girls in rotation

started this blog to figure ourselves out, but we're firmly on the conclusion that we are, indeed, plural. mostly for memes and the odd poll or whatever! ft. maple (🥞) spin (💿) rain (☔) jupiter (🖐️) quiet (🕯️) patches (🪡) evelyn (🧸) kay (⚡)

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Intro

🥞hey everyone! i figured it'd be helpful, for myself and others, if i made a little introduction post for everyone. it'll be a rundown of the four five six seven nine??? FIVE people in our system that front the most (...that we can identify. ugh, why does identity have to be so slippery?) with a little picrew to give you an idea of how we see ourselves! it'll also have the emojis everyone uses to sign off on posts and stuff.

Maple, AKA May —🥞

Anthem: Dance Delightful by Jamie Page

hiya! i always called myself the host, but recently we found the term "identity host" which is probably more accurate? at least i hope it is, i don't really like the idea of being, like, in charge of everyone and stuff, y'know?

anyway! a little rundown of me and my whole deal, i think i'm pretty friendly? at least i try really hard to be. feeling mean just feels kinda gross, and i know that sounds like a lame thing to say? but, i dunno, i just like being friendly! oh and music! i've been listening to a lot of more energetic stuff lately, a lot of pop-punk i think!

oh yeah, and origins! i know those can be kinda murky and wishy-washy, at least from how i understand, but! i'm pretty sure i came about as my own person headmate thingy from our repressed femininity pre-transition

Spin —💿

Anthem: Million Dollar Baby by Tommy Richman

the picrew didnt have any shitty sunglasses which is criminal because those are borderline mandatory to my gender

sup! im the cool one. youre gonna hear that and say "spin what the fuck is your problem" but i cant insist how literal that is. one day may sat down like and came up with a coolsona to use with people and youll never fucking guess who it was

im probably the one that plays the games most often out of the three of us? shit, four, sorry patch. [update, six eight fuck it]. i mean june plays visual novels and stuff and i dont wanna be one of those pieces of shit like oooooh look at me i only play the REAL gamer shit, youre not actually a scotsman, idiot. but yeah i like video games. i listen to a lot of electronic stuff too, 2 mellow SOPHIE patty taxx all the classics

also. mightve been a dave strider fictive at some point. i mean i definitely was but im like a robot that grew past my programming and started loving humanity, only instead of whatever the fuck benders job was i was just a sardonic shithead. i dunno if that means i still count or whatever, but dont call me dave or use he/him or ill kick your ass

Rain —☔

Anthem: Puppet Loosely Strung by The Correspondents

Hello everyone. I am aware that I have a tendency to talk at lengths that are sometimes considered socially discouraged, so I'm going to make a conscious effort to make my introduction short.

I believe I was the first. My initial function (my personal preference is to view my plurality from a utilitarian lens) was to cope with bad situations, such as family dynamics and passionless academia. Now, I understand my talents to be more accurately assessed as calming, mainly using clinical techniques that I've learned through my education in psychology.

My hobbies and interests are as follows: psychology, especially as it relates to the act of counselling therapy; creating lists and organizing information; cleaning and other related chores; and Yume Nikki and its fangames. As for music, I enjoy more downbeat tunes, with slower tempos and darker moods. Although, I have been growing an appreciation for bossa nova as a good track for encouraging focus.

Junebug —🖐️

Anthem: Saint Bernard by Lincoln

if you know my real name, i'm fine with you using it. i'm just going to be using my nickname here from now on. i know i'm probably being too weird about not being found out, but... i don't know. my source isn't all that popular, so i don't know how good it would be if what little fandom there is found out about me. or god forbid, the creators. i've seen how badly that can go, i'm not risking anything.

anyway, uh, i don't think i'm good at introducing myself, so i'll just keep it simple. i'm a trauma holder now, but i can front for other reasons too. i like indie and folk music, and visual novels, i think i'm a lesbian, and i really like how my hands feel after i wash them. i don't know what else to say, sorry for being awkward.

