Zheng, Xiaoyan

stuck in the moment

[zhengxiaoyanla]

I got hurt by every posting that he posted on her Facebook. I still care and so much.

#fuckme #whyiamsostupid

02/27/2020

[zhengxiaoyanla]

A blessing that I can never sent to you anymore. Happy birthday babe! I wish you all the best. I wish we could be a happy couple in our next life and I promise I will meet you early.

#02/19/2020 #birthday #imissyouasalways #behealth #sadayuxx #jessielovesbryanforever

[zhengxiaoyanla]

Another day another night just a crying girl who doesn’t know how to move on

#imissyoubabe #imdyingbabe #whyyoutreatmesocruel #sadayuxx #bonndech

#02112020 #icriedlikenotomorrowtonight

[zhengxiaoyanla]

Destiny is over!!!

#isthatwhatyouwantbabe

#imissyou#sadayuxx#02/08/2020

[zhengxiaoyanla]

I hope I can do it better and taking care myself better. Love the live and hopefully live will love me back in some days. I will make all my effort to live better without him even I still miss him, but life still goes on, before it comes make sure I’m ready for it.:)

Let’s see how long it takes me to completely get over!🌟

#iloveyoubabe #imissyoubabe #iwilllovemyself #sadayuxx #boondech #itsyourbirthdaymonth #imissyouandreallywanttobewithyou

#02/05/2020

[zhengxiaoyanla]

It’s sad when your life becomes not longer motivating. You don’t know what to do on your days off....

#imissyoubabe #wanttosharemylifewithyou #boondech #2020January29

[zhengxiaoyanla]

1/27/2020

People always tell me that go see people who you are missed. Do things you want to do while you are alive. I still miss and I still want but what are the obstacles between me and him? I know and we know. Why can’t life be easier for everyone?

My forever vegetable, I love you don’t let me wait until the day you become a real vegetable.

[zhengxiaoyanla]

1/1/2020

I just noticed that today is the first day of 2020. Time or holidays mean nothing to me since we apart. Is it sounds negative? I’m sorry to be so negative but I don’t want to lie.

Is it still any way? Is it still any chance for me to be happy again?

#istillmisshim #babeistillloveyou #ihopeyouaredoinhwell #iwishyoumissmesometimes #ireallyloveyoudeeplywithmywholeheart #boondech #sadayuxx

[zhengxiaoyanla]

12/20/2019

Everything is still here. You just choose a do not touch way to make yourself not think about it. Been watched many of the dramas on tv that have same theme about how you heal yourself but never thought about will use it for real life. Aways know dramas are fake real life is what you are living, but never thought about sometimes they might talk about our real life because they are all written by human.

Don’t want to think about anything about him anymore. Trying so hard to make self be busy. I didn’t watch dramas for many years. Now, I picked them up to help me stop thinking....

I’m just a body with no souls.

Love, you gave up me for real

[zhengxiaoyanla]

12/14/2019

No kidding. After break up with him I really think I’m the most miserable person in the world. I waisted my youth on a person who will never give me the future for many years. I spent all my hard work money on a person who will never treat me as an important person in his life. The worst part is after all the bullshit had been happened to me I still can’t move on... it was tough life ever I swear!!

However, everything has been changed after they told me Godfrey left us forever. People please, if you want to do something please don’t wait if you are able to do it cos you never know what will happen tomorrow.

God, please take good care of him for us.

#wewillmeetagaininnextlife

#rip

[zhengxiaoyanla]

12/11/2019

Last month of 2019. Have so much feeling on my mind cos so many things been happened.

Humans can be very strong not because of the bodies. It’s because of the mind set is stronger than anything. Humans are very weak because you never know what accidents could come into you....

What a criminal case, even I don’t really know you but when I heard you have gone my heart was broken in pieces.

#ripman #iplayforyourestinpeace #💪🏼🙏🏼

[zhengxiaoyanla]

12/08/2019

I did all I can do, and I appreciate the chance that god gave me as me had a chance to express what I wanted to say to him. Thank you god even j still not get what I want and still a loser but thank you. 🙏🏼

[zhengxiaoyanla]

11/27/2019

Nothing is going to change the fact happened to me. What I have to do is to hang on. This is the life. Life is tough. I take all the depressing wait for one day it disappeared.

I’m not happy at all. I’m in the deep pressure but have to hang in there because I don’t want to go for my mom’s old way. Of course I know It’s not worth while to hurt yourself for anybody. But to do so is hard. Hopefully, I can get all over soon. I’m sick of it either. Let me out

I do play. I play for every single day....

[zhengxiaoyanla]

11/14/19

What’s the meaning of everyday life of mine? Why I let others destroyed me easily? Walk out the darkness, you got this girl! Be strong and hang in there “Wonder Woman.”

💪🏼💪🏼I’m okay. Will be ok.

[zhengxiaoyanla]

11/13/2019

Heart knows better what I really need what I cared. It’s painful, never ever in my life. Only time can heal me but how long it will take? I know, I’m a loser because I still miss him after all, but I don’t need to win in front of love. I rather lose my dignity but win LOVE.

Was because he was my first love? Was because my first time opened my whole heart to a person for more than three years? Why it’s so hard to forget to move on? I still care for sure. I have never thought about we will end up like this. He hurt me entirely. Destroyed me as no tomorrow. What did I do wrong? Do I really deserve it all?

#loveisallineed

#enabletolove

[zhengxiaoyanla]

Is it because I care too much or they are too much? No one knows how depressed I am now. I’ve been watching a lot news about a lot youths killed themself because can’t fight ove this disease. I really don’t want to be the one because Im still having my hopes and want to wait until the end even I already got to know it. I wish I’m cooler than who I am now. God show me a way please let me walk to darkness

#whyicantgetoveratrash

10/19/19

[zhengxiaoyanla]

It’s done

Stop being sad stop all the bullshit you have done to yourself in the pass. It’s done! You guys are done done done. Do you know that? There is no way to go back because it’s all done. Be clear with all the truth and they are happy without you. Definitely not deserved. Now, please go love yourself and get it over start a new life. Please, I please you do it for me. You can do it wonder woman 💪🏼

#heishappywithoutyou #youarenoting

10/16/19