Haru 🌻

Hello, I'm Haru. Life sometimes gonna be "Hard" and seems like there's no hope. But, I just wanna prove at least, prove to myself that I can love myself better than the last day I used to hate myself.

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Halo Diri 🌻😆;

Ga kerasa skrg udh jam 23.07 WITA yaaa. Krg lbh 1 jam dari skrg 2025 bakalan undur diri dan 2026 bakalan dtg menghampiri. Alhamdulillah 1 tahun lg udh lwt yaaa diri. Km kuat bgt tahuuu, 1 rahun lg udh km lewatin. Pasti ngga mudah yaaa. Tp km bisaaaa, keren bgt kamuuu. Tahun ini byk bgt kejadian2 yg bikin km belajar kyknya yaa. Mungkin km belum sembuh, belum pulih, tp aku tahu km udh berusaha. Km harus lbh sayang sm dirimu lagi yaaa. Kalau bukan kamu, siapa lagi. Bahagiaaa yaaa diri. Peluk hangat dan erat dari aku buat kamu; - Samarinda, 31 Des 2025 😁✌🏽

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Halooo Hariii, gmana kabarnyaaa. Udh lamaaa bgt ga nyapa km di platform ini yaaa. Oyaaa aku punyaa goodnews buat km hehe. Tepatnya kemarin, Sabtu 31 Mei 2025, km udh ngelakuin sesuatu yg hebattt bgt. Km tahu apaa? Ayo tebakkk, hehe. Iyaaa, jd kmrn km udh beraniin diri buat berusaha sembuh. Km mulai konseling lg sm Kak Rio, psikolog hehe. Walaupun mungkin kedepannya ga mudah, aku harap km ttp kuat yaaaa buat sembuhnyaaa hehe. Krn kata kak Rio mungkin dipertemuan2 berikutnya bakalan ada fase yg ga mudah buat km, krn kamu harus nginget lagi momen2 dibelakang yg kadang nyakitin km. Tp aku percaya kamu kuattt kokkk hehe. Buktinya, km masih bernafas smpi skrg kannn hehe. Semangatttt, peluk hangat dan erat dari akuuu buat kamuuu 🤗🌻

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Selamat datang 2024

Hallo Hari,

Gmana kabarnya? Aku harap kamu baik2 aja yaaa. Oiyaa tahu nggak ini hari apa? Ini hari pertama kamu di tahun 2024 hehe. Aku cm mau bilang makasi yaaa, makasi kamu udah kuat di tahun sebelumnya, makasi kamu udah berjuang buat bertahan di tahun sebelumnya. Aku harap kamu tetep kuat ya Hari di tahun 2024 ini. Walaupun nanti ada masalah atau apapun itu, jgn sungkan ya buat ceritain keluh kesahmu sm org di sekitarmu atau sm ak jg gpp hehe. Sini, biar aku peluk kamu, hehe sebuah pelukan erat dan hangat dari aku 🤗.

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One big family

I love how these songs were written. In the lyrics there were written "Don't you see the similarities between us, you look like me, those eyes, lips, can't deny". In the song, there were not written about the differences between us but the similarities even though we were not blood related. I want to write my feelings right now, actually i got a little bit hurt bcs someone word. I knew it's a lil bit childish and I knew that it's not related enough to the Maher Zein's song - One big family but here we go.

At that time, i was in my sister's booth stand. Yeah, she and her husband sold an artistic plants (lol sorry i don't know what the exact english name for "tanaman hias" and i'm to lazy to translate it with google translate). And my sister had a neighbour in her stand and we will name her with Mrs. R. So, Mrs. R approaching me with my sister and suddenly asking about who i am. And my sister told her that i am her younger brother. And not a long time passed, she asking again about who really are i am. I knew that these referimg to the question, is me really my younger brother' sister? Because we don't look the same. And my sister explain that we are half siblings with different father.

I knew that i a lil bit childish for getting a lil bit hurt bcs of Mrs. R questioning. But, Please people, before you curiousing something and asking and saying anything, please be kind, thank you, because it may be hurting someone even just a little 😊

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A Man called Otto

Bagusssss banget ceritanya, cerita tentang Pria bernama Otto ini beneran bagus banget hehe, aku entah kenapa jadi keinget sm pikiran2 jelek ku ttg "Suicidal Thought" yg dulu pernah muncul sesekali. Iya, alhamdulillah Hari bisa bertahan ya sampai sekarang hehe, jangan pikirin yg macem2 lagi ya Har. Mungkin kamu kadang berpikir kalau km nggak ada gunanya hidup, nggak punya masa depan, tapi km harus inget Har, Hidup kamu itu berharga. I hope you would find the meaning of your life someday ☺. Semangat Hariiiii, aku tahu km pasti bisa bertahan buat besok, besoknya lagi, dan besok besoknya terus hehe 🤗

