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Happy Friday the 13th!

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~The Gods of Artistic Value have Granted This Heavenly Masterpiece Upon Thine Aspiring Eyes~

Pff-- after last friday's event, I felt this was the best scenario I had to put my feelings in lol

#if you love something let it go #doodle #my art #steven universe #reference #ruby #sapphire

#Steven Universe #Garnet #ruby #sapphire #my art #doodle #fanart #favorite couple #sketch

More Doodles~*

I drew the first one before I got discharged. I felt I was in a better state, so I drew my current mood at that time (o u o)

The 4th one is of my imaginary son, or my Oc Zee’s son. Had to rename him cause I thought his first name would get him bullied throughout his childhood, still tryna come up with a middle name. At least a hawaiian saying (o *o)

The 3rd is possibly a new head design for UnderSteam Zee, idk I was jus doodling :P

This one was mostly an attempt (=c =) It's not a very good attempt, but its something (o u o) At least I'm getting better at drawing males ^ ^

#undertale #human versions #Gaster #undertale gaster #human gaster #long hair boi #depressed boi #old scientist

Here's a doodle I did of Pink Diamond (SU) I drew her up from memory, and I got most of it right though (o u o) And I'm pretty proud of it ^ ^

#steven universe #pink diamond #rose quartz

Am Back~*

Back from the Psych unit that is (o *o)

Got some new medication, a better perspective on things, even got the energy to wake up early lol

I began to give myself a daily schedule so that I can sort of remind myself that I do have control of my life. So yeah, and I've got a ton of drawings and doodles to show off, so that's gonna come back.

I'll try my best to become just a bit more active, it's no promise, so feel free to hold me on that (if that makes sense)

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heres a skintone pallete!!! feel free to rb/use it!!!

left to right = light to dark top to bottom = warm to cool

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Legends only

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All my yes please

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I NEED THIS IN MY LIFE (0 A 0)

No Art Posts

I will be on a bit of an art post hiatus for a while, just until I’m back home. I’m in no possession of any hand held devices. Until I am released, I will be sure to get back to it :)

#getting better

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//screams into the void//

First pic of the night: H2O Delirious

#h2o delirious #fanart #drawing #ink #my art #don't steal #I forgot my friggin initials #delirious army

Please give me a chance

I want to be able to try and get back to posting my art and ideas on my social medias once again, though I've always had the lack of motivation to do so.

Since I'm normally a night person, I tend to stay up during the night a lot more than I do during the day, which means I can potentially use that time to post some stuff that I've been working on over time.

It's not a healthy life style, but I've gotta do something with all the time I've got.

What's the worst that could happen?

A Poem (??)

What is it that makes life so unbearable?

Is it the way things just won't align for you?

No answer. . .

or is it. . .

I don't know. . .

No one does.

What is there to find?

Strength ?

Love ?

Compassion ?

Friends ?

Support ?

There is

no exact answer.

Okay, let's have.. A heart to heart- - ° ° ° I can't keep up this facade. I'll die knowing I've been living with regrets. Why do I keep this up? Why do I constantly torture myself into a state of depression? Why must I always throw myself in an endless loop of repetitive situations? In other words, I always repeat the same mistakes no matter how hard I try not to. None of my attempts work. And even if I try to make a difference, I just make things way worse. Why must I be so difficult? Why must my life be so confusing? It hurts. Everything hurts. My heart faces aches every day, it's now considered normal. My mind screams thoughts that never leave my mouth. My memory fades as consistently as my motivation. I grow weaker and weaker with each passing day. It's amazing that I'm still alive. But for what reason? They say that's for me to find out, but I'm eighteen, and I still haven't figured out the real reason as to why I'm here, or for what purpose I serve... I heard that being emo means that you're in touch with your feelings. But what am I beyond that of an average emo? Because I am too in touch with my feelings, to the point where something as small as a joke, or a light, friendly tease, can bring me to such sorrows. Nobody knows how I feel, because I am too silent. I fail to admit my feelings anymore. Now, they burrow deep inside me like hot air trapped inside an A.C. machine. Whenever my anger threatens to release steam, I contain it by remaining silent, listen to music, or occasionally both. I envy those who are able to face the consequences when they speak out so confidently. I wish upon an invisible star, hoping to some day be able to speak my mind, like others are able to do. But those wishes are constantly cast aside, and so my mind then fill up with thoughts such as... -"Like that'll ever happen..." -"...you'll never be like anyone. You're pathetic." -"you're just desperate for attention. What makes you any better than her...?" -"Don't even bother. You know I'm right." ° ° ° I don't even know how to ask for help when I am in dire need of it everyday... Whenever someone asks if I need help, I don't know how to respond most of the time. I just remain silent, as I let my eyes wander, hoping to give that person a certain sign that I Do need help. Because for some mysterious reason, I don't have the strength to say just one word. ° ° ° Help.

#oc zee #oc #serious talk #It's not a poem