#getting better

[the-patrex]

wip! gonna color this tomorrow I think

[addieisraddie]

I have been working out for a week!

Over the course of the last week I've started working out and I've done it every day! (excluding rest day of course)

it hurts like a bitch but it's been worth it :3

Additional updates! I've been talking to a gorgeous lovely soft pretty woman for the past like 12 days and shes really cool and I'm gonna see her on saturday :3

[minkypoo1312]

Hi all. I originally made this account hoping I’d get worse. I wanted to sink deeper into everything I was feeling , I didn’t think things would ever change.

But this summer I decided I don’t want that anymore

This is going to be my second year attempting public school, and I want to document what happens from here.

Last year, I spent most of the school year keeping to myself. I didn’t make many friends, I was moody, and I let embarrassment control the way I interacted with people. By the end of the year, I only had 2 TRUE friends.

This year is going to be different.

I’m not going to go out of my way to find the negative in everything. If someone gives me attention or talks to me, I’m going to smile instead of getting embarrassed, shutting down, or convincing myself they secretly don’t like me.

This summer I slipped back into some of my old habits for a while, but I’ve found that making it a point to leave the house every week has helped a lot. Every Tuesday I go to the library, and it’s become something I actually look forward to. I also discovered that I love shōjo manga, and I’ve been getting into Bleach, which has been a lot of fun.

I’ll also be back in math tutoring this year, so I’ll have a lot more opportunities to socialize instead of isolating myself.

I also learned that starving myself wasn’t the answer. I tried eating one meal a day, and all it did was make me exhausted, slow me down, and make me feel miserable. Now I work out for an hour doing Tae Bo, and I feel stronger than I have in a long time Instead of feeling weak and out of shape, I’ve actually built some abs, and I feel proud of the work I’ve put in.

School starts in 14 days.

I want this to be my best year yet

I’ve also realized that not everyone who treated me badly did it because there was something wrong with me. Sometimes people are insecure or jealous, and I don’t need to internalize every negative interaction. At the same time, I’m going to be smarter about the friends I choose. I won’t ignore red flags, and I won’t let people play in my face just because I’m afraid of being alone. But i also won’t think i’m better than them when in reality im embarrassed by everything and they don’t feel the same.

I’m going to put more effort into how I present myself. Better hair, better outfits

This account is going to document all of it the good days, the bad days and hopefully the person I become by the end of this school year.

also i’ve had to come with terms of some of my issues, my ego my attitude and my mindset, you can’t get anywhere when you don’t actually want to.

also i have 2 weeks to lose 10-8 more pounds, do i got this 😭

[danni-gurrl]

I need it!

I love going to the music store and looking at all the guitars and other things they have. Like this replica of Eddie Van Halen’s Frankenstrat! I wish. Maybe one day lol.

[resist-much]

[hobby-writer-tm]

I think the rot in me got turned into compost.

[maxs-mental]

Advice/story:

In my house, we each have a job to do. My job to do is clean the kitchen, which includes loading and unloading the dishwasher, wiping down every counter, putting everything away, things like that. My family doesn’t help in the slightest with this, treating the dishes they make as my problem, not even rinsing them off or sometimes not even putting them in the sink.

These last few days, I hadn’t cleaned the kitchen or done the dishes at all. I’ve been struggling, and I’m okay with admitting that. My energy seemed drained constantly and I just couldn’t get past the task paralysis to do it. I knew this couldn’t go on any longer so I reached out to one of my friends through here and asked him if he had any advice to get it done. He told me things that I already knew, like taking it in sections and listening to something I like. For some reason though, someone else telling me to do these things, despite me already knowing these strategies helped.

I think because I reached out and someone now knew I was struggling, it helped me to breathe easier. I showed him a picture oh the sink full of dishes as a before, and that, along with his encouragement, helped motivate me to get it done.

So, my advice and something that I remembered today is that reaching out is a great tool to help. Sometimes, in order to knock some weight off the weight on your back, you need to share it with somebody else first. Please reach out if you ever need help.

Have a lovely day everyone, love you all :]