Finally I published my first chapter for my Tom Riddle fanfic. I hope you love the supernatural, slow burn, mind warfare, and unnerving interactions because oh boy are you in for a treatโฆ. Or trick, your choice. ๐
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Tom Riddle has always believed that every mystery can be unraveled, every person understood, and every weakness exploited.
Then he meets Isabella Knightly.
Brilliant, composed, and unsettlingly elusive, she challenges accepted magical theory with effortless confidence and refuses to be intimidated by Hogwartsโ most promising student. Each conversation leaves Tom with more questions than answers, and when Isabella quietly reveals that she is not entirely human, the line between curiosity and obsession begins to blur.
As a dangerous game of wit, secrets, and calculated honesty unfolds between them, Tom discovers that, for the first time in his life, he may have found someone whose next move he cannot predict.
My favorite genre of movie poster is Bob Reynolds awkwardly hovering in the background acting like he's Just Some Guy when he's actually anything BUT Just Some Guy, in fact he is THE guy and everyone should rightfully be terrified of him lmao
new avengers x bat og avenger!reader, eventual bob reynolds x bat og avenger!reader, bucky barnes x platonic!reader
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summary: when one of the last 4 standing OG 7 avengers reported MIA comes home from a three month long mission to find 5 strangers and 1 familiar super soldier in her tower claiming to be the new version of what sheโs lost. 6 idiots who have no one idea the shit theyโve just stepped in now dealing with one of the most ruthless people theyโll ever meet, in other words, the most terrifying avenger who could easily pass as a villain. a multiple part story.
warnings: 2.8K words. 18+. reader is a bat alien whoโs code name is decibel. graphic descriptions of violence. threats of killing and violence. mentions of steve, tony, nat, vision, and lokiโs deaths. rewriting of the final battle with thanos/endgame. mentions of grief. mentions and details of abandonment. reader is a hostile degrading asshole but she deserves to be!! john and alexei learn how to shut up. reader will uses whoeverโs sore spots against them with zero remorse. descriptions of trauma, thanos and his genocides of planets, and parent death. reader is reasonably overpowered cause this is the marvel universe and she can be.
JUNE 2027. one month since they reined in the void from taking over bob and new york completely. also one month since the media has began shitting on them for valentinaโs public decision to give them what is easily considered the biggest-shoes-to-fill title on earth. the watchtower common area is littered here and there with magazines of the reading and shooting kind, alexeiโs ridiculous sketches of team symbols, and the latest newspapers. bucky is in the middle of tuning his arm while yelena and ava look over the new alerts which all seem to be minor threats, nothing for them.
your boots hit the pavement of new york city for the first time since late march. you had gone on a solo mission, per usual, to where you suspected HYDRA was regrowing itโs second head in mountains of a foreign country. with no one holding you back with their claims of morality, you were able to eradicate the entire organization once and for all by putting down all 80 people involved. their cries and screams are a distant memory, one you never will or did care for. to you it was justice. countless people including those youโve lost have been irreparably damaged by them. no one will miss them, and if they do, they can find you so you can give them the same fate. the beginning of summer air sends a breeze through your hair, whipping the strands in a way that would make you seem innocently ethereal to anyone passing. with a shut of the suv door, you make your way up to the tower, duffel bag in hand. several knots rest in between your shoulder blades that will need to be examined by bruce next time you see him. all you want is a hot shower and sleep in an actual bed. when you go to swipe your badge, you find the scanner gone. your eyes immediately narrow and your ears twitch, pointing upwards as they listen for everything happening in the building. multiple people, 3 talking and 3 silent. in your home. you push past the glass doors and the girl sat at the front desk who gets up frantically, calling after you. โwait, you canโt go up there! who are-โ,
with a turn of your head, your eyes go completely brown with no scelera, lip curls up revealing an extremely sharp arsenal of non-human teeth, and a guttural hiss leaves her reeling. by the time she unfreezes, youโre already two levels away from the second to highest floor.
the elevator dings, john saying โfinally, melโs back with the shawarma. bob, get the plates.โ
he steps forward, intending to take the bag from the assistant when heโs met with you who looks ready to tear someone apart with your bare hands. moving back, he can practically feel everything in his body screaming โDANGER, DANGER, DANGERโ.
yelena comes back from the kitchen to see whatโs taking so long when she sees you. โumm..who are you?โ
bob watches wearily from the couch along with ava, alexei somewhere in the bathroom.
bucky rounds the corner, time practically stilling when his cobalt eyes land on you with your duffel in hand. โholy shit. decibelโฆ youโre alive.โ
you glare at the super soldier you once forced out of mind control back when everyone was still alive. โalways have been. who says otherwise?โ
he says, โvalentina, you were labeled MIA.โ
โand iโm supposed to know who that is?โ
bucky tries, only to get cut off. โno, but-โ
โno one has that type of information about me besides strange. if he declares iโm missing in action, iโm missing in action. whoever this woman is is nothing but an irrelevant insect that iโll have no qualm about eating.โ from the look on his face and your menacing words, the others can tell this is extremely serious. โnow. what are you doing in my tower?โ
john chimes in, โyour tower? this belongs to the government and our team. it was up for sale, valentina bought it, made it into our headquarters. โฆyou look familiar, where are you from?โ
honestly, itโs starting to seem like everything in this exact moment has been carefully weaved into a perfect fuck you. you have never been so disrespected or undermined, which says something because tony once spent an entire week making bat jokes every time you walked into a room.
yelena asks, โiโm sorry but who even are you?โ
bucky gives them all a warning look, knowing they have no idea what or who theyโre dealing with. โsheโs an avenger. one of the original 7.โ
the four look shocked, for good reason. it kick starts something in their brains, remembering the one avenger that was less seen by the public due to preference but was considered the most powerful, surpassing even thor.
โit seems i have the government to sue as a welcome home gift. iโll add you six to my lawyers case if youโre not out of my building in five minutes.โ
ava stands, โiโm sorry, ms. decibel but you canโt kick us out. we have nowhere else to go and this is where we need to be if something happens where the team is needed.โ
you turn to the british brunette, tone sardonic. โyour team? and whatโs that exactly?โ
โthe thunderbolts. but as of last month..the new avengers.โ
the air around you tenses, pulsing with an barely seen rippling force. your hands clenching inwards as you grit out, โyou dare cheapen my lifeโs meaning with your pathetic, worthless insult of an imitation? youโve taken in earthโs mightiest heroes footsteps only to trample them like banal third-rate elephants with no balance?โ
bob gets up from the couch, shifting on his feet as his eyes flit from bucky to the rest. theyโre all expecting the 110 year old to fan out the growing fire that seems to be intimidating even him. โplease, just let me explain everything, it doesnโt have to be this way.โ
your head tilts, โoh yeah? what does sam think about you handing the avengers title over to the government now that heโs captain america? hm?โ your eyes track every movement the muscles make in his face, clocking the exact moment he gives his internal struggle away. โi see. he thinks the exact same thing as me, doesnโt he? heโs angry at you. betrayed. just like steve would be.โ bucky flinches at the mention of his old best friend, but you keep going. โsteve, the exact same person who went against the law that wanted to trap us under the sokovia accords after ultron. because he believed in doing what was right and not being someoneโs bitch like you are.โ
john steps forward in defense of him for the first time ever, โthatโs enough! you donโt get to talk to any of us this way. we get it, youโre angry, whatever, but weโre not going anywhere. so you can either join us or sue us.โ
your eyes go fully brown again, โi think i rather just show you why iโm named what i am. because i rather just kill you.โ
โwha-โ bucky cuts yelena off with a yell, โcover your ears!โ only to be met with a sonic scream ripping through you, filling the room. the windows shatter, the sound of glass falling and their screams of agony making a horrid mix. the waves of yours bouncing and bending off the walls like boomerangs so the sound is doubled. alexei, who was coming back from the bathroom when you started, runs at you from behind with his ears covered and punches you in the spine full force. your scream stops as you turn to him, completely unfazed by the strength he just used on you. your hands unfurl, which they all watch in horror as a set of claws takes the place of your nails. with a swift swipe, before anyone can blink, heโs on the ground, clutching his bleeding chest. you turn on one foot, looking over your shoulder at the others with what can only be classified as an apex predator deciding they want prey. your sharp fang-esque teeth on full display, hair moved back revealing your thick sharp pointed ears. you may have looked human before, but that was obviously a rouse, or more like a mask. yelena and ava run up at the same time but in seconds the latter is knocked out cold with a broken arm, ribs, and nose while yelena manages to stab you. she watches wide eyed as your lips curl and you take it out, healing instantly. she canโt move back in time before you ram the blade into her side then drag it in a harsh upward motion along her insides. her screams echo as she falls clutching the handle while alexei yells for his daughter. bucky and john rush forward, using all their strength the serums granted them but itโs not enough. bucky already knew this. youโre indestructible, the main reason no one who knew you willingly fought you. the worst part about this is that your vision isnโt even that good in daylight. itโs okay, not great, yet youโre still handing their asses to them. itโs beyond humiliating.