Quiet - 🕯️

Anthem: Memento Mori: the most important thing in the world by Will Wood

hello, one and all! how's it hangin'? the name's quiet, and i... am not gonna waste your time. here's what i'm all about: i love trying new things! life's all about experience, and while i'm all for watching the same movie twice, it's not gonna compare to the gamble of watching something new! if we ever end up skydiving, i'm gonna be the name on our tombstone, kyehehe!

i love halloween, and horror movies, and anything scary! i love watchin' freaky bullshit! I love ICP and aurelio voltaire, my favorite movie is a tie between psycho 2 and velocipastor, and OH yeah occult stuff! i'm crazy into tarot cards and the zodiac and 8balls and all that fun bullshit! i like looking at dead bodies on reddit too. everything else is still a work in progress! i've been dormant since high school and there's a lot of adjusting to be done before i'll consider myself alive. until then i'm just a ghost, haunting the system until it breaks!

🥞 all these images were made with maddel's picrew! thanks a bunchies! and if you want to see where we talk about members of our system who don't front as much, check out this separate intro post

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💿so i wanna get into making plural comics, right? they seem fun, and itd probably help us sort some shit out and keep things straight so we dont get blurry as much

problem there is i dont know how to draw, and i dont think its gonna be my thing. i can follow along with bob ross just fine, and i respect the fuck outta the medium, but its not my vibe. learning shape language or whatever doesnt get me as pumped as learning about shit like game design and music theory. plus im buddies with an illustrator i know what that does to your brain

but yknow what i totally would be down for? 3d modelling. when it comes to that, the only options i know of are blender, miku miku dance, and koikatsu

-blender is the industry standard because it can do a bunch of stuff, but its the hardest to learn because you have to do a bunch of stuff. from what ive read im talking like, weeks of learning, and its gonna take a wile to get things from idea to page even when i get it down pat

-mmd is ancient. i saw people making shrek and komaeda dance around back in like 2012. there no way its hard to use, but im gonna be surprised if its not a massive pain in the ass to get running on modern hardware

-koikatsu is hentai. nobodys gonna look at the comic without thinking its a shitty pixiv mind control sequence. this isnt a me thing, it takes the trailer on steam like 15 seconds before we see breast expansion

the last one is gonna be the easiest to get running and probably the easiest to use, so i can just use it as a season one while i get the basics down and move to a better software once i give more of a shit. if someone thinks im making insys porn itll be the funniest accusation ive ever received so this is all points in favour

[plural-questioning]

question 235: out of your whole system, who likes bugs the most?

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[malwarechips]

did you know that theres no limit on how many fursonas you can have? you can have as many as you want no one can stop you

[twinsfawn]

[luetta]

[sugary--sheep]

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question 235: out of your whole system, who likes bugs the most?

[orchardsys]

A comic I did about wishing I could just go to sleep and see everyone

[artetheflowerbot]

You don't know how happy it makes me to get someone to explain so incredibly well what DID is. This explains us in a nutshell.

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...huh 🖐️

there's this ice cream treat my store makes. like, the store i work at, i mean. it's one of evelyn's favorite treats. she almost always end up in front when we have one, but she didn't this time.

i think it's just because it's coffee flaoured. well, affogato, but those just taste like coffee. i really like coffee, y'know? i don't drink it that much, since you usually have to go kind of out of your way to get decaf (i'm too anxious for caffeine, haha) and it's not really an expense you need to budget for unless you're already addicted to it. uh, no judgement. i get how it is.

anyway, uh, yeah. i guess it's just an observation. i guess it's more about taste? the last flavour we got was chocolate chip, i think, and she really liked that. so maybe she'd like... i dunno, chocolate chip flavoured coffee? that's just a milkshake, nevermind, i already know she likes those. i guess that's the full observation, then.

