Poogi🐾

17, u can message me if ur not a weirdo! Hope u all have an amazing day I also follow back!! xoxo

[zombi3zlovr]

My first blog ۶۟ৎ hehe

Haiii, if anyone may be reading this :)

This you could say is my first blog! I don't have any certain things that I plan to write other than introduction of who I am. Well, honestly, I have a hard time thinking about myself when being told to explain it to others, but I'll try my best to be trueful and use this as a free space. I'm hoping to use Tumblr as a virtual public diary and talk about the most random things! TBHH, I don't rlly know my way around here at all, I'm kind of intimidated by the whole thing, and having a hard time navigating how it works but that's okay.

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- I'm currently 17 years old girl, I do online school, and truthfully don't rlly have friends aside from two close cousins, and a few random people I chat with online occasionally. I enjoy reading and watching movies and shows, I also like listening to music. I like anime, manga, reading, and enjoy collecting trinkets. I love time with myself which Is what my day mostly consists of. I am rather shy and awkward, which I rlly hate, but I would say I'm pretty chill when you get to know me. I hope to stay committed and write a blog once every week If I can. There's not rlly much more I can think of unless I went into more detail on what exactly are my favorite things, which I rather do in another blog, but for now I think this is it! Hehe how fun, since it is nighttime for me, goodnight to myself and others

pronouns: she/her

names to refer me as : Lulu, Lili, poogi, and poogibear too loll

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im so cat coded

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I'm watching like 3 Jdramas rn loll, but do you guys have any jdramas I must watch, or kdramas too. =￣ω￣=

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Rewatch: PICNIC (1996) dir. Shunji Iwai

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Picnic (1996) dir. Shunji Iwai

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Self Indulgent Picnic (1996)

⟢ Name(s) ; Coco, Raven, Lilith, Vyxen ⟢ Age ; 17 ⟢ Gender(s) ; Mulium, Lacefem, Dollabomination, Bloodpenkayic, Amourdeathia, Corvidcollector ⟢ Pronoun(s) ; Shx/Hxr ; She/Her ; Dark/Darks ; Caw/Caws ⟢ Orientation ; Biromantic, Esthesiosexual ⟢ Species ; Human ⟢ Source ; Picnic 1996 ⟢ Icons ; Picked From Movie ^_^

⟢ Role(s) ; Delusion Holder, Sexual Trauma Soother, Tsumuji Prioritizer ⟢ Sign-Off(s) ; -Coco, 🐦‍⬛, 🖤, 🌂, 📼 ⟢ Personality Traits ; Delusional, Proud, Erratic, Rebellious, Energetic, Expressive, Extrovert ⟢ Kintype(s) ; Goth Conceptkin, Weird Girl Conceptkin, Lisa Rowe Synpath, Alyssa [TEOTFW] Synpath, Raven Animalkin ⟢ Music Genre ; Southern Gothic

⟢ Likes ; Crows, Scarfs, Black colored things, Babydolls, Hell imagery ⟢ Dislikes ; Being copied, Being mocked, Bad talk about parents ⟢ Hobbies ; Wondering around outside, Crafting out of bird feathers ⟢ Color Palette ;

⟢ Playlist [4 Songs] ; [] . Spit [Show Me the Body] [] . Perfect Pair [R.L. Beats] [] . Driving With My Darling [And One] [] . The Dismemberment Song [Blue Kid] ⟢ Memories ; -. How infuriating hxr twin sister was before her death, getting in constant physical fights with her while growing up -. Beginning to dress gothic when very young in attempts to get caws twin to stop copying hxr, ultimately failing and making her even more enraged with darks twin cause of it -. When Tsumuji first let hxr kiss his face and hold that’s hand -. Walking between Tsumuji and Satoru around the asylum, linking pinkies with them a lot so they didn’t get lost wondering ⟢ Outfits ;

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⟢ Birthday ; Jan. 1st

⟢ CisIDs ; AFAB, Japanese, Black Eyes, Schizophrenic, ASPD, Bipolar, Killer, Goth, Weird Girl ⟢ TransIDs ; transGoddess, transWorldEnder, transLiving, transImmortal, permaBlackClothes, transTrillAbilty, transWings ⟢ Headspace Room ;

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⟢ Name(s) ; Tsumuji, Brutus, Jett, Vik ⟢ Age ; 17 ⟢ Gender(s) ; Quoimasc, Nixvir ⟢ Pronoun(s) ; He/Him ; That/Thats ; Any ⟢ Orientation ; Andraromantic, Neuroasexual ⟢ Species ; Human ⟢ Source ; Picnic 1996 ⟢ Icons ; Picked From Movie ^_^

⟢ Role(s) ; Hallucination Holder, Sexual Trauma Holder, Religious Trauma Soother ⟢ Sign-Off(s) ; -Tsum, 📓, 🌤️, 💧 ⟢ Personality Traits ; Rebellious, Careful, Soft-Spoken, Suspicious, Very Reactive ⟢ Kintype(s) ; James [TEOTFW] Synpath, Nature Otherkin, Dove Animalkin, Mint Otherkin ⟢ Music Genre ; J-Rock

