PAIRING. sunghoon x fem reader (best friends-to-lovers! au)
WARNINGS. profanity, (will be updated once complete)
WORD COUNT. (will be updated once complete)
SUMMARY. you always admired your best friend sunghoon. but when did that admiration turn into something...more?
DISC. this story is entirely fiction & does not reflect any real events of the idols mentioned.
AUTHOR'S NOTE. omfg this was so cheesy
pls give me feedback, i'd love to improve my writing so any and all critique is welcomed <3
you can still remember the first day you met sunghoon.
it was the first week of the semester at university and in physics class you were partnered up with jake, the handsome austrailian student (much to the other girls' dismay). although you of course could admit jake was very charming and handsome, you saw him as a lot more than that. he was smart and always patient to give you some extra tutoring when you didn't quite understand what was taught in lecture, genuinely kind, and it was so entertaining to see him never pass up a chance to show you a new picture of his dog layla.
jake invited you to his birthday party at an arcade that also had things like escape rooms and an ice skating rink. you've never met any of jake's friends before so you really didn't know what to expect but after some drinks and games in the arcade, it wasn't too hard to ease your initial nerves around the group of strangers.
"you HAVE to see sunghoon ice skate, i swear he's more coordinated on ice than walking on the ground..." wonyoung says to you as the group walks to the ice skating rink. she was one of the girls there that you got along with really well and she was super friendly right off the bat.
"really? huh... sorry i'm really bad with names, who's sunghoon again?" you nervously laugh to her.
she points to the dark haired boy laughing with heeseung as you all get in line to get you ice skates.
"he used to compete in international ice skating competitions...almost working towards olympic level. but he decided to drop competing to focus on his studies. don't let him try to convince you he just 'skates for fun'... you'll see what i mean," she had a lingering fondness in her eyes.
you couldn't help but to wonder what wonyoung meant but you got your skates and laced them on the benches lining the rink of ice.
"before we all get in the rink, i think it's only fair sunghoon gives a little show before we all totally eat shit on this ice" jake announces to the group, everyone laughing along with him.
your gaze falls on sunghoon, noticing the faint blush on his cheeks with all the attention now on him. you see his faint smile and waving his hands, declining jake.
"oh cmon sunghoon! please! some people here haven't seen you on the ice and you've been telling me you've been dying to skate again..." sunghoon finally gave in.
"fine fine, only because it's your birthday," sunghoon jokingly rolled his eyes. everyone cheered as you all gathered along the wall of the rink. the minute sunghoon started gliding along the ice, it was like a switch flipped. you felt like the person you were watching wasn't that shy boy you briefly met a few hours ago. his aura radiated a confidence but also a sense of comfort. you could feel his emotion with every turn and twirl. you could see his visible passion and love of skating. he was smiling so wide, his fangs poked out and you couldn't help but to smile as well. it was the kind of smile you wanted to stare at forever.
he was freestyling to whatever music that was playing over the speakers of the skating rink but you could tell he didn't need choreography to shine brighter than any of the white fluorescent lights in the building. you understood what wonyoung meant, he truly looked more comfortable on ice than on the groundâand you grew more and more curious about sunghoon.
when he concluded his impromptu performance, you all applauded and jake along with the other boys entered the rink cheering sunghoon on, hugging him and ruffling his hair. you entered the rink, you heart hammering out of your chest in nervousness and anxiousness. you've never ice skated before and you already knew you would make a total fool of yourself in front of everyone.
"wonyoung, i've never ice skated before...can i hang on to you?" she chuckled at your nervousness, finding you adorable.
"of course, here hang on to my arm until you get the hang of it. we can stay near the wall" the few circles you did around the rink was less you hanging on to wonyoung and more you having a death grip on the ledge of the wallâstopping every 2 feet feeling beyond imbalanced. you let go of wonyoung making a full stop.
"i'm gonna rest for a little bit, you can go hang out with the others" you stated trying to cover your labored breath.
"are you sure?" she questioned. "yeah! go for it! i'm just gonna take a breather, i'll join you in a sec" you reassured her. she gave you her signature sweet smile and skated towards the rest of the group.
after a few moments of watching the rest of the group from afar, you attempted to skate towards the center of the ice to join the rest of the group. without knowing still how to maintain your balance and the wall no longer within arms reach, you knees completely buckle under your weight. you were pretty much bracing for impact to have your hands and knees to collide with the harsh coldness of ice at your feet. before you could even fully comprehend it, you felt a pair of arms catching you, slightly easing your fall.
"woah that was a close one. are you okay?" it was sunghoon. his face was close to yours, close enough for gaze to fall on the concerned look in his dark orbs and the mole on his cheek and nose.
"y-yeah i'm fine! t-thanks for saving me, i totally ate shit." you joked, a cold sweat running down your spine in utter embarrassment.
"no worries, thankfully i got to you in time. and don't even worry about it, being on ice takes a ton of practice." his arm still holding onto yours helping you get up. he guides you both back to the wall.
"you're really good at ice skating by the way, like crazy good" he let out a soft chuckle at your compliment blushing. you knew he probably heard that a million times before.
"thank you, it's y/n right?" you nod.
"can i ask why you quit? wonyoung told me about how you used to compete but left to focus on school," the echos of the group's chatter and laugher being background noise to your conversation.
"yeah that's the main reason. i guess that's the simple explanation i give people..." his voice trailing, as if there's more to the story. you raise your eyebrows at him, hinting at him to keep explaining.
âit got pretty lonely in all honesty. competing i mean. i made friends through skating and stuff but when i trained and performed in a competitionâŠi was alone through it all. it made me start to dislike the sport all togetherâŠâ he sighed. ââŠand that was really hard for me. and i decided to step down from competing and just skate as a hobby now.â
he saw your solemn expression and reassured you the best way he could. âbut itâs good now. truly. i think skating in a setting like this, with friends and just having fun healed my relationship with it.â you both looked out to the group, laughing in unison seeing ni-ki chase jake excitedly.
âbasically the best way i can describe it being on the ice now feels like reuniting with an old friendâŠâ sunghoon expresses, putting his hands in his jacket pockets.
âwow, i had no idea. thank you for telling me. for what itâs worth, i think youâre really brave.â you caught him tilting his head with a questioning look.
âwell, i mean it takes a lot of courage to give up sometimes. especially something you put so much time and energy intoâŠi feel like so many people think it's automatically a waste or a shame to give something up. but sometimes its just a redirection and sometimes its for the better.â
ây-yeah, exactlyâŠâ sunghoon looked at you stunned. youâre the first person to openly and fully understand his story and he didnât even need to explain it to you his reasoning.
âi think youâre the first person who actually understands.â
you hummed in delight, smiling at him. âlooks like weâll get along pretty wellâ
âyeah i guess soâ he smiles back.
you could feel the sincerity and warmth in his smile. it was different than the ones he gave you earlier. it was a smile you wanted to see again and again.
since that day at jakeâs birthday, you and sunghoon have been inseparable. he was your best friend and you trusted him more than anyone else in the world.
he was reliable, he understood you in every way, and he accepted you even at your lowestânot judging you about your past.
you and sunghoon slept over at each otherâs apartments all the time, even having each otherâs a spare key.
sunghoon crashed at your place that previous night, you two pulling an all-nighter studying and your apartment being closer to campus than his. you two would sleep in each otherâs bed but always staying on each otherâs sideâsimply sleeping side by side, most of the time with your backs facing one another.
he had class earlier than youâhis dreaded phone alarm going off, both of you stirring awake.
you pulled the covers over your head, groaning at the awful triggering sound of the alarm as sunghoon shut it off. he laughed quietly at your misery.
âhoon, why the fuck did you sign up for an 8am calculus class. who even voluntarily does thatâŠâ
"guess i'm a masochist," he sarcastically states, stretching and letting out a yawn. he reaches over your half-awake body, still covered by the blanket still to grab his glasses off your nightstand.
he basically puts all his body weight on top of you, borderline crushing you in the process dramatically reaching towards the table, a mischievous smirk on his face fully aware of his actions.
"hoon! ughhhh you're so annoying, you're crushing me" your voice muffled under the sheet. he laughs, amused by teasing you especially early in the morning when you're the grumpiest.
"sorry my bad" laughter still littering his voice. when you finally feel his weight off your body, you pull down the sheet from over your head.
you didn't realize sunghoon was still hovering over you, his arms on either side of your upper body. his gaze held something different in it, something you've never seen in his eyes before.
was there something in the air? were you starting to fall ill?
you and sunghoon joked around all the time and were in close proximity of each other all the time. maybe seeing each other at embarrassing moments one too many times, but this felt different.
the blue tint of the morning light peeking through your curtains illuminated his figure above you. the white tank top he always wore to sleep emphasized the contours of his defined arms, the thin silver chain adorning his collarbones reflected specs of light. and his messy hair and glasses wasn't helping your suddenly and unconsciously racing heart.
he was close. like really close. maybe too close for two people that were just friends. the air around you two felt thick and it was like you were holding your breath, maybe you were.
sunghoon slowly raised his hand, using his finger to brush a stray hair away from your face. and you swear his gaze wandered from your wide eyes to your lips. his touch lingered down to trace your jaw slightly.
he suddenly pulls away from your body, rising from the bed. he grabs his hoodie draped over your desk chair pulling it over his head and walking towards the bathroomâas if nothing had happened.
SYNOPSISââ€âdespite all that went down, you're quite settled on letting lee heeseung be 'the one that got away', and you swear you aren't the type to break no-contact but when the ground starts shaking, you realize your pride isn't worth not letting him know how you really feel.
CONTAINSââ€â6.5k words. ânon-idol!heeseung. mild enemies to lovers. lovers to exes. exes to ?. (they be going thru all of the tropes.) angst-adjacent? breakup. profanity. fluff. flashbacks in between narration. slightly toxic relationship dynamics. descriptions of an earthquake. usage of Y/N. kissing. pet names. (baby, princess, love, etc.) not proofread. âź mentions of enhypen's sunghoon, lsrfm's yunjin, and txt's beomgyu.
NOW PLAYINGââ€âwhen the world stopped moving â lizzy mcalpine ; feel something â clairo ; heavenly â cigarettes after sex. ; i love you, i'm sorry â gracie abrams ; like it tends to do â lizzie mcalpine ; kung wala ka â hale (this is 4 my filo girlies.) ; always, i'll care â jeremy zucker.
"i'm fine, momâyes, i'm eating very well. no, i'm not staying up late. iâ"
you sucked in a deep breath. listening to your mother's worried voice barrage your with one question after the other was heartwarming, yes. but it does get to a point.
she claimed it was just a wellness check. that she just wanted to catch up and know how you're doing.
"can't i check up on my daughter?" she asked one time, offended when you pointed out the unsual amount of call logs that have been piling up, all labelled "mom đ".
you knew this would be her reaction, and it was exactly why you dreaded having to admit the break up to her in the first place. maybe that, or the fact that doing so would make it real. it would make the separation permanent.
so you put it off for a week, and then another, and another one. and when your heart learned how to form itself around the knife lodged deep in your chest, when you got used to its existence there, you figured it was time to break her the news.
you phoned your mom who, in turn, told the rest of your family.
it was no question all of them loved heeseung to bits. it was hard not to. the first christmas you brought him home, your dad immediately gave you an approving nod as if to acknowledge the good choice you made. and the moment you let your little brother know heeseung played video games too? oh, he was a goner for your then-boyfriend too.
it's now been a month since that awkward facetime call with your family and your mother still wouldn't let up.
she called regularly to make small talk. she asked about your day, about the going ons in university, about the puppy you've been eyeing to foster. call it a daughter's instinct, but you knew what she was really doing. with each question, she was gauging how you were coping with the loss of the man you once claimed was the love of your life.
"i'm sorry, Y/N-ah. i'm just⊠worried. it must be tough being alone there." you heard her say through the crackle of your phone's speaker, the sound of the dishwasher running accompanying her careful tone. you didn't miss the way she paused a little before the word 'alone', like she was scared the implication might be a little too straightforward.
you chuckled mirthfully. if she saw your state right now, her worries would be validated instantly.
you were alone. in day old pajamas, hair a mess, eyes partially swollen from the sad k-drama you watched just to feel sadness that wasn't yours. all that while curled up in your bed in a fetal position as if to protect your body from any more hurt that could come.
she had every reason to be worried, but you couldn't let her know that.
"and i'm telling you you don't have to be! i'm okay, i swear. i've been okay," you forced a smile that she wouldn't see like it would make your words more honest. "i'm actually going to go out with yunjin and the girls so i'll call you back in a bit, okay?"
lies, one on top of another.
"i love you too.." your mom trailed off, voice unsure. "have fun. and i love you."
"love you too, mom!" you mustered in the most cheerful voice you could before hanging up.
a deep-seated sigh erupted from your chest. it's a friday night after exams, for gods' sake. your peers were out drinking themselves stupid, engaging in situations they're bound to forget the next day and yet here you were in bed, tapping through their instagram stories like you could vicariously live through each fifteen second clips.
the phone casted harsh shadows on your face as you tapped, and tapped, and tapped away.
then, you held your thumb to it, putting the screen on pause.
beomgyu uploaded a story just half an hour ago. a bright smiling face of him with the rest of your friends, shot glasses full of clear liquor in their hands. on the back, you could clearly see a familiar smileâthe lazy kind that he always used whenever he got forced into taking a group photo.
you believed that, with time, you'd gotten accustomed to the worn down ache in your chest. you forced your heart to rebuild itself, after all. muscles and tissue formed around the sharp blade with nothing else pride and tenacity to protect it.
but seeing him again, even just through a screen, felt like someone had just pulled the knife out only to stab it in again and twisting it for good measure.
it was the first time you'd seen him after the breakup. you barely crossed paths in university anymore, and with all the responsibilities and extra-curriculars you had going on, you didn't really have time to camp on the app just for a quick peek of him through your mutuals' stories or posts.
and you're glad you didn't, because seeing him be so carefree, so⊠normal brought you so much physical pain you had to let go of your phone to press on your chest with a pained whimper.
you and heeseung initially didn't like each other.
when your high school acquaintance, sunghoon, introduced you to heeseung and the rest of his friends at at a house gathering, you thought of him as nothing more than a sleazy nobody. just someone you'd need to put a polite mask on for whenever your friends were around simply because he was their friend too.
and heeseung, immediately seeing through it, smirked.
a pretentious snob who rode the highest horse she saw all while pretending it didn't kill her having to interact with lowly frat boys? it was nothing new to him. you were an eyecandy thoughâyeah, he'd give you that. but like most eyecandies, you were better experienced from afar. especially when his friends constantly gushed to him about you, too dumb to see all the bitterness you had in your heart below your sweet facade.
so for that party and the following months, you avoided each other. you both intentionally turned down invitation to parties when you knew the other would be there, or simply act like the other didn't exist if your friends were annoying enough to gather the whole group in an outing.
that was the norm until a chance meeting on a late friday evening.
heeseung slipped on a tall bar chair, chuckling when the owner remarked something about his consistent attendance. his usual glass got served and just as he was about to call on the him for a chaser, his eyes fell on you.
seated at a booth. alone.
you were dressed to impress with your short maroon dress, hair curled and flowing to one side of your exposed decollatage save for the ones hanging over your faceâthe ones that failed to cover your empty eyes as it burned through your half-empty glass of wine.
you looked small and frail clutching on your purse. nothing like the pompuous bitch who refused to even acknowledge his presence whenever he raised a hand to wave at you in the hallways.
every now and then, you'd tap on your phone to check the time. people would pass by and you'd fix your posture, disappointed creases on your forehead smoothening out as you forced yourself to look composed, to look like you sat there in your lonesome with intention.
every bone in his body told him it would be a terrible idea to engage, but his feet carried him before his frontal lobe could fully conlude the decision.
heeseung slumped across you on the other end of the booth, the velvet lining of the couch rustling against his denim jacket. "you ought to turn that frown upside down, missy. they might think your date ditched you or something."
you looked up, expecting it to be the guy your friend recommended. you were ready to lay it on him, profanities lined up from your chest all the way to the tip of your tongue, but the words got caught in your throat when you saw heeseung wearing that usual, ever-annoying cocky grin of his.
he only grinned wider at the shock you wore, snorting when it quickly turned into an irritated glare. "huh. so you did get ditched. didn't think i'd see the day someone would stand up the Y/N."
"it's none of your business."
"it kind of is. i was ready to have a good time with my whiskey but your loner ass is dampening up the mood of the place. you could have at least ordered fries or salad or something, make your self-date look a little more convincing and a little less⊠pathetic."
you clutched on your purse a little tighter. "are you so used to having someone hanging on your arm that you can't stand the sight of someone being happily alone? and for the record, i was going to order. until you interrupted me, that is."
"happily alone? really now?" heeseung raised an eyebrow. "is that why you've been anxiously checking the time? why you've been staring at the entrance like your fairytale prince's finally going to be the one the step in next?"
he could tell you wanted nothing more than to leave, but leaving alone meant admitting that you, in fact, got ditched. and getting ditched meant someone had the audacity to turn you down. and that, other than terribly bruising your pride, meant heeseung would see you in the same light as the other girls he probably ditches himself.
and you'd rather get run over by a fourteen wheeler, because that would be less embarrassing than him equating you to his silly little flings.
so you sat there, crossing your arms over your chest like a shield against his presence. "shut up and go be annoying somewhere else, heeseung."
he put his interlocked hands on top of the table, leaning forward with a smile. "tell you what, princess. let's make a deal."
your eye twitched at the nickname. but you apparently had all the time in the world, and your mood was too fucked up to even fight him more, so you shrugged. "i might entertain it as long as it's not stupid, so shoot."
"let me be your date tonight."
you raised your eyebrow and heeseung stared back, clearing his throat when you refused to reply. "you pay for the food, i pay with my presence."
you snorted. "you really are a piece of work, lee. do you really think your presence is anything worth paying for?"
heeseung just hummed. "i'm just saying⊠i can get my stomach filled with food, and you'll walk out of here with your reputation still spotless."
"sounds like a losing deal."
"think about it, Y/N. no snark, no sarcasm. just you, and me, and food, and pretending you weren't waiting for a man for nearly an hourâand if he hits you up after this then you can say you didn't even remember him because you spent the night with a tall, handsome guy who's so much better giving you a good time."
you hate the fact that his idea was actually not as dumb as you thought it'd be. you hate that it made you giggle. you hate that he took kindly to your laughter, like he just unlocked some sort of hidden achievement in those dumb video games he loved playing so much.
the deal was sealed with a warm handshake.
the mostly empty table quickly got crowded with different snacks, various shaped glasses of cocktails and beers. as agreed upon, you didn't glare at heeseung, not even once. it was hard to when he kept making you laugh every other minute because he heard it once and wanted to keep hearing it.
you tried to keep the date prim and proper by poking at your wings with a fork and knife but he urged that you had no one to impressâcertainly not him.
"eat wings with our natural tools, just as god intended." heeseung said, nudging your heels under the table. you chuckled and ate it with your fingers. he smiled, a soft one, eyes lingering on your buffalo-sauce stained lips while pushing the napkins towards you just in case.
you talked about the classes you had, got a giggle out of discovering your shared dislike of a certain professor and laughed. you nudged each other's feet under the wide table, tried each other's drinks, talked of your first impressions of each other and laughed some more.
he made it clear he wasn't the player you thought he was, though you argued he was still far too flirtatious. that, he couldn't deny.
not when he played the part of your date all too well. not when he spoke up whenever you wanted to order another, carried conversation to another interesting topic when the current one's beginning to die out, and even let you borrow his jacket when he noticed you rubbing your arms for warmth.
you dreaded imagining how bland this night would have been if the original date went as planned.
when it was your turn to uphold your end of the deal, heeseung smacked his credit card right on top of yours, brows furrowed like he was offended. you scoffed, pulled it out and smacked yours over his again in retaliation. "you did your part, let me do mine."
heeseung just squinted his eyes at you, a weak attempt to look intimidating, before slipping his card to the waiter who quickly processed the payment and handed him the receipt before walking off.
you huffed. "heeseungâyou just broke the deal."
"you're dumb if you think i'm gonna give you a reason to tell our friends i let a girl pay for a date."
"so why did you offer then?" you grumbled, slipping the card in your bag.
"truth be told, i didn't think it through. you seemed lonely and i just wanted some assurance you wouldn't be a bitch to me all night. and you can say what you want to say but it worked," he hummed, popping a piece of cold fry in his mouth. "you've never been the type to just let people be nice to you."
"well i'm not going to give you a reason to hold something over my headâ"
"and if you shut up and stop complaining, then no oneânot even our friendsâwill ever know you got stood up." he sighed. "i'm not asking for anything in return, Y/N. not your money, not a second date, not pretend nicetiesâbut i enjoyed tonight and i want us to be able to exist around each other from now on. not just for our friends but for us."
you pursed your lips, unable to deal with the upfront honesty he's giving you. you just stared at his face, fidgeting with the zipper of your purse. "are you offering a truce?"
"i'm offering friendship. a proper one. like this, or something less intimate if the reputation i have in your mind still precedes me."
as it turned out, he wasn't offering just friendship.
it wasn't supposed to go further than that. but between the way heeseung's eyes kept lingering on the smooth skin of your upper thigh and the flirtatious jokes he kept cracking throughout the drive to your apartment, it was hard to ignore the growing tension in his car.
"so⊠we're here." you muttered as he pulled to the sidewalk in front of your apartment.
"guess we are." he smiled weakly. "don't tell me you want me to open the door for you too?"
"fuck off." you replied, lacking the usual venom the words usually came with. "thank you for the night, hee. i had a great time."
"i did, too. you be safe, 'kay?"
you stared at each other for a beat before you finally broke it off by stepping out of the door. you took a few steps before you heard the quiet whirring of the passenger window rolling down.
"you can just give my jacket back on monday, by the way." heeseung hollered with a smug smile on his pretty face.
you gasped softly, realizing the only thing that was keeping you from shivering all night was still wrapped around your shoulders. "oâoh. um.." you bit your lower lip, mentally chastising yourself from the decision you were about to do. "actuallyâit's still quite cold. do you want to warm up inside for a few minutes? have some water⊠or something."
heeseung's impulsiveness has brought him to many places, but for it to bring him in front of your doorstep was the last thing he expected. he'd be a liar to say he didn't feel the suffocating electricity in the bar, and even more so when he got you alone in his car, but he was dead set on staying true to his words.
however, the moment he got you alone in your apartment, his hand immediately cupped your cheek. he pulled you in for a kiss filled with need and urgency and every emotion pent up from the months where you pretended like he was invisibleâone so slow, yet so deep that it left you in a daze after.
"sorry. i⊠got carried away, i think." he muttered, quietly gulping. his forehead was still pressed on yours, doe-like eyes looking for assurance in your half-lidded ones. instead of giving him a proper answer, you pulled him back in for another kiss.
and the rest was history.
all your friendsâthe same ones who were so insistent in making you guys exist in the same roomâsaid it shouldn't have worked as well as it did. you came across as cold, composed and too structured, where heeseung was warm, exceptionally loud, and thrived on free-balling whatever problem life threw at his way. they said you were too different, but you balanced each other out, mellowing each other's strong traits and ugly habits through careful compromises.
if anything, the fact that you had fundamental differences was the reason why your relationship thrived so much. but the phrase "opposited attract" can only go so far.
you picked your phone up again, thumb hovering over heeseung's name in your messages. you tapped once, reading through the last conversation.
from: heeseung lee. â princess i'm coming over with ramen and my switch. can we play pokemon tgt pls
to: heeseung lee. â i'm still studying but the door's unlocked if u just want to hang babe
from: heeseung lee. â be there in 15. i love you < 3
that was the last text he ever sent.
the truth is, you don't remember the details of how you broke up. or why, for that matter. all you knew was that you were both on edge the night he came over, exhausted from a long day and already dreading the weight of what the next day would hold.
heeseung wanted to find solace in your presence but you were too absorbed in your responsibilities, not even bothering looking up from your meticulously organized notes. you had books, pastel highlighters, and sticky notes scattered on your desk when he barged into your room.
he nudged your shoulder, begging for scraps of your attention but you kept brushing him off, muttering an empty promise about only needing a few minutes more.
"baby⊠come on. that assignment can wait. it's likeâ fuck, do you even care about me? about us?"