โplease, decibel, please just stop! we canโt beat you, i know!โ you send john flying into the farthest wall, the sound of what was definitely his skull fracturing making a statement for you. facing the winter soldier whoโs neck you have a hand wrapped around, you lean in.
โthis is my home.โ a punch to his face, his nose cracking. โmy legacy.โ a knee to the crotch, making him legs cave. โmy familyโs name.โ you force his vibranium arm off with ease before beating him with it, his body crumpling to the floor unconscious.
left standing is bob who turns from a shy brunette wimp to a blonde, gold eyed, suit and cape clad hero. it doesnโt impress you, you who will go against anyone no matter what the odds lean toward. which is why you plant your feet before launching strategically forward. your ears pick up every single movement of his molecules, doing all the work for you. thereโs no catching you off guard, even with his movements being at the speed of light because you hear and move fast too. no matter how many hits he rains down on you, how many times you fly at eachother because of course you can fly, itโs like watching two brick walls fight. bucky is now conscious, applying pressure to yelenaโs wound. ava is awake though in extreme pain while alexei whoโs healing slower than expected is cradling her. sentry tries to break your back only for you to respond with a kick to the chest, which would shatter anyone elseโs entire leg, but not yours. it sends him back barely, his gold eyes narrowing. up until five minutes ago, there was no known rival to him power wise. he wants to go harder to show superiority, but due to keeping three people in his being at all times, him and bob begin to fight inside their mind. bob knows that youโre obviously a threat that the void is most fit to handle but letting him out would risk not being able to come back to himself. sentry, on the other hand, wants void to come out to put an end to you seeming better than him. itโs all that matters.
while the three-in-one are struggling, you see that his mental is weak, fragmented. the perfect advantage for you and the only one youโll get in a non-physical way. with the opening, you use this time to get your greatest weapon. the greatest weapon. given to you by your mother before thanos had gone to your planet are two plasma daggers. before the war with thanos, you had personalized them. made from your ability alone, you defied physics to craft them so they would cut through objects without noise. it worked which made you know it was destined for you to use them to slaughter your motherโs murderer. the embedded silence lead them to be completely undetected by molecules, sound, or vibration. meaning any type of defense whether itโs armor, magic, skin, or the strongest substance in the goddamn universe, if you time it correctly? youโre slicing through it like itโs paper. they glow an alien shade of white with black edges sharp enough to take off a finger with a swift movement, maybe more. continuing the brawl, you watch and listen for anything that could point to signs of him being too in his head to give his 100%. minutes pass as the other three watch, yelena and john having been taken out to the hospital by mel who snuck in. itโs terrifying to see how your entire body shifts in language once you finally sense the moment thatโll let you take him down. thereโs nothing holding you back from killing him. no morality code like all the other avengers, just an primitive โexterminate threatโ programming flowing through your entire being. the millisecond his eyes are seemingly distant, fighting with bob inside, you drive your daggers into him from behind right when heโs about to turn to stop you. the gold of his eyes flicker to brown then back as bob is forced to take the wheel, a choked sound leaving his lips. for the first time ever, blood actually spills from him and with your daggers in him, his immediate regeneration is stalling. a grit of your teeth and brace of you feet, you go to shove them upwards to reach his heart when a voice calls out your name calmly but stern.
โenough.โ you already know who it is, that he was even there when no one else did due to your all-hearing feat.
you ask, annoyed by your friend stopping you. โwhy?โ
strange approaches just slightly, glancing at the two super soldiers and girl in need of a quantum energy healing. โtheyโre not your enemies, you know that. theyโre stupid and naรฏve. but you can handle this legally before you have valentinaโs government organization after you.โ
โthen iโll take care of them too.โ
โi know you will, that you can. but i rather not have the sanctum raided with all the important ancient artifacts in my possession and under my care.โ his cape, the sentient little fuck has the audacity to move as if nodding in agreement with its master, which you roll your now back to normal eyes at, making the sorcerer chuckle.
you debate whether you actually want to listen or not. heโs the only one you call friend left, the one you mourned after losing in 2018. everyone else has abandoned you. if you follow through with killing this sweater wearing dweeb, you risk losing that. you canโt, not again. not intending to be nice about it, you pull the blades out of bobโs back harshly then kick the back of his knee making his knees cave and him fall. after a second of taking all the chaos and pain youโve caused, rightfully so in your mind, you turn to bucky.
โmy lawyer will be to you with subpoenas in the upcoming week. the government can back you all they want but i have time. and the resources. for now, all the entire north building is mine. i expect not to be bothered unless itโs you all telling me youโre getting the hell out of my home.โ
with nothing said in the following silence, you let your bat features retract completely and fly to the other side of the building, sliding in a window you always keep open on the 43rd floor. you pay the doctor no mind as you set your bag down and go to the lab table to wipe your blades off.
โhow was your mission?โ
โtheyโve all been dealt with.โ
his eyes follow you before nodding, knowing your ears will pick it up. โgood. iโm glad youโre back. itโs not the same without you and yourโฆโ
you raise a brow, expression saying to pick his next words carefully.
โyour intensity. believe it or not, some people appreciate the fact that you do what others canโt. and iโm not just buttering you up because youโre one of the most powerful people alive right now.โ
you scoff, โright, itโs because you need something. like i said before, iโm not babysitting that kid. sheโll be ready to rule planets by the time you come to pick her up.โ
stephen takes a pop tart from your bag with the help of his cloak, saying โno, i wouldnโt ask again. i need you to get wong out of the sanctum for a few hours so i can decorate for his ceremony. take him to that cat cafe, he could spend all day in that place if someone let him, not that heโd admit it.โ
wrench in hand, you reply flatly. โso babysitting this time a grown man. you really do hate me. fine, but i want a book from that mite crawling library.โ
โdeal.โ
you hum, โgoodbye, doctor.โ
โgoodbye, decibel. try to keep your murder to a minimum.โ
Synopsis, Spider wasnโt the first human born on Pandora, but he was the first to grow up on it. You had Neytiriโs heart long before Jake came along, and youโd have both of theirs long after. The problem is, humans werenโt meant for Pandora. Even so, Eywa saw you, and it seems like she accepted you. Maybe that's why, even after being without you for so long, they saw you again.
WC: 10.5k (oh wow)
inspired by @jsooly taken in by the sullys series!
A/N: I wrote this quite literally at 5 am, and it's drastically different from my usual writing style, but I like it! Very bittersweet! and written with the assumption that whoever is reading this knows about Sylwanin and her lore.
You were born to a soldier on Pandora, a Seargant who seemed unbothered by her pregnancy during her term. The RDA wasnโt progressive, not at all, but they werenโt so cruel (at least to their own race) that theyโd force a pregnant woman into work. Your mother simply made the decision to keep working, no matter how unsafe it was.
After she gave birth to you, she seemedโฆ inattentive at best. She took maternity leave for the required period of time and got back into the action once she was cleared, leaving you essentially alone. It wasnโt long after her redeployment that she was killed in action along with the rest of her squad. An unfortunate accident in the dangerous wilds of Pandora
So, motherless and unclaimed by a father, you were orphaned. Too young for Cryo, they let you stay. Your mother's room became yours and yours alone.ย
Of course, the RDA base was no place for a child. Ill-equipped and non-accommodative. The higher-ups reasoned that youโd best be left to the scientists and doctors. Theyโd know how to take care of a kid best, right?