⟢ Likes ; Heaven Imagery, Sunsets, Walking around outside, Being high up ⟢ Dislikes ; Rain / Water in general, Teachers, Guns, Puppets ⟢ Hobbies ; Wondering around outside, Reading, Annotating books ⟢ Color Palette ;

⟢ Playlist [4 Songs] ; [] . Henna Merry Go Round [gulu gulu] [] . Take Me Out [Franz Ferdinand] [] . Sacrilege [Yeah Yeah Yeahs] [] . Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots, Pt.1 [The Flaming Lips] ⟢ Memories ; -. Being so excited for the first days of grade school, feeling uneasy about his teacher for seemingly no reason -. Being giddy after killing his teacher, realizing everything would finally stop. Not snapping back into it until a few minutes later where he ran home and told thats parents in a massive breakdown. -. When that realized Coco wouldn’t hurt him, letting hxr hold his hand and eventually give face kisses without feeling disgusting or upset afterward. -. Sitting in Coco’s rooms often during rain storms to not panic ⟢ Outfits ;

⟢ Accessories ; [Bracelets made by Coco]

⟢ Birthday ; March 6th

⟢ CisIDs ; AMAB, Schizophrenic, Autism, BPD, Sex repulsed, Gr00med, Dissociative Disorder, Some-Times romance repulsed, Killer ⟢ TransIDs ; permaSafe, transAngel, transGodsFavorite, permaContent, nullGr00med, nullSchool ⟢ Headspace Room ;

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[zombi3zlovr]

Is anyone on friend rewind?? I just made an account and I'm starting to edit my profile and stuff >_<

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Time to rewatch gravity falls!(≧∇≦）

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I want to be lean, skinny, and have light abs so bad (T ^ T)

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long yapp/vent igggg loll (jeez it's so long sorry if anyone actually reads through it, bless u)

BROO aghh why am I Highkey jelly 💔 I talk to this moot sometimes on TikTok and we have been talking for months but never seriously or anything, I mean he says I'm his friend which I appreciate but honestly, I don't think we rlly are don't get me wrong I RILLY want to be his friend, but I just want our friendship to be more than occasional message, I wish he would just text me out of nowhere, and I wish he text me every day. He has said he loved me twice which made me a little too happy to admit, but I think if I never texted him again, he would just do the same and not rlly try to talk to me, idk man. He's also the only person online who I send voice messages with which is kind of a big deal for me cause I'm very awkward and I don't like my voice. I honestly think he's pretty cute and he's super super sweet and nice, but anyways recently I texted him asking how he is doing and all that stuff and he told me that he hasn't been the best and he ended up venting to me about essentially how he has a crush on a girl he talks to who is also on TikTok, and they've been talking since the start of last month, he said they would talk all the time, play Roblox together and even say they love you to each other, and how they're each other's best friend.

Basically, he was feeling super jelly and insecure with himself and just hurting over feeling like she won't even like him back romantically, and that she's too cool for him. He said he was even going through her reposts and getting upset if he saw anything that wouldn't be related to him that she was reposting about someone else. I let him vent to me, which I don't mind at all, also this was the most he has ever messaged me in one sitting. but to be so real I FELT a pain in my stomach and a wave jealousy, like I was high key clenching my teeth a little... LIKE DUDEE AGHH.

I tried to give him good advice, but I felt like I was doing booty at it which made me honestly irritated at myself cause the only time he texts me this much I'm sucking so bad with what to say back like lock in. I think the main thing I was super jealous about was that he was able to connect with someone so much in like a month, playing Roblox and all that stuff, while me who's been talking to him for months hasn't even made it halfway close to the relationship he built up with her?? LIKE WHAT AMM I MISSING? I'm just so confused on how she did it like I foreal want to see the messages between them so I can take notes, I just feel like I'm that side character I'll never be that person's best friend, I wish I could just be that person for someone, and I rlly want it to be him. AND NGL I felt awkward cause all things he was saying about like going through her reposts and feeling jealous ive been highkey doing that with him myself. idk if I have a crush on him or something but sighh I wish he loved me more like that sounds selfish but I rlly do tho. He ended up confessing to her and she rejected him which I do feel rllyyy bad for him💔 we talked more about it after that but now, he's back to not even replying to my messages much, like he'll reply in hours or even days, but I see he's active most of the time. IDKK what am I doing wrong??? why does no one wanna chat with me like it rlly does hurt my feelings, but also, I feel so annoying for getting attached like this cause it's just so one-sided. like I'm just not bult for this, sorry for longg yappp xpp

[zombi3zlovr]

i need to get on Tumblr more againnn, like I got to get on that tumblr grind foreally

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oof

holy moly why am I so freakin awkward like I can't with myself, I never know what to say or even talk about with people. it's actually hurting me like (╥﹏╥) I give myself so much firsthand embarrassment but tbh I'm also probably being judgmental of myself and dramatic. I wish I was one of those people who can carry a conversation with great flow, and like have good convo starters that make people enjoy talking to you. Bro I feel like I'm a convo ender like what the heckk loll