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🥞 i was talking with a friend earlier today, about splitting and fusing and stuff. i wanted to make up a little post about how we think about it!

just a heads up, i'm going to be using the loss of a loved one as an example of something that makes you split, so it's best to skip this one for now if you're not in the mood. don't worry, it's just an abstract hypothetical

so, it's going to be way easier to explain if i start with a graph

this is a system with three headmates! this might be a little controversial, but it's just my opinion: each of the headmates in this system count as 1/3 of a person, right?

okay, i should explain that, just in case. theoretically, a singlet can adjust to different environments in a more gradual and fluid way. so, instead of the above having all the colours in segments, they'd just be a cym gradient, or something. but since our brains are different (usually for trauma reasons, but endos are valid, darn it) it's hard to go from different states without a really drastic change in presentation and behavior coming with it. singlets can stand up for themselves without having their identity transform into the "standing up for myself" one for a little bit. hence, if singlets=1, and systems are just singles that are bad at integration, then each headmate is a fraction of 1. and that's fine! just because you're part of a whole doesn't mean you're not an important part, y'know?

anyway! the important part is, each of these headmates contains a fractional collection of traits that could make up one singlet. let's say that they're all emotion holders, for simplicity's sake. yellow is happiness, magenta is anger, and cyan is sadness. this works great for a while, since everyone fronts in a situation that involves the emotion that they're the best at feeling. yellow handles christmas, magenta vents about their love life, cyan is the one who gets ready for bed even though nobody wants to...

and then someone passes away

there's a lot of pieces that make up grief, it's a pretty complex emotion. nostalgia for the good times you had, regretting the time you spent poorly, and preparing for a future that doesn't have that loved one in it. it's an emotion that's made up of some of the pieces, but not all of them, of a bunch of other emotions. see where i'm going with this?

this system still =1, the same way a singlet does. it's just that their traits reshuffled themselves, to account for a new barrier that's formed to cope with a change in the system's life. fusion works the same way, but backwards!

let's say this system learned how to process their grief in a way that was split across the headmates that already existed, instead of needing a dedicated part to do it on the system's behalf. after this, the same thing happens with their feelings of anger. Yellow can feel content just like always, but now they have Magenta's passion and drive! Cyan, meanwhile, got Magenta's reaction to mistreatment, standing up for the system in a way that's more down-to-earth and empathetic. those traits were what made up Magenta, and because of that, it could be said that Mageta's still kind of present in the system! they changed, sure, but it's like lego, y'know? all the pieces are there, you just made two bigger castles instead of three medium-sized castles

so maybe it'd be more accurate to give Yellow and Cyan a bit of a magenta tinge, so it's all symbolic and stuff. the point is, your system never stops =1, and your headmates never stop being fractions of that same 1. sure, that whole changes and grows over time in the same way a singlet's whole does, but it's expressed through those fractional headmates

so to recap: splits and fusions are only births and deaths in a metaphorical way. you're still the same person (therian asterisk), and it's just a function of development and coping that changes exactly how many fractions that "same person" is divided among. you ever watch Ruby Gloom? it's silly to mourn Skullboy's past selves, since he's still Skullboy, he's just changing what profession or whatever he's expressing himself through. only instead of being a painter you have a headmate that's just a fucking bee for some reason

also i'm Quiet ️🕯️ now and if you consider yourself the universe's headmate then this is what happens when you die okay byeeeee!

[virtualgirladvance]

denial princess says its just using the royal we and nothing else

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something personal

[swagophile]

you're such a drowsy girl, aren't you? you're feeling so tired right now, it's so hard to think, all you wanna do is rest. you're a good little sleeppig for mommy, aren't you? go on. sleep. sleep like a good girl.

[couchnapping]

I have a suggestion

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Turnabout is fair play, I believe. what was YOUR first ever plural moment? something like an imaginary friend or a "sudden mood swing" from before syscovery that makes a little too much sense in retrospect

hm, that's a tough one! 🥞

there's a few things i can look back on in retrospect that make sense. like, there was a while as a kid right after Rain learned that kids are supposed to have imaginary friends where she decided to make one, too. there's a canadian tv station called teletoon (i think it's like, a cartoon network thing now? i dunno, i don't have cable) that had some website mascots that showed up between commercials. you can't find evidence of them, i tried. but there was this one where this really cute girl character with overalls and like, upside-down heart hair? anyway, she showed up on screen when the commercial for the website said "play games with trivia" and she just figured that Trivia was her name. so, now Rain had a girl she'd pretend to talk to, and like, maybe that was kinda-sorta my progenitor? but that's a pretty big maybe