"the world doesn't revolve around our relationship, heeseung. unlike you, i actually care about things bigger than just 'us'."
heeseung got offended and accused you of being too callous. you muttered something passive-aggressive about his childishness under your breath, telling at him to stop putting words in your mouth.
what started as a petty argument quickly escalated into a full-blown screaming match with you pushing at his chest and him saying shit just to be cruel and get you to back down. but much like him, you were stubborn. annoyingly competitive, too. so you fought back twice as hard, hurling remarks you didn't really mean but you said them anyway just for the sake of winning.
in the grand scheme of things, losing the argument was a much better option than losing heeseung entirely.
you didn't know it then, but you definitely knew it now that you were alone and reminiscing through the good and bad times of your relationship like a pathetic loser while he was on the other side of your small university town, drinking with the friends you used to share, probably having a great time now that he's severed himself from you.
you bit your lip as your thumb hovered over the keyboard on your screen.
hey. no, that sounds too casual considering how the both of you ended things.
still out drinking? one, you sound pathetic. two, he'd find out you were stalking.
i miss you. noâthat's stupid and fucking desperate.
you bit on your lip, trying out different variations of what text to send when you felt your bed rocking slightly. you paused, glaring at the wall of your bedroom.
jesus christ. just how hard were your neighbors fucking?
you slipped on your fluffy slippers and stomped out of your bedroom, prepared to give them an earful when the floor moved underneath you again in gentle horizontal sways. you gripped on a shelf, eyes widening in realization.
panic swiftly overwhelmed your senses. you learned about this in a disaster management seminar. drop to the ground. find something sturdy for cover. hold until the shaking stops. but your body wasn't following suit no matter how loud your mind scrambled for you to act.
not until the ground shook again. stronger this time. violent enough to sway the hanging lamps and throw you off balance. so much of the dust that have accumulated on your shelves fell like fine grey snow while you crawled towards the questionable safety of your dining table that it turned the room slightly hazy. or maybe it was your tears. you didn't really know anymore.
you heard glasswareâa collectible, probablyâdrop somewhere behind you, making a loud shatterring sound resonate across the moving room. it made you cry even louder.
the shaking made everything clatter. from the cultery in your shelves to the pen organizers rattling in your room. you heard the shuffling of feet outside your door, mixed with your neighbors' cries and shouts. you wanted to run with them, to leave for safety, but terror had your body paralyzed. you could only sob while you hugged your knees closer to your chest, one arm holding the dining table steady over your head.
this was it. this was the end of you.
through your terrified sobs, you unlocked your phone. and with trembling thumbs, you typed out a messageâthe words you truly wanted to say.
to: heeseung lee. â i love you.
heeseung was on the backseat of an taxi. he was tipsy, the apples of his cheeks and tips of his ears still blooming red from his inability to process the ungodly amount of alcohol he consumed tonight. he was never going to let beomgyu hold a bottle of patron ever again.
with a soft groan, he rested his head against the glass while staring at the view outside with heavy eyelids. it was odd how many people were out in the streets when it was already so late at night, but he wasn't one to judge considering how he spent his.
an ambulance passed by the car. a firetruck. then, another ambulance.
heeseung brushed off the shrill whirring sound they made, but the driver was quicker to pick up on what happened.
"did you feel it, sir?" the older man asked, shooting him a look through the rearview mirror as he weaved through the road easily.
"feel what?" heeseung replied, sitting up straighter.
"i think there was an earthquake. must be why traffic's so light. you never really feel it inside a moving metal can, can 'ya?" the driver joked then laughed softly.
unease settled in heeseung's chest. the new information sobered him up quickly, allowing him to scan the city outside with a clearer vision, clearer mind. people were huddling together.
a few were still in their work-attire, eyes glued to their phones. an elderly person getting tended to by the medic. a young couple who held each other with tears in their eyes.
his phone vibrated and he was quick to snatch it from his lap, dread stealing his breath as he read the three words.
from: one and only ⥠â i love you.
he stared at the message with tears welling in his eyes.
where are you? are you with your friends? are there aftershocks? are you inside? are you safe? god, he could only pray you are.
he gripped on his phone, voice shaky as he begged the driver. "sirâcan we go to a different address? it's an emergency. i'llâi⊠i'll pay extra! aâanything! justâplease."
the driver, clearly surprised, just nodded as heeseung stammered out your building's location which he knew by heart. the man's eyes flew back to the rearview mirror every now and then, feet pressing on the gas in sympathy for the boy who couldn't seem to sit still.
you weren't answering his calls nor his texts. he hit up your other friends but most of them were either asleep, ignored him, or had no clue where you were. but he was going to chance waiting for you in front of your apartment anyway.
the taxi came to a stop a few blocks away from your apartment. "this is as far as i can goâit looks like emergency services blocked the way in." the driver whispered in apology. heeseung only nodded and fished out a generous bill, whispering a quiet 'thank you' as he quickly exited the car.
his body moved on autopilot as he weaved through the familiar path to your building. his sneakers sounded percussive with each stomp his running feet made against the asphalt. he bumped into a few strangers but he couldn't be asked to look back or apologize. time was of the essence. each second was precious and he couldn't risk coming late. not when the consequence meantâno. he couldn't bear thinking of it.
you're so fucking unfair. even with your final message, you made sure you'd be able to come out on top of it winning. to be the good one. to be the one who came back. the one who forgave. the one that loved the other more.
but him⊠the last words he had for youâwhat were they?
he doesn't even remember. the adrenaline rush and the hurt that ensued after it blurred whatever memory he had of that night. he could only hope it wasn't something too harsh.
if his greatest fear did happen, he wouldn't be able to live with himself knowing that that fight was your last memory you had of him. of him screaming that he regrets being in love with you. of him concluding the beautiful thing you had with a slammed door.
"i love you. i love you too. pleaseâfuck!" heeseung screamed. his lungs burned with each desperate inhale. the soles of his feet were pounding with hurt. salty tears naturally got swept away from his face by the wind as he ran with all his might.
the sound of sirens grew louder as his tired feet came to a stop. his calls for your name got drowned out by the cacophony of voices speaking all at once and the distorted, crackling sound of a personnel speaking through a megaphone rose above it all.
"ânot panic. please calmly evacuate to the open parking lot across the building. medics will tend to those who need it shortly."
"Y/N! excuse me! have you seen the tenant from 418-A? ma'am, have you seen the tenant from 418-A? this girl?" he asked repeatedly, even fishing his phone out to show them a picture of you. the people either brushed him off and walked past him in search for their own safety. his eyes skimmed over the different faces, fear seeping deeper into his bones the longer it took to find you.
he stood on the tips of his toes with eyes squinted to fight against the blinking headlights of the parked cars. "Y/N! Y/N!" he shouted helplessly, his hair messily falling over his forehead after running his finger through it for the millionth time.
just then, he saw the security guard of your building. an old man in his mid-50s who's grown fond of the both of you. heeseung, more than you, if he could admit, especially after seeing him come over so often, once even carrying you like a sack of rice over one shoulder after you blacked out at jake's party.
"mr. wooâ"
the guard's eyes widened. "heeseung-ah, you're hereâŠ"
he wasn't expecting to see heeseung tonight. especially not after he stormed away months ago and never reappeared with you again. though if the worried expression and the anxious twitching of his fingers were anything to go by, the old man already knew why he was here.
mr. woo pointed to the children's park nearby, patting his shoulder. "don't worry, son. she was the first tenant i looked for after the shaking stopped."
the relief he felt might have been able to bring him to his knees if only heeseung wasn't so determined to be reunited with you. he whispered a breathless 'thank you' before running to the direction the older man pointed at, weaving his way through the small crowd shoulder first.
there, he found you.
sitting on a rusty swing set. alone.
you were in mismatching pajamas, hair getting swept by the wind, clearly showing the quiet distress in your red-rimmed eyes. you looked even smaller and more frail now, shaking like a leaf as you clutched on your phone. nothing like the confident, reassured woman he'd grown to love.
your empty gaze was directed out in the distance, police lights bouncing pale hues of blue and red against your complexion. you looked beautiful, even with the awful situation you've been put into.
as if sensing his presence, your eyes turned to his direction.
heeseung met your eyes and he swore the world stopped moving. no sirens, no crying children, no brassy megaphone announcements. just your tearful eyes and the unstable whisper of his name.
heeseung was on you in an instant, one arm around your waist and the other guiding your head to the crook of his neck. "heeseungâhâheeâŠ" you whispered in disbelief, eyes fluttering shut as you hugged him back and melted in the warmth of the embrace.
the rush of adrenaline from running had started wearing off, and the familiarity of your scent clouded heeseung's mind before he could remember the promise he made to himself not to break down if he ever saw you again.
"Y/N. you're here, you're safeâi kept looking for you. god, you scared me so much." the words tumbled out of his mouth, only muffled by the lips half-pressed to your temple as he shakily held you to himself while crying.
there was no pride anymore. no ego nor arrogance.
shock, fear, and longingâall of the emotions you set aside for the sake of survival came crashing down all at once. your own tears turned his sleeves damp while you spoke through your sobs. "hâheeseung. i was so scared. i was so fucking scared. it was so noisy and everything was breaking and shaking, and i thought i was going toâ"
heeseung hushed you, his large palm rubbing soothing lines across your back all while tears of his own ran down at the horrible thought. "shhh, no no. don't think of that, baby. you're safeâi'm here. i'm here now, right? you're okay. you'll be safe here in my arms."
the night was much more calm now that the people left. one by one, the ambulances and firetrucks left, their sirens fading out along with the noise of the people who previously crowded the park. you overheard some choosing to settled in airbnbs, but most just opted to spend the night in a hotel.
you stayed behind, mind too muddled to even worry about what next steps you should be taking. you just watched them leave, and heeseung sat beside you on the sidewalk with a pinky finger linked to yours like a quiet promise of staying.
"the earthquake wasn't too strongâit wasn't even felt from the next city over. it barely reached a 3 point magnitude. thankfully didn't cause any casualties. at least that's what the articles said." heeseung whispered from beside you.
"oh, is the signal already back?" your words got cut off by the incessant ringing on your phone. multiple texts and notifcations flooded it back to back: a few of your friends checking up on you, a few missed calls from your family, a few from the man whose jacket was draped over your shoulders.
to: heeseung lee. â i love you.
from: heeseung lee. â Y/N? what is this?
from: heeseung lee. â is this because of the earthquake?
from: heeseung lee. â you're scaring me. please tell me you're okay.
from: heeseung lee. â [ you missed a call from the sender. ]
from: heeseung lee. â love. please answer the phone.
from: heeseung lee. â [ you missed 3 calls from the sender. ]
from: heeseung lee. â i love you too. i love you more.
from: heeseung lee. â i never stopped. you have to be there to tell me this again in person okay?
from: heeseung lee. â i love you, princess.
for the first time, a smile cracked on your lips, albeit a weak one.
"what're you smiling about?" heeseung asked from beside you, craning his head.
you tilted your screen towards him, nudging his shoulders jokingly. "talk about clingy."
heeseung blushed, but he didn't really feel shame in what he did. "you weren't replying. i was losing my mind in the taxi, you know."
"i'm sorry for texting you out of nowhere, hee." you said after a while, staring at the pebbles under your feet. "i was convinced i was going to die andâŠ"
"and?"
"and you were the first person i thought of." you finally admitted, biting down on your lip. "i guess i didn't want to leave some things unsaid. is that selfish of me?"
heeseung just smiled, shaking his head. "nah, i don't think so."
silence enveloped the both of you again. the air suddenly turned heavy, as if it was telling you no jokes or casual conversation could gloss over the fact that the two of you still found yourselves sitting side by side despite the fact that you both wordlessly agreed not to cross paths anymore after that night.
"you don't have to apologize, you know."
"hm?"
"about texting me, i mean. because you were the first thing i thought of, too." heeseung sucked in a deep breath before continuing. "the driver said there was an earthquake, then i got the message, and i damn near lost my mind in that taxi because⊠all i could think of was you. because you hate noise, you hate unexpected things, because you freeze during times of emergencies. fuckâi was so worried about you, Y/N. did you know i was crying while i ran here?"
"like how you're crying now?" you pointed out.
heeseung paused, feeling his cheeks and grimaced when he felt the dampness of his tears sticking to the back of his hand. he wasn't even aware he'd been crying. again.
you tilted heeseung's face towards you and gently wiped them away with sorrowful smile. "i think the only thing i'm good at is making you cry. i'm sorry."
"why do you keep apologizing?" he laid a hand over yours to keep it on his cheeks with eyebrows furrowed, frustrated at the unrecognizable amount of guilt in your approach.
you smiled softly as you swipe your thumb back and forth against his cheekbones. "because i'm ashamed that it took a threat to my life to admit that i loved youâthat i still love you. i was a coward who couldn't bring themselves to admit that when we were fighting because i thought it'd make me look weak and desperateânot even an hour, or a day, or a month after our breakup. and i feel like an asshole for doing this thing to you. you know... making you run all the way here, worrying about me and all."
heeseung removed your hand from his face and opted to hold it instead, long bony fingers intertwining with your own. he scooted closer to you and you rested your head on his shoulder. "i'd have done that whether you texted me or not."
you closed your eyes, tension growing in your jaw as your fingers dug into the back of his palm. "i know⊠butâ"
"i meant what i said in those texts, Y/N." heeseung laid a hand over your interlocked hands, gently squeezing yours in between them. "every single part of them. i love youâa whole lot. i don't think i ever stopped. everyday since our break up, i gaslit myself into thinking i could survive without youâŠ" he paused, then let out a soft sigh. "but considering how scared i was when i heard the news, i don't think i can. nor would i ever want to."
"i love you too, hee." you mumbled, smiling when you felt his lips press on the crown of your head. "you know⊠that night, i told you that there's a lot of things bigger than us. but whatever ambition, whatever stupid test i was studying for seemed so insignificant then. because when the ground started shaking⊠all i wanted under that dingy dining table was to be held by you."
and held you, he did. heeseung pulled you on top of him and wrapped his arms snug around you like he was afraid you'd disappear if he didn't hold on to you tight enough. your confession, the honest vulnerability behind them, gave him the courage to press his lips on yours.
the kiss drove home everything he needed you to know. a promise and an apology in the form of chapped lips meeting your own. his hands cupped your nape, an arm still securely wrapped around waist as heeseung poured everything out into the kiss.
it was passionate, full of eagerness, and bittersweet like the fear of almost losing you permanently mixed with the relief he felt because it was the same thing that brought you back into his arms. it seeped into the way he moved your lips against yours, languid and deep.
heeseung kept you close even as you pulled away for air. his hand carefully pressed on the small of your back, the other settling to warm your cheek as he pressed a final kiss on the corner of your mouth.
the world could end tomorrow for all you know. but in this specific time, and in this specific moment, the ground felt firm under your feet.
especially because heeseung was finally here to anchor you and keep your trembling figure steady.
YAN'S NOTESââ€âending is a bit shite and rushed, but i had to post it now or else it might never see the light of day again. kinda got the rush to write this back when me and my friends were on a trip and a mild earthquake happened, but never got to the ending until today lmao. also, i miss my bambhee a lot, so.
âPretty?â Jake called worriedly as he opened the door to his room.
You two had a date at his dorm when you unexpectedly got your period, not anticipating it at all. Yeah, it had definitely ruined your actual plans with your boyfriend for the night. But that was the least of your concerns right now. Your angel boyfriend went out to buy your sanitary products, heating pads, the biggest painkiller he could find (your demand).
âI got your stuff.â
You couldnât respond, you were hurting too much. You were curled up in fetus position. Luckily, you had some emergency pads in your bag so you werenât worrying about that at the moment.
âI found this electric heating pad. And I bought extra fluffy and thick socks, I read you have to keep your feet warm. Also I couldnât find a painkiller as big as my fist but I hope this will help. I asked a lady at the store.â
Your heart melted. Heâs so cute. My cutest boyfriend.
Only when he stepped in closer did he register your tear streaked face. âOh, baby⊠whatâs wrong?â He murmured softly as he sat down beside your trembling figure. You couldnât respond to him, so you just whimpered into his pillow, shaking your head.
He gently pushed away the strands of hair off your face to look at you properly. His puppy eyes widened. âOh my god, youâre burning.â He laid his hand on your forehead, quickly followed by his soft lips. He always claimed that this was the best way to feel if you have a fever. You werenât sure if you believed him.
âYou have a fever, baby.â He murmured softly against your forehead. He leaned back only slightly to look at you properly, his hands came to cup your cheek. âWhy didnât you tell me youâre sick, baby?â You weakly shook your head. âJust period symptoms.â Your voice was hoarse.
âOh-â
A sharp pang struck in your lower belly. You gasped as you curled yourself back to your position, your hands holding your belly.
But somehow, you had breathed in too sharply or moved too fast which resulted in your stomach churning. Before he could even understand what was happening, you quickly stood up and ran to the bathroom in the hallway, next to his room.
âYn??â He hastily followed behind, yet you were already hovering above the toilet bowl. âBaby?? Whatâs wrong??â He knelt down behind you, his hands instantly curling around your waist. Normally, his warm hands always soothed you and gave you comfort, but unfortunately now, the wrong placement of his hands made you more nauseous.
You quickly pushed his hands away before you began to vomit. You didnât have the time to tie your hair, so you were trying to hold them back but some strands got dirty.
This was the rawest version of yourself you have ever shown to your boyfriend. Your relationship was still somewhat new, you have never shown him a bad side of yourself. You were beyond embarrassed, to say the least. But you couldnât dwell in the embarrassment for too long as you continued to struggle to hold your hair and vomit your guts out.
Jake on the other side was beyond worried. He had never seen a woman affected by her periods this severely before. Matter of fact, he has never seen a person empty their guts out. Yet, as new and terrifying the situation was, all he felt was deep concern. His chest tightened at the sight as he looked at you with shaky eyes. His poor yn.
He reached out to take hold of your hair. But you shook your head in refusal. âLet me hold your hair,â he tried. But you refused once again. Your eyes were burning. Maybe more because of the humiliation than the literal fact that you were retching. You didnât want him to see you like this.
And of course it got worse.
âIs everything alright?? Whatâs wrong??â A bewildered Niki stood outside the bathroom, worried eyes looking at your hunched body. The door wasnât closed. The humiliation intensified 10x. âIs she okey??â
Vomiting in front of your boyfriend was one thing, but in front of his members? Yeah, that was truly the worst thing that could happen.
Before Jake could tell him that he didnât know either, you rasped a quiet âclose the doorâ. Jake froze for a second, not quite understanding what you told him. But as soon as he got it, he quickly shut the door in his face.
Eventually, your guts were emptied out but you still needed a few seconds until the gagging reflex stopped. And Jake sat there beside you, feeling like the dumbest and most useless person on earth. His hands were ready to hold you but by now he understood that he needed to give you space.
âBabyâŠâ he murmured softly. His heart clenching at the sight.
Exhausted, your arm gave up to hold your hair, and you let yourself collapse on the cool tiles of the bathroom, curling your body slowly in. You didnât care about the fact that you laid there on the dormâs bathroom floor with dirty hair.
Slow tears escaped your eyes. Gosh, so humiliating. Iâm such a mess.
Jake leaned slowly forward, still keeping his distance. He bit his lip in worry. He didnât want to say or do anything wrong. But he wanted to hold you in his arms so badly.
Your glassy eyes met his. âThis happens sometimes.â You rasped quietly. He almost didnât catch it. A faint pout formed on his face. Concern overflowed him. âIs this also a symptom?â His tone was soft, like he was cautious if he spoke too loud something might happen.
You nodded weakly. Tears formed in your eyes again, you closed them immediately. âIâm sorry.â You whispered.
âWhat? No, baby.â He shuffled closer to you, his hand slowly came to pat your head. âWhy are you sorry? Iâm sorry. I should help you⊠but I donât know what to do.â
Your lips trembled as you shook your head again, hiding your face from him. Then your shoulders began to shake as you just let yourself cry.
âBabyâŠâ you ignored him as you continued to silently cry. You hated this. So much. Yet the need to be comforted by your boyfriend was also there. Even though you felt embarrassed and wanted to hide.
âHeyâŠâ he murmured softly, you continued to hide your face with your arm. âitâs okey, my love.â He pressed a gentle kiss on your temple, his lips lingering as if he wasnât ready to let go. âItâs okey. Iâm here.â His hand never stopped patting your head as the other went to grasp your hand. His fingers curled around yours, his thumb faintly brushing over your knuckles. âIâm not going anywhere, hm? Itâs okey, it will get better soon.â He hushed you as he pressed another kiss on your temple.
A sob escaped from your mouth causing a dull throb in your uterus. You gasped, your fingers tightened around his hand. He squeezed your hand lovingly, murmuring sweet nothings into your ear as his other hand continued to pat your head.
When the pain stopped for a moment, you knew you had to take the chance to get up. With wobbly arms and legs you struggled to stand up. His arms immediately moved to hold you, his warm hands went your shoulder, helping you. But you shook your head, croaking a tired no. âWhen I make a wrong move, it will get worse.â You explained as you supported yourself on the sink. Jake nodded softly, his doe eyes following you.
âCan you-â you hesitated. His eyes turned softer than before. âJake⊠Can you give me a moment? Please?â
Jakeâs shoulders slumped, almost unnoticeable. He hesitated for a moment, you looked like you were one step away from collapsingâhow could he leave you alone like this?
âOkey⊠Iâm waiting outside, okey? Call me if you need anything.â As he was about to shut the door he quickly peeked inside, âdonât lock the door, yeah?â He couldnât help but worry that you might faint in the bathroom all alone.
After you had freshened up, brushed your teeth and washed the dirty strands of hair, you hesitated to meet your boyfriend again. You were still embarrassed that you vomited all over his bathroom. You stepped outside, hunched and clutching your lower stomach.
âJake?â He snapped his head back at you, he was in the middle of arranging his blanket and fluffy pillows for you. He had already plugged in the electric heating pad, water and the painkillers waiting for you on the nightstand, alongside some freshly heated leftover because he remembered that you didnât eat anything yet.
âI think I should head back home now.â
He gave you a bewildered look, âwhat??â He quickly went to you, taking your hands in his, âno, baby, youâre not leaving! Look at you! Youâre about to faint any minute!â Your face was pale, sweat lingered on your skin, your hands trembled due to fatigue.
âButâŠâ a lump formed your throat, ââŠI donât want you to see me like thisâŠâ you mumbled quietly as tears formed your eyes.
He shook his head with scrunched eyebrows, not liking your answer at all. âWhat are you talking about?? Come here.â He sighed as he urged you to lay down by pulling you to the bed.
âJake-â you gasped at the sudden movement. Eyes squeezing at the pain.
He halted immediately.
âSlowly.â You rasped. âI canât move too fast or Iâll feel nauseous again.â His heart ached at your vulnerable voice. He nodded even though he didnât quite understand what was happening.
Thatâs how you found yourself in his bed. Painkillers swallowed, heating pad snug warmly against your lower abdomen with your boyfriend spooning you with upmost care.
âIs this okey?â He spoke softly. You nodded against his pillow, your eyes fluttering shut. Your hands rested on top of his as he gently pressed the heating pad on your lower stomach.
âDoes this happen every time?â He asked after a while. âSometimes. When I donât take the painkiller on time.â
He nodded against your neck, not quite understanding what was really happening with your body, what you meant by âsometimesâ or âon timeâ, but his heart was aching nonetheless. He didnât like seeing you like this. Thatâs what he knew for sure.
Absentmindedly, his hold tightened around you. You whimpered painfully. âOuch, Jakey- no-â
His hold relaxed immediately. âOh my god, Iâm so sorry-â he panicked.
âItâs okey.â You leaned your back against his chest, âjust be careful.â You took his hands in yours and guided them underneath your shirt as you pushed down the hem of your pyjamas. You placed his hands cautiously on your lower belly, he could feel the warmth from the heater lingering on your soft skin.
âIâm really sensitive here. It gets quite swollen here during the first couple of days. You feel the difference from usual?â
His soft hands rested there, lingering and feeling. âIt does feel different than usual.â
âYeah- I donât think itâs normal that it gets swollen like this. But thatâs what happens.â You let out a small laugh, immediately hissing afterwards at the ache.
âCan you move your hands like this-â you guided his hands by holding his wrists. âYes- just like that,â you sighed as you closed your eyes at the relaxing feeling of his fingers massaging your sore belly muscles.
Jake kissed the back of your neck, rubbing the area exactly how you showed himânot too fast nor too rough. His fingers glided over your swollen lower belly with upmost care.
He hated seeing you so hurt. His heart truly ached at the sight. He buried his face in your hair, thinking about his girlfriend literally fighting for her life made him sad.
You squeezed his wrists affectionately. âThank you, Jaeyunie. This is helping so much.â
âOf course, pretty.â He kissed your neck again, glad he was able to give you some comfort.
As he continued to massage your belly, your small voice echoed through the room, exhaustion evident in your voice: âThis is way better than being alone.â
âIâm glad I can help, baby.â
âIâm sorry for ruining our date.â You mumbled in embarrassment, âI canât believe I vomited. And Niki saw it, too. Its so embarrassingâŠâ
âHey. Donât be embarrassed. Youâre hurting, baby, thereâs nothing to be embarrassed about.â He kissed your shoulder, his tone soft yet scolding.
âBut stillâŠâ
âNonsense, my love. Now close your eyes and sleep. Iâll be here when you wake up.â
A lump formed in your throat. Your heart squeezed, you were so lucky to have such a wonderful boyfriend.
âI love you.â You pouted, eyes turning misty. The hormones really messed you up.