Of course, no one really paid much attention to you. Giving the minimum attention necessary to keep you alive, lest they carry the guilt of neglecting an infant to death.
Grace wasnโt sure what to think of you when you were put in her care. She was a scientist, not a babysitter. Her focus was on the Naโvi, their way of life, and the organisms living on Pandora. She didnโt have time to look after a kid.
You were shucked off onto some lower-level scientists and assistants. She didnโt hear much from you other than your crying, which was always met with swift confinement to your room with your current caretaker.ย
Eventually, though, you became autonomous. You were quick, slippery, and curious. The ones in charge of you didnโt pay much attention, which led to you sneaking around. Once, finding your way into Grace's lab.
She found you at her desk, standing on her chair in only an ill-fitting t-shirt and diapers, leaning over and staring at the projection of various pictures she had up.ย
Grace wasnโt cruel; she may not have wanted to be responsible for you, but she held the same fondness for kids that most did.
Carefully, she picked you up, sitting you in her lap, and asked you what you were doing.
โPic!โ Is all you blurted out, head turned around, and staring at her with your wide and curious eyes. Grace chuckled, nodding as she hummed and affirmed your babbles.
You spent the rest of that day in her hold, watching as she scrolled through the pictures and videos she had in the database, explaining, in the most child-friendly way, the ones you were interested in.ย
Being just over a year old, you werenโt still in her lap. Wriggling around, grabbing at her and objects, even standing up in her lap and jumping up and down, which she swiftly stopped. Despite all this, Grace was patient with you. Perhaps it was your curiosity for Pandora that softened her, the fact that you were interested in something sheโd devoted her life to researching.ย
A new brain to fill, maybe.
So, you made frequent trips to the lab after that. Slipped past your caretakers and crawling into Grace or Maxโs laps, whoever was available, and babbling on and on. You werenโt the center of attention or a priority, but you became somewhat of a soft spot for Grace and her fellow scientists. Not as much of a burden, anymore.
It wasnโt long before you started picking up on the Naโvi phrases being used, especially once you discovered the parts of the lab dedicated more towards the avatars and culture of the Naโvi. Grace, ever the enabler of your interest in Pandora, started speaking to you in almost strictly Naโvi.
Being so young, you picked up on it incredibly quickly, nearly at the same speed as English, which youโd only really started learning a month or two prior.
It was cute to them, having a little human baby babbling in Naโvi and focusing so intently on the fauna and flora you saw in catalogs. Some even joked that your bedtime book should be the one Grace wrote.ย
They called you the LabRat around the base. A term of endearment, of course. Many knew about you, the loose kid on base who scurried around and spent almost as much time in the lab as the scientists. You were cute. But really, thatโs all you were to them, a cute kid.ย
But to Grace? Somewhere along the way, she grew more fond of you than sheโd expected. She ate with you at breakfast, watching you messily eat out of the corner of her eye as she held conversations with the other scientists. You stuck to her side, only ever really leaving it when you wanted to be with Max or go to sleep. Even then, she often had to carry you to your room multiple times throughout the day when you fell asleep in her lap.
You spent a lot of time with Max, too. Whenever Grace was in her Avatar, which was often, you found yourself with him. He was always a little softer with you, having been more fond and sympathetic with you earlier on.ย
He treated you more like a kid than most others. He didnโt really try to feed your curiosity with Pandora, instead focusing on the fact that you were a deprived orphan child. He was the most suited to take care of you, probably.ย
At some point, you found your way into the Avatar lab, watching through the windows. No one really saw it coming, but you escaped. With your little mask that was slightly too big for your face, you ran out the door, gunning right for Graceโs Avatar.ย
They didnโt really think youโd recognize her, but you did, and you wanted to see her. Of course, you were a little intimidated by her drastic change in appearance and height, but at this point, you knew about the Naโvi and Avatars, so you didnโt have much of a problem.
Grace, in her Avatar form, was perhaps even more loving towards you. Maybe it was the youth of the body, or the fact that she had her own internal favoritism for it, but she seemed happier. Something you picked up on quickly.ย
You loved being outside. No longer were you content being cooped up in the lab, you wanted to see the forest! Of course, they werenโt exactly ok with the idea, but your crying eventually convinced them.
Grace decided to take you to the school. Sheโd made excellent progress with the Omaticaya through the school, maybe it would be good to start introducing some direct human contactโฆ through you. And she figured it could be good for your development, meeting beings that werenโt just inattentive scientists and soldiers.
With your mask on and sporting your cutest clothes, Grace took you to the school. The Naโvi kids were unsure about you at first, with their adverse feelings about Skypeople, but eventually they opened up.ย
You were small, so incredibly small. Even the young children had no problems holding and cradling you. You were cute in your own, human, way.
They were intrigued by the fact that your Naโvi was as good as your English. Granted, neither were particularly good, seeing as you were a toddler, but it's the fact that they were at the same level that they admired.
Sylwanin was especially interested in you, often taking you in her arms, cooing and coddling you.ย
โSaโnok, sheโs so small!โ Sheโd exclaim to Grace, whoโd laugh in response.
โWell, sheโs human. Youโre probably at least 2 feet taller than my human body, and Iโm an adult.โ She leaned over Sylwanin, smiling down at the scene. โSheโs just a younginโ, not even 2 years old.โ
From then on, you were a regular addition to Graceโs school and a personal favorite of Sylwanin and Neytiri. The two sisters absolutely adored you. Cooing over you and your babbles, sitting you in between them or on one of their laps during the lessons.
Often, theyโd sit in the back with you, giggling at your tiny body and antics, brushing your hair, or watching as you fiddled with whatever toy or objects you could get your hands on.ย
Between your time in the lab and out at the school, you were the first human to be culturally raised Naโvi. It was fascinating to Grace.ย
Tsuโtey was cautious of you at first, unsure of how to handle how small and frail you were. But out of everything, you were also incredibly persistent and curious. Somehow, you found yourself worming your way into Tsuโteyโs arms, waddling up to him and demanding he pick you up through body language.
Sylwanin found this utterly adorable, how youโd stand there and โHmf!โ until he reached down and picked you up. He didnโt really know how to hold you, hands tucked under your armpits, torso and legs dangling in the air, but you crawled your way around him, finding yourself sitting on his shoulders. Well, shoulder, to be exact. You could comfortably sit on one, granted it was with one of his hands on your legs to keep your balance while you grabbed onto his braids.
โTey-Teyโ โWaninโ and โTiriโ you called them, not really able to pronounce their full names. They, of course, didnโt care, cooing at the babble of nicknames you gave them.ย
In turn, they started to call you โSyulรฌ'angโ, a butterfly-like insect that was known for its characteristic claws that latched it onto whatever it landed on. A fitting nickname, they all thought.ย
Their sweet Syulรฌ'ang. Tsuโtey was more or less simply amused by you once he was comfortable. He wasn't as doting as Sylwanin or Neytiri or some of the others; he liked you, but it was more or less than he was entertained by you.ย
Of course, that changed the more you stuck around. By the time youโd learned to walk well enough to walk to the school yourself, with Grace accompanying you, of course, he was always waiting by the doorway. Heโd give a simple nod to Grace when the pair of you came into view, and he tried to remain stoic as you ran forward, your small body knocking into his tall legs and calling out his name, but Grace, and just about anyone else who really knew him, could see through it.ย
You spent your developmental years at the school, growing up so quickly that the Naโvi kids didnโt know what to do. When they first met you, you could barely walk, and all you could really do was babble and string together words, but years passed, and you began holding conversations and moving around fairly fluidly.ย
Of course, you were still small and babyish, still just a toddler, but toddlers grew and changed fast.ย
You were like their baby sister. Tsmuke, they called you. To them, you were really no different from another Naโvi kid. You spoke fluently, you were young and saw the world in a manner that seemed to reflect their own cultural point of view, perhaps from your exposure to it.ย
Grace couldnโt really place when she started to love you. Maybe it was when you first called her โSaโnokโ, copying the kids at the schoolhouse. Maybe it was when that transformed into โSaโnuโ, or when it became โmamaโ when back in the lab. Maybe it was that day you first caught her attention, having snuck into the lab and into her heart.
