zowiie

screaming, crying, throwing up then eventually *writing* on ao3 👹🫧

[zowiesblog]

hi! 🫶

writing this to anyone who might still be reading the fic, I’ve decided to take a break from posting. I’ll still write and finish the story bc I do actually need to see it through for my own sanity lol 🥴

but yeah…much like the audience’s interest, my motivation for actually posting isn’t really there anymore so there’s that! i don’t actually know for sure if i’ll ever post the chapters once they’re written, never say never right? 🧐

wishing the very best to whoever reads this; lots of hugs to anyone who does care about this silly little story! i am sorry for the shitty news ☹️

Zowiie xx

[zowiesblog]

if I post a 20k chapter, would anyone read it?🤡

bc realistically, it’s really fucking long! and spans over the course of multiple days/minor and major events + has POVs switches between the twins so i’m afraid the pacing is gonna be boring asf………..

please let me know your preferences? 😭 i’m so lost on my own lmao.

despite being a “writer” for the fandom, I’ve realised i’m not even part of the community at all???? I’ve never actually browsed the tags or read any fics since starting this story back in February.

Which I’ll admit, is a bit weird but idk?! I already feel super self-conscious of my writing on my own sooo I don’t even want to see with my own eyes how talented everyone must be; otherwise I’d be humbly packing up my stuff and fuck off out of there so fast this story wouldn’t have been longer than a prologue 💀💀💀

so. all this rambling to say: i don’t know if there’s a specific pace or length of chapters that readers prefer in the fandom? is there even a consensus? 😭 ughhhh if I wasn’t so pathologically shy i would put on my big girl pants and ~ask~ other writers but unfortunately i don’t know anyone and also don’t forget i’m a huge wuss 🤡

✨ANYWAYS✨, this is just me hoping the 3 loveliest and kindest ppl who still care about the fic show up to help a girlie out <3333

[zowiesblog]

ITS COMING PPL‼️

I know i’ve said this approx 20 times since the last update but oh my……this is it I fear 🤭

I’ve been writing nonstop for two days, i truly need to go outside and touch some grass fr 💀

turns out my avatar hyperfixation came back to kick my ass 😭 (thank god)

[zowiesblog]

About 2/3 written already! (it is a big boi bc my unplanned hiatus made me feel so guilty)

Most likely gonna drop on Christmas Day or earlier hehe!!😎😎😎😎

[zowiesblog]

if I post a 20k chapter, would anyone read it?🤡

bc realistically, it’s really fucking long! and spans over the course of multiple days/minor and major events + has POVs switches between the twins so i’m afraid the pacing is gonna be boring asf………..

please let me know your preferences? 😭 i’m so lost on my own lmao.

despite being a “writer” for the fandom, I’ve realised i’m not even part of the community at all???? I’ve never actually browsed the tags or read any fics since starting this story back in February.

Which I’ll admit, is a bit weird but idk?! I already feel super self-conscious of my writing on my own sooo I don’t even want to see with my own eyes how talented everyone must be; otherwise I’d be humbly packing up my stuff and fuck off out of there so fast this story wouldn’t have been longer than a prologue 💀💀💀

so. all this rambling to say: i don’t know if there’s a specific pace or length of chapters that readers prefer in the fandom? is there even a consensus? 😭 ughhhh if I wasn’t so pathologically shy i would put on my big girl pants and ~ask~ other writers but unfortunately i don’t know anyone and also don’t forget i’m a huge wuss 🤡

✨ANYWAYS✨, this is just me hoping the 3 loveliest and kindest ppl who still care about the fic show up to help a girlie out <3333

[zowiesblog]

ITS COMING PPL‼️

I know i’ve said this approx 20 times since the last update but oh my……this is it I fear 🤭

I’ve been writing nonstop for two days, i truly need to go outside and touch some grass fr 💀

turns out my avatar hyperfixation came back to kick my ass 😭 (thank god)

[zowiesblog]

if I post a 20k chapter, would anyone read it?🤡

bc realistically, it’s really fucking long! and spans over the course of multiple days/minor and major events + has POVs switches between the twins so i’m afraid the pacing is gonna be boring asf………..

please let me know your preferences? 😭 i’m so lost on my own lmao.

despite being a “writer” for the fandom, I’ve realised i’m not even part of the community at all???? I’ve never actually browsed the tags or read any fics since starting this story back in February.