âI love you too, pretty.â
âI donât deserve you-â
âShh.â He shushed you. âSleep. Now.â He pressed a kiss on the shell of your ear.
He waited for your breath to even out. âYou deserve everything and more.â He softly murmured at you before closing his eyes. His hands only came to a stop when he fell into slumber.
And thatâs how Ni-ki found you two: cuddled up and sleeping with Jakeâs hands resting on your lower belly.
He quietly tiptoed out of the room after placing your favourite snacks on Jakeâs nightstand along with anti-nausea tablets.
GENRE/CW: smut, angst, fluff, porn with plot, slow burn, multiple smut scenes, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it), lots of kissing, cunnilingus, blowjob, dry humping, fingering, car sex, mutual masturbation, spit kink, multiple orgasms, marking, crying. mentions of nicknames, pda, messy feelings and bets, subtle mentions of jaywon. lmk if i missed anything!
WORD COUNT: 30.9k words
SYNOPSIS: Jake is utterly oblivious to the fact that you are well aware how his sudden devotion to you is stemmed from nothing but a pathetic little bet. He is also unaware of the fact that you have been matching his energy, playing your part so convincingly that the line between performance and truth starts to blur, and you are not sure what is real anymore. OR, the classic bet trope twisted into bet inverse.
A/N: hihi loves <3 so i finally used my 2 year old idea and made it into a fic, it was soo fun to write and i could not have done it without doll (ily for sprinting w me always), i hope you guys enjoy it <3 all likes, comments, reblogs are highly appreciated! it keeps me motivated! iloveyou all and happy reading <3
CHAPTER ONE: Raised stakes.Â
If there was one word to describe Jake, it would be carefree.
Some deeper parts within him would care to disagree, however, he had perfected this art of burying them six feet under layers of easy smiles. At twenty-three, Jake was the hot Physics student pursuing Masters with a killer arm (or leg in this case) on the football field.Â
He had always been good at drowning out uneasiness with a bright grin, a well-timed joke that he somehow laughed at harder than the others, the easy way his hand would find the small of someoneâs back as he guided them through a crowded party. It worked, it always worked.
Hardworking to a fault, he balanced brutal training sessions, demanding coursework, and still found time to be the social glue of every group he touched. Clumsy in the most endearing waysâtripping over his own feet during victory celebrations or spilling his coffee down his jerseyâheâd just laugh it off, turning mishaps into stories.Â
So, in a word, Jake Sim was considered to be carefree by any living creature that had the slightest pleasure of meeting him.
And to put it simply, he enjoyed it. He basked in the attention thrown his way, not in a way that would label him as arrogant, it just came to him as easy as, well, breathing. All that effortless energy around him kept him sane, coming from a loving family, to having friends he could call his second family, he truly cherished it to the core.Â
Tonight the spring kickoff party in the quad thrummed under strings of warm fairy lights, the bass from the speakers mixing with the scent of grilled corn (to Jayâs absolute delight), spilled beer, and early cherry blossoms. Jake stood right at the center of it all, lean athletic build relaxed as he leaned against the brick pillar, red solo cup in hand, black hair falling in soft tousled waves. He ran his fingers through it absentmindedly while Heeseung gestured wildly mid-story, the group around him already cracking up at the enthusiasm of it all.Â
ââand then she just looks at me after the game, all flushed and smiling, and says you looked really good out there tonight. Next thing I know weâre back at her place and Iâm thinking, damn, maybe I should score more goals if this is the reward,â Heeseung said, smile wide as he took a swig from his cup.
Jay laughed at that, âyouâre too fucking easy,â he mumbled, taking a bite of corn, pairing it up with vodka right after.Â
Sunghoon leaned back against the pillar, smirking as he shook his head, âyou two are hopeless, now let me tell you guys about what real pleasure isââ
âSpare us the details,â Jeno mumbled, a tad bit tipsy with the amount of booze heâd been consuming, Jaemin holding him up, but his mind was elsewhere, planning something rather crazy to wash out the usual mundane conversation.Â
Jakeâs laugh rolled out bright, head tilting back and shoulders shaking with genuine amusement, âyou guys are practically whores,â he clicked his tongue, âbut yeahânothing beats that post-game high when someoneâs waiting for you looking like that. Makes all the bruises worth it.â He bit his lower lip lightly, still grinning as he scanned the lively surroundings, eyes crinkling warmly at the corners.Â
Across the grass, you stood with Jungwon and Karina near the low stone wall, Jungwon had dragged the two of you here earlier, insisting it would be lowkey fun because his Jay hyung had invited him and âitâs not like we have to stay forever.â The music played in the background, but your attention stayed on themâsharp little remarks about random campus drama, Karinaâs latest story about a disastrous blind date, the usual easy flow that made the noise somewhat bearable.Â
Jungwon glanced toward the center of the party, a small, reluctant smile tugging at his lips as he watched Jakeâs group, âJakeâs in full golden-boy mode tonight. Look at himâ Jay says heâs the same off the field, always cracking jokes even when everyoneâs half-dead from practice.â
Karina nodded, swirling the last of her drink slowly, âItâs almost unfair how he does that, wish i couldâve been that extroverted honestly.â
You followed their gaze without meaning to. Jake was mid-laugh again, black hair falling messily into his eyes as he ran a hand through it. The light catching the sharp line of his jaw, the way his whole body seemed to lean into the moment. Everyone around him was leaning in too, feeding off that bright, effortless warmth.Â
It made something tight and irritated coil low in your stomach. Not jealousy, no, just exhaustion at the performance of it all. The way the entire party seemed wired to orbit one guy who never seemed to run out of smiles or energy.
You shrugged, âheâs too loud. Must get exhausting pretending the worldâs that fun all the time.â
Jungwon bumped your shoulder lightly, his laugh soft and familiar, âcâmon, heâs not that bad. Jay swears heâs actually decent when you get him one-on-one. But yeah, he looks a wee bit too jolly tonight.â
Karina smirked, eyes glinting with teasing as she glanced at you, âyouâd probably shut him down in two seconds flat if he ever tried talking to you. Iâd pay to see that.â
You pressed your lips together for half a second, the thought of Jake Sim turning that sunshine smile on youâof him thinking he could just waltz into your carefully guarded spaceâsent a flicker of pure distaste through you. You werenât interested in being another notch, another story he told his friends the next day.Â
Your life revolved around the quiet satisfaction of getting things right, majorly focusing on, well, studies. Romance, especially the loud, golden-boy kind, had no place in it.
âExactly,â you said, tone edged with dry sarcasm, ânot interested. Letâs grab something from the food trucks and dip before it gets worse. Iâve hit my limit on forced fun for one night.â
You didnât mind being in the crowd as long as your friends were with you, however, you did mind the exhaustion creeping upon your body. No one but you were to be blamed for it. Going to the gym in the morning, catching up on lectures later, getting groceries, and now being at a partyâyouâd tired yourself out with the simple mindset of being busy is a blessing. It was true to some extent, albeit not in a way that your friends would agree. The conversation didnât dull as you started making your way out to eat with your best friends.Â
On the other side of the quad, Jake was only half-listening to the guys now, he felt himself getting comfortable in his smaller circle, it was exactly the kind of night Jake usually loved.
But his eyes kept drifting.Â
It wasnât as if it was his first time seeing you, especially when Jungwon was always around too, it was merely the fact that you kept your distance, always. Jake wasnât blind, he appreciated beauty which you carried around effortlessly. The lack of general courtesy to acknowledge strangers? Not so much.Â
You looked like you wished to be anywhere but here (which was true), making him wonder why. He ran his hand through his hair, messing the soft waves before smoothing them back down, a habit he barely noticed anymore.
Jaemin, who had been unusually quiet for the last minute, suddenly leaned in closer, voice dropping low enough that only their small circle could hear over the music, âwanna make things interesting?âÂ
Jay groaned, knowing his proposal would cause damage in the name of merriment, because thatâs how Jaemin thrived. Sunghoon was rather interested in knowing what was gonna be the deal here, and so, he continued.Â
âSee her? Jungwonâs friend?â The group turned and looked your way, Jay already opening his mouth to stop him, but of course, Jaemin was quicker, âmake her fall in love with you in a month.â
âWaitâme?â Jake echoed, the word half-laugh, half-disbelief, but the smile didnât quite reach his eyes the way it usually did.
Jaemin leaned in closer. His grin was sharp, almost scary, âyeah, you, in one month. Make Jungwonâs friend fall for you, hard. Like, actually in love with you to the point it gets public.â
Jayâs head snapped up so fast the corn on his plate nearly toppled, âJaemin, no. Sheâs notâfuck, sheâs not gonna be interested, at all. I literally know her, she keeps everyone at armâs length, especially guys like Jake, no offence.â
Sunghoonâs smirk didnât falter, but his eyes narrowed, interested now in a way that made Jakeâs stomach twist, âstakes?â
Jaemin didnât hesitate, âIf Jake winsâmakes her say it out loud, in front of usâhe gets the M4. Keys, papers, the whole matte-black beast. Mine for a month, and if he wants to keep it after that, itâs his. No take-backs.â
The circle went quiet for half a second before Heeseung let out a low whistle, cup frozen halfway to his mouth, âyour car? The one you wonât even let me sit in without a fucking background check?â
âYep.â
Jay dragged a hand down his face, shoulders tight, âJake, this is messed up. Youâll hurt her, and then youâll feel like shit, and sheâll hate you, and the whole groupâs gonna be stuck in the middle because Jungwonâs her best friend. This isnât a game, Itâs gonna blow up in both your faces.â
Jakeâs fingers found the back of his neck, then slid up into his hair without thinking. He messed them further, his eyes drifting across the quad again to where you were still walking away with Jungwon and Karina, posture straight, silver ring catching the light as you twisted it mindlessly.Â
He should say no. He should clap Jaemin on the shoulder, laugh it off, steer the conversation back to the upcoming football match or the thermodynamics midterm that was currently trying to murder all of them.Â
But something stubborn flickered in his chest. The same part that hated the idea of failing at the one thing he was supposedly best at, making people feel seen. You hadnât even looked at him twice.Â
One month, one girl who looked like she probably just needed someone nice to talk to and share her worriesâright?Â
Jake bit his lower lip for half a second, the way he did when he was locking in on a tricky play. Then the grin came back as bright and effortless, the one that always worked.
âDeal,â he said, not confident at all, though great at hiding it.
The group exploded, clearly not okay with the idea itself. Jay groaned louder, already shaking his head, âyouâre both idiots. This is gonna end badly.â
Sunghoon just laughed under his breath, leaning back against the pillar, âIâll take that bet too. Odds on Jake cracking first?â
Heeseung was already pulling out his phone, demanding proof in the form of media. Jaemin slapped Jakeâs shoulder hard enough to make his red solo cup slosh over the rim.
âDay one starts tomorrow, Jakey. Better bring everything youâve got.â
Jake laughed again, but when it settled, it left something quieter behind. Something that tasted a little (a lot) like doubt.
Later that night, when the place had emptied and the only sound left was the low hum of crickets, Jake lay on his back in his room. The mellow playlist he always played when the noise finally stopped drifted from his phone. His small notebookâthe one no one ever sawâwas open on his chest, a half-finished football formation doodled in the margin. He wrote one line.
She doesnât like loud spaces, or crowds.Â
He closed the notebook, pressed the heels of his palms into his eyes, and exhaled into the dark.
âWhat the fuck am I doing?â He whispered.
Across campus, you were already in your room, bullet journal open on your desk, silver ring still on your finger. You didnât know about the bet yet. All you knew was that Jake Sim had never looked your way before last night, and something about the way his eyes had followed you across the grass fell off.
You pressed your lips together, biting the inside of your cheek once, then wrote in the tiniest handwriting in the margin of tomorrowâs schedule.
Keep your distance from Jake Sim.
CHAPTER TWO: Bet inverse?
Jakeâs alarm went off at 6:47 in the morning like it always did, but this morning he didnât bother hitting snooze. He stayed there for a few seconds, staring at the ceiling, the bet from last night practically sitting on his chest. Jaeminâs evil smile and Jayâs warning kept on repeating in his mind.
He should have let it go, instead, he rolled out of the bed, pulled on his black hoodie and shorts, laced up his running shoes after freshening up. He knew where Jungwon lived, the dorms near the science buildings where there was always an influx of food carts nearby.Â
The distance wasnât long per se, but his breathlessness certainly made it seem like it was, and the little hope he had to spot you in the cold of this morning.
The sky was soft gray before the sun decided to show up, and Jakeâs lungs were burning in a way that made him feel good, hair sticking to his forehead by the time he slowed to jog near the coffee cart.Â
To his absolute luck, he spotted you right there as you thought what you should order from the coffee cart, looking too proper in your jeans that fit you just right as if it wasnât so early in the morning, and he took a moment to observe you, breathing hard, wiping his face on the sleeve of his hoodie. He stepped up beside you, the scent of your perfume overtaking his senses.Â
His friends called him weird for this rather peculiar habit of his where he leaned in too much to get a sniff of, well, practically everything. So, it was hard fir him to control himself at the moment.
âY/N,â he said, voice low so it wouldnât startle you, âuhâhey.â
You turned, eyes meeting him before you granted him the smallest nod of acknowledgement, âJake.â
The barista waited and Jake kept his hands in his hoodie pocket so he wouldnât fidget, âone Americano for me, and whatever sheâs havingâIâll cover it.â
You frowned at this because Jake truly had no reason to be talking to you here, much less paying for your drink, âyou really donât have to.â
âI know.â He offered a half-smile, the real one, âbut I want to. Weâve been around each other enoughâJungwonâs parties, that study hall last semester. Felt kinda stupid that weâve never actually talked.â
You studied him a second longer, like you were trying to decide if this was a line or just politeness. Then you told the barista your usualâvanilla latte, extra shot, and stepped aside while the machine hissed to life.
The silence between you wasnât awkward exactly, Jake could feel the bet sitting heavy in his throat, but right now it was betterâthe way your perfume kept drifting over every time the breeze picked up. He wanted to lean in again, but he didnât.
When both cups came out he handed yours over carefully, no fingers touching, just the warm cardboard passing from his palm to yours.
âUhâthanks,â you said simply before you started walking.
He fell in beside you, matching your stride without crowding your personal space. The path was empty enough to give you both privacy which you didnât need as his heartbeat felt a little too loud in his ears, and for the first time, he found himself being nervous to talk to someone.Â
After half a minute you spoke again, âso how do you always act all nice for people you barely know?â
His lips curved, âI donât do that, not really. Usually Iâm the one everyone expects to keep things light,â he mumbled, âI saw you last night, you lookedâbothered? Made me wonder what itâd be like to actually talk to you instead of just watching.â
You took a sip, wondering how he so casually admitted to staring at you, âand whatâs the verdict so far?â
He glanced sideways, the early light was starting to hit the side of your face, âstill figuring it out. But the coffee seems like a decent start.â
You didnât smile, not really. But something in your expression eased, and it made him feel a little accomplished, as if heâd won something small and fragile that could disappear any moment.
The path split ahead, biotech building looming on the left. You slowed, turning to face him fully. For a second the guarded look cracked open, and he caught something underneath itâirritation, maybe, or the faintest flicker of curiosity you didnât want to admit to.
âIâve got lab,â you said.Â
Jake nodded, the easy warmth still on his face even though his stomach twisted with how badly he wanted to ask one more question, âyeah, of course. See you around, Y/N.â
You gave one small nod then turned and walked toward the doors. He stood there until you disappeared inside, the taste of black coffee bitter on his tongue and the ghost of your perfume still clinging to the air around him. He breathed it in once, almost guilty, then let it go.
Back in his dorm he dropped onto the bed still in his hoodie, the room quiet. The small notebook he never let anyone see was already open on his lap. He stared at the blank page for a long moment, before writing: Vanilla latte with an extra shot, morning lectures in lab 291.
He closed the notebook, pressed the heels of his palms into his eyes, and stayed like that until the pressure behind them eased.
Meanwhile, you were beyond confused narrating it to Karina later, who gave you a dry chuckle, âyeah, donât entertain him,â she said, and you scoffedâas if youâd ever do that.Â
But three days had passed since the party, and it was as if Jake had made it his personal mission to accidentally run into you whenever you least expected him to. Somehow, he had managed to get your schedule, which is why he was standing outside your lecture on the very next day.Â
Jake was a poor actor and highly unaware of the same, so his exclaimed Oh, Y/N, felt rather comical to you, granted he had two coffees in his veiny hands. You chose to ignored him, face pulling into a natural smile for a second, and he stood there shocked, only to realize you were waving at Jungwon who stood behind him.
Jake stood there for a few minutes, not moving even when you had left while Heeseung and Sunghoon stood right there, judging him. Your smileâas brief as it was, had been pretty, too fucking pretty, and doubt crept up Jake. He wondered if heâll ever be able to coax that smile out of you himself.
The thought followed him through the rest of the day, sharp enough to make him reroute his afternoon lecture so he happened to be near the vending machines right as you stepped out of lab. He was there again the morning after that, leaning against the wall outside the biotech building with a single vanilla latte in hand, the extra shot already marked on the side in the baristaâs neat handwriting. Each time he appeared, he kept his voice low, never demanding more, though it felt like a blow to his ego how you actively tried to avoid him. He genuinely wished to talk to you (for the bet, of course).
By the third afternoon the rain had started, insistent against the library windows. You had slipped into the far back study nook, the one buried behind the tallest reference shelves, you needed itâneeded to bury yourself in studies and forget how Jakeâs persistence was beginning to thread through your days like a melody you couldnât quite shake.
You pulled out your bullet journal and started annotating protocols for the upcoming lab, pen moving with sharp precision, and you felt a presence behind you. You were most ready to snap at Jake, but it was Jaemin who found you instead.
He dropped into the chair across from you, smirking, like he had been waiting for this exact moment, âJakeâs been hanging around you a lot lately,â he said, voice light but knowing, âyou might fall for him.â
You set your pen down slowly, âwhat makes you think Iâll fall for him?â
Jaeminâs smirk deepened, âwell, chances are less but certainly never zero.â
You frowned, irritation rising, âwhat do you want, Jaemin?â
âI was getting to it.â He leaned forward, eyes glinting, âI wanna propose another bet since Iâm bored and I clearly care for you.â
âAnother bet?â You asked, brain finally working. Jake was following you around for a fucking bet, you shouldâve known.Â
Jaemin watched your face change and his grin widened, âI give you thirty days to make him fall for you. And I mean truly head-over-heels kind of fall, then reject him, then you win, since you clearly donât care about him.â
You stared at him, the words tasting bitter on your tongue, âI donât want to be involved playing with feelings.â
âIf he didnât care for your feelings, why are you holding back?â
âCause Iâm not like him?âÂ
âFair, but hereâs the dealââ Jaemin leaned in closer, voice dropping.
âIsnât he your friend?â
âYeah.â
âSo?â
âItâs fun.â
âYouâre insane.â
âSo Iâve been told.â
âWhat is he getting out of this?â
âMy car.â
Another scoff left your mouth at this, and Jaemin said heâd give you anything you wanted if youâd win. Nothing was in your mind honestly, but you were too pissed to let it go.
âAnd what will I get?â
âA chance to absolutely shatter Jakeâs ego, and that trip to Paris with your friends, youâve been eyeing it for a while now.â
âHow the fuck did youââ
âI have my ways,â he shrugged, but his eyes, oh his eyes were glimmering with joy. He almost seemed like a Cheshire cat.Â
So you agreed. Jaemin only smiled, walking away from you now, leaving you rather disturbed.Â
As if the universe itself had been listening, Jake walked past the end of the aisle at that exact moment, eyes scanning the shelves until they landed on you. You met his gaze head-on and gave him the smallest smile you owned, and he paused mid-step, lips parting like he might say something, then you looked away, not bothering with him anymore than you had today.
The game had just begun. And this time, you were the one holding the cards.
CHAPTER THREE: Ignorance isnât blissÂ
You ignored Jake.Â
It was rather easy to do so despite all the plans you had brainstormed to make him fall in love with you hopelessly. The day had been too hectic, and to say you were exhausted would be an understatementâeven the slightest voice would absolutely make you scream out in frustration given the state of your mind. Which is why you found yourself sitting in the bleachers, all silent and calm.Â
Truth be told, you didnât wish to get into this mess by any means, however, Jake wasnât one to give up. You scoffed at how heâd trade any strangerâs feelings for a stupid car, and even then heâd be celebrated for winning a bet.Â
Jake didnât know why but the past few days had been weird for him. He couldnât understand why you smiled at him in the library only to abruptly disappear from the face of the earth nextâand yes, it bothered him because the time was ticking by. Maybe Jake was a lucky guy, cause right then, he found you at the bleachers, sitting up there as if trying to hide from the world.Â
It was clear you didnât wish to be disturbed, by Jake of all people, but his feet carried him before his mind could keep up, and thatâs how he found himself sitting three seats away from you, prepping to show his absolute best flirt game, but the only thing that came out of his mouth was, âare you okay?â
âWhy are you everywhere?â You exasperated, finally turning to look at him despite knowing heâd found you before.Â
For once he didnât jump in with some easy line. He just sat there a second, elbows on his knees, watching you like he was actually trying to read the mood instead of skating past it.
âI saw you from the path,â he said, âyou were up here alone, I figured Iâd check if you were okay. Thatâs it.â
You let out a sharp breath, the exhaustion from your day mixing with the frustration that had been building since Jaemin dropped his little bomb about the bet. This is all fake, you reminded yourself. Heâs only here because he wants that stupid car, that bet.Â
âChecking in, right. Youâve been turning up at the coffee cart, outside my lectures, the vending machines, now here. Iâm not in the mood for whatever this is.â
He shifted one seat closer, jacket creaking a little, but still left space between you, âIâm not trying to push. I know it probably comes off like Iâm in your face every day. Itâs justâyou always seem like youâre carrying a lot and youâre doing it alone. I guess I wanted to see if you were actually alright or if you were just pushing through.â
You turned to face him, eyes narrowing, âpushing through is what students do, Jake. I donât need an audience for it.â
âYeah, I see that,â he said, gulping as he stared at your side profile, âyouâre pretty resilient about it. Most people wouldâve already vented to someone by nowâand maybe you did to your friends but yeah.â
âResilient?â You let out a short laugh, âor just tired of everyone expecting me to perform. Unlike the quintessential golden boy whoâs always got a smile ready.â
Jake winced, looked out at the empty field for a second, then back at you, âgolden boyâouch, fair though. Thatâs the label I got stuck with.â
You crossed your arms tighter, âso, why are you up here trying to talk to me instead of being there with your friends? It doesnât add up.â
He rubbed his palm over his knee, âuhâwith them itâs nonstop noise, like I love my friends but itâs all just football practice, jokes, keeping the energy up no matter what. With youâit doesnât feel like I have to be that version of me.â
Jake leaned forward a fraction, elbows on his knees, âthereâs this whole dichotomy between what everyone sees and whatâs actually going on inside. Talking to you, itâs not like that.â
âNot like that,â you repeated, the words coming out flat, âhow convenient, Jake.â
He swallowed again, eyes flicking to your face as you said his name, âItâs not convenient, Itâs just true. You donât expect me to keep the vibe going, yâknow? You just say what you think.â
You felt your chest tighten. He sounded so damn eloquent even when he was lying, âyouâre really good at this, you know? Making it sound like you actually get it.â
âIâm not trying to be good at anything,â Jake said, voice dropping, âI just keep showing up because every time I do, I see more of the real you. Not the version you show everyone else.â
You let out a breath, he could definitely get a few points for acting, âokay, so listen thenâmy lab did suck today. Equipment kept failing, Iâm behind on three lectures, and I came up here to be alone, thatâs it. Nothing exciting.â
âHeyâi didnât ask for exciting,â he said, staring at the way your fingers still twisted the ring, âmy day was shit tooâcoach rode us hard about tomorrowâs game and I barely studied for my midterm. Sometimes I just want to sit somewhere and not pretend everythingâs perfect.â
You stared at him, âso you picked me to sit with? Out of everyone on campus?â
âYeah,â Jake said simply, meeting your eyes, âbecause you donât expect anything from me. You call me on my shit. Itâs nice, I guess.â
âWhatever, Iâm fine keeping my distance and acting like you care wonât change that, okay?âÂ
âI do care,â Jake let out too quickly, surprised at his own words, âthatâs the part you donât believe, but itâs true.â
The conversation was getting too real, too fast, and the knowledge of the bet made every word feel like a trap, âItâs exhausting trying to figure out if any of this is real or if youâre justââ
Mid-sentence, just as your voice rose, Jake closed the gap by embracing you into a hug. His arms wrapping around you without hesitation, one hand settling at your back, the other across your shoulders. The dark jacket was soft against your cheek, still warm from the afternoon sun, carrying that clean, steady scent that was just him.