oh, speaking of progenitors! i was just talking with a buddy about this. back when i was like "i don't want to say plural, but there's something going on" i settled on the idea of mind-body dualism. something something rene decartes, i would sometimes just be in either a "body mode" that was good at surviving through the day and powering through things, or a "mind mode" that was good at socializing and having fun. i then gave them names, Silva and Alani respectively. i picked a girl avatar for Alani, for some reason

alright, one more for a good round three. i used to be on a medication called strattera (aka atomoxitine). it's supposed to be for adhd, but i keep hearing that's pretty comorbid with autism, so i won't question it. anyway, this was a very special kind of hell. it made me good in school, i guess, but in a sort of "zombie that shuffles in any direction you point it" kind of way. i'm pretty sure the reason Rain was the host for so long (again, retrospect observation) because we couldn't feel strongly enough for anyone else to pop in... unless we forgot to take our meds. then, it was Quiet! something about meth rebounding, i think that's how a friend of mine worded it. i can't emphasize enough how different Rain and Quiet are unless you've seen it for yourself, it's straight up two different people in there. but at the time, i thought it was totally biological! it took me being off the meds for a few weeks, and then still being able to shift into my "i am focusing" personality (Rain) that made me wonder if it really was a drug thing, or if my brain was a bit screwy. (Quiet was dormant at the time, so it was really just between Rain and spin) still, it took until i transitioned for all my emotions to unlock properly and to think about just how different i can be sometimes before i went "huh, i should talk with my plural friend about this"

the end! thanks a lot for the ask, it's kind of fun getting these... maybe i should post in tag more? eh, i'll sleep on it

[biblicallyaccuratemoth]

How do you think of your pre-transition self in relation to you?

“I’m the same person, just more honest with myself.”

“I killed them and took their place.”

Voting ended onMay 22

[ask-a-sysmember]

HOW do you guys decide on a hairstyle (for the body)?? Usually when we would get into disagreements previously, judgment would defer to the (old) host, but im the host now and im really trying to make everyone feel more heard than the old host did and so far ive been doing an okay job. But weve struggled with our hair for a long time, even before the previous host and there so many differing opinion and i just have no clue where to even start with this one.

-🌙

This question is for all systems plurals, regarding hairstyle.

We usually default to just a buzz cut with side fringe because we can't manage hair or hair hygiene on our own.

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💿 rain wrote a nine paragraph fucking dissertation about this in our drafts but here it is without the bullshit pretentious rambling: i think its cool when people have weird fictives

usually theres a pretty solid througline right. like, oh damn, kokichi uses lies to cope with a reality he cant control, that might be helpful with the issues im having about that. oh jax is dissociating from his emotions but in a cool funny way haha maybe thatll help my entire bullshit. woah no way its uzi doorman im so excited to introject a third purple loser

but then you run into something where you kinda stop for a second because you cant get a read on them. like a blog i follow that has a pokemon, not a specific pokemon the anime jigglypuff or smash lucario, not even some mystery dungeon shit its just a pokemon like in general. like when a dog wanders onto your commune and youre like "well i guess we just have a dog now" only its the size of a smartcar and shoots eye lightning when you stratch its toes

and shout the fuck out to the system i saw in tag once that introjected a flavour of doctor pepper. no offence at all intended but like how does that work. sincerely, what is it about the human brain that goes "we're in trouble and we need some help holding down the fort, yeah we could pull in master chief to fight the bad guys or miles edgeworth to stand up for ourselfs, but whatever right? just grab me something from the vending machine"

this is awesome. i'm not gonna mince words here, it is interesting as fuck that brains can do this and i am totally here to support people who don't fit the standard. plus its just objectively cool when you identify as something weird, same way with neopronouns and stuff. like yeah if you really wanted you probably could squeeze yourself into something easier to understand but why would you do that. just be yourself its just so much better and more fun

everyone get weirder and cooler now