âkarma exists yeah, thatâs why youâve crashed and youâre further behind than you were before you accidentally hit me.â itâs only briefly that such a streak comes out when heâs back with his boys. partially because heâs got a title to uphold, not one set for himself but one that seemed to come with the territory. being the eldest among seven and the oddly proclaimed the calmest one. heâs sunk into the role more times than he can remember and although he does let loose itâs not as frequently and not like this. mark is playful but with the memory of his position lingering in the back of his mind. the others are just as competitive if not more than him so heâs got that streak to keep under wraps.
times like this, lax as the atmosphere is he lets it slip out in streams, words and movements. all feeling free with each nudge and turn of his body to match the car on the screen. he doesnât care much if he wins though his concentration might say otherwise. itâs just the rush. not from the game and not really from the excitement, but the freedom of it all. he gets pieces of his personality to escape around certain people and thatâs probably better than all at once. he laps jinhwanâs car again and suddenly heâs laughing and heâs sure. itâs definitely better like this.
âif you wanna be a master at something putting me to sleep is definitely not the way to go. I can knock out on will alone.â jinhwan probably could too, itâs probably a skill that all of them acquire. through nights like this when they force themselves open for no reason but to let their buzzes die. to other nights when theyâve got to force the tired out and it waits on the horizon to be called. welcomed and summoned back. mark doesnât feel it yet, but maybe thatâs just the laughter keeping him up.Â
âYou said it not me. I said the others were kids.â Maybe thatâs another reason heâs still awake. Jinhwanâs younger than him but heâs got the same titles sitting in his mind. Maybe not of the same caliber but itâs still there and even when Jinhwan frowns and Markâs car crosses the line the only thing he feels is amusement of a different kind. Smug and without regret. âI had to steal a couple wins, the boys donât like losing. Iâll teach you next round promise.â
âYeah, but see hyung,â This isnât exactly something to be arguing about, but itâs that time of the night now. Now that Jinhwanâs been somewhat beat at a game that heâs supposed to be learning how to beat others at. Now that his trust has been dramatically damaged--dramatically because heâs thinking of all the ways this cold have gone well for him and resenting Mark just a little bit for it. But at the same time, he knows itâs just going to pass over him like anything else does. Like everything else should, but sadly, not everything in this life lightly hits.Â
Jinhwanâs found that unfortunately, most of what hits him in life has been nothing but a beating down, again and again. How is he still standing? Sheer--what he likes to call the stupid hope that things eventually get better. Thatâs worked so far, he wonât lie. Itâs worked so well, that when he has the chance to let things slide--Jinwhan doesnât hesitate. He lets it be, just like the movement of his body going lax against the back of the couch and this argument at the tip of his tongue, sounding nothing but amused when it finally comes out. âWhen you put it like that, it sounded like you were experiencing it and so, yâknow, made it sound like Iâm the kid trying to play you here.âÂ
Eyebrows are arched as he stares at the tv screen. âI mean, you should learn how to word things.â He nods to himself, softly, mouth curled around a small pout. Then heâs pointing his controller to the screen still displaying bits of the game, âLike how you said youâd help me learn but really meant youâll beat me until I learn.â Now this, this is half amused half bitter and it must come out as such. Either way, Jinhwanâs learned his lesson alright.Â
âSuch a crooked man.â He rises off the couch, pulls on the ends of his shirt before padding along the living room to find the kitchen. Itâs given him the need for a snack, even if he knows he shouldnât--not this late. But heâll compensate with schedules and more than a few workouts during the rest of the week, therefore. Heâll allow himself a bit of indulgence.Â