You practically froze as his heartbeat thudded against your earâfast, as if the move had surprised him too. It was warm, really warm, making everything feel a little less heavy for a second. Even though you knew this was all part of the cursed bet, the gesture was still something, making your eyes sting. You couldnât remember the last time someone had held you like they actually meant it.
Jakeâs own breath caught as he held you. His pulse wouldnât slow down, guilt and something else he couldnât pinpoint made his heart seem heavier. For those few seconds he just held on, chin resting lightly against the top of your head, breathing you in like he could somehow make the whole stupid situation disappear.
It was awkward, because you in fact did not reciprocate the hug that well, proceeding to pull back with your cheeks burning. Jakeâs hands stayed on your shoulders for half a second longer than they should have before he let go, looking just as thrown as you felt. He closed his eyes, biting on his bottom lip too hard, panicking cause for once, he didnât know how to handle the situation.Â
The anxiety only rose as you grabbed your bag, planning on getting up, however, his slender fingers wrapped around your wrist, âIâve got a game tomorrowâIt would mean a lot if you came, no pressure. You donât have to stay the whole time or cheer or anything. Just comeâif you want to for a break.â
You didnât answer right away, watching him mutter it out all breathless, hair messy and cheeks seemingly red now. You barely caught on to his words, still processing the warmth, but a part of you did wish to reject him on the spot and walk away before the things got more complicated.Â
Another part wondered what would happen if you actually showed up, since you did have your own bet to take care of.Â
CHAPTER FOUR: Like a rom-com actorÂ
The next afternoon the stadium was already packed and buzzing when Jake stepped onto the field for warm-ups. He was supposed to be loosening up his legs, listening to the coach bark instructions, getting his head in the game. Instead his eyes kept flicking up to the stands every few seconds. The wind was blowing hard across the pitch, constantly shoving his black hair into his eyes no matter how many times he tried to push it back.
Jay jogged over and bumped his shoulder, âdude, earth to Jake? Youâve been staring up there like youâre waiting for the love of your life to appear. You good?â
Sunghoon, who was retying his cleats a few feet away, let out a low laugh, âheâs been doing it nonstop. Head snapping up every ten seconds. Whatâs got you so distracted today? You never get like this before a home game.â
Jake rubbed the back of his neck, forcing a casual laugh even though his stomach was doing flips, âIâm fine, just looking for someone.â
Jay raised an eyebrow, exchanging a quick glance with Sunghoon, âsomeone? As in a specific someone whoâs basically a bet? Damn, this must be serious if itâs got you this antsy within a week.â
Jake didnât get the chance to answer, because he finally spotted you.
You were sitting a few rows up with Jungwon and Karina, the wind tugging at your hair the same way it was messing with his. The second your eyes met his across the field, Jakeâs breath caught hard in his throat. His heart slammed against his ribs becauseâyou actually came? For a second he forgot how to move, just standing there staring like an idiot while the wind kept pushing his hair everywhere.
You gave him a small smile and lifted your hand, waving at him softly.
Jakeâs whole face lit up before he could stop it. Without thinking, he waved back enthusiastically, arm swinging high and wide as if he was trying to reach you from the middle of the pitch. His hair flew wildly in the wind as he did it, the motion so eager and over-the-top that Jay choked on his water and Sunghoon doubled over laughing so hard he had to grab onto Jayâs arm to stay upright.
âWhat the fuckââ Sunghoon wheezed, âyou just waved like a little kid who spotted his mom after school. Iâve never seen you do that in my life.â
Jay was cracking up too, wiping water off his chin, âyeah heâs absolutely finished. Down horrendously bad and itâs not even been a few days.â
âGuess we know whoâs gonna lose the bet,â added Hoon in a singsong voice.Â
âHe never stood a chance honestly.â
Meanwhile, around you, a bunch of girls in the stands noticed Jakeâs dramatic wave and immediately started squealing, waving back excitedly and calling out his name like heâd waved at all of them. A few even stood up, cheering for him loudly.
You raised an eyebrow, watching the chaos unfold with a mix of amusement and slight disbelief, âdamn,â you muttered, glancing at the crowd, âhe sure is famous.â
âAnd a player,â added Jungwon.Â
âAnd an asshole,â quipped Karina, arms crossed over her chest.Â
You had told them, of course you did, and watching them get so enraged on behalf of you did make you feel tons better, which shouldnât have been the case since they did threaten to chop Jakeâs dick off, but hey, the way Karina said it was quite comical.Â
Down on the field Jay spotted Jungwon in the stands and lifted his hand in a casual wave with a clueless grin on his face like nothing in the world was wrong. Jungwon just stared back with his jaw tight, not waving back as he was convinced Jay already knew about the bet and was somehow backing Jake up, and the thought made his expression go hard.
You nudged Jungwonâs side with your elbow, keeping your voice low, âcâmon, be normal, wave back or heâs gonna think somethingâs weird.â
Jungwon let out a reluctant huff, but he finally lifted his hand and gave a small, stiff wave. Jayâs grin widened like nothing had happened at all, and he turned back to the field, completely oblivious.
Karina groaned beside you, pulling her knees up to her chest against the wind, âI still canât believe weâre freezing our asses off here when we could be on your couch watching Harry Potter for the nth time.â
You let out a small laugh despite everything, the sound almost swallowed by the growing roar of the crowd as the teams lined up, âyou said youâd come for moral support.â
âYeah, well, moral support is currently questioning every life choice that led me here,â she muttered, but there was a reluctant smile tugging at her lips anyway, âat least the view isnât completely terrible.â
The whistle blew and the game kicked off in a whirlwind of motion. You tried to follow the ball, the quick passes, the way the players cut across the pitch, but your eyes kept drifting back to Jake. He moved with this radiant energy that pulled focus without even trying, hair whipping in the wind, legs eating up the grass, every sprint full of that effortless, captivating drive. The crowdâs cheers rose and fell in effervescent waves, but you didnât feel any better, still suffering with that familiar push-pull of suspicion and something warmer you really didnât wish to name.
The first half was all back-and-forth tension, both teams trading chances without anyone breaking through. Jungwon kept up a quiet running commentary under his breath, trying to keep things light, while Karina complained about the cold seeping through her jacket and how much better butterbeer would taste than the lukewarm soda they were selling. You nodded along, but your attention stayed glued to Jake, much to your friendsâ dismay. Every time he glanced toward the stands, even mid-run, your chest did this annoying little flip, which pissed you off.Â
Then the second half heated up. The score stayed locked until the final minutes, the air thick with anticipation. Jake got the ball near the edge of the box, dodged one defender, then another as he cut inside. The crowd held its breath as he struck it clean, a powerful curving shot that sailed straight into the top corner, past the keeperâs desperate reach.
The stadium lit up into celebration but Jake didnât celebrate with the team right away. He turned straight toward the stands, eyes scanning until they found you. Then he pointed, right at you, his whole face breaking into this bright, almost whimsical smile as he jogged backward, arm still extended like he was making sure the entire world knew exactly who that goal was for. His jersey had ridden up in the sprint, revealing the sharp, glistening lines of his abs under the stadium lights, every defined ridge catching the late afternoon sun for a fleeting second before the fabric fell back down.
Your heart raced, oh that traitorous little thing, thudding hard enough that you could feel it in your throat. Heat rushed to your cheeks even as the knowledge of the bet sat heavy in your stomach, whispering that none of this was real. Still, for that split second, with the roar of the crowd and his hair messy in the wind and that radiant look aimed straight at you, it felt too much. Too real perhaps? Too dangerous regardless. The enigmatic pull of him was getting harder to ignore, and you hated how easily your body responded anyway.
Karina snorted beside you, rolling her eyes so hard it was almost theatrical, âoh my god, could he be any more performative? Pointing like heâs the hero in some cheesy romance movie, puh-lease.â
Jungwon chuckled quietly, but his eyes flicked to you with that same protective glint from earlier. You didnât say anything, just stared down at the field as Jake got swarmed by his teammates, the final whistle blowing and the win sinking in. The crowd was still cheering wildly, but all you could feel was the lingering echo of that pointed finger and the confusing satiation it left within your chest.
Jungwon turned to you, voice low so only you could hear, âso, youâre actually going through with the plan?â
You let out a long sigh, shoulders dropping as you pushed yourself up from the bleacher. The metal was cold under your palms, âyeah, I kinda have to now. Itâs the only way to beat him at his own game.âÂ
Karina stood too, brushing off her jeans with a dramatic huff, âletâs get out of here before I turn into an icicle, you better make him drop down on his knees, babe.â
You nodded, hugging them both, but instead of heading toward the exit, your feet carried you toward the locker room area. You hated this part already, leaning against the brick wall, arms wrapped around yourself against the biting wind, you waited, every second dragging like you were standing there on purpose just to prove a point to yourself.
The door eventually did swing open and you watched Jake stepping out, hair still damp from the shower and curling softly at the ends, a fresh black hoodie hanging loose over his frame. He was laughing at something one of the guys said behind him when his eyes landed on you, causing him to stop mid-step.
For a second he just stared, surprise flickering across his face before it melted into this softer, brighter, almost disbelieving expression. His lips parted, and then he broke into the biggest, most genuine smile you had seen on him yet. It was radiant, boyish in how uncontained it was, his eyes lighting up like you were the best part of his entire day, and it made your throat go dry.
âHeyâyouâre still here,â he said, voice warm and a little breathless as he walked straight over to you.Â
You pushed off the wall, trying to keep your expression casual even as your heart picked up speed, âyou played really well out there. That last goal was incredible, it was the first time I experienced the whole stadium going crazy,â you said, completely ignoring the part where he dedicated that goal to you.
Jakeâs smile grew even wider, the kind that made the corners of his eyes crinkle. He ran a hand through his damp hair, still looking at you like he couldnât quite believe you were standing there, âyou really stayed for the whole thing. God, that means a lot. I kept looking up into the stands and there you were. Iâit motivated me, I canât even explain it.â
He looked so happy, so openly thrilled, his eyes bright and captivating under the fading stadium lights. The way he was looking at you, like your presence genuinely made his day, made something dangerous flutter in your chest despite the reality of it all. You stepped a little closer, heart hammering, and did what you had to do.
You rose onto your toes and pressed a soft kiss to his cheek, letting it linger for a second, âUhmâIâll see you around,â you murmured against his skin, starting to pull back.
But Jakeâs hand gently caught your wrist, stopping you. His touch was light, almost careful, like he was afraid youâd vanish if he held on too tight, since this did seem like a dream to him. Behind him, Heeseung had paused in the doorway, watching the whole exchange with an amused little smirk he wasnât even trying to hide.
âWait,â Jake said softly, still processing the kiss, his thumb brushing once over your skin, âyouâre leaving already?â
You swallowed, âyeah. I have an assignment I need to finish tonight.â
He nodded, but didnât let go right away, âright, of course.â Then, a little shyly, he added, âthereâs a party at the house tonightâbut if that doesnât work, weâre having a smaller one at the dorm in a few days. Just the guys and whoever shows up. You should come, I promise Iâll make it worthwhile for you.â
You hesitated, the warmth of his fingers and the hope in his eyes making it harder than it should have been, âIâm not really a party person, Jake.â
âI know,â he said quickly, voice gentle, âthatâs why Iâm telling you itâll be chill. No pressure at all, just come hang out for a bit. Iâll even make sure thereâs something better than cheap beer. Please?â
The way he looked at you, so earnest and a little nervous, made you feel guilty just a smidge. You could feel Heeseungâs amused gaze on the both of you, but you kept your focus on Jake.
âIâll think about it,â you said finally, offering a small smile.
Jakeâs eyes lit up like youâd already said yes. âThatâs all Iâm asking for.â
You gave him one last nod before gently pulling your wrist back and turning to leave, but Jakeâs hand caught your wrist again, gentle in his action, like he couldnât let the moment slip away just yet. He gave a light tug, drawing you back toward him until your back pressed against his chest. For a heartbeat you felt the solid warmth of him behind you, the faint dampness of his hoodie, the steady rhythm of his breathing. Then he leaned down, one arm slipping loosely around your waist as he pressed a kiss to your cheek.
His lips were plump and soft, warm from the shower, staying there for a second longer than necessary. The touch was rather unhurried, sending a quiet shiver through you that had absolutely nothing to do with the wind.
âJakeââ
When he pulled back, he bit his lower lip, eyes bright and a little shy as they met yours, âIâll see you tomorrow,â he said, voice hopeful, like the words were a promise he was already holding onto.
You managed a small nod, heart still stumbling over itself, and finally stepped away. The spot on your cheek stayed warm long after you turned the corner, and you wondered how this game was gonna end.Â
CHAPTER FIVE: Soaked and blue balled.Â
She gets cold so fast, shoulders hunch up the second wind hits.
She keeps twisting the rings on her index and ring finger.
She has a faint dimple on her right cheek.
She fits perfectly in my arâ
Now, Jake had not the faintest clue where he was going with this, yet he kept on writing under the pretence of keeping all the minute observations in a precise manner for his advantage. He stared at the page for another moment, then shut the notebook and tossed it onto his desk.Â
The ever so unforeseeable rain had started hammering against his window, and he watched one single raindrop cascading down the surface before he sat right up, grabbing an umbrella to head out without any destination in his mind. Well, he did have to bring Jay back from Jungwonâs dorm (who was facing this taxing challenge of acting normal around his hyung). It didnât go beyond that really.
He wasnât used to this silence and peace, he never really went out in the rain, calling it the perfect time to just play games with his friends. However, it was truly hard to pinpoint what made him rush out like this, only coming back to reality once he reached the lecture hall area. He was about to keep walking when he saw you pushing through the doors with Haechan beside you. Jake knew him, he was Jenoâs friend and also one of the dude who fucked around a lot.
Jake wasnât any better by any means, but he hadnât even thought of such a thing in the past eleven days. He simply stopped, watching how your umbrella showed no signs of cooperating in this windy weather, and your shoulders were starting to hunch in the same way Jake had noticed during his half time game yesterday.Â
He jogged to you, dismissing any other thought, especially the one that sounded a lot like Jayâs voice laughing at him for being too involved, âheyâwait up!â
You turned around, rain evident on your lashes already, and in that fleeting second, your mind was quick to admit his beauty under the dimness of the evening.Â
He lifted his umbrella higher, covering you completely as you lowered yours, the wide canopy shutting out the worst of the storm and pulling the two of you into a small, private bubble.
âJayâs over at your dorm with Jungwon right now,â he said, a little out of breath, water dripping from the ends of his hair. âHe needed some notes or something. I was heading there anyway to pick him up. Come on, my umbrellaâs bigger.â
You glanced at your own umbrella, which was flapping uselessly, âI have one.â
âYeah, but itâs not doing you much good,â Jake replied, stepping closer so the shelter stayed perfectly over you. His shoulder brushed yours as you started walking, âseriouslyâyouâll be soaked before you even get halfway. Let me walk you.â
Haechan gave you a quick, amused look and muttered something about seeing you in lab tomorrow before disappearing down another path with a wave, making you roll your eyes as he made missy faces, which Jake noticed.
The two of you fell into step under the umbrella. Jake kept it tilted toward you even when it meant his own left side kept getting wet. The closeness was apparent, his arm warm against yours, the faint clean scent of his shampoo mixing with the wet earth and rain. Every time you stepped around a puddle, his sleeve brushed your wrist, sending a small spark up your arm.
For a minute the only sound was the rain. Then Jake spoke, voice low and a little playful, âyou know, I was halfway convinced youâd avoid me today after yesterday.â
You let out a small breath of laughter, âI thought about it, then I remembered I donât own a boat and the campus flooded.â
He grinned, glancing down at you. The way the rain made your lashes look darker, the little droplets clinging to your skin, made his stomach flip, âlucky for me then. I wouldâve been stuck walking alone, getting soaked, feeling so sorry for myself.â
âYouâre still getting soaked,â you pointed out, noticing how his left shoulder was dark with water. Without thinking you shifted a little closer under the umbrella, your arm pressing more firmly against his.
Jake bit down his smile, âworth it. Besides, youâre warm and Itâs nice.â His voice dropped a fraction, âare you always freezing or is it just me that brings the chill?â
You rolled your eyes, but your lips curved despite yourself, âItâs the rain, genius. Though you do have a habit of making normal things seem complicated.â
âComplicated in a good way, I hope,â he said, the words light but his eyes searching yours for a second longer than necessary. His free hand brushed yours again as you both avoided another puddle, and this time his fingers lingered for half a second before he managed to pull himself back.
The rain kept falling, steady and heavy, but under the umbrella everything felt smaller, rather warmer, you noticed how steady his breathing was, how the warmth of him seemed to chase away the chill seeping into your bones. He bit the inside of his cheek because in that moment, he wasnât really acting, the wanton ease you provided him with was too real.
âYouâre weird,â you muttered, clearly not meaning any bit of it, and he knew the implication behind it, or maybe it was his maladaptive daydreaming.
The dorm building appeared through the silver curtain of rain. Jake slowed deliberately, drawing the last few steps out as if the walk could stretch forever. When you reached the small covered overhang by the entrance, he lowered the umbrella but didnât step away. Instead he moved in closer, guiding you gently until your back met the cool brick wall. The overhang sheltered you both from the downpour, but the world narrowed to the narrow space between your bodies and the solid wall behind you.
He was close now, so close you could see the tiny freckles across his cheek, the way his damp hair curled softly at the temples yet again, the faint flush across the bridge of his nose from the cold. His gaze moved over your face with quiet hunger, taking in every detailâthe way rain glistened on your skin, the soft flush on your cheeks, the faint dimple that appeared when your lips parted slightly. You looked so pretty like this, natural and glowing in the dim light, and the sight made his throat tighten.
You raised your eyebrow, heart hammering against your ribs, âJake?â
He only smiled, slow and unsteady, biting down on his bottom lip as he leaned in closer, closer, until the space between you was almost gone. His eyes dropped to your mouth, dark and wanting, then lifted again to meet yours. In that suspended second neither of you were thinking about the bet, about the car, about the game you were both playing. There was only the rain, the warmth of his breath against your skin, and the dizzying pull that made everything else disappear.
Right then the dorm door swung open with a loud metallic scrape.
Jay stepped out, nearly walking straight into the moment. He stopped short, eyes widening as he took in how close you and Jake were standing against the wall.
âWhoa, Y/N?â Jay said, a smirk already spreading across his face, âam I interrupting something?â
Your eyes widened in realization and you slipped sideways, ducking under Jakeâs arm without a word. You pushed through the door and disappeared inside, cheeks burning, the echo of the almost-kiss still buzzing hot in your mind.
Jake stayed frozen, then groaned hard. He turned and leaned back against the same brick wall, eyes falling shut as the rain continued to fall around him, umbrella now lowered. His heart was still racing, loud and unsteady, the ghost of your warmth lingering against his chest.Â
He let out a slow breath, jaw tight. Iâm going to kill Jay.
CHAPTER SIX: Jaemin the instigator.Â
Jake had only read a few books in his life, only one of which had a plot that truly stuck with him as someone who was never an avid enjoyer of reading literature. There was a line that kept replaying in his mind lately, more often than he cared to admit.
As soon as I saw you, I knew an adventure was going to happen.
Funny enough, it was from Winnie the pooh.Â
It isnât a romantic line, not even remotely, but he manages to fit it into his narrative perfectly, especially during the quiet. Mind drifting back to when the rain had been dripping from the eaves and your back had been against the brick and heâd leaned in close enough to feel the warmth of your breath. The bet had started as a stupid game. Now it felt like the kind of quiet adventure he hadnât seen coming.
Unfortunately, the distraction followed him to the practice field.Â
During a simple change-of-direction drill, his mind slipped again. The ball came low across the turf and Jake planted his left foot to cut inside, making his ankle roll with an ugly twist. It wasnt anything dramatic, just a sharp flare of pain that shot up his calf and dropped him to one knee, breath hissing between his teeth.
Jay reached him first, crouching down fast, âshit, Jake, what the hell? You good?â
Heeseung slowed beside them, still breathing hard, âdude, youâve been completely zoned out all week, likeâreally zoned out. This bet is fucking with your head too much, just call it off, man. For real.â
Sunghoon hung back a step, arms crossed, watching quietly, âcoach is gonna notice, yâknow? Itâs not worth it.â
Jake sat back on the grass, testing the ankle with a careful flex, the place already swelling under the sock. Minor, probably, but it hurt enough to make his eyes sting for a second,âItâs fine,â he muttered, forcing the usual half-smile, âjust a tweakâIâm good.â
From the edge of the drill Jaemin let out a soft, pleased laugh, âor this is actually perfect timing. Wounded-puppy Jake? Sheâs gonna eat it up.â He clapped Jake on the back once, âIâll handle it. You just stay looking all soft and grateful.â
Jay shot him a sharp look, âJaemin, I swear to Godââ
But Jaemin was already jogging off to find you.Â
You were stepping out of your last lecture when Jaemin fell into step beside you, which was kind of scary.Â
âJakeâs in the medical room,â Jaemin said casually, making your eyes go wide at the sudden voice, âtwisted his ankle pretty bad at practice. Trainerâs got him taped up with ice, might even sit out the next game if it swells.â
A flicker of worry did pass through your head, but then you shrugged, âhm, kinda sounds minor.â
Jaeminâs smirk was small, âcâmon, this is perfect for the bet. Heâs all vulnerable right now, best time for you to go and play nurse, make him fall a little harder. Youâre already halfway there anyway.â He bumped your shoulder lightly.Â
You sighed, the worry sitting heavier than you wanted to admit. Pretty bad, heâd said, âfineâIâll check on him.â
Jaemin grinned, satisfied, âatta girl.â He peeled off toward the dorms.
You told yourself you werenât going to bring anything. But the cafeteria line was short, and the smell of warm rice and simple broth pulled you in anyway. You ended up with a container of congee, a cold can of the original red bull, and two slightly squished steamed buns. Your hands stayed steady, but your pulse? Yeah, it didnât.
The medical room door was halfway open. You knocked once with your elbow and stepped inside.
Jake was on the padded table, left leg propped up, ice pack soggy at the edges. His practice jersey hung open, undershirt damp against his chest, dark curls still messy and sticking to his temples. He looked tiredâshoulders a little slumped, the usual bright energy dialed way down. For a second you just stood there in the doorway, and Jakeâs eyes lifted to meet yours.
He gulped at the sight of you, the way a few strands of hair had slipped loose after class, the small crease between your brows that you probably didnât even realize was there. You looked pretty like this.
Jay and Heeseung were hovering nearby. The second they saw you with the bag, they exchanged a quick glance.
Jay cleared his throat, lips twitching, âwell, look who showed up.â
Heeseung pushed off the wall with a low chuckle, âwe were just leaving anyway. Coach wants us back on the field.â He gave Jakeâs shoulder a gentle clap. âDonât be an idiot, yeah?â The two of them slipped out, the door clicking shut behind them and leaving the room suddenly quieter.Â
Jake cleared his throat, bottom lip bitten as he observed you walking closer, âIâyou didnât have to come,â he mumbled, flustered all of a sudden.Â
âYouâre really being shy at me visiting you? Arenât you the flirt of the campus?â You chuckled, âbut yeah, heard you fucked up your ankle pretty bad, figured youâd be hungry.âÂ
His ears flushed red, âyeah, wellâI wasnât expecting anyone here, least of all you showing up here with food,â he shifted on the padded table, wincing a little, âthanks, genuinely. I was mentally preparing myself to order takeout today.â
You set the bag on the counter, pulling out the container and a spoon, handing them over. Your fingers brushed his, absorbing the warmth of his skin, and he took the food with a grateful smile.Â
He peeled the lid back and took the first bite. His eyes fluttered shut for half a second. âGod, this is actually really good,â he murmured, âway better than anything I wouldâve scavenged later.â He ate quietly after that, the spoon scraping softly against the plastic, but every few bites his gaze lifted to you.Â
You dragged the plastic stool closer and sat down beside the table, elbow resting on the edge near his good leg, watching the way his throat moved when he swallowed, the small crease between his brows when he shifted his ankle, the way his damp hair fell across his forehead. He looked softer like this, stripped of the usual energyâwhich you had grown accustomed to.
âDoes it hurt too much?â You asked.
Jake shrugged one shoulder, âthrobs like a bitch when I put any weight on it. Nurse said itâs just a swelling, Iâll survive.â He took another bite, then glanced at you again, heart warm at the sight of you going out of your way to be hereâeven though it stemmed from Jaemâs instigations. âYou didnât have to do this, you know. I know you had a full day.â
âIt wasnât that far out of the way,â you lied, because admitting youâd gone to the cafeteria on purpose felt too revealing, âbesides, someone had to make sure you didnât try to be a hero and walk on it.â
He let out a low chuckle, âguilty, I probably wouldâve.â He set the container down for a moment, fingers brushing the edge of the table near your arm. The contact was light, accidental, but it stayed there a second too long, âyouâre really something else, you know that?â
You felt the heat creep up your neck but didnât pull away, instead, you leaned in a little closer, resting your chin on your folded arms on the edge of the table, âeat the rest before it gets cold, idiot. Iâm not carrying you anywhere.â
Jake grinned, small and crooked, but his eyes stayed soft on your face. He kept eating, slower now, like he was dragging the moment out. Your eyelids grew heavy. The day pressed down on you all at onceâthe lectures, the walking, the quiet ache of pretending this was still just part of the game. You let your head rest fully on your arms, cheek against the cool edge of the table, close enough that your breath stirred the fabric of his shirt. Just for a minute, you told yourself.
