This Cruel Age Has Rejected Me

Another circumstance, too, worried me in those days: that there was no one like me and I was unlike anyone else. “I am alone and they are everyone,” I thought—and pondered. [Indie APH Russia] [Est. October 2012.]

[zhestokiyvek]

jesus christ

[kahendkoodi]

… the Pain puts its arm over your shoulders. It is your closest friend. Steadfast. And at night you can’t bear to hear your own breath unaccompanied by another and underneath the big stillness like a score is the roaring of the cataract of everything being and being torn away. Then. The Pain is lying beside your side, close. Does not bother you with sound even of breathing.

Peter Heller, The Dog Stars (via kahendkoodi)

[chokopoppo]

Whose is this body? Why is it grieving? What did it lose?

Everyone lives. There are consequences.

[zhestokiyvek]

SHIPPING INFO | ABOUT MUN. REPOST DON’T REBLOG

✧ WHAT’S YOUR OTP FOR YOUR MUSE ?

R...ussia and...China... 

✧ WHAT ARE YOU WILLING TO RP WHEN IT COMES TO SHIPPING ?

I’m fairly all right with most things, but anything that could be controversial I do prefer to discuss beforehand. Russia as a muse already seems to have a somewhat unsavoury reputation, unfortunately.  

✧ HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE ?

Yuriy is Old™ and appears to be in his mid-to-late thirties (perhaps even early forties?), so he’s fairly jaded about romance between a population of personified geopolitical landmasses. That being said, he would not tolerate an approach from anyone appearing to be younger than their mid-twenties.

✧ ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING ?:

Very very very. Yuriy is...Nightmare Tier to try and ship with (woes of a demi muse?), so he takes a lot of patience to build a relationship with. 

✧ WHO ARE OTHER MUSES YOU SHIP YOUR MUSE WITH ?

Ah...no set muse? I usually will ship based on muse compatibility.

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU ?

Yes! You must! 

✧ HOW OFTEN DO YOU LIKE TO SHIP ?:

Haha...

✧ ARE YOU SHIP OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS ?

The latter for certain.

✧ ARE YOU MULTISHIP ?

Damn, I have enough trouble locking one ship down

Sure! 

✧ WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE SHIP(S) IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM ?

All ships are equally valid as long as everyone is happy, informed, and consenting! :D 

✧ FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU ?:

If I am to be brutally honest, it takes time and even time is no guarantee of a ship. Yuriy is a demi muse all the way around and I can’t write well by shunting him into a relationship just for the sake of it. 

Tagged by: I shamelessly stole this.

Tagging: You should steal it too.

[zhestokiyvek]

Vitenka shut the hell your mouth

testimonial for @viralvarsting

[triste-le-roy]

Everything is overflowing with Gods.

Proclus, 1st century CE (via triste-le-roy)

[zhestokiyvek]

massive good promo

thing to know about russian man

-shy

-much tea

-v inscrutable

-big dick energy

[zhestokiyvek]

[brambled]

house of leaves / tarkovsky 

[prokopetz]

Cruel choices #137: you must consume one - and only one - of the following pieces of media.

1. Sailor Moon retold in the style of a 19th Century Russian philosophical novel.

2. The Brothers Karamazov retold in the style of a magical girl anime.

[elegantlypractical]

“Our very existence proves there is a peak,” Mars spat, the wind-swept snow no deterrent to her clad in naught but the Sailor uniform as she was. “Man need not concern itself with matters of godhood. We are gods given flesh.”

“It is precisely because of what we are that they cannot rest.” Mercury replied. “One cannot and must not embrace egoism. If we fall, who then will they turn to? Who then will care for what mankind has wrought? Only mankind itself.”

Then from two alleys over there came not so much a cry but a sound, a resolute plea to the skies above not for help, but for guarantee of vengeance. The earnest note struck chords within Mars and Mercury, as if it had been an answer to both of their sides; and yet, it was distinctly not.

“Corrupting the minds of the people with false nationalism where there should be nothing but love of all man, exemplifying godhood as nothing more than superiority to others instead of preaching it as empathy and spilling my borscht… For that, I cannot forgive you! In the name of the moon, I will punish you!”

[trufflesmushroom]

“Scandal in Staraya: Dmitri’s Secret Plan! Grushenka is an Evil Temptress!?“ Next week: Karamazov no Kyodai: Demons, Season 1 Episode 6! Otanoshimini!

[paralianprince]

turns my computer BACK on JUST to @zhestokiyvek

[zhestokiyvek]

exsuperatus:

“Tell me, what’s the purpose of this exercise, how does it work, why do I have to participate, and how come you’re not helping?” 

“It is primarily to prove that you’re not as emotionally stunted and irresponsible as you appear. Its secondary purpose is to provide me with a full evening of entertainment.”

“But if you require assistance fitting round pegs into square holes while talking about whatever unimportant and trivial troubles you may be having on a personal level, I could possibly be persuaded to help.”

[5345345234]

“You can’t be serious.” 

[zhestokiyvek]

“Tell me: would that defeat the purpose of this banal exercise or no?”

[zhestokiyvek]

RULES: bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, then tag nine people. (Strikeouts are things that never apply!)

AIR

I have small hands • I love the night sky • I watch small animals and birds when I pass them by • I drink herbal tea • I wake to see dawn • The smell of dust is comforting • I’m valued for being wise • I prefer books to music • I meditate • I find joy in learning new truths from the world around me.

FIRE

I don’t have straight hair • I like to wear ripped jeans and overalls • I play an organized sport • I love dogs • I am not afraid of adventure • I love to talk to strangers • I always try new foods • I enjoy road trips • Summer is my favorite season • My radio is always playing.

WATER

I wear bracelets on my wrists • I love the bustle of the city • I have more than one set of piercings • I read poetry • I love the sound of a thunderstorm • I want to travel the world • I sleep past midday most days • I love dimly lit diners and fluorescent signs • I rewatch kids’ shows out of nostalgia • I see emotions in colors not words.

EARTH

I wear glasses/contacts (for reading!) • I enjoy doing the laundry • I am a vegetarian or vegan • I have an excellent sense of time • My humor is very cheerful • I am a valued advisor to my friends •I believe in true love • I love the chill of mountain air • I’m always listening to music • I am highly trusted by the people in my life.

AETHER

I go without makeup in my daily life • I make my own artwork • I keep on track of my tasks and time • I always know true north • I see beauty in everything • I can always smell flowers • I smile at everyone I pass by • I always fear history repeating itself • I have recovered from a mental disorder • I can love unconditionally. ( @rodnajabelarus ♥)

Tagged by: @playnihon

Tagging: @partofthemain @paralianprince @mateship @belowfrxxzing @zhwangyao @zhunihaoyun @napuleh @zdravstvuysclntse @coeurepuise

[zhestokiyvek]

I’m uncertain whether using your own inabilities to guilt the object of your affection into making you food is an advanced wooing tactic or simply so rudimentary that it beggars belief.

[zhestokiyvek]

You all know that you’re not supposed to indulge Yaponiya when he’s having one of his dementia-induced episodes.

[zhestokiyvek]

Cattell’s 16 Factor Test

[nebulagalore]