She never corrected you when you called her those things, even when she got odd stares from the others around when you did. They just didnโt get it. They were too wrapped up in their own world. And yeah, so was she, but at some point, you became a part of her world.ย
She didnโt really think of herself as your parent, but she didnโt mind if you thought of her as one. She wasnโt really the nicest; she was definitely more of a โtough loveโ kind of parental figure, but that wasnโt really all that bad.ย
Pandora wasnโt suited for you. You werenโt supposed to be there, and it wasnโt a good place for you by any means. You werenโt given proper attention or affection, and when you were, it wasn't consistent. Grace and Max, and the Naโvi kids werenโt role model family figures, but they tried, and they loved you, no matter howโฆ odd it was.ย
At some point, youโd met Moโat and Eytukan. Likely, theyโd heard of you from their daughters and Tsuโtey. It was hard to tell what they thought of you, after all, they had their own reservations about the humans, only allowing the school to function due to Sylwanin's request.ย
But they liked you enough. You were a kid, a toddler, innocent in what was being done to their planet. You didnโt deserve to be on the receiving end of any prejudice they held towards the humans. You spoke the language and learned beside their children. You seemed to love the forest as if it were your own home.
Formally, you met Moโat when you fell down and scraped yourself while running out of the school, being chased by Sylwanin. You cried, of course, but Sylwanin, as calm as ever, simply scooped you up and told Grace she was taking you to her mother to get fixed up, running off before she could object.
You watched the Tsahik in awe as she worked on you, rubbing a salve on your wounds, her jewelry and beadings clinking together as she did so. You watch her in silence, Sylwanin giggling at your entranced demeanor. At the end, climbing back into Sylwaninโs arms, you turned and told Moโat she was magnificent. A big word for your age.ย
Moโat had to admit, you were a charming little kid.ย
Neytiri was especially charmed by you, often taking you from anyone else's arms to hold you in hers. It became a running joke that sheโd adopt and steal you away if she could. She never denied it.
You could always be found fiddling with her hair or necklaces, pulling at them or putting them in your mouth. Neytiri, despite not liking your actions, was patient with you, simply giggling as she pulled it from your grasp and pointed your attention elsewhere.
Some people on base started to voice complaints about you being out too much. Being gifted jewelry and pieces by Sylwanin and Neytiri, and one piece from Tsuโtey, you began dressing in them every day.ย
Of course, the complaints went nowhere, being no more than off-hand comments made by people who had no role or responsibility in your upbringing. As loved as you were, you were still overlooked more often than not, just an orphan kid who wandered in and out of the base. Outside of Grace, Max, and a few other scientists, no one really cared.
You had your routine. Getting up, spending time with Max before running out with Grace to the school. The school was your favorite place, you often told Neytiri and Tsuโtey in giddy whispers. You felt free and loved. It was your place.
When Sylwanin stopped showing up, you were sad. You missed her. Really, she was your favorite.ย
You didnโt understand why you stopped going to the school, why Grace started arguing with a bunch of the soldiers more often, and why you were no longer allowed outside of the base. You cried a lot, saying you wanted your Tsmukeโs and Tsmukan. You wanted to go to the school, you wanted to see Neytiri and Sylwanin and Tsuโtey and the others.ย
You cried when a scientist, tired of your whining, told you they probably didnโt want to see you.
Grace had a hard time comforting you. She didnโt know what to say, struggling with her own grief and guilt in the whole situation. All she could do was hold you and tell you that things were going to be okay.ย
It was a while before you stopped crying so much. You still whined about wanting to go outside, but you learned to stop when asked. You spent your nights fiddling with the gifts from Neytiri and Sylwanin, the jewelry they crafted for you, the toy Moโat gifted you once, and the Ikran Tsuโtey carved for you out of wood. They were your most treasured pieces.ย
You worked on your own gifts for them, on and off, through the two years you spent without them.ย
You were six by the time Jake came around. You became attached to him very quickly.ย
Heโd just made it to base and was getting filled in by Norm. His introduction to Grace wasnโt going well, bordered by her hostility towards him being there in place of his brother. Before he could say anything else, you bounded into the room.ย
โSa'nu! sa'nu! 'ur 'upe oe run!โ Mama! Mama! Look what I found! You yelled, stopping at her feet and shoving an insect you were cradling in your palm into her face.ย
She glanced at the bug and tilted her head, raising a brow at you. โ Y/n, nga kame nga're ke tung wrrpa, โitetsyip.โ You know youโre not allowed outside, little one.
You pouted, stomping your foot. โOe ke wrrkรค! tsal pamรคhem ne oe.โ I didn't go out! It came to me. You insisted. Grace merely rolled her eyes with a grin as she ruffled your hair.ย
Jake looked at Norm, confused, who translated a lazy โsheโs showing her a bug.โ for him.ย
As if you just noticed their presence, you awkwardly glanced at the two, shyly shuffling behind Grace. Jake glanced between you and Grace before leaning in.ย
โWhatโs that you got there?โ He asked, smiling as he watched your facial expression change. Before he knew it, you were launched into a whole explanation about the bug. It's name, both scientific and Naโvi, and all the fun little characteristics you noticed and pointed out to him.ย
It was easy to tell who youโre favorite was going to be among the newest science recruits. You became quick friends with the ex-Marine, demanding his attention whenever he wasnโt busy.ย
You were an interesting little thing. Energetic as all could be, running around like you owned the place, switching between languages so casually as if they were one. Jake paid more attention to you in a week than most of the people on base had in your entire life.ย
Heโd come by your room, peaking in as you played with your toys or read a book you definitely didnโt actually understand. As soon as you noticed his presence, youโd abandon whatever it was you were doing to run to him, hoisting yourself up into his lap.
โWhat's up, little bug?โ Heโd say, smiling down at you as you went on and on about whatever it is you wanted to talk about. Most of it went right over his head, but he listened nonetheless. He got the memo pretty early on that you were essentially left to your own devices, only helped with the bare minimum by people who didnโt want to be responsible for you
So, he started being more attentive towards you. Call it fatherly instincts, he calls it common empathy. You didnโt have any plans or expectations for him, you werenโt disappointed in his presence in place of his brothers, you simply looked up at him with those wide and love-filled eyes. That was all he needed to become hooked. His little bug, he liked to call you.
To Norm, Jake had adapted a fatherly role scarily quickly. Of course, Norm thought you were cute, but he wasnโt really sure what to do with you. It puzzled him how well Jake was with you, for only knowing you for a few days. How you crawled into his lab during one of the briefings, obviously tired but wanting to be involved.ย
The briefing was casual, so Jake wrapped his arms around you and cradled you, rocking you in his arms as he hummed a lullaby heโd grown up with on Earth.
It was the first time someone had sung you a lullaby, at least since you were a crying infant everyone was desperate to soothe. You fell asleep in his arms immediately. Grace only gave a passing glance and a chuckle, stating he was now on bedtime duty.ย
And that he was. You were a stubborn kid when it came to bedtime, fighting your own sleep and exhaustion because you wanted to be where the attention was. You didnโt want to miss out on any of Grace or Maxโs briefings or discoveries, no matter how dull they were, or the fact that they didnโt really happen after hours. Nevertheless, you were difficult to put to sleep.ย
He was quickly called the Y/n Whisperer after he calmed you down from a tantrum and had you knocked out in bed within 10 minutes of you being told to go to sleep, an affair that often took at least half an hour and some strong bargaining.ย
Jake was still reeling from it all. For him, he was still dealing with the fact that his brother was dead and heโd taken his place on a scientific mission on Pandora, whisked away from his dystopic life on Earth and given a brand new chance. It was dizzying, and now he had a kid attached to his leg.ย
Call it what it was: whiplash. He doesnโt really understand why you liked him so much, why he was able to connect with you so well. Maybe it was because he was the first person to spare you a second glance in your entire life, a second glance you didnโt have to work and beg for.ย
If given the chance, Jake was sure you two would be absolutely inseparable.
It was during dinner that things shifted. You were there for Jake's recounting of the events that transpired after he got chansed off by a Thanator. Through it all, all you heard was that heโd met Neytiri.ย
Neytiri. Your Neytiri.