You didnât mean to fall asleep, but the warmth of the room, the steady sound of his breathing, the faint scent of ginger and him all mixed together, and your eyes slipped shut completely.
Jake went completely still.
He set the spoon down without a sound and lowered himself back onto the table until he was lying flat, turning his head so he could look at you properly. You were right thereâhead pillowed on your arms on the edge of the table, breathing slow and even, lashes dark against your skin, lips slightly parted. A strand of hair had fallen across your face. He reached out without thinking, fingertips barely grazing it before he caught himself and pulled back.
Would it make any sense for Jake to feel this unexpected emotion he still couldnât quite pinpoint? Maybe his friends were right, he didnât really need to follow through with whatever the bet was about. It really wasnât worth hurting you, or himselfâbut then, did you even think of him as someone close to you? Perhaps as a friend at least?Â
He let out a slow, shaky breath, and resorted to watching youâthe way your shoulder rose and fell, the way your fingers formed a cute fist, how you let your guard down enough for your body to trust itself to fall asleep right next to him. Perhaps it was something small, yet to him, it was grand.Â
So, he just lay there, inches away from you, letting the silence settle as his mind spun in circles he couldnât stop.
CHAPTER SEVEN: Holy stalker
âSo, you spent hours sleeping with him?âÂ
âYouâre literally wording it wrong Jungwon.â
âAnd you almost kissed right outside the dormââ
âCan you guys stop?â You groaned, but Karina was far from done, she was just getting started actually.
ââyou canât fucking lie to us, like genuinely you were smiling when you came in yesterday and today. Whatâs next? Fucking him at a party?â
âOh godânothing is happening, what is wrong with you both?â You stand up from the couch, turning to stare at both your friends, who sat rather comfortably with their arms crossed.
âThis is not nothing, Iâm just asking you, whatâs the end point? Where would you draw the line, hm? If it requires physicality for him to actually fall in love with you, would you do it?â
Well, Karina did have a point.Â
âWeâre grown adults with active sex life so, why would that change anything?â You finish, almost defensive.Â
Karinaâs eyebrows shot up so fast it was almost comical. She leaned forward, elbows on her knees, that wicked grin spreading slow across her face, âoh my god, listen to you. Active sex life, babe, you havenât had dick in months and now youâre out here acting like itâs no big deal if Jake Sim rails you for the sake of the bet? Be so fucking for real right now.â
Jungwon nearly spit out his coffee, âRinaââ
âNo, no, let me speak,â Karina cut him off, waving a hand without breaking eye contact with you, âIâm not judging, Iâm just sayingâif heâs already got you smiling like an idiot and almost-kissing you against a wall in the rain, whatâs stopping you from seeing how far it goes? You gonna let him fuck you on the kitchen counter just to watch his ego implode when you ghost him after? Because honestly? Iâd pay to see that. But donât lie to yourself and say itâs all strategy when youâre feeling that way for him.â
You felt your face burn hot, âItâs not like that. Iâm notâgod, Iâm not planning on sleeping with him, okay? Iâm still in control.â
Karina barked out a laugh, âlook, I love you, but if youâre gonna play this game, at least own it, and youâre allowed to enjoy the ride before you drop him and collect our Paris trip. Just donât catch feelings and cry to us when the car means more to him than you do.â
Jungwon rubbed the back of his neck, looking equal parts amused and concerned, âsheâs got a point, even if sheâs saying it like a psycho. Just be careful, I still donât trust him around you, but youâre always welcome to cry to us.â
You threw a pillow at Karinaâs head. It bounced off her shoulder and she just cackled harder, âyou two are the worst. Go to class before I actually kick you out.â
They finally dragged themselves upâJungwon pulling you into a quick, tight hug and muttering, âtext me if it gets weird,â before heading out, Karina pausing in the doorway to shoot you one last teasing smirk, âIf you do end up letting him hit, at least make him beg first. Love you, bitch.â The door clicked shut behind them, leaving the dorm suddenly, blissfully quiet.
You let out a long breath and flopped back onto the couch, staring at the ceiling. Your lab had been cancelled last minuteâthe TA had blown up the group chat at 8:47 with some excuse about electrophoresis set up not workingâand now the whole morning stretched out empty in front of you.Â
Too much time to think about yesterday, or the day before that, orâ
Your phone buzzed on the coffee table, thankfully breaking the train of your thoughts. You grabbed it lazily, expecting another spam message from the group chat. Instead it was an Instagram DM.
jake.sim:
hey
didnât have your number so i figured iâd slide in here like a normal person instead of showing up at your door like a creepÂ
Your lip twitched, just a smidge, because of course Jake would find your instagram and text out of nowhere.Â
you:
hi
and you still managed to sound like a creep anyway
The three dots popped up instantly, like heâd been waiting with his phone in his hand.
jake.sim:
fair actuallyÂ
listen, random question
is your oven working? mineâs been dead for two days and iâm craving something sweet
You stared at the screen, thumb hovering. Of course he had friends with working ovens. Half the football house probably had better kitchens than you did. But he was asking you, specifically.
you:
yeah it works
why
jake.sim:
can i come bake a cake at your place?
iâll bring everything
just wanna spend time with you, if thatâs cool
Your stomach did a stupid little flip, and you groaned. What have you even come to?
you:
sure
doorâs unlocked if youâre fast enough
Twenty minutes later there was a soft knock. You opened it to find Jake standing there in his black hoodie and grey sweats, hair still a little damp from a shower, maybe. Arms full of grocery bags, and he looked unfairly good, but when he shifted the bags higher on his arm you caught the tiniest wince in his leg. He hid it fast with that easy grin.
âHey,â he breathed out, staring at just how comfortable you looked in shorts, âthanks for letting me invade, i come bearing burgers to show my gratitude.â
You leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, trying to ignore the way his eyes dragged down your bare legs for half a second before snapping back up, âdidnât you say you wanted a cake?â You raised your eyebrow.Â
His grin turned a little sheepish, âcakeâs the whole point, yes. Burgers are justâextra, i saw you eating this with Jungwon two days back soââ
âSo you are a stalkerââ
âJust observant,â he finished quickly, stepping inside as you moved out of the way. The door clicked shut behind him and he realized that your flatmates were not home, leaving the place to you and him, ânot in a creepy way though.â
You just nodded, as if humouring him, eyes fixed on his handsâwhich were veiny as hell somehowâunpacking the stuff including flour, sugar, eggs, and well, every ingredient needed for a good cake, before giving you a burger (he got two extras, just in case).
Hopping on the edge of the counter, you unwrapped the burger as he took all the bowls out with you pointing around the cabinets. The room itself was silent but his eyes? Pretty shameless, youâd admit, because his focus was more on your ridden shorts than the flour.
Jake caught himself after a second, lips twitching like he knew exactly what he was doing, âyou really gonna sit there and not help me?â
You took a bite of the burger, chewing slowly while holding his gaze, âyouâre the one who begged to come over and use my oven. Eyes on the bowl, Jake.â
He laughed under his breath, and went back to the flour, but the glance he stole at your legs was anything but subtle, âeasier said than done when youâre sitting right there looking like that,â he mumbled to himself as he started scooping ingredients, movements smooth despite the way he kept most of his weight on his left leg, âpass me the sugar?â
You did so without getting down. He reached past you anyway, arm brushing the side of your thigh, and didnât pull back right away. When you finally slid off the counter to actually help, he didnât give you much space, he handed you the whisk and stepped right behind you, chest brushing your back as he reached around to adjust your grip on the handle.
âEasy circles,â he murmured, voice dropping close to your ear, âyou can be gentle with it, yâknow?â
Be gentle with meâis what he wished to say, but heâd be lying if he didnât admit how much he enjoyed your grumpiness as well, and he was almost eager to find what more you had to offer.Â
His hand stayed over yours, so warm and steady, the other settled lightly on your waist, thumb slipping under the hem of your tank top to brush bare skin. You could feel every small shift of his body against yours, the clean scent of his hoodie mixing with the butter and vanilla already in the air.
âYouâre crowding me,â you said, dry but not moving away.
âAm I?â His thumb traced one slow line along your hip, âdidnât hear you telling me to back up.â
You elbowed him lightly, feeling lightheaded, because it was odd how he actually achieved to bring out your playful side in what? Fourteen days since his bet started. But it wasnât as bad as you thought it would be, âfocus on the cake, not my legs.â
He leaned in, âtrying and failing pretty badly.â His thumb traced one slow circle on your hip, right where your tank top had ridden up, and your pulse jumped harder. The touch was light, but it felt deliberate, like he was testing how long youâd let him stay this close.
The banter stayed easy after that, but every word feltâcrazy. He teased you about not knowing how to bake (you actually didnât). You told him he was being annoyingly precise for a guy who claimed he just wanted to hang out. Finally the batter came together, perfectly thick, smooth, and chocolatey. You scraped it into the pan heâd already greased, and Jake slid it into the oven without a word. He set the timer, then turned to you, leaning against the counter with that crooked grin.
âTwenty-five minutes,â he said, eyes flicking over you again, âthink we can behave ourselves till then?â
You raised an eyebrow, still catching your breath from how close heâd been, âyouâre the one who canât keep his hands to himself.â
Before he could answer, you flicked a leftover pinch of cocoa at his cheekâlight, almost absentminded, but enough to leave a small dark smudge, shocking yourself at the easiness of it all.Â
Jake blinked, then his grin turned wild, âoh, itâs like that?â
He scooped a small handful of leftover flour from the counter and flicked it right back at you. It exploded in a soft white cloud across your tank top and collarbone. You gasped, eyes widening, and retaliated instantlyâgrabbing more flour and tossing it at his chest. Another puff burst between you, dusting the front of his black hoodie and catching in his hair.
âSeriously?â He laughed, already scooping more, âyou started it, babe.â
You tried to duck behind the island, but the kitchen was tiny and he was faster, even with the slight limp. He caught you around the waist mid-step, pulling you back as he flung another handful. Flour went everywhereâexploding in soft bursts across your arms, your hair, the counter. You twisted in his hold, laughing despite yourself, and managed to smear a streak of cocoa down his cheek before he spun you again.
He couldnât explain it, but having you laugh so freely in his presenceâhim making you laugh, yeah, it felt pretty damn good, and this smile was way better than you had given Jungwon in the earlier days of Jake chasing youânot that he was comparing (he was).
Your back hit the edge of the counter, both of you breathing harder now, covered in white powder and cocoa streaks. His hands stayed locked on your waist, thumbs pressing in, meanwhile yours ended up fisted in the front of his hoodie, pulling without thinking. Flour clung to his lashes, dusted his hair, streaked across his jaw. Your heart was hammering, butterflies rioting in your stomach, every inch of you hyper-aware of how close he was, how warm his body felt through the thin layers between you.
âFuck,â he breathed, eyes dropping straight to your mouth, âyouâve got flour on your lip.â
âSo do you,â you whispered.
Jake didnât wipe it away. He leaned in slow, giving you every chance to stop him. Your breath caught again, but you closed the last inch anyway.
His lips were just as soft as they appeared to be, but more hungry than you could fathom, or manage. It felt consuming, the way his mouth moved against yours with this urgency but also a silent battle of him holding back. A low sound rumbled in his chest when your lips parted, granting his tongue the excess it so desperately craved.Â
It slid in slow, tasting faintly of the bitter cocoa and flour, your heart slammed against your ribs so hard you were sure he could feel it. Butterflies erupted low in your stomach, fluttering all around hard enough, it made your thighs press instinctively around his hips.Â
Bet. Bet. Bet. Â
The words flashed sharp in the back of your mind, but it dissolved rather quickly when Jakeâs hand slid higher under your tank top, palm hot and rough against the bare skin of your back, fingers spreading wide as if he was trying to cover the expanse of your skin. His other hand stayed locked at your waist, thumb digging in just enough to anchor you against him while he kissed you deeperâslower, learning the shape of your mouth.Â
Everything else was forgotten for both him and you. All that existed was the warmth of his body pressed flush to yours, the faint scratch of his hoodie against your arms, the way his breath hitched when you tugged harder at the front of it.
âYeahâfuck, like that,â he murmured against your lips, âkiss me back harder, câmon, pretty.â
And so you did, tongue sliding against his in a messy push-pull that made his breath hitch, âyou came over here to bake a cake,â you managed between kisses, sarcastic even as your hips rolled forward to meet his, ânot to end up grinding on me in my kitchen.â
Jake laughed low against your mouth, the sound wrecked, and pressed his hips forward harder, letting you feel exactly how hard he was getting through his sweats, âpretty sure you started the flour fight, sweetheart. Donât act like you werenât waiting for this.â He kissed you deeper, tongue stroking yours in a filthy rhythm while he ground against you slow and deliberate, the friction pulling a sharp breath from you, âthere, yeah. Feel that? Thatâs what you do to me every time you look at me like that, so fucking pretty.â
âShut up,â you shot back, nipping his bottom lip hard enough to make him groan, then soothing it with your tongue. You rocked your hips right back into his, matching his pace, âyou talk too much.â
He grinned against your mouth, that cocky little curve you could feel more than see, and rolled his hips again, slower this time, dragging right where it made your breath catch, âand you fucking love it.â His hand tightened on your waist, holding you steady as he kept that steady, grinding rhythm, âbut keep doing that with your hipsâyeah, baby, just like thatâfuck.â
The oven timer went off, making you realize exactly how much time youâd devoted to this unholy activity.
You both froze, foreheads pressed together, chests heaving. His lips were swollen, eyes dark and glassy, breath hot against your mouth. Jake let out a rough, breathless chuckle, still holding you close, thumb stroking slow circles on your waist like he couldnât stop touching you, âcakeâs done.â
You dropped your head to his shoulder, a quiet laugh escaping you too, âthis is insane.â
âYeah,â he agreed, lips brushing your temple before he kissed the corner of your mouth once, lingering for a few seconds, then helped you slide down off the counter, hands steady on your hips the whole way, like he wasnât quite ready to let the moment slip away.
It felt tooâintimate, not that the act of making out wasnât on par, it clearly was, but this? It carried more emotion than just your everyday lust.Â
While the cake cooled on the rack, he prepared the frosting, letting everything take place before he reached into one of the bags and pulled out a small box of candles, trying to focus on regulating his breathing, and you started with your eyebrows lifted.
âCandles? For a random cake?â
He shrugged, cheeks going a little pink under the flour, âItâs for you, actually. Kinda a thank you? You sat with me after the practice when my leg was fucked, nobody else wouldâve stuck around like that. Figured I owed you something sweet.â
You stared at him for a second, because this felt too genuine again, âJake, thatâsââ
âCrazy?â He laughed softly, lighting the candles anyway. They flickered golden in the morning light, âyeah, maybe. But you make me want to do crazy shit.â
You shook your head, the word âdorkâ slipping out quiet and fond before you could stop it. He just grinned, making you blow the candles, and yet again, you indulged in his theatrics before he managed to cut two big slices, sliding one over to you.
The cake was actually perfect, and it was clear that there wasnât anything Jake Sim couldnât do, maybe he couldnât make you fall for him, but even you werenât too sure, granted that youâd been smiling, and it wasnât fake by any means. You took a bite and hummed in surprise, Jake watched you the whole time with a satisfied look on his face.
Then he scooped a bit of frosting onto his finger and held it out, eyes locked on yours, âhereâtry it this way.â
You leaned in and took it off his finger with your lips, slow. His breath hitched hard, and when you pulled back, he brought the same finger to his own mouth and licked the rest off, shameless and unhurried, tongue dragging over the pad like he was tasting you instead of frosting.
âFuck,â he murmured, stepping close again, hands finding your waist like they belonged there, âyouâre gonna kill me, YN.â
If domesticity with you felt like this, then Jake swears he can give up his parties just to spend an extra minute holding you close to his heartâwhich never lied. Jake was never dumb, not even now. He had always been quick to acknowledge his feelings, which screamed at him that nothing else mattered in this moment, just him and you. When you started to look in his eyes again, you gulped.
Because all that existed was him looking at you like this was exactly where he wanted to be.
CHAPTER EIGHT: Redbull gives you wingsÂ
âThe fuck?âÂ
Jay frowned, staring at his best friend.Â
The sight was diabolical to say the least, the smile on Jakeâs face despite it allâidiotic. There was no way to describe it, at least for Jay, who couldnât fathom what absurd war Jake had gotten into to return back home with flour on his hair and body, and wait was that a Tupperware full of chocolate cake in his hands?
Jake didnât bother with explanations, simply dropping the box on Jayâs lap, courtesy of you packing some up saying how heâd managed to make way too much for a single person.Â
With how loud Jayâs voice had been, Sunghoon and Heeseung managed out come out of their rooms, equally as confused.
âExplain,â Sunghoon muttered, sitting next to Jay and grabbing a piece of cake.
âNothing really, i just went to bake a cake with Y/N,â he managed to let out, still dazed.Â
âAnd she decided to maul you with flour?â Heeseung winced, brushing some power off of Jakeâs hair, âseems like you lost the fight.â
âCâmon, she started it, so of course I didnât stop at thatâand things, uhm, escalated.â
Right then, Hoon took a big bite of the sweet, regret clear on his face, nose wrinkling, âwhat the fuck, dudeâthereâs a whole patch of raw flour in the middle.â
Well, that batch was put in after the flour fight, which would explain the quality difference.Â
Heeseung, who had already taken a forkful, shrugged and kept eating happily, âtastes fine to me. A bit lumpy, but the chocolate fixes it.â
Jay refused to touch it, not being polite in the way he pushed the whole container towards Heeseung, âyeah, Iâm not eating that. And why do you look like you just got laid?â
Jake rubbed a hand over his jaw, the corners of his mouth still curved up, âwe may have gotten a little distracted after the cake went in the oven.â
Heeseung choked, âdistracted, how?â
Jake shrugged, not even trying to hide how pleased he was, âby kissingâa lot, oh god it felt good.âÂ
Jay dragged both hands down his face, âyou went over there to make her fall for you and ended up making out with her in the kitchen? Jake, what the hell is going on with you? Youâve barely looked at any other girl in weeks.â
Jake didnât answer right away. He just picked up a piece of the slightly floury cake and took a bite, chewing thoughtfully even though it really wasnât that great.
âIâm thankful though, I can finally sleep without having to hear moans each fucking night,â Heeseung shudders, mind drifting back to how loud Jake and his night partners used to be.Â
Sunghoon barked out a laugh, âyeah, we went from daily noise complaints to peaceful silence. Did you catch feelings or did she put her tear drop into the cake batter?â
âShut up, itâs not like that,â Jake mumbled, though the tips of his ears turning red said otherwise, âand weâre not in Descendants.â
They all just stared at him, till he managed to huff, sitting down on the couch which offered no space to him, dirtying it in the process, âitâs justâitâs nice, okay? I donât have to be loud or use up all my energy around her, it feels calm to be there even in silence.â
Jay almost gagged, âcalm? Did you just change your whole personality cause youâre in love now?â
Sunghoon was grinning, ânext thing you know heâll be holding her hand on campus and calling her baby in public, and trust, Iâll be documenting every bit of it.â
Jake threw a small piece of cake at him, missing on purpose, âyou guys are annoying as hell. Can we talk about something else?â
The boys kept teasing him for a few more minutesâthrowing in dramatic predictions about Jake turning into a full boyfriend and suggestions to get him a Iâm in my soft era shirt before finally letting it go and arguing about tomorrowâs practice instead. Jake just leaned back on the couch, half-listening, the small smile never quite leaving his face.
Because he knew things had changed, and so did you. It was a gradual shift, from you tolerating Jakeâs presence to enjoying it (well, some part of you did at least). The idea of seeing him often didnât make you groan in agony, it felt like a routine granted Jake had your schedule memorized to his bones, and he made it his mission to randomly appear and fall in step with you without making it awkward.Â
âHey, got you some coffee,â heâd naturally say, always bringing the latte, but he did make you try out an overly sweet drink which he fancied, and somehow, you didnât hate it.Â
It was concerning to say the least, your friends being more concerned than you, but of course no one was blind to the fact that maybe Jake was more deep in this than you were, and that bit was not an act, not anymore at least.Â
It only escalated when one afternoon, you showed up at his practice session without him having you ask, a cold can of coconut berry red bull tucked in your bag. When you tossed it his way, his whole face lit up and he stared at you with such warmth, it seemed like his eyes were shining. It wasnât a big deal, right?Â
Wrong. Jake knew it didnât take a lot to do something for others, but youâd noticed his favourite flavourâyouâd managed to remember it despite him having not mentioned it.Â
He was glad it was break time, cause he immediately cracked it open, âyou remembered?â
You wanted to slap yourself for how hard it was to not smile at him, so you managed a shrug, âyeah, not a big deal.â
He stepped closer, still in his practice jersey, hair slightly damp from running drills, and you noticed how theyâd grown longer, the afternoon sun catching on the sharp line of his collarbone. For a second he just looked at you, âitâs a big deal when you do it.â
The way he said it was enough to send a warm flutter through your chest that you quickly tried to ignore. You crossed your arms, pretending to watch the team stretching behind him, âdonât make it weird, Sim.â
âIâm not,â he replied, but the small grin tugging at his lips said otherwise. He took another sip, eyes never really leaving your face, and he swore, it was the best drink heâd ever had.
It almost felt like you were flying in the moment, as cheesy as it might be, maybe youâd blame redbull for giving you wings or whatever.Â
There were other small things too. He started saving you the quiet corner seat in the library because he knew you liked your back to the wall. Youâd gotten him a hair tie when you noticed the length of his hair again, and the second he tied his hair, even you were rendered speechless for a moment.Â
The way it exposed the clean line of his jaw and the sharp cut of his cheekbones made something in your stomach tighten unexpectedly. You quickly looked back down at your notes, pretending you hadnât noticed, oh but he noticed, and leaned in till his nose brushed against yours, âhow do i look?â heâd asked.
âGood,â you remember breathing out, making him smile and lean in further, pressing a soft kiss on your lips before jogging back to the field, where three of his friends stood with their mouths hung open. It was a rather comical sight for anyone who watched from a distance.Â
At least to Jaemin, it was. He was always lurking around, and no one knew what he was trying to achieve. Jeno could only shake his head standing beside him, but well.Â
Anyway, as if that wasnât enough, Jake would send you random memes at 2 a.m. when he knew you were still up studying, and youâd reply with a dry âgo to sleepâ that always made him smile at his phone like an idiot.Â
Jake had truly forgotten about the bet.
The whole stupid game barely crossed his mind anymore. He wasnât playing anymore. He just wanted to be around you.
You were trying to bury the memory of the bet deep inside too. Every time it tried to creep up, you shoved it back down. You told yourself you were still in control, that this was all part of the plan. But the truth was simpler and scarierâyou liked having him around. You liked the easy quiet when you studied together. You liked the way he looked at you when he thought you werenât paying attention.Â
And that terrified you more than anything.
CHAPTER NINE: Jealousy allegations?
âAre you like a hundred percent sure?â
You sighed, plopping on your bed with ease as you stared at Karina, whoâd asked you this question at least, give or take, a million times.Â
âYes, I am sureâgosh, you gotta stop,â you mumbled, running a hand over your skirt, while Karina shook her head.Â
âTrust me I have a feeling that something will happen tonight,â she exasperated for the nth time.Â
Jake was finally throwing that party heâd mentioned after his game a few days back, and to Heeseung courtesy, it wasnât a small gathering anymore, but a full blown party at their dormitory which wonât even fit the amount of people heâd invited.Â
âWhat would happen? Câmon, Iâm really okay,â you tried to reason.Â
âOkay? Girl, youâre practically beaming, and you got ready before I did, is that not proof enough?â She went on, doing her eyeliner by side, âyou look hot as hell in that skirt by the way, Iâll be praying for Jake.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât fight the small smile tugging at your lips. The black skirt sat high on your waist, paired with a simple fitted top that showed just enough skin, and most importantlyâyou felt confident about yourself, which just completed the look altogether.Â
âWhatever. Letâs just go before I change my mind.â
Jungwon was already ready and waiting outside, and so you three went on as they both kept mumbling warnings in your ear, as if a child going outside alone for the first time.Â
âSeriously, if he gets weird just text me,â Jungwon said, half-joking.
Karina bumped your shoulder. âOr Iâll drag you out myself. Iâm still not convinced this is a good idea.â
You just shook your head and kept walking.
The dorm was loud when you stepped inside, music playing from the living room and voices overlapping in every corner. The place smelled like pizza and cheap beer (of course), the usual Saturday night mess. People were everywhereâsome chilling on the couches, others crowding the kitchen for drinks.
