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he/him - mostly shitposts and rants

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Hi, first post on here.

I’m Michael. I go by he/him. I write fanfiction, mostly for Jujutsu Kaisen. I’m Black. I’m a major Toji fictionkin, so most of my work is kinda centered around him. I’m a huge Tojigo fan, but I also like itafushi, goge, tojinao and pretty much every other JJK ship - not picky. I like a shit ton of anime and manga - I’m a huge otaku. Like, a huge otaku.

As far as my other interests go, I play guitar, skateboard, play basketball, draw, edit, watch movies, and just know, I’m not normal about any of these things. These are the things that keep me mildly sane.

This is a personal diary, fanfiction dump, rant space, and whatever else I might use it for. I just wanted to start one just to have one and use it. To scream into the void, with no fear of backlash or anything.

I like horror that disgusts and scares people. I like angst with no happy ending. I like relationships so toxic, you wonder how one of them hasn’t killed the other yet. I like extreme age gaps. I like romanticizing what people say I shouldn’t. I also like fluff, but not too much of it, otherwise I get flu symptoms.

I really like music. I really, really like music. Some of my favorite genres are industrial metal, goth, grunge, riot grrrl, black metal, DBSM and shoegaze. My favorite band is Deftones.

I’m a werewolf. I hate a lot of things. I love my princess. I love vodka. I love cigarettes. When someone tells me about a movie, I immediately pull it up on Letterboxd. I love curated social media profiles, but I can’t be arsed to try and curate any of mine. I hate nearly everyone I know in real life, and often try my hardest to live my life completely on the Internet. I can talk about the things I hate for hours, but can’t about the things I like for more than thirty minutes maximum. I dress like a homeless person. I have no style.

First post on here. Tumblr is cool.

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Even on my own birthday, I’m not happy.

Happy birthday to me.

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YAY!!!

Life is so shit lately. He’s ignoring me again—says it’s “social battery” but I know he’s just either on some fucking ai chatbot app or playing tomodachi life. Is he even interested in me anymore? Am I boring?

It’s my birthday next week. And after that, it’ll be my birthday party. I should be super happy, but I’m not. Why does my life always go shitty when it’s close to my birthday????

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from Kill Bill: Volume 1 (2003)

Honestly, I'm super into movies. I could talk about movies and writing and actors and all their deep meanings for hours, but if you had to ask me what my definite favourite thing about movies is, I would have to say cinematography.

I go crazy for good, pretty shots – which is why I don't watch romcoms or solely comedy movies. Unless it's Superbad (2007).

Recently, my father and I got into an argument because he wanted to watch Aliens (1986) when I didn't want to watch it. And then he suggested something more sad and less scary, so he chose Angela's Ashes (1999). And I said no again, because I dislike that movie. And then he started getting exhausted with me, so he asked me if I wanted to watch Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels (1998), and again I said no – even though I quite like Guy Ritchie, that movie was always just not my cup of tea (though Snatch was one of my favourite movies ever a while ago).

And I looked at him and said, 'Look, Dad, you and I have different tastes in movies now,' because since I was little, my dad would show me all of his favourite movies, and now I've grown up and gathered a taste of my own. I like what I like. My father and I share a similar taste, I will say, but it's not like every movie he likes is a movie that I'm going to like.

So today, I watched Project Hail Mary (2026) with my mother and my father, then got into a fight with my father, and then I stormed off angrily to my room to watch Get Out (2017) and rewatch one of my favourite Tarantino films, Inglourious Basterds (2009).

My father called me 'pretentious' - Okay, so what? Atleast I watch good movies. Not just whatever (usually) bigoted comedy slop was being put out in the 90's.

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Do you have stinky farts

Yeah. I love you too.

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Do you have a stinky butt

I know this is you, papaya

And no, I try to keep it as clean as possible.

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AMERICAN PSYCHO (2000) dir. Mary Harron

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Michael’s Recents

Songs Michael frequents; just a little list for fun. I like music.

I’m never happy listening to this song. It always brings me back to the dullness of my life years ago, and how nothing has really changed since then.