You missed her. You missed her so bad, and Jake got to see her. It had been two years, and you thought for sure there was no way youโd be able to see her again. But Jake saw her! He even went to the village, so he likely saw Tsuโtey, Moโat, and Sylwanin!ย
Seeing them was possible. That was the conclusion you came to.ย
Tsuโtey was the one to find you the next day. You had snuck out, exopack secured on for the first time in nearly two years, and you set off. Your memory was hazy, and you hardly remembered your way through the forest.
Scratch that, you didnโt remember it at all. You got lost almost immediately, your excitement to see your friends slowly replaced with uncertainty and fear. You wandered through the woods, climbing across logs and rivers, becoming more and more sure that you werenโt going the right wayโฆ
Of course, you didnโt know what to do. No one could really blame you for how you started crying out, yelling for Neytiri, Tsuโtey, Sylwanin, Grace, whoever you thought could find you.ย
It wasnโt until you heard the growl that you regretted your decision to be so loud. Nantang. They surrounded you, stalking and getting ready to pounce. All you could do was scream.
Tsuโtey found you, following the distant yelling for familiar names and then the high-pitched screams. He shot the Nantang, scaring off the others as he rode in on his paโli. He was ready to shoot you, the human who had trespassed onto their land, but he paused. Arrow resting between his fingers, and breath hitched.
It was you.
He was quick, dismounting his direhorse and scooping you up in his arms, doing his best to soothe you with soft words as you cried and writhed in his hold. Blood was everywhere. He was horrified.
He acted on pure impulse. Jake. Jake probably knew you. He was also human, and he was an avatar- so he probably knew Grace- he had to get you to Jake.
So he rode on his direhorse as fast as he could, holding you tightly in his arms as you bled and bled and cried. Oh, how you cried, clinging to him and whimpering, he felt so helpless. Exactly like how heโd felt that day Sylwanin died in his arms at the school house. He couldnโt have that happen again. Not with you. Not with the small girl heโd grown so fond of.ย
It was a blur, finding Jake and Neytiri, the morphing look of terror on their faces as they took in the sight of the girl in his arms and his disjointed explanation. It was a blur, and he was on his knees, Neytiri holding onto him as they both shook, taking in the situation as Jake ran off into the woods with you in his arms, pushing himself as fast as he could go.ย
Jake was scared. You were such a sweet girl, and in the days heโd known you, he was hooked. You were small, petulant, stubborn, smart; you were a good kid. You were funny and fun to be around, and he liked you. He saw why Grace had such a soft spot for you, who wouldnโt?
But now youโre in his arms, bleeding, and Grace is gonna be horrified.ย
He got you to the base, bursting through the doors, demanding a doctor, yelling you needed help because you were hurt and bleeding. You were small, hurt, bleeding, and it felt like you were at death's door.
You were swept out of his arms, and all you could do was whimper, reaching back out to the strong arms you felt safe in. They hooked you up to machines, tended to your wounds. They assured Jake and a just-arriving-frazzled Grace that you were gonna be fine.ย
But the base wasnโt a hospital. Yeah, it was a military base, and those often come with medical centers, but it wasnโt good, especially not for a child. With how advanced they were, they werenโt well equipped.
You suffered for days, writhing and screaming in pain, tears only stopping once you ran out of them.ย
Despite Grace and Maxโs pleas and Jake's insistence towards Quaritch, you were essentiallyโฆ ignored.
You were loved. But you were still just a bastard orphaned child; the RDA simply didnโt want to deal with you, especially with your seemingly growing allegiance to the Naโvi.
Of course, they did what they could to help you, but it was minimal.ย
You were going to die, Grace and Jake were sure of it.
So, desperate, he went to Moโat. He pleaded for her to help you. She didnโt need much convincing.
The night before Grace planned to move the operation to the Hallelujah Mountains, they snuck you out, careful to remove all your hook-ups to the machines.ย
They took you to the village, breaking so many rules, desperate to help you.ย
You were frail, withering away in his hold. The best he could do was whisper comforts as he carried you.ย
Moโat worked quickly, shooing them out of her tent as she worked on you. Salves, mixes, incense. She worked for hours. You were just a little kid; you had so much before you. She pleaded to the Great Mother to help you, even if you were a human she could barely reach.ย
You were getting better, but it wasnโt enough. Something was wrong, very wrong, and she didnโt know what it was or how to help.
She pulled away, examining you with a hitched breath. Just as she went to move to grab another tool, something caught her attention.ย
An Atokirina.
It floated in the air, pulsing until it wilted down to meet your skin.ย
Moโatโs eyes widened.ย
โWe must take her to the Tree of Souls.โ She declared as she stepped out of her tent, the group that had gathered in front of it standing and moving in confusion.
They wanted to question it. Jake wanted to ask what was wrong, how you were doing, and if youโd live. All the words were on the tip of his tongue, but Grace grabbed his hand. She kept her gaze forward, at the tent, but sheโd communicated enough.
Tsuโtey was the one to take you into his arms, lips pursed, and eyes gazing down at you in worry. For a moment, Jake wanted to be the one to hold you, but you curled into Tsuโteys arms so comfortably- so familiar, a moment of comfort and assurance when you were in so much pain.
Neytiri followed close behind, hand resting on your forehead as they walked, her eyes focused on your face scrunched in agony, your pinched brows and wavering lips. How she wanted to soothe you, to hold you, and kiss away the creases of pain in your face.ย
Youโd grown so much since theyโd last seen you. You were still so small, but so much more grown. They had missed you so much, their grief compelled by the loss of two sisters. They nearly begged Moโat and Eytukan to call off the ban on humans on their land, if only to see you.
And now, you were back in their arms, but by the force of necessity and desperation. Out of the fear of death.ย
The clan, having roused at the commotion, made their way to the Tree of Souls with the group. They didnโt question their Tsahikโs care of the human child, many of them having heard the accounts of you and your kindred nature from the many children whoโd attended the school.
Arriving at the Tree, Neytiri and Tsuโtey kept Grace and Jake at a distance, allowing Moโat to prepare as the clan gathered around. They pulled Jake and Grace down to the ground with them, connecting their Kuru to the roots sticking up. They started to hum, moving as a group.ย
With everything in them, they begged Eywa to help you.
You were human, yes, but they loved you. You were their sister. You were Grace's daughter, by love if not biology. You were a sweet kid, and they wanted- needed you to stay.ย
โAllow this child to heal, Great Mother, allow her to heal and walk among us. To live, to feel your embrace.โ Moโatโs words echoed, her chants and pleas thrumming through the crowd.ย
Placed at the base of the spirit tree, you lay there, wrapped in luminescent tendrils. They wrapped around your small body, seemingly consuming you as they grew. The light of the tendrils pulsed with your every breath, echoing across the tree like a ripple in water.ย
Youโฆ you felt free. The tendrils were warm, encasing you in what felt like a mother's embrace. Your vision was blurred, but you saw.ย You saw so much, all you could do was smile. You saw Sylwanin, every time youโd seen her, every word, every movement. She wrapped around you. You saw the sea, you saw the forest and the land. It was breathtaking.
Moโat faltered, her chants falling off the tip of her tongue as she glanced down at you. At this, the ones whoโd brought you here opened their eyes.
They didnโt know what to do.ย
You were there, alive. More alive than youโd ever been, but they could feel that you were slipping away.ย
Neytiri crawled towards you, Grace scrambling up and finding herself at your side. She took your hand in hers as Neytiri caressed your hair.
They knew it was a desperate attempt, taking you here, unlikely to work, but it hurt. They werenโt ready to let go. The humans werenโt going to help you. What else were they to do?ย
Tears slid down Graceโs face as she watched you, your eyes glazed over as a smile crept onto your lips.ย
โY/n- Syulรฌ'ang please-โ Neytiri whispered, her voice cracking. She leaned down, placing a kiss on your forehead. โStayโ she begged
โSyulรฌ'ang,โ Tsuโtey choked out, pleading, biting back his words, and tears with them. โBe strong, stay with us.โ
You heard their words. You wanted to reach up, to comfort them. Grace was right in front of you, and all you wanted was to reach up and wipe the tears off her face.ย
Grace cried. Silent, of course. Tears slipping down her cheeks like arrows of fire burning their way through the air. They hurt like it. She wondered if theyโd scar, if there would be a trail of scarred flesh down her cheeks when she was done.ย
You were her child, at least, the closest she had to one. You were the best thing sheโd had in a long time. And now, you were slipping away. Like the school, like Sylwanin, like Neytiri and Tsuโtey and the children whoโd called her Saโnok. You called her Saโnu.