You hadnât even taken three steps before Jake spotted you.
He was mid-conversation with Jay near the counter, cup halfway to his mouth, when he froze. His eyes locked on you and stayed there, dragging slowly from your face down to the skirt and back up again. For a second he looked completely thrown, like someone (you) had knocked the air out of him. Then he was moving, crossing the room in a straight line without saying a word to anyone, and Jay only shook his head with a small smile.Â
The second he reached you he pulled you into a hug.
His arms wrapped around you tight, one hand splaying across your lower back, the other sliding up to cradle the back of your head. He buried his face in your hair for a long moment, breathing you in like he needed it. You felt his chest rise and fall against yours, warm and solid, completely forgetting your friends who tried to process the situation from a respectful distance.Â
âFuck,â he muttered into your hair, voice low and rough, âyou lookâI donât even know what to say right now.â
You laughed softly against his shoulder, letting yourself relax into the hug, âhi, Jake.â
He didnât let go right away. His thumb rubbed a slow circle on your back, almost absentminded, and when he finally pulled back just enough to look at you, his eyes were darker than usual, a little dazed, âyouâre actually trying to kill me tonight, huh?â
You raised an eyebrow, fighting a smile, âItâs just a skirt.â
âItâs not just a skirt,â he said, voice quieter. His hand stayed on your waist, thumb brushing the edge of the fabric like he couldnât help it.
You were about to tease him some more when he finally loosened his hold, stepping half a step back so he could actually look at you properly. His eyes flicked down again, then back up, and he let out a small breath like he was trying to collect himself.
That was when Sunoo wandered over from the kitchen, two cups in hand, spotting you both.
âHey, Y/N,â Sunoo said, voice bright and easy like it always was in lab, âyou actually came. I was starting to think youâd bail after that nightmare protocol we had last night.â
You turned toward him with a small laugh, âyeah, I almost did, Karina basically dragged me here,â you lied easily.Â
Sunoo grinned, holding out one of the cups, âhere, sprite with lime. I know you hate the sweet crap they make in the kitchen.â
Jake raised his brow, almost ready to scoff because you did like sweet drinks, and whoever this man was clearly didnât know you enough.Â
âThanks,â you said, taking it, âneeded that, the last lab almost killed me too.â
âTell me about it,â Sunoo replied, leaning casually against the wall, âI spent twenty minutes trying to fix my gel after it kept tearing. Thought the TA was gonna cry with me.â He glanced at your outfit and nodded appreciatively. âBy the way, that skirt looks really good on you. Way better than the lab coat.â
You let out a soft laugh, âappreciate it. Lab coat does no one any favors.â
Sunoo chuckled, âright? Anyway, howâs your presentation prep going? You were stressing about the lack of research papers ast classââ
From the corner of your eye, you saw Jakeâs hand tighten slightly on your waist. He hadnât moved away completely, still standing close enough that his shoulder brushed yours.
Across the room, Karina caught your eye from where she was standing with Jungwon near the couch. She raised her brows in a clear what the hell look, while Jungwon just shook his head slowly, arms crossed like he was already bracing himself. Jay, leaning against the kitchen counter with Heeseung and Sunghoon, muttered something that made all three of them glance over. Heeseung smirked, while Sunghoon shook his head again, amused. Jaemin, kicked back on the armchair nursing a drink, was outright grinning like heâd hit the jackpot.
Sunoo kept talking, completely unaware, asking a casual question about the upcoming quiz. You answered easily, laughing at the right moments because talking to Sunoo was justâsimple? He was the same bubbly guy from lab who always offered to share notes honestly.Â
Jakeâs jaw ticked though, he wasnât happy with this situation at all.
After another minute of the easy back-and-forth, Jakeâs hand slid firmly from your waist to your lower back.
âHey,â he said to Sunoo, voice calm but edged, âmind if I steal her for a second?â
Sunoo blinked, then gave an easy, unbothered smile, âyeah, of course. Nice catching up, Y/N.â
Jake didnât bother waiting really. His hand stayed steady on your lower back as he guided you through the living room, weaving between people chatting and laughing. You could feel the tension in his fingers, the way they pressed a little harder than necessary against the fabric of your top. He didnât say a word the whole way down the hallway. The party noise faded behind you, turning into a muffled hum.
The second his bedroom door clicked shut, Jake turned to face you, eyes dark, stepping in close, backing you up until your shoulders hit the door. His hand came up, fingers brushing your jaw, tilting your head just slightly to the side.
âIgnoring me the second he came in to talk, hm?â He asked, voice low as his breath ghosted over your neck as he leaned in, lips barely brushing the skin just below your ear, âlooking this good while doing so?â
You swallowed, âJake, he was justââ
He cut you off by pressing a slow, open-mouthed kiss right under your jaw. You felt his teeth graze lightly, then the warm drag of his tongue.
âAnswer me,â he murmured against your skin, voice smug, âwhat was so funny?â
Your breath hitched, âItâit wasnât anything, just talking about the labââ
He simply granted you another kiss, slower this time, right by your pulse. His hand slid down to grip your waist, holding you in place as he sucked lightly on the same spot.
âYou stuttered,â he said, the words warm against your neck, you could hear the smirk in his voice, âso fucking cute.â
You let out a shaky laugh, even as heat pooled low in your stomach, âyouâre actually jealous right now, arenât you?â
Jake pulled back just enough to look at you, not waiting as he leaned in and kissed you on the mouthâsoft at first, almost sweet, like he was trying to shut you up gently. It didnât last, the kiss deepening fast, his tongue sliding against yours until you were gripping his shirt tighter.
When he broke it, he was breathing harder, âyeah, I am. I donât like watching you smile at someone else when Iâm standing right there.â
You opened your mouth to tease him again, but he kissed you once more, firm, before you could get the words out.
âSee?â He muttered against your lips, smirking, âtry and be bratty if you want me to kiss you stupid.â
âJakeââ you started, voice already breathy.
He cut you off with another kiss, this one deeper, his hand sliding up to cup the back of your neck. When he pulled away, his forehead rested against yours for a second.
âKeep going,â he chuckled, âtell me how ridiculous Iâm being.â
You tried, you did, âyouâre being ridiculous. Sunoo was justââ
Jakeâs mouth was on your neck again, sucking a slow, wet mark right below your ear. You gasped, fingernails digging in his skin now.Â
âWrong name coming out of your pretty lips, baby, try again,â he murmured, kissing the fresh mark.
âYouâre fucking jealous,â you managed to say despite his previous confirmation of the same. Maybe you wanted to hear it again, maybe you wanted to feel the conviction of truth behind those words, the reality of it all.Â
He kissed your lips hard, swallowing the rest of your sentence, then moved back down to your neck, sucking another mark lower this time.
âYeah,â he admitted yet again against your skin, âI hate itâhate how easy it was for him to make you laugh like that when it took me days.â
Your head tipped back against the door with a soft thud. He kept goingâkissing, sucking, marking you up like he needed to claim every inch Sunoo had made you smile at. Every bratty little comment you tried to throw at him earned you another kiss on the mouth or a deeper suck on your neck until your legs were actually trembling.
Finally Jake straightened up, eyes hungry. Without a word he bent down, hooked his arms under your thighs, and lifted you. You wrapped your legs around his waist as he carried you the few steps to his bed and laid you down.
To have you so close to him was a maddening experience, words leaving his lips with ease, âyouâre beautiful, you know that?âÂ
Somewhere between the bet and the reality, you started getting used to his blatant sincerity he put into words. But this praise? It made you sigh blissfully, eyelids fluttering close despite not wanting to be separated from the sight of Jake getting closer to where you needed him the most.Â
He crawled over you, settling between your legs, and kissed you againâslow and deep this time.
âStill think Iâm ridiculous?â He asked against your mouth, hand sliding up your thigh, pushing your skirt higher.
You nodded, breathless, âvery.â
Jake grinned, that same smug, jealous little smile, and kissed you once more before moving lower. He took his time with your neck again, sucking fresh marks while his hands worked your skirt up around your hips. When he reached the lace edge of your panties he paused, thumb brushing over the delicate fabric.
âThese are pretty,â he murmured, hooking his fingers in them and slowly dragging them down your legs, tossing them aside somewhere, taking a note to pick it up later.Â
Then he settled between your thighs properly, spreading them wider. He looked up at you, hair falling messily around his face from the small ponytail, eyes gleaming as he mumbled the praises of your beauty as if he was here to worship your being instead of what seemed to be a punishment for making him jealous.Â
âStill got something smart to say?â He asked.
You opened your mouth, but the second his tongue dragged over you, slow and so perfectly warmâthe words turned into a broken moan.
Jake groaned at the taste of you, the sound vibrating right against your clit. You reached down without thinking, fingers finding the hair tie at the back of his head. You pulled it out, letting his dark hair fall loose, then slid your hand into it and tugged hard.
Jake moaned louder against you, the vibration making your hips jerk.
âFuckâdo that again,â he breathed, voice wrecked.Â
You did, tugging on his hair as he ate you out like he had all the time in the worldâlong, deep licks followed by quick flicks of his tongue that had your thighs shaking around his shoulders. Every pull on his hair earned you another low groan that went straight through you.Â
âCâmon, tell me how it feels,â he spoke against you, and you groaned merrily.Â
Itâs not that you didnât have any experience before, because you did. But never once a guy made you feel like they actually cared about getting you off rather than them chasing their own pleasure. Their flick of tongues did nothing, but Jake? He seemed like even having his whole face pressed against you wasnât enough, as if nothing could satiate how desperate he was to have not a molecule of space between you two.Â
A lot of things were in your mind, but you could only manage to choke out a few words, âso goodâbaby, it feels so good.â
If Jake hadnât already lost his damn mind, your nickname certainly made him lose the last few of his working brain cells. The moan he let out was downright pornographic, and you could swear there wasnât a sound prettier than that.Â
You were completely gone, back arching off the bed, fingers tight in his hair, lost in the wet heat of his mouth and the smug little sounds he kept making against you.Â
While you were wrapped up in this little bubble of unadulterated pleasure, outside the things were a bit different as Jay, Heeseung, and Sunghoon stood together, shaking their heads.Â
âHe really just dragged her straight to his room,â Jay muttered.
Heeseung sighed, ânot even trying to be subtle anymore.â
Sunghoon smirked, âa hundred fucking pounds says they donât come out for a while.â
Karina, standing with Jungwon near the couch, crossed her arms and muttered, âI knew something was gonna happen tonight.â
Jungwon just sighed, looking resigned, âthis is exactly what I was worried about.â
Jaemin, on the other hand, was leaning back in his chair with the biggest grin on his face, looking far too pleased with himself.
âThis is even better than I planned.â
CHAPTER TEN: Bet versus feelings.Â
âAre you out of your damn mind?â
The voice seemed to have echoed, because the same sentence was being uttered at the exact same second inside two different dorms, by two different people.Â
First being Jungwon, clearly directed towards you once you were done giving your side of the story to him.Â
Jake was undergoing the exact same procedure of questioning, causing Jay to scream in agony.Â
Things were clearly going perfectly, Jake was in too deep, you were in too deep, all for the bet, right? Right?Â
Because as far as acting was concerned, even it had limits, which certainly didnât include getting eaten out and fingered all night. Cherry on the top was when you both fell asleep in each otherâs arms with Jake caressing your back so gently, you learned the meaning of comfort in its truest scene.Â
So, why did it feel so easy when Jake kissed you in the morning, when he walked you back home with ease, talking normally as if everything was fine. Your heart broke a little at the thought of him just using you, and trust was a delicate topic for you. How could you even let yourself think that he actually wanted you when the whole relationship of yours was built on a pathetic bet. Which is why, you let yourself fall in deeper, to feel more of his warmth before it ends. Â
Before he could ask what was bothering you, a gentle kiss was placed on his lips, âbye, Jakey.âÂ
The simple fact that you initiated the kiss had Jake smiling like an idiot before you walked inside your dorm, and he left for his own, heart thumping fast, almost in a way that it was synchronized.Â
And now you were here, eyes watering in front of your friends who could only pull you in a deep hug.Â
âY/N, just tell him, just end this I swear,â Jungwon mumbled, and you didnât know what to say, so you resorted to hugging them both till you fell asleep again.Â
Jake on the other handâhe couldnât stop pacing around as the three watched him like a hawk, eyes moving in sync with every step he took across the living room.
Jay leaned back on the couch, arms crossed, looking way too smug, âI told you youâd fall for her.â
Jake stopped dead in his tracks, spinning around so fast he nearly tripped, âI didnât fall. Iâm notâfuck, okay maybe I did, but shut up.â
Sunghoon let out a loud laugh, slapping his knees âyou dragged her into your room in front of everyone. Youâre on your knees for her at this point.â
Heeseung was already cracking up, head thrown back, âthe way you looked at Sunoo? Pure murder like, he didnât even do shit.â
Jake groaned, running his fingers through his hair, âyou guys are the worst. I was standing right there and she was laughing with him like it was the easiest thing in the world. I hate it.â
Jay raised an eyebrow, âyou hate it? Or youâre jealous as hell?â
âBoth,â Jake muttered, then dramatically dropped to his knees right in the middle of the living room, forehead hitting the floor with a thud, âIâm so fucked. What the hell is wrong with me?â
Jay let out a loud laugh, leaning forward on the couch, âwrong? Itâs literally called love, Jake.â
âOn your knees in the living room because a girl, youâre not yours by the way, smiled at someone else? Yeah, youâre fucked.â Sunghoon added helpfully.Â
Heeseung clapped slowly, âsoft boy Jake is real. Weâre witnessing history.â
Jake stayed on the floor for a second, breathing hard, face pressed against the carpet. His mind wouldnât stop replaying last nightâthe way youâd gasped his name when he had his mouth on you, the way your thighs had shaken around his shoulders. How he couldnât stop staring at you even after you came down, all soft and sleepy in his bed, lashes resting against your cheeks, lips slightly parted. You looked so beautiful like that, relaxed and trusting, nothing guarded in your expression for once. Heâd kissed your forehead then, slow and careful, while you dozed off against his chest. Later, when he still couldnât sleep, heâd grabbed his diary and sketched youâjust the curve of your cheek, the way your hair fell across the pillow, the small peaceful smile you had even in sleep. It wasnât weird. It was justâyou. He needed to remember exactly how it felt.
He groaned again, louder this time, âIâm so fucked.â
âSo youâve said.â
The boys kept teasing, but Jake was already thinking ahead.
He pushed himself up, hair a mess, cheeks still flushed, âwhatever. Laugh all you want, Iâm gonna ask her on a proper date.â
The room went quiet for half a second, observing him closely to find out any signs of humour or a joke.Â
Jay blinked, âyouâre serious?â
âYeah,â Jake said, grabbing his glasses, âIâm serious.â
Sunghoon raised an eyebrow, still amused but skeptical, âyou sure thatâs a good idea right now? Things are already messy as hell.â
Heeseung nodded slowly, âmoving kinda fast, donât you think?â
Jake just shrugged, the stupid smile creeping back onto his face, âI donât care, I want to do it right.â
The problem now was that Jake had never planned a date before, heck heâd never even dated before. He knew that something grand wouldnât work, not right now at least, so when he woke up the next day, he had a few errands to run. Thankfully, he had only one lecture, after which he found himself running around the campus with a list, more motivated thann heâd ever been.Â
By late afternoon he found himself standing outside the biotech building, leaning against the wall near the main exit with his hands in his pockets. He knew your schedule by heart now. When you finally stepped out, backpack slung over one shoulder, he pushed off the wall and walked straight up to you.
You stopped, surprised, but the second he pulled you into a hug your expression softened. His arms wrapped around you tight, one hand rubbing your back like he needed the contact more than air, âhey,â he mumbled into your hair.
You smiled despite everything, pressing your face into his chest for a second, âJake? What are you doing here? Donât you have practice right now?â
He pulled back just enough to look at you, hands still on your waist, âI skipped.â
âYou skipped?â you asked, eyes widening a little.
âYeah.â He rubbed the back of his neck, looking a bit awkward but determined. âI want to take you out right now, just us, if youâll let me.â
Your heart skipped. He was being so boldly awkward about it, standing there in the middle of the hallway like skipping practice for you was the most normal decision in the world.Â
You teased, trying to keep your voice light, âwhat if I say no?â
Jakeâs face fell instantly, that hurt-puppy look laughed at you right in the heartâbig eyes, slight pout, shoulders slumping just a little like youâd actually kicked his favorite ball into traffic. It was funny how you could compare him to puppies so often and he didnât seem to mind.Â
âThenâI guess Iâll go back to practice,â he said quietly, voice cracking at the end, âbut youâre really gonna say no?â
You didnât know what to say, skipping classes wasnât really something you did, unless you were sick beyond your ability to stand, however, a small voice within you screamed, skipping once wouldnât hurt, right?Â
You reached out and took his hand, lacing your fingers through his, sending a shiver up his arm, âlead the way, Sim.â
Jakeâs whole face lit up like youâd just handed him the world, and maybe you did. He squeezed your hand once, tight, and started walking, pulling you gently along with him.
You walked side by side across the quad, the late afternoon sun warm on your skin. His thumb kept brushing slow circles over your knuckles, and the simple touch felt so grounding, so comfortable.Â
âWhere are we going?â You asked after a minute, glancing up at him.
Jake grinned, giving your hand a gentle squeeze, âItâs a secret.â
You raised an eyebrow, but couldnât fight the smile tugging at your lips, âyouâre really not gonna tell me anything?â
âNope,â he said, voice light and playful, âjust trust me, okay?â
From a distance near the science building, Heeseung stood watching the two of you with a small smile, âtheyâre already acting like a couple,â he murmured to himself, shaking his head fondly.
When you reached the parking lot, Jake stopped in front of a sleek black car you didnât recognize.
You looked back at Jake, âwaitâyou drive?â
Jake grinned, a little cocky as he opened the passenger door for you, âyeah, borrowed it from Jay. Figured walking you around campus wasnât gonna cut it today.â
You slid in, the leather seat cool against the back of your thighs. Jake got in on the driverâs side, started the engine, then turned to you, looking a little nervous but hopeful.
âSo, uh, whatâs your favourite flower?â He asked, voice casual but his fingers tapped lightly on the steering wheel.
You raised your brow, surprised by the question, âTulip, why?â
Jake let out a small, relieved breath. He reached into the backseat and pulled out three bouquetsâa bright bunch of fresh tulips, a classic dozen roses, and a smaller mixed one with daisies and soft white flowers.
He handed them to you carefully, almost shy, âI wasnât sure which ones you liked, so I got a few options. Just in case, thank god you chose one of thoseââ
You stared at the flowers in your lap, heart squeezing so hard it almost hurt. He had gone out and bought three different bouquets because he didnât want to get it wrong, for you.
Before you could stop yourself, you leaned across the console and kissed him midway through his nervous ramble.Â
It was soft and grateful at first, but Jake melted instantly, one hand coming up to cup your cheek like he needed to hold onto the moment. When you pulled back, his eyes were a little dazed, lips parted, that stupid, lovestruck smile back on his face.
âGod,â he whispered, thumb brushing your cheek, âyouâre gonna kill me one of these days.â
You laughed softly, cheeks warm, and settled back into your seat with the bouquets still cradled in your lap. Jake grabbed your hand again, lacing your fingers together on the center console like he couldnât stand not touching you.
He started driving, thumb still tracing slow circles over your knuckles, stealing little glances at you every few seconds like he still couldnât believe you were here with him.
You were so fucked, and now, you didnât even care.Â
The drive was short, just ten minutes out of campus to a quiet spot by the river. Youâd passed it a few times before, always packed with students on weekends, but on a weekday afternoon it was practically emptyâjust the soft rush of water, a few birds, and the warm sun filtering through the trees.
Jake parked and killed the engine, then turned to you with that soft smile youâd grown to love, âwait here.â
He got out, popped the trunk, and came around to your side with a big picnic basket and a folded blanket. You watched him spread the blanket on a sunny patch of grass near the water, setting everything out with careful hands. There were little sandwiches you liked, fresh fruit, the coconut berry Red Bull he knew youâd steal from him, and even a small box of those chocolate cookies youâd mentioned once in passing.
You stepped out of the car, flowers still in your arms, feeling suddenly shy that was very out of your character, âJakeâyou did all this?â
He looked up at you from where he was kneeling on the blanket, eyes bright, âyeah. Figured we deserved something nice, just us.â
You sat down beside him, cheeks warm, and he basked in itâthe way you ducked your head a little, fiddling with the edge of the blanket, the small smile you couldnât hide. He loved seeing you like this, unguarded and a little flustered because of him.
The sun got brighter as the afternoon stretched on. After youâd eaten and talked about nothing and everything, Jake stretched out and laid his head in your lap, looking up at you with those pretty eyes. No big smile this timeâjust quiet, almost reverent.
You reached down, fingers finding the hair tie at the back of his head, and gently pulled it out. His dark hair fell loose around his face. You slid your hand into it, playing with the strands, slow and gentle.
Jake let out a contented sigh, eyes never leaving your face.
âYou know I have a dog named Layla?â He said quietly after a while, voice warm.
You smiled down at him, still running your fingers through his hair, âyeah? Tell me about her.â
âSheâs a Border Collie. Super hyper, loves chasing balls, but sheâs the biggest cuddler when sheâs tired. She always knows when Iâm having a bad day and justâsits next to me until I feel better.â
You laughed softly, âshe sounds perfect.â
He hummed, eyes soft, âshe is.â
Time passed easily between you. The river flowed steadily nearby, birds chirped overhead, and the sun warmed your skin. Jake told you how he loved singing but almost never did it in front of people because it felt too embarrassing. You told him how you were terrified of roller coasters and how you liked cats because they were quiet and independent. He almost gasped when you admitted you loved horror movies, cause they scared Jake half to death.
âYou ever scream at the screen?â He asked, grinning up at you.
âNever,â you admitted, âdo you?â
âA lot,â he mumbled, and you chuckledâthat sound becoming Jakeâs favourite each passing second.Â
Jakeâs eyes stayed on your face the whole time, soft and full of something deep. He felt surreal having you like thisâso close, so willing, so in love with the version of you that no one else really got to see. The way your fingers moved through his hair, the gentle way you looked down at him, it made his chest ache in the best way. It made no sense how you looked so fucking pretty even from that angle, so perfect.Â
At one point he reached up, hand gentle on the back of your neck, and pulled you down for a soft kiss. It was slow, sweet, full of everything you both werenât saying yet. You got goosebumps all over, your body reacting so perfectly to him, to the quiet love blooming between you.
When he pulled back, forehead resting against yours, he whispered, âIâm really glad you said yes.â
You kissed him again, softer this time, heart so full it almost hurt.
You could feel how down bad he wasâthe way his hand rested on your thigh like he needed the contact, the quiet reverence in his gaze every time he looked up at you, the small, content sighs he let out whenever your nails scratched lightly against his scalp. He didnât say any of it out loud, he didnât need to, really. It was all there in the way he looked at you.
After a while he sat up slowly, hair messy from your fingers, eyes soft and dark. Without a word he reached for you, hands gentle on your waist as he pulled you into his lap. You settled against him easily, knees on either side of his thighs, and he grabbed your chin with careful fingers, tilting your face down to his.
The kiss was soft at first, full of everything that had been building between you all afternoon. His lips moved against yours like he had all the time in the world, thumb brushing your jaw in the gentlest way.
When he pulled back he wrapped his arms around you, hugging you tight against his chest. You held him just as tightly, arms looped around his neck, face buried in the crook of his shoulder. You didnât want this to end, not the warmth of him, not the steady beat of his heart against yours, not the way he made the rest of the world feel so far away.
Jake pressed a kiss to the side of your neck, slow and lingering. You whispered his name, soft and breathless, âJakeââ
He smiled against your skin, the curve of his lips warm and pleased. Then he licked over the same spot, and your breath hitched.
You pulled back just enough to look at him, cheeks warm, âyouâre terrible,â you complained, but there was no real heat in it.
Jakeâs eyes sparkled with that smug little glint. Before you could say anything else he pulled you back down into a deeper kiss, filled with everything he feltâthe want, the softness, the quiet desperation of someone who was completely, utterly, helplessly in love with you. His hand slid into your hair, the other pressed against your lower back, holding you close as the kiss turned slow and emotional, tongues brushing, breaths mingling, hearts beating in the same unsteady rhythm.
You melted into it, fingers curling into his shirt, losing yourself in the way he kissed you like you were the only thing that mattered.
CHAPTER ELEVEN: Foggy façade.