Peluk dan salam hangat dari aku,

Hari

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Kyknya dulu pertama kali deket sm Ipeh wkt kita ikut ukm karate brg ya Peh dan Lagu ini kyknya salah satu lagu yg mau kita cover brg anak2 ya Peh, hehe tp gk jadi2 smpi skrg wkwkwk. Makasi ya Peh buat coverannya hehe, semangat, izin taruh di tumblr ya videonya 😁

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Selamat tahun baru 2023 ya Har. Tahun kemarin adalah tahun yg kayak roller coaster ya buat kamu hehe. Mulai dari alhamdulillah dapetin kerjaan baru stlh sekian lama, bisa kasih Mamak uang hasil gajimu buat pertama kalinya walaupun masih sedikit bgt hehe, kasih Mamak sm Bapak hp, bisa ngetreat diri km dengan lebih baik lagi dibanding tajun kemarin hehe (cheating day), dapetin temen2 baru, dan hal2 baru lainnya.

Aku cuma mau bilang, "makasi ya Har udah bertahan, udah kuat sampai detik ini, sampai tahun ini. Aku harap km bisa kuat lagi, bertahan lagi di tahun baru ini dan tahun2 lainnya ya Har. Peluk hangat dari aku, dirimu di tahun baru ini 🥰

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Selamat ulang tahun Ri,

Hehe, nggak kerasa udah 26 tahun aja ya. Oya, ini hadiah pertama mu ya buat ulang tahun kali ini wkwkwk, iya Fuyunghai. Fuyunghai seharga 40.000 yang gede banget porsinya, bisa buat makan 4=5 orang kali ya hehe.

Oya, gmana kabarmu Ri? Aku harap2 km baik2 aja ya. Gmana, masih sering ngerasa sedih? Hehe, itu normal kok Ri, tp jangan sering2 ya kalau bisa. Kamu masij bingung sm tujuammu ya? Tujuan kamu hidup iti sebenernya apa? Hehe, tp aku yakin suatu saat nanti kamu pasti bisa menemukan jawabannya. Kamu harus bertahan ya Har, kalau kamu belum bisa bertaham buat dirimu sendiri, kami harus bertahan buat Mamak. Semangat ya Har, aku disini buat kamu hehe. Semangatttt 😁

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Selamat Hari Kesehatan Mental Sedunia Ri hehe.

Halo Ri, nggak kerasa ya udah 2 tahun lbh ini km pertama kali datang ke dr. Eka hehe. Aku inget dulu kamu minta ke psikiater karena udah nggak kuat lagi di h+3 lebaran tahun 2020. Itu juga sebenernya didesak kan Ri sm orang2 rumah. Kamu sempat ditanyain kenapa dan kamu cuma bisa nangis Ri dan akhirnya kamu minta untuk berobat. Sebenernya udah cukup lama ya Ri, km dulu nyoba ngeberaniin diri buat ke Profesional ttg masalah mentalmu ini. Km sadar kalau ada yg nggak beres sm kamu, tp kamu takut untuk ngungkapinnya, takut kalau km mmg benar2 sakit. Nggak kerasa ya Ri, udah kurang lebih 2 tahun ini kamu udah rutin minum obat, walaupun sering lupanya. Aku inget dulu gmana seringnya km ngantukkk abis minum obat di pagi hari, sampai sering banget kamu ditegur sm Bapak dan hal itu buat kamu sedikit sedih dan kecewa. Hehe, mungkin karena orang rumah belum ngerti ya Ri, jadi aabar ya. Semangat ya Ri, walaupun terkadang km inget dulu, kamu sembunyi2 buat berobat, biar gk ketahuan orang rumah. Kamu seringnya izin keluar, tp sebenernya ke rumah sakit buat berobat hehe. Tp skrg untungnya udah nggak ya Ri hehe.

Oya Ri, Aku mau bilang makasi Ri,

Makasi udah mau bertahan,

Makasi udah mau tetap ada disini,

Makasi ya Ri.

Aku harap kamu tetep bisa kuat ya Ri ngelawan pikiran2 buruk di kepalamu.

Aku harap kamu bisa kuat ya Ri untuk bertahan buat hari esok dan esoknya lagi.

Sini aku peluk Ri hehe, semangatttt Hari 😁

#mentalhealthday #mentalhealthmatter #selamatharikesehatanmentalsedunia

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Halo Hari,

Gmana kabarmu, aku harap kamu baik2 saja ya. Oya tahu nggak hari ino ada kejadian seru apa? Hehe, nggak seru sih. Hanya, hari ini aku merasa bangga sama kamu Har. Hari, ini kamu ngerjain 365 sampel di visco 40. Iya, emang nggak terlalu banyak sih, tapi aku bangga karena kamu udah mau berusaha hehe, apalagi tadi yang kemu kerjakan, 7 dari 9 bakinya sampel Darma Henwa yang mana agak susah untuk ditembak. Makasi ya Har karena udah nggak nyerah hari ini, i'm so proud of you 😁

#harikuat

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Today one of my sister (actually my niece, i feel so old wkwkwk) is celebrating her birthday. Happy Birthday Mbak Sasa, i hope in your sweet seventeenth today you will be a better person and always be happy in your life and got the university and department that you want hehe 😁😁😁😁

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Selasa, 6 September 2022

Nggak tahu kenapa malam ini terasa sepiiii banget.