Which I’ll admit, is a bit weird but idk?! I already feel super self-conscious of my writing on my own sooo I don’t even want to see with my own eyes how talented everyone must be; otherwise I’d be humbly packing up my stuff and fuck off out of there so fast this story wouldn’t have been longer than a prologue 💀💀💀

so. all this rambling to say: i don’t know if there’s a specific pace or length of chapters that readers prefer in the fandom? is there even a consensus? 😭 ughhhh if I wasn’t so pathologically shy i would put on my big girl pants and ~ask~ other writers but unfortunately i don’t know anyone and also don’t forget i’m a huge wuss 🤡

✨ANYWAYS✨, this is just me hoping the 3 loveliest and kindest ppl who still care about the fic show up to help a girlie out <3333

[zowiesblog]

i think…..my writer’s block……is over??????? 😳

[angelceoasis]

ty @puppysdog 🥰 shuffle 10 songs from ur 'on repeat' playlist n tag 10 ppl or whtvr y'all wanna do w it

1. In Your Eyes - BADBADNOTGOOD, Charlotte Day Wilson

2. EdEddnEddy - JID

3. Alien Love Call - Turnstile, BADBADNOTGOOD, Blood Orange

4. Freaking Out the Neighborhood - Mac Demarco

5. Downers - Greentea Peng

6. crying through my teeth - Yaya Bey

7. New Apartment - Ari Lennox

8. Saw You In A Dream - The Japanese House

9. Andromeda - Weyes Blood

10. Harlem World 97 - Smoke DZA, Flying Lotus, Estelle

tagging literally everyone who follows this blog bc yr all beloved and no pressure as always but i'd love a glimpse in2 evry single 1 of y'alls music taste

@bastqrd @pinkmoondoll9shihtzu @manicdreams @awkward-smirks @seasetdreams @arataka-reigen @azumanecore

[awkward-smirks]

tagged by my fav @warmsummerseveglow 🌿☀️💗

warning: my music taste SUXXXX and it's soooo all over the place but thanks for the tag!!!! 🥺

1-4: lacy / the grudge / logical / vampire by olivia rodrigo (grouped them together bc her entire album has been on rotation; they're all easy to listen through)

5: if you change your mind by hunter hayes (i s2g this song has been in rotation since he dropped it in 2021...)

6: trust by elevation rhythm (this is a christian song just as a heads up... i didn't realize i listened to it that often but 💀)

7: from the start by laufey !!!!!! (i would LIVE and DIE for this song. i just watched her outdoors livestream for it tonight <3)

8: like a blade of grass by jack harlow (his music is my ultimate guilty pleasure, esp this song so uh... yeah. 🫣 the "you the type of girl i would've flirted with in class; copied every test, be the reason that i passed" lyric just gets me every time)

9: talk that talk by twice (their best song BY FARRRR imo, which is saying a lot bc they release hit after hit)

10: creo lo sientes (live at the fonda theater) by sammy rae & the friends (this is my fav song from the group and they recently released their live tour recordings!!)

tagging: @kellystar321 and @oftheblue and any of my other mutuals who like tag games :') if u wanna!!

[oftheblue]

My time has come yet again and i'm ready. let's do this, let's see what i'll get (˵•̀⤙•́˵)૭

Oh and of course, thank you for this tag @awkward-smirks!! ☀️💕

Raining in Manila by Lola Amour (honestly it makes sense that this is the first song that came up with how many times i listen to it. Ghhhh i just really love it so much <3 and listening to it while it's raining too? 10/10, would recommend <3) okay we're off to a great start so let's continue that way 🤞🏻

Have You Ever Been In Love by The Ivy (this is one of those songs you listened to a few years ago and then you randomly remember it or find it again and now you're listening again and there's this nostalgic but warm -not sure if that would be the right word to use but let's roll with it- feel about it)

Tokyo Wonder by Nakimushi (i'm preparing myself for tr s3, enough said)

Wild Flower by RM (💜)

Shake It by Metro Station (oh i got hooked on this throwback again about 4-5 days ago so yeah makes sense this is on this list too ^^

Mother's Daughter by Miley Cyrus (must be something in the water or that i'm my mother's daughter 🔥)