Only positive was that I found my gun. Angel. Slut. Whatever he is, he’s mine! Yay!

My favorite Modest Mouse track. Recently discovered it, but I already know it’s my favorite song of theirs. I really like the bad audio quality, and the whole album is truly an indie/math rock masterpiece.

Radiohead! As always, every month, there’s always a different Radiohead song on the list somewhere.

…Probably because they’re one of the best bands of all time.

Creepy. Haunting. Adorable. Favorite DDLC song, hands down.

Also listened to this at the peak of my bylerism.

Yeah, I’m a total poser. I don’t care. I like Mayhem, and this is my favorite Mayhem song.

Always a sign I’m going slowly crazy when I find myself listening to mother more often…

…Or, alternatively, it’s a sign I’m becoming more of a pervert.

I remember the album cover used to scare me when I was little. I have this entire album on CD.

DEVON HENDRYX!!!! I FUCKING LOVE DEVON HENDRYX PLEASE TALK TO ME ABOUT DEVON HENDRYX I LOVE DEVON HENDRYX

That’s it, i think? Might make another post like this soon, or not. Doesn’t matter.

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Im not religious but cathedrals are so beautiful

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Hope-Less-Ness

I feel so hopeless so I’m literally looking at tojigo pics and posts on here to feel something other than soul-crushing sadness

I love Tojigo so much they’re literally my favorite ship ever they’re me and my angel they’re everything I can’t even describe how much they mean to me

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In-San-I-Ty

I hate this. I really hate this. All I want to do is cut and curl up into a ball and cry. I want to hold him. I hate everything about this stupid school. I just wish i could shoot everyone in this fucking building. That would be better than having to sit. Through this hell this is hell im in Hell

I really wanna end it all this time i really want to

Where’s my boyfriend?????

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I was going to cut myself, but then I lost my blade. Now I feel like crying, and I have to go to class in 10 minutes.

Shit.

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My stomach hurts so bad, but I know it’s worth it. I’ll be scarily skinny.

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My feed is filled with weird rapey film stills. Not like I mind.

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it’s not wrong to have needs

Come on. I know you want it.

Because I am a human being, I have ‘needs’. Shelter, food, water. Maybe clothes. Warmth. Other people.

While I agree with the idea of having needs, I disagree with what they think my needs are. I have just two needs: pussy and hard liquor. Maybe cigarettes. Those are my needs.

I feel sick again. As in, nauseous. When will I ever be free of this feeling? I get it at totally random times, and it’s so annoying, constantly a little worried that you’re going to vomit soon. But it keeps me from being too fat, since I don’t eat much anymore because of this fear of accidentally throwing everything up.

I’m so desperate for money, I would probably cut myself if it meant that they’d pay me…not an invitation.

I’m so gross. I only showered and washed my hair today after upwards of two or three weeks of not washing it. I’m always dragging my feet to do all of this stuff, even when my hair is fairly short and doesn’t require much maintenance.

I keep thinking about the time my angel made some twitter account to try and get groomed on, while we were dating. At first I didn’t think too much of it, but now, everytime I’m reminded of it I just get this spike of anger for a few brief moments before it goes down. Urgh. But I can never stay mad at him for more than maybe fifteen minutes, even if he pisses me off a lot.

Love my sweet angel…he’s too goddamn cute.

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in love and all alone

Drunk on a Sunday night. What a sinner.

Not like I’m catholic anyways.

All the porn, it’s the same shit, but I still jerk off to it. All the movies, TV, anime and manga — they’re so similar nowadays. I wish they’d make newer, fresher, creative stuff. I hate seeing the same 3 slop tropes and the same 3 “ideas” all the time…and yet, everyone always acts like it’s so “deep”, “different” or god forbid “niche”…

I wish I was part of a double homicide. Except I kill you violently, then eat you, then vomit you out over your other remains, then kill myself. Dream!

Read an interesting Wikipedia article today, on a man named Armin Meiwes. He castrated, then cut up, then cooked and ate a man. I was taking notes. For my fanfic, of course.

Dying. Physically dead. I am physically dead.