The grief was endless. A fountain pouring from Neytiri as she wept, hands shaking as she tried to fight the urge to take you into her arms. Sheโd seen you grow up, your words develop from babbles to sentences, your mind expand. She wore the bracelet youโd made for her. It was ill-fitting and poorly crafted, but she weaved it into her armband, careful to preserve its shape and structure. She meant to always have you with her, even if she couldn't physically.ย
You were more than a child she saw as a sister; you could have been her child. A ridiculous notion, but she felt so strongly about you. She wanted to take you in, hold you close, and carry you as she did her chores and duties. She wanted to hunt and bring it home for you to eat till you were full. Perhaps, to her, you were an odd mixture of a sister and child, but that just meant she loved you all the more.
Her sweet Syulรฌ'ang. Sheโd named you after the insect, a beautiful creature that fluttered around and gripped onto surfaces when it meant to. She wished and wished and wished that you'd stay, that youโd grip onto the ground and stay there with her. She did not like humans, but you? You, she loved.
So it hurt, watching as your eyes closed, feeling your pulse slow, have you die right in front of her, right in her reach.ย
Your eyes, heavy, rose up to the sky. โSaโnu, Tsmuke, Tsmukan, Jake-โ Your words were quiet, strained, and heavy. But you spoke anyway, a warmth passing through your body. โEywa, sheโsโ It was hard to speak. โSheโs like the waves-โ your breath released from your lips, cutting off your words.
The tendrils around you pulsed before they dulled, the light dimming across the Tree of Souls.
Jake could only hold Neytiri as she cried, his own tears falling as he felt his entire demeanor freeze.
They left you by the tree, something Grace opposed. But Moโat had insisted it was Eywaโs wish. Jake and Grace werenโt happy, nor were Tsuโtey and Neytiri; they wanted to give you a proper burial, but they complied with their Tsahikโs declaration.
It was mere days later that Neytiri visited again, only to be met with an empty landscape. You were nowhere in sight, only an abundance of tendrils in your place, pulsing with light as Eywa breathed below them.
Ronal, for weeks, dreamed of a face. A human one. Sheโd never seen the girl before, unfamiliar with the face and voice she kept meeting in her dreams. It bothered her, being met so forcefully with a demon's face, but behind it, she felt the Great Mother's words.ย
She couldnโt make sense of it; it drove her wild how she prayed and prayed, and all she was met with were new visions of the girl. With a newborn baby, she felt stretched thin. She confided in Tonowari about her dreams. He did what he could to comfort her, putting in effort to relieve her of as much stress as he could.ย
Ronal prayed, seeking answers and clarity. What did the Great Mother want?
One night, she dreamed of the spirit tree, along with the girl. She dreamt of whispers, of a new face, of a young Metkayina child she held in her arms.ย
She woke up in a cold sweat, right as dawn rose in the sky.ย
She made her way through the village, mounting her tsurak, and traveled to the cove of the ancestors. She felt a weight in her chest as she arrived. She dove under, swimming through the featherlike branches as she made her way to the center of the tree.ย
She reached forward, placing her palms on the branches wrapped tightly in on itself. Slowly, she unwrapped it, pulling it away from the other โleavesโ wrapped around. Once she got to the center, she pulled back.
An infant lay in the middle, wrapped in the leaves. Slowly, she pulled it out, taking it into her arms, she swam up. Breaching the surface, she looked down, watching as the baby breathed in the air.ย
The first breath.
Ronal gazed down at the baby, brows pinched together as she took her in. Confusion was the least she could describe it as.ย
A moment passed. Ronal mounted her tsurak, and she returned home.
Whispers surrounded her as she walked through the village, eyes following her and landing on the unknown infant in her embrace. In the mere minutes sheโd had the baby, she felt an overwhelming sense of maternal instinct towards it. She reasoned she felt that way about most babies, but this was stronger.
She approached her Marui, Tonowari, meeting her at the entrance. He gazed down at her, then the baby, confusion panting his face. He opened his mouth to speak, but nothing came out, stuck in the flurry of words he was trying to put together.
โThe Great Mother brought her to me,โ Ronal spoke, calm and melodic. โTo us.โ Tonowari gazed up at her.ย
Words exchanged between them in complete silence.ย
He nodded, stepping aside, allowing Ronal to enter the Marui.ย
The two took to their daughter quickly, entranced by the baby given to them by Eywa. They were lost, confused by her appearance, but they didnโt question it. They simply placed her in the cradle with their other baby, Aoโnung, watching as they turned and curled to hold each other.
โYou dreamt of her.โ Tonowariโs voice broke the silence.
Ronal, attention on the baby's unwavering, nodded. โLast night, yes.โ
He looked to his wife, tentative as he examined her facial expression. โAnd the others?โ He questioned.ย
There was a moment of silence, Ronalโs hand coming to rest on the edge of the cradle.ย
โI do not care. She is my daughter. She is ours now.โ
Tonowari stared at his wife before nodding, reaching down to cup his daughter's face in his hand. โAnd what is our daughter's name?โ He spoke, already transfixed by the infant lying in the cradle he crafted by hand.ย
Ronal tilted her head, watching the girl. After a moment, she gazed to Tonowar, their eyes meeting as a soft smile graced her lips.
โSyuliโ
After your death, Jakeโs loyalty to the RDA wavered. Grace had accepted her fate as a trapped scientist long ago, but Jake refused. He bonded with Neytiri and Tsuโtey quicker, earning the faith of the clan before he finished his Iknimaya.ย
He saw it in black and white. The humans left you alone and to die, the Naโvi loved you as their own and wept at your death. His decision was clear-cut.
Still, his fast actions werenโt enough to prevent the events that led to Neytiriโs belief of his betrayal. Or the destruction of the home tree. Or the death of those he fought by.
By the end of the war, your death was followed by many others. Black stains on Jakeโs heart. He mourned you, grieved for you. The devastation of the war was hard enough, but you? You werenโt even a casualty; you were a victim of the most unfortunate of circumstances. He replayed it in his head over and over again, each time wondering what he could have done to save you, to prevent your death.ย
It drove him to the worst of his depths. A side of himself he hadnโt even seen when his brother died.ย
The only thing keeping him afloat was Neytiri and the child that lay in her womb.
โShe is with Grace now, my Jake, with the Great Mother.โ Neytiri would say, burying her grief. Twice, she's lost you now. When Sylwanin died and her parents shut down their connections with the humans, she wept for not only her sister but for you. Would she never see you again? At least back then, she found comfort in the fact that you were safe and in Graceโs care.ย
Perhaps you still were, in her arms, just as you are in the Great Mothers. But youโre not in hers. Thatโs what hurt. How youโd never grow up, forever stuck as the small child she knew and loved.ย
Time passed, and she had Neteyam. Her sweet baby boy. She felt the cracks in her heart start to be stitched back together, only further healed when they took in Kiri.ย
She saw it in Jake, too, how he took to his fatherly role immediately, perhaps better prepared after his time with you. Slowly but surely, they came to be okay again.ย
Still, you burned in their hearts. As she wove her songcord, she pulled one of the beads from the bracelet you made her, as carefully as she could, and wove it in.ย
Aโeveng, Y/n, ohe oamumย
Wamintxu fi oe, a syawn
aโatanur oe mameyamย
meyam ohe ngenga, tsalsungay pehrr lom
A child, Y/n, i knew
showed to me, a blessing
a light I held in my arms
I hold you, even when gone
It was hard to speak about you to the kids. They didnโt want to introduce the idea of someone dying at such a young age. They also still grieved you, struggling to accept your death. It wasnโt fair. You should be with them, growing up alongside their children. You would have been such a good big sister.
This hit Jake especially hard, knowing how youโd been excited to have another kid on base; Spider. You raved to him about how you were going to bring him to the lab all the time, what toys youโd give him, and how you wanted to teach him Naโvi and have him as a little brother. At least, the closest you could have to one.