Nggak tahu kenapa malam ini bingung banget mau ngapain

Bingung, iyaaa

Dan akhirnya Har, tadi aku ngebuka satu per satu koleksi fotomu di ig juga fb, sampai bosen hehe.

Dan akhirnya Har, tadi aku buka video2 mu yang sempet km buat di youtube. Dan menyadari oh iya ya dulu aku bisa seenergik ini, bisa seceria ini.

Apa karena waktu, km mulai berubah Har? Apa karena yg dibilang orang2 masa pendewasaan? Apa karena km sedang ada di fase quarter life crisis?

Aku jg blm tahu jawabannya....

Tp yang aku tahu adalah gpp kok terkadang sedih, menangis, ngerasa sendiri, gpp. Tp jangan lupa utk bangkit ya Har. Kamu harus bertahan, biar bisa makan bakso yg enak di depan gang. Kamu harus bertahan, karena masih ada pantai2 yg blm km kunjungi. Kamu harus bertahan, karena masih ada kolam renang yg siap km selami hehe. Km harus bertahan walaupun mungkin hanya utk hal2 yang dibilang orang sekecil itu dan seenggak penting itu menurut mereka.

#kitakuat

#bertahan

#lagibelajarnulisceritanya

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Haloooo Ri, hehe

4 September 2022,

Hari ini kamu bingung banget mau ngelakuin apa, bingung banget harus kemana, dan bingung banget harus pergi sama siapa.

Dan ternyata, iyaa kamu pergi dengan dirimu sendiri hari ini.

Merasakan ayam chicken firenya arizona yg waktu itu kamu mau Ri, sama jalan2 di pantai rutan, sampai gara2 saking bingungnya akhirnya kamu pergi shalat maghrib ke masjid dekat penyetan hidden gem mu. Kamu katakan hidden gem karena dengan 15.000 kamu sudah dapat nasi telur dadar dan hati ampela.

Mungkin hari ini kamu sadar, ternyata sendiri itu tidak selalu menyedihkan. Tetap semangat Hariiii 😁. Salam dan peluk dari dirimu

#datewithmyself

#jalan2sendiri

#latihanmenulis

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Hating myself less

Hi, Day.

It's me, how's the world going around you? It's pretty good or the other one? I knew that maybe you still the same like before. You still hating yourself for not being the best of you right now and many other reason. But, I have a good news for you. It's your decision to believe me or not. But, I just wanna tell you that in the long future you could less hating yourself. In the long future you could accept and start to loving yourself more than you ever been imagine before. Do you trust me? Yeah, I knew that it's not gonna be a short journeys, it takes a long path and it's gonna be pretty hard for you. But, do you know? I trust you, I trust that you could pass this, i knew that you could go through all of this.

From you in the future,

Day

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Wonderland

Welcome to wonderland....

When I wrote this note, I was just listening to Anson Seabra's song - welcome to wonderland.

I used to think about my wonderland that I dreamed. I'm not sure if it was my dream or just my imagination that I want to be in the real world. I'm still remember when I was in the elementary school. I've dreaming about the ice-cream land, when the land is made of ice-cream and the river was made from chocolate and there was a huge scoop of ice-cream strawberry-vanilla that I climbed. That was one of my favorites dream that I've ever dreamed and also that I still remembered until now.

Now, I knew that I was one of the young adult in this world. There was so many path that I have to choose and there was also so many dream that I want to achieve in my future. And also there was also so many dreams that I know that keep degrading in my life since my age keeps adding.

But, Day I want you (if you someday open your this Tumblr) in your bad day, I want you you always remember that I'm still in here, i know that you always have peoples that you can rely on. And there was so many dreams that you can achieve in the future. So, push your lips and smile :)

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#day14 #bedtimestory

At that time, I think used to be in love with this guy. Maybe it's not love, it just that I like him in unusual way than I like the other. I remember when the night, we went around the town after the night movie. I remember when his helmet that I bought from my lab for him was broken in the side, so it's keeping out of their place and makes it looks like an elephant's ear. And I remember at that time also, the one women near at the gas station suddenly catching us with her motorcycle just for seeing her laugh at us because your helmet. I'm still laughing if I remember at that time.

I like you because. You're the first person that angry for me when my menu that I order didn't serve after 1 hour waiting. You're the first person that ask me to go out around the city. And you're also the person that ask me to join into your group chat's friends in Ramadhan just because it's easier for me to catching up to breaking my fast with you and your friends. Maybe that's just some cliche reasons that I have because until know I'm still don't know why I like you.

At that night, I remember that you suddenly ask me if I fell in love with one of my friends. I know you're just joking. I said yes at that time, but maybe that's not love I add.

And until know I know that it just me that feels different for you and maybe until end you will never now. But, I just want a say thanks for being one of my friends that stay still until I've back to my hometown.

POV: from the view of the girls who pursue her dreams in the big city and it comes when the time she has to back to her hometown

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