Supermassive Black Hole by Muse (omg i'm never going to finish this list because i can't not listen to the songs until the end 😂😅)

Let You Down by Sleeping With Sirens

Morirò Da Re by Måneskin

Stay by The Kid Laroi, Justin Bieber

well, those were my shuffled 10 songs ^^

thanks again for the tag!! <3

and i'll be tagging: @sweeto @kieropi @moonshapedbox @bim-yo-u @crybeybi @gracetoldmeto and @damnfeds

[jamblossoms]

my music listening habits have been all over the place lately so im excited to see what i'll get hehe

1. talk - coldplay (yall this song has a feeling that can't even express in words its so comforting. also made such good memories with it so it takes me back to good times)

2. cocoon - milky chance (saw them in concert recently and i'm still not over it sdjsfhjfh this was probably my favorite song they performed live so it's been on loop ever since hehe)

3. spaceman - the killers (i remembered that i used to be obsessed with this song in middle school and so im back to it again sjdhfj)

4. eternal sunshine - ateez (i'm back in my atiny era so this definitely makes sense as to why its on the list)

5. love is mystical - cold war kids (saw them open for tears for fears a few months ago and it's been on repeat ever since. they're sooo amazing live omg)

6. freak on a leash - korn

7. talk - beabadoobee

8. no surprises - radiohead (one of my ult fave songs it'll probably be in my wrapped list again this year lol)

9. let me let you go - one ok rock (one ok rock my beloved they're still so slept on, go listen and support my boys if u don't already <333)

10. artefact - phoenix

thank u to the lovely @oftheblue for tagging me in this !!! it was so much fun :D

im tagging @tru-blubelle @moonhydrangea @dashingwishes @fireworksgalaxy and whoever wants to do this !!! no pressure of course <33

[tru-blubelle]

I’m so late to this but I can’t wait to see what songs I get lol

Never be the same - Gabrielle Aplin (she’s an amazing artist definitely one of my favorites)

Death by a thousand cuts - Taylor Swift (I’m not surprised I got a Taylor song on this list lol I’ve got so many on my playlist)

Strangers - Sigrid (arguably my favorite singer I haven’t found a song from her I don’t adore she’s extremely underrated)

One last time - Ariana Grande

It’s ok if you forget me - Astrid S (another artist who’s terribly underrated cause her songs are gold)

I got so high that I saw Jesus - Noah Cyrus (this song is special to me personally and it always gives me chills I don’t know why it does but I love the song)

That way - Tate McRae (she’s definitely another favorite of mine her sound and voice is so unique and k relate to her music so much)

Thursday - Jess Glynne (her songs are so motivating and inspiring she pours so much emotion into her lyrics it’s beautiful)

Don’t feel like crying - Sigrid

Bad idea right? - Olivia Rodrigo (her new album has been corrupting my playlist and I’m not complaining at all)

loved every second of doing this music is such a big deal to me literally would listen to it all day every if I could just finding new artists and doing the shuffle just put so many songs I love on the table and I love them all honestly ✨♥️

Tagging: (optional to participate💕) @adrianarose7 @neteluvr @anonymousailurophile @teyamsatan @imperihoe @lavenderslug @samistars

Thanks for the tag @moonshapedbox 🫂💗💐

[anonymousailurophile]

This sounds fun!

1) Why am I like this? By Orla Gartland.

This song just speaks to me. Like I listen to it whenever I'm crying lmao. It's so good.

2) Love Again By Dua Lipa.

Don't listen to this a lot but it's a fun song!

3) People Watching By Conan Gray.

Oh god this is getting so sad. This song also speaks to me and now I want to cry.

4) Cherry flavoured by the neighbourhood.

The neighborhood is one of my fav bands if not my fav band. This song is so cute.

5) Grapejuice By Harry Styles.

Don't listen to harry styles a lot lol but good song

6) Bet you wanna by Sabrina Carpenter.

Love her so much.

7) Mirrors by Justin Timberlake.

This is one of my fav songs. I would love to feel like this for someone 😭

8) Unconditionally by Takayoshi.

Adorable<3

9) Love grows by Edison Lighthouse.

Rosemary is me. I'm rosemary.

10) Ribs by Lorde.

Yup going to cry. Bye..

