Battle Hymn

I am Melissa, a 23-year-old documenting how I'm doing life. Striving to be a happier and healthier version of the person I was yesterday. Doing life with my best friend, and surrounding myself with like minded people. 

[everythingstarstuff]

‘Don’t Look Up’ by Cameron Burns (Captvart)

[-citadel]

09.10.2022

Ready for the next chapter.

[oliviamobbs]

[mindful-and-motivated-deactivat]

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Integrated meditation practice is like a healthy diet which is indispensable for maintaining your vitality and resistance to disease. Likewise, a balanced meditative practice in the course of a socially engaged way of life heightens your psychological immune system, so that you are less vulnerable to mental imbalances of all kinds.

—B. Alan Wallace

The Attention Revolution: Unlocking the Power of the Focused Mind

[purplebuddhaproject]

“You are not weak just because your heart feels so heavy.”

— Andrea Gibson (via purplebuddhaquotes)

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

How to Receive Love

It’s often very difficult for us to receive love. Perhaps our past has taught us that it’s never genuine – or love is not reliable, and won’t last in the end. If this is your experience, it’s understandable that trusting love is scary, and a step that’s hard to take. Below are some steps that can help you with this.

1. Believe people when they say they love you. Whether it be a partner, a good friend, or a family member, it is crucial that we accept those words as being true and genuine. For If you’re continually doubting and pushing them away, then you’ll hamper them proving that they truly do love you.

2. Stop being terrified of loss. It’s normal and common to hold back from trusting love if your heart has been broken, or your love has been betrayed. Why would you want to experience that again! However, if you don’t take a chance on a person who seems true, you’ll spend your whole life running, and be captive to your fears. And there are people who are safe, and who will genuinely care. So trust your intuition, and push past all that fear.

3. Love yourself. For some this is the hardest step to take. However, if you don’t love yourself then you cannot receive love – as deep down inside you don’t believe you deserve love. If this is true for you, take the time to figure out the reason why you feel you’re not worthy of being loved. Then, work on challenging and replacing this belief. (Perhaps with the help of a counsellor.)

4. Begin to take down the walls and to risk being vulnerable. Being authentic is scary as you feel so vulnerable. But you can take a few small steps, and can practice being real. Decide it’s not OK to be cynical and tough, and choose to be more open, and let others get close.

5. Learn from young children, and the way they receive love. They expect to be loved, to be treated with respect, and to have their needs met when they reach out for support. They don’t fear rejection, or think that they’ll be hurt. For them, love is natural, it’s healthy and innate. So try to believe that the same is true for you – and love is enriching, rewarding, safe, and good.

[tribesoffitness]

Maybe emotionally the strongest female Event this weekend at CrossFit Games - Europe Regional. First, Katrin Tanja Davidsdottir lunge-walked across the entire field without putting the axle bar down once and then everbody in the Arena scream-cheered for Patricia Strenius who finished just before the time cap. Video: Source

[-citadel]

Indecision

I've just read a chapter in Sarah Wilson's "First, We Make the Beast Beautiful" that really has resonated with me. It's concerning indecision. As a person who suffers anxiety it takes such a large amount of energy to make a decision - especially when it comes to buying consumer goods. Something that has helped immensely is keeping a shopping list on my Notes in my phone. If an item is written down then that is definitely was is necessary to buy and if I see something in the store that sparks my interest I'll either write it down to ponder on whether it is really important, or take a photo. I've been puzzled of which toothpaste to buy next when we run out after years of purchasing Sensodyne. Recently I've been pondering on whether to buy more vegan friendly personal hygiene products, and after doing my research have settled on trying Dr Bronner's Toothpaste next. But it's taken me months to make this decision. I've seen Snappy Jaws and wondered about the other toothpastes found at the Health Food shops. When I finish my current foundation I'm going to look into more vegan friendly mineral make up, but what I'm most curious about is finding a vegan mascara. Maybe I should just invest in an eyelash curler. I'm trying to put down all this premeditation of purchasing goods down to minimalism and internationalism, but I think without the anxiety I wouldn't be as thorough as I have been.

[rosy-fitness-styles-blog]

♥♥♥

[caravagina]

With short hair you begin to crave pearl necklaces, long earrings, and a variety of sunglasses. And you brush your teeth more often. Short hair removes obvious femininity and replaces it with style. When it starts growing out a little and losing its style, you have to wear sunglasses until you can get it to the hairdresser. That’s why you need a variety. Short hair makes you aware of subtraction as style. You can no longer wear puffed sleeves or ruffles; the neat is suddenly preferable to the fussy. You eye the tweezers instead of the blusher. What else can you take away? You can’t hide behind short hair… you may look a little androgynous, a little unfinished, a little bare… but your face is no longer a flat screen surrounded by a curtain: the world sees you in three dimensions.

Joan Juliet Buck for American Vogue, c. 1988 (via frontdeskandadmissions)

[psych2go]

Loops psychology

[fitnessjourneyahoy-blog]

1 + 1 = 2. Simple as

[fuckyeahcrossfit]

[fitnessgifs4u]

44 Best Bodyweight Exercises Ever for Women - Click HERE to see the other 35 on YouTube.

[jettatu-ra]

woah these look awesome

[studytwice]

You will achieve your dreams, a day at a time, so set goals for each day—not long and difficult projects, but chores that will take you, step by step, toward your rainbow. Write them down, if you must, but limit your list so that you won’t have to drag today’s undone matters into tomorrow. Remember that you cannot build your pyramid in twenty-four hours. Be patient. Never allow your day to become so cluttered that you neglect your most important goal—to do the best you can, enjoy this day, and rest satisfied with what you have accomplished.

Og Mandino (via studytwice)

[sanwichsays]

Having had a very controlling father (having an opinion was fine, just as long as it was his) and an abusive relationship, it does take time to heal. If you are anything like I was, having an opinion doesn’t feel safe…because it wasn’t for so many years. And when you can’t safely express your opinion, you lose touch with what it means to be you, with what your opinions actually are. To me, it seems like the problem isn’t how to (safely) tell your BF that either option is fine; it’s relearning how to identify what you actually want and preActising expressing it. For a long while, I couldn’t have told you what I did want, be it for breakfast or a life goal . I only knew what I didn’t want (abuse, drama, cauliflower). Something I found useful for the big stuff, although I might sound silly, what ‘sitting’ with a choice in almost a meditation until I could identify what felt right to me in my body. For smaller choices (tea vs coffee) practice identifying what gives you joy or even what you don’t want, then practice voicing it.

Melanie (CAwkward comment, #920: “I have trouble forming or expressing opinions and it’s bugging my partner.”)

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take no shit 2014