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My other blog is now getting followed by a few of my classmates, which sucks... a lot. so yeah, this is my new one. i post stuff that i dont want my whole damn school to know.

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So I've been researching Columbine for 6 years now...

doesn't even feel like it. 

I suddenly felt understood in a way. It seemed like there was hope, and yes, that hope was killing everyone + myself. It made me feel kind of warm inside when I thought about it; it could all be over in a very short time, and I would've even had my 15 minutes of glory, plus I would be remembered and not forgotten, like I felt I would be as soon as I turned my back. 

I didn't care much about anything anymore. I felt school and education was a waste of time, since we could live without it, like animals. Animals seemed so perfect to me, and way smarter than people. I began to like them way more than people. I even became a vegetarian. The more I realised how bad people treat their fellow beings and each other, the more I started to hate them. 

But back to school. Wasting my time sitting there on my ass listening to pointless crap the teachers (badly) preached, and getting harrassed every single minute I was on the schoolground, and not being able to run from it made me go insane. 

But still, everytime I had this warmth inside of me, because I knew it would all be over soon. I planned everything out; I drew an attack plan, collected firecrackers to make bombs with their gun powder, read everything about guns I could find, studied Eric's and Dylan's plans and so on. The only reason I and many others are still alive is that I couldn't get a gun. I am kind of thankful for that now because life is getting a little better for me. Depression's still there, and I still get suicidal thoughts but all in all it's better now. 

Somehow Columbine helped me to stay calm and get through high school. It even made me find new friends and learn better English. Still it a was a very painful time in my life. I just wish no one would be pushed into this situation. 

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haven’t seen this one.

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why do you ask yourself stuff?

because no one else does.

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So I put Eric's "speach" if you will to the start of "Waste". Think it fits quite well :)

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the fuck am i even doing with my life? seems like i'm failing school.. big time. economics are really my thing... NOT.

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