I'm not hungry.

ED blog | OSFED | this blog helps me cope

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A little bit about me:

I was diagnosed with OSFED in 2021, this blog is mainly to keep me from being alone in my thoughts and give me a place to vent or talk about how I'm feeling in regards to my ED.

If you follow me and you are not visibly an ed blog, I will block you. Minors can follow me however I will ask you not to dm me if you are a minor. Similarly, ana coaches can fuck off.

This blog will talk about and reblog triggering thoughts, if you don't want to see that please click off of my blog.

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Tag key:

#stevia speaks | my original posts

#motivation/#ed motivation | ed posts that are motivating

#thinspo | thinspo

#meem/#ed meem | ed memes

#disordered bitches squad | relatable ed shower thoughts

#every cal counts | counting every cal for better or worse 😤👌

#inspo/#ed inspo | inspirational posts

#ed tips | as the tag says. Tw obv

#tumblr tips/ed tumblr tips | how not to get termed

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My dumbass was on my recovery 🤡 shit and then I saw feedee posts and that immediately knocked some sense into me 🤢🤢🤢

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I AM SCROLLING THROUGH THE ED TAGS I DON'T WANT TO SEE ANY BLAZED POSTS ON THERE

You want us out of your tags? Great! STAY TF OUT OF OURS

[rae-100]

If you're not sore after workouts, you didn't work hard enough.

If you're not gasping for air after cardio, you didn't work hard enough.

If you're not pained with every step, you didn't ⭐️ve enough.

Get it together.

[luv4ivyyyy]

[dcrkmidnight]

Pr@ an@

7:40 : wake up

7:50 : brush teeth

8:00 : weight yourself

8:30 : workout (-5cal)

8:40 : coffee (0cal)

9:20 : 1000 cal burning cardio (30min)

(-400cal)

11:00 : 2cup water

11:25 ; 5min walk / 5min run. (-50cal)

11:35 : water+ weight

11:40 : coffee

11:50 : 10min Pilate

12:00 : bottle water (1L)

12:05 : tea

13:30 lunch (30cal) (salads + cheese + white egg)

13:55 : jumping jacks (5min)

14:00 : vision board

14:21 : test yourself and watch your mom eat.

14:30: clean room+drink water

Free time

16:00 : make dinner (apple bowl) (36cal)

18:00 Workout (-5cal)

19:00Shower

20:00 weight

Take : 66 cal

Out take : 460 cal

Total : - 394 cal

[dcrkmidnight]

are you really hungry ?

step one: drink a glass of water or diet soda

step two: if your still hungry have a warm cup of tea or coffee

step three: if your still hungry it’s not appetite it’s hunger have a low cal snack if you can like some chicken or a protein bar, you’ll stay full for longer

step four: go on a long walk or workout, that’s good motivation not to eat or atleast burns off the light snack you had.

[sickagain220]

every single “recovery influencer” is skinnier at their recovered weight than i am at my sickest.

only skinny people can recover bc they have always been skinny to begin with.

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Yep! I can think of a few YouTubers in particular and I'm happy for them, I honestly am, but at the same time I feel like shit bc they're like, "I gained a ton of weight in recovery but now my body is healthy and my metabolism is good!"

On the other hand if you're like me and have to take mental health pills that make you gain weight when you eat "healthy/normal" (whatever that means according to whatever bs society is telling us at the moment), recovery is basically unfeasible. My pills permanently fucked up my metabolism and no matter what I did to try and eat normally/healthfully I just kept gaining and gaining. My body has ballooned, and I've been told that because of how fast I've gained weight I'm at risk for diabetes. I literally cannot eat normal anymore without gaining weight and developing a whole slew of issues. Restriction has been the only thing that has helped reverse it.

[standing-desk-deactivated202406]

Holy shit holy shit holy shit holy shit.

Metabolism week fucking worked.

I ate 1200 cals/day for 7 days and I lost 7lbs. There's no way. There's no fucking way.

I wasn't even working out. I just went for walks. Not even daily, just when I felt like it.

I'm 148.2 lbs this morning. Officially out of the 150s. I was starting to think it wouldn't happen by the end of the month because I was losing so slowly on 750 cals/day. I'm officially in the "healthy" BMI range for my height. Wtf. Wtf. Wtf.

I'm doing another 1200 cal week. I gotta see if this was just a fluke.

[standing-desk-deactivated202406]

I just want to be able to see my bones again is that too much to ask

[standing-desk-deactivated202406]

I kind of hate the new slang the kids are using these days.

"Girl, you ATE"

I did what

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I'm cry-laughing holy shit, top tier humor

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My bf asked me today at work "if you could eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?" And my disordered ass was panicking so bad about what to say, bc I haven't told him about my ED as of yet and I wanted to say "cucumbers". But then he goes on to say, "there is one food that I would pick, and it's salad, bc you can put anything in it".

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH 😭 I feel so safe around him 🥺

Also not disorder related exactly but I gave him a bag of snacks and shiny objects and his reaction was so adorable, I didn't think it would be a big deal but he seemed really happy and had the sweetest goofiest smile when he was going through it. I love it when he smiles

[butterflyblanket]

skinnier = ♡ prettier ♡

[sskinnygrill]

It never tastes as good as it does in your head

[springsolsticewithyou]

ed bingo

[mylittlediariess]

[sk-el-et-on]

Reblog if:

- You support recovery.

- You support those in recovery.

- You support seeking help.

- You want  people to seek help.

- You think everyone is beautiful, regardless of their weight.

- Even if you yourself, aren’t seeking help or are in recovery, want others too.

[peanutbutterworldbunny-deactiva]

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