Me tries to human (but can't)

i try to human but i suck at it so i hide here.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— william wordsworth (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

[zombie-n]

This year just sucks so bad. Everything going to shit.

I was accused at work of harassment by a girl who seeked me out to try and get my in trouble for my work, and she didnt like my response and complain i was disrespectful?? That girl literaly rammes me against a wall, made fun of the sound i made, and got mad at me for being in pain two days later. That girl always talks to people like there dumb and like shes the only one working hard and being smart. But shed my superior and my boss golden child so she can do whatever and cry that someone answering her question and not immediately apologising is a bully. Somehow no one sees that as a problem ? Somehow if youre spitted in face you should thank and apologise?

I cant quit right now, i cant afford it now. The issue was never resolved with hr and they pretend it didnt happen but my boss is now micro managing me and point blanc mobbing.

Why are these people always have good lives?

Why mean people are the ones living well?

I went on antidepressants to try and deal with it, but why bother if the world always rewards bad people?

[lunamonchtuna]

to be seen without performing. to be heard without screaming. to be missed without disappearing. to be enough without proving it. to be held without falling apart. to be understood without explaining. to be wanted without conditions. to be. to be.

[unburiedgod]

[zombie-n]

I hate myself so bad, starting work like this doesnt help and i need to work because theres no such thing as "unable to work" for me and just me. Theres only youre lazy and a burden.

My view point is so weird and twisted i hate it and it makes my life worse but also im unable to mask it. I can pretend and mask for a short period but not for long. I wish i could close my heart and feeling and brain and only do slave work. Why do i need those worries and thoughts? Just because i didnt want to be ignorant? I shoudve always stayed ignorant.

[pallmallsandashtrays]

[daily-spooky]

[memes-so-i-dont-kms]

[animentality]

[daily-spooky]

[sadc0keh0e]

gotta wonder if it ever will

[what-iz-life]

if i ever tell you about my past, it's not for you to feel sorry for me, but for you to understand why i am the way i am

[kosmogrl]

[error-503]

[kosmogrl]

[nadcoollover]

[imrllysrry]

I’m going to have to live my whole life sad, aren’t I?