So it was hard watching Spider do all that, grow up and learn Naโvi, come into his family and be seen by his kids as a fellow sibling, knowing it was everything you wanted.ย
But years passed, and their family grew, and it grew strong. Their children knew of you in passing, in hushed breaths like how they spoke of Sylwanin and the others theyโd loved that left them through such harsh tragedies.ย
Neytiri and Jake didnโt want the children to wonder what it would have been like to have you in the family. It was already too painful for them to wonder themselves.
Their children grew, their personalities developed, and they came into their own. It was hard not to see you in each of them. Tukโs curiosity, Loโakโs mischief, the softness in Kiriโs eyes, and how Neteyam was so thoughtful with his words. For all its hurt, it also gave them comfort. Theyโd continue to see you, even when you werenโt with them.ย
Their grief became something mellow, something they could plant love and strength into.
But then the RDA came back. Like an old scar tearing apart, refusing to heal. Their lives turned upside down, and their healing came to a harsh halt, slowly stepping backwards against the blood and gunfire they stood in.
That eclipse, when the kids were in the hands of the recoms, Jake felt barbed wire wrapping around his throat.ย
He heard their whines, their yelps of pain, and he almost lost them. He refused to risk it. Not again.
โHe had our children. Had them under his knife.โ He was scared, begging Neytiri to leave, to find a better place for them. He hadnโt been able to find one for you. He wouldnโt let that happen again. โLook, I got nothingโฆ I've got no plan. But I can protect this family. That I can do.โ
Neytiri heard the unsaid, seeing what he saw when he spoke.ย
โBut I do know one thing, wherever we go, this family is our fortress.โ It was unintentional, his hands placed delicately on her shoulders, one slipping down, grazing the armband sheโd woven with your bracelet in it.
They had to protect their children.ย
The Travel to the Metkayina was difficult, tiring, laborious, and met with storms that raged against them. But they pushed through. Theyโve pushed through worse; theyโd do this for their family.
They landed on the beach, drawing the attention of the clan, who gathered around them in confusion and awe. They were nervous, holding themselves close together as they were gawked at and picked on by oncoming clan members.
Jake felt a sense of relief when Tonowari, an honorable man and the clan's Oloโeyktan, arrived at the scene, greeting them warmly and with a smile. He felt confident, with Tonowari on their side, he believed he could get past the wall Ronal would inevitably put up.
As the crowd parted, he prepared himself, but he felt all the breath be taken out of his lungs.
Ronal stalked closer, her imposing demeanor, but that wasnโt what shocked him. Behind her, following at her heels, was a young girl. Teal skin with swirling stripes.
She resembled you.ย
He couldnโt place it; the girl was Metkayina, in every way. But something about her face, the way her expression was set in it, how she carried herself. The air around her, the look in her eyes. All of it set off bells in his chest, ringing and clanging against the grief that settled there. The grief for you.ย
She stood behind Ronal, tilting her head exactly the way you did when you were curious about something.ย
Neytiri had seen it hundreds of times, holding you in her lap at the schoolhouse. She let out a breath. Jake glanced at her, millions of words passing between them.
She saw it too.
Jake took a moment to collect himself, pulling back from the shock heโd experienced but couldnโt explain. He went on with his prepared speech. He was seeking Uturu; sanctuary, safety for his family.ย
His veins were buzzing. He didnโt want to be turned away, to force his children to retreat in defeat, praying theyโd find another clan willing to listen and take them in. He felt helpless.
Ronal, skeptical, circled the family. She pulled at their tails, remarking how inefficient theyโd be in the water, in their way of life.ย
She approached Kiri, taking her hands in hers. A scowl crossed her face. Four fingers. Kiri held her breath, self-conscious of her extra finger, a tell-tale sign of their human descent. Demon descent.
Ronal gazed down, tilting her head.
She looked up to her daughter, the one whoโd arrived with her. She watched her for a moment, the dreams she saw all those years ago flooding her mind. Something sheโd never speak aloud.
She dropped Kiriโs hands, walking past the children and Jake Sully. โYou are ill fit to live here.โ
โWe can adapt. We can learn.โ He pleaded, desperate to convince them to let his family stay. Desperate to appease the leaders of the clan.ย
โIโm done with war.โ He spoke to Tonowari, quiet and between them. โI just want to keep my family safe.โ
Ronal watched him, not convinced by his words. Behind her, her daughter stepped forward, placing her hand on her mother's shoulder.
โSaโnu.โ The words escaped her lips, and Jake breathed in. He saw you, sitting in Graceโs lap in the lab, running up to her excitedly, lying at the spirit tree, dying.ย
Ronal looked at her daughter, words exchanged between their gazes, she turned to her mate, being met with the same sentiment. A moment passed, and she nodded.ย
โJake Sully and his family will stay with us.โ Tonowari announced, explaining to the clan their duty to teach them their ways of life.ย
Jake sighed in relief, bringing forth a โthank youโ from his family.ย
โOur children, Syuli, Aoโnung, and Tsireya, will show your children what to do.โ
Aoโnung stepped forth, displeased by his father's decision, but silenced.
โCome, we will show you our village!โ Tsireya stepped forward, hand in hand with her sister.ย
You looked to the family that had arrived at your village. You took in their faces.ย
They felt familiar to you. You couldnโt place it.
Tsireya tugged you along through the village, humming as you made your way across the woven walkways. Neytiri and Jake, though focused on taking in their new home, couldnโt help but watch you. The bounce in your step all too familiar.
It was eerie, and they didnโt understand their attribution of you to the little girl theyโd known all those years ago.ย
You became a constant in their life, always around their kids, peeking into their Marui to offer fruits youโd picked with your mother. You were a sweetheart, thoughtful, and kind to their children.ย
Your mother stayed skeptical of her allowance of the foreigners into their clan, fueled by your growing night problems.ย
It had been years since she last caught you sleepwalking. It was a problem when you were a child, roaming around the village in the midst of the night. Many concerned clan members came to her with stories of how you found yourself at the edge of the walkways, staring up into the open sky with a withered look on your face.
You sleep-talked, she discovered after staying up to follow you one night. You spoke garbled sentences, strung together words that didnโt make sense. You spoke in a mix of Naโvi and English.
How you even knew the language? She couldnโt understand.ย
She prayed nightly, seeking for guidance on how to help her sweet baby girl. Again, she was only met with visions of that human child.
It all came to a head one night when Tsireya woke her up, lip jutting out as she whispered that youโd fallen during your walks. Ronal soothed her daughter, telling her to go back to sleep before leaving to find you.ย
You were on your knees, hands clasped together as you spoke in broken prayers, eyes glazed over. You were somewhere she didnโt know.
She was tired of it, worried to death, and lost. So, she did the only thing she could think of. She pulled you into the water carefully, holding you as she rode to the Cove of the Ancestors. You came out of your trance, slowly but surely, but still drowsy and out of it.ย
She was able to coax you to enough consciousness to get you to dive under, connecting with the spirit tree.ย
She doesnโt know what you saw when you did. All she knows is that you hadnโt sleep-walked, or talked since. She knew you were special. A child she would never truly understand, but she loved and cherished you with everything she had.ย
She saw the way the animals around you seemed to move in sync with you, how the luminescence at night pulsed with your breath. She didnโt ask for answers. She loved you and she trusted the Great Mother.ย
But here you were again, standing at the entrance of their Marui, eyes glazed over, staring off into the stars. Ever since theyโd let the Sullys stay, youโd been walking and talking in your sleep again.ย
It wasnโt as intense, thankfully, but it was enough to rouse her or her children from sleep every so often.
They worried for you. They took turns staying up, watching you, easing you back to sleep, careful not to startle you from your trance. During the day, they acted as if nothing was different. They knew you were different, but they loved you nonetheless. You were their daughter, their sister.ย
Aoโnung picked on you, teasing you and going out of his way to bother you. It was his way of showing his love, he joked. He had his moments. Picking you up in his arms and carrying you across the village to your mother for treatment when you hurt yourself on a spear, ignoring your complaints that it was your hand that was injured, not your legs, you could still walk! He ignored you, carefully setting you down in their Marui, lurking by the door until you were bandaged up and ready to leave.