Tagging @vivid-ink @strongheartneteyam @teyamsatan and anyone who wants to do this:) (No pressure ofc)

[vivid-ink]

Thank you for the tag @anonymousailurophile bebe! 🥰

Enchanted - Taylor Swift I'm quite late to the Swiftie game. I've got a handful of her songs that I love, but I decided to put on a Spotify playlist of hers while working the other day and I've discovered that she is really is such an amazing songwriter. Her music really speaks to you.

Body Say - Demi Lovato An oldie that I always come back to. It's such a sensual song.

Without Me- Halsey This is a song I really identify with. It reminds me of a very difficult and painful past relationship from when I was younger.

Talking Body - Tove Lo Good groove song - I feel so naughty saying this, but I somehow always think of Jamie Flatters when I listen to this. 😜

Unstoppable - Sia This is a power-anthem I listen to on difficult days.

Express - Christina Aguilera (from the Burlesque soundtrack) Another sexy tune that screams feminine power to me.

Masterpiece -Jessie J I love belting this number out! Another empowerment song.

My Stupid Heart (Kids Version) - Walk off the Earth, Luminati Suns Quite sure I found this one off TikTok but this rendition is literally sung by three wonderfully talented young brothers, the youngest of which is 5! Really catchy!

Kings & Queens - Ava Max I have a lot of 'power to women' music, I've realised...

Strongest - Ina Wroldsen, Alan Walker This is a beautiful and poignant song about a wife who chooses to be strong for her son, when her husband leaves them for another woman and her child. Very touching message but also quite catchy to listen to.

Tagging some mooties (no pressure to do this if you don't wanna): @qcswrites @eyweveng @vintaqestar

[vintaqestar]

thanks for the tag @vivid-ink !!!🫶

fair warning, when i say i listen to every genre of music, i MEAN it lmao

1. Dear John (Taylor’s Version) - Taylor Swift : there’s just something about this song … i can scream sing it for hours fr

2. De Shelby (Part 2) - Hozier : i’ve been absolutely UNWELL since Unreal Unearth came out oh my gosh. he’s insane in the best ways like this entire album has been on repeat

3. Calling (Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse) - Metro Boomin, Swae Lee, NAV, A Boogie Wit da Hoodie : i listened to this entire soundtrack exclusively for weeks after atsv came out and i still eat it up

4. Flawless - The Neighbourhood : YALL. THIS. SONG. i LOVE the neighborhood so much and something about this song gets me in a trance every time

5. Right Here - Chase Atlantic : THIS. SONG. (again). i mess with chase atlantic HEAVY, and this song is one of my absolute favorites from them; it’s one of my top windows down, screaming, driving fast songs

6. Luna de Xelajú - Gaby Moreno (feat. Oscar Isaac) : i don’t even have the words to adequately express my love for this song. the first time i listened to it i literally cried. it’s a song i can (and have) put on repeat for hours, it’s just magical

7. Babydoll - Dominic Fike : AHHHHHH !!! one of my fav songs and my top favorite dominic fike songs !! it makes my neurons vibrate fr

8. Cry Baby - The Neighbourhood : i have also listened to this song on repeat for entire durations of me driving. i need this song injected in my veins !

9. Theme from Love Story - Henry Mancini Piano & Orchestra : i’m a big classical music lover, especially when i’m on my study grind lol something about henry mancini’s music pulls me in and tunes out the world

10. Die For You - The Weeknd : y’all. this summer i went through like a two week phase where i had to listen to this song at least 3 times a day. like it was bad. i know it’s definitely an older song in terms of stuff he’s put out at this point, but this is another one of my top windows down scream singing songs

i hope this rollercoaster of a music ride was interesting :)

tagging a couple mutuals if u wanna do it (seriously no pressure<3) @zowiesblog @thewingedswine

[zowiesblog]

thanks you for the tag lovely @vintaqestar 🩵

1. Moon River - Frank Ocean : ah. truly a top artist to me. and this one right there… an instant favourite ever since he released it! always hits me right in the feels, whatever they might be in the moment. one of those songs i can’t seem to grow tired of 🥲

2. Everybody’s Crazy - Olivia Dean : anything sung by this goddess/angel makes me either cry or dance or zone out for hours. sometimes all 3 of them lol

3. Encore - Lolo Zouaï : such a cute and sexy vibey song, i love her sound soooo much, really a fun song to blast in the car before/after a night out!