It was the third time Jake had rerouted the car to go away from the campus, and you couldnât help but chuckle at his antics, a pout on his plump lips as you pointed out that he was, in fact, not willing to take you home.Â
âI just donât want the day to end, is that so bad?â He spoke so freely and you wondered how he got the confidence to say things like that without sounding ridiculous, his hand stayed laced with yours on the console.Â
âYouâre literally driving in circles,â you said, squeezing his fingers, âweâve passed that same coffee shop twice now.â
Jake glanced over at you, eyes bright even in the fading light, âworth it. Every single time I look at you I forget where Iâm supposed to be going.â
You rolled your eyes, but the smile on your face gave you away completely, âsmooth talker. Take me home, Sim, I have an assignment due tomorrow.â
He made a dramatic whining sound, slowing the car at a red light, âone more hour. Please? Iâll be good. Iâll even let you pick the music.â
You laughed, leaning your head back against the seat, even though you couldnât deny it yourself, you didnât wish to go back, âyouâre impossible.â
The light turned green and instead of turning toward campus he took another random right, the river still sparkling in the distance behind you. You narrowed your eyes at him, âJake.â
âWhat?â He asked innocently, but the grin tugging at his mouth was anything but, âIâm justâtaking the scenic route.â
You were still bickering lightly when he suddenly pulled off the main road into a quiet, tree-lined side street and parked under the shade of an old oak. The engine cut off. For a second the only sound was the soft tick of the cooling car and your own heartbeat.
âJake,â you said again, softer this time.
He turned to you fully, eyes dark and a little desperate, âI canât stand not kissing you for one more second.â
Before you could even tease him about it, he was leaning across the console, one hand sliding into your hair as his mouth crashed into yours. The kiss was messy and urgent, like heâd been holding back the whole drive. You kissed him back just as hard, fingers curling into his shirt, the taste of the picnic strawberries still lingering on his tongue.
âBackseat,â he mumbled against your lips, already fumbling with both your seatbelts, âcâmon, baby.â
You laughed breathlessly into the kiss, âJayâs gonna actually murder you if he finds out what weâre doing in his car.â
âLet him,â Jake grinned, nipping at your bottom lip before climbing over the console in that surprisingly smooth way he had. He tugged you with him and you tumbled into the backseat together, legs tangling, laughter bubbling up between more kisses, âtotally worth getting murdered for.â
You ended up straddling his lap, your jeans rubbing against the front of his as his hands gripped your waist tight. The humping started almost immediatelyâslow rolls of your hips that had you both groaning at the friction. Denim on denim felt stupidly good, the thick seam of your jeans pressing right against your core every time you rocked forward.
âFuck,â Jake breathed, head falling back against the seat as you ground down harder, âeven through the jeans you feel incredible.â
You leaned down, kissing him again while you kept moving, slow and teasing, âyouâre so impatient, Jakey,â you murmured against his mouth, smiling when he chased your lips.
âCan you blame me?â He bucked up to meet you, hands sliding under your top to grip your bare waist, âbeen hard since the river. Watching you play with my hair, looking so fucking pretty, I couldnât help it.â
The laughter died down into heavier breaths and soft moans, and you fucking loved how vocal Jake was. You kept rolling your hips in lazy circles, feeling how hard and thick he was beneath you. Jakeâs hands roamed higher, thumbs brushing the underside of your breasts, and every little sound he made went straight to your core.
Eventually you slid lower, kissing down his neck, then his chest, until you were kneeling between his legs in the cramped backseat. Your hands worked open his belt and jeans, and when you pulled him out, his cock was so big and thick it made your mouth water.
Jake let out a shaky breath, fingers gently threading into your hair, âbaby, you really donât have toââ
âI want to,â you said, looking up at him. You nuzzled your cheek against the heavy length first, pressing soft, open-mouthed kisses along it, feeling it twitch against your skin.
âFuck,â he groaned, low and wrecked. âLook at youânuzzling my cock like that. So pretty.â
You licked a slow stripe from base to tip, then took the head into your mouth, sucking gently. Jakeâs groan was loud, head tipping back against the seat.
âShitâyeah, just like that,â he panted, fingers tightening in your hair but never pushing, âyou look so fucking good with your lips around me.â
You took him deeper, tongue swirling every time you pulled back. He was so thick it stretched your mouth perfectly, and you loved the way he filled you.
âJaeyun,â you moaned around him, the name slipping out soft and needy.
Jakeâs whole body jerked hard, âfuckâsay it again,â he groaned, voice breaking, âgod, I love when you call me that. Say it again, baby, please.â
âJaeyun,â you whispered, taking him even deeper, eyes watering a little as you looked up at him through your lashes.
He let out a wrecked sound, hips twitching up just slightly before he caught himself. His fingers tightened in your hair, not pulling, just holding on like you were the only thing keeping him grounded. You could feel him throbbing against your tongue, the way his thighs tensed every time you hollowed your cheeks.
But then his hand slid down to your shoulder, gentle but urgent, âcome here,â he breathed, voice rough, âI need you closer.â
You pulled off with a soft pop, lips shiny, and he didnât waste a seconâhe tugged you up into his lap again, hands already working your jeans open. You shoved his jeans down further, wrapping your hand around his cock, stroking him slow and tight while he pushed two fingers into you without warning. The stretch made you gasp, forehead dropping to his shoulder.
âFuck, youâre so wet,â he muttered against your neck, curling his fingers just right, âall this for me?â
You nodded, breath hitching as you kept stroking him, thumb swiping over the head on every upstroke. The car was getting warmer, windows starting to fog, the cramped backseat making everything feel even more intenseâelbows bumping seats, knees knocking, but neither of you cared. You rocked into his hand while he fucked you with his fingers, messy and uncoordinated and perfect.
Jakeâs mouth found your neck, sucking hard enough to leave a mark. You moaned, head tilting to give him more space, and he took it, kissing, licking, biting down gently before soothing the spot with his tongue. Another mark right below your ear, then one on your collarbone. He was claiming you in the quietest way possible, and it made your stomach flip.
His fingers sped up, thumb pressing against your clit, and you squeezed him tighter in response, stroking faster.
âYou feel so good,â he panted, voice low and broken against your skin, âIâI canât even think straight when youâre like this. I think I loââ
You cut him off with a kiss, hard and desperate, swallowing whatever he was about to say. Your heart was hammering too loud, the guilt and the want twisting together until it hurt. You werenât ready, not yet. Not when everything still felt like it was built on something you couldnât admit out loud.
Jake groaned into your mouth, kissing you back like he understood anyway, fingers still moving inside you, thumb circling faster. You kept stroking him, messy and slick, both of you breathing hard between kisses, bodies pressed so close you could feel his heartbeat against yours.
He pulled back just enough to rest his forehead on yours, eyes dark and glassy, âyouâre everything,â he whispered instead, the words thick, âdonât stop, baby.â
You didnât, kissing him again, slower this time, the act so devastatingly soft, your bodies couldnât help but react by reaching the peak of unadulterated pleasure you both provided each other with, messy and desperate, but none of you cared in the moment, enjoying the bliss of it all.Â
Letting the mess of feelings stay buried under the heat of his mouth.
CHAPTER TWELVE:Â The forgotten bet
You didnât know what to do with yourself anymore, and somehow hiding in the library was the best you could do to get away from everything you wanted to be close to. Choosing a seat which you normally didnât opt for was even worse, and the notes in front of you seemed to be in an entirely different language when your mind was elsewhere.Â
But someone had this weird idea about the whereabouts of practically everyone in the campus, which is why Jaemin found you sulking in a corner, his smile as bright as ever as invited himself to sit next to you.Â
âBet not going too well, I presume,â he started, breaking your train of thoughts.Â
That shit eating grin on his face infuriated more, and there was nothing more you wished to do than punch him at the given moment.Â
âWhat the fuck do you want?â You snapped, not even bothering to look up from the notes that might as well have been written in ancient Greek.
âRelax,â he said, leaning back like he had all day, âI come in peace. Just checking in on my favorite partner in crime.â
You finally glanced at him, jaw tight, âthereâs no bet anymore. So, you can leave.â
Jaemin laughed under his breath, spinning one of your pens between his fingers, âsure looks like there is to me. I saw you two at the party, the way he dragged you into his room right in front of everyone. Then yesterday? Jayâs car parked on that quiet street for almost an hour, windows completely fogged up. Jake came back to the dorm looking like heâd just won the lottery. Heâs been skipping practice, smiling at nothing, telling the guys heâs taking you on a date again very soon. Heâs in deep, Y/N. Like, actually gone.â
Your stomach twisted. Of course he knew. Jaemin always knew everything that happened on campus.
He leaned in a little, voice dropping but still smug, âyouâve got him right where you want him. One more good date, a couple more nights like yesterday, and heâs gonna say it. The whole iâm in love with you speech. Then you reject him, take the Paris trip, and we both win. Easy.â
You stared at him, chest tight, âyouâre actually serious right now.â
âDead serious,â he said, grin still firmly in place. âThis was your plan too, remember? Make him fall hard, then crush him. Donât go soft on me just because he bought you three bouquets and looked at you with those puppy eyes. Youâre winning. Donât fuck it up now.â
He stood up slowly, tapping the table once with his knuckle, âthink about it. Heâs already forgetting the car even exists. Finish the job before it gets too messy.â
Jaemin walked off without another word, even though you did scream your answer, garnering the attention of students who werenât pleased about it. But yes, he did leave you alone with the heavy knot in your chest and the notes you still couldnât read.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN: Too good to be trueÂ
This wasnât the plan.Â
Sitting in the bleachers, supporting Jake, clad in this jacket as if you were his girlfriend. To make things worse, Jake absolutely preened in showing you off, not one care about embarrassment, not when he was the one who had insisted you wear it before the game even started.Â
âLooks better on you than it does on me,â heâd said with that easy grin, tugging the collar straight and pressing a quick kiss to your forehead right there on the sidelines where half the team could see. Youâd rolled your eyes at the time, but now, with his name printed across the back in bold white letters, you felt the weight of every curious glance from the crowd.
The game was loud to say the least, Jungwon and Karina agreed, but they also silently agreed that your happiness came first, and at the moment, you looked really happy. Jake was everywhereâstealing the ball with sharp precision, setting up plays that made the stands roar, running like the field belonged to him alone. Every few minutes his eyes would flick up to the bleachers, searching until they landed on you. The second they did, his whole face would change. That bright, boyish smile would break through the concentration, and heâd give you this tiny, secret nod like you two were the only ones who understood what it meant.
âIâm not doing it,â you whispered to yourself.Â
Jungwon only smiled, âwe knowâweâve always known.â
You turned to look at him, âhow?â Somehow the question itself made you seem small, especially the possibility of Jake finding out and losing trust in youâseemed way worse.Â
âYou try to act all tough, but we know how soft you are,â Karina spoke softly.Â
âAnd with Jake? There was no way we didnât see this coming, you really canât fool us,â Jungwon added with a dimpled smile, making you chuckle despite the breakdown you were going to have.Â
You didnât realize how heavy the bet felt till you got it off of your chest, eyes watery as you turned to look at Jake in his element yet again, watching how he moved with ease under the burden of the timer ticking. But Jake was really good at what he did, kicking the ball straight into the net as it curled around in the corner left just as the whistle blew in the background.Â
You didnât even realize you were screaming until your own voice hit your ears. You shot up fully, hands in the air, cheering so loud your throat hurt. âYes, Jake! Go!â The words just flew out of you, completely unfiltered. Jungwon and Karina were jumping beside you, all three of you yelling like idiots.Â
Jake didnât celebrate with his teammates. He broke away from the pile and ran straight for the stands, jumping the barrier in one smooth motion, and before you could even catch your breath he was right there in front of you, chest heaving, that huge, bright grin on his face.
He grabbed your waist with both hands and spun you around once, fast. Your feet left the ground, the roar of the crowd blurring into one big cheer.
âJake!â You squeaked, laughing but instantly embarrassed as people around you whistled and shouted, âput me downâeveryoneâs watchingââ
He didnât listen. He spun you one more time, slower this time, eyes locked on yours like the rest of the stadium had disappeared. âLet them watch,â he said, still grinning like an idiot, âI scored that goal thinking about you, I want them to know it.â
When he finally set you back on your feet he didnât step back. He cupped your face with both hands and kissed you right there in front of everyoneâdeep, a little messy, his jersey was damp with sweat, his heart still hammering against yours, but the kiss felt steady.Â
Your face burned hot the second his lips touched yours. You could feel hundreds of eyes on you, phones probably out, people cheering and laughing, but Jake didnât care at all. He kissed you like the crowd wasnât even there, like this was the only thing that mattered.
When he finally pulled back just enough to rest his forehead on yours, he was breathing hard, eyes shining, âIâI, uh,â he tried to find words, but with you looking at him so sweetly, he just melted, âyouâre my good luck charm.â
And gosh, you smiled, pecking him softly, reciprocating the exact feelings heâd been harbouring towards you. His teammates were yelling his name from the field, and so he left with a promise to be back soon.Â
Itâs normal for any sane person to get scared when things feel too good to be true, exactly how they felt for you and Jake, so the flicker of worry didnât go unnoticed by Jake after the whole team came out. When they came out of the locker rooms, hair damp and smelling like fresh soap, Jake made a face at the idea of the big victory party happening across campus.
He glanced at you, really looked at you for a second, and caught the tiny flicker of worry that crossed your face, clearing his throat, âguys, Iâm tired, letâs just go to the dorm and get some food and drinks ordered in.âÂ
Jake looked down at you again, voice softer just for you, âthat cool? We can keep it small.â
You managed a small smile and nodded, âyeah. That sounds perfect, actually.â
He smiled back, the kind of relieved, soft smile that made your chest feel a little lighter, and pressed a quick kiss to the side of your head, âgood, letâs go home then.â
Jaemin, who had wandered over to join the group at some point, grinned wide. Jeno, standing a step behind him, shot Jaemin a sharp look and shook his head once, trying to warn him without saying anything out loud. Jaemin just smirked and ignored him completely.
Jake didnât notice. He was too busy lacing his fingers with yours again, already tugging you gently toward the dorms. It was new to you, the feeling of being held in someoneâs armsâin front of everyone, as if the concept of personal space was foreign to Jake, but did you actually want him to let go of you? Absolutely not, even if you wonât admit it out loud.Â
Jake hadnât let go of you once. He kept you tucked right against his side on the couch, one arm looped around your shoulders, fingers tracing lazy little patterns on your arm like he couldnât stop touching you. Every few minutes heâd lean in and press a soft kiss to your temple or the top of your head or the corner of your mouth, completely unbothered by the others being right there.
Was it really that easy to fall in so deep for someone within a month? Take yourself for example, wrapped up in Jakeâs embrace, it certainly did seem true to some extent.Â
âYou okay? Youâve been quiet since we got back, was I too much?â He asked, thumb brushing the side of your neck, a worried pout on his face.Â
You shook your head just a bit, âIâm just happy, you did so well out there, Jakey.â
He sighed with happiness, all worries gone in a second, âcouldnât have done it without you.â
Sunghoon groaned loudly, âdude, youâre so gone itâs painful to watch.â
Jake laughed, pressing another kiss to the top of your head, âleave me alone, man. I earned this.â
You were about to tease him back when the door swung open.
Jaemin strolled in with Jeno beside him, grabbing a slice of pizza from the nearest box and dropping onto the arm of the couch across from you, taking a big bite. His eyes flicked over the sceneâJakeâs arm still wrapped around you, the way Jake was still leaning into you like he couldnât get close enough. Jaeminâs grin sharpened.
âDamn, look at you two,â he said casually, chewing, âstill going strong, huh? So Jake, did you finally drop the L-word on her yet? Cause you have two days left till the bet ends.â
You stilled, staring at Jaemin with wide eyes, just like everyone else in the room. Jeno groaned at the back cause he did try to stop Jaem, but to no avail. But it was almost as if he couldnât pick up context cues, and so he continued, âyou told her about it right? Since youâre smitten now, thatâs why youâre together, right?âÂ
âJaemin,â Jake warned him, his hold tightening on you, âshut the fuck up.â
Jungwon and Karina were ready to take you back, almost jumping to their feet, but thatâs not where Jaem stopped. Jungwon was already shifting closer on the couch until his knee pressed against yours, one hand resting lightly on your arm like he was ready to pull you out of there the second you needed it.
âWhat? You didnât tell her?â He smirked, now staring right at you, âwell, too fucking bad cause she already fucking knows youâre playing her for a car,â he smirked, leaning back against the couch, finally letting the drama unfold.Â
Your chest tightened so hard it hurt to breathe. You felt the heat rush to your face, then drain away just as fast, leaving you cold. Jay was staring at the floor like it had answers. Heeseungâs hand froze around his beer. Sunghoon looked like he wanted to sink into the cushions. Karinaâs eyes were wide, looking at you knowing exactly how you felt right nowâespecially after the nights you cried with her. Jungwonâs fingers tightened on your arm because of the same.Â
Of course his friends had known the whole time.
You pulled away from Jakeâs arm slowly, like your body was moving through water. The walls youâd been trying so hard to keep down slammed back up, higher than before. You felt small, exposed, stupid even. Like every soft kiss, every my girl, every time he looked at you like you mattered had been watched and laughed at behind your back.
You stood up, âI knew it the whole time,â you confessed, observing just how panicked he seemed at the moment, âJaemin told me everything at the very beginningâhow you just bet on my feelings for his car,â you tried to stop yourself from getting emotional, letting a shaky breath out as Jakeâs shaking hand held on to yours, âso he asked me to do the same, to show you how it hurts to play with someoneâs emotions.âÂ
His face went pale, and even though he opened his mouth, no words came out, just throbbing pain in his heart, and eyes wide as if heâd gotten punched in the gut.Â
Maybe him accepting it wouldâve made it better, but for Jake, there wasnât an option between fight or flight, only freezing on the spot. Everyone stayed silent, watching it unfold and Jay tried to shake Jakeâs shoulders, but all he could see was your trust crumpling, and his heart breaking.Â
âYouâyou donât actually like me?â He asked, voice breaking.Â
âI doâI fucking do,â your voice cracked as well, âgoing through with the bet was not my intention, but what about you, Jake?â
Jakeâs hand, still reaching for yours, started to tremble. His mouth opened again, but nothing came out. The guilt on his face was so raw it made your stomach turn. He looked hurtâreally hurt, and you werenât sure how to feel anymore, the hypocrisy of it all sinking in deeper, making everything worse. Youâd planned to use him too, you were no better. The walls around you shot up even higher at the absence of words, of reassurance.Â
So you asked again, âJake, was any of it real?âÂ
Jake finally spoke, voice barely above a whisper, broken, âyouâyou knew the whole time?â
You nodded, a tear cascaded down the curve of your cheek freely, âyeah. I knew.â
He let out a shaky breath, like the words physically hurt him, âand you stillâyou let me fall for you anyway? You let me get this deep even though you knew I started it for a stupid bet? Why didnât you tell me?âÂ
The rise in his voice almost made you laugh, âso now youâre hurt cause I knew? After you started the whole thing for a car? Thatâs rich, Jake.â
Jungwon stood up right beside you, shoulder brushing yours, protective, âY/N, you donât have to explain anything else to him, not right now.â
âNo, noâJake just fucking tell me, is it real?â You waited for an answer, to get absolute silence in return, âJake?âÂ
You tried for the last time, just to find tears streaming down his flushed face, but nothing came out of his mouth. He was too in his head, cursing himself, cursing Jaeming for letting it happen, but you? How could he ever hate you?Â
Wiping your tears roughly, you let Karina embrace you, who kept glaring at all the boys. It wasnât awkward for them, they felt guilty too, but knew better than to speak up in between them.Â
You stepped back, âfine thenâIâm done, weâre done. Donât follow me, donât text me. Just stay the hell away from me.â
You turned toward the door. Jake shot up after you, voice cracking, âY/N, waitâplease, just let me explainââ
âDonât,â you snapped, not turning around.
Karina was already grabbing your jacket, âcâmon, letâs get out of here.â
Jungwon stayed right at your side until you reached the door, then spun around, glaring at Jay, âyou shouldâve stopped him, you knew what he was doing from the start. You let him play with her feelings like it was nothing. What the fuck, Jay?â
Jay looked wrecked, never expecting Jungwon to get angry, âI tried, man. I told him it was fucked upââ
âYou all knew!â Jungwonâs voice rose, âevery single one of you sat there and watched her fall and didnât say a word. Thatâs fucked upâyou couldnât reassure her after she told you everything, huh, Jake?â
You didnât wait to hear more, stepping into the hallway, Karina right behind you, her hand gentle on your back,âIâve got you,â she whispered, âjust breathe, okay?â
Behind the closed door, it only got worse, Jungwonâs voice only got louder as Jay tried to explain himself.
As the boys gathered to calm down Jungwon, they completely missed the way Jake got up and headed towards Jaemin. Only the sound of a loud crash got their attentionâJakeâs fist connecting with Jaeminâs jaw.Â
âYou fucking asshole,â Jake snarled, his voice raw and broken. Another punch landed, his knuckles splitting open against Jaeminâs cheekbone. Blood smeared across his hand and dripped onto the floor. Heeseung and Sunghoon tried to pull him back, but Jake was swinging again, tears streaming down his face as he cried freely, angry and devastated all at once.
âFucking get off me!â He shouted, his voice cracking between sobs, "this is your faultâall of it! You ruined everything!â
Furniture scraped against the floor. Someone yelled for them to stop, but it fell deaf to Jakeâs ears. He kept swinging, his knuckles bleeding worse with every punch, tears falling fast down his cheeks, until Heeseung and Sunghoon finally managed to drag him back, both of them breathing hard.
Jaemin didnât care much, he looked rather amused at the situation as Jeno tried to pull him up in furious whispers of urging him to stop being messy.Â
Jake stood there in the middle of the mess, shoulders shaking, blood on his hands and tears still streaming from his bloodshot eyes. He looked completely destroyed.
And you? You didnât look back.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN: Salvation
So maybe you did jinx yourself for thinking everything was perfect. However, it made no sense to you, or to anyone for that matter. You werenât an expert about feelings by any means, yet it was clear to anyone with working eyes that whatever you and Jake had was far from fake.Â
Why couldnât he say it?Â
You knew the stakes, you came clean to him, and god knows you couldnât be mad at him for telling you that it, in fact, started off because of a bit. But the silence hurt.Â
âI love him,â you whispered, and Karina hugged you tighter at how raw the confession sounded.Â
âI know,â she mumbled, âitâs okay, itâll be okay.â
You stayed quiet for a while, letting her hold you. The numbness had settled deep, leaving you strangely serene even as your heart ached. There were no more tears left. Just this heavy, enthralling ache that refused to let go.
Karina eventually pulled back and brushed a strand of hair from your face, âIâm gonna make you some tea, okay? Iâll be right back, yeah?â
You nodded mutely and watched her head to the small kitchenette. The soft clink of the kettle and mugs filled the room as you sat there on the edge of the bed, staring at nothing.Â
Karina was busy with the kettle as a knock came at the door, making her pause her ministrations. She walked over and opened the door just a crack, hoping itâd be Jungwon.
It was Jake.
He looked utterly destroyed. His eyes were bloodshot and had started to swell from crying, cheeks still damp with fresh tears. His knuckles were split open and bleeding, dark red smeared across his hand and the sleeve of his hoodie. He was breathing hard, like heâd run the entire way here without stopping.
Karinaâs eyes widened in horror, âJakeâwhat the hell happened to your hands?â
He didnât even look at her. His gaze was fixed past her shoulder, desperately searching for you, âplease,â he said, his voice hoarse and broken. Without waiting, he slowly lowered himself to his knees right there in the hallway, bloody hands clasped in front of him, âplease, Karina, just let me talk to her. I need her to know it was real, Iâm begging you.â
Karina stood frozen for a long moment, clearly torn. She glanced back at you, then down at Jake kneeling on the floor, tears still slipping down his face, knuckles dripping blood onto the tiles.
She let out a heavy, reluctant sigh.
âIâcome in,â she said quietly, stepping aside, âbut if you make this any worse, I swear to God, Jakeââ
Jake didnât even stand up right away. He stayed on his knees for another heartbeat, bloody hands still clasped like he was praying, before he pushed himself up on shaky legs. God, his eyesâthey were red-rimmed and glassy, the golden-boy sparkle completely shattered. He looked like heâd been run over by a truck and then backed over again for good measure.
Karina shot you one last warning glance before she slipped into the kitchenette, muttering something about giving you two five minutes and that sheâd be right there with a knife if needed. The door to your room clicked shut behind her, leaving nothing but the sound of Jakeâs ragged breathing and the faint drip of blood onto your floor.
You stayed rooted on the edge of the bed, arms wrapped tight around your middle like you could physically hold yourself together. Your heart was hammering so hard it hurt. A part of you wanted to scream at him to get the fuck out. The other partâthe stupid, traitorous part that had fallen anywayâached at the sight of him like this.