Tsireya was easier. You got along with your younger sister without any problems, aside from the occasional spat that never went anywhere. You two were two peas in a pod. Inseparable. Hands clasped together, arms wrapped around each other. You were always together. Itโs how you thrived.ย
Ronal and Tonowari, they never gave a second thought to the fact that you werenโt theirs, because you were. From the moment theyโd set you down in that cradle, youโd become theirs. Their love for you was strong and unwavering. They called your name out with affection, they weaved you jewelry and clothes with love, they never let you doubt you were loved. They held you as you slept, as you dreamt.
And you dreamt. You dreamt every night. Of faces, of voices, of people you didnโt know, but knew.ย
By the time you woke up, your dreams were in blurry fragments, unable to be pieced together or made sense of.ย
Your family didnโt voice their worries to you. They saw how you flourished when interacting with their new clan members.ย
You were patient with them, guiding them through your way of life like it was the easiest thing to do. You blended in with them, conversing with the children so easily, it was as if youโd been doing it your entire life.ย
You and your siblings, Rotxo, and the Sully kids became somewhat of a friend group. Always together, at least in fragments. You felt as if your family had expanded.
The Sully kids adored you, especially Kiri. It was something about the way the two of you seemed to understand nature that connected you. And perhaps, your mysterious origins.ย
You confided in Kiri, and Kiri alone, about your peculiar birth. The whole clan knew, theyโd witnessed it firsthand, but the story hadnโt made its way to the Sullys. Perhaps it was because it was accepted, no one thought twice about it, you were Ronal and Tonowari's daughter. No one thought to mention that, by biological means, you werenโt.
You told her how you didnโt know your biological parents. No one did. Abandoned at the Spirit tree, you were taken in by Ronal and Tonowari, raised alongside Tsireya, and essentially as Aoโnungโs twin.ย
She told you about her mother, a scientist who was beloved by their clan, who died during the first war against the humans. She was born from her Avatar.
Grace.
You spoke her name before Kiri told you.
An odd look passed her face. It wasn't until it dripped from your chin that you realised a tear had slipped down your cheek.
โI-iโm sorry, I'm just-โ You strung together words, embarrassed and confused by your unconscious outburst. โItโs hard to speak about my birth.โ You blamed it on that. Kiri accepted your words, wrapping her arms around you in an embrace that felt warmer than anything else youโd experienced.
You grew a lot closer to the Sully kids. It was their parents who were odd to be around.
Jake and Neytiri didnโt know what to think of you. You were Ronal and Tonowariโs daughter, Naโvi, born and raised in the reef. Yet when they looked at you, heard your voice, all they could see was that little girl theyโd loved.ย
They were going crazy. That was the only explanation. Driven mad by the destruction of their home and subsequent forced abandonment of it.ย
They wanted to talk to you. They ached to. But it ached just as much to do so. It wasnโt fair to you, their projections of grief onto you.ย
You were kind, you spoke for them when they first arrived, and you went out of your way to welcome them. You taught their children and defended them, taking them in as if they were your blood.ย
But every time they saw you, they were swarmed by a whirlpool of grief and relief.ย
โShe speaks like her.โ Neytiri would whisper one night, when all the children were off in the village attending a celebration, Jake lying next to her.
โYeah.โ Heโd say, eyes locked on Neytiriโs face, watching as she wandered through her mind. Watching as a tear slipped down her cheek.ย
For weeks, they watched you, watching every movement and quirk you exhibited. How you spoke, how you moved through the walkways, your sense of humor. The way you scrunched your nose in a certain way when faced with food you didnโt like. It all pointed back.
Back to her.
That girl.
She haunted them.ย
A ghost following them around. One they thought theyโd put to rest over a decade ago.ย
They had moved on. They grieved her, yes, but they had learned to live without her. Just as they did with every person they lost.ย
But she was back.ย
They thought it was in their heads at first, but the more they saw, the more they became sure.ย
Her body had disappeared, Neytiri recounted to him, a whisper under her breath as they watched you talk to Neteyam and Tsireya from afar. Theyโd left her at the tree like Moโat demanded, abiding by Eywa's wishes. Her body was gone far too quickly to have been natural decomposition, and no creature would dare feast on a body wrapped in Eywaโs arms like she was.
They didnโt question it, too wrapped up in their grief to try and breach the topic. They simply accepted it. Eywa wanted her. She was with Grace, they believed.ย
But she wasnโt.
She was in the reef, living amongst the people, living.ย
They saw you, and they saw her. One in the same.
Theyโd grieved you, and now you stood right in front of them, out of their reach.
It tore them apart. They must have been going insane because you were not that girl they knew, you were not the girl they loved and doted on. But you were.
You couldnโt be.ย
But they watched and they watched and they saw. They saw her.ย
โItโs not her.โ Jakeโs voice was steel. Laced with a hardened grief.ย
โI know what I saw, you know what you see.โ Neytiri defended, unsure of how to explain it.ย
He shook his head, pacing back and forth in the Marui, sliding a hand down his face.ย
โSheโs a Metkayina! Sheโs Ronal and Tonowaiโs daughter! That's it.โ He spoke so certainly, as if he were trying to convince himself.
The two breathed heavily, working through their mind and hearts to get their words. Logic wasnโt making sense, but they tried to cling to it, both of them in different ways.ย
โRonal didnโt give birth to her, nor did Tonowair father her.โ Neytiris' words were heavy, like steel and stone. โA gift from Eywa, Ronal calls her.โ
Their eyes met.ย
At this point, they were haunted less by you and more by the fact that you were back. It wasnโt easy mourning someone, learning to accept their death after having grown to love them so fiercely, to learn how to live without them. All of that, only for them to appear again.ย
All those walls theyโd built, all the strength theyโd planted in their grief, it was crumbling, the base of it all blowing away like sand in the wind.ย
It almost hurt more than the grief itself.ย
They simmered in it for weeks, speaking through glances and hushed whispers.ย
It was quiet that day. Jake was making his rounds through the village when he heard it. The humming. Not just the humming but the tune.
Slowly, he rounded the corner, peaking around the Marui, eyes landing on you sitting on the edge of the walkway, legs dangling from an opening. You sat there, beading an arm piece as you hummed.
You hummed the lullaby Jake had used to sing that girl to sleep. The lullaby from Earth.
He felt his chest crack open. He wanted to say something, to reach out and speak to you-
โSempu!โ You called out, spotting Tonowari walk up from another direction. Wordlessly, you held up your work for him, a smile spreading across your face as he approached and knelt down.
โAh, this is great work, my little โitetsyip.โ He leaned in, hand reaching up to pull it closer to examine it. He grinned, nodding towards you. โYou are an exceptional crafter.โ
Jake watched the scene, brows furrowing, a weight resting in his chest.ย
You rolled your eyes. โOh, bah! You and Mother praise me far too much.โย
Tonowair simply chuckled, his hand moving to cradle your cheek as you grinned at him.ย
โNo, we simply see how great you are.โ
Jake started to notice more after that. He watched not just you, but your life. How you wandered freely through the village, greeting your clan members eagerly, your cheerfulness returned. You were surrounded by kids your age, all watching you with a mix of adoration and respect. You bonded with your siblings, giggling over inside jokes and banter.ย
Your parents were doting. They didnโt spoil you; they made sure you were responsible and self-aware, but they loved you, and they showed it. The more he watched, the more Neytiri did too; perhaps sheโd been watching the full scene the whole time.
You werenโt alone.
You smiled so widely, and you never had to beg, you never had to work for attention or affection. You were accepted wholeheartedly.ย
You had everything you wanted here, Neytiri and Jake realized. You had everything they wanted to give you, and you didnโt have any barriers. You werenโt human or parentless. You moved about freely. You werenโt raised to expect to come second, third, or fourth place.ย
Neytiri and Jake had wanted to give you that life. But they couldnโt. They never could.
The Great Mother didnโt fulfill their desires to be the one to love you; she gave you what you needed. She gave you the opportunity to live.ย
It was bittersweet. You had the life you wanted. You were loved.ย
Just not by them.ย
And that was ok.ย
Theyโd lived their lives, theyโd found happiness, a family, and they were good.ย
Youโd found what you needed, even if it wasnโt with them.ย
i usually possess great love and concern for the world and the people in it. usually my worldview is that I want people to be healthy and happy and treated with great tenderness. usually i think there is nothing more important than making the world a better place for the humans and creatures in it. none of this applies when my stomach hurts tho. atm i have a tummy ache and im fantasizing about pushing u into traffic