteen anymore. People stopped asking me for my ID card when I buy alcohol.
Did I say it’s going to be short? Heh ;)