You swallowed hard, voice coming out sharper than you meant, âwhat the hell are you doing here, Jake? What now?â
Jake ran a shaky hand through his hair, smearing a thin streak of blood across his forehead, âI donât know,â he groaned, âI really fucking donât. You said all that shit after the game and I justâI just froze, okay? I punched Jaemin so hard I think I broke something, and it still didnât make me feel better. Nothing did.â
You looked away, âso you came here?âÂ
âYeah, I came here,â his voice was rough, frustrated. He took another step closer, boots scuffing the floor, âwhat else was I supposed to do? You just walked off, were my actions not enough for you, huh? I sat in my room staring at the wall like an idiot for an hour.â
You let out a sharp laugh, finally looking at him again, âoh, poor you. Mustâve been real hard.â
âDonât,â he warned, âdonât do that. You told me you knew everything and you fell anyway. And then you justâleft. What the fuck was I supposed to do with that?â
You stood up fast, arms dropping to your sides, âwhat did you expect? A hug? You started this whole thing. You came after me for a bet. I only played along to fuck you over and now look at us. Iâm the dumbass who actually caught feelings, while you couldnât even admit it in front of your friends.â
Jakeâs jaw clenched so hard you saw the muscle jump, âI broke the bet off before the date, Y/N. Before I even took you out. That morning I told Jaemin I was done with the whole thing. He was just stirring shit tonight to fuck with both of us.â
You stared at him, the words hitting like a slap, âyouâyou what?â
âYeah,â he whispered, âI ended it days ago. Because it wasnât a game anymore, not for me. But you still think I was using you the whole time, donât you?â
Your hands started shaking, âthen why the fuck didnât you tell me? You let me keep thinking it was all fake while I was falling for you like an idiot? While I was lying to my friends and to myself?â
âBecause I was terrified!â His voice cracked, louder now, âI knew the second I said it out loud youâd look at me like thisâlike Iâm the enemy. I didnât want to lose you and I still fucking donât. Iâm in love with you, okay? Not for the bet or the stupid car.â
You shoved at his chest, hard, but your fingers stayed twisted in his hoodie at the confession. He loves you, and he was never once hesitant to show it till now, âyouâre such a fucking coward, Jake.â
âI know,â he breathed, eyes glassy as he pressed closer, forehead almost touching yours, âIâm the biggest coward on campus. But Iâm yours if you still want me.â
You yanked him down by the hoodie and pulled him into a deep kiss as Jake groaned into your mouth, hands sliding under your shirt, bloody knuckles rough against your skin, and you could taste the saltiness of his tears on his lips.Â
âI love you,â he gasped right against your lips, the words spilling out shaky between kisses, âfuck, I love youââ
You whined into his mouth at how freely he said it now. Jake had always been truthful to his feelings, while youâd been insecure, which is why you couldnât do much but kiss him back, hoping that itâll show how you reciprocate the feelings.Â
The sharp tang of blood hit your tongue when his injured knuckle brushed your jaw. You pulled back, breathing hard, eyes dropping to his right hand. Only that one knuckle was split open, still seeping a thin line of red.
âJake,â you muttered, fingers wrapping around his wrist gently and turning it over, âyouâre still bleeding.â
He tried to pull you back in, eyes dark and hazy, âdonât careââ
âI do.â You slid off his lap before he could argue, legs a little unsteady as you crossed to the shelf by your desk. Your hands shook slightly when you grabbed the antiseptic wipes, a small tube of ointment, and a strip of gauze. When you turned back he was still sitting on the edge of the bed exactly where youâd left him, watching you with this raw, open look that made your stomach twist in the deepest wayâcause gosh, he looked beautiful.
You knelt between his thighs again and took his injured hand. The wipe stung when you pressed it to the cut. Jake hissed softly through his teeth but didnât pull away. He just stared at your face like the sight of you taking care of him was something he couldnât quite believe was real.
âYouâre really doing this right now,â he said quietly.Â
âSomeone has to,â you whispered, dabbing the blood away carefully, then smoothing ointment over the split skin. Every small touch felt heavier than it shouldâthe faint tremble in his fingers, the way your own heartbeat was slamming so hard against your ribs it felt like it was echoing in your throat. You wrapped the gauze around his knuckle slowly, and the quiet intimacy of it settled somewhere deep in your chest, warm and aching and terrifying all at once.
When you finished he caught your face with both hands and pulled you up into another kiss as if pouring every ounce of emotions heâd ever felt towards you, his lips slotting perfectly against yours, a bit messy with how reverent he was. He even wish to breathe anymore, just accepting the warmth of your mouth as a way to live.Â
âYouâre so fucking perfect,â he breathed against your mouth again, the words vibrating through you, âgod, I love you so much it feels like itâs in my bones. Like every time I touch you I remember how close I came to losing this.â
You climbed back into his lap, straddling him, and kissed him harder, hips rolling once against the obvious hardness straining in his sweatpants. The friction made you both moan softly. His bandaged hand slid up your back under your shirt, palm warm against your spine, while the other cupped the back of your neck like he was scared youâd pull away.
He broke the kiss just enough to rest his forehead against yours, breathing ragged. His eyes were glassy, voice cracking when he spoke.
âDo you actually want me?â He whispered, lips brushing yours with every word, ânot because weâre both fucked up right now. Justâtell me, if not iâll just stop. Say it against my mouth, pleasw, I need to hear it.â
Your heart felt too big for your chest, a heavy, aching throb that matched the pulse between your legs. You leaned in until your lips touched his with every syllable.
âI want you,â you breathed right against him, âI want you so fucking bad, Jake. Just youâall of you.â
The second the words left your mouth you grabbed his bandaged right hand and pressed his palm flat to the center of your chest, right over your racing heart. His fingers spread wide, the gauze rough and warm against your skin, and Jake let out this low, broken groan that vibrated straight through you.
âFuckâbaby,â he rasped, eyes fluttering like he was barely holding it together, âfor me?â
Youâd seen how Jake got during intimate moments, but the way he was acting right nowâbreathing hard against your skin, you werenât sure how much longer youâd be able to handle without confessing all your feelings for the pretty boy in front of you. The fact that he came running so soon, that he wished to clear things up, it was enough. Staying mad at him wasnât ever a choice when every single cell within you yearned for him.Â
âFor you,â you whispered gently, eyes never leaving his face.Â
He looked stunning to say the least, perhaps the prettiest crier youâve ever laid your eyes upon. His face was flushed, this beautiful shade of red gracing it, and you couldnât help but trace your thumb over his swollen lip, âyouâre so pretty,â you whispered without thinking twice.  Â
In one smooth motion he flipped you both, laying you down on the bed and settling between your thighs, his body pressing you into the mattress. The sudden weight of him, the heat rolling off his skin, the way his pendant swung forward and rested cool against your clavicleâit made you shiver. You looked down and saw it, your initials, small and delicate on the silver chain around his neck, nestled right there against your skin.
A soft, involuntary moan slipped out of you.
Jakeâs breath hitched hard against your neck, âyou see it, baby?â He whispered, his lipsâso fucking soft and plush, brushed your throat as he spoke, âgot it the next day after our date, been wearing it since.â
âYouâre crazy,â you managed to say, but your eyes were shining just as bright as his own, his usual smile stretching, making your heart race faster than usual.Â
The proximity was maddening. His chest pressed flush to yours, heart hammering so hard you could feel it through his ribs. The heat of his body soaked into every inch of you, his breath hot and ragged on your neck. He took his time to take your scent in, shamelessly so, doing exactly what he couldnât when he first talked to you, and swore he was rather drunk on it.Â
He buried his face deeper into the curve of your neck and inhaled again, slow and shaky, like he was trying to memorize you, âfuckâwanted to do this when I first met you,â he mumbled, lips dragging along your pulse point, open-mouthed and wet.
You shivered hard, fingers sliding up into his hair and tugging lightly, âthen stop holding back now, Jake. Touch me.â
He groaned, âyeah? You want that?â His bandaged hand slipped under your shirt, palm hot and trembling as it cupped your breast, thumb brushing over your nipple until it tightened, âlike this? Tell me if itâs good, baby. I need to hear you.â
âFeels so good,â you breathed, arching into his touch, âdonât be gentle. I want to feel how bad you want me.â
âFuck,â he rasped, voice cracking, âIâm gonna show you how sorry I am. Gonna make you feel it with every fucking inch of me until you know Iâm yours.â He pushed your shirt higher, mouth following right behind, kissing and sucking down your chest like he was starving, âgod, look at youâso fucking pretty under me. Can I take this off? I need to see all of you, baby. Please?â
You nodded fast, lifting your arms. He peeled your shirt off and tossed it aside, then just stared, chest rising fast, âfuckâthese tits. Been thinking about them every night.â His mouth latched onto one nipple, plush lips sucking slow and deep while his hand palmed the other one, thumb teasing the peak until you were squirming.
âJaeyunâshit, that feels so good,â you moaned, back arching.
âYeah? You like my mouth here?â he asked, switching sides, tongue swirling lazy circles. âTell me, baby. I need to hear how good Iâm making you feel.â
âSo good,â you whimpered, fingers tightening in his hair, âdonât stop.â
âWonât stop,â he sighed in pleasure, sucking harder as his teeth grazed just enough to make you gasp, the pendant dragging cool over your skin with every move of his head.Â
You couldnât take it anymore. You pushed at his shoulders and flipped you both again, straddling his hips, grinding down slow and filthy against the hard line of his cock through his pants.
Jakeâs eyes rolled back, a wrecked groan tearing out of him, âJesus Christâyeah, keep going, pretty.â
You leaned down, hair falling around both of you, and kissed him deep, tongue sliding against his, his fingers digging into the flesh of your waist, as if no amount of kissing could satiate his hunger.Â
You pulled back just enough to look at him, lips still brushing and his eyes were blown wide, chest heaving under you. Holding his gaze, you gathered spit in your mouth, and let it drip slowly right onto his waiting tongue.
Jakeâs whole body jerked hard beneath you. A wrecked, filthy moan tore out of his throat as the warm spit landed on his tongue. He didnât even hesitate before swallowing it down with a shaky groan, then leaned right up and licked into your mouth like he was chasing the taste of you, tongue sliding against yours again, ever so messy and eager.
The absolute joy of being here, so free and filthy with Jake despite everything, had you getting freakier by second knowing damn well how Jake would be thrilled, and he did. He wasnât sure what heâd do with himself if you didnât accept his apology, or if youâd admit that it was a game to you. But seeing neither was the case, he had to take the next stepâto show exactly how much he wanted you.Â
âSo dirty for me, huh?â He smirked, sucking on your tongue, âfucking perfect, youâre mine, yeah? Made for me.â
âGetting possessive already?â You chuckled deeply, licking up his neck, nibbling on his earlobe, confidence boosting by second at the sight of him shivering with your ministrations, âyou like it when I spit in that pretty mouth of yours, Jake?Â
He tugged your bottom lip between his teeth, gentle but playful, giving it a light pull before letting it go with a soft pop, âlike it?â He murmured, eyes sparkling with that familiar mischief even now, âdarling, I fucking love it. You have no idea how long Iâve wanted you to be this comfortable with meâthis filthy.â
You grinned, rolling your hips down against the hard line of his cock, âthen stop talking and do something about it.â
Jake clicked his tongue, rolling over so you were under him again, pinning you to the mattress with his weight, eyebrow cocked up, âbossy tonight, arenât you?â He teased, lips brushing yours as he spoke.
You traced your finger up his spine, grabbing the hair on his nape with a tug that had him groaning, âwhy wouldnât I be? Youâre mine now, arenât you?â You challenged.Â
âClaiming me now, hm? Not mad anymore?â He caught your wrist, pinning it beside your head with his bandaged hand while his other slid down to grip your thigh, spreading you wider under him.Â
The weight of him was heavenly, you could feel the faint ridges of his abs through his hoodie, the way his heart was slamming against your ribs like it was trying to reach you. His pendant swung forward, cool metal kissing your skin right between your breasts, and the sight of your own initials resting there made you whine yet again.Â
âWant me to be mad?â You pecked his neck, âwant me to go ask someone else to please meââ
Jakeâs head snapped up so fast it was almost comical, âyou fucking dare say that again,â he almost groaned, his grip on your thigh tightening, fingers digging in like he needed to remind himself you were really here, âdonât even joke about that shit, the thought of someone else even looking at you the way I do makes me want to lose my fucking mind.â
You blinked up at him, surprised by how quickly the jealousy hit, âJakeââ
âNo,â He he you off, voice rough as he shoved your shorts and panties down your legs in one impatient yank, the fabric tearing slightly at the seam. He didnât care. He tossed them off the bed and settled between your thighs like he belonged there, his big nose brushing the sensitive skin of your inner thigh as he inhaled deep, shameless.
âFuck,â he muttered, eyes locked on how wet you were, âyouâre actually dripping. All this for me, just for me, hm?â
You tried to answer, but the words died in your throat when he dragged two fingers through your folds, spreading the wetness before pushing them inside you in one smooth thrust. The stretch made your back arch off the bed with a sharp gasp.
âJakeââ
âYeah?â He curled his fingers deep right away, thumb brushing your clit in slow circles. His nose rubbed against your inner thigh as he leaned in closer, breath hot against your pussy, âkeep talking. I wanna hear what you wanna say while my fingers are buried in you like this.â
You clenched around him, hips rolling up to chase the feeling, absolutely enamoured with how possessive he wasâmaybe thatâs what you wanted, him claiming you so freely, âyouâre so fucking jealous,â you managed, half-laugh, half-moan, âgodâI fucking love you.â
It didnât take much for you to say it, but to Jake, it was everything.Â
His fingers froze deep inside you for a split second. Then he yanked them out so fast you whimpered at the sudden emptiness, but before you could even protest he was surging up your body, cupping your face with both hands, thumbs pressing into your cheeks as he stared down at you like youâd just knocked the air out of his lungs.
âSay it again,â he demanded, chest heaving and eyes wild.
âI love you, Jaeyun,â you whispered, looking straight in his eyes.Â
âFuckâI love you too,â he managed to say desperately, he crushed his mouth to yours, kissing you like he was trying to crawl inside your skin, âi needed to hear that.â
He pressed open mouthed kisses all over your torso, only stopping to take his hoodie off in a go, revealing the faint lines of his abs and the light scatter of freckles across his shoulders. The sight of him all flushed, made heat flood between your legs even more.
He slid back down your body fast, shoving your thighs apart wider. He hooked one of your legs over his shoulder, opening you up even more, his big nose brushed your inner thigh as he inhaled deep and shameless. âFuck, you smell so good when youâre this turned on,â he groaned, then dragged his tongue in one long, filthy stripe up your pussy, moaning loud when he tasted you, âmine, hm.â
His nose rubbed firm and perfect against your clit as he licked, the pressure making your hips jerk.
âJakeâgodd,â you gasped, fingers twisting in his hair.
He looked up at you, lips shiny, eyes dark, âyeah? You like my mouth on you?â He sucked your clit into his mouth, fingers pushing back inside you, curling just right, âtell me, baby, I wanna hear how good Iâm making you feel while I eat this pretty pussy.â
âSo good,â you moaned, thighs shaking around his head, âyour noseâright there, it feels so fucking good rubbing my clit like that.â
He caressed the soft flesh of your inner thighs with his veiny hand, thumb stroking back and forth.
Placing open mouthed kisses on it made it worse (better), and you twitched hard.
Jakeâs eyes flicked up to yours, lips curving into a filthy little smirk, âoh? Sensitive here?â He dragged his teeth along the inside of your thigh, then sucked hard, leaving a dark mark right where his thumb had been stroking, âfuck, I love that. Gonna mark every spot that makes you shake for me, yeah? My good fucking girl.â
He didnât give you time to recover. He buried his face between your legs again, eyes never leaving your face, and just how perfect you looked shaking for him, memorizing every bit of it.Â
He sucked harder, fingers pumping faster, nose pressing firm and relentless. âMhm, cum for me, baby. Let me taste how much you want me right now.â
You came hard, thighs clamping around his head as you cried out his name, pulsing around his fingers while he kept licking and sucking you through it, moaning like your orgasm was the best thing heâd ever tasted.
He didnât stop until you were whimpering and pushing weakly at his shoulders, over-sensitive and trembling.
Only then did he crawl back up your body, kissing you deep so you could taste yourself on his tongue. His cock was straining hard against his pants, the front completely soaked with pre-cum.
You reached down and palmed him through the fabric. âTake these off,â you said, voice hoarse, âI want to see you. All of you.â
Jake sat back on his heels, eyes locked on yours the whole time as he shoved his pants and boxers down his hips, keeping it on the side. His cock sprang free, thick, flushed dark, and leaking at the tip. He wrapped his veiny hand around it and gave himself one slow stroke, watching your reaction.
âBetter?â He asked, a smirk tugging at his swollen lips even as his chest still heaved, âthis what you wanted?â
You bit your lip, heat flooding through you at the sight of him so flushed and bare, freckles standing out across his nose and shoulders, faint abs flexing with every breath, cock heavy in his hand.
âBetter,â you breathed, sitting up just a little, reaching out to wrap your fingers around his thick length.Â
He let out a shaky laugh that turned into a groan when you stroked him slowly from base to tip, thumb swiping over the leaking head, âlove your hand, so fucking pretty,â he mumbled, hips twitching forward into your fist, âbeen hard for you for so long it hurts. Câmon, get on your back, baby, I need to be inside you.â
You lay back, spreading your legs for him. Jake settled between them, rubbing the thick head of his cock up and down your soaked folds, coating himself in your wetness, being thick enough that the first push made your breath catch.
âEasy,â he murmured, voice strained as he pressed in slowly, making you feel every inch he gave you, âyouâre so tightâfuck, just breathe for me. Iâve got you.â
It took time. He worked himself in with shallow thrusts, letting you adjust to the stretch, his jaw clenched tight, sweat already beading on his flushed chest. When he finally bottomed out, buried to the hilt, the fullness made your eyes flutter shut and a broken moan slip out of you.
âShit, Jaeyun youâre so deep,â you gasped, nails digging into his shoulders.
He stayed still for a moment, forehead pressed to yours, breathing hard, âyou feel so fucking good,â he groaned, âlike you were made for me. Tell me when youâre ready.â
You rolled your hips experimentally and moaned, âyeah, yeahâplease.â
He started slow, deep rolls of his hips that dragged against every sensitive spot inside you, building the pace slowly with steadier strokes that made your back arch and your moans louder. Every thrust pushed the air out of your lungs, the wet slap of skin on skin filling the room.
âGod, look at you taking me,â he panted, eyes locked on where you were stretched around him, âso pretty and full of my cock.â
You wrapped your legs around his waist, pulling him deeper, âharder, Jake. I can take it.â
He groaned and gave you exactly what you asked for, hips snapping faster, the pendant with your initials swinging between your breasts with every thrust. His veiny hand slid down to rub your clit, drawing eights on them.Â
You were moaning his name, right on the edge, when you suddenly pushed at his chest, âwaitâI want to ride you.â
Jake didnât hesitate, in fact, he was already drooling at the image of your pretty tits jiggling right in front of him. He flipped onto his back, pulling you on top of him in one smooth motion. You straddled his lap and sank down onto his cock in one go, both of you moaning loudly at the new angle.
âFuckâride me, baby,â he groaned, hands gripping your hips as you started moving. His thumbs brushed your nipples, pinching and rolling them while you bounced on his thick length, âso fucking pretty riding my cock like you own it.â
You leaned forward, pressing your chest to his, and started sucking dark hickeys into the side of his neck, right below his jaw, âI do own it, baby.â
Jakeâs head fell back, a low moan escaping him as you marked him up.
âYou do, just youâ he panted, one hand sliding up to cup the back of your neck, holding you against him while the other kept playing with your nipple, âwant everyone to see Iâm yours.â
He reached blindly to the side, grabbing his discarded pants. From the pocket he pulled out a delicate silver pendantâhis initials engraved on it. He had planned on asking you out properly before Jaemin fucked it up, but he didnât plan on waiting anymore, caressing your neck as he clasped it around you, letting it sit beautifully on your clavicle.Â
âWear this for me,â he said, voice rough as he watched it bounce lightly with every roll of your hips. The cool metal rested against your overheated skin, a constant little shock that made you shiver, ânow say it. Say youâre mine while youâre riding my cock.â
You sat up straighter, rolling your hips deep, warmth blooming inside you at how beautiful the small accessory was, âIâm yours, Jake,â you moaned, looking down at him, âall yours.â
His eyes rolled back for a second, hands tightening on your hips as he helped you ride him harder. âThatâs my girl,â he groaned, thumb still playing with your nipple, âkeep saying it. I wanna hear it every time you sink down on me, baby.â
You pressed your face into his neck again, sucking another mark there as you rode him faster, both of you lost in each other, sweaty and desperate and finally, completely real.
Jakeâs grip on your hips turned bruising, fingers digging in as he thrust up to meet every roll of your body.
âFuckâbaby, Iâm so close,â he panted, voice ragged, eyes half-lidded and wild, âI should pull out, shit, I didnât even askââ
You shook your head fast, nails digging into his shoulders as you kept riding him, âItâs a safe day,â you gasped, lips brushing his, âI want you inside. Donât pull out, please.â
Jakeâs breath hitched hard, like the words alone almost broke him, âI canât ever deny you anything, my love,â he groaned, ânot when you ask me like that.â
He slammed up into you twice, burying himself deep as he came with a wrecked moan of your name, loud enough to reverberate, hips jerking as he spilled hot and thick inside you. The feeling of him pulsing, filling you, pushed you over right afterâyou clenched around him hard, thighs shaking, a broken cry of his name leaving your lips.
For a long moment you both just stayed there, trembling. Jake didnât pull out, wrapping both arms around you and flipping you gently onto your back so he could hover over you, still buried deep, bodies pressed together with no space left. His chest heaved against yours, sweat-slick skin sticking, heartbeat slamming so hard you could feel it through your ribs.
He didnât speak at first. He just looked at you, eyes glassy and a little wide like he still couldnât believe this was real. Then he started kissing every mark heâd left on you tonightâthe dark bruise on your inner thigh, the ones on your neck, the one just above your breast. Each kiss was slow, open-mouthed, his nose caressing your skin, warm breath fanning over the fresh hickeys like he was memorizing them with his mouth.
You carded your fingers through his damp hair, letting him take his time.
âI was so ready to beg on my knees tonight if thatâs what it took,â he finally whispered against your collarbone, âdonât ever make me do that again.â
You let out a soft, breathless laugh, still a little dazed, âI wouldnât mind seeing you on your knees, actually.â
Jake lifted his head, eyes meeting yours, he leaned in and pecked your lips once, letting it linger before he rested his forehead against yours, eyes closed like he needed the contact more than air.
âBrat,â he murmured, the word warm and fond against your mouth, but the way he said it was so full of quiet, desperate attachment it made your chest tighten. He stayed like that, still inside you, arms wrapped around you, one hand gently stroking up and down your back while the other traced lazy circles over the pendant now warm against your skin.Â
âI love you,â he finally said, cupping your cheek.Â
âI love you,â you smiled, letting him be as clingy as he wanted to be.Â
âWanna make a bet?â Jake asked, eyes gleaming as you raised your brow.Â
You laughed under your breath, thumb brushing his bottom lip. âDepends. What are we betting on this time?â
He grinned, pressing a kiss to the corner of your mouth, âthat Iâll spend the rest of my life proving this was the best bad idea we ever had.â
You smiled against his lips, pretending to think which only made him whine further. But maybe, this one was worth spending time over.Â
âBet.â
MEANWHILE:Â
Jay was repenting for Jakeâs sins, staring up at Jungwon, who still appeared to be dissatisfied, half pressed against the man who kept on mumbling, âsorry, Wonie. Iâm sorry Jungwonie, please?â
Jungwon only huffed, arms crossed tight even as Jay clung to him like an oversized koala, âyou knew about the whole stupid bet and didnât say a word. I had to watch my best friend get emotionally waterboarded for weeks.â
âI tried to stop it!â Jay whined, nuzzling his face into Jungwonâs shoulder, âI told Jake it was a terrible idea at least thirteen timesââ
âFourteen,â Sunghoon and Heeseung deadpanned from the couch.
Jaemin, already sprawled in the armchair rocking a fresh black eye and split lip, let out a smug little snort, ârelax, you babies. I was trying to get them together.â
Jeno, sitting on the floor looking two seconds from committing murder, dragged a hand down his face, âthey didnât even fucking know each other, Jaemin.â
Jaemin shrugged, completely unfazed, âbut I saw the bigger picture.â
Heeseung threw a pillow at his head, âthere were better ways, you absolute menace.â
Jaemin dodged it with a grin, âyeah, but none as entertaining.â He popped a chip in his mouth and asked casually, ânow who do I do next?â
The entire room exploded at once.
âNo.â
âFuck no.â
âTouch another person and Iâm punching you this time.â
âI swear to God, Jaeminââ
Jaemin just laughed, raising his hands like he was innocent, âfine. Jayâs next.â
The poor guy looked up in horror.Â
âAbsolutely the fuck not,â Jungwon snapped, yanking Jay behind him like a human shield who only blushed at the display of power, âyou stay the hell away from him, Jaemin. End of discussion.â