4. Complicated - Avril Lavigne : what can I say? it’s the blueprint of sassy songs that one can only scream at the top of their lungs!! a classic in the getting ready with bffs playlist methinks

5. Heated - Beyoncé : ugh that whole album has me in a chokehold ever since it came out. i listen to it in the car, when I clean, when I get ready, when i walk (and struggle not to strut in public) It’s just THAT cunty and iconic i’m afraid. a love letter celebrating everything i adore and cherish in queer culture🥰

5. Be My Own Boyfriend - Olivia Dean : that song>>>>>> not only is it literal heaven to my ears, it’s just the best self-love advice a young person could receive, a big hug in song form 🥰

6. Avoid Me- KUTE : one very aggressively energetic tune I play often when i’m running late. seems like i’ve been late quite a lot these days 💀

7. I Feel The Earth Move - Carole King : a classic among her many songs i eat up like a starved goblin, just hella motivating and catchy!

8. 20 Something - SZA : THIS. this, this, this. sorry i can’t express this more coherently. she just gets me on a different level, truly a song i know by heart, down to the lil ad libs.

9. Voodoo Mama - Justin Herwitz : from the score of Babylon (2022), the right dose of chaotic that tickles the unhinged section of my brain cells. no further comment lol

10. The Nutcracker, Op. 71, Act II: No. 14a, Pas de deux - Tchaikovsky : if all fails, i know my boi Pyotr got my back. he’s here for me when I study, when I write, when I read, when i stare at the ceiling, and when I fancy myself a ballerina at 2 am 😅 my mom used to listen to a lot of his music when she was pregnant with me, so i guess my love for him has been very constant🤭

i rambled, as usual, but this was super fun to do! xx

[sullyfortress]

Did an art trade with @sofiast21 and drew her OC. Such a fun trade! I adore her art style it’s so crisp.

[zowiesblog]

if y’all could see the state of my notes app rn……..👹👹👹

next chapter is gonna be one wild ride for a couple people who shall not be named 🫣

[zowiesblog]

YAYYYY I FINALLY POSTED MY SPIDER-CENTRIC CHAPTER!! 😩 ✨✨✨✨

now to focus on my other emotionally dysfunctional baby 🤭

[zowiesblog]

‼️PLEASE READ THIS LOVELIES‼️

I need your help… if the new chapter isn’t posted by Saturday can y’all come to my inbox and insult me? 🥴

I’m in desperate need of motivation even tho I still have SO MUCH inspo for the fic yet it seems I only thrive under stress??? It’s so infuriating i feel like I might combust ‼️

also my worst fear is that ppl gave up on the fic and/or forgot about it bc I haven’t posted in a month (which equals to an eternity for me okay?)

[zowiesblog]

can you tell I drank a redbull before typing this 🥲💀

[zowiesblog]

‼️PLEASE READ THIS LOVELIES‼️

I need your help… if the new chapter isn’t posted by Saturday can y’all come to my inbox and insult me? 🥴

I’m in desperate need of motivation even tho I still have SO MUCH inspo for the fic yet it seems I only thrive under stress??? It’s so infuriating i feel like I might combust ‼️

also my worst fear is that ppl gave up on the fic and/or forgot about it bc I haven’t posted in a month (which equals to an eternity for me okay?)

[zowiesblog]

🌸💕 for being kind and lovely, have a kiss on the forehead! pass it on to 10 people 💕🌸

ughhh you’re so cute ilyyyyy 🩵🩵🩵

*mwah* here’s ur kiss lovely🫶

[zowiesblog]

sup lovelies!! new chapter soon🩵 indulge me tho, i wonder if everyone ships Teyam & Lya….? if not, do u have other pairings that you ship in the fic? OR a couple you would like to see?👀 (between any other characters ofc)

yes unfortunately i ship these damn idiots

nope

Voting ended onAug 17, 2023

[zowiesblog]

if you don’t look too closely this is just Lya & Paz flying around, just 2 girlies having the time of their lives as Neteyam eats their dust lmao

[zowiesblog]

and if I say I’ll update again before the end of the week…….🥲

[zowiesblog]

thank the GODS for @/CrazyTom0712 on twitter ‼️

her stunning, vivid art always pulls me out of writing slumps 🙏

[zowiesblog]

fingers crossed i finish writing the new chapter before i